#CDD

[positivitycombopack]

Shoutout to systems who struggle to let out their anger, for whatever reason.

Maybe you struggle to let it out safely; maybe you struggle to let it out in a productive way; maybe you struggle to let it out at all.

Those feelings matter, just like every other feeling, and they need to be processed and let out.

Let yourself be angry. You have permission, if you need it. You can even be angry with me, if that’s what you need.

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Tips for those who may benefit from them, here’s some of the ways I’ve learned to let out angry reactions physically to get the moment to pass:

Ripping up paper

Screaming

Singing loudly

Wii Sports Boxing

Drawing on myself

Punching a pillow

Tensing and untensing my muscles, one by one

These were the best methods I found. For those who are like me and don’t get as much release from venting, these might be good ways to express your anger.

[plurapony]

sysmed is a harmful term!!!

sysmed, the term created to mimic transmed but for the system community. it's meant to be dedicated for those who are exclusionary in a marginalized group.

sure in theory it's fine, but that's just not the way it's used in the community. it is exclusively used as insult towards those with CDDs - no one ever introduces themselves as a sysmed. it's an inherently negative term and honestly? it's dehumanizing.

many systems may express boundaries with endogenics, or they make posts filled with emotion and driven by their own personal trauma that are against endogenics. many systems in the community have been subject to harassment by endogenics. there are many plausible reasons for a system with a CDD to be anti-endo that AREN'T just simply "i don't think endogenics should exist"

and by calling that system out and using the term sysmed to describe them, you are tearing apart all the context and reducing them to "they are a bad person" and telling all your followers "hey look this system is a BAD person" and not only that but you are also eliminating ANY chance for a coherent discussion.

in conclusion, sysmed is a shitty fucking term that is solely used for bullying and demonizing others and removes any possibility of having a proper discussion. if you disagree with someone's opinions jumping straight to insults is a one way trip to guarantee that you've got a super weak argument against them.

[IMAGE ID: ponyville is a (pro) endo free zone break dni and get blocked loser! END ID]

[rottenteeth]

If DID only brings you suffering and misery that is normal. People talk about not having to be miserable to have DID and maybe some people find fun in their memory loss or intrusive communication. That's fine and a normal coping mechanism.

However, this is a trauma disorder, people with severe PTSD and dissociation will likely not think their trauma induced symptoms are genuinely funny. If that's how you cope cool but let's not diss people for being miserable because of an inability to function normally.

I personally don't find it funny when I feel as though I don't know the people in my home. I don't find it funny when I have distain for my friends. I don't find it funny when I have flashbacks and then can't remember the content of them and have to move on with a sense of unknowing. I don't have alters make silly comments on what I'm doing, I have severe intrusive thoughts that I have no connection to. My alters are keeping me alive, my brain is keeping me alive and it causes suffering and confusion and I am not able to trust my world view.

I love you systems who are suffering, even if you are in treatment, even if you know wallowing in your suffering is harmful. You cannot heal without first feeling your pain. Reality fucking sucks and I love you.

[thickramen]

friendly reminder that CDDs are DISORDERS. they negatively impact your quality of life by definition. if it doesn't make you struggle, if it doesn't make you suffer, it's not a CDD.

[d33pwaterabyss]

Wishing every system, median, and ally a good and safe holidays

~💙

[corinescorner]

Fusion versus Integration: Are They Truly the Same?

First, what are they? Fusion is a process where two or more system members combine to form a single, unified identity. Integration, however, refers to the process of increasing communications, cooperation, and understanding between system members by lowering dissociative barriers.

The purpose of fusion is recovery. It can be partial (involving only some members) or final (where all members fuse into one.) It's a result of interal work and/or changes in system dynamics. Fusion could also not be final, and you're still able to split a new member.

Integration's purpose is also recovery, just a bit different. Unlike fusion, integration does not require members to fuse into one identity. It involves healing dissociative barriers and reducing internal conflicts.

Integration can improve quality of like and functionality while still not being a singular identity. Some integrated systems often describe feeling "whole," not beacuse they're one, but because they work together as one. There's a sense of connection and shared understanding, even as the system members' identities stay intact.

Why does this matter? Not all systems seek fusion, some value their system/plurality and do not view it as a condition to be resolved. Integration provides and alternative for systems that want to work together better while mantaining individuality.

They're both very personal processes, and both very valid ways of healing.

[midnight-userboxes]

system terms userboxes ☕️

-> art credit: @/_artizzy on insta

[botanical-garden-system]

Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

[candyrain-collective]

a comic about my experience with other people's perception of my DID/OSDD. might do more pages in the future? we'll see.

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[reimeichan]

"I'm okay with you having DID, I just don't want to talk to or meet any of your alters."

I'm an alter too, you know. Every single time you've interacted with me, I'm an alter. Even before you knew I had DID, even before I knew I had DID, we've been speaking to each other as various different alters. To ask to only interface with one singular version of me because you find the other versions of me uncomfortable to be around is hurtful.

We have little to no control over who's fronting at any particular time. We switch a lot, that's the nature of my system. Even we don't know who's fronting all the time, not least because we're discovering new parts still all these years later.

And, ultimately, they're all me. If you've only met one version of me and like that one version of me, do you truly like me? If you've only ever gotten to know me in that particular mode, how well do you actually know me? How can you say you love me when there's all these other me's that you cast aside and ignore?

You can't say you're okay with my DID but then ask to never get to know my alters. Because, ultimately, that means you never get to know me. And that means you're not okay with my DID- or with me.

[blooming-foliage]

apparently theres 5 threat responses documented now!

from a trauma & dissociation workbook page our therapist shared

[plurapony]

Introjects. Let's Talk.

There are SO many assumptions based on introjects. It seems many believe that in order to have an introject of a character you must know absolutely everything about the character, you must be going through horrific trauma, introjects must be one to one of the character and that is extremely rare to have introjects in the first place.

All of these assumptions are (obviously) BALONEY!

Splits are caused by ANY stress/trauma. They are negatively induced but they also can be for very mild reasons, it all comes down to YOUR brain and whether you have a low or high split tolerance. It simply happens whenever there is a problem your brain needs to fix and none of your parts/alters would fit to role required, your brain will then create a new one! And sometimes it happens to take inspiration from someone that already exists either in fiction or the real world - it's really not that revolutionary, quite simple actually. And I have a hypothesis that autistic people have a higher rate of introjects due to inability to conceptualize but unfortunately no research has been done as of yet so.

For this particular post I want to introduce you to three of our parts. Adrian (he/she), Ash (they/he/she) and Kaya (she/her). All three of these parts are introjects that are based purely on perception rather than what is canon!

Adrian is an introject of the character Rookie from Club Penguin. As we never ventured into the lore of the penguins in the game, our brain made assumptions based on appearance. Adrian's main role in the system is to be silly and lighthearted - to just be unapologetically himself.

Ash is an introject of the character Ashley Graves from The Coffin of Andrew and Leyley. This is a game we have never played and know very little about! However it is a game our wife enjoys and we had seen the image of Ashley a lot. During the time Ash split we were feeling a lot of pressure to be good, to be sober, to work full-time and Ash split to rise against that and remove some of the overwhelming emotions we were experiencing. Our brain again made assumptions based on the characters appearance and that was what worked for us!

Kaya is an introject of the character Kayo Majiba from Machimaho: I Messed up and Made the Wrong Girl into a Magical Girl! We've never read the manga she is from and have only seen some panels, but apparently that was enough for our brain! Still relatively new compared to the other two but we believe she exists to be a pure ball of rage that just wants the world to burn.

INTROJECTS ARE SO NUANCED! They can be exactly like the character they are sourced from, they can be nothing like the character they are sourced from! You can have watched every single piece of media of their source, or watched none at all! There shouldn't be such in the box assumptions made about a category that is so wide!!!

And to everyone out there that has introjects that don't act like the pre-existing character/person they have introjected from, have introjects of a character from a media you have never partaken in, or anything else that goes against the norm of what is assumed about introjects - please never forget your validity. Someone else's misconceptions about how the disorder works will never be a valid reason for fakeclaiming.

Introjects in general! Your existence shouldn't be questioned based on dumb presumptuous opinions online!

[thehealingsystem]

if you ever wonder why I don't interact with the traumagenic community as a traumagenic system this is why

[thickramen]

Fusion: What it is, and what it isn't!

Fusion is one of those things about CDDs that is extremely misunderstood. You'll see people saying that fusion kills your alters, or that you can fuse from traumatic/stressful events. Neither of these things are true.

In order to understand fusion we need to understand integration. Integration, in the context of CDDs, is the breaking down of dissociative barriers between alters, and fusion - in its most simple terms - is the final step of integration.

How does integration work?

Good question! As I've already stated, integration is the breaking down of dissociative barriers between alters. Integration can happen in a lot of different ways. Trauma processing, headspace visualization, and pretty much anything that improves system communication, understanding, and cooperation cause integration to happen. And when you think about it, that's just what integration is. Or more accurately, it's what integration does. It breaks down maladaptive dissociative barriers and improves overall functioning within the system. Fusion is the final step in this process.

So, what is fusion?

Fusion is when two (or more) alters come together and become one. It happens when the dissociative barriers between the two (or more) alters are completely dissolved and the alters involved are cooperative and compatible with one another (Fusion will not happen if an involved alter wants it to not happen). Basically, fusion brings two (or more) alters together so closely that they become one in the same. So really, it's the opposite of losing or killing your alters, it's bringing your alters closer together.

Why can't fusion happen due to trauma/stress?

Well, that lies in the nature of CDDs and the nature of fusion itself.

CDDs, at their core, are coping mechanisms, we know this. Alters form to protect you from the inescapable trauma you endured as a child. Stress and further traumatization worsen CDDs; they split more alters and builds up dissociative barriers. And as we've already covered, fusion is the opposite of that. That's why you can't fuse due to trauma/stress.

Fusion is healing.

[jabberwock-islanders]

something i wanna clear up in the sys community

some of the people on this site need to realize that not all alters/parts/headmates in a system split only due to trauma. "traumaendo" isnt a thing.

we have a collection of splits that arent due to trauma. usually these splits are from general stress, anxiety, etc. there are even times where we arent going through a noticeably stressful event, but we split a new headmate because our identity issues are constantly affecting us even when we arent going through anything traumatic or stressful.

even though we have headmates that split from things other than trauma, we are still a traumagenic system because the system itself formed from trauma. one alters reason for splitting does not (and will never) change that. while an alter can split from things outside of trauma, systems can only exist because of trauma. there is a fine line between the two.