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compass96 · 9 months

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Completely distraught to learn that one of my favourite fanfic authors passed away. And that it was over a year ago. Rest in peace Vixen_Tail. Your fics were spectacular. Seeing an email with your name on it filled me so much joy. So sad that I can't read more of your writing but you gifted the world so many amazing words. Over 2 million words on one story alone, in fact! Thank you for everything you wrote.

#deceased author #I absolutely adored everything they wrote #Deja vu no jutsu #Russian Roulette #katekyo hitman reborn #I feel like my heart is being ripped apart #It just feels so unexpected #they were a regular author although they took breaks never for so long though #Went to check if it was a technical problem preventing me from getting their email #Then saw the note on their profile #Rest in peace #We mourn your silence #Have been crying since I saw it

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augusts-sketchbook · 9 months

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"....you’re a good person, and I like you. And I’m sure a quiet and peaceful life is waiting for you out there."

#fan art #american arcadia #trevor hills #man this scene!! this scene!! i have been thinking about this non stop for the last four days #this scene stands out in particular for me #genuinely made me cry #hard to explain without spoilers but yeah #had to draw this scene it's been in my head ever since i heard him play #as soon as i saw Trevor had a piano i was like...thats gonna come back later on ajd ruin me and i was right!!!#:')

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eliks-edge · 1 year

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I love the idea of a death wizard who parallels Malistaire pre-Sylvia’s death working together with Cyrus so much. Cyrus sees his brother in this child and it hurts because he misses his brother so much but it also worries him deeply. The wizard and Malistaire are so similar he can only hope that the trauma the wizard will have to live with after dragonspyre (and even more so after future worlds) will not make them into the man Malistaire is now. And really and truly, Malistaire is just a man overrun with grief over a loved one, which could so easily happen to the wizard. I think it would so interesting to see a villain arc very similar to Malistaires with the wizard

#i have so many thoughts ok #and you do loose people throughout the course of the game!!#azteca! dyvim! (briefly)#i’m sure there are others it’s just been awhile since i’ve played through #wizard villain arc would be so good ok #and i just love the idea of cyrus and the wizard forming a little bit of a found family connection post-dragonspyre #they both need it tbh #i fully imagine my wizard coming to cyrus post-azteca and crying in his tower #a myth wizard canonically has more angst than this possible death wizard in general but tbh i think playing as any of the spirit classes #in the first arc is great #just because the three main-ish characters of that arc are quite literally the teachers of those schools #my main wizard is life and i absolutely think Cyrus saw some of Sylvia’s traits in her #ANYWAYS #rant over #wiz101 #wizard101 #wizzy101 #cyrus drake #malistaire

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midnightmah07 · 2 months

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NOOOOOOO PLEASE I WANNA MEET FALENA PLEASE LEONA TAKE ME TO THE PALACE I'LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT PLS IM ON MY KNESS

#💙! mah's gameplay #I'm crying i hate him so much #also lemme just say me having this card still feels like a dream #i've been wanting this card ever since i first saw it #I can't believe i finally have it #like yeah i went broke in order to have it BUT I HAVE IT

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dazais-guardian-angel · 6 months

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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....

#bungou stray dogs #been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people #first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now #he was groomed since childhood just like dazai #but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there #and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong #but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself #which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong #and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO #where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself #and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess #and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just #One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall #he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma #and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc #it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man #both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation #i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda #and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death #oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)

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emelinstriker · 10 months

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bro i'm actually fuckin crying

i was having anxiety the entire night over more random people from the other blog pulling up in my inbox and harassing me over shit i've already explained, but i woke up to like 4 messages and all rather wholesome and aren't accusing me

the fact that i haven't cried a single fuckin time the past 1-2 weeks of me knowing about this bullshit and just bottled it all up- and it just all comes all crashing the fuck down after seeing the sudden overwhelming support of people that actually read and understand context

it's literally only 6am here and i'm bawling my eyes out

i love every single one of you who isn't blindly jumping in on the fuckin hate train i wasn't even supposed to know about :'D

will be responding to them once i'm back in my room after school! fghfndghdfg already read through them tho, but i gotta go in a bit and can't type it all out hgfdgnfdhgnhdfg

#emelin qna #esau qna #been practically crying for an entire hour at this point #the entire fucking time i felt like the only ones defending me were my friends i talked in vc with #and they all got pissed the more we saw of this #like we talked about the entire thing since the start and i was even going to post an entire response to the first vague rant #to clarify things and tag the blog involved since they didn't tag me #i literally still have the entire finished response in my drafts #but then the 2nd rant dropped and i saw how many people were just randomly agreeing with them fully #even when you could literally tell they never even investigated anything themselves #even people that used to interact with me decided to blindly join in #again- without anyone telling me about it even happening #and they're probably still looking for excuses to rant on me about “pedophilia” and “slaves” when i've literally already clarified shit #which is why i said that at this point the topic has hit a brickwall #cuz at this point they're just invalidating my own points just so they get more validation themselves #november incident

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moonilit · 1 year

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Aww the side story of the barbie (not date) but from Shouta’s POV, this is the cutest by @cyanoscarlet

Alliance in Pink - Side Stories, First art

#They are cute your honor #I might make some sketches for clive and dion and terrace but that will have to wait a little #Dani punched me in the guts my hands are shaky (in a good way) 😭#Clive seeing them holding hands: HE IS HOLDING HAND WITH A GIRL!! He didn’t tell me he is on holding hands terms??#Dion: calm down ifrit im sure he knows what he is doing #Clive head in hands and devastated : you don’t understand *cry*#Jill will call the next day and ask Joshua to please talk to clive because he have been laying on the kitchen floor since he got back #Clive with the horrific mortified ordeal of kids growing up #If he hold hands now what next??? Kiss on the head?? Sharing a seat?? *gasp* does he know what that means??#[clive sees Jote kiss at the bus station]#*clive pass out*#This fic is about dion getting first seat at clive’s crisis of grasping the reality his little brother is older than 10 #It doesn’t help both have the brain of a nugget #Terrance really saw clive and thought ‘he should be my husband’s friend’#joshua rosfield #dion lesage #sir terence #clive rosfield #jote #ffxvi #final fantasy xvi

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meownotgood · 1 year

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cannot believe it's been a whole year since this trailer changed the trajectory of my life forever

#these screenshots defined me #and they still do #how has it... been a whole year since that trailer....#soon it'll be a whole year since chainsaw man...#what's going on... time is an illusion... it felt like yesterday...#I really saw him a whole year ago?#this is bad... this makes me miss aki even more now #crying right now #I have such vivid memories of staying up late cause I couldn't sleep cause I was so excited #and then the screencap on the left got leaked early and I #I never lost my mind so fast in my life I had to go roll around on the floor for a while to find it again #my husband is so beautiful!!!#uuugg I can't wait to see him again cause... I'll feel that excited feeling again #just thinking about it makes me giddy lol #stammering on about aki I'm very ill today #aki <3

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sneaky-snake-907 · 2 months

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This sounds so wrong out of context.

#the book of bill spoilers #the billble spoilers #tbob spoilers #spoilers in the tags too #bill cipher #like. i thought he was either fucking off in the statue or he reincarnated into the book #one minute i'm laughing about how fitting of a prison therapy is for that menace #and then i notice the crack. i thought they knitted him something in the support group until i saw the next picture #then i went back to the axolotl page #he presented himself as such a large threat i just didn't think he could actually get hurt #i rarely encounter media that makes me cry #let alone media where i have to take a cry break before i can finish it #but he's been my favorite GF character and one of my favorite characters in general since i was 11 so i'm obviously biased #[personal tag here]

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solace-seekers · 3 months

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screaming into the void <3

#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn #we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey #he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve #he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday #and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them #and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense #i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor #he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally #he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok #and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning #and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him #to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing #but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday #he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight #i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning #and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because #this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn #i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say #i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense #and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year #but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better #for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows #he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand #my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary #cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it #i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn

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ihamtmus · 3 months

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I SAW MY NEPHEW FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY 😍😍🥹🥹😭🥹😭😍😍💗💗🥹💖🥹🥰😍💖🥰💕

#i only saw him in photos and videos before omg 😭🙏🥹#it's been 8 days since he was born and he's the CUTEST little tiny baby i'm gonna cry #i didn't expect to see him so early!!#my sister and her husband didn't want anyone to visit for the first couple of weeks or so #but today is my sister's birthday #and she doesn't have the time to talk on the phone much these days obviously and so i didn't even think i'd manage to talk to her today #but suddenly she called and asked if i wanted to come see her and go for a short walk with her!!!#i did and it was wonderful #i also bought them the things they needed so that they don't have to go to the shop #ahhh i'm so happy #my nephew is the most precious baby and my sister is amazing and her husband is super sweet #i love them!!!!#personal #my post

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wayfayrr · 3 months

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I hope life eases up soon man, take care of yourself

Thanks mate <3

stuff's starting to gradually get better now, actually let myself feel feelings after bottling them till it popped

just kinda turns out that throwing yourself into something so you're numb to the other things can really burn you out :') So I'm trying to find motivation to write and answer asks again, I'm hoping it'll be soon but idk atp

#vent in the tags - so warning ig #got home from uni #have been in fight/flight mode since #turns out that fucking saps your energy incredibly fast #accepting that my mother and I's relationship is broken beyond any repair is oddly helping though #she's proven that she doesn't see me as an individual well and truly now #so I can put the energy back into myself instead which is meh #processing that alongside my insanely fucked up grief hasn't been fun at all.#my emotions about it have been out of wack since she saw me crying and grieving a friend and assumed it was anger towards her #like I'm fucking grieving a friend I found out has recently died - do you think I'm not going to cry?#but no just assume its me being angry towards you and not me having feelings. Sure. *fine* I'll just kill my ability to feel for a bit #so I threw myself into the lu fandom again till burn out #and now I've been on off crying for a week #feeling fragile as shit #but Improving #somehow #I think #*maybe*#don't know what other personal event could happen now to be worse honestly #last 8 months have been a fucking rollercoaster #then when I manage to get back up #put myself back together #have a little breather #get immediatly broken back down #I just want a fucking hug man #and perhaps to be told that I'm worth something #I don't know #nothing really feels all that good to me anymore #but I'm holding on through it #there's light at the end of the tunnel

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fu-cough · 9 months

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home // adrien agreste + taylor swift lyrics pt. 2

- dear reader, dear john, seven, marjorie, my tears ricochet

#i put adrien's portraits with his mother and his father did u get it did u get it #i was trying to find portraits of them and then i saw these #im so aurhgnfbgbr for this boy's family #'what are you doing this new year's eve??!!'#'crying for my blorbo'#I still have SO MANY of these in my drafts that i did at 4am last night #yes i did the first part at 3am and spent two hours organizing it so what #i am ever so consumed by my son #im enjoying this way too much lol #oh music what a piece of art #miraculous ladybug #Taylor swift #Adrien agreste #sorry if the images are bad quality :(#me playing with dark and yellow colors?? 👀#this has been in my drafts since the new year's and my tags are outdated lol

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that-was-anticlimactic · 5 months

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one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap #bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU #lol idk why my head is so bad today #the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it #i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!!#but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do #oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse #sorry guys needed to rant #the inadequacy was strong today #something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like #i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me.#and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but #my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m #missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids #who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i’m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me #for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just—#sorry #that felt good actually #idk what came over me #imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags #sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh #okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is

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canonically-a-genloser · 6 months

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You should stop me from possibly killing off Bear

THE FUCK I SHOULD HES TOO SWEET TO DIE

#sayu <3 #it genuinely depends on his story arc #a satisfying ending does not mean a happy one /ref #if it benefits the story i cannot stop u but i will cry #theee baby boy ever (i say gesturing vaguely to every clone oc u have created)#ALSO BTW I SAW YOUR POST I SHOULD MAKE A NEW OC AND WE SHOULD PUT HIM IN A SITUATIONSHIP OR SOMETHING #-WITH ONE OF YOUR OCS #it would be a little funny #its been ages since i made a star wars oc TAKE ME HOMEEEE COUNTRY ROADSSS

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totheidiot · 6 months

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i hate that the solar eclipse just now serves as a reminder that nobody loves me.

#🍂 arian's shit #IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING HAPPENED. but yeah #i will always think of the solar eclipse i witnessed and think about that #two people one of them my friend the other i thought i could consider my friend but HE PROBABLY DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT.#they both talked and did their things and laughed and they are so damn close to each other it almost made me cry and reminded me that #it was such a profound moment too when i realized what was going on #they were in another world that didn't have me and i get that. i do. they have known each other for a year and i abruptly showed up #two months ago and one of them we are getting close she likes me around #at least i think #the other one he is nice he is supposed to be like this he is nice to everyone that is who he is #so what is happening: he is completely indifferent to me. most he did was remember my name and face. but he is nice.#i like them both so so much it almosg does hurt when i stood there awkwardly almost like i was intruding #and i realized that i have never not been close to anyone #no acquaintances all the friendships i have had they sre the reason why i live and i know that they live for me too #we have known each other since kindergarten. they held my face and cried and told me that i was love when i was leaving for the last time #they love me. i am sure of it.#but now i don't have anyone near whom i do love. people don't love me. i used to be love.#it also hurts that i am Average Person In The World #i am not funny. i do not have unique quirks. i do not have a single talent.#all i am good for is saying the wrong things all time.#even in my old life i was someone. someone who isn't the same as the person who saw the solar eclipse today and felt all this #i was the idiot. I WAS THE IDIOT. i was the writer person.#i don't feel like any of these things now. they had a thing in common: their capacity to love and be loved.#i love very easily but i am not an easy person to love.#vent post #god this is such a small little thing i am the most pathetic thing in the world #feel free to scroll away don't even read this shit #arian contemplates his universe

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