#But I am kinda sad now
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real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet 🤢🤢🤢 (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches 🍑🍑🍑)
im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in
#yes the 🍑🍑🍑was just an excuse to shove ass emojis in your face i'm only (occasionally. allegedly) human#now ask me about my FIRST worst new year eve. it involves wizards and portals and elaborate lies i make up on the spot#SAD REAL TALK <STARTS>:#also made the mistake of reaching out to my mom post-xmas#like what kind of c-ptsd NOOB does that. what kinda chronic holiday trauma survivor NOVICE??? embarrassing#THE SEDUCTIVE FALSE HOPE OF NOSTALGIA WILL LURE YOU IN EVERY TIME#'oh but maybe they won't disappoint me. but maybe they won't rip my heart out this time'#sweetheart that's your dear sweet inner child's yearning for what never was or will be. BEAT IT BACK WITH A STICK!#SAD REAL TALK <ENDS>#....back to that part where i talked about being bent out of shape#if anyone w/ metalwork skills wants ta take a blowtorch & hammer & tongs & have at... I'm open to experimentation is all im sayin#in lieu of that i would also welcome someone buying me a sandwich. i am. so sore.#(metaphysically sore but also the other more urgent im-at-my-daily-NSAIDs-limit kinda sore)#(hence: sanwimch)#...i got so sleepy writing this i started imagining the astonishing hedonism#of stroking a freshly grilled cheese-dripping sandwhich across my body like a loofah#the soothingness of the gooey warm near liquid cheese. the vaguely spongelike quality of toasted sourdough slice.#look i didn't imagine it on PURPOSE it just came to me like a vision like a threat#like one of those weird mens locker room ads where the sportsball is watermelon??? u know the one#where there's nudity & food & homoerotica & hot steaming showers in the background and STILL the overall effect is more offputting than sex#look i have a throat infection. i can barely swallow. i'm sipping chocolate milk to survive and i'm NOT EVEN ENJOYING IT. each drop is agon#(opposite side of the Tantalus spectrum but i'm suffering more than he has in 3.5 thousand years)#i'm dehydrated. barely conscious. electrolytes are circling down the drain. doctors should be incubating me w/ capri sun straws right now.#I GET A PASS ON THESE TAGS#i don't know what i wrote! and i don't stand by it! and you can't make me read em!!!
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tranny freak :)
#Negativity#Transphobia#I don't know what to tell you buddy I'm not sure what your goal is here#I am genuinely so much happier like this#Figuring out that I'm a tranny freak has been the absolute best thing ever#All the loved ones who I've come out to have been so welcoming and supportive#I get to experiment with my appearance like I haven't done since my punk days in highschool#And I've always been a weirdo so freak isn't even hurtful that's been a point of pride for decades#What made you want to hurt a stranger buddy#What are you going through#Are you gonna read this and scoff cause I took a troll sincerely#Why are you so afraid of genuine connection#Why are you scared of people#Are you happy with your life right now#Do you like yourself#How much time do you spend doing this#Do you think the negativity might be getting to you#How much time do you spend feeling repulsed scornful and annoyed towards others that you gotta do something about it#I'm really sorry#I used to be a similar kinda angry and that shit taints everything#Idk man I just hope you can see the joy in things someday#There's so much cool and exciting stuff you can find when you start looking for happiness and good intentions#Kinda sad that you're missing out
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ghost!ghost wip
#wip#ghost!ghost#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#soap x ghost#ghost x soap#cod fanart#fucking finally#my bad ghost!ghost enjoyer lol#wanna ramble here no need to read#big depressed for the past few weeks and busy as heckkk#had to socialized with people a lot#and be sad#the negative energy was strong bc someone died#also i know i said i'm gonna disappear but it's just a mindset thing really#as if mybody is not gonna do that just to spite my own self#like oh you wanna rest??? NUH UH#it's strange but it worked so here i am#and i did some jounaling??? writing a diary thingy??? pouring my heart out into it kinda#good for my mental bc it's relieving and made me forget of my woes#i'm sad still but it's manageable now#the tired feeling won't go away though#sorry for complaining and being the way i am#thank god for ghostsoap my sun and my moon
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Genuinely as an artist the Anime Ref sheets are a fucking GODSEND because some of these fuckers are so complex and dont get a lot of attention (cough cough Bisharp) so finally having some decent turnaround sheets, MMMM TASTY
#kinda sad we only have 1-5.......for now#AND FUCK CACTURNE??? WHO HAS NOT APPEARED SINCE GEN 3?????#god i am eating well#teraleak
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(minor and brief spoilers of the protagonist if you haven’t started the game at all but plan to)
[very self-insert about wuthering waves. kinda combined with genshin, of course (its my main bitch)]
so i have thoughts about wuthering waves…
self aware thoughts…
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i like the game so far!
at this time, ive been judging the controls, story, characters, and combat of wuwa and compare it genshin
there are things i like, and things i feel meh about (it hasnt been out for even a week yet so im cool with it for now)
however, i have been more raised eyebrow towards the characters and controls of the game. since they are the key things that make me stay besides a cool story
ive mainly noticed there are some quality of life features they miss compared to genshin. but also some that they have that genshin doesnt
i chant praises for the features and gameplay they have genshin doesnt. but get pretty frustrated about what they dont have
i always try to reason that its basically an infant at the moment, but gamer rage gets the best of me frequently
so (like with genshin sometimes), i roar my frustrations at my screen
“ugh, genshin has this! why dont you?”
“oh my god, you are so slow.”
“yeah, yeah, ive seen this all before. when do things get interesting?”
sighing, huffing, and palming my face in irritation
and they hear this, and are conflicted
but similarly to traveler in the beginning, i think rover would be the only one to be self aware at this point. the others still have to gain it
so besides their memory lost, theyre also dealing with an unknown and higher being that controls them. with no way to prevent it, or predict when the next time they do will happen
they are conflicted further when they realize theyre helping them get stronger and achieve the same goal as them
what does this mean? who is this? and why are they helping them if they sound like they hate them so much?
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note: rushed. and i do actually like this game btw lmao. i just needed to get a part of my frustrations off my chest. overall, this game has a lot of potential i think! the graphics are amazing, and the combat is very interesting (i love combat so much)
i may also write for wuthering waves. if i feel strongly enough about it
since ive been into sagau for almost as long as ive been into canon genshin. yet i only write now ( ̄▽ ̄;)
#ok this is making me sad now#i make no promise to be nicer tho /lh#i just wanted to express some frustration#but i actually am so hooked on this game#since this is the third rpg gacha game ive started#like of free ones#the magic of it is kinda? faded?#so I became more judgy since my standard is now genshin#HOWEVER THE BIG DIFFERENCE? I get three gauranteed 5*#(two are free)#like hello? hi?#yes wuthering waves i love you#self aware wuthering waves#wuthering waves#sagau#genshin impact sagau#genshin sagau#sagau genshin#twinsy self aware WuWa (digital)
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✈️🌊🐬 blue 🐬🌊✈️
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#sentai#boonboomger#gekiranger#kyuranger#hurricaneger#go onger#toqger#king ohger#137/172 DONE#lost my mind for a minute there but i got it back and finished these damn blues#theres a lot to love here tho#renn. gouki. shima. ozora. nanbara. nanami. SHOJI. KOTARO. you get the idea#uuuuuuuh no deathryuger for the same reason there wont be a zeek gogov#no ramirez because for the doubled up kyoryugers i have decided i am only drawing one and that one will be the character i like better#for if i drew all the kyoryugers i fear i would actually be driven mad#stripe brigade currently at 6 members (7 if you count bun who is a stripe brigade member in spirit)#ken is telling you that its not even raining that hard and if you dont hurry up and run the lap he is going to beat your ass#renn has made you breakfast please say thank you#anpan oume.#finishing the blues means so many teams are now completed and ngl its making me kinda sad#what do you mean i have no more dynaman left to draw 🥺🥺🥺#2024 art tag
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@luztoyeweek 2024 day 1 - i'll be seeing you by billie holliday
#luztoyeweek2024#...yeah i made myself REAL SAD WITH THIS ONE#the seeing you in all the familiar places and the always thinking of you that way....#the lyrics talking about the “day” imagery with them young and happy during currahee#followed with the “looking at the moon” imagery and them during breaking point#...i feel like i should apologize#FUCK i didnt even have this on my luztoye playlist before the week prompts came out but boy howdy has it consumed my soul for luztoye now#but yeah i was super inspired to do the spotify lyrics-esque edit and im kinda obsessed with it!!#(also yes i know this is a day late from the prompt shhhhhhhhhh)#happy luztoye week i guess 😭#luztoye#otp: hell of an idea#george luz#joe toye#band of brothers#bofb#hbowar#em's edits#mine#also just a HUGE shoutout to rie for putting this week together!!! seriously the prompts are SO cool and i am so in love with it!!!
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Juno deserves a little broding, as a treat.
#juno steel#peter nureyev#the penumbra podcast#my art#tpp#gosh these two are hard to draw#idk when this would take place and im not happy with the backround but if i didnt make fanart now i was gonna explode#i binged all of juno steel and second citadel up to season 2 in like a week and a bit#it was very good but now im kinda sad i dont get to binge more :( its good for my sleeping habits tho lol#also for my dndads followers my sister thought this was hermie and normal in an au and i am dying pls send help
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Its official. I am now a TATTOO APPRENTICE
#read this with the ‘it’s official. I’m now LICENSED’ tiktok in mind if you want to giggle#anyways#YAYAAAAH!!!! WOOOOO!!!!#I am so fucking tired. but I did it#ty to a certain someone. for pushing me to ask the hard questions lmfao#I have a feeling I will be a little more MIA than usual on here and it makes me kinda sad but I have so so so much to work on now#just know I am out here. being a dogboy in disguise.#dogboy tattoo apprentice#jasperbarks#yapping
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An interesting theme, imo, in mdzs is the sheer tiredness you must feel when dealing with someone who, having been dead for more than a decade, is still the same person as before, while you aren't anymore.
#I don't have seen people dig into it#And it's reasonable#Mdzs has a lot of interesting themes!#Also we don't feel this because in the novel the main couple is building a completely new relationship#While the only person still alive with whom wwx had a relationship in the past isn't there a lot. So#I realized it while writing this wq fic. And now she meets wwx#And into my mind he tries to recreate the same dynamic as before. But wq just looks at him. Because now she is almost 40#(kinda?? Age in mdzs is nothing but I like old women)#Anyway she isn't the same as 13 years ago#While for wwx isn't much long. For him from the burial mounds at best are 6 months#I am not making sense. sigh#But if I had a bestie in a come. Then they woke up and tried to do the same jokes I would blink and not even laugh#Because I've changed#It's fucking sad#For everyone
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gonna get back into the swing of things with!! some faces I did a bit ago!!!
+ closeups and oc creds under the cut!
the welcome home guys ofc <3
some of my guys!
(Niebla belongs to both me and @akemima ! <3)
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And now, some friends’ ocs!
Lady belongs to @gremliinsart, Keira belongs to @funonion001 !!! :3
Sundown belongs to @carnivalcarrion !! <3
Damon belongs to @sammysun , Wizard belongs to @akemima !! :33 <3<3
#this was a while ago it feels SO OLD#by the way. this was hell to format. tumblr web and mobile both have skill issues idc#welcome home#welcome home fanart#howdy pillar#sally starlet#eddie dear#eddie my beloved <3 eddie my love <3#frank frankly#oh hes my baby…my babygirl…frank…#sorry i forgot how ill i am about them#laughingstock lowkey been ruining my life lately (bogs fault)#AUUUUGHHH FUCKKK I MISS STAMPS.#oh i got a stamps ask a bit ago. gonna finally respond to it#BTW: saying this now bc its been a problem with a lot of people/for a while. i will answer asks that are asks!#people popping in to say hello is always loved ofc <3 but. it clutters up a lot. if youre new/sharing kind words ill respond ofc!#but if youre in my inbox just to be there/to grab my attenion. im not gonna respond😭 this keeps happening and it makes me kinda sad idk#ANYWAY ANYWAY. not gonna waste my tags with a ramble#oc fanart#sherri stitch-up#hotel hubbub#niebla valentine#puppet oc#daiki iyer#indigo’s art#art#indigo’s ocs#other people’s ocs#puppet ocs#expression practice
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Blitz…
THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME…
#Helluva boss#helluva#blitz#blitzø#blitzo#helluva blitzo#New episode#spoilers#kinda#Post#tumblr#helluvaboss#vivziepop#ARGHHHH#the things you do to me#I HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU#You#You made me cry >:[#Episode 11#helluva boss episode#season 2#helluva boss season 2#Mastermind#New helluva boss episode#Helluva boss season 2 episode 11#Helluva boss mastermind#Man this whole episode was just so… sad#now I am actually going to watch the next episode…#sad#screenshot
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thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333
#the amount of tickets i went through?#let's not talk abt that#i also got six sampo's#and like eight (??) pela's#(i was about to fucking kill somebody i don'T EVEN USE HERRRR LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE LITTLE LADY)#and then tingyun and hanya and yukong (2x)#and gepard#who is cute but at the moment i was not that happy bc he was standing between me and my wife😠😠😠😠#i feel like i'm forgetting someone lmao#anyway#acheron was playing hard to get i do feel just a bit sad bc i am so low on tickets now and i kinda wanted her lc too#and idk whether i should still try to get it or not............................#my brother pulled her for me btw😭😭😭#i was losing hope but then he came into my room to talk abt his day and i was like okok . i need you to just push this button for me#AND IT ONLY TOOK TWOOOOO PULLS#😭😭😭😭😭😭#everybody say thank you mickey's little brother we love you mickey's little brother#i can't even use her rn though bc i can't get a good relic set for her lmao#I CAN USE AVENTURINE THOUUUGHHH AND HE'S SOO SOO GOOD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE ITTTT#mmmm i should probably level up tingyun too right i've heard that she's good#i'm facing another very difficult decision now though bc................. i love jy...........................#but how many lightning charas do i need...................... if firefly is really getting a rerun at the same time........................#i might....................................... prioritize her.....................................#I HATE ITTTTT:(((((((((((((((#BUT I WANT JY TOOOO:(((((((((((((((((((#genuinely feels like i'm betraying him wahhhhhhhhh#anyway i'm in (what i hope) are my period feelings so hhhhhhhhhh#dying over and over again but dw i'll be back on my regular bs soon:333333#mayor of loserville
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#this was ment to be sad but then i remembered its a show made for kids so every shot out of context is just kinda silly#i have not stopped thinking about this show get me help#i havent watched it in like 9 years and for some reason it comes back now???#also i am the no.1 stanley pines supporter#HE HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND NOBODY CARES#not even a thankyou from ford#I WAS PISSED AT THAT#who are you defending like this📃📃📃 STANLEY MF PINES#gravity falls#stan pines#grunkle stan#stanley pines#kate bush#army dreamers#this song makes me wanna scream#its so stan coded#Spotify
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I haven’t posted art in forever, (I am currently working on art tho!! It’s just taking me a bit cuz.. job..) but! But… what about if instead of the art u guys came here for. I instead posted pictures of the cool lil outfits I’ve been wearing recently that im rlly proud of… what about that???
#part of the issue w art is also for some reason. FOR REAL. the default shit I want to draw is just ME. IN MY VARIOUS CUTE LIL OUTFITS#I’ve become a narcissist… a fashion obsessed narcissist.. i just want everyone to see and admire my cool fits…#I struggle. so much more drawing shit that is not me nowadays. and I have so much less free time#but then I don’t FINISH the pics of me cuz I’m like ‘this is too self indulgent!!! stop!! draw fanart!!#like a normal person!!! ghgh-‘#ur rlly gonna come back from an art hiatus w just a bunch of silly pics of u being cute… get a fucking grip..#uhhh.. but anyway lol#I am still drawing. I’m currently working on some expiremental lineless digital art#cuz I felt shaking stuff up might help#we shall see if I finish it tho!#it me#pepper words#anyway look at my fits#my one. 2 curses r in bad at taking pictures#and I live in a dingy basement so the lighting fucking SUCKS#u cannot see all the detail…. u cannot make out All of my lil accessories#it’s sad…#all these outfits r very black and white i do in fact wear colors… mostly red. n green#but I am rlly In my aristocratic vampire / witch era right now… and I’m loving it…#middle 2 pics r the same outfit. just w and without cloak lol#also pls do me a kindness and ignore my messy ass room#lady outfit is actually my most recent and my room HAS gotten less messy! I cleaned it up!#but it’s still kinda. got some clutter lol#*last outfit. not lady outfit ghghg- these r gender neutral femme leaning outfits I’ll have u kno typo!!#also pls ignore the shit on my mirror!! the lil white speckles and stuff! I rlly gotta fucking clean that.. if I wanna keep taking cute#pictures of my outfits lol… I mean. it’s not MY mirror so I don’t think to clean it.. but it is in my living space…#mayhaps… I should clean it lol
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SESSION 5 DOODLES (SPOILERS)!!!!!!!!
aaaand some zooms!:
(desc. from top left to bottom right: joel getting slippery from the quizbot, lizzie just generally being scared of the quizbot, the BAMBOOZLERS!!!, mumbo. , joel doing his 7 block jump and just cleo being there)
drew these all last night after joel posted bc i forced myself to wait for joel’s before getting spoiled 😭
#trafficblr#wild life smp#wild life#smallishbeans#ldshadowlady#goodtimeswithscar#solidaritygaming#mumbo jumbo#ethoslab#zombiecleo#QUIZBOT!!!!!#or quizmaster idk.#the little guy!!!#also i AM SO SAD. MUMBO WHY#canary curse is broken but at what cost#kinda poetic tho… jimmy broke the curse in secret life and now mumbo the miner can no longer be warned… so he dies… but once the canary#-dies he still is the indicator for chaos to come since he warns the rest of the server who are the other miners… guys i can’t take it anym#my art
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