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what some people don’t understand about plurality is that it’s not SUPPOSED to happen. plurality only exists in those who have had at ONE POINT in their life had did/osdd. it is a DISORDER, not something you put on your tumblr to identify yourself with. there is so much more with DID than just being plural and having alters, it’s the memory loss, the flashbacks, the dissociation.

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trying to track switches vs "who am i, who am i, what is going on, where am i, i dont belong here, whats happening, why dont i know who i am" more than half of the day

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being friends w systems is nuts cuz youll have a guy in the friend group that goes away for a bit and comes back like "i got out of the nightmare loop" or "sorry i was gone i got put in the torment nexus" and its not even an exaggeration they really were in the nightmare loop or the torment nexus for a week and are forced to be normal about it

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When you’re mid sentence and suddenly forget literally everything you were talking about

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Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

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System culture is wishing people would just fucking lay off and let fictives separate in their own time because it's a natural progression of living a new life and it's so much easier when you're not being forced to pretend to be someone you're not.

💿 from 🌇

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What they don't tell you about DID is that almost everything is just vibes. Literally just vibes. System mapping, inner world, knowledge about alters in general - vibes.

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Reminder: your anxiety is lying to you, you are so gorgeous, loved and everything is going to be okay !

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system communication be like

they won't tell you this in therapy but sometimes the best way to stop catastrophizing/anxiety is to interrupt your spiraling with "girl what the hell are you talking about"

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I am a mosaic of everyone I have ever known and loved and touched and I find fragments of them in my playlists and how I make my tea. we may not know each other any more but we will stay connected like this. I hope a fragment of me is with you too.

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im a different girl every hour u have to understand this

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hello system tumblr, i just wanted to say you are vaild and i love you!!

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Hey systems! it is perfectly okay to view your system positively.

It's not anti recovery to be happy with the amount of alters you have

its not anti recovery to not want final fusion

it's not anti recovery to be thankful or greatful when a new alter is split

its not anti recovery to be best friends with your alters, even dating them! it's self love

It's not bad to be happy you are a system, personally, it saved me, and I'm thankful for my system every day!

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your life is not an optimization problem

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sys culture is wanting to cut your hair but also grow it long but also dress with one style but also dress like another and look masc but also fem but also andro or just not a human at all

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"Why are you acting differently??" I'm not. I'm acting like I always do. I'm not the host. I will not act like them. I have told you this. I'm gonna eat your skin if you ask me that one more time. /j

- Elijah ( 🧿 ) he/it/eye

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