#CDD

[the-starboy-symbiont]

We've been outlining our system server today and we thought we should share our first rule (this isn't the full rule but~)

We also are going to have a channel where systems can discuss syscourse and how it affects them. While we do not personally wish to be involved in syscourse, we can objectively moderate. We also have been made aware that other servers silence even the passing mention of syscourse; we believe that having a dedicated space for this will allow those who do not wish to be involved to mute, and will let folks vent their frustrations without fear of retaliation.

Thinking about creating a small 18+ system discord community

Not like 100% sure right now; doing a test run with some IRL system friends...

Would anybody be interested?

I really don't care to be involved with the syscourse, as I don't even really know how we feel about endos (there's a lot of conflicting feelings in here); however, this community would be specifically traumagenic-only (suspected and self-diagnosis friendly - we are suspected polyfrag and currently seeking a diagnosis but fighting with symptoms to get a psych lined up) for one reason.

That reason is that those of us who are traumagenic need a safe place to talk about their trauma; to have others who understand what they're going through, for solidarity and companionship; and to find friends who understand their experience. I know there are probably other discords like this, but I've been having trouble finding a community that meets my needs, so I might just build one.

It can feel really heavy and burdensome to be a system with no sense of belonging. I want everybody to feel like they belong, but especially those of us who feel especially alone 🫶

[tales-from-syscord]

i very likely have endometriosis, and when talking about it typically shorten it to "endo," which is common to do

i (a traumagenic system) have been told to stop faking DID several times because of this.

syscord is full of geniuses

Pff, that is a little funny. I hope you were able to clear everything up!

[okiimii]

i want to start a discussion!! one much better than all the anti willo stuff <3

besides DID, what can you tell me about other types of CDDs? such as OSDD (1 and 2), P-DID, etc?

i would looove to know more !!! :D i feel like my experiences fit with P-DID !! i would love to know some experiences of less-talked about CDDs :3

[thecircularsystem]

System Ask Game: June!

Theme: PRIDE!

🩷: Sex. What's a spicy, 18+ thing your system experiences?… OR, talk about how your systemhood impacts your sexual orientation.

❤️: Life. What is something about your system that keeps you going?

🧡: Healing. What's something you're proud of in regards to your recovery?

💛: Sunlight. Say something positive about your system!

💚: Nature. What's an analogy you can think of with nature and systemhood?

🩵: Magic and Art. What's something creative you've done involving systemhood?

💜: Serenity. What brings your system peace?

💟: Spirit. How do spiritual beliefs affect your systemhood?

✊🏾: How does being a POC affect your systemhood?

🏳️‍⚧️: What's something interesting regarding gender in your system?

🟣: How does being intersex affect your systemhood?

♿️: How does your systemhood interact with other disabilities you experience?

🏳️‍🌈: What's something you want to share with other systems out there?

🧱: What's something regarding your systemhood that you've had to fight for/about?

🤝: What's an experience you've found you share with singlets?

[disabirbity]

One of the main problems around people with personality disorders (particularly cluster B), psychotic disorders, OSDD/DID/other CDDs or other stigmatised mental conditions is, well... Everything we do gets put back onto our disorder. Every fault, every misstep, every mistake is used as proof to say that the stigma of us all being horrible people is right.

We can say "not everyone with x disorder harms people, and in fact we're more likely to BE harmed and abused than we are to hurt others" as much as we like--and of course, that's a true statement. But the moment someone with a stigmatised mental illness does something wrong, it's "of course you'd do xyz, you're a narcissist" or "checks out with the psychosis".

Someone with ASPD could cut someone off for any valid reason, but anyone else could spin it into "yeah, that's sociopaths for you". Someone with psychosis could wrongfully accuse someone of something and without being given a chance to apologise, suddenly it's "this is why we don't trust delusional people like you" and you're discredited from here on out. Someone with DID could genuinely forget that their alter had an argument with someone and be trying to sort it out, but no one wants to hear that something was forgotten in the amnesia, so and all they get is "see, people with DID just blame everything on their alters".

People with stigmatised disorders are just like anyone else. They're not evil or uniquely capable of harm, but that also means they're not incapable of making mistakes. Everyone is entitled to their own limits but I think people need to be more aware that disabled people can make genuine mistakes and one slip up or argument doesn't mean that pwNPD is secretly manipulating you. Sometimes people are manipulative and you need to be able to tell the difference--just like neurotypicals, disabled people can be abusive. But blaming mistakes or even genuine malice on someone's disorder does nothing but harm a marginalised group of people. If you wouldn't say "of course you would, you're neurotypical" to someone abusing someone else or if that wouldn't make sense to you, why would you do it to disabled people?

[pplatonic]

about a cofront today

[botanical-garden-system]

Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

[fragment-culture-is]

For All The Fragments

What is a fragment?

In short, a fragment is a term used to describe alters that do not have a proper identity and/or are not fully formed. Some fragments may not have roles, source memories, interests, or a personality until they gain an identity, while others may form with part of an identity and even have roles, memories, interests, a personality in development, and some fragments may never gain and identity whatsoever.

Do Not Interact

No DNI here except for haters and fakeclaimers. Anyone and everyone else can interact.

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[candyrain-collective]

a comic about my experience with other people's perception of my DID/OSDD. might do more pages in the future? we'll see.

[deltoradecay]

System culture is filling out those alignment chart memes people use for characters/ocs/etc but for your headmates instead.

[the-starboy-symbiont]

Me in therapy today: and the funny thing is like half of them don't even have faces like

Me: what does that say about my psyche? Like

Me: *laughing nervously* like that's the identity part of a fucking identity disorder right???

Therapist: *raises eyebrows and nods*

(example below the break)

Like, this is Nightmare; Nightmare doesn't feel emotions so we can fucking function when overwhelmed.

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[reimeichan]

"I'm okay with you having DID, I just don't want to talk to or meet any of your alters."

I'm an alter too, you know. Every single time you've interacted with me, I'm an alter. Even before you knew I had DID, even before I knew I had DID, we've been speaking to each other as various different alters. To ask to only interface with one singular version of me because you find the other versions of me uncomfortable to be around is hurtful.

We have little to no control over who's fronting at any particular time. We switch a lot, that's the nature of my system. Even we don't know who's fronting all the time, not least because we're discovering new parts still all these years later.

And, ultimately, they're all me. If you've only met one version of me and like that one version of me, do you truly like me? If you've only ever gotten to know me in that particular mode, how well do you actually know me? How can you say you love me when there's all these other me's that you cast aside and ignore?

You can't say you're okay with my DID but then ask to never get to know my alters. Because, ultimately, that means you never get to know me. And that means you're not okay with my DID- or with me.

[the-io-collective]

do not post your triggers, cues, programs, any of that shit on tumblr dot com. point blank period. do not just hand that info to people who may want to hurt you.

i am not saying this to fearmonger. don't put that shit on a public blog.

[botanical-garden-system]

Someone drowning in 6 feet of water is as equally dead as a person drowning in 20 feet of water.

Please stop comparing trauma and making it a challenge. It’s trauma. Not a competition or medal.