#Depression ocean grunge indie

[headmate-ideas]

an ocean/sea creature themed subsystem? 7-8 members and each with a kinda theme (deep sea coral ECT). don't need picrews for each but would be nice

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🌊 SUBSYSTEM TEMPLATE 🌊 The Starfish Collective

The Starfish Collective are a subsystem of seven members who help their system manage daily tasks, therapy, social situations, and self-soothing. They collectively identify as mspec, oceangender, and oceankin, but they also have more specific ocean kintypes individually. They collectively use they/it/sea pronouns.

Templates for individual members below.

[These can be edited and changed as needed, and headmates will almost definitely not turn out EXACTLY as described.]

✦ Name(s): Aqua, Robbie, Marco ✦ Pronouns: they/them, it/its, he/him, wave/waves/waveself, ae/aer/aers/aerself, hx/hxm/hxs/hxmself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: same as body ✦ Role(s): subsystem host, interest holder ✦ Symptoms experienced: social anxiety ✦ Labels: torensexual, bxy ✦ Xenos: blue, vastness, candy ✦ Interests/likes: the ocean, cats, video games ✦ Dislikes: crowds, jumpscares ✦ Music taste: indie rock, lo-fi ✦ Aesthetic(s): ocean grunge ✦ Kins: starfish, stars, tuxedo cats ✦ Emoji proxy: 🌊⭐ ✦ Details:

Aqua is the host of the Starfish Collective and has a fascination with anything involving the ocean or marine life. Any interest the main system has in those topics, they have to a concentrated degree. However, it is also interested in outer space (due to some of its similarities with the ocean) and some or all of the media interests that are prevalent in the main system. Ae frequently fronts during the system's therapy sessions, finding aerself good at articulating thoughts and feelings for the rest of the system. Aqua has some level of anxiety and isn't the best at maintaining responsibilities but wants to get better with these things and does so with the help of waves other system members as well as in therapy. Additionally, they are naturally friendly and are good at socializing with people the system are already familiar with. It has dyed aqua hair and dresses in a casual and comfortable grunge style. It identifies in particular with starfish but views the ocean in general and every ocean creature as its kintype.

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✦ Name(s): Coral, Amy, Lenni ✦ Pronouns: they/them, it/its, she/her, ce/cer/cers/cerself, shx/hxr/hxrs/hxrself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: same as body ✦ Role(s): subsystem co-host, socializer, manager ✦ Labels: trixensexual, gxrl ✦ Xenos: rainbows, bubbles, glitter ✦ Interests/likes: fashion, dogs, pixel art ✦ Dislikes: plans changing, being wrong ✦ Music taste: mallsoft, indie pop ✦ Aesthetic(s): seapunk ✦ Kins: coral, golden retrievers, crystals ✦ Emoji proxy: 🪸💎 ✦ Details:

Coral is the co-host of the Starfish Collective. It likes fashion, especially wearing jewelry made out of its namesake, and has dyed coral hair. She has the same natural friendliness as Aqua but none of the social anxiety, meaning they can help Aqua (or other system members) navigate social situations more comfortably and easily. Socially-speaking, Coral is more motivated by the opportunity to make friends than just getting attention (as opposed to other members of the system). Coral likes being organized and knowing exactly what they are going to do. This contributes to them helping the system keep on top of daily tasks. They like making plans for things for the system to do - not just socially but also things such as budgeting for new hobbies, planning to go new places, or finding new games/shows/etc. for the system to play/watch/etc. She is not the best with flexibility and sometimes overestimates the system's availability of time or energy.

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✦ Name(s): Abyss, Shade, Freezing ✦ Pronouns: it/its, they/them, x/xs/xself, et/ets/etself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: a few years younger than the body ✦ Role(s): symptom holder, trauma holder ✦ Symptoms experienced: depression ✦ Labels: gendervoid, bi aroace ✦ Xenos: void, cold, space ✦ Interests/likes: light strings, being alone, horror movies ✦ Dislikes: bright lights, socializing ✦ Music taste: drone metal, deathdream ✦ Aesthetic(s): voidcore ✦ Kins: angler fish, black holes, demons ✦ Emoji proxy: 💡🐟 ✦ Details:

Abyss holds negative feelings for the system, including depression, sadness, emptiness, and any feelings related to feeling unwanted. It relates to deep sea creatures because they are seen as scary, ugly, and obscure. It prefers darkly-lit rooms with colorful light strings put up in them. It has a baseline layer of distrust towards those outside the system and might need help warming up to friends the system has. X is, however, very good at expressing xs feelings in writing, and while x doesn't tend to front during therapy, its insights are useful to bring up in sessions. Abyss is also good at self-soothing and is generally calm unless something has happened to upset x. It prefers solitary activities, including engaging with horror movies and books, drawing/looking at art, and listening to music (especially finding obscure artists on Bandcamp). When more social members of the subsystem have used up their collective social battery or when they are otherwise stressed by something in specific, Abyss is likely to help them find ways to recharge away from others or stressors.

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✦ Name(s): Fin, Wendy, Ricky ✦ Pronouns: she/her, he/him, they/them, thxy/thxm/thxir/thxirs/thxmself, wave/waves/waveself, ey/em/eir/eirs/emself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: a few years older than the body ✦ Role(s): socializer, replacer, interest holder ✦ Labels: pangenderflux, pansexual ✦ Xenos: sunshine, glitter, flowers ✦ Interests/likes: puzzles, books, shiny objects ✦ Dislikes: being alone, silence ✦ Music taste: synthpop, bitpop ✦ Aesthetic(s): frutiger aero ✦ Kins: dolphins, border collies, mice ✦ Emoji proxy: 🐬🌺 ✦ Details:

Fin is very extroverted and motivated by social attention and making a good impression on people. This is as opposed to Coral, who is friendly and sociable but would not consider hxrself as motivated by social interactions and approval as Fin. Additionally, in social situations where Coral (or someone else) is fronting but finds a situation overwhelming or doesn't know what to do, Fin will take over and front instead, acting on impulse (which may or may not be helpful but is the alternative to inaction). Fin is also very intelligent and enjoys playing puzzle games. Thxy are knowledgeable about any topics the rest of the system consider themselves knowledgeable about and like impressing people with thxir knowledge when possible. Eir favorite form of media is books and enjoys writing like many other members of the system do, but ey also likes playing video games with others and enjoys socializing this way. They relate to both the sociability and the intelligence of dolphins.

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✦ Name(s): Mako, Eric, Chomp ✦ Pronouns: he/him, they/them, it/its, shark/sharks/sharkself, bite/bites/biteself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: 10 years older than the body ✦ Role(s): manager, protector ✦ Labels: genderfaun, bisexual (fem preference), proxvir ✦ Xenos: beaches, slime, sharpness ✦ Interests/likes: horror, surfing, journaling ✦ Dislikes: bland food, eyestrain ✦ Music taste: surf rock, hard rock ✦ Aesthetic(s): slimepunk ✦ Kins: sharks, knives, spider monkeys ✦ Emoji proxy: 🦈📕 ✦ Details:

Mako is the most responsibility-oriented member of the subsystem and helps them maintain a balance between doing the things they want to do and doing the things they need to, frequently initiating tasks. Mako is also a protector for the system, being someone who is less afraid of setting boundaries or standing up for themself than other members of the subsystem are. It may, however, sometimes be aggressive in its protection of the system and may need to work through these tendencies. He also helps the system manage therapy, particularly helping them prepare for sessions, implement coping skills, and write in journals. His protective nature can help him recognize situations in which the system's therapist may not be working in their best interest, and he is not afraid to discuss this if needed. Its fondness for journaling extends to an interest in writing in general, especially horror (which is their favorite genre of movie as well). Like Coral, Mako likes being organized, too, but is better at adapting to changes in plans.

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✦ Name(s): Rina, Kelp, Florina ✦ Pronouns: she/her, they/them, it/its, kelp/kelps/kelpself, shy/hyr/hyrs/hyrself, fae/faer/faers/faerself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: 10 years older than the body ✦ Role(s): caretaker, manager ✦ Labels: genderfae, bisexual (masc preference), juxera ✦ Xenos: comfort, love, food ✦ Interests/likes: baking, stim toys, animals ✦ Dislikes: forgetting things, when warm food/drinks go cold ✦ Music taste: dreampunk, ambient ✦ Aesthetic(s): plantcore ✦ Kins: kelp, rabbits, angels ✦ Emoji proxy: 🌱🫧 ✦ Details:

Rina enjoys taking care of the other members of her system and identifies with the kelp forest as a symbol of life and safety for the creatures that live in it. When the system have trouble taking care of their physical needs, she is the most likely to help them complete necessary tasks. She enjoys baking, both for her system and for friends outside of it, and is the most comfortable with adapted to unforeseen changes. Rina has some of the same protector tendencies as Mako does with regards to protecting the system from having their boundaries disrespected, but kelp is more likely to handle those situations not by firmly standing up for itself but by removing itself from the situation altogether. Kelp gets enjoyment from fulfilling daily tasks for the system, as it feels like helping friends. If other members of the system need help motivating themselves, she can help them with that, such as though allotting rewards for fulfilling responsibilities (e.g. promising they can play video games if they do a certain number of chores).

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✦ Name(s): Bubbles, Dani, Elly ✦ Pronouns: they/them, ey/em, fun/funs/funself, ot/ots/otself ✦ Species: human ✦ Age: age slider/regressor (youngest age is 5, oldest is the body's age) ✦ Role(s): syskid/sysregressor, innocence holder, delight, replacer, paichmate ✦ Labels: mspec, xenogender, neutrois ✦ Xenos: bubbles, fun, candy ✦ Interests/likes: water, playing, baby animals ✦ Dislikes: horror, coffee ✦ Music taste: bitpop, hyperpop ✦ Aesthetic(s): kidcore ✦ Kins: sea otters, rainbows, canaries ✦ Emoji proxy: 🦦🎉 ✦ Details:

Bubbles is an age slider and/or age regressor (whichever fits in better with the system) who holds feelings of happiness, delight, and innocence for the system. Eir oldest age is the same as the body, but ey age-slides/regresses to as young as five years old and is often supervised by Rina and/or Mako. They relate to the cuteness and playfulness of sea otters. They are less affected by trauma and negative emotions the system experiences and, if such things are overwhelming the system, ey can take over the front and play toys or video games to self-soothe. When ey is at a younger age, ey prefers a caretaker or a manager to be fronting with em and will likely try to front trigger one if they are fronting without one. They like going swimming and taking baths, especially if there are pool or bath toys.

[vittimadeldestinodelle15e28]

Colloquio solitario delle 2:44 am

Ragione :"Che cosa vuoi fare della tua vita?"

Io:"Onestamente non lo so.."

R:"Ti chiedo una cosa: non credo che tu voglia essere una perdente, una nullità o sbaglio?"

Io:"No, non sbagli"

R:"Allora perché hai questo atteggiamento da perdente? Perché non reagisci?"

Io:"Non lo so.. Vorrei fare qualcosa davvero, ma è come se avessi un blocco dentro di me, è come se fossi inghiottita da un oblio composto da un nulla infinito che pian piano mi risucchia dentro di sé come un buco nero.

R:"Mmm.. Non credo di seguirti.."

Io:"Hai presente quella sensazione di sprofondare in un abisso interminabile? Senza riuscire a vedere la superficie ma neanche a vedere il fondo, sei già annegata ma non sei ancora morta, senti solo tanto freddo e un bruciore nel petto. Ecco io sento questo. Sento che per quanto ci provi a nuotare in alto affinché possa raggiungere la superficie mi sembra tutto vano e privo di significato, così rinuncio.. Forse una parte di me si è già arresa.. Sento costantemente un bruciore nel petto come se mi mancasse qualcosa, sempre alla ricerca del tassello mancante ma il vero problema non sta tanto nella ricerca del tassello ma sapere quale mi serve per essere finalmente completa; per non parlare poi del freddo che mi circonda, che mi fa sentire distante da tutto come se tutto ciò che mi circonda fosse irreale o alieno a me senza riuscire a trarre qualche significato e così giungo all'apatia. Non lo só, probabilmente sono entrata in un circolo vizioso senza accorgermene, ogni volta mi prometto di fare qualcosa ma finisco sempre per perdere le giornate vorrei solo cercare di uscire.. Magari è per questo che non riesco a fare ciò che dovrei, magari è perché mi sento persa e sto solo cercando di ritrovare la giusta direzione, di riuscire a trovare finalmente un senso alle azioni che faccio, non so"

R:"wow"

Io:"Cosa?"

R:"Mi fa davvero ridere il fatto che tu sia fermamente convinta di queste cazzate, sembra quasi che tu stia cercando una scusa per non fare nulla, ammettilo sei solo pigra"

Io:" Ehi non scherziamo! Io credo davvero di p essere depressa! Io non so cosa mi stia succedendo, non so perché ho questo vuoto e soprattutto ho bisogno di colmarlo solo che non so da cosa, la questione qui è seria!"

R:"Bene allora se la metti su questo piano ti chiedo scusa.. Però lasciati dire almeno questo: Perché non inizi a provarci? Intendo sul serio, sai magari a forza di cercare prima o poi ti ritroverai. Tu provaci, non mi sembra che tu abbia qualcosa da perdere dato che sei sei già persa.. Però davvero, prima di lasciarti inghiottire completamente, provaci. Tu non sei affogata ma stai affogando quindi resisti che prima o poi troverai una spiaggia della salvezza ma fino ad allora ti dico nuota tra le interperie altrimenti non riuscirai mai ad uscirne viva. "

[ghostlycatnaps]

beauty lies in the most unexpected places.

[vanish]

(x)

[sinisterborderline]

[franalejandrove]

“In the immensity of the ocean, in the trace of the sea and the weeping of the stranger, is my heart, begging to be picked up and treated without malice at least.”

[the-worst-of-intentions]

When we first met I took you to the ocean

We sat for hours and breathed the salt air

The salty water soaked our shoes and the whistling wind spun our hair

Now the sea’s a symptom

A vengeful rolling wave,

A salty stinging reminder

Of our relationship’s decay

[personalitiesinpics]

[s4du]

seasick

[dinsintegration]

[maryjosez]

[s-t-a-y-i-n-g]

• тнє αят σƒ нσℓ∂ιηg ση •

[lukaamethysts-blog]

♡☹︎♡☹︎

[ghostlycatnaps]

[wwhatfinn]

[ryamusic]

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