#by cyan

[reimeichan]

"I'm okay with you having DID, I just don't want to talk to or meet any of your alters."

I'm an alter too, you know. Every single time you've interacted with me, I'm an alter. Even before you knew I had DID, even before I knew I had DID, we've been speaking to each other as various different alters. To ask to only interface with one singular version of me because you find the other versions of me uncomfortable to be around is hurtful.

We have little to no control over who's fronting at any particular time. We switch a lot, that's the nature of my system. Even we don't know who's fronting all the time, not least because we're discovering new parts still all these years later.

And, ultimately, they're all me. If you've only met one version of me and like that one version of me, do you truly like me? If you've only ever gotten to know me in that particular mode, how well do you actually know me? How can you say you love me when there's all these other me's that you cast aside and ignore?

You can't say you're okay with my DID but then ask to never get to know my alters. Because, ultimately, that means you never get to know me. And that means you're not okay with my DID- or with me.

[greens-spilled-tea]

Hey, people who experience psychosis and are/were religious... how do these two experiences play into each other, if at all? I remember when I was Christian, my religious beliefs ended up really exacerbating my psychotic symptoms and it felt like my delusions were being encouraged. How do you tell the difference between a delusion vs a spiritual belief? Is there any meaningful difference at all? I feel like I have to stay away from being religious at all for fear of my psychosis symptoms being worse, and though I have no intention to really engage with any religious practices at all anymore I don't want to feel closed off from being religious at all if that's something I may end up pursuing in the future.

[sillayangel]

how did senshi say this with his mouth

[nyaa]

[チェリ藻]

[shoomlah]

"I have her! ...I lost a few men in the process, but I would have gladly paid a hundred times that number for such a prize."

#MYSTober day 9: Rebellion.

[aceofstars121]

I made the guys in the style of the cursed etho skizz built

Bonuses!

Cursed skizz (my first attempt)

Etho but if I built him the same way I built the other guys if that makes sense

Me for fun (:

[0tappaja0arts]

Thought I'd post these really old Monster Hunter styled lizard icons. :3

Free to use stuff

[breakbleheavens]

Got a new dress for you and everything 😁

TAYLOR SWIFT The Eras Tour — Miami, Florida (Night 1) | October 18, 2024

[emberglowfox]

weird bugs on a mission

[viyojo]

[mish-mash-marsh]

The Queen has arrived!

(I feel like the Pearl Winning Compilation has been expanding at a very rapid pace.)

Made some art to celebrate the victories :)

[reimeichan]

I really admire the people in my life who have the patience to actually understand and accept my DID. I remember a time, before I or the people around me knew about my disorder, where everyone would be frustrated time and time again as we had the same conversations over and over. How I would be frustrated at not being able to remember these conversations. How my friends and loved ones would be frustrated at having to say the same things to me over and over. How it felt like nothing ever got anywhere despite our best efforts.

And we'd try so many things to get around that. Note taking, lists, schedules, alarms... But these things only work to a certain extent. Notes are always infallible and prone to leaving things out, or you may misinterpret or misremember or even just not remember why you wrote down what you did. Lists and schedules only work if you actually remember to check them. Alarms only work if you even remember to set them. And you can't always rely on the people around you to send reminders either.

"You have to try harder to remember", they'd say. "You forget things because you don't care". "You don't actually care, that's why you choose to forget these things", as if I had a choice in what I could and could not remember. And these statements hurt so much, and they still ring in my ears anytime I feel like I've forgotten something even as small as what I had for breakfast.

So when I now have people in my life who will slow down for me and calmly repeat a conversation with me, who will actually gladly have these same conversations with me again and again... I guess I feel lucky to have people who genuinely try to understand me and meet me where I'm at. They don't see my memory problems as something I have to "work on", they just accept that it's a thing and will accommodate however they need to. And yeah, it can be an annoyance to deal with and may even cause problems for them, but they don't take out their grievances on me, and I very much appreciate them for that.

And sometimes, I find myself on the other side of that. I have friends and family with memory issues as well, where I find myself having to rehash things with them over and over and over again. In the past, I, too, would get snappy and impatient. Why can't they just bother to remember? Is it really that hard? But now I remember my own struggles with memory, and so I attempt to extend that same patience to them. They're not forgetting things on purpose, they can't help it. The least I can do is provide them some understanding; after all, it's not so different from how I have a tendency to forger things too, with the double-whammy combination of DID and ADHD.

I guess I'm grateful for the people in my life who have been able to model healthier behaviors for me, so that I, too, can become a better support for those around me.

[greens-spilled-tea]

Hello yes y'all are cool and also nice and I appreciate your nuanced takes. I am also v proud of you for how much you've grown since i started reading your posts, thank you for being a friend ^^

danke much <3 it's honestly been really fun to learn new things and learning from other people and their experiences and I'm glad that's reflected in my posts. and thank YOU for being a friend!

[sillayangel]

gwen stacy vlc media player tshirt

[nyaa]

[幾田]

[shoomlah]

My latest poster for Riven, designed to match my Myst poster from last year, is up on the Cyan store (link in source)! This was an absolute love letter to the original game—a beast to finish with all those tiny little walkways in the village, but totally worth it.

Some additional detail shots: