#EFF IT IM POSTING

[delladuck]

tw// discussion of postpartum depression and depression in general… this is a long post of random Della thoughts

Okay, so I've been thinking about that post I just reblogged a lot because I really the concept of Theory 4 (I know it's sad but it feels so real). I just have minor adjustments in my head. For instance, I personally don't see Della caring about the triplets father at all. Like, my guy was definitely not involved. I really see Della as a free spirit, and I can’t really see her ever wanting to be in a committed relationship… Wow, I'm sorry, I make everything about her sad. In my brain/headcanon world, every relationship she has had always crashes and burns because she doesn't like feeling tied down. She’s always running…. Anyway, about the postpartum depression, I feel like she suffered so badly from it— only not in the way where she wanted to hurt them lol. She just didn't feel bonded or connected and became depressed from that. That's why she was avoidant and would seem at times (to her family) like she wasn't being "responsible". Along with the depression, they also served as a reminder that everything is going to change. So what does she do? She runs.

I love the explanations for Donald and Scrooge under Theory 4. Head-on-the-nail for their thought process and feelings. But yeah, she finally thinks of the SOS and for the first time in months, feels something other than the nagging continuous depression. She thinks that if she can go the distance, do something as extraordinary as space travel, that it will prove things can still be the same and even potentially propel her out of her depressed state. She won't have to "settle down" as she’s constantly being reminded. I don't think it was to get away from her responsibility, I think she was completely overwhelmed and conflicted because of the effects of postpartum.

Being on the moon brings her entirely new traumas. Instead of getting help and speaking out when she was on earth, she’s now literally trapped. Her isolation is, obviously, no longer in her head. Queen, I'm so sorry (as if I'm talking to her LOL). Damn, she really was stranded on the moon by herself for a decade! Her untreated depression worsens into something entirely new (PTSD...!).

She obviously loves the triplets. I think that, relatively quickly, her time on the moon, when things went from bad to worse, her idea worked in a way? It certainly was something to knock her out of her “funk” (postpartummm). The kids are her motivation to keep fighting. She would take care of them. She would make it all up. She was committed, but how the duck was she supposed to think that anything could go wrong when Scrooge McDuck built this for her? Encouraged her to go for it? He always kept her safe and so on and on and on. She tried to free herself following his example and lost everything in her search for how things used to be (insert that Frank post about Scrooge betting it all and willing to rebuild from scratch if he looses everything).

It just seems like she was dealing with a lot— especially internally. So much was happening at once. My girl got so mentally ill. Like, being alive is so complicated… Deyla… I feel like she had a lot of highs and lows, but the lows were more often, common, and longer. One day she would feel like, “This is awesome. My kids are going to be the coolest and I can't wait to show them everything,” then the following week is unending flow of, “There’s too much to do and so many ways to screw up. Why is there so much that goes into taking care of them? They can’t really expect me to stay in the mansion for months on end right? I want to take care of them. I can’t take care of them. Donald thinks he knows everything. I'm a failure. They’re just eggs. What am I supposed to do with that? Yep, I feel soooo bonded... I’m a bad mom. Why don’t I feel the way that I should?” But of course, she’s stubborn and doesn’t tell anyone. So Donald labels her as irresponsible, and Scrooge don’t really gaf tbh because he thinks it will all smooth over and be fine as soon as they hatch. Troll goes ahead and builds SOS and the rest is history. I’m not really sure where I meant to go with this. I drew fanart the other night thinking about this, rediscovered that post I reblogged, and now here I am typing the thought process of a duck that I headcanon to have had postpartum depression. This is all just random and just what I think. I'm sure there are other posts like this but I just spent all this time typing this out so I figure, why not post? Goodnight.

[eff-exor]

*bats eyelashes* does anyone want to see the stupid christmas dino gif i drew a few years back when i first got my iPad???????

[grapecaseschoices]

i think it's so cute how f calls the detective 'our detective'.

[bitchy-peachy]

That dumbass "pro Palestine" account harassing my friend via anon and told us "I hope you white women suffer under Trump" really made me wanna say:

VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS

VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS

VOTE KAMALA HARRIS

To the piece of shit sending stupid anons to people about my post, I care about your one issue as you much as you care about mine. 🥹😔

Anyways...

VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS

VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS VOTE KAMALA HARRIS

[sourapplesauces]

The urge to draw country ragapom even though i have like 5 other things to finish…

[ambrosykim]

crazy how fast january comes around every year

[rewritingcanon]

Magic Hour by tuesday_piracy

Rating: T

Pairing: Scorpius Malfoy/Albus Potter

Summary: Albus Potter and Scorpius Malfoy live very different lives from one another, but when time and fate gets intertwined and tangled, they find themselves magically swapping bodies and on a journey to meet each other for the first time. Meanwhile, a star approaches.

Tags: Soulmate AU, Body Swapping, Your Name AU, Not Canon-Compliant, Light Fluff, Light Humour, Light Angst etc

(Chapter 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9)

Chapter 10: “He knew how Albus dealt with people like Karl, and thought about how different it was to how Scorpius handled it. The truth was, he didn’t. He spent the entire time holding his breath and waiting for the moment to be over, wishing to be invisible, wishing he didn’t have to exist with the knowledge that people were looking at him. He didn’t want to be anyone important. He had never had the desire for significance before. He wasn’t worth being picked on, but when he was, he wasn’t worth being defended, not even by himself.

But Albus defended Scorpius, and he defended himself too. Every time.

So perhaps it was because Scorpius had to be worth something now; Albus wouldn’t defend a nobody with no self-respect. Or, perhaps Scorpius felt he was worth more only because he was holding the body of someone worth more.”

[pit--rat]

the best part of his books is that light and love and trust and laughter are the strongest forces in the world

which seems odd for horror novels about the apocalypse but

it really feels like the ethos of these books is that the brightest parts of humanity can triumph over anything, both the darkest recesses of humanity and incomprehensible, alien, ageless horrors

that's why i re-read these books, not because the concepts are cool or I really like his descriptions (though I do like these things)

it's the real, human friendship and love he depicts in the worst moments of people's lives, it's the characters that learn what really matter and to forgive and trust and move on together and i will hold them all in my heart forever

so many people would break, would lose themselves to that darkness. to the anger, the terror, the horror of the world. but, despite moments of rage, of weakness, of selfishness, these kids, they always come back, they always triumph

[johnkramerspussy]

Can John and Hoffman just pass me back and forth and use me as their own personal sex toy please please please please

[marsdemo]

i have to keep tweeting forever

[kellibtt]

[starryoak]

It really sucks to comment on a post in a mildly joking or even entirely sincere manner and immediately get blocked. I absolutely realize people block other people on this website at the drop of a hat, but as an autistic person with scrupulosity my immediate reaction is that I would like to be able to tell someone I’m sorry for dropping the hat in the first place and that I didn’t mean to be rude.

Like, I’m not even saying it because I feel the need to be unblocked! I just need to tell them that it wasn’t meant to be annoying or rude, and I don’t hate them or anything. I mean, I can’t say it’s healthy that my OCD compels me to want to be unblocked and absolved for all my ‘sins’, but I can live with it and I’m fine with just feeling a little pang of sadness when I’m unable to like a post. I’m working on not having that happen either, but it’s very hard work, unlearning everything your brain as it was naturally made says you should feel.

And it’s just frustrating to me because it shows that even after near meteoric improvement in my social skills as I’ve gotten older (and also medicine), that it’s still hard for me to successfully assess social situations and comedy on a website where being rude is taken as funny over 75% of the time but there’s that other 25%… I often do literally add “(I am exaggerating for comedic effect”) as to make it more clear that this is intended as comedy, and… I guess it’s odd to me that’s treated as suspicious or something? Like, that nobody takes anyone else in good faith? I understand it’s a fools effort online, but I do genuinely try to be entirely sincere in my interactions online.

Like the automatic assumption that I’m not engaging sincerely when I’m trying to signal the exact opposite is both understandable and completely frustrating,

Just.. it’s like. People mock you if you engage with something sincerely, they mock you if you try to fit in, they mock you if you’re too rude, too nice, it feels frustrating when it feels like no matter what I do or whether I point out I am making a joke and not serious or play it straight, that I can’t get it right.

It’s not even about being blocked, really, (I’m lying my OCD hates it), it just hurts being confronted with the fact I’m almost two and a half decades into life and I still fail at basic social interaction despite my best efforts and despite the fact that I really am trying.

[maiteo]

Your last 6 posts being Wimbledon related 👀 are we entering a full time tennis girlie era??

me giggling all limp wristedly like andrey🤭

[randomgooberness]

your Gordon is so fucking friend shaped. and dad shaped

THANKS i love fat gordon. we need more bears being really cool and i mean this

[fslurusami]

its kind of funny how gk has so much historical research and yet in regards to injury says "yea eyelids grow back, a bullet clean through the mouth only leaves a couple little surface scars, eating people genuinely will make you look younger, sugimoto has reached his scar cap his face is staying like that no matter how many bears attack it, dont worry about that arrow trap that hit tanigaki that one time that chunk of flesh grew back also". if this was any other piece of media i would be mad but theres enough sexualized violence to distract me from the egregious lack of medical accuracy

[silas-is-sleepy]

Hear me out,,,, byler plus helium by glass animals

Just me?

Yea just me