#Dick grayson analysis
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Okay but can we talk about how the fandom acts like it'd be a great idea for Bruce and Harvey to reconcile and for Harvey to essentially be a part of the batfamily??
Cause everyone acts like it'd be cute! Uncle Harvey this, uncle Harvey that- and on the surface level, it is!
But um.
Are we forgetting that Two-Face nearly beat Dick to death when he was, what, 12-14 years old? And that Dick genuinely hates Two-Face, and for good reason?
That event was DEEPLY traumatizing for Dick. It completely changed his perspective on things because he'd never had the shit beaten out of him before, nor been so close to death. Shit, I think it's implied in the comic that Dick might've needed to be resuscitated, but it's unclear. Regardless, Dick was captured, tied up, and beaten bloody with a baseball bat, and was left broken on a warehouse(?) floor. He BARELY survived- Bruce was almost too late.
And, well, doesn't that sound eerily familiar? That's REALLY similar to what happened with Jason, the difference is that Dick lived and Jason didn't. But somehow no one seems to consider that Dick MIGHT not want to spend time with his almost-murderer.
On top of that, no one seems to consider the consequences of what would happen if Harvey DID reform and more or less become part of the batfamily. Because like,, it'd be bad.
First off, I can't see Dick being friendly at all with Harvey, even knowing he's reformed. He'd be glad Harvey's reformed, I'm sure, but I doubt he'd tolerate Harvey being in his presence for long.
Secondly, Dick would have ISSUES with Bruce. I can't imagine he'd be at all happy knowing Bruce is trying to be all buddy-buddy with the man who nearly killed him as a child. And, honestly, with Bruce being... well, Bruce, I can't see him immediately telling Dick, and instead Dick would absolutely find out the hard way. That by itself would cause a mountain of issues, I have no doubt that Dick would be PISSED.
And then there's the trauma side of things. I have zero doubt that Harvey being around so often would trigger Dick, and dealing with that trauma being brought up again and so frequently would be harrowing and exhausting.
And I can't imagine Dick not struggling with his fears and insecurities, especially if Bruce is being a stubborn asshole about it. I highly doubt Dick would want Bruce to stop being friends with Harvey, but if Harvey gets close to the rest of the batfamily, I imagine it'd be HARD to avoid him. Something something, Dick not being heard (as per usual), feeling like Bruce is choosing his sons almost-murderer over him, etc.
Just. Gestures. I don't think it'd go over well at ALL. Dick wouldn't at all be happy.
Granted, this is IF the rest of the batfamily befriends Harvey too and doesn't know what happened. I think Tim canonically knows (Dick did tell him in a comic), but I'm not sure about the rest.
Regardless, yall get my point. It's like if the Joker was reformed and Bruce befriended him and forced Jason to have dinner with him. Not exactly fun!
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I like the fact that Jason has this weird, but founded, idea that Dick is the perfect guy. And he thinks that Dick knows what a great person he is.
What's really interesting, is the fact that this isn't true, Dick does not agree with him.
He is convinced that he is 'poison' and that he isn't a good person.
So when Dick have a mental breakdown, feeling like he doesn't deserve what he got, he doesn't deserve people appreciating him, it make no sense to Jason.
And that gives me so many ideas about a conversation between those two, because Jason can't stand the fact that Dick doesn't see himself the way everyone does.
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I wish I could like, make some smart character analysis of Dick Grayson but in my mind thereâs just âI love himâ going on a loop.
Sometimes I feel a little insane abt him. Idk how to explain it, but sometimes it feels like heâs all I can think of but the thoughts arenât coherent. Theyâre just a mess of âomg omg omg I love him i love him omg omg jesus fucking- omg omg heâs just heâs just heâs just heâs just heâs justâ
like, why canât I think smart things abt how he is so self sacrificing and how he wouldnât exchange what he has to bring back his parents and he thinks Bruce would and how he just blames everything on himself and how he cannot kill and I hate the fanfics where he kills the joker because that would wreck him so much and and and and and and
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When Bruce said he was proud of Jason for stepping away from guns, Jason immediately clarified that he wasn't doing it for him.
When Dick said he was proud of Jason for stepping away from guns, Jason didn't feel the need to clarify this.
Interesting contrast I noticed.
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It is so, so important to me that people understand that Tim didn't figure out the bats because Dick was a "Show off". Like yes, Dick Grayson is the most flamboyant, dramatic ass man you will ever meet.
But the quadruple somersault? There's no way that was because dick was just showing off. Because you're telling me Bruce Wayne, who's so committed to hiding his identity that he literally acts like a completely different person out of the mask in public just to ward suspicion, would miss the fact that Robin regularly uses the flying Grayson's trademark move? There's literally no way.
In the comics we see Tim explain his deductive process to Dick and Alfred and they're both surprised impressed whatever. We don't see him explain it to Bruce. I think Bruce would be surprised and shocked that a 9 year old was able to put the pieces together but I don't think he'd be surprised that the quadruple somersault gave it away.
So if Bruce was possibly aware of such an obvious give away, why let it continue?
I'll tell you why.
It really comes down to the physics
So Dick was 9 when he started out right? That means the most he'd have likely weighed was 43kgs or roughly 95lbs in freedom units.
But Dick and both of his parents are gymnasts who tend to be smaller. So he was likely less than that.
In physics, rotating objects build up angular momentum (this is how bikes stay up right for example). The more rotation, the more momentum. And objects with less mass build up that momentum much faster than those that are heavier.
Robin constantly has to fight people who are nearly 3 times his size. I teach 8 year olds, they're tiny. A quadruple somersault for a small boy that weighs less than a hundred pounds is a brutal weapon. Especially if you add in the acceleration from gravity as he drops in from above.
And I can guarantee you this logic tracks because Dick literally utilizes this idea, without the somersault, in the 2009 teen titans cartoon.
Yeah, that's right. We're talking about the infamous knee drop.
Like it is borderline savage. Add in a quadruple somersault and the resulting force is nearly fatal. It's likely the main reason Batman would ever allow him to do it with the cape on.
Also, Dick landing feet first on the penguin in the first image probably gave the guy severe back issues
#I'm so tired of people giving Dick shit for being a show off#like he is for sure#but thats not what gave him away#it's strategic and practical#he's using the skills he already had in his repertoire to his advantage#also unrelated but#when Tim shows up to convince dick to be robin again#and has to explain how he figured it out#it was just after the arc where dick and bruce had to deal with tony zucco getting out of prison and nearly starting a gang war#pretty sure zucco dies sometime during it#but it brings up a lot of feelings for dick#which is the entire reason Tim finds him at Haley's circus in new york#then Tim immediately reminds him about his parents death again#and technically jasons too because thats his entire purpose for being there#point is#dick was going THROUGH it when Tim shows up#idk thought it bore mentioning#lena speaks#batman#tim drake#dc comics#robin#batman and robin#dick grayson#bruce wayne#nightwing#dc robin#dc analysis#a lonely place of dying#physics
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The Batkids' deaths vary in severity/importance, but they all serve to shake some core part of their superhero identity. Sometimes it affirms their existing identity (Cass' first death), or it spurs them to discover more about what their current identity means (Damian, Tim); sometimes, however, it severs them from who they were. Dick's transition into Agent 37 and Cass' turn to evil both stem from very temporary deaths, where the death is not as important as what happens after. It's not the pill or Cass' dip into the Pit that actually changes them, but the boundary these events create between their old and new selves.
Which is why Jason's death is different from all of the above. Beyond being (at one point) permanent, his loss of self is irreversible. Dick and Cass claw their way back to their identities pre-death, Nightwing and Batgirl respectively; Jason does not. He cannot, because he doesn't fit Robin anymore, and Robin doesn't fit him. It's not only that his sense of self is shaped by his death, but that it was, in many ways, destroyed by it.
But it's ultimately Stephanie's death that links death so closely to the loss of a superhero identity. Her death, unlike the others, is instigated by loss - Batman fires her from Robin, which leads to the events of War Games. On her deathbed, Steph asks "was I ever really Robin?", and Bruce replies "of course you were." It's a sweet moment, but it's retroactive. He can only affirm her legacy as Robin in the past tense (it's over; it can't impact anyone anymore). Her non-existent memorial can be read not only as a lack of care for Stephanie Brown the person, but for Stephanie Brown the Robin - Jason's Robin is immortalised, Stephanie's Robin is erased. She dies because she was made Robin, and she was made Robin to die.
I guess my point is that everyone's deaths are linked to how much they are valued within their mantle, not just in a metatextual sense (as in, how much DC editorial liked them) but also in the text itself - deaths either instigate further ownership of their name, or dismantle their sense of self. This is why it's important to recognise Steph's tenure as Robin (both in comics and fandom). Recognising Steph-as-Robin is a direct refutation of her death, a long-delayed memorial.
#dick grayson#cassandra cain#jason todd#stephanie brown#batman#what's hard about writing about steph's death is that it's so steeped in misogyny you can barely write about it without mentioning dc#i did just write this whole thing to say steph deserved better#idk if the post is even coherent at all like this was supposed to be a dick cass jason post about how their deaths changed their mantles#but then i started thinking about Stephanie Brown...#anyway steph fans (and jason fans) feel free to correct idk the quality of this analysis tbh
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Bruce Wayne, mentor to many- father to none.
I want the angst of B having to come to terms that he doesn't know ANY of his kids not anymore at least and maybe never and the fact his kids are just- used to it?
Visiting Dicks apartment, he finds a picture of him smiling while surrounded by a bunch of little kids in spandax uniforms. Turns out he'd been a gymnastics instructor for about four years now and his most recent team had everyone qualify for state. (Bruce didn't even know he still practiced)
Jason stopped accepting Wednesday night patrols, but when he looked into it he found out that was the night he went to DND nights with his roommates every week. The roommates he met last semester after he decided to go to college and get an english major. (Bruce didn't even know he had applied)
Checking the library he found a small pedastal plague put up by Alfred displaying just one book. It said Cass was the author. Apparently she had gotten super into writing and published a book talking about language deprivation and lack of accomidation for deaf/hoh children born to hearing families. She had a book signing last month, Alfred had gone and grabbed this copy now on display (Bruce didn't even know she liked to write)
Tim finished a case early and let it slip he needed to sign off early to "meet up with his boyfriends" and hung up before Bruce could process. It only took a small glance at his middle child's latest social media post to see him alongside Superboy (what was his name?) and a blonde boy he didn't recognize. Both were leaned in to kiss his cheek and the caption said "Happy 3rd anniversary!!" (Bruce didn't even know he was interested in boys)
Steph's birthday came around and Bruce got her a new account and shoved a couple thousand for her to buy whatever she wanted. But he quickly noticed a pattern of everyone getting her- cat supplies? Apparently She had adopted a cat about a month ago to celebrate her new apartment, Mister Mystery was his name, and she had asked everyone for supplies instead of other gifts. (Bruce didn't even know she had moved)
He decided on some impromptu father-son bonding and tries to track down his youngest. But Damian is nowhere to be found. He gets pretty close to calling an emergency meeting but the moment he messages Oracle she reminds him Damian is in Chicago. Damian had won an art competition at school and his piece qualified for a gallery spot. The entire family had gone days ago and he was due back the next day. (Bruce didn't even know he cared about art)
Then Duke- his youngest in terms of time spent. But one he had grown fond of just as fast as the others. Especially working the day shift the time they spent was limited. Bruce got them both lunch, but it wasn't until halfway through eating that Duke had turned to him with panicked eyes and asked if the stew had shellfish. Duke had a severe allergy, thankfully Jason had been just up the street and had an epi-pen ready before they took him to Leslies. (Bruce didnt even know he had any allergies, let alone one so severe)
The worst part? There was no blow up. His kids didn't take his idiocracy as a personal insult or even raise a fight. They just rolled their eyes and moved on. As everyone crowded in the room, surrounding Dukes bedside he could hear Barbras voice. "Its not your fault, Batman may be omnipotent, but Bruce doesn't know anything really"
He wasnt meant to overhear or maybe he was, Oracle had always been petty But he couldn't refute it.
"But you have us"
Well- thats just it wasnt it? Even when Bruce was absent- his kids had each other. But was that ever meant to be enough?
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Hear me out, hear me out. The reason why I think the dynamic of Batman and Robin is abusive is not because of the concept of child sidekicks.
Whenever you see other heroes with their respective sidekicks, their dynamics are about mentorship and being a guiding hand, most times about teaching the younger generation how to understand their powers better and how to use them for good. Child sidekicks are most commonly for the benefit of the child, not the adult.
That is not the case with Batman and Robin.
B&R's dynamic is for Bruce's benefit. Robin is the light to Batman's darkness. Robin is the one who saves Batman from himself. Batman needs a Robin. This is widely a result from Tim Drake's introduction as Robin, when Bruce was passively suicidal and causing more harm to people than he should. Tim and Bruce, in a vacuum, are not that much of a problem. It's still kind of messed up that Bruce would depend on a 13-year-old to get his mental health sorted out, but it makes sense in the context it exists in, where Jason had just died and Bruce blamed himself for it while simultaneously being in denial about his pain. The problem is that the idea that Batman can't function without a child to help him with his mental issues stuck.
It means that, between bad writers and good writers and wildly different interpretations of Bruce as a father, Bruce starts being painted as obsessive. He needs Robin to always be happy -- the guiding light -- he needs Robin to always be funny and upbeat but still mature and skilled and ready to die for Their Cause, that wouldn't have been Robin's cause at all if Bruce hadn't introduced the idea of it to them. Needing your child to never express a Bad Emotion or act out of line (like Jason was, for example, in the events leading up to ADITF) or else you're going to make them feel like they're undeserving of their place in your family (I'm not your father, Jason, I don't need teenage rebellion) is, in fact, abuse.
And the worst part is that this dynamic gets retroactively attributed to every Robin!!! Even though it really originated (or, rather, became truly ingrained in the text) with Tim!!! Because we keep getting more and more Robin Dick and Robin Jason stories written post-Robin!Tim and it gives them a dynamic with Bruce that they didn't have before!! Which sucks !!!
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Iâm rewatching Young Justice again and in âIndependence Dayâ I am just STRUCK by how well they introduce all four of the âsidekicksâ and their respective mentors.
Like Robin is so at home fighting against villains. He cackles and he almost seems bored because heâs rather dismissive of Mr. Freeze and of the fight. Heâs also fairly at ease with Batman, because I imagine not many other people, can tell Batman, âyeah, yeahâ in that tone.
Speedy, on the other hand, is very serious. Heâs the only one of the four who questions the villainsâ motives and he is the one getting annoyed with Green Arrow for joking around.
Aqualad is also serious but in a much calm and less aggressive way. He absolutely oozes respect for Aquaman, even when his mentor teases him about being excited for the day ahead.
And Kid Flash? Heâs going full-on impatient, excited puppy mode. Heâs so impatient to get there that he allows himself to get slightly frozen in order to stop the fight as soon as possible. And his wide, excited grin is so telling of his generally positive personality
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Call to My Bedside - Part 2
Part 1: https://www.tumblr.com/snaileer/733019972168761344/call-to-my-bedside
Danyal wakes the next time with a weight to his limbs. From the moment he opens his eyes, he realizes he is not where he is supposed to be.
This is a medical bay, but it is not in the league, the constant twittering of League doctors monitoring his health is suspiciously gone. No shadows on guard outside the door.
The most glaring thing though, there was no Lazarus Water in his veins.
Perhaps Raâs had decided he was no longer worth the expense, had decided-
No.
It was something else. That wasnât an option he would consider.
Danyal tested the feeling of thin metal on his right wrist. Handcuffs, not shackles. It was odd.
But again, this wasnât the league.
But heâd need to go back before Raâs became angry. Danyal couldnât fail.
He glances to the door as it opens, an old man-the one from before- and a younger, slender man standing just behind him.
Danyal stays still, his breathing even, forcing his heart to stay at a constant, stable rate. He watches them, analyzing.
The old man blinks, âItâs good to see youâre awake, young sir-,â He steps into the room, left foot a second slower, old weakness?- English accent, in Europe? the man behind him follows- stiff posture, rib injury, core focused strength, gymnast, combat trained and familiar- Richard Dick Grayson, Nightwing, heâs in America, Batman- âYou gave us quite the shock earlier, myself especially.â
Nightwing watched Danyal warily, he saw him as a threat, and by the angle of his feet, a threat to the older man. He remembers now, heâd attacked him before, Nightwing was here to prevent it again.
They are heroes.
He was a part of the League of the Assassins.
He doesnât fit here, could never.
Danyal considers the merits of speaking English, he wants to, deeply, and perhaps it would even benefit the situation; but his chest clogs with fear before he can even compose a sentence. Itâs been too long anyways, the League dialect is easier.
âHow long have I been here?â Danyal says, still not moving enough to even jostle the cuff at his wrist.
Nightwing sighs deeply, âWe rescued you and Damian from a League of Assassins boat yesterday.â The words of the language are stilted, either by unfamiliarity or awkwardness, and whoâs Damian? Thereâs a pause, âDo you know who I am?â Nightwing asks, caution in the words.
Danyal takes a deep breath, finally sitting up, despite the rattling of the chain on the cuff, âYou are Nightwing, Dick Grayson, correct?â
Nightwing nods, his eyes briefly flitting to the elder man, âAnd you?â
Danyalâs eyes narrow, trying to find the trap, âI am Danyal Al Ghul, Heir of the Demonâs head, Blood of the Batman.â
Danyal watches the eyebrow of the old man tick up in his peripheral.
Nightwing pinches the bridge of his nose, âGod I canât believe Talia did it again,â He murmurs under his breath. In English. And Danyal would be lying if he said he wasnât happy to hear the language again, even just a little.
âPerhaps it would be best to bring Master Bruce back from his meeting,â the old man says pointedly. Danyal ignores as he changes and resets the IV attached to him, familiar with the autonomous care. With or without his consent.
âIâve already notified him, he should be here soon.â
âVery good. In the meantime,â he turns to Danyal, âI am Alfred Pennyworth, the Wayne family butler. It seems I did not get the chance to introduce myself the last time you were awake.â
Danyal canât help but blink at the almost joking tone Alfred says it with, knowing that Danyal had been the one to knock him out. It makes his lip twitch, and he silently huffs, surprising himself with the action.
The amusement vanishes as the door opens once more, footsteps barely audible in the second before.
The man standing there is large, tall and broad shouldered, strong- dangerous, calloused hands from training- his eyes stay glued to Danyal, blue and steady amidst the square jaw and sharp features, black hair tussled like heâd been rushing, just like Dad always-
Danyal feels his jaw wire shut, back straightening.
The thin chain of the handcuff jingles in the sudden silence.
This he remembers. This is Batman. The Dark Night of Gotham. The Detective.
The source of every expectation Raâs Al Ghul has ever placed on Danyal.
He feels his face try to screw into a sneer, because he hates him and everything heâs done that has ever affected Danyal, but his face remains still. Controlled. Because thereâs nothing he can do about it anyways.
Batman had introduced himself before.
As another name. A civilian. His training forces him to remember it.
Bruce Wayne.
It means next to nothing to him. But the man doesnât stop looking.
Itâs Nightwing that speaks next, âDanyal, this is Batman, Bruce Wayne, your father.â The smile is at odds with the weary tone of the words, âHe was there when we saved you and Damian a few.. yesterday. God that feels like longer.â
Saved? The sentiment makes him want to scoff. He doesnât, because Batmanâs eyes already narrow with Nightwingâs words, and Danyal doesnât need to make it worse.
A thousand more questions rush through his head. Each one bitten back with practiced force.
Instead he dips his head briefly, aiming for a show of respect, whatever that might mean here. However little he means it. Danyal can adjust regardless.
âHn.â
Danyal lifts his head. That was the only response?
They uproot him entirely, chain him, throw him into unfamiliar waters where everything-everyone- is in new danger and all he does is grunt?
Danyal bites his tongue hard, letting his head lift, carefully non-defiant. Heâs not quite sure his eyes get the message because he can feel the glare from them.
âMaster Bruce,â Alfred pipes in, tone sharp.
Batman sighs, but the set of his shoulders changes, no longer so heavily lined with suspicion.
âWhat do you know about why Damian was-" Thereâs an even sharper cough from Alfred. Another sigh, âFine. What has Talia already told you about me?â
Danyal glances between them, purposefully keeping his eyes from jumping down to the metal around his wrists.
No one else speaks.
âI know that you are Batman, the Dark Night of Gotham. You are also the detective, great enough to impress the Demonâs Head, Raâs Al Ghul. The Demonâs daughter informed me you were dead.â
Thereâs a slight twitch on Batmanâs face. âI survived Darkseidâs attack, although it led to me being lost in time and assumed dead for nearly a year,â Batmanâs eyes flick across the room, almost considering, âRed Robin was responsible for my return just over a year ago.â
Red Robin. Timothy Drake. The one Raâs favored. The second source of expectations placed on Danyal.
And he was lost in time? What did that consist of, what did it mean for Batman? Did it matter if it didnât affect Danyal?
âI see.â He says. Silence lingers. They still expect him to speak. He hedges his bets, asking something he actually cares about, âWhy am I here, Batman?â
The question seems to be expected and yet still strike with surprise.
âI⌠regrettably, did not know you were⌠present at the league. I do not believe in their methods and would not have left you there had I known.â
And that makes it all okay. Danyal wants to scream. But he narrows his eyes instead, only more suspicious, âAnd why were you there then?â
âWe followed the shadows that had taken Damian. He told us who you were.â
Danyal pauses, leaning back slightly. They were willing to answer his questions, to actually talk with him. Of course they were, they were meant to be heroes.
But it had been so long since heâd actually talked with anyone other than Raâs, and their conversations were a battleground of expectations and tests.
He fights with his conscious knowledge of this and the habits that have been beaten into him so thoroughly.
âWho is⌠Damian?â He asks, watching their reactions for the answer.
All three seem surprised by the question. But not angry. Of course not, he reminds himself.
âYouâve mentioned him several times like I am supposed to know who he is.â He had barely been told anything since his forceful return, and any knowledge he had from before stopped at Dick Grayson. And then Timothy Drake.
Danyal had purposefully ignored the hero world he had lived in-
He forces his eyes up to meet Batmanâs, noting the hesitance in the set of his shoulders.
âDamian is⌠your brother. He was.. Taliaâs son, before he came to me just a few years ago. He was raised in the league.â
Danyal blinks, anger disbelieving in his chest. Is that what she did?
âWhen.â
Thereâs no response, save a twitch of Batmanâs eyebrow.
âWhen,â Danyal says again, his breathing controlled, âDid he come to you? How old was he? How long ago?â
They seem to pick up on the way Danyalâs tone has changed. Good for them.
âNearly three years ago. He was ten.â Batman answers, voice rough. Tinged with curiosity and unfulfilled questions.
Danyal breathes deeply, his heart rate picking up against his wishes. Icy rage flares.
The beeping of the machine at his side matches the pounding in his chest, uneven, unbalanced, uncontrolled.
Keep it under control. Keep it. Under. Control.
Control is power. Control is strength. Control is the only thing that will ever be enough.
He breathes deeper. Holding his breath. Once. Twice.
The beeping is steadier with each tone.
âDanyal?â An old voice asks beside him. Itâs Alfred. The butler.
Danyal shifts his jaw from its clench, âI am fine.â His eyes slide back into focus, still on Batman, âDamian is your son then.â
Batman nods solemnly, a heavier sigh through his chest, âTalia and I have had an⌠interesting relationship. But I loved her. Once. She has never failed to make me regret it.â
That was why she had visited him. Her words. What she had almost said. Talia had wished he was Damian, wished he was Bruce. Just not Danyal of course. The weapon she discarded for a better version. One she could love.
One who would be heir.
Batman continues, âTalia is Damianâs mother, told him he would be my heir, as Iâm sure you were but-â Batman stops, looking at Danyal as confusion flicks across his face, âYou werenât.â
âI was never told I would be heir of the Batman, only of the Demonâs head.â This, at least, Danyal is familiar with, âThatâs the only reason they needed me: to be their weapon made from the Demon Headâs enemy.â Danyal breathes, âA weapon does not have parents, and I have never been more than a weapon to them, crafted for the leagueâs purpose. For Raâs.âÂ
Raâs is the reason Danyal is alive at all. Is the only reason he has survived the league, but he is also the reason Danyal had to, no- has to survive.
Danyal drops his eyes, tired, so so tired, like he always is. Unerringly, his eyes find the shine of the metal around his wrist. Arm held carefully still to keep from jostling it, even as his other hand has found its way to his lap.
âYou canât really believe that,â Dick says, disbelief in his own voice, unsurety in the frame of an unfamiliar language.
âIt doesnât matter what I believe.â
And it doesnât. It only matters what he can do. Thatâs heâs strong. He just has to be strong enough. Raâs is the reason Danyal suffers, has always been, and Danyal will never let him escape that.
Silence lasts. Danyal quickly grows tired of it.
Luckily, Batman breaks it, âWhy were you exposed to the Lazarus waters?â He asks, voice rigid and flat once more.Â
Perhaps the casualness is getting to him because Danyal manages to lift one lip in a slight sneer, âThe only reason anybody uses the Lazarus Pits.â
The Batman stays silent, clearly talking about the unorthodox method of exposure they had resorted to.
Danyal sighs this time, serious, âMy heart is damaged. Electricity. The pits are a short term solution for it. Grandfather had said he found a long term one.â Danyal doubts it matters now. Whatever care his grandfatherâd had was fragile, dependent on Danyalâs performance.Â
The palm of his left hand tingles sharply.
Would this be enough to tip the scale against him? What would he lose for being here? Who would he-
Danyal looks into Batmanâs eyes, âAm I to be a prisoner here?â
The man glances over him at the two on the other side, Danyal doesnât follow it, nor the silent conversation heâs sure is happening.
Instead, Danyal focuses his ears, senses sharpened by training, by the pits, by his accident⌠and turns his attention to the person hiding in an alcove above them.
Low breathing, higher pitched, the scent of sword polish and hair gel. The person was small and armed.
âYouâre not a prisoner⌠but if you leave.. youâll be in danger,â Batman says, voice deep, âWe canât let that happen.â
So either be followed or donât leave. What great options.
Danyal tries not to scowl, not to show any inflection at it, âAnd do I have to stay here? In yourâŚ. Cave?â
âIt might be difficult to move- uh.. the medical things-â Nightwing starts, but Danyal cuts him off by swiftly removing the IV tucked in the crook of his elbow.
He presses his thumb against the small well of blood as he looks forward.
Alfred shouts, jolting towards him, âMaster Danyal! That is hardly sterile-â
Danyalâs eyes snap to him the moment the title leaves his mouth, heart stilling for a second, commands in his eyes. Alfred falls still.
Danyal lets it fall away the next second, barely two beats missed. The beeping starts again.
âI see.â Alfred straightens, stepping forward slowly to turn off the IV and coil it, removing other monitors, âAnother one for the dramatics then.â
Nightwing steps up, hands out placatingly, âThereâs..mm really no need, Danyal, uh-â He glances back to Batman, âOf course you can leave the cave-,â the next words are in bright clear English, âIâm sure thereâs already a room picked out for you.â
âRight you are Master Dick,â Alfred says, âYoung sir, do you need any help moving?â He directs to Danyal.
He wants to rip his hand from the metal cuff. Snap the thin chain to pieces.
Instead he looks to Nightwing, then Batman, âThe restraints?â He says, voice as empty of want as he can make it.
The click of the key in the lock echoes in his ear and itâs only through practiced calm that Danyal does not immediately jerk his arm away from it. Instead, he calmly retracts his hand, bracing slightly against the bed as he turns and plants his feet on the floor.
The others have already moved out of his way, watching intently, waiting for him to fall- to fail.
Danyal straightens his legs. He stands. He breathes. He controls his heart. He walks forward.
He does not fall. He doesnât have the option to fall.
âI can go now.â He says, looking at them. His knuckles are white on the edge of the bed.
Nightwing looks at Batman once more. The man grunts, then turns from the room in a way that he can only imagine would perfectly flare a cape.
Danyalâs feet feel like theyâre filling with cement. Nightwing stares at him expectantly. Danyal understands expectations- but these ones, it leaves him helpless and-
âFollow me then, dear boys,â Alfred says, stepping in front smoothly, already moving towards the door, âWe can go upstairs, Iâll start on a meal and Master Dick can show you the rooms.â
Nightwing goes next, leaving Danyal to follow not quite behind him, the angle purposeful to keep him in sight.
Nightwing casts a wary glance to him every few minutes, continuing a light chatter with Alfred. Danyal stares forward, taking in the cave from his peripheral - computer, showers, training mats, an unfamiliar shadow watching him, armory, swords, knifes, suits, cars and vehicles lined up on platforms, a t-Rex, giant penny, a glass case- Danyal lets his eyes linger on the shadow, never faltering his steps.
His neck itches at the attention.
He looks forward. Nightwing is looking at him again, snapping forward the moment Danyalâs eyes narrow. Good.
The steps are slightly narrow, dark, but they come out to a warmly lit study. Dark wood, papers, books on shelves, a portrait on the wall, pictures on the desk, three black hair boys, another of only a single with stiff posture, a ballet dancer- they keep walking. The door-clock- closes behind them like the clamping of an artery.
Nightwing and Alfredâs conversation continues in smooth, low-toned English. Danyal blinks, slowly, slower than he needs to, for a breath of a second relishing in the almost familiarity of it all, the dissonance from the last three years alone enough to well emotion in his chest.
His eyes open. He continues after them.
âThis is where Iâll leave you, Iâll be up with some food young sir,â Alfred says abruptly, turning towards a swinging door that reveals a glimpse of a stainless kitchen.
âSoâŚâ Nightwing says, swinging his arms a bit at his sides, âuh⌠I can show you the room you can sleep in, yes?â
Danyalâs shoulders tighten, rising from a subconscious millimeter slouch. He nods stiffly.
His heart remains under control. Always under control.
âSo this is the Wayne Mansion, you can go for food any time, uhâŚâ Thereâs an unsure pause as they start up the stairs, âYou can meet the rest of us soon maybe, a correct introduction to DamianâŚdepends on Bruce really⌠he can be ⌠over âŚover.â
Nightwing looks at Danyal properly, âIâm usually better at this, most of the bat kids know the League dialect but⌠I havenât exactly practiced it.â
Danyal stares at him. He doesnât want to hear the sound of the Leagueâs twisting words, he wants to leave. He wants to find his family, protect them, get them as far away from Raâs al Ghul and the league as possible. He wants to go back to Raâs convince him to let his family go if Danyal stays willingly. Wants a blade strong enough to run the man through and-
âI know you are probably stressed and this is all unfamiliar but ⌠we want you to stay⌠you wonât be hurt here. This is different than the league, youâre safe.â
Danyal scoffs, not bothering to stop it, he hasnât been safe since the day he tripped over a wire and died.
Nightwing doesnât seem surprised by the response.
âThis can be your room,â He says, opening a door in the hallway and gesturing a wide arm to Danyal. âThe rest of us are just down the hall.â
Danyal steps in, looking around, counting exits, tactical advantages, possible listening devices- He turns around, giving Nightwing a stiff nod, âThank you for the room.â
Nightwing still stands at his door, âAnything else I can help with for you?â He says.
Danyal considers staying silent, obedient, but he hates hearing the language at every turn, he never wants to hear it again, the words they forced in his mouth, ripping away what was in their place-
âCan you just speak English?â He says, realizing too late how weak it sounds, âYou donât have to use the league tongue, I can-English is.. fine.â Fine. Better. Familiar. A remnant of a family heâs almost certain heâs lost now.
Nightwing barely quirks a brow, eyes flicking over him.
âCan do,â He nods, âWell then⌠Welcome to Wayne Manor, Danyal.â
And he closes the door behind him.
'Itâs just Danny, please.'Â He wants to whisper to the silence. But heâs grown too used to shadows and it catches in his throat.
He goes and sits on the bed. Staring out of the window. A window he canât leave from. Where would he go? He doesnât have anyone, theyâre all in danger because of him. He canât leave.
Heâs trapped.
Always trapped.
Bound. Stuck to one place. One thing.
Emotions well in his chest, in the back of his throat, thick and dark and painful. He wants to cry. He canât. Emotions constrict around his lungs.
And Danyal sits, staring at the wall, wishing he could cry. But the emotions just twist themselves until theyâre tight enough, heavy enough to fall down, settle back like a layer of heavy chainmail over his insides.
Danyal turns on the bed, facing the wall.
Itâs empty tan-beige. Neutral colors. No personality. Temporary.
This is familiar to him. This he can do.
Danyal stands again, he strips down his tunic, his shin-guards and pants- notes the lack of his typical weapons- methodically placing it on the dresser. Not his dresser, he already has one, painted blue with yellow stars back in-
Danyal gets in the shower, glad to find soap there, contemplating not using it, not wasting the energy. He watches condensation develop on the glass walls, water droplets collecting until they finally rush down the glass.
His finger lifts, already wanting to trace the letters he knows. Three lines, an H. One. i. Or e, he could write hello. Or ghost. Mom. Dad. Jazz, Sam, Tucker. Write it in English so he wouldnât forget the way they were meant to be spelled, let the water wash it away.
His fingers ache where theyâd been broken for it. For tracing letters in dirt or on mirrors, in the foggy glass at night. A break for every word.
Danyal can see his hand shake, inches from the glass. Pain and fear a leech on his bones.
He drops the hand. Turns to wash away the soap and get out, towels left on the counter.
He doesnât even glance at the mirror as he goes out.
His tunic is where heâd left it, neatly set on the dresser top⌠butâŚ
Danyal opens the drawers, changing into the boxers, the next one is dress pants and collared shirts, but in the third-
Rough denim scuffs against his fingertips.
Theyâre dark wash jeans, fancy and nothing like the ones his mom would buy on sale from the thrift store butâŚ
He doesnât let himself debate it further, he has to wear clothes and no one is here to tell him which. They put them here so they should expect him to wear it- it could be a test but he doesnât care, let them do what they want if only to pretend the jeans are stiff from ectoplasm stains instead of fresh starch.
He chooses a white t-shirt, ignoring the collared shirts and polos that are probably meant to go over it.
He breathes, letting his shoulders drop, tilting his head back with his eyes closed, pretending for only a second that heâs getting dressed for school. Jazz is across the hall getting her books together, Sam and Tuck are on their way to walk together, his parents are already downstairs working.
'See?' He wants to say, 'Iâm still the same person, nothings changed!'
The metal of the door knob clicks and Danyalâs head snaps towards the sound.
Thereâs nothing. Danyal doesnât trust it, eyes narrowing as he scrutinizes the tall double doors.
âI know youâre there!â he calls out, fists ready, âOpen the door and show yourself or I will!â
Thereâs a harsh tutt behind the door before it swings open, revealing a kid standing there. Short, black hair- hair gel-, dress slacks and shirt hiding multiple bladed weapons-
âClearly I meant for you to know I was here, I am not incompetent,â The kid scoffs. So Nightwing wasnât lying about them all knowing the league dialectâŚ. Yet somehow, it sounds different coming from the kid, familiar in a way that makes Danyal's skin burn. He looks irritated, arms crossed in front of him even while his eyes wander over the room and Danyal with curiosity. And judgement.
Danyal rolls his eyes at it, âDid you need something from me, or did you just want to stand there looking like a hair gel commercial?â
The boyâs face goes red impressively fast, âHow dare you-â he moves- and a knife is flying at his face, Danyal dodges, catching it in a second, shifting to throw it back but stops, half way extended. He looks at the hilt, thereâs a League marking engraved on the bottom no larger than a droplet.
Danyal's eyes flick up to the boy still standing in front of him, glaring him down.
Thatâs all it takes before the boy jumps forward, another knife in his hand.
Danyal blocks it, twisting the arm as he drops his own acquired knife to his other hand and lunges forward.
The boy flips over his arm, and Danyal doesnât let his surprise show as he reaches to grab the second knife heâd forced the kid to drop.
The boy tutts at him again, âSo this was who Mother replaced me with? Street rabble?â
Danyal blinks, Mother? Then it clicks.
So this was Damian. The child the demonâs daughter wanted, beloved by all. Treasured. Preserved.
Danyal grits his teeth against the bitter taste in his mouth. He lunges forward, already expecting the larger dagger Damian uses to block him as heâs forced to retreat.
Danyal doesnât stop, continuing to press him, âThe Demonâs Daughter is no mother of mine,â he spits as he slams a kick against Damianâs elbow, blade dropping once more. Danyal cuts a shallow slash across Damianâs left cheek before dropping his own stolen knives.
He doesnât stop though, continuing to push Damian back- Damian swerves to the side, grabbing his arm, flipping him, Danyal retaliates, grabbing the others shirt and taking him with him.
He catches his feet a second before the other, using it to pin him face to face with Danyalâs arm at his throat, âMaybe if you were good enough, you wouldnât have had to be replaced at all and I never would have been forced to be here, this is your fault. I was free,â He grits out, teeth bared, âYou got to live these last three years because I paid for it, and youâre angry because they donât want you!?â
Thereâs something startling in Damianâs wide eyes, âWhat are you talking about?â He snaps, âI am Damian Al Ghul, Heir to the League, Ibn al X-â
Danyal slams him harder against the floor, cutting him off. Green simmers, almost boiling, under his skin. He grits his teeth harder against the sharp pain through his chest.
He leans closer to Damian, snarling, his grip bruising, âYou donât even know what you escaped, what Raâs really wanted with you, do you? What being heir means. Youâre nothing more than a -â
Damian jerks his head upwards, colliding with Danyalâs forehead and knocking him back with a grunt. Danyalâs grip loosens momentarily and Damian pulls free.
He slams a palm strike into Danyalâs front, pain lancing through his chest as he gasps, heart convulsing.
He moves through it by force, both rolling off each other with violent hands.
They stand opposite each other once more. Blood drips from the cut on Damianâs cheek. Danyalâs ragged breaths join Damianâs in the silence. He can hear footsteps on the stairs. His heart clenches in his chest painfully. Thereâs barely enough Lazarus water in his veins to keep it pumping for a week, less if he keeps this up.
The door flings open with a slam, both of them turning to look.
Batman stands there, battle calm in his eyes.
Damian turns fully at the sight of his father, but Danyal doesnât shift from his stance.
âFather, I-â Damian starts, but Batman just lifts a hand, silencing him.
âWhat. Happened.â Batman says, looking straight at Danyal, not even a question. A demand. Green tinted steel shoots up Danyalâs spine and he does nothing but glare back at the man.
Batman doesnât break eye contact, âDamian.â
âI was determining if he was a threat. He is from the League, Father,â Damian says shortly, standing tall despite the blood on his face.
Batman looks between them briefly, and oh what a picture they must make.
Two kids, both born in the same cage, one trying to claw his way out of the chains and the other trying to fight his way in.
Exhaustion washes over Danyal, and he drops his fists, letting them hang by his sides.
Batman hums, barely a sound, but a muscle twitches in Damianâs jaw.
âFather-â
âGo Damian. Now.â
Damian looks back at him, not-quite-hate in his eyes, before dropping to a crouch to grab the knife closest to his feet with one hand and turning to leave.
Faced with Batmanâs sole attention, Danyal lifts his chin defiantly, daring him to take action, to punish him, to do something that he can predict, can defend, can justify the anger he feels when he sees him.
âI know it was different in the league, but here, this is not acceptable.â
Danyal half-scoffs. He finally steps out of his stance, âI could leave.â
âThatâs not-â Batman pinches the bridge of his nose, voice like gravel, âI am trying to protect you, the manor is not the league. I understand what it must have been like to be raised like that, but you canât hurt others, no matter what teachings youâve had. I can guarantee you wonât be hurt here, I wonât let-â
Danny huffs a dry laugh, âYou wonât let?â He steps forward, rage bubbling back up, âHurt me? Iâm not worried about me, Batman. You canât stop him. Raâs is going to get what he wants, and as long as that is me, everyone around me is in danger, Iâm dangerous. I'm a weapon, a weapon of your enemy. You canât fix that, can you?â
âWe can protect ourselves-â
Danyal scoffs again, âBecause youâve done such a good job of that already? Donât forget, all of this is because of you, they wanted you, and now they want me because of you, Batman. You.â
Something stricken shoots through the manâs face before it flattens. Batman nods and steps back, a hand on the doorhandle, âDonât leave.â Is all he says, before the door clicks shut.
Danyal feels the walls closing in on him like a cell.
He looks to his left.
The bathroom door is open. He can see his reflection in the mirror, any condensation gone.
Danyal stares.
When he had been younger, back in- before. Danyal would stand in front of a mirror and pick out parts he thought looked like his parents. Like a Fenton. His shoulders were from Jack obviously. His eyes and hair too. His jawline was from Maddie, his hands from Jack, and the love of engineering and planning from Maddie. He had the same legs as his mom. Same voice as his dad, always loud. If he didnât look too hard, he could almost convince himself he was really their kid, their son.
But he could never quite place his tanned skin, or the texture of his hair. The shape of his eyes and nose. Always just a little bit wrong.
What had pretending done but put them in danger?
Danyal turns on his heel, flicking the lights off and putting a glass soap bottle on the door handle.
He knew heâd wake up regardless⌠but he wasnât taking any chances.
Danyal rubs his chest with the heel of his palm as he lays down on the far side of the bed, his back to the door, staring out at the city beyond the window glass.
How close would he come to freedom before heâd have to give it up again?
And he knew he would.
For his family, he would give the Demonâs Head anything.
Everything.
If thatâs what it took.
He squeezed his eyes shut and tried to pretend he would fall asleep.
âââ
Bruce runs over Danyalâs words again and again during the flight.
'This is because of you, Batman,'
He flicks a switch.
'You.'
The landing gear lowers.
'You canât fix this.'
He can see the way the shadows of the forest twist around the clearing.
'Dangerous.'
Wheels touch grass. Batman lands at the coordinates, just on the side of the field in front of the woman waiting for him.
'Because of you.'
He breathes.
âMy Beloved, how are you?â She greets him as he descends the ramp.
Bruce says nothing. He cannot even begin to fathom what he would say if he did.
Instead, he stares at her. A woman who had once meant so much to him, whom he had nearly thrown away everything for. And who had nearly done the same for him.
But she hadnât. Wouldnât. And it had hurt him, but he had recovered.
And then she hurt him again.
She had stolen and lied to him in his vulnerability.
And still, he had found himself loving her.
Had allowed her to continue hurting him. Again and again. Out of a vain hope that she would change. Because he thought that he could change her. That she would change for him.
It was foolish. It was senseless.
Yet he found it just as impossible to stop.
And so she had hurt him again.
âTalia.â Her name grated against his heart, âWhy did you not tell me I had another son?â
âThe boy is no more yours than he is mine, Beloved,â She says with a roll of her eyes, as if explaining a basic fact, âHe belongs to my father. And to the league.â
Bruce is silent. He notices a slight bruise forming on her left cheek.
Taliaâs face is tight, âDo you not care about the son I have given you? Has Damian not satisfied you?â
Bruce feels the leather of his gauntlets stretch over his clenched fists.
âI deserved to know,â He near growls, âJust as I did Damian, just as I did with Jason. You cannot continue to keep my children from me-â
âIf it was not for that boy, you would not have met Damian at all,â Talia snaps.
Bruce blinks. Hard.
âHis return brought Damian into your arms, you should be grateful.â She spits at him like an accusation, âDamian is ours, Bruce. From our love. That boy was made before we truly knew each other, before we understood each other as we do now. He was borne of nothing more than my fatherâs obsession. Damian is our son, not him.â
âHis name is Danyal, Talia!â Bruce bellows, âHe is a child, and he is a person! Just like you, and me, and Damian, and he deserves more than to be written off as one of Raâs al Ghulâs projects! He deserves better than this!â Than us, he doesnât say. Deserves better than him.
Talia straightens from already perfect posture, âI made a choice Bruce, for Damian. To protect Damian. I knew our son was never meant to bear my fatherâs hands, he was never meant to be what Danyal is.â Talia pauses, eyes sharp on him, and he can see when she chooses her next words. Already knows they are meant to cut him, to hurt him. He steels himself and listens anyways.
âPerhaps you should ask him where heâs been all these years Iâve supposedly kept him from you, Beloved.â She says coyly, stepping forward.
âWhat are you talking about.â
She takes another step, âThe truth of the matter is that Danyal could have gone to you any time he wanted. He chose not to. Chose to stay away.â
He stays silent.
âOh- Did the boy not tell you?â Talia says, barely hiding the falseness, âDanyal was living in America before he returned to his rightful duty. Almost didnât work, butâŚâ Talia hummed, âHis gifts were fortuitous in the end. A risk well calculated, my fatherâs doing I suspect.â
Talia almost seems blaisĂŠ as she talks about it, but he can see the way it irks her. Her father had tricked her. Somehow. Or had manipulated her into some choice she hadnât known about.
Batman says nothing, analyzing, taking in clues.
âBeloved,â Talia sighs, âSurely you must know, the boy must return.â
âAnd surely you know: I canât let that happen.â
Talia glowers at him.
âItâs him or Damian, Bruce, you must choose, just as I did.â
âNo.â Bruce growls.
âYou cannot have both,â She snaps at him.
Batman stands firm, staring her down, resolute.
âYou invite his anger on them both,â She snarls, âYou save no one.â
Batman ignores the words. He has made it his job to make sure thatâs not true. Heâll die before it is.
âFine.â She snaps again. But she lingers for a few seconds more. The lines of her face softening.
âI remember I once loved that same unbending drive.â
It feels odd to hear her confirm something heâs not sure ever really existed.
Then Talia turns away and walks into the forest. Shadows contort and reform around her at the edges of the clearing. Slowly emptying until thereâs nothing left but the trees and the grass and him, standing alone at the center of it all.
He turns to leave.
He wonât choose between his children.
He climbs the ramp.
He will protect them.
He sits down in the pilots chair, flicking switches and gears.
All of them.
Engines roar to life below him.
He will not fail.
And yet⌠he cannot forget her words. Twisted they may be, and just as easily lies.. but, her irritation at her fatherâs plans⌠he had always been good at telling when it was real.
'Living in America⌠chose to stay away,'
Living in America?
Had he been secluded at one of their bases here? Had it even been close?
Had Danyal been just miles away, suffering, and Bruce hadnât known?
But it felt wrong. What Talia had said sat like a jagged puzzle piece, poking and prodding at him, not quite fitting the theories he threw at it.
âReturned.â
Did she only mean returned to the Leagueâs home base? Closer to their original strongholds in Asia?
It didnât make sense. She would have crafted the words differently, to drive her point home.
Sheâd said âsupposedly kept him from youâ like she hadnât. Like she hadnât kept Danyal hidden, the way she had Damian. It didnât add up.
She could have just been lying. Bruce didnât think she was. It couldnât be that simple. No, there was something specific about the way sheâd phrased it all, like she was telling him a secret. Like it was something Raâs had hidden. Like something Danyal was hiding.
Batman narrowed his eyes, staring out at the landscape in front of him as it rushed past.
Whatever it was, whatever she wasnât telling him, Batman needed to figure it out before it came back to hurt him or his family. Danyal included.
Then there was the rest of it.
The âgiftsâ that Talia had mentioned.
He knew Danyal had been forced to interact with the Lazarus waters, but he didnât know to what extent. What it had done to him.
Itâd had an effect on him, that much was clear by the acid green of his eyes when he stood off against them in the Batcave. And earlier when Bruce had first interrupted the fight with Damian.
He didnât even think Danyal had noticed they were glowing then. Too defensive to think about it. Or perhaps he was used to it.
How many times had he been submerged? Had been so injured that Raâs saw fit to put him in?
How many times had Bruce not been there to protect him from it?
Even if he was only acting out of defensiveness⌠was that not Bruceâs fault too?
That he still felt unsafe in the Manor. That he didnât know if Bruce would act the same as Raâs, as the League.
And Danyal was right, he was responsible for the pain the league caused him, for them hunting him. If he had never let himself be pulled into Taliaâs web- or if she was to be believed⌠even before that.
When exactly? When had Batman become enough of a threat that Raâs had decided to use him? Was it because he had refused to be his heir? Or before that? Before or after Dick? Jason?
He doesnât even know how old Danyal is. How long Batman had let him suffer because of h-
âI do hope you arenât planning to brood like this with your children around, Master Bruce,â Alfred says, cutting through his thoughts, âI donât believe your pride would survive the repercussions.â
Bruce glances at the monitor Alfred has decided to call from.
âHn.â Bruce grumbles.
Alfred is right, his children would tease him mercilessly for âbroodingâ as they called it. If only Dick at least, who hasnât missed a chance to do so since heâd been a freshly christened Robin.
How would Danyal fit into that? Would he grow to tease like the others? Or remain stoic like Damian?
âIâll be approaching in 30 minutes, A.â He says. âWill Danyal be there?â He doesnât say.
Alfred says nothing in response. The engines fill the silence.
He grits his teeth, he just wants to know the situation, to stay updated, he wants to know if somethingâs happened or anythingâs changed.
He sighs, forcefully loosening his jaw, âWhoâs going out tonight?â
âMm, I believe Miss Brown and Master Tim were discussing going together. Master Thomas is in bed, as is usual, though he did mention heâd be out early.. and I believe Madame Cassandra is staying in. She seems to have found a new project.â
Batman hums in confirmation. He wants to know what Cass had found interesting. More than that, he wants to know if Danyal was okay, Damian too.
âIt seems it circles around our newest resident, though she hasnât shown herself to him yet. Master Dick also seems to think the young sir is his duty as much as Master Damian had been.â
Batman feels his lips tug downwards as he grunts in response. Damianâs first year with them was⌠a regret. His own absence was devastating. Heâd have to find some way to assure Dick that Danyal wasnât his responsibility this time, that he could still be his own person. Perhaps he should encourage Dick to return to BlĂźdhaven. Affirm the family would be alright without him.
Batman sees Gothamâs cloud of smog come into view. The bay follows soon after, and the buildings next.
âIâm coming in now.â
âVery good sir.â Alfred answers, nodding in his peripheral before the call clicks off.
When the Batplane arrives to the cave, Alfred is nowhere to be seen. The otherâs suits are missing as well, meaning they are already out for the night.
Batman doesnât pause more than to look around, already heading to the Batcomputer with determined steps.
He enters his access codes, running through his security checks unconsciously, mind spinning on theories and clues.
He picks apart his and Taliaâs interaction again and again, trying to pull everything he can from it and put it into his report file. Maybe if he can just read over it again, remember something else, maybe it will be enough to protect Danyal, maybe it will be enough to stop Raâs, maybe it will be enough understand why Talia did this to h-
A gentle hand slides over his just as his finger goes to slam the enter button of the keyboard.
He looks over his shoulder, already recognizing the feeling of stitching against his suit.
Cass looks at him meaningfully. Her gentle hand shifts into a lean against his arm, the pressure a comfort. She stares up at the Batcomputer and reads through his writing piece by piece.
Bruce waits for her. He knows she struggles with so many words. Knows that she gained more from watching him type it than she will from reading an exact account but the details will be helpful anyways.
She nods to him, fingers tapping lightly against his arm as she thinks it over, scanning and rescanning the document.
Cass has been developing fidgets recently, small twitches of movement that donât serve a purpose than to let her move.
Bruce wants to smile every time. Heâs pretty sure theyâre on purpose, but still.. itâs freedom for her.
She nudges him, reaching for a button across the keys. It flicks to a camera screen a second later.
The one in Danyalâs room.
Bruce feels a twinge of guilt at the disappointment Cass aims at him before they both refocus on the image.
The empty image.
Danyal is not in the room, and Bruce feels his eyebrows scrunch as he goes to pull up the other camera feeds to locate him, make sure he hasnât been taken-
âDownstairs.â Cass says.
Batman gets a half turn around, checking the cave for a foreign presence, before Cass stops him again.
She points to the screen, drawing his attention to a bottom square.
Danyal stands in the hallway of the manor, staring at the portraits on the walls.
He feels a light tap on his shoulder in parting before Cassâs presence at his side disappears silently.
He stares up at the figure of his son standing in the hallway, mind still whirring about possibilities and clues and lies and secrets.
Danyal continues to stand in front of the portrait for another minute, clenching and unclenching his fists at his side.
He rips his eyes away from the portrait, turning down the hallway and ducking into the kitchen.
Itâs empty when he gets there. Then again, the whole mansion had seemed empty. Aside from the ever constant, ever familiar feeling of eyes weighing down on him.
Danyal considers making himself food.
He considers jumping out of the window and seeing how far he could get.
He wonders if their cabinets have something heâd know and could do himself or if heâd be hopelessly lost.
He wonders how long it will take for the Demonâs Head to find him. Wonders what heâll do when he does. Wonders if his-
He stops himself short.
âMay I offer you some tea and snacks, young sir?â
Danyal turns slightly to face the old butler-Alfred- whoâd entered behind him and nods.
Can he even say no?
Alfred gestures to a chair set up by the built in breakfast nook.
He sits. Even as the domesticity of it all throttles his heart in his chest. The way they must eat together every morning, appear together in every photo, smiling. A family portrait. Batmanâs family. Batman got to keep his. But Dannyâs is tra-
Danyal breathes purposefully, staring down at his hands, clenching them tighter.
Suddenly a hand reaches across his vision, pressing a button on an ancient looking miniature TV sitting just tucked into the kitchen corner.
It flickers to life on some random news channel, low mindless chatter softening the air.
Danyal feels his shoulders lower slightly, just barely, as the silences retreats. He glances up, expecting to find Alfred there staring at him, questioning him, why heâs acting like this, why he-
Alfredâs back is to him. The man busy at the stove with the tea kettle.
âI hope you like lemon ginger tea,â the man says, getting a small jar from a cupboard, âItâs been quite a bit since Iâve had the opportunity to make some.â
Danyal doesnât quite trust it, still watching the man warily. He doesnât understand why they would welcome him into their house, Batman or no, he was a threat to them. He was nothing but a threat.
âHow about something to eat?â
Danyal watches the man move over to the fridge.
Something moves in his peripheral and his eyes jump to the side.
Narrowed eyes comb over the fancy china case against the wall. But he canât see anything odd. The glass is clear, refracted reflection shining back him over the china. A dark phone sitting on the ledge. Dark wood pressed against the wall. He doesnât know what he saw.
Alfred sets a small plate down in front of him with a light clatter, immediately turning back as the tea kettle begins to screech.
The movement makes a small carrot tumble off, rolling across the counter to Danyal.
He stares at it.
He breathes in, out, in out, in out in out too fast. Too fast-
A finger rolls to a stop in front of him and he can only stare at it as strong arms grip and pull him back, keeping him restrained.
Granite counters blend until they are stone floors.
He canât look away from it. Confusion bleeds in with denial and regret and bloodthirsty stubbornness.
âLook at me, boy.â
Dannyâs head is jerked back by his hair, forcing his eyes up to his instructor.
The man glares down at him.
âI have taught warriors better than you by a thousand, and you dare to try to escape under my hand?â
Danny tries to grin, barely managing a crude sneer, coppery blood in his teeth, âYou should have kept a better eye on me, you fucking nutcase.â
His eyelid flicks closed automatically as cold gunmetal rests against it.
âSay that again.â
Danny swallows his regret, in for a penny in for a pound. He juts his chin up, forcing the man to follow the movement with his gun.
âWhat, were you dropped as a bab-â His open eye strains to see his instructorâs thumb press down the hammer of the gun. A warning.
He can feel his hands shake under the assassins hold. His throat burns.
âYou scared of a chil-?â He barely has time to register the hand moving before the butt of the gun slams into his nose with a sickening crack.
Pain floods his face. He gets half a shout out before his chin is grabbed by unforgiving hands.
He stares into the manâs cold eyes.
Danny says nothing. Too focused on trying to breathe when his nose is filling with blood and his mouth is clamped nearly shut.
âBetter.â
He resists the urge to spit in the manâs face as he steps back, straightening and waving a hand to the assassins. Even without their hands on him he can feel their presence looming behind him.
Danny drops his head, curling in on himself as much as he can, trying to ignore the feeling of blood as it slides down his face.
His eyes are left to stagnate on the finger thrown to the ground in front of him.
Pale skin stands stark against dark floors, contrasted by blood and dirt marring it. He can see the calluses and small scars.
He doesnât understand.
He might.
He doesnât want to.
âYou are not the only one I can punish to get my point across, boy.â
He looks closer at the finger. At the nicks of careless knives and tools, of a hand that had cradled- no- please no-
âThe oaf was very insistent it be him.â
Danny snaps his head up, fear striking through his chest, âNo! Please-â he catches himself, âPlease donât hurt them! They donât- Hurt me, just me! They donât deserve it, they didnât do anything-!â
Sharp eyes stab into him. Fury behind them.
âHurt me, Master Shrike, just me. Please.â
Thereâs a pause as the man continues to stare down at him before he lifts one lip in a sneer, âDo you think you command me, child?â
Danny freezes, âI donât- I- No, Master. I donât.â
âThen why,â Shrike near growls, âDo you beg me? Why do you plead like you have a right to ask for anything?â
âI donât-â 'I donât understand,' he starts to say but heâs cut off by Shrikeâs boot hitting his face. Heâs learned by now when not to dodge. He canât give them another reason to hurt his family.
A second kick lands.
âYou will be quiet!â
Danny waits for a beat, then slowly pulls himself up from the floor, not lifting his eyes.
He can still see his fatherâs finger on the floor.
âYou do not command me. You are a tool! A weapon in the Demonâs hand! I choose to act, to punish or break you! You do not act, do not speak until you are to be used!â
Danyal stays silent.
He wants to scream, to fight back, they train him and they train him but he canât fight back because if he does- his eyes flick to the bloodied finger.
He can let them. For his family, he can let them call him a weapon, can let them say he has no will. He can do this one thing.
Heâs not giving up, he tells himself. But for his familyâs safety, he can let them think he is. Just this once.
Danny stops, eyes shutting for just a second as he bends into a kneel, holding his hands up in front of him.
Thereâs a pause, cruel satisfaction radiating off the man in front of him.
Danyal licks his lips, steeling himself, âI am ready for my lesson,â Danny forces the words out, âMaster Shrike.â
He doesnât bother to look up and see the manâs sneer.
âGood.â
He sees the kick coming.
He still doesnât move.
He stays still.
The world moves around him. Voices. Muttering. The sound of dishes, water being poured.
Thereâs a carrot.. orange and bright in front of him.
His heart is beating too fast. His eyes sting.
Calm down. Control it. Control it. Stop, stop-
A tea cup clatters in front of him.
âSir Danyal, are you quite alright?â He hears someone ask. Alfred. Itâs Alfred. Batmanâs butler. Heâs not-
He tries to speak, âIâm fineâ he tries to say. But his throat constricts. He simply nods, staring down at the carrot.
A freaking carrot.
Itâs ridiculous.
Heâs fine. Heâs fine. Heâs. Fine.
Danyal takes a deep breath. He breathes out. Silently.
He does it again.
He holds it until his heart slows down, stops stuttering from beat to beat.
He breathes out.
He reaches for the tea, ignoring the eyes on him-always watching him- ignoring the way his hands shake.
He drinks the tea. Letâs it burn his throat and distract him.
He breathes.
Alfred does not turn to look at him. Staying busy at the sink with dishes that already look clean.
He is thankful.
He breathes.
Low murmurs fill impenetrable silence. Danyal drags his eyes over to the small TV.
His breath stops.
A banner of words crawls across the bottom of the screen.
âDalvCo factories shutting down after mass destruction.â
He tries to tear his eyes away.
âFour buildings exploded just after midnight on Saturday in downtown Chicago, Elmerton, and Red Lake. 12 workers dead. Police have not caught the perpetrators.â
And they wonât.
Danyal can recognize a message.
He knows what it means. Who is sending it.
He tries not to let it show how his mind begins spinning. Churning out plans and strategies- If an attempt had cost his father a finger, what would they do to them now, because of Danyal?- he had to fix this.
He looks down to his shaking hands. He stops them. And the tea in his cup stills.
He stops. Pauses. He eyes Alfred still at the sink without looking up.
He places it just on the edge of the counter. Then turns away and lets go.
The cup falls.
It shatters against the floor. Danyal jumps up from his seat at the same time Alfred turns around.
âWhatâs happened?â He says, already hustling over with a towel. âAre you hurt?â
Danyal steps away and around him, towards the door.
He almost bumps into the display case until the reflection of light off the phone catches his eye. A small ballet sticker sits on the back of the case.
His hand moves before he can think and slips it into his pocket. He looks at Alfred.
âItâs no trouble, Young Danyal,â Alfred says as he crouches over where Danyal had been sitting, âIâll clean this up and get you more. You can help me prepare for breakfast-â
Danyal considers knocking him out, so he canât stop him, or alert anyone, but a body is more suspicious. Instead he paints his face with fear and steps out of the room as quick as he can.
He turns down the hallway, trying to remember where heâd walked from the cave.
Mere hours ago.
He goes the opposite direction, following a halls as far to the outer edges of the mansion as he can, typing in Vladâs number with nervous hands as he goes.
He makes a final turn before he opens a window, glances backwards, and jumps out.
He lands in a roll, already running. His finger presses call and he listens to the phone ringing as he runs.
Once. Twice. He swipes branches out of his way. Three times. Four. Five. Six.
âWeâre sorry the number-â
Danyal hangs up and presses again.
He doesnât stop running.
He just has to protect them. He has to warn Vlad. Warn whoever he can. Tell someone.
It rings again. Once. Twice. Three times. Four. Five. Six- âWeâre sorr-â
Danyal presses it again and runs faster.
If he can get caught by the League maybe Raâs will overlook it. Maybe he can still protect them. He can fix this. Please just let him fix this.
âWeâre s-â
He tries again.
And Danyal continues rushing through the woods, wishing his feet would carry him faster, further, higher-
The sound of his steps pounds in his ears. The phantom feeling of eyes on his back.
He slams his finger down on Vladâs number again, letting the dial tone drown his heartbeat out.
Once. Twice. Three times, Frick! Vlad pick up! Four- the speakerphone clicks.
âVlad!â
Thereâs barely a pause, âDANNY!?â
Danny nearly trips, his heart stuttering dangerously, hopefully.
âDani?âŚâ He says, then jolts to his senses and continues running, a glance thrown behind him, âDani, how do you have Vladâs phone, are you okay? Have you been to Amity?â
âDanny, where the hell are you!? Iâve been looking all over for-â
âDani, you have to listen okay, thereâs dangerous people after me- after us-â Danyal jumps another log, scaling a small stone wall, âYou canât fight them, you have to run, theyâve got my family, Tuck, Sam-â
âDanny wait no listen to me-!â
âYou canât fight them! You canât, okay!?â Danny scans his eyes back and forth frantically as he runs, mind spinning, calculating how heâs going to get out, away, controlling his heart rate as much as he can, âYou have to promise me! Just find Vlad, get out of Amity. Warn him- I couldnât - my parents- you have to-â
âDanny, listen to me!â Dani yells, stopping him in his tracks.
âYour parents are out, Danny,â She says, voice rushed, but his ears barely hear it. âThey escaped, they called us weeks ago to start looking for you- Danny, theyâre out.â
She goes quiet. Waiting for Danny.
His parents were-
Danny draws in a deep breath, standing stock still in the middle of the trees, stolen phone still pressed to his ear.
He couldnât believe it.. they were-
Something clangs against a tree behind him and Danyal whips around ready to-
His head blossoms with pain.
Everything goes dark.
This is included in my one-shot collection(for now) on Ao3, under same name. The collection is Things that Could Exist by Snaileer.
Part 3: https://www.tumblr.com/snaileer/760212137159294976/call-to-my-bedside-3?source=share
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I really want to offer my analysis here, because I don't entirely agree with this take, given that it's far more nuanced than what's seen here
Dick said he wished Jason had died in Nightwing v2 #119, in the midst of the Brothers in Blood arc. He thought this to himself right after fighting Jason, after Jason started running around in his own Nightwing costume, killing people and traumatizing bystanders, making Nightwing public enemy #1 and essentially ruining his reputation and trying to ruin his vigilante life, which Jason continues to do even after Dick expresses that he doesn't like what he's doing.
I'll be honest, I really don't blame Dick for briefly wanting Jason dead, considering the guy was deliberately ruining Dicks reputation as a vigilante, and pushing past every boundary Dick set up. Sure, it's no excuse, but I wouldn't expect Dick to welcome Jason back with open arms after something like that. I wouldn't either, frankly. Also, Jason pretty deliberately cut Dicks hand open too, and jokes about it. Jason wasn't giving Dick any reason to be friendly with him, especially knowing Dicks strict moral code. Also, Dick never once expressed this thought out loud, and honestly I'm not sure how in character it is for him to think something like that and not at least regret it.
As for the second time- that isn't Dick wanting Jason dead again. Dick is working off of the assumption that Jason never died in the first place, and on top of that, Jason DID originally die at the end of Under the Hood (note the effects from the Superboy Prime punch that shows up at the end of the comic, that also showed up when Jason was revived in his coffin). Dick isn't expressing that he wished Jason was dead here, he's literally saying that Jason wasn't supposed to be alive- that two separate events (Ethiopia, the end of UtH) should've killed him. That's the unbelievable part, the part that 'makes him sound crazy', because Jason isn't dead when he's supposed to be.
Another point- Brothers in Blood is infamously out of character for both Dick and Jason, and overall very wacky, especially at this point. Winick, in an interview, stated that Jason hated the idea of Dick (i don't have a link right now, but I can find it for you), but in this comic, he wants to be buddies? Not to mention Dick not regretting wanting someone dead, especially after the events of Nightwing v2 #93, which he was still very much recovering from at this point, hence the year long break from being Nightwing (which Jason interrupted by forcing Dick to act when he wasn't ready to).
Also... Dick, presumably, has no idea about what Jason went through. He isn't aware of how much he's struggling. All Dick is probably aware of (because let's be real, Bruce is shit at communicating), is that Jason somehow survived Ethiopia, came back years later as a murderous crime lord, supposedly died in a fight with Bruce, and is back again and wreaking havoc and killing people in HIS suit and refusing to stop. Hell, he probably JUST found out Jason was alive! But this is ALL Dick knows. I highly doubt he knows the details of the showdown between him and Bruce, or why Jason does what he does, etc. Jason sure as hell isn't explaining anything beyond why he kills, and that doesn't matter to Dick because he's strictly against killing, to the point of mental breakdowns if he does it himself or is responsible in some way (see: his reaction to beating the Joker to death and Blockbusters death). Jason isn't at all giving Dick any reason to sit down and talk to him, or be friendly. Sure, he wanted to know if they could be brothers again, but he could've communicated this earlier in a far more normal way lol.
And just so we're being fair: I'm also not entirely sure Jason actually didn't care when Dick supposedly died. Look at his face when he says "That's BlĂźdhaven.", and then his almost performative, kinda fake sounding words afterwards. Jason certainly hated the idea of Dick (the perfect golden boy who always listened to Batman and got all the love), but he never actually HATED-hated Dick, and even if he did, certainly not enough to want him dead. He even goes out of his way to save Dick and give him important information he just happened to overhear. On top of that, Jason is frequently depicted during this time as lying, both to himself and others, specifically when Winick writes him (see: Red Hood: The Lost Days. What he says and what he does don't line up). So I don't believe Jason really wanted Dick dead, or even just didn't care.
Overall, it's WAY more nuanced than just "Dick wanted Jason dead when he just found out his little brother was alive". Sure, is it kinda shitty to wish someone dead? Of course. Is it in character here? Not very. Do I blame him? Not at all. Do I believe they were shitty to each other in other ways? Absolutely! They have SO many issues, and have hurt each other a lot, I'm definitely not arguing that they haven't. But I don't think wanting the other dead was ever a real issue, nor a flaw in their relationship.
til that slade bombing bludhaven happens at the same time jason and bruce are duking it out in the under the red hood storyline and they see it happening.
in other news, jason peter todd is a raging asshole omg what a jerk THATâS YOUR BROTHER?!??? WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE DICK
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Nightwing is not the favorite child, he's the favorite soldier. Dick Grayson is the golden child turned scapegoat. Everyone needs Nightwing but no one needs Dick. In this essay I will-
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LET'S DISCUSS DICK GRAYSON AND THE WAY HE DEALS WITH THE DEATH OF LOVED ONES
Disclaimer : most informations can be fanon, canon or just headcanon
The guy obviously lost a LOT of people in his life, his parents, Jason, Donna, Bruce, Wally, Damian..., and even if some came back to life, the pain never go away. I have a few headcanons about the way he deals with that, so here we go â¨
The death of his parents :
(I'm not sure how many years old Dick was canonically when they died, but I'm going to go with eight.)
At first, he felt shock. This couldn't be happening. He didn't just saw his parents fall. It wasn't true.
Then, he felt sick. His parents dead bodies were lying right in front of him and the only thing he could do was throwing up.
After that, the tears. No one could make him stop crying. He was shaking and whenever he felt a little better, horrible images came to haunt his mind.
And suddenly, numbness. Just nothing. He was silent and he felt empty.
The first two weeks after Bruce took him in Dick stayed incredibly silent. To be honest, he only spoke once. ''Why do I always eat alone?'' he asked Alfred while taking his breakfast. The butler felt his heart breaking as the little boy ask that question. He tried to explain that Bruce was busy, but he knew that it wasn't an excuse.
He then asked Bruce to stay more with his new ward knowing that loneliness wasn't going to help him grieving.
The third week, he started talking, to Alfred, only, short sentences without looking in the eyes, but, still, it was progress.
The fourth week, he was able to talk to Bruce, and to even laugh with Alfred.
And the fifth week Dick felt happy for the first time. Bruce took two days off to spend time with him. Alfred gave him a few piano lessons, and the nightmares started to fade, even that horrible feeling inside his stomach started to disappeared. And it felt weird. His parents died. How could he feel happy. He wasn't supposed to be happy.
Dick felt guilty a lot. He felt guilty because he didn't save them. He felt guilty because he survived and they didn't. He felt guilty because sometimes, just sometimes, he felt happy without them.
Even when he grew up guilt was still an important part of him.
He feels guilty to be happy with Bruce.
With his new family.
Part two (coming soon)
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WFA spoilers ahead
Content warning for discussion of mental illness
Can I take a moment to appreciate how they showcased Jason's PTSD in the latest ep? This isn't the first time but I feel like this round struck much closer.
Although this is the website where people are open about mental illness, there's still a reluctance to address the "loud" or "frightening" or "angry" or "messy" side of it. Stuff like bipolar, schizophrenia, addiction, PTSD. It's why I'm extremely hesitant to talk about my own problems even under anonymity.
Conversely, there are mainline comics (and other media) that use this category of mental illness as an excuse for characters to go all-out in their aggression. Even if not intentional, it perpetuates the idea that a trigger will always send the person spiraling until either the worst happens or someone steps in as the "hero." It's basically sending the message to people like me that we're a ticking time bomb.
Then there's WFA. Jason's not fully present during his episode. It leads him into a dangerous situation while at the same time he's unable to grasp things like pain. The adrenaline and the overwhelming sense of fear drives him into fight mode. He gets tunnel vision while he's beating up the bar patrons to try and find the Joker. Without getting into details, I've been in Jason's shoes. I've found myself in risky places doing things I'd later regret. All because of the disconnect from reality that makes me believe what I'm doing is necessary. Not even justified, just necessary. Almost like a survival instinct.
And what's so important is that Jason isn't a villain and Dick isn't a savior. Dick reaffirms Jason's trauma and guides him through tangible steps rather than giving broad sweeping advice. Of course there's no one-size-fits-all coping method, but the biggest thing is having somebody in your corner who sees you beyond this bad episode. Sometimes I have that, sometimes I don't. WFA won't show it since it's all about family, but the times I didn't have someone were exponentially scarier.
At the same time, there are consequences that a simple grounding exercise can't remedyâJason got hurt, he hurt others, and his appearance at Noonan's definitely put him on someone's radar if not the Joker. And they're just as real as his feelings and (hopefully) he's gonna be held accountable. Because that's how it goes in real life. Something sets me off, I screw up, I get bailed out, and once I come down from it I have to fix the mess I made.
Maybe I'm just reading too much into a fan comic. But I know that if a few panels can resonate so closely with me, then it's worth talking about because someone, somewhere is also feeling the same way.
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"Nothing Jason says can be taken for truth."
"I believe you."
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Now that I have the confidence to send you asks, fully expect me to bug you periodically from here on out
Anyways- do you think Dick qualifies as a scapegoat? Cause I 100% think he's a scapegoat. People always try to shove the 'golden child' role onto Dick, and it always confused me cause like. He doesn't fit it at all if you actually look into what a golden child is.
Dick is definitely one of the scapegoats of the batfamily (Jason being the other) and it makes me sad that people always label him a golden child when he's the exact opposite. Seriously- he's hit, beaten, unfairly blamed, lashed out at, not told about important things (Jason or being replaced, Jason dying, Jason's funeral, probably other things, i wouldn't be surprised), etc. Definition of a scapegoat to me.
It's also why I hesitate to label him the 'favorite' even when the comics try to say otherwise. Mostly because... favorite children aren't really treated this way. Favorite weapon, maybe, as I've said in a post I've made before, but that's it. Bruce wouldn't kill for him or any of his kids. He's come close, yeah, but he's also come close to killing the Joker too after Jason's death and had to be threatened into not doing it. Every time, it's in a strong surge of emotion, and the second Bruce thinks rationally- well, he doesn't do it. Dick isn't at all unique, Bruce wouldn't kill for him either.
I think Bruce is the most proud of Dick, and has a unique relationship with him due to knowing him the longest and the parentification, but I don't think that makes him the favorite. Maybe to the other batkids, but probably not in reality.
I don't think Bruce really HAS a favorite- Dick is probably the closest to it, but still.
Though, if you wanna play around with angst and fanon ideas, maybe both Dick and Jason are the favorites and that's why Bruce treats them the worst? Dunno, it'd make a fun fic, even if it's not really grounded in canon (though I ignore RHATO and Comic UTRH).
Idk. Just,, gestures. Dick is a scapegoat to me.
Hope my 2 am rambling made sense lol
Okay, I see you, but I'll argue:
Dick Grayson is both the scapegoat and the golden child.
Now, you might not believe this since he doesn't tend to be both at the same time, and it isn't common for these roles to exist within the same individual. But Dick Grayson is praised and favored as much as he's blamed and pushed.
A golden child is the one who carries most of the expectations in the family. The parent expects them to be perfect, make no mistakes, take on roles they're pushed into with no issue (thus parentification can happen), and continue on and on to be good enough and meet the criteria so they don't make the parent disappointed.
The love is conditional hence they develop this unhealthy perfectionism and self-esteem and self-worth issues that will follow them till adulthood even when they're out of that environment and living their own lives.
The reason why a parent might choose a specific child (or children) to be the favored one is because they tend to see this child as an extension of themselves. And consequential to this, they will project their insecurities onto said child and force them to improveâbe the bestâwhere they fall short. All of their capabilities are overvalued, making the parent see them as special and much better than the rest, causing the unrealistic expectations a child must hold and fulfill so as not to âfailâ their parent(s).
Although this child might seem like the favorite and who could do no wrong on the outside, the love they receive isn't something they can take for granted.
When a golden child underperforms or isn't as good as they're expected, the parentâs demeanor might change. They will feel the disappointment and fear this might cause the treatment they get to change. Sometimes the child might even fear abandonment or rejection from their parent as a result of their failures.
The mix of all this turns into a person who's over-competent, hard-working and someone that tends to take charge of things so they aren't at risk of failing, making them ânaturalâ leaders in any group they might be part of.
Sounding familiar yet?
Now, let's move on to the scapegoat:
A scapegoat child is the one that is blamed by all the things that go wrong in the family. They are constantly criticized and shamed by things they might've not even been part of, but somehow they're now involved and taking all the blame for the others so there are no consequences for anyone but them.
(All the blame also messes with their perception of certain events, making them prone to self-blame for the problems that occur in the family or their behaviors towards them.)
The scapegoating in the family may be due to subconscious projection from the parent when they're dealing with difficult emotions such as shame, guilt, rage, etc. They feel threatened by their own feelings and therefore they will try to escape from them by externalizing those feelings and making them their scapegoatâs problem.
Because of this treatment, the scapegoat might become an outsider in the family, feeling excluded and isolated from the rest. And for this, when push comes to shove and they're going through a rough patch, they will not have any reliable support they can go to inside the family as they'll be ignored or otherwise unfairly treated, having their feelings be invalidated.
Like the golden child, there's some aspects the scapegoat shares with the former:
Being treated differently by the parent/family.
Having unrealistic expectations placed upon them.
Being pushed into roles or responsibilities the child isn't meant to take.
Fear of expressing how they feel.
Self-worth issues and low self-esteem.
Although they're usually roles that are considered opposites, they aren't as incompatible as one might think. A child can alternate between being a scapegoat or the golden child, and this usually happens when the parent is very emotionally unstable, commonly due to a disorder such as narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) or borderline personality disorder (BPD).
(I have so many thoughts about the latter applying to Bruce, but I will refrain from elaborating to not make this longer than it needs to be)
Having all I've said until now in consideration, I'm sure you've noticed how Dick meets both criteriasâdare I say the golden child more often than the scapegoat.
Bruce is always speaking about how Dick is âbetter than himâ and âthe thing he's ever done rightâ, but in both of these statements you can see he's taking who Dick is and making it as something that's part of him, comparing Dick's accomplishments to his and putting him in this pedestal, and because of this projection happens and Bruce starts seeing Dick as an extension of himself.
This is why, when he or Dick fail, Dick will suddenly become the scapegoat, contrasting with the former golden child position he was in.
Here you can see the high expectations, praise for his accomplishments, his siblings feeling like Dick is better than them (i.e. treated differently than the rest), and you can also see how when he doesn't meet the expectations, he's met with disappointment (see: Alfred disappointed he's not as bright as he usually is) or judgment (see: Bruce angry at him because he isn't committing to his cause as much as he expects him to).
And these are examples of Bruce being too harsh on Dick and expecting him to do better, blaming him for his brother's death, and in result Dick having a habit of blaming himself and accepting mistreatment, thinking it must be his fault.
More often than not, Dick is put on a pedestal by his family and even his friends sometimes. They praise and love him, but when there's occasions in which he's acting less than perfect, the treatment towards him can change.
Dick Grayson can be the golden child as much as he can be the scapegoat.
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