#But I am kinda sad now
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real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet 🤢🤢🤢 (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches 🍑🍑🍑)
im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in
#yes the 🍑🍑🍑was just an excuse to shove ass emojis in your face i'm only (occasionally. allegedly) human#now ask me about my FIRST worst new year eve. it involves wizards and portals and elaborate lies i make up on the spot#SAD REAL TALK <STARTS>:#also made the mistake of reaching out to my mom post-xmas#like what kind of c-ptsd NOOB does that. what kinda chronic holiday trauma survivor NOVICE??? embarrassing#THE SEDUCTIVE FALSE HOPE OF NOSTALGIA WILL LURE YOU IN EVERY TIME#'oh but maybe they won't disappoint me. but maybe they won't rip my heart out this time'#sweetheart that's your dear sweet inner child's yearning for what never was or will be. BEAT IT BACK WITH A STICK!#SAD REAL TALK <ENDS>#....back to that part where i talked about being bent out of shape#if anyone w/ metalwork skills wants ta take a blowtorch & hammer & tongs & have at... I'm open to experimentation is all im sayin#in lieu of that i would also welcome someone buying me a sandwich. i am. so sore.#(metaphysically sore but also the other more urgent im-at-my-daily-NSAIDs-limit kinda sore)#(hence: sanwimch)#...i got so sleepy writing this i started imagining the astonishing hedonism#of stroking a freshly grilled cheese-dripping sandwhich across my body like a loofah#the soothingness of the gooey warm near liquid cheese. the vaguely spongelike quality of toasted sourdough slice.#look i didn't imagine it on PURPOSE it just came to me like a vision like a threat#like one of those weird mens locker room ads where the sportsball is watermelon??? u know the one#where there's nudity & food & homoerotica & hot steaming showers in the background and STILL the overall effect is more offputting than sex#look i have a throat infection. i can barely swallow. i'm sipping chocolate milk to survive and i'm NOT EVEN ENJOYING IT. each drop is agon#(opposite side of the Tantalus spectrum but i'm suffering more than he has in 3.5 thousand years)#i'm dehydrated. barely conscious. electrolytes are circling down the drain. doctors should be incubating me w/ capri sun straws right now.#I GET A PASS ON THESE TAGS#i don't know what i wrote! and i don't stand by it! and you can't make me read em!!!
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tranny freak :)
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#Negativity#Transphobia#I don't know what to tell you buddy I'm not sure what your goal is here#I am genuinely so much happier like this#Figuring out that I'm a tranny freak has been the absolute best thing ever#All the loved ones who I've come out to have been so welcoming and supportive#I get to experiment with my appearance like I haven't done since my punk days in highschool#And I've always been a weirdo so freak isn't even hurtful that's been a point of pride for decades#What made you want to hurt a stranger buddy#What are you going through#Are you gonna read this and scoff cause I took a troll sincerely#Why are you so afraid of genuine connection#Why are you scared of people#Are you happy with your life right now#Do you like yourself#How much time do you spend doing this#Do you think the negativity might be getting to you#How much time do you spend feeling repulsed scornful and annoyed towards others that you gotta do something about it#I'm really sorry#I used to be a similar kinda angry and that shit taints everything#Idk man I just hope you can see the joy in things someday#There's so much cool and exciting stuff you can find when you start looking for happiness and good intentions#Kinda sad that you're missing out
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ghost!ghost wip
#wip#ghost!ghost#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#soap x ghost#ghost x soap#cod fanart#fucking finally#my bad ghost!ghost enjoyer lol#wanna ramble here no need to read#big depressed for the past few weeks and busy as heckkk#had to socialized with people a lot#and be sad#the negative energy was strong bc someone died#also i know i said i'm gonna disappear but it's just a mindset thing really#as if mybody is not gonna do that just to spite my own self#like oh you wanna rest??? NUH UH#it's strange but it worked so here i am#and i did some jounaling??? writing a diary thingy??? pouring my heart out into it kinda#good for my mental bc it's relieving and made me forget of my woes#i'm sad still but it's manageable now#the tired feeling won't go away though#sorry for complaining and being the way i am#thank god for ghostsoap my sun and my moon
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Genuinely as an artist the Anime Ref sheets are a fucking GODSEND because some of these fuckers are so complex and dont get a lot of attention (cough cough Bisharp) so finally having some decent turnaround sheets, MMMM TASTY
#kinda sad we only have 1-5.......for now#AND FUCK CACTURNE??? WHO HAS NOT APPEARED SINCE GEN 3?????#god i am eating well#teraleak
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(minor and brief spoilers of the protagonist if you haven’t started the game at all but plan to)
[very self-insert about wuthering waves. kinda combined with genshin, of course (its my main bitch)]
so i have thoughts about wuthering waves…
self aware thoughts…
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i like the game so far!
at this time, ive been judging the controls, story, characters, and combat of wuwa and compare it genshin
there are things i like, and things i feel meh about (it hasnt been out for even a week yet so im cool with it for now)
however, i have been more raised eyebrow towards the characters and controls of the game. since they are the key things that make me stay besides a cool story
ive mainly noticed there are some quality of life features they miss compared to genshin. but also some that they have that genshin doesnt
i chant praises for the features and gameplay they have genshin doesnt. but get pretty frustrated about what they dont have
i always try to reason that its basically an infant at the moment, but gamer rage gets the best of me frequently
so (like with genshin sometimes), i roar my frustrations at my screen
“ugh, genshin has this! why dont you?”
“oh my god, you are so slow.”
“yeah, yeah, ive seen this all before. when do things get interesting?”
sighing, huffing, and palming my face in irritation
and they hear this, and are conflicted
but similarly to traveler in the beginning, i think rover would be the only one to be self aware at this point. the others still have to gain it
so besides their memory lost, theyre also dealing with an unknown and higher being that controls them. with no way to prevent it, or predict when the next time they do will happen
they are conflicted further when they realize theyre helping them get stronger and achieve the same goal as them
what does this mean? who is this? and why are they helping them if they sound like they hate them so much?
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note: rushed. and i do actually like this game btw lmao. i just needed to get a part of my frustrations off my chest. overall, this game has a lot of potential i think! the graphics are amazing, and the combat is very interesting (i love combat so much)
i may also write for wuthering waves. if i feel strongly enough about it
since ive been into sagau for almost as long as ive been into canon genshin. yet i only write now ( ̄▽ ̄;)
#ok this is making me sad now#i make no promise to be nicer tho /lh#i just wanted to express some frustration#but i actually am so hooked on this game#since this is the third rpg gacha game ive started#like of free ones#the magic of it is kinda? faded?#so I became more judgy since my standard is now genshin#HOWEVER THE BIG DIFFERENCE? I get three gauranteed 5*#(two are free)#like hello? hi?#yes wuthering waves i love you#self aware wuthering waves#wuthering waves#sagau#genshin impact sagau#genshin sagau#sagau genshin#twinsy self aware WuWa (digital)
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✈️🌊🐬 blue 🐬🌊✈️
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#sentai#boonboomger#gekiranger#kyuranger#hurricaneger#go onger#toqger#king ohger#137/172 DONE#lost my mind for a minute there but i got it back and finished these damn blues#theres a lot to love here tho#renn. gouki. shima. ozora. nanbara. nanami. SHOJI. KOTARO. you get the idea#uuuuuuuh no deathryuger for the same reason there wont be a zeek gogov#no ramirez because for the doubled up kyoryugers i have decided i am only drawing one and that one will be the character i like better#for if i drew all the kyoryugers i fear i would actually be driven mad#stripe brigade currently at 6 members (7 if you count bun who is a stripe brigade member in spirit)#ken is telling you that its not even raining that hard and if you dont hurry up and run the lap he is going to beat your ass#renn has made you breakfast please say thank you#anpan oume.#finishing the blues means so many teams are now completed and ngl its making me kinda sad#what do you mean i have no more dynaman left to draw 🥺🥺🥺#2024 art tag
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@luztoyeweek 2024 day 1 - i'll be seeing you by billie holliday
#luztoyeweek2024#...yeah i made myself REAL SAD WITH THIS ONE#the seeing you in all the familiar places and the always thinking of you that way....#the lyrics talking about the “day” imagery with them young and happy during currahee#followed with the “looking at the moon” imagery and them during breaking point#...i feel like i should apologize#FUCK i didnt even have this on my luztoye playlist before the week prompts came out but boy howdy has it consumed my soul for luztoye now#but yeah i was super inspired to do the spotify lyrics-esque edit and im kinda obsessed with it!!#(also yes i know this is a day late from the prompt shhhhhhhhhh)#happy luztoye week i guess 😭#luztoye#otp: hell of an idea#george luz#joe toye#band of brothers#bofb#hbowar#em's edits#mine#also just a HUGE shoutout to rie for putting this week together!!! seriously the prompts are SO cool and i am so in love with it!!!
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yeah, reverse 1999 2.2 is probably the worst patch this game had, about the way they represent the location i mean. I am kinda sad about how terrible this patch is, because even with anjo nala slowly becoming my favorite character of the game, this still is the worst chapter yet. I haven't finished yet, i am probably in the middle of the chapter, but shit, the way this chapter show brazil is so bad, so, so bad.
Anjo Nala is a great character, but she is not brazillian sadly (i would love if she was brazillian), she is the best character in this chapter and she is so cute, she acts like a cat. Despite being a Succubus, she is not only about sex, this is something new to a succubus character, often reduced to just sex, sex and sex. She is sexy, a lot, but she don't have sex as her personality, she is, to be honest, really, really cute, her interactions make her look so precious. And a bit tragic too.
Lopera i don't really know what to think about her, she is not bad, kinda the opposite, i am still in the middle in the chapter and her character still is being build. She is from colombia, she looks like a cool character, might pull for her because meta reasons and her design is cool.
Now Mr. Duncan, he makes me uncomfortable, he kinda represents everything wrong with this chapter, something clearly made with little to no study about brazil, about the events that happened here in history. His skin color is only a problem because they put him in that white savior bullshit, the white dude that saves the people from the favelas (that is usually represented as people of color, with is kinda accurate, sadly). The worst part of his character is that he is a veteran brazillian soldier. This decision was taken probably without knowing about the dictatorship that happened here in brazil leaded by the military 5 years before the events of the chapter. If not the white savior bullshit, it would be totally fine if he was white, his skin color is only a problem because of the choice they made with his character.
The way they represent são paulo, one of the biggest cities in the world, is terrible, the clothes of the npcs don't look like someone would use it in their daily lives anywhere in the entirety of latin america in the 90s. The setting of the chapter looks like they wanted to make it in mexico, but was too much offensive stereotypes together, so they put favelas on it and called Brazil and são paulo, without any study or thinking. And the fact that they keep talking about how ABSOLUTE SHIT IS TO LIVE IN THAT PLACE is worse, they made it worse.
I am disappointed with bluepoch and will put that on the survey, usually never do them, but this time i will, shit like this cannot happen again. I don't have plans to stop playing the game, it is one of my favorite gacha games that i play and i have no plans to stop playing because of 2.2, but i am disappointed, a lot, and i hope they never do this shit again, for the gods, please, i really hope they never do those mistakes again.
Also spoilers of 8TH-14. A chapter foccused in the military, on brazil, in the 90s is a shit ideia, after all, the connotations of a chapter focused on the military that happens only 5 years after the end of the military dictatorship could be terrible, but looks like Zeno are the villains in this chapter, with Igor being a villain and all, working with Manus, so it makes less bad, i will discover more as i read the rest of the chapter, in a hope to get out less angry, if the chapter give me enough of Anjo Nala i will probably end more happy than angry if they don't do something worst than they have done yet.
#reverse 1999#2.2#this chapter is so bad#in the way they show brazil#it could be such an amazing chapter#it could atract so many brazillians to play this game#we kinda love when our country is represented in a cool way#by foreign works#but no#they messed up so bad#so#bad#this game is probably hated now by a lot of brazillians#i am really sad and angry#i don't hate reverse 1999#but i am angry with bluepoch right now#Anjo nala is the best thing in this chapter#she is so lovely#and amazing#and cute#but i am angry
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Juno deserves a little broding, as a treat.
#juno steel#peter nureyev#the penumbra podcast#my art#tpp#gosh these two are hard to draw#idk when this would take place and im not happy with the backround but if i didnt make fanart now i was gonna explode#i binged all of juno steel and second citadel up to season 2 in like a week and a bit#it was very good but now im kinda sad i dont get to binge more :( its good for my sleeping habits tho lol#also for my dndads followers my sister thought this was hermie and normal in an au and i am dying pls send help
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Hell yeah dude congrats on the mini human!!! If you’re craving chocolate chip cookies, brownies etc but don’t want to worry about a messy kitchen after, there’s a few ways to make single servings in a mug in the microwave and a few of them don’t use egg if you’re worried about things like salmonella and any other health concerns that come with not using a conventional oven. Also, if you REALLY want another layer of protection, heat treating flour can kill a lot of harmful stuff as well for extra peace of mind. Either spread a thin layer on a cooking sheet and bake at ≈150°C (converted from freedom units lol) for 10 minutes, or you can nuke a bowl of it in the microwave for 30 second intervals, stirring occasionally.
I know when my mom was having my sister years ago, she had to be careful about things that were normally okay before and my dad would take a couple extra precautions when cooking for us.
I’ve also seen packets of Betty Crocker mix in stores marketed as “(X) in a mug” (the blueberry muffins are my favorite personally)
They’re marketed as just “Mug Treats” and so far I’ve seen one with Hot Fudge Brownie, one with Soft Chocolate Chip Cookie, and another with Funfetti.
Whew, sorry for the yapping 😅 I just remembered you mentioned craving chocolate and sweets so I thought I’d share with the class in case you wanted baked goods quickly and without all the mess afterwards.
Congrats again on the pregnancy, and don’t let the bastards get you down👏 you’re doing awesome
THANK YOU this is godsent, omg🙏🏻😭💗
I'll share it for everyone who's also pregnant or just hungry for no reason🫡 this is amazing and easy (and I'm a great cook and baker! I love being in the kitchen) I made one a week ago and then I made 5 more (aka my own mom made them with/for me) and I said it was literally the best thing my taste buds have ever witnessed in that moment. it really hit the spot. we also threw some cherries from a jar in that bih and it's🤌🏻 chef kiss
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I should have put some empty mugs around him but this still conveys an accurate picture of what my past few weeks looked like
#love you for the no-egg recipes as I am allergic to eggs!#and a million other things! I rather list the things that my body won't violently reject than the things it will fight as if it's a virus#(I'm not as big; I barely show for some reason)#(which I'm kinda sad about)#(especially bc I feel super pregnant but I don't look like it at 30 weeks unless I wear smth tight or nothing)#but anyway I've been very tired!#no art; not online; just sleeping and eating and honestly chilling#we're almost done with the baby room and then I'll try to get a few more artworks out?#I'm gonna answer other asks soon#I miss a lot of them too bc I get spam-liked to hell here#thank youu again I'm always doing this now!!#villainous#villanos#dr flug#flug#kenning flugslys#vilanesco#villainous dr flug#mpreg#non kink mpreg#domestic mpreg#ask reply#anon ask#fanart#my art#“congrats on the mini human” is now my fav expression I need to remember that#did I mention how tired I am#I'm about to knock out as I write this
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Its official. I am now a TATTOO APPRENTICE
#read this with the ‘it’s official. I’m now LICENSED’ tiktok in mind if you want to giggle#anyways#YAYAAAAH!!!! WOOOOO!!!!#I am so fucking tired. but I did it#ty to a certain someone. for pushing me to ask the hard questions lmfao#I have a feeling I will be a little more MIA than usual on here and it makes me kinda sad but I have so so so much to work on now#just know I am out here. being a dogboy in disguise.#dogboy tattoo apprentice#jasperbarks#yapping
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#datv critical#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers#like im gonna be real#im having kind of a weird depression re: dragon age rn because#this series has been my foundational hyperfixation for literally half my life#SIXTEEN YEARS i have been obsessed with this series#and it's just....it just feels over#regardless of whether the series continues it feels to me like the things about it that i loved are just no longer#a focus or a priority or the way it will be made#the spirit of it feels gone#and im not going to say it's impossible for things to change it just feels highly highly unlikely#and i am tired#but this leaves sort of a...hole inside me where this thing has sat for so long#and i mean nothing can take away my experience with the first 3 games and that history#but the fumbling does always make it harder to enjoy what came before because you know it not going anywhere good#and it's just like. what do i fill this with?#i love so many other IPs but this was The One#and now i feel...newly divorced lmfao#well. who knows. maybe bg3's massive success will usher in a new era of story and character focused RPGs#and i'll find something new. but god. i am just kinda sad. but in that way you are sad#when something has been coming to an end for a long time anyway
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That's what you want, isn't it? To lose yourself in me?
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I love/hate how sad he looks when he asks you this.
The confident mask slips as he wonders who exactly you'll be getting lost in because even he doesn't know who he is... and he thinks about all the poor wretches before you, lost in him before being lost to his master. He thinks about how you'll leave a piece of yourself and take a piece in exchange, just like every Sebastian before you. A small price to pay for the protection he thinks he has to buy. Once you figure out how empty he is, how used up and rotted, surely you won't want him anymore but by then he'll have gripped you by the heartstrings. Just like all the others, countless thousands before you. A simple plan. Business as usual. Right?
What is left of the man you were? What parts of you haven't been dragged away, piece by piece, with each soul pulled through you? Are there fragments that remember a father beaming with pride at his clever son? Would he still be proud, to see your sharp fangs snarling back at him? How much of your mother's gentle little boy is left beneath those hungry red eyes? Would she recognize you, bloodstained and hollow? Did your friends carry you to the morgue on the wooden stretcher you use as a bed? Who wrapped you in the blanket that you still cling to? Was it to shield your bruised cheeks from the cold earth as they said goodbye? Did a sister mourn her darling baby brother, were hers the first tears to water the flowers near your empty grave? Did she share your white curls? Or was she a golden sun to your silvery moon? What color were her eyes?
Who's memories am I haunting when I am lost in you?
#astarion#bg3 astarion#bg3#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#help I thought about it too much and now I have the sad#brb gonna go cry#why am i like this#there are people in the world that actually think this is a poorly written character#i'm posting this out of order but I don't care#suffer with me sorry not sorry but kinda sorry
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An interesting theme, imo, in mdzs is the sheer tiredness you must feel when dealing with someone who, having been dead for more than a decade, is still the same person as before, while you aren't anymore.
#I don't have seen people dig into it#And it's reasonable#Mdzs has a lot of interesting themes!#Also we don't feel this because in the novel the main couple is building a completely new relationship#While the only person still alive with whom wwx had a relationship in the past isn't there a lot. So#I realized it while writing this wq fic. And now she meets wwx#And into my mind he tries to recreate the same dynamic as before. But wq just looks at him. Because now she is almost 40#(kinda?? Age in mdzs is nothing but I like old women)#Anyway she isn't the same as 13 years ago#While for wwx isn't much long. For him from the burial mounds at best are 6 months#I am not making sense. sigh#But if I had a bestie in a come. Then they woke up and tried to do the same jokes I would blink and not even laugh#Because I've changed#It's fucking sad#For everyone
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gonna get back into the swing of things with!! some faces I did a bit ago!!!
+ closeups and oc creds under the cut!
the welcome home guys ofc <3
some of my guys!
(Niebla belongs to both me and @akemima ! <3)
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And now, some friends’ ocs!
Lady belongs to @gremliinsart, Keira belongs to @funonion001 !!! :3
Sundown belongs to @carnivalcarrion !! <3
Damon belongs to @sammysun , Wizard belongs to @akemima !! :33 <3<3
#this was a while ago it feels SO OLD#by the way. this was hell to format. tumblr web and mobile both have skill issues idc#welcome home#welcome home fanart#howdy pillar#sally starlet#eddie dear#eddie my beloved <3 eddie my love <3#frank frankly#oh hes my baby…my babygirl…frank…#sorry i forgot how ill i am about them#laughingstock lowkey been ruining my life lately (bogs fault)#AUUUUGHHH FUCKKK I MISS STAMPS.#oh i got a stamps ask a bit ago. gonna finally respond to it#BTW: saying this now bc its been a problem with a lot of people/for a while. i will answer asks that are asks!#people popping in to say hello is always loved ofc <3 but. it clutters up a lot. if youre new/sharing kind words ill respond ofc!#but if youre in my inbox just to be there/to grab my attenion. im not gonna respond😭 this keeps happening and it makes me kinda sad idk#ANYWAY ANYWAY. not gonna waste my tags with a ramble#oc fanart#sherri stitch-up#hotel hubbub#niebla valentine#puppet oc#daiki iyer#indigo’s art#art#indigo’s ocs#other people’s ocs#puppet ocs#expression practice
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Blitz…
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THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME…
#Helluva boss#helluva#blitz#blitzø#blitzo#helluva blitzo#New episode#spoilers#kinda#Post#tumblr#helluvaboss#vivziepop#ARGHHHH#the things you do to me#I HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU#You#You made me cry >:[#Episode 11#helluva boss episode#season 2#helluva boss season 2#Mastermind#New helluva boss episode#Helluva boss season 2 episode 11#Helluva boss mastermind#Man this whole episode was just so… sad#now I am actually going to watch the next episode…#sad#screenshot
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