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Completely distraught to learn that one of my favourite fanfic authors passed away. And that it was over a year ago. Rest in peace Vixen_Tail. Your fics were spectacular. Seeing an email with your name on it filled me so much joy. So sad that I can't read more of your writing but you gifted the world so many amazing words. Over 2 million words on one story alone, in fact! Thank you for everything you wrote.
#deceased author#I absolutely adored everything they wrote#Deja vu no jutsu#Russian Roulette#katekyo hitman reborn#I feel like my heart is being ripped apart#It just feels so unexpected#they were a regular author although they took breaks never for so long though#Went to check if it was a technical problem preventing me from getting their email#Then saw the note on their profile#Rest in peace#We mourn your silence#Have been crying since I saw it
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RIP Timothy West (20.10.1934 - 12.11.2024)
"We met when we were cast with small parts in that really boring play, so had both brought the crossword to stop us going mad. We saw each other across the rehearsal room doing it, so decided to sit together. Then we couldn’t record because of the strike one day so we went to the cinema, Pru and I, to see The Grass is Greener with Cary Grant and Deborah Kerr. The show was cancelled, but a bit later Pru sent me a card saying ‘they’re reviving that terrible play, are you in it?’ I wasn’t but we started writing to each other then."
"Humour is vital, and respect for what people do and what people think. Kindness is important, and we’ve always had the same humour, laughed at the same things, been interested in the same things, got cross about the same things. And been in the same business. We have often been away from each other work-wise and therefore we’re always very glad to see each other again."
#timothy west#rip#death ment tw#character actors#brass#bleak house#edward the seventh#big breadwinner hog#the day of the jackal#villains#hine#randall and hopkirk (deceased)#nicholas and alexandra#the fellows#tales of the unexpected#hedda#hard times#cry freedom#not going out#going postal#not just a titan of the english stage and screen (and how few actors can truly say they've risen to the prominence he#achieved in both mediums?) and not just a talented chameleon able to play filthy grotesque‚ noble kindness and cold#arrogance with equal assuredness; not just these things‚ Tim was also one half of one of the greatest love stories in the history of#the british stage. his more than 60 years with Prunella Scales are almost unheard of in 'showbusiness' tho truthfully they were not a#very showbiz pair. just two good souls who found each other and were gloriously happy together. even in recent years (Tim has been her#primary care giver for more than a decade now‚ since her dementia diagnosis) they somehow seemed to remain upbeat‚ hopeful‚ and more than#anything in love. my heart honestly breaks for her. i can't even imagine.#anyway. hum. i try to rec something less known with these posts. Tim's ep of The Edwardians‚ as rascally MP (and conman) Horatio#Bottomley is a really lovely thing. and as im sure i must have said at some other time‚ more people need to see the incredible BBH#perhaps the first time i saw the (until then‚ to my eyes) cuddly Tim West as a truly repugnant‚ horrific character (he's brilliant)
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stars finally aligned for me to watch castlevania: nocturne and oh, i like it so much more than i expected to. i was dragging my feet because i gotta be in the correct Mood for dark and violent shows and i'm not familiar with the games and don't know any of the characters etc etc etc.
anyway. i don't usually have a lot of interest in vampires as monster in and of itself, the whole blood sucking thing just holds no interest to me - the one aspect i DO find very interesting is vampires as immortal former humans. what i like about the castlevania cartoons is that they have vampires from many different eras and cultures, which is Exactly what i want from vampire stories, so i'm sold. what i like about nocturne specifically is that they have made the allegory explicit - vampires as the oppressor class, nobility and slave owners, and set the series during the french revolution. that's so tasty. that's so good. placing a vampire slaying series in a historical context, and a world where vampires are Known entities and not secret monsters is so delightful. i am so glad i'm finally watching this
#i also like the characters a lot!!!!!!#i still haven't finished the season i just need to shout into the void#taking a much needed cartoon watching weekend instead of crying over my laptop trying to write my thesis#i think the first castlevania series did this stuff too. it's been a while since i saw it. i just love that it's leaning so hard into it#as i said im not familiar with the games so i don't know how much is changed in the adaptatiok#but judging from the ethnicities of the videogame counter parts i assume Some Have Been Made#addendum: finished the season. kicking my feets with excitement#gonna rewatch the 2017 cartoon now. and oh wow that's Much gorier than nocturne#nocturne was very chill to watch in comparison
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"....you’re a good person, and I like you. And I’m sure a quiet and peaceful life is waiting for you out there."
#fan art#american arcadia#trevor hills#man this scene!! this scene!! i have been thinking about this non stop for the last four days#this scene stands out in particular for me#genuinely made me cry#hard to explain without spoilers but yeah#had to draw this scene it's been in my head ever since i heard him play#as soon as i saw Trevor had a piano i was like...thats gonna come back later on ajd ruin me and i was right!!!#:')#everything else
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I love the idea of a death wizard who parallels Malistaire pre-Sylvia’s death working together with Cyrus so much. Cyrus sees his brother in this child and it hurts because he misses his brother so much but it also worries him deeply. The wizard and Malistaire are so similar he can only hope that the trauma the wizard will have to live with after dragonspyre (and even more so after future worlds) will not make them into the man Malistaire is now. And really and truly, Malistaire is just a man overrun with grief over a loved one, which could so easily happen to the wizard. I think it would so interesting to see a villain arc very similar to Malistaires with the wizard
#i have so many thoughts ok#and you do loose people throughout the course of the game!!#azteca! dyvim! (briefly)#i’m sure there are others it’s just been awhile since i’ve played through#wizard villain arc would be so good ok#and i just love the idea of cyrus and the wizard forming a little bit of a found family connection post-dragonspyre#they both need it tbh#i fully imagine my wizard coming to cyrus post-azteca and crying in his tower#a myth wizard canonically has more angst than this possible death wizard in general but tbh i think playing as any of the spirit classes#in the first arc is great#just because the three main-ish characters of that arc are quite literally the teachers of those schools#my main wizard is life and i absolutely think Cyrus saw some of Sylvia’s traits in her#ANYWAYS#rant over#wiz101#wizard101#wizzy101#cyrus drake#malistaire
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NOOOOOOO PLEASE I WANNA MEET FALENA PLEASE LEONA TAKE ME TO THE PALACE I'LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT PLS IM ON MY KNESS
#💙! mah's gameplay#I'm crying i hate him so much#also lemme just say me having this card still feels like a dream#i've been wanting this card ever since i first saw it#I can't believe i finally have it#like yeah i went broke in order to have it BUT I HAVE IT
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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bro i'm actually fuckin crying
i was having anxiety the entire night over more random people from the other blog pulling up in my inbox and harassing me over shit i've already explained, but i woke up to like 4 messages and all rather wholesome and aren't accusing me
the fact that i haven't cried a single fuckin time the past 1-2 weeks of me knowing about this bullshit and just bottled it all up- and it just all comes all crashing the fuck down after seeing the sudden overwhelming support of people that actually read and understand context
it's literally only 6am here and i'm bawling my eyes out
i love every single one of you who isn't blindly jumping in on the fuckin hate train i wasn't even supposed to know about :'D
will be responding to them once i'm back in my room after school! fghfndghdfg already read through them tho, but i gotta go in a bit and can't type it all out hgfdgnfdhgnhdfg
#emelin qna#esau qna#been practically crying for an entire hour at this point#the entire fucking time i felt like the only ones defending me were my friends i talked in vc with#and they all got pissed the more we saw of this#like we talked about the entire thing since the start and i was even going to post an entire response to the first vague rant#to clarify things and tag the blog involved since they didn't tag me#i literally still have the entire finished response in my drafts#but then the 2nd rant dropped and i saw how many people were just randomly agreeing with them fully#even when you could literally tell they never even investigated anything themselves#even people that used to interact with me decided to blindly join in#again- without anyone telling me about it even happening#and they're probably still looking for excuses to rant on me about “pedophilia” and “slaves” when i've literally already clarified shit#which is why i said that at this point the topic has hit a brickwall#cuz at this point they're just invalidating my own points just so they get more validation themselves#november incident
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I played signalis!!! so fun so cute!!
#im currently devastated#i cant and i wont be taking any shape or form of consolation let me be#my lesbians......... my dear dear lesbians.........#they dont wanna let us live#like its fr now#its so fucking personal now#i dont have the proper words to explain what i felt during the gameplay#i was scared#angry#stressed out#fucking depressed tf#also very confused until i saw some videos#i love this game omg#ive been crying nonstop since i finished it#i feel like im gonna cry again#what a fucking masterpiece of a game#signalis#elster#elster signalis#signalis game#lstr 512#signalis lstr
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for the record I'm keeping my #arcane and #arcane critical tags separate because 1) it's rude to go into a show's main tag to complain about it and 2) this way I can still go into the arcane tag on my own blog to enjoy season 1 stuff without being perpetually disappointed by season 2
#there were only two things that I actually got hyped for in season 2 (as opposed to The Entirety Of Season 1)#1. the vi and jinx fight scene with that awesome song#2. vander recognising powder#the whole family thing after that made me cry but the circumstances leading up to it were weird. wdym there's no jinx going back to sevika#and isha after losing track of vander. and isha just THROWS herself at her and sevika's like what happened to you and jinx is like I saw#vander. and sevika's like girl vander's dead are you on the crazy pills again but jinx is INSISTENT so sevika's like fine. maybe you should#call your sister. and jinx is like HA! and I'M the crazy one?! and it's a whole thing where you see her decide to reach out and that she's#been keeping tabs on vi because she 'likes keeping an eye on people who have betrayed her' but she just really needs to find vander and#make sure he was real. and despite it all vi is the one she trusts most with this. also sevika should branch off to continue the rebellion#storyline bc that's what she originally betrayed vander for and jinx is probably crazy anyway. *someone* needs#to keep their head on straight and let's face it that's been sevika since day one.#I guess this post is#arcane critical#now#oops#I could fix it though#I don't think a lot of the story works because past act 1 it isn't shaped by character choices#but at least make them TALK like themselves#and create the connective tissue required for it to be believable that they'd choose to fulfill these plot points#because let's be real jinx would try to find vander on her own and fuck something up before she ever admits that she needs vi#jinx doesn't like NEEDING anyone. she doesn't like being weak. that's her whole damage#powder was weak and jinx doesn't want to be weak#because weakness breeds suffering#not saying she'd NEVER reach out to vi if she really truly needed it. she kidnapped her that one time. it just wouldn't happen that fast
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I knew about the post concert depression but no one told me about the post concert constant feeling of AAAAAAAAAHHH that lasts days and makes everything much more bearable and beautiful and some sort of ethereal type of hope is restored into the world, or maybe it's just the "seeing your favourite band after first thinking that it would never happen and later spending many months waiting for it all the while fearing that it wouldn't happen after all because of circumstances outside my control or feeling like it was too beautiful and wonderful to be true so ofc it wouldn't come true" part of it all
#guys i love they might be giants. did you know about this#me days before the show: crying because i will see they might be giants#me days after the show: crying because i saw they might be giants#truth is that i didn't actually full on cry until yesterday evening though so once i was back home so it was all officially over#and it was time to just slow down and realize that oh well wow. so all that just happened. like for realsies#i also finally looked through my videos and my recording of the whole show (yes as an archivist freak who records audio from most concerts#i obviously had to record this one also. now i can listen to it again and again and be remided that i didn't dream it all up after all)#but yeah all this and now i'm supposed to move on and go back to my stupid daily life#like i didn't just have one of those real actual life experiences and moments of pure fun that other people generally get from time to time#and that i haven't had since idk even when a year and a half ago#thats the last time i consider truly amazing on a level somewhat comparable to this. but back to the show and the whole thing.#like this wouldn't have been quite as perfect if i didn't share that time with fellow fans / friends that i ended up attending the show wit#you don't realize how badly you've been wanting to be included in things and for people to be genuinely fond of you and like your company#until you get included and shown that fondness. like wow i'm allowed to have fun too after all. can it happen again someday please. anyway#i'm just glad that in midst of my big bad awful times i could have this truly amazing 10/10 time#and i guess it doesn't have to be the last such time right. even if it's easy to give into the feeling that it is#but ok anyway i'll get to that proper show recap later when i can think clearly again#and maybe more on that more personal side of it all too because well i have many more thoughts obviously#but whether i get to that in 3 days or 3 months is a mystery for now. just kind of a lot to think about once again#and my stupid baka life continues on also whether i like it or not so that has to be taken into consideration as well#time to think again about school that i'm so totally fully failing now with my two weeks long absence yayyy. its fine i'll figure it all out#goosepost
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Aww the side story of the barbie (not date) but from Shouta’s POV, this is the cutest by @cyanoscarlet
Alliance in Pink - Side Stories, First art
#They are cute your honor#I might make some sketches for clive and dion and terrace but that will have to wait a little#Dani punched me in the guts my hands are shaky (in a good way) 😭#Clive seeing them holding hands: HE IS HOLDING HAND WITH A GIRL!! He didn’t tell me he is on holding hands terms??#Dion: calm down ifrit im sure he knows what he is doing#Clive head in hands and devastated : you don’t understand *cry*#Jill will call the next day and ask Joshua to please talk to clive because he have been laying on the kitchen floor since he got back#Clive with the horrific mortified ordeal of kids growing up#If he hold hands now what next??? Kiss on the head?? Sharing a seat?? *gasp* does he know what that means??#[clive sees Jote kiss at the bus station]#*clive pass out*#This fic is about dion getting first seat at clive’s crisis of grasping the reality his little brother is older than 10#It doesn’t help both have the brain of a nugget#Terrance really saw clive and thought ‘he should be my husband’s friend’#joshua rosfield#dion lesage#sir terence#clive rosfield#jote#ffxvi#final fantasy xvi
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lonely sad and so so poorly so think I'm gonna work on requests until I get sleepy :)
#🧚🏽♀️ — luxe chit chat#ive had such a sore tummy all day :(((#and im a lil down bc i saw something i wish i hadn't but#im trying not to let it get to me too much#i don't rly have anyone to talk to though so that's a lil upsetting!#contacting a mental health service tho bc i don't want to spiral abt it#ive had a lil cry!! i managed to hold it together for a while but i started thinking too hard and had a lil weep#but im not crying rn and i just wanna be proactive abt it so i dont end up feeling worse#but yeah since i got no one to talk to rn i have some time to write so i thought i'd try and get through some requests!!#sorry ive been so sucky with them#i love u all very much and sorry im not as active these days#thank u all who still support me and reach out tho ily all a whooooooooole lot :3#i hope ur all having lovely days and nights mwah mwah
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cannot believe it's been a whole year since this trailer changed the trajectory of my life forever
#these screenshots defined me#and they still do#how has it... been a whole year since that trailer....#soon it'll be a whole year since chainsaw man...#what's going on... time is an illusion... it felt like yesterday...#I really saw him a whole year ago?#this is bad... this makes me miss aki even more now#crying right now#I have such vivid memories of staying up late cause I couldn't sleep cause I was so excited#and then the screencap on the left got leaked early and I#I never lost my mind so fast in my life I had to go roll around on the floor for a while to find it again#my husband is so beautiful!!!#uuugg I can't wait to see him again cause... I'll feel that excited feeling again#just thinking about it makes me giddy lol#stammering on about aki I'm very ill today#aki <3
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home // adrien agreste + taylor swift lyrics pt. 2
- dear reader, dear john, seven, marjorie, my tears ricochet
#i put adrien's portraits with his mother and his father did u get it did u get it#i was trying to find portraits of them and then i saw these#im so aurhgnfbgbr for this boy's family#'what are you doing this new year's eve??!!'#'crying for my blorbo'#I still have SO MANY of these in my drafts that i did at 4am last night#yes i did the first part at 3am and spent two hours organizing it so what#i am ever so consumed by my son#im enjoying this way too much lol#oh music what a piece of art#miraculous ladybug#Taylor swift#Adrien agreste#sorry if the images are bad quality :(#me playing with dark and yellow colors?? 👀#this has been in my drafts since the new year's and my tags are outdated lol
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This sounds so wrong out of context.
#the book of bill spoilers#the billble spoilers#tbob spoilers#spoilers in the tags too#bill cipher#like. i thought he was either fucking off in the statue or he reincarnated into the book#one minute i'm laughing about how fitting of a prison therapy is for that menace#and then i notice the crack. i thought they knitted him something in the support group until i saw the next picture#then i went back to the axolotl page#he presented himself as such a large threat i just didn't think he could actually get hurt#i rarely encounter media that makes me cry#let alone media where i have to take a cry break before i can finish it#but he's been my favorite GF character and one of my favorite characters in general since i was 11 so i'm obviously biased#[personal tag here]
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