#Based on that one bisexual image everyone loves you know the one.

[ottosbigtop]

thinking about Hera and her two not platonic not romantic but secret third thing relationships. As you do.

[multi-kpop-fanfics]

tw: professor!wonwoo, TA!chan, TA!reader (fem), threesome, blowjob, deepthroating, degradation, facials, sir kink, hair pulling, cursing, light cumplay, dom!wonwoo, sub!reader, sub!chan, bisexual implications (NOT TO BE CONSIDERED AN ASSUMPTION FOR IRL) - minors dni.

@bitchlessdino @highvern ty for the inspo loves hehe

"These fucking imbeciles - How can they mess up such an easy formula?" Wonwoo curses loudly, "Did they even try to study in the first place?"

"We're so sorry, Sir." You apologize with a honeyed voice, "We tried our best to explain the questions in the most simple way possible."

"And yet they're failing this test one after the other." He grits his teeth, placing another bright red F on the paper in his hands.

"Not our fault they can't pick up chem, Sir." Chan lets out a scoff as he throws his shirt away, slotting himself next to you.

"Should I remind you your duties as a TA, kid?" Wonwoo pulls the younger man's hair harshly.

"N-No Sir, I'm aware." Chan winces in pain, hands gripping the older man's thigh for stability.

"Good. Now, instead of running your mouth to my students, I suggest you run your mouth over my cock, just like your pretty little colleague is doing right now."

You're putting your pride on the line, rubbing your tongue all over Wonwoo's cock like it's a popsicle, one hand playing with the base and the other resting on his right thigh.

Of course, sucking off your professor isn't part of your or Chan's TA duties, but you know how cranky and stern this professor is and doing that would only benefit everyone related to his class.

"Stop being so fucking greedy all the time." Chan pulls you off by the hair and replaces your mouth with his own, wrapping his lips around the tip to suck it slowly. He fists the shaft and pumps the hardened shaft with his free hand, grinning victoriously when he hears Wonwoo hum in approval.

"That's how you suck dick, bitch. You could learn a thing or two." He backs away to lick his lips in a taunting manner, his hand glued to the professor's cock

"Asshole." You curse at your fellow TA and slap his hand away. You latch your mouth on Wonwoo's dick again, but this time, you try to take him as deep as you can. Except Chan puts his hand on the back of your head, forcing you to deepthroat Wonwoo.

"Don't slack off, Y/N." The young man chuckles in your ear, "Sir is visibly stressed and we have to help him."

He rhythmically guides you up and down, left hand on your head and the other playing with your chest, alternating between your tits.

Just above the two of you, Wonwoo is having an even harder time correcting the papers, the lettering starting to get blurry, almost unreadable.

"Fuck, you two." He grunts, his fingers trying to resist the urge of crampling up the papers.

You tap Chan's arm and he lets go of your head, allowing you to take a break, coughing a little after having your throat stuffed full.

"Let me help, darling." He winks at you and kitten licks the sides of the cock, "You can have the tip." He winks at you and you nod, resuming your previous movements, more carefully.

Wonwoo has long forgotten the papers, his round glasses discarded on his office desk, his hands now loosening his necktie and popping the first two buttons of his shirt.

"G-Gonna cum soon." He moans and it rings heavily in your ears - You never thought you'd hear such a sweet, sultry sound from a man like him.

Chan looks at you and speeds up his mouth, lips coated with a thin layer of saliva. You hollow your cheeks around the tip and swirl your tongue as fast as you can.

"Fuck." Wonwoo grabs a fistful of your hair and he pumps his cock with the other hand, ribbons of cum splattering over your cheeks and mouth.

He lets go of you and switches to Chan, dumping the rest of his load over the man's face and chest, the latter letting out a low hiss.

The professor slouches back in his chair, admiring the ruined image of his two beloved TAs.

"So," you wipe your chin with your fingers and suck them clean, "Did we pass, Sir?"

Wonwoo flashes a lopsided smirk.

"With flying colors."

[friendly-neighborhood-system]

Intro post!

This is now a blog for my ENTIRE system!

(image is to represent us, all pics taken from Pinterest)

Hi, if you don't know us, our body's name is Hunter, we usually introduce ourselves as a trans woman, but we do have some male alters.

I, the one writing this, am called Lillian, I am the host and also a persecutor which is an interesting combination to have. In this post, I will introduce the alters in my system and also let them speak for themselves if they wish to.

To start, there's Alex

Alex is a butch sapphic muscle mommy, she is blonde and has a side shaved hair with a ponytail. She is sad most of the time and longs for someone to love. She is a huge dork and loves love. She also used to be a host, but was demoted once I showed up. Sorry not sorry. She is also a really good musician and producer.

There'a Alisson, who's a femboy. He is our most sexual alter and usually fronts in sexual moments because (and this is how he describes himself) he is a cockdrunk slut. He is a trauma holder to an event that happend especifically to him.

There's Allister, who says he's a demon from the depths of hell. He is funny and an ageslider from 16 to 21, and stole his name from the Pokemon SwSh ghost-type gym leader. The first time he showed up, Alex was trying to sleep and he kept trying to talk to everyone in the headspace. He also has really strong echolalia.

Ash is our protector, our caretaker. He is currently questioning his entire existance because he believed to be AroAce, but started to have bisexual thoughts and impulses. He sees himself as an eboy sadboy kinda person, but is actually the (metally) oldest alter in here. He is one of the 3 alters who has full access to past memories.

Violet is an 8 year old girl who is such a cutiepie. She loves legos and is deeply anxious and depressed. She doesn't like to front that much but anyone who might be fronting is able to feel her feelings too. She likes to draw and paint, and she is one of the 3 alters who has full access to past memories

Ryan is a fictive, an introject based off of Ryan Wilder NOT from Batwoman, but from her evil version Red Death from The Flash CW. She doesn't front much nor does she talk in the headspace, so we don't know much about her.

Evelyn/Eva is an alter who is permanetly stuck in a PMT state. She cries a lot and is deeply emotional. She has a sever fear of abandonment and trust issues due to our ex girlfriend. She showed up during a mental breakdown we had during a PMT crisis, alongside with Ryan.

Monika is a sweetheart and NOT a fictive from DDLC. She loves life and the world and everyone. She is the textbook definition of a People-Pleaser (she told me not to write this but agreed it's true).

Merida is a "version" of Violet who is stuck at 13 years old. She is an angsty preteen. This is all you really need to know about her.

Prometheus is a non-binary person who's bored and is one second away from doing something reckless. She is emotionless and usually stuck in a dissociative state. He also doesn't have preffered pronouns.

Natasha is an E-Girl who is, just like Evelyn, a crybaby. She gets emotional over the smallest things but has a deep love for everyone on Earth.

Alana is one of the first alters in our system, but due to personal issues among the system and our ex girlfriend, she was stuck in a limbo. She is mad at everyone in our system for forcing her to not front just to make our ex comfortable. She never liked our ex.

Edwin is a 12 year old nonbinary boycoded alter. He appeared a few days ago, but only fronted today. He thinks fronting is fun and that our body's face is pretty. He is funny and kind and enjoys puns.

Harriet is the newest alter in the system. She literally just appeared today (september 11th 2024). She describes herself as "a bimbo version of the Green Goblin"

Kara is a new alter who was formed today (September 12th 2024). We don't know much about her yet, but we know her skin color is darker than the rest of us.

Antonia is an alter made after Violet had a mental breakdown. She was made to not feel Violet's pain and lonliness. She is 25 years old, looks like arrowverse's Kate Kane and chose her name because of MCU's Taskmaster

And then there's me, Lillian. I am the host, one of the 3 alters with full access to past memories, and I suffer from NPD and ASPD. I see myself as having purple hair, and I chose my name because I think it is a fun genderbent version of William (as in, Afton). I like to work on art projects and I'm a musician. I go by she/her, and I have my own tumblr blog which I am not going to link here!

[earlgreytea68]

Heaven, Iowa.. if ur willing/have the time! Would love to hear some thoughts 💜

I loooooove Heaven, Iowa. I know Pete says this is a song about drinking a screwtop bottle of wine and driving off a cliff, but this is a song about drinking a screwtop bottle of wine and being in love, and staying there, in your own little bubble. That's how I read this song. It's one of those classic FOB songs with classic Pete Wentz lyrics working on one level with a perfectly expected and stereotypical interpretation and simultaneously working on a whole other level that deepens and complicates the entire narrative of the song.

Okay, so, first, that opening line: 6 AM, Mulholland Drive, "Moonlight Sonata" and I. First of all, shut up, this is so evocative in so few syllables and it kills me. Second of all, as others have pointed out, it should grammatically be "Moonlight Sonata and me," probably, unless it's intended to be the beginning of a sentence, and that's actually how I read the whole first few lines, as cut-off sentences.

Moonlight Sonata and I --

(wait, hang on, let me try this again):

First movement, you and I and a screwtop bottle of wine --

The use of the pronoun "I" instead of "me" in those phrases implies the beginning of a sentence, but the end of the sentence never comes, you never hit a verb. To me, it's like the speaker is so full of feelings that they can't be articulated, he's speaking in snatches.

Also, "first movement" is so clever, hahaha, the first eleventy million times I listened to this song, I thought it was a clever Moonlight Sonata reference, you know, first movement of the Moonlight Sonata, and then I wrote that fic based on these lyrics and Pete's sitting in the car in the fic debating making the first move and I suddenly was like, "omg first movement," like, it can also be making the first move required, who makes it, you and I and a screwtop bottle of wine will help move things along. Ugh, he's so smart about such silly little things like that all the time.

ANYWAY, then you come to honestly the sexiest image on the whole album: "I've unspooled on the floor." Ugh Pete. This always makes me think of the whole meme about how bisexual people can't sit in chairs normally. Pete totally would just sprawl out on the floor while he drinks wine. (I often write Pete sitting on the floor on my fics and now you're going to notice that, now that I've said it.) Also, though, "unspooled" is just a great poetic word there, you have an exact image of falling-apart-ness and letting-go-ness that no other word would have achieved. It connotes the unraveling of something that is ordinarily tightly wound -- that is supposed to be tightly wound -- and the unraveling causes a special kind of tangled mess, but also a loose sense of release.

"I feel so A Star Is Born" is a lot, given the plot about discovering and encouraging an incredibly talented, younger singer by a person who's already kind of a big shot. So there's that. Also the fact that Pete when writing these lyrics was around the same age as the Bradley Cooper character in the film, which makes this line feel about wondering about reputational decline and artistic legacy (which Pete thinks a lot about in his lyrics, anyway, but never in quite as tragic terms as this). The "would you read my eulogy" line fits with that "Star Is Born" reference: I'm not worth it, but will you tell everyone good things about me when I'm gone? Which also connects to: Tell me when the party ends, will you still love who I am? WHICH ALSO, in the mythology of Fall Out Boy, is a weighted metaphor anyway. In Pete lyrics, the party is often life, with the afterlife taking the place of the afterparty, so this can be another death reference. But also, inevitably parties ending make you think about "Where Did the Party Go?," and so then this becomes a hiatus reference: "When everything is stripped away and it's just us, do you still love me then?"

"I will never ask you for anything except to dream sweet of me," is just a straight-up line from a love song, which is important, because to me this entire song is a love song, and that line betrays it so very clearly. The speaker is never, ever alone in this song, there is constantly a "you and I," someone to kiss his cheek, someone to read his eulogy, someone there after the party ends. (Even when there's not a someone, there's the Moonlight Sonata still with him, and I'll get to that later.)

The chorus is "Scar-crossed lovers." I've seen people talk about how emo and goth an image that is, and I get it. The "scar" reference seems like it makes it emo-er than the usual saying, which is "star-crossed." So on one level, sure, how Pete Wentz to turn the word "star" into "scar," of course, once an emo, always an emo, etc. But I actually think changing "star" to "scar" converts a hopeless saying into a hopeful one. Because "star-crossed lovers" means lovers who can't hold it together. The original star-crossed lovers were Romeo and Juliet. Certainly not a happy ending for them. But these in this song are not star-crossed lovers. They are scar-crossed. Scars are actually healing. They are the body's kintsugi, to use a reference from another song. If you've got a scar, sure, it means you've been through something, but what it really means is you got through it. You came out the other side and you healed. These are not lovers who can't get it together. These are lovers who came out on the other side of the apocalypse.

The same multi-layered meaning exists in the next line: "I'm checking myself out forever." Sure, on one level, this sounds negative: I am gone, I'm leaving. But the thing is: What is he leaving? It's actually not entirely clear. I don't think it's the relationship he's leaving. I think it's the rest of the world. And not in a bad and depressing way. He's like, "Look, I have found something real here. You see all this nonsense, all this chaos, all this drama? I am checking myself out of all of this forever." This goes nicely with the next line: "I'm saving this all for later," which can also be read on two levels, one being, "I'm checking out of this nonsense, I'll deal with it later, I'm staying in my bubble with my love." Another being, "I am here in this bubble with my love and I am going to remember every second of this." After all, "save for later" means something you want to make sure you return to. That line, "Here we are untouched forever" also supports a positive reading of the relationship. It could be read as, "Now we no longer exist, we are only enduring in my memory," but...nowhere in the song does that seem true of this relationship. The relationship is very present throughout the song. When he says "here we are untouched forever," I think he's talking about this bubble he's retreated into, away from the rest of the world.

And that reading goes into the second verse, too, where he refers to himself as being "gone like this." This could be read as really dark, given the Star Is Born reference. But it could also be read as: I have checked out of everything and I am holed up with my love and just everyone wait to see how much they're going to miss how much I was doing and holding together. "Talking to the mirror," (I am the invisible man...) -- "Half your life you've been hooked on death." This seems like an obvious reference to Pete Wentz's reputation, but it's in quotes, like he's quoting other people, like he's telling himself, reminding himself what people think of him. Because that's not who he is.

This last bit of the second verse is so fascinating to me. "Twice the dreams, but half the love, be careful what you bottle up, the chemistry is a mess it seems," these are all negative images and negative lines, warnings and self-recriminations. And then there's that unexpected "But me, I'm still a sunbeam." Patrick is usually the sun in Pete's lyrics, the sun is usually something outside of Pete. How shocking and strange for Pete to suddenly write that he's the sunbeam, and for Patrick to give it a melodic flourish to boot. That could be Patrick giving that to him: "Don't worry about your chemistry, you're definitely loved." BUT, it could also be Pete finally, finally internalizing what Patrick says to him all the time: "YOU'RE the sunbeam. It isn't me. It doesn't matter how you feel like you're too much, it doesn't matter how much you feel like you bottle up, it doesn't matter how much you feel like a mess, you're still amazing, you're still a sunbeam." Ugh, the amount of healing in this song. Scar-crossed, indeed. The bridge could be read as flipped, from Patrick's perspective, and that works, but, tbh, that bridge can also be read as Pete closing his eyes inside the bubble he's created with his love, and there's darkness in this, but the love's glow is right there, so soothing, leading him home, a beacon. When Pete closes his eyes and shuts the rest of the world out -- there, there's the glow, giving him that little shove he needs to keep going: Shake things up, see what comes down, write another album with me, send me some words, we've got this.

This song rises to unbelievable heights by the end of it, like, it is sonically overwhelming, but then it loops around to the same soft rhyme as the beginning, Patrick crooning once again. It begins and ends with the speaker and music. In the end, the thing that has always been there for them: the music.

Also, the fact that Moonlight Sonata is the reference is so interesting in the context of Patrick being the sun in Pete's lyrics. If Patrick is the sun, that makes Pete the moon, catching his reflected glory. Moonlight Sonata, indeed.

This song is full of yearning, but at no point do I feel sad for this guy. He's gonna be okay. His love is right there with him when the party ends.

[yaoxsblog]

So recently I re-read my horny headcanons and I realised I changed my mind about some things so guess what yaox nation I’m making a new post updating them :3

CW for mentions of sex, in case you didn’t read text above lol

T4t bosherze would be so Real but I usually just headcanon them both as cis… can you imagine tho

Bisexual, boooring Yaox everyone knows that already look at him

Wait hold on I said something really funny on the previous post lemme just

There, that ^

Would really enjoy getting head, and I’m saying would because there isn’t a single universe his dick gets sucked.

Tho I’m keeping the headcanon that he enjoys eating pussy. That description of him being „a surprisingly good kisser” ? That was there for a reason.

Also not gonna change the moaning hc, he isn’t noisy unless asked to be

Loves it when the other person’s loud tho, and even better if they ask for more

I actually changed my mind and I think he likes to be dominant just cause he has that stupid flirty personality but doesn’t mind bottoming.

Will happily bounce on his wife’s hot pink plastic cock any day

Into hair pulling, based on that one image by tix… I imagine he tried it with herze once and left the room missing a tooth

Honestly besides the hair thing I don’t imagine him being into bdsm, but he probably doesn’t mind being tied up

Would cum in your eye if given the chance

Would also cum in your mouth, gladly.

Actually I think every place to finish is good

Oh cuckolding? Anon, don’t make me laugh. His insides boil when someone smiles at his wife, he would explode on site

I don’t remember which one of you funny little fucks said he would be infertile but I want you to know I see your vision.

He also doesn’t believe in rubbers.

I can’t actually decide if he would be the type to knock on the back door or be absolutely grossed out by the idea

In the second scenario pegging is not included.

Wait actually I have a quote for this moment

„I have a pussy, so why would he put it in my ass? He only has one hole, so you know where I’m putting it” - my friend 2023

Crazy flirty and makes a stupid amount of sex jokes but only 5% of his attempts are succesful

Mid to low libido. His mind is like a Windows 98, only so much power and not enough space to think about sex

I said it once already but snail trail

Idk if anyone will catch this reference but if you do congratulations - that one fanfic where Idriza says she wants to fuck him so much but hes just too stupid. Sigh yeah that

I mentioned no head for him but yes handjob :3 as a treat

Cries after masturbating

I think thats it

[dandyshucks]

ooooh babeyyy who's the best headmate? yeah, that's right - it's me LMAO. hi everyone, how y'all doing, it's Chase again 👋 in an effort to be somewhat social and also to brag about my capabilities, I am making a post on this blog lmao.

Look at this shit y'all (idk what mobile formatting looks like so uh. use desktop maybe):

You get a secret sneak preview to this lmao, the link isn't anywhere on the main page yet.

Anyways in the past three days while Juno's been AWOL, I've figured out how to add an audio player; how to layer elements on the webpage; and how to align the text and images beside each other inside the scroll box while maintaining the vertical scroll (it kept lining everything up horizontally for a while lmfao).

The text beside the images is just some bullshit that Lake and I came up with (based off of stuff Juno's written/brainstormed in the past) to test the text alignment out since Juno isn't around to give me any input, but I feel like we did a good job making it sound like some shit they'd come up with lol.

I'll give a small update on The Situation while I'm here in case anyone's wondering what's been going on:

I never know how much I'm supposed to say about anything lol uhhh.

TL;DR is just that Juno was having a very difficult time the past week because of Things, and is now unreachable and thus won't be fronting for an indeterminate amount of time - they could be back tomorrow, they might be back in a week, I have no fucking idea tbh. So this blog is on semi-hiatus until they're back because the rest of us either don't have a lot of interest in the s.elfship stuff ourselves or we just don't want to like... intrude on this space.

slightly longer version of it (TW abuse and suicide mention):

some emotional abuse stuff at home has been ramping up significantly, and this has been having an extremely bad effect on Juno (understandably so) especially since they've been trying to handle this shit without our help, so we've had to put them on lockdown essentially so we can like. remain alive lol. I'm trying not to be too flippant about it but uh yeah. that's the gist of it. love a good suicide scare, amiright? I'm not in charge of the decision to put them on lockdown, I have no say in how it all gets handled, I'm just here to fill the host role while Juno's gone.

They'll be gone until Kam and Lake decide they're okay enough to not do anything stupid and desperate the moment they get into front lmao, so in the meantime I'm the one who'll be fronting for the most part. And while I do like the idea of getting with G.uzma myself, I don't have much of an interest in posting about it LMAO - plus my own dynamic with the guy would be pretty fucking different from Juno's, and that's not what y'all followed for.

(Kam - "gatekeeper"/the one who's basically in charge of shit and also the resident lesbian; Lake - bisexual swag with big caretaker energy; Chase (me) - faggy freak who probably shouldn't have this much responsibility lmaoooo)

[eclecticcfangirll]

my favorite things/moments from red white and royal blue

so basically like the whole book but bear with me 

“they’re saying you got your asshole bleached” “that one is true” “i thought so”

the fact that june and nora are so clearly fucking but we have the most unreliable, oblivious, self-centered narrator ever (affectionate) so its never actually put into the books

“a strawberry-blond, whip-smart democrat with high heels, an unapologetic drawl, and a little biracial family”

june’s plane reading material like what is she on

nora calling alex out for crushing on henry right off the bat. literally on page 10. sis knows whats up lmao

“maybe it is technically a rivalry. whatever.” enemies to lovers is winning

the ENTIRE viscount convo at the wedding please😭😭

“its cute how you think everything is about you” “it should be honestly” “thats the spirit” 

the double meaning when alex is thinking about how his fingernails were too stubby to pick out the staples in the pic of henry because his hands weren’t “like a girl’s” 

“he’s too perfect. alex wants to poke it.” 

“sorry i’m not obsessed with you like everyone else. that must be confusing for you” “you know what? i think you are” iconic

ellen reading the word “cake-tastrophy” with audible distain

alex seeing the paper that says “agreement of terms” and being like “um”

“so you can hate the heir to the throne all you want, write mean poems about him in your diary, but the minute you see a camera, you act like the sun shines out of his dick, and you make it convincing” (ive had this memorized since the first time i read it lmaoo its ingrained in my brain forever)

“have you met henry? how am i supposed to do that? he has the personality of a cabbage”

what the fuck is competitive yachting 

“does he get one of these for me?” “yep. and for the record, making it was one of the most depressing moments of my career” 

“okay. ill do it. but i wont have any fun” “ god i hope not”

alex thinking his type of love story is more shakespearean and then june saying his and henrys situation is shakespearean

“who does that? who names a dog david? he sounds like a tax attorney. like a dog tax attorney. drink.”

the image of baby alex trying to force an orca wrangler into early retirement because of “inhumane whale practices” 

alex’s internal dialogue about shaan (and luna for that matter. god hes so bisexual)

i know henry planned that riding practice so he could come around the corner all bathed in the sunset on a white horse in perfect riding clothes

“haven’t decided yet, but astonishingly, it will not be based on you. remember how we sometimes talk about things that are not about you?” “yeah, weirdly”

“’sorry. er. i was just. cornettos.’ he gestures vaguely toward the refrigerator, as if hes just said something of any meaning”

every time alex refers to henry with any sort of royal title

alex almost missing the question when on a literal talk show bc hes too busy admiring how hot henry is in his sweater and button down (relatable)

alex always describing henry and his eyes with words like fresh and soft and blue 

alex being into politics because he genuinely cares about people 🥺 it really is the better timeline

“you know, we have got to stop ending up like this”

“you’re not the prince of me?” “bloody hell”

alex bucking his hips up into henrys 😭 i just know henry almost blacked out lmao

“i cannot believe even mortal peril will not prevent you from being the way you are” yeah 

the way they know each other so well without even knowing each other (henrys above comment^, alex calling him out for not being who he is, the entire closet convo and them both just instinctively getting things once they actually stop and breathe for a second)

“wow, youre wrong” the most alex thing ever

i need to be inside cash’s brain to see what he sees when he opens the closet door and they’re just laying side by side on the floor, blinded by the sudden light

“no booty calls” *literally uses it for booty calls*

bitch mcconnell 

the way alex describes every attractive man he encounters in vivid detail, practically drooling over all these men, and thinks hes straight

luna immediately trying to get alex to admit hes gay for henry lmao

“you wound me” “you exhaust me” “i enchant you” “ill call security” 

all the random emotions alex finds to explain the hot flashes from hot guys doing hot things 

“alex you need other friends. friends who arent in congress” “i have friends! i have june and nora” “yes, your sister and a girl who is also a supercomputer” 

“but we were ever so careful, dear” 

alex being comfortable around henry not caring what henry thinks and being “as weird and manic as he wants” 

“i dont know who you think you’re kidding, you hufflepuff-ass bitch”

shaan has a “motorbike”

“like a dickensian street urchin” pls

henry describing like everything about sailing and alex saying “cool” eight hours later 😭😭

everything about pez

alex canonically watches videos of justin trudeau speaking french and thinks hes straight 

“he would really appreciate it if henry would stop proving him wrong”

“you are the thistle in the tender and sensitive arse crack of my life” “thanks!” 

“tell shaan i say hi and i miss that sweet sweet ass xoxoxo” “i will not”

the entire part of the Great Turkey Calamity. im not even gonna be specific with this one. the whole part. from the part with alex and ellen talking all the way to the texts aboout henrys dad being a babe. everything in between those. its too good to even make a list. how does she come up with this shit. its so good. 

“henry’s got his candy cane jim jams on” 

“he just doesnt often get told hes good enough” THE SIGNIFICANCE

junes reaction to finding out alex was talking to henry about family shit and then comparing it to a love story

alex freaking out about henry being on the guest list and nora going “this is interesting” i love her

alex with his lowercase letters and henry with his perfect grammar

them going from texting every couple of days to answering each other within seconds

alex saying henrys voice is “like very expensive velvet, something moneyed and lush and fluid all at once” 

alex throwing his head back and laughing and henry grinning at him is just so them

the hips convo and “watch me” *gulps down champagne* “i am”

the whole get low scene oh my god the imagery is so good 

“you absolutely must know i did not” and alex and nora being horrified henry hasnt experienced this specific experience

forever obsessed with nora and alex being ridiculously smart little nerds but both still being absolutely chaotic young adults who grind up on each other and kiss for fun and start rumors that theyre fucking. the character depth is delicious

“are they too drunk to communicate in english?”

“one, henrys lips are soft”

their first kiss is the equivalent of literal butterflies and cartoon hearts fluttering around and their second kiss is like the height of passion. we love it

“but he thinks about henry, and, oh” asjhkdfbdkbfkjsdfb

alex and nora are the exact people who would have a marriage of convenience planned out

the entire nora/alex bisexual talk lmaooo 

“still waters, deep dicking” 

“you’ve been, like, draco malfoy obsessed with henry for years-do not interrupt me-”

nora knowing henry is gay but in that way that gays just know and alex being like what???? because somehow this never clicked for him

nora and alex both being bi but reacting to it in exact opposite ways 

“the class is ethical issues in international relations. he really has got to stop taking classes so painfully relevant to his life”

alex seeing henry on a date in the magazine and spending a very short time being angry before his common sense and trust for henry and noras words all work together and then his realization and then him immediately being sad for them instead. and then him being like lmao im not straight

imagine youre liam and youre on a date with your bf and the guy you did gay stuff with in high school who is now the fsotus calls you out of the blue and asks about said gay stuff because hes having a sexuality crisis and then he apologizes 😭😭😭 liam is so funny too

“its alex. yeah, him” 

alex seeing henry in his suit and his immediate thought is how much he wants to rip it off

“oh,” henry says, like an idiot. 

“looking like the goddamn james bond offspring that he is”

“shut up, shut all the way up, oh my god”

i mean, the red room. dinner, hamilton, hot and heavy, god save the queen, yk

all of the inner dialogue from this entire scene lmao so aggressive

“he wants to follow the sound down his throat”

“hes unsure of the dress code for inviting your sworn-enemy-turned-fake-best-friend to your room to have sex with you, especially when that room is in the white house, and especially when that person is a guy, and especially when that guy is a prince of england” this sentence should just be the entire blurb honestly. hidden gem. 

“hes done research. he has diagrams. he can do this.”

“his stomach does some embarrassing acrobatics he plans to never tell anyone about ever”

“henry is tall and gorgeous, half royalty, half movie star, red wine lingering on his lips”

im sorry but if someone took my elbow and kissed me while smiling and simultaneously shut and locked my bedroom door i would simply pass out

“he can practically feel the wind in his hair. its ridiculous.”

“so, like, fuck the moors” 

alex “we’re still whatever we were before just, you know, with blowjobs” claremont-diaz being all “you went out with a girl” right off the bat lmao

“alex’s frenetic energy and henrys aching sureness” 

the descriptions

alex being obsessed with the little curve of henrys waist and his hand being there and that being his proper “god i love men” moment

“devastating”

when alex says wait and henry immediately stops and alex like reassures him oh my god

“hi” “hello” “im gonna take your pants off now” “yes, good, carry on”

im laughing so hard at henry being in love with him for so long and he finally kisses him and alex hurtles through a sexuality crisis and then is like “alright lets go fuck” 

“fucking eyelashes”

“alex is living for it, watching henry come undone, letting him be whatever he needs to be while alone with alex behind a locked door”

the part about the fruit basket like 1) lmao fruit and 2) i love that hes not weird about henry having experience like yes 

imagining henry copying alex saying “freaking out” aghh

“for fuck’s sake man, you just had my dick in your mouth, you can kiss me good night”

alex is so in love lmao

henry laughing <3

“it should not provoke anything visceral, carnal, or bodice-ripping in nature in him at all”

“you look...sweaty” “im gonna go uh. say hi to henry”

“enjoy your summit with the english delegation”

“fifteen days removed from henry swearing at the ceiling of alex’s bedroom and unsure of how to proceed” 

“what in the rich-white-people-sex-dungeon-hell?”

“he whips a thick leather strap off a hook on the wall and alex almost blacks out”

alex’s verbal reaction to the polo attire and henry trying to keep up

“henry is swearing up a storm, which is still disarmingly sexy”

“that shithole? not if i can help it” “oi! thats disrespect of the crown, that is. insubordination. ive thrown men in the dungeons for less” “hey, dont threaten me with a good time” ok london boy

the way henrys name in all the emails is different words that fit hrh

actually all the different names they use in all the emails overall

“and its all so fucking french”

“alex has to admit: henry really has a solid handle on his personal brand” 

“but perfect stoic prince charming laughs when he comes, and texts alex at weird hours of the night: youre a mad, spiteful, unmitigated demon, and im gonna kiss you until you forget how to talk. and alex is kind of obsessed with it.”

“and alex is drunk and fucking transported, feeling every moment of twenty-two years and not a single day older, some kind of hedonistic youth of history. birthday head from another country’s prince will do that”

“and alex’s heart goes so fucking weird that he has to put his head in his hands for a full minute. (but, like, its fine. its not a whole thing)”

“for the record, i agree with you, but also, tell me more” 

never seen a book bring up such a natural build up to a love of gay history and how important it is

“hes starting to understand what swelled in his chest when he reads about stonewall, why he ached over..” YES. THATS IT. THATS THE FEELING!!!!!!!

“i will chop my own tit off”

“i will staple your dick to the inside of your leg if it keeps it in your pants”

alex knowing when henry is in his moods and wanting to help

“baby”

the phone call where henry spills about his family and then alex spills about his past and then about both of their previous dating experience and mental health and gahhh

“two parentheses enclosing 3700 miles”

“i miss you” “i miss you too”

the way it ropes in how alex missing dinner with june brought up past shit for her

june finally snapping and them talking about henry

“you have so much in you, its almost impossible to match it. but hes your match, dumbass” ahhHHHHHHHHHH

“hes like some kind of billionaire, genius, manic-pixie-dream philanthropist.” yep thats pez

the facetime when pez and henry are in the car and alex feeling better because henry looks well rested and the goofy banter

llwynywermod does NOT sound like it should. idk what it should sound like but not like it does. 

henry using his royal accounts money for specifically charity yes

“hes always wanted to be a person with a legacy in this world. henry is undoubtably, determinedly that. its a little intoxicating.”

“yall do school weird”

june and nora drooling over pez LMAO “i want to put my fingers in his mouth” 

cash wearing a feather boa yes

dont stop me now. all of it. 

bea and alex and knowing how rare it is

god i can feel the joy

“bisexuality is truly a rich and complex tapestry” *june shoves napkin in his mouth*

“o captain my captain” “have you got talking points”

alex is literally drunk but he sees henry get nervous and immediately switches into Concerned Boyfriend Mode

travel size lube

f i n g e r s 

so much love

i know henry saw his love mirrored right back at him in alex’s eyes and knew he had to make a joke 

“theres something so incredibly intimate about sitting on the bed they wrecked the night before, the only one who watches him create Prince Henry of Wales for the day.”

“hes got a suspicion all these feelings are why he held off on fucking henry for so long”

“so this is the gang now, huh?”

“how is a man to get anything done knowing alex claremont-diaz is out there on the loose? i am driven to distraction.”

“o fathers of my bloodline. o ye kings of olde. take this crown from me, bury me in my ancestral soil. if only you had known the mighty work of thine loins would be undone by a gay heir who likes it when american boys with chin dimples are mean to him” please

i love alex going back to henrys emails when he is upset

“utah ugly, christian ugly, ugliness couched in dog whistles and toothy white smiles”

“not every white supremacist is a meth head in bumfuck mississippi- there are plenty of them at duke or upenn on daddys money” BLESS

“as if alex, first son of the united states, is unfamiliar with how campaigns work”

the text thread with henry alex june and nora lmao so chaotic

“1. tf is this? arent there poor people in your country? 2. ive already been in the royal box” “you are a delinquent and a plague. please come?”

“don’t worry, i dont think they can detect the thick air of horn-town betwixt you two from the lawn”

“all mischievous smiles and swooping cheekbones”

henry touching two fingers to the back of alex’s elbow mm

philip and henry are the equivalent of a strict parent and rebellious child. “oh you hate alex being in the box? we’re gonna go fuck in a supply closet then. fuck you”

the way henry got right up in his space but didnt kiss him im-

“just so we’re clear, im about to have sex with you in this storage closet to spite your family. like, thats whats happening?” “right” “awesome, fuckin love doing things out of spite” 

“and it should be- it should be funny. it should be hot, stupid, ridiculous, obscene, another wild sexual adventure to add to the list. and it is but...it shouldn’t also feel like last time, like alex might die if it ever stops”

“you’re brave. i could use some of that”

woman at her toilet

obsessed with alex and henry both having so much knowledge to share with each other 

“and alex’s heart doesn’t spread itself out in his chest, and he doesn’t have to grip the edge of the settee to steady himself. because thats what he would do if he were here in this palace to fall in love with henry”

“i see you more than i see clean underwear”

“if shes not giving it to you, im not giving it to you. shes much nicer than me”

“there’s this way henry has of listening to the erratic stream of consciousness that pours out of alex’s mouth and answering with the clearest, crystallized truth that alex has been trying to arrive at all along”

“oh fuck me” “blurgh” “fucking shit. goddammit ass fucker” “what” “jesus tits”

the mental image of this entire scene but especially “henry flies out of bed too. he truly is a picture, wearing an expression of bewildered panic and absolutely nothing else” 

“get in there” “quite” “yes we can unpack the ironic symbolism later”

“zahra is standing there with her thermos and a look on her face that says she did not get a masters degree to babysit a fully grown adult”

“it is, alex thinks half hysterically, a very solid visual pun”

“do i even wants you to explain what the fuck is happening here? literally how is he even here, like, physically or geographically, and why- no nope.”

“oh my god i thought you were getting into international relations or something” “i mean technically-” “if you finish that sentence, im gonna spend tonight in jail”

“youre literally putting your dick in the leader of a foreign state, who is a man, at the biggest political event before the election, in a hotel full of reporters, in a city full of cameras, in a race close enough to fucking hinge on some bullshit like this, like a manifestation of my fucking stress dreams, and youre asking me not to tell the president about it?” “um. yeah?”

“would it make any difference if i told you not to see him again” “no”

“ask me if im afraid of the crown”

“exploring your sexuality: healthy, but does it have to be with the prince of england?”

“history huh? bet we could make some”

“the phrase ‘see attached bibliography’ is the single sexiest thing you have ever written to me”

“should i tell you that when we’re apart, your body comes back to me in dreams? that when i sleep, i see you, the dip of your waist, the freckle above your hip, and when i wake up in the morning, it feels like ive just been with you, the phantom touch of your hand on the back of my neck fresh and not imagined? that i can feel your skin against mine, and it makes every bone in my body ache? that, for a few moments, i can hold my breath and be back there with you, in a dream, in a thousand rooms, nowhere at all?

“ill let you look at one boob. the good one” “theyre both good”

“theres a combination of girl sounds from the back seat”

“hi love’ he hears henry say quietly, privately, right into the hair above his ear, and alex’s breath forgets how to do anything but laugh helplessly”

imagining henry grinning in the passenger seat and bopping his head to the music aghhgndksk

“lbj was obsessed with his own dick. he called it jumbo and would whip it out all the time. like in front of colleagues, reporters, anybody” “american politics. truly fascinating” “you wanna talk, henry the VIII?”

“a little appreciation for the patron saint of gender-neutral bathrooms in california? little shit”

“and alex is. well, alex is so in love he could die”

“-maybe even with the apron still on-”

“i didnt realize this was a jazz brunch”

the skinny dipping is so cute before it goes wrong

“hes spent too much of his life talking, talking, talking to not know the signs when someone doesnt want to hear him anymore”

“henry you motherfucker! henry, you piece of shit, get your ass down here”

“alex’s heart is going to fall out of his ass. henry looks unimpressed”

“really nice. fucking ghost me for a week, make me stand in the rain like a brown john cusack, and now you wont even talk to me. im really just having a great fucking time here. i can see why all yall had to marry your fucking cousins”

“seriously’ he says, helpless and indignant”

obtuse fucking asshole

“i fucking love you, okay?”

“i never imagined you would love me back” 

“what do you want? “i want you-” “then fucking have me”

THE LIVES WE WANT-- THEYRE NOT THAT DIFFERENT. NOT IN THE WAYS THAT MATTER. YOU WANT TO TAKE WHAT YOU WERE GIVEN AND LEAVE THE WORLD BETTER THAN YOU FOUND IT. SO DO I. WE CAN FIGURE OUT A WAY TO DO THAT TOGETHER”

“tell me youre done with me. ill get back on the plane. thats it. and you can live here in your tower and be miserable forever, write a whole book of sad fucking poems about it. whatever. just say it” “fuck you”

“hes in stupid, unbearable love, and henry loves him too, and at least for one night it matters, even if they both have to pretend to forget in the morning”

“dont miss it this time. hes too important”

the copy of le monde

“thats not good enough for me”

“i honestly have never thought i deserved to choose. but you treat me like i do”

“what about you’ he says, as if he doesnt know-”

“diaz, you insane, hopeless, romantic little shit. it had better be forever. be safe”

prince consort road

i need someone to love my rambling like alex loves henrys rambling

everything about james I because i was obsessed before this book but now i really really am

“oh yeah. the top list of reasons to love you goes brain, then dick, then imminent status as a revolutionary gay icon” “you are quite literally queen victorias worst nightmare” 

bringing up david and jonathan yes ma’am

can i please slow dance in this room please its all im asking

“two homes side by side”

“hey, have i told you lately that youre brave” afTER HENRY SAYING HE COULD USE SOME OF HIS BRAVERY AGHHHHH 

“it is, indeed, bullshit”

“what is it american politicians say?- thoughts and prayers”

“and im there, using up your shampoo and making you come to the grocery store with me”

“here lies prince henry of wales. he died as he lived: avoiding plans and sucking cock”

“because im not like the rest of the men in this family, beginning with the fact that i am very deeply gay, philip”

the rooms the rooms henry putting the bad memories in the rooms and then the vase THE WATERLOO VASE BECAUSE ITS TOO BIG FOR THE PALACE AND NOWHERE IN THE PALACE COULD HOLD HIS FEELINGS FOR ALEX AHHHHH

“happy and animated and so alive, a person living in dimensions i couldnt access”

“i thought, this is the most incredible thing i have ever seen and i better keep it a safe distance away from me. i thought, if someone like that ever loved me, it would set me on fire”

“and then, inexplicably, you had the absolute audacity to love me back. can you believe it?”

“you love so much bigger than yourself”

henry being a beautiful writer and alex being a list maker is everything. play to your strengths i guess

speaking of lists: THE LIST THE LIST THE LIST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alex realizing how he brushed him off in attempts to make him feel better and how he accidentally hurt him too and acknowledging that and apologizing. we love a healthy relationship

“im calling you as soon as i send this, but i know you like to have these things written down” yes

“did you get engaged?” “*shrugs* i had the weekend off” 

zahra calling alex princess 😭😭

“oh fuck my ass” more great zahra content

alex being strong for henry in the car and calming him down instead of making it about himself when hes freaked and disgusted (and kinda violent) too 🥺

“you’re it okay? im never gonna love anybody else in the world like i love you. so, i promise you, one day we’ll be able to just be, and fuck everyone else”

“you do realize youre talking to a united states senator” “yeah, big fucking man”

the way alex tells raf is so intense and so them

“topography on the map of you, a world im still charting”

“your spine’s a ridge id die climbing”

“give yourself away sometimes sweetheart. theres so much of you”

“ik this is a sad part but “you horny little miscreant”

“what did you do?” what did he do?

“gay defcon five”

alex reacting to the leak decimates me every time its so heartbreaking but its written so well

“do you feel forever about him?” “yeah, i do” “then fuck it”

zahra pulls through frfr with the plan to go to london

“listen up you fuck” so affectionate

“i will personally make your balls into fucking earrings. i will scorched earth your entire motherfucking life”

“she pauses, presumably to listen to him agree because alex cant imagine him doing anything else”

“sweet and posh and shaky and confused”

“sweetheart”

actually just the entire phone call. the whole thing. true love

zahra and alex have such a fantastic dynamic

bea was fr finna hit philip with a guitar

when they see each other after the leak😭 dont talk to me

the description of grief when youre young and how it changes you is so perfect and concise and beautifully worded and it makes me cry

“i love him, with all that, because of all that. on purpose. i love him on purpose”

“six feet of boy curled around kicked in ribs and a recalcitrant heart”

“alex’s ears are ringing”

the way she pointed out that philip said “if youre gay” i never even noticed this but people do this!! all the time!! irl! its so demeaning

“fuck off, philip, i love him” w his chin stuck out <3

“we’ll take the raping and the pillaging and the colonizing, we’ll scrub it up nice and neat in a museum, but oh, no, youre a bloody poof? thats beyond our sense of decorum” get his ass!!!!

“you can take your legacy and your decorum and you can shove it up your fucking arse, philip. im done” GET HIS ASS!!!!!!

*buttons jacket* “for what its worth, that is the bravest son of a bitch ive ever met” 

“we banged it out last night”

gotta hand it to catherine, she chose a hell of a time to come back to life

“the princess who ran away with james bond”

“ive been gay as a maypole since the day i came out of mum, philip”

“in the silence that follows, alex has to bite down very hard on his tongue to suppress the urge to laugh hysterically”

alex “we could still do that” claremont-diaz

“i dont care for that tone at all” put him in his place catherine!

page 354= the page i finally started sobbing the first time i read it

seriously how is everyone in the better timeline not sobbing into their hands seeing these rallies

“wouldn’t i mum? wouldn’t you like to find out” ajshdjfbshjbfskbf

“ya know, i think all that cocaine i did must have really done a number in my reflexes” LMAO

never tell me the odds

“dc dykes on bikes chase protestors” yes ma’am

to be continued

[mommy-issues-haver]

if you weren't "born this way"...

then don't try and become it. truly. how many straight and bisexual women have fallen in love with men and wished that they didn't? i think we can see from this current discourse (excuse my language) that the answer is a lot. you're not a lesbian, that's ok. don’t try to be one “for the cause.”

aaaaaand that's where queer theorists come in to suggest you can, in fact, change your sexuality and gender identity throughout your life and even "choose lesbianism" (i will grant this remark by dean spade was somewhat facetious but it’s also just ridiculous and offensive. and i guess spade didn’t really choose lesbianism because they transitioned). this is not even an argument about whether or not you can transition or change sex -- that argument has been settled in the academic world for some time, so they have found a new entirely confounding concept to argue over: that the only thing that defines your identity is how you, the individual, feel in the moment, and that this means that trans medical "care" should be accessible for everyone, regardless of why or how long they've "felt trans."

here is a quote from Marie Draz's piece on why she believes the born this way narrative is "biologically determinist and ahistorical":

When Spade mocked [the born this way] narrative...a therapist told Spade that he was “really intellectualizing this” and that they needed to get to the “root” or the origin of why Spade felt that he needed chest reconstruction surgery. A therapist asked, “How long have you felt this way?” In response, Spade asked, “Does realness reside in the length of time a desire exists?”

first of all, how incredibly condescending and pompous of Spade to suggest that this metaphysical, academic, theoretical understanding of gender is more important than the gender therapist's clinically informed understanding. second, time DOES matter when it comes to elective cosmetic surgery that only has the potential to cause harm to your body.

my point here is to question why the born this way narrative is receiving this backlash in academia today. and I actually think there are a couple of reasons. first, academia is about the constant outflow of new work and new concepts. the world that queer theorists have constructed is not the real world. (which is funny, and you'd think they might get that of all people.) because the work builds upon itself, this rejection of the once-ubiquitous born this way narrative seems to be a natural continuation of trans theory and the mind/body dichotomy that has been reconstructed by queer theorists. the constant reach toward euphoria is ultimately something very religious in nature and not something that can be rooted in observable physical reality as homosexuality is. at any time one can "see the light" and become a convert, lured in by promises of euphoria and the satisfaction of a deep, internal longing that you didn't even know you had. to the true believers, this is a beautiful idea, and why wouldn't they want to share it?

the other reason i believe that they are now rejecting this narrative is that it is necessary to undermine the concept of biologically driven homosexuality because it doesn't fit in the narrative of sexuality tied to gender as something fluid and mutable as opposed to sex/genitalia. if someone is gay by nature, then they are attracted to same-sex genitalia and not the culturally created construct of one's gender. therefore being homosexual is not only a null category, but one that undermines the entire basis of present-day queer theory.

i just want to finish by saying it's truly laughable that through thousands of pages of dense, convoluted academic writing, queer theorists have returned to a mirror image of the conservative understanding of identity. i think that's just the result of faith-based ideology.

[marley-manson]

I think it’s easy to underestimate just how much you can get away with as a joke when it comes to bi Hawkeye headcanons. Like, imo he’s not actually blatantly bisexual, as much as he comes across that way in 2022. Most people who know him aren’t going to assume he’s anything but straight.

Both speaking from my own experience and also based on my media consumption and anecdotal evidence and the gay history I’ve delved into I feel like I can confidently say that Hawkeye didn’t come across as anything but straight to 99% of straight viewers and probably most lgbt people in the 70s, and he’d be even less likely to be assumed bi in the 50s since gay jokes were in vogue even back then, fewer people knew bisexuality was even a thing, and the default image of “deviant” ppl in the typical straight mind was unpleasant and generally unlikeable to a stronger degree than in the 70s, so the popular funny dude was unlikely to be assumed to be one of them by anyone not already in the know.

If anything Hawkeye’s pacifism and communist sympathizing is the smoking gun that might lead people to jump to the fucks men conclusion with mild nudging, a la Flagg lol, and realistically defending George probably should’ve raised some eyebrows, but the gay jokes themselves aren’t really an issue imo.

Plus I can cite at least one mid century history book with anecdotes about how common gay jokes were in all-male environments especially, and how most army units had at least one funny campy jokester who everyone loved with 0 suspicion. It’s the awkward effeminate dudes who got hassled - humour and charisma (and at least in the army, competence) makes all the difference, and Hawkeye has it in spades. Plus while he’s not a pinnacle of masculinity, he’s not exactly a queen either lol, there’s nothing intrinsic to his demeanour that really singles him out as effeminate unless he’s trying to be.

I don’t think Hawkeye actually has much to worry about wrt the jokes, both because of the sitcom reality of the show, but also realistically. I have 0 issue imagining him acting similarly in his home town, or uni, or while working in a Boston hospital, and being just as popular. And within the reality of the show we see plenty of others making them too outside the main cast, esp in the early seasons when it was a common source of humour - What’s-his-name played by Alan Alda’s dad in The Consultant has a few, Stosh makes a pretty eyebrow raising comment to Hawkeye, Tommy obviously, Sam, etc.

Like I think it makes perfect sense to read Hawkeye as bi of course and I refuse to see him as anything else, but there’s a reason it’s a headcanon and he was written as a straight dude, and I find it pretty implausible that he’s eg a full on open secret wherever he goes, or that he’s endangering himself out of naivete, or anything like that.

I see him as very aware of how far he can safely go, maybe occasionally stepping over that line anyway out of defiance lol, and generally enjoying the jokes because they’re a way for him to be honest without attracting suspicion, a way to signal to guys who might be interested, and quite likely something he learned while growing up specifically to keep himself safe and turn something that could be dangerous into something that people find likeable and entertaining, thanks to a lot of charisma and good comic timing.

[xoteajays]

That's what I do! Like I know.. Regardless of the size of tattoos, tattoo is still a tattoo. But when people say tattooed, I am imaging visibly big tattoos and even their covered in tattoos. So I do think the same way.

I have no tattoos.. But I have many piercings. Not that I wouldn't want tattoos, but I'm really too perfectionistic about my appearance. I'm so obsessive compulsive about my appearance (not necessarily because of my disorder). So I can't get tattoos for that reason. I'm too nitpicky.

I should slap you because of your stupid puns.

If we're talking about insects, I might have to say that my favorite bug is a black widow spider. At least one of my favorite insects anyway.

I feel like Rocky's immune to compliments. Don't get me wrong! He is appreciative about compliments, especially from women. But... Since he's always around women, I believe he is used to the compliments all the compliments women give him. Maybe he was flustered when WR was first formed because he wasn't fully confident then, but he's very confident now. If that makes sense. But Cobra is a different situation. Cobra's attractive. Everyone (in Sannoh) knows he's attractive, but I'd never seen anyone compliment him in any way to his face though. So if someone compliments him, he may be flustered in awkward ways.

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Like in Vincenzo. Snitches get stitches! Well.. More like snitches have died from getting stabbed repeatedly until you bled out. Although I'm loving my boys, this is where I'm different from that - at least with our boy Gun. "She may be small, but she is fierce." That quote is me. If I'm seeing or hearing someone being disrespectful to me (or anyone else) in any way, I'm giving that person an attitude they'd just never expect. Attitude, violence, anything and everything in my power that works in my favor. I might be a violent person. This small body contains rage.

But that was funny that Gun-woo thought Jae Myeong was also over forty years old. I thought Jae was older than that too. He looks so old.

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Yeah. Jin's easily excitable about everything, Gun is easily excitable to some extent. But especially Jin. And... I'm happy he never stole any of the money because of cameras everywhere, inside and outside of the whole bookstore building. Jin wouldn't have gotten a job if that would have happened. And to be fair, that around the same time that you do find out Jin used to be a petty criminal working as a loan shark. I'm so happy Jin changed his life around when he really met his real family.

Jin was definitely in shock when he saw that money, Gun was also in shock. But Jin was the one actually counting the money when he saw it though.. Which was funny. So boys were in awe seeing that money.

That's what I was thinking. And I did try researching that... Because it depends on which type of meats, and where you're buying that meat. Ribeye in the sense of burgers or steaks? Are you buying that meat in a store, or going to a restaurant. The size of the meat too. But I'd keep forgetting meat is apparently considered delicates meals in any Asian countries. Compared to America, Europe and Australia where you are able to eat meat whenever you want. If you have a carnivorous diet.

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Like I've said before.. If I ever say or do anything that makes you really uncomfortable, just let me know. I'll try reigning myself in a bit more.

Black Sails is like that! I recommend the series. It's a pirate series. Not only are majority of the cast is attractive (in my opinion). But a series.. This series is authentic. And half the characters are canonically queer too, including female characters [heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, even poly relationships too]. Every time someone gets injured, they're always leaving scars behind on them. Great fight scenes. Also one of Ray Stevenson's last roles as an actor if that means anything. There is diversity based on gender, ethnicity and sexual. Just about anything I could think of, you'll love about the series. One of my favorite series.

And don't get me started on that soundtrack too. I love the music.

Actually.. I do that. I have already mentioned to you. That I really am a short person for someone of my age. And I'm actually fully grown too. Despite when people would say, I was not always bullied over my size like people always seem to assume. But when I was really teased over my height, those bullies were guys, which would led me to hitting any of them in the balls because of their comments. Seriously. Every time they thought it was funny to make vulgar comments about my height whenever they saw me, just like I thought it was funny when I'd crush their balls. Until they eventually they stop teasing me. So I win again.

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So... I just researched the aging in Korea. Since drinking age is always different in every country. Apparently the drinking age in Korea would be nineteen. Nineteen in the universal age, but twenty in Korean age.

But I did think Ju was the youngest amongst those three characters - she really appears much younger than her actual age, so I would have thought she was the youngest before she made those comments.

So Bibi's fighting style is more close range, but with Da-min's fighting style being more distance range. Which makes sense for Da-min, just because she is actually a long distance fighter. At least with archery.

I don't know any of my character's fighting styles yet. Obviously.. I will say that my one Bloodhounds character knows hand to hand combat to some extent, but not sure about any weapons. So I don't know yet.

I wouldn't say that Gun-woo and Woo-jin are bad with weapons, more like they don't like to use weapons. They just prefer their hands... That was obvious when Yang was teaching the boys about blade weapons.

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Naturally brown hair, dyed dark blue, not sure about post time skip is what I had in mind. I've already said that.. I do want her to have brown hair, even for a short while. Because maybe sibling commentary does have to be jokingly said toward OC and Jin. But then dies it sometime after that, not sure when that is. But then different hairstyles after the time skip. That's all I have in mind for her hair right now.

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Oh... I've been noticing Worst Of Evil on my pages since everyone has been posting pictures and gifs already. And I might have to watch the show when I have a chance, when it's on a channel I have (unless I am able to watch on a site). The actor who's the detective, I have recently watched a show with him as the main character.. I liked his character. And I know the guy from Squid Games is another character too. So I'll know some of the actors. And, obviously, it's a crime drama series.

And if you start watching Vincenzo, remember the story picks up way more by episode three and four. I've thought the first couple episodes were an introduction to the story, the characters, everything like that. So try watching more episodes before giving any more opinions. And, if you still don't enjoy show, I won't be too critical about your opinion. Everyone has their preferences in what they love and hate. All of that.

I may use AleXa's Girls Gone Vogue era for the Vincenzo fandom.. I do want to use that style, just not sure which fandom. Maybe Vincenzo.

Extracurricular is also a crime drama series... I might have mentioned that show to you. But there's that show too. If you decide to watch it.

I'm watching horror movies at the moment. And I may watch Train To Busan soon.. Maybe not tonight. But probably before watching All Of Us Are Dead. Because Korean zombie concepts all at one time. So I'm probably just going to watch AOUAD much sooner than I intended to.

i’ve got a handful of piercings (double lobes, helix, nose) and i wanted a conch piercing but my helix took forever to heal so i’m holding off for now. i also want more tattoos and am looking at working with a tattoo artist for a forearm piece.

i love puns and word play!

i love teddy bear bees most, but i love all bees. they’re just cool! and there’s so many species of blue ones??!!? and the largest bee species’ queens grow up to a lil over 1.5 inches and they’re so fluffy and the smallest bee is barely 2mm! and cuckoo bees have some genuinely cool patterns. sorry, rambling, i love bees sm

rocky takes compliments gracefully. he’s not flustered but is still flattered. usually returns compliments in kind to women because he’s a gentleman. meanwhile cobra’s kind of a loner or usually hanging out with guys so when girls compliment him he’s surprised and flustered and maybe a lil blushy if it’s a girl he likes. like we talked about earlier, a girl’s gotta be straightforward with cobra.

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i’m too chill to fight. argue yes unless i can get out of the situation. but physically? nope. not me. i’m more in my head about things anyway, like telepaths would be taking psychic damage from the amount of attitude i have while keeping my mouth shut.

especially at work since i have a retail job and customers are. stupid.

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gun gets excited when jin’s excited, but is otherwise the chiller of the two. jin gets hyped up tho, like about the money or when they got hired for the job and ju’s watching them on the security cam.

yea, like beef is so common and pretty cheap in australia. sure we have our more expensive stuff, austalian wagyu and all that. but otherwise it’s not difficult to find decently cheap beef in aus. so it’s surprising that it’s so rare and expensive in places like korea. i’m more of a fan of chicken and fish tho tbh, not a huge fan of steak.

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you’re gonna be mad. black sails is another one of those popular shows imve never had a real interest in watching. it’s just so long and i’ve already got so much stuff backlogged to watch. i know it’s good, i’m just. slack.

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bi is close range and very fast, she’s usually plotting out to hit weak points and take people down quickly. da min’s at a distance and can take her time to line up incapacitating shots.

idk, from that fight at the fish farm, i’d say weapons aren’t really their strong suit. gotta say, i was impressed by gun tho, throwing that metal grate around. he’s strong as hell. jin ….. could’ve done better than a net i think, but good enough. both are far better with their fists.

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i dont follow enough people with similar interests so i haven’t seen any worst of evil stuff yet, but i’m excited to watch it! will get back to you after i’ve watched the first episode!

well i’m up to ep3 of vincenzo i believe, so i’ll watch 3 and 4 and see if i’m feeling any more interested in it. if not, i’ll switch out to pending train for my boy yuki yamada.

i was also thinking of watching the killing vote, it’s apparently got the actor who plays myeong gil in it but idk if he’s a good guy or a villain. i didn’t know he was in it when i first came across it, i just saw weird dog mask and crime thriller genre and went ‘yea i’ll watch that’.

[discalmnected]

so we have to ignore public tweets and other displayed behaviour from shitty people? they’re public, how is that not my place? why is someone not allowed to say “hey guy in a band, your girlfriend is being awful online, you might wanna check how that translates to their offline life, aka your relationship with them” ???

This got long here's the tldr: fans have no place commenting on the guys' personal lives because we don't actually know them. Brandy isn't nearly as problematic as people are making them out to be and fans have been looking for reasons to hate them, largely because of racism and misogyny. We're all human and deserve to be able to make mistakes and grow from them.

I'm going to main tag this because I'm tired of getting messages like this, apologies if you try to avoid discourse I promise I won't make a habit of this.

There's a lot wrong with your reasoning here: first, you don't know either of them, or anyone in the band personally and you're not their pr team so it's not your place to give critiques on their relationship or image. The 5sos guys and their team know how they want to be perceived by the public more than fans do. Now if one of the guys does something problematic then by all means call them out, but if you're operating on guilt by association then you must have a problem with everyone in public eye since I guarantee nearly every celebrity/influencer is friends with someone "problematic".

Second: You're overestimating how much your opinion matters to the guys. Calum made a point in their most recent Zach Sang interview that the band is coexisting with their personal lives instead of running it, so why would he break up with someone he clearly loves to appease some fans? The guys have never made personal decisions based on the fan's demands, so why would they start now? I've been a fan since 2014 and the current treatment of Brandy is exactly the same as Crystal in 2017 and Michael clearly didn't break up with her. This is the first time Calum has gone public with a relationship so he must believe that she's the one. No amount of hate or criticism is going to make them break up, the only thing you're going to accomplish is hurting their mental health and driving both of them, and probably the band as a whole, further off social media.

Third: Much of the backlash she's getting now is fueled by racism and misogyny. All of the guys and their partners have done/said something problematic but for some reason people only care about Brandy. The amount of people slut shaming them because she was sex worker is absurd and embarrassing. I was on her tiktok back when there were only rumors of them dating and so many people claimed she had "Arzaylea vibes" when they only thing they have in common is their ethnicity. I've seen fans say they don't like Brandy because she looks like Arz, which is blatantly racist and also not true. People are also claiming she's "rubbing their relationship in" by posting pictures at Calum's house and wearing is clothes. This is absurd and implies that most fans wants to date Calum. Why do people celebrate Sierra, Crystal, and Margaret posting about the guys but demonize Brandy? Not to mention the blatant misogyny in believing that she's only dating Calum for attention. I really thought we moved past the "woman bad and attention whore" behavior. If you want to hold Brandy accountable for the things you feel they've done wrong then you better take that same energy to the rest of the band.

Fourth: Brandy isn't as problematic as people like to claim she is. The "lesbophobic" thing she tweeted was that, in her own experience, both men and lesbians invalidated her sexuality in the same way. While it might be ignorant to compare men and lesbians, nothing about that statement is lesbophobic. She also already apologized years ago for tweeting it. The backlash she's gotten for talking about her experiences as a bisexual woman is honestly biphobic but nobody seems to care about that. People were outraged she taught Calum the word "slore", but they later clarified that Calum only used it to refer to himself. Why does it matter what they call themselves/each other as long as they aren't slut shaming other women? What right do we as fans have to police their vocabulary, as long as they aren't being racist/homophobic/etc? It's absurd to accuse a former sex worker of slut shaming when there are multiple posts on their various social media accounts celebrating women and encouraging them to act however they want without feeling shame. The only thing they've tweeted that warrants backlash is "war is dickriding behavior" about the Ukraine and Russia war. People were absolutely correct in calling her out for this, it's insensitive and borderline joking about the situation. However, "dickriding" is slang for awful behavior and she apologized for tweeting it. I'm not defending the tweet, but the fact that fans are using it to justify hating her proves that they were looking for reasons to hate. If we condemned people for making one mistake then there would be no one left. We should be allowed to make mistakes, learn from them, and grow as people.

Finally: If you don't like the content on my blog then feel free to block me. I don't usually main tag posts that are intentionally controversial. This blog is meant to be a place to celebrate the guys and I choose to also post about their partners, there's plenty of other people who only post about the guys if that's the content you prefer. There's also a plethora of "drama" accounts you can find to rant about the guys and their partners if you want. Chances are I won't change my opinion, so you, and anyone else for that matter, are wasting your time sending messages like this.

[goosefeathercore]

hmm dovewing or ivypool?

bet I’ll do both >:3

dovewing

sexuality headcanon: bisexual

gender/pronouns headcanon: she/love/xe, demigirl

favorite thing about them: how she continues to hold so much love for everyone, even when they don’t appreciate it or offer love back to her. she’s also genuinely a good mother, I really appreciate how she loves her kids unconditionally and prioritized being a support system for shadowsight over the opinions of her clanmates and the warrior code. I also love how she’s found her place in shadowclan, and her relationship with tawnypelt!

least favorite thing about them: I guess the fact that she never really got to acknowledge how unfair thunderclan was to her at times, like i feel that she should’ve gotten to go off a little, but I understand that it’s kind of part of her character to be super emotionally mature and forgive others by recognizing that they’re hurting too. so not really a character flaw, more like a desire of mine as a reader! I do think that she popped off when defending shadowsight though.

why i first started liking them: I’m gonna be real with you when I first read power of three and omen of the stars i was like 13 so i didn’t exactly have the hottest takes and she was kinda disliked online until recently. so basically, i started liking her when i joined tumblr a few years ago and started reading long posts analyzing her character and defending her because that was how i realized that i had been missing a ton of nuance!

do i relate/project onto/kin them?: I guess I partially relate to her because i can empathize with the whole ‘i was put on a pedestal as a kid and it made other kids dislike me because i had opportunities they didn’t, but i also never asked to be this way’ thing. that’s kinda where the similarities end though and she’s way more chill than I am about it!

favorite quote/moment: I really liked all her moments with shadowsight in the broken code! she was such a good mom to him through everything.

my fav ship: idk tbh! i think she and tigerheartstar are cute but i’d love to hear about any wlw dovewing ships!

my fav platonic friendship: ooh i don’t really know tbh i don’t remember power of three and the first half of omen of the stars well at all T-T I did just reread tawnypelt’s clan though, and dovewing’s friendships with the tribe cats are nice!

a ship i hate: bumblestripe x dovewing of course, that’s clearly not a hot take lmao i think everyone hates him

do i prefer canon or fanon?: i think i’m somewhere in the middle, like i prefer reading about the fandom’s interpretations of canon dovewing based on the books

random headcanon: i’ve been designing a lot of cats recently, and the image of dovewing in my head has eyes that are a gradient from blue to green! not the most original, but I like it :3

what color do i picture them as: light gray and white

cat breed headcanon: maybe scottish fold or munchkin cat

unpopular opinion: this opinion is much more popular here on tumblr, but she doesn’t deserve the hate she gets.

things i associate with them: doves of course, and for some reason i also heavily associate her with angels and angelcore aesthetic, i have no idea where that came from!

song i associate with them: definitely evelyn, evelyn because of the MAP

favorite MAP/PMV/AMV with them: https://youtu.be/3MdnLGpZSw0 this one! i just like the song a lot in general

ivypool

sexuality headcanon: demiromantic lesbian

gender/pronouns headcanon: she/he/it

favorite thing about them: i liked her a lot as a kid, i guess i’ve always admired the balls it took to be a double agent in freaking hell. idk she was an angsty mood to 13 year old me and i always viewed her as a badass lesbian!

least favorite thing about them: i guess the fact that the erin’s never seem to keep consistent character development for her. i feel like she really reflects on her life and mends her relationships, but then the erin’s just kinda undo that when they want her to be super angsty again for the sake of drama in the plot

why i first started liking them: i liked her from the start but i recognize her flaws a lot more now and i think i appreciate her more as a whole because of it

do i relate/project onto/kin them?: yeah i definitely relate to her a bit, except i’m an only child. instead, i relate to her for the whole ‘getting caught up in a very toxic friendship and losing sight of your personal morals while searching for validation’ thing. she’s a badass though and i just sit in my room and read funny little cat books 💀

favorite quote/moment: again, i do not remember the middle arcs that well but i will always remember the scene where she confronts hawkfrost at the great battle and hollyleaf dies saving her. i will also never forget her in the end of a light in the mist.

my fav ship: i really don’t know, i’ve always seen her as a lesbian but never had a good ship. i know some people ship her with blossomfall but i’ve also seen people say that blossomfall kinda treated ivypool like shit and i can’t really join that debate because i don’t remember their relationship like. at all

my fav platonic friendship: HOLLYLEAF!!!! the 2 reject siblings with flawed morals and self esteem issues 🖤 i think it was so fitting for hollyleaf to die saving her it was angsty af

a ship i hate: not really a big fan of ivypool x fernsong, this girl has been a lesbian in my mind since day one

do i prefer canon or fanon?: fanon all the way!! my main way of enjoying ivypool lately has been consuming fanon content where ivypool basically just goes to therapy lmao

random headcanon: this isn’t really a headcanon but i have an au where she goes to live with dovewing for a while after a light in the mist, and dovewing and shadowsight help her overcome her grief. i also see her as a butch lesbian!

what color do i picture them as: gray and white, the gray bits have darker gray stripes on them

cat breed headcanon: don’t have one :3 i see her as short haired and kinda blocky though

unpopular opinion: i don’t really know..i guess just that i like both her and dovewing equally??

things i associate with them: thorns, train tracks, nightmares

song i associate with them: devil train because of the MAP!

favorite MAP/PMV/AMV with them: devil train!!!https://youtu.be/iZjb-ATaYVk

but i’m also still hyped af about the copycat MAP, the call was posted 3 years ago and it’s so close to being done!! there’s a ton of big names involved i think it’s gonna be awesome!! here’s the parts playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmTDc0x_Z-a_XA5LQujJ7qsx7PWxlYl4V

[butterflyinthewell]

Raditz headcanons!

(Warning: some nsfw text ahead! Scroll to the second picture to avoid it.)

The funny stuff:

Raditz fucks. He calls himself a slut because he fucks often and he’s good at it.

He is happy to suck dick, eat pussy and eat ass for money. He’s not picky as long as the presented part is clean.

He’s proudly bisexual.

His dick is huge. Monstrous.

He loves to land on a planet he’s going to decimate and shmooze, go to bars, get drunk, say he’ll let them live if the sex is good, fuck whoever offers and kill everyone there anyway.

He rawed Zarbon’s brains out because Zarbon said he doubted Saiyajins could fuck. Zarbon still refuses to admit it’s the best dick he ever got in his life. All Raditz has to do is grab at his own crotch around Zarbon and that pretty jerk gets all flustered.

Raditz loves to be naked. He’s immodest and an exhibitionist, so he only wears clothes because he gets tired of people yelling at him to put some on.

He’s that guy who will eat the most disgusting food item or food mixture you put in front of him just to gross out everyone watching. Ice cream with toothpaste? Pop tarts with ketchup on them? Something alive and wiggly? Sure, he’ll eat it without flinching and watch you squirm.

He’s an expert troll. No, he’s a god-tier troll.

Once, he pranked the Ginyu Force by making Guldo stink. Guldo has no sense of smell, so Raditz smeared rotten meat all over the inside of his armor once while the little guy was in the showers. It took a week to figure the stink out, but nobody knew Raditz did it.

He can do a pretty good impression of Zarbon’s voice, so he once got a bunch of troops outside of Freeza’s room under “orders from Zarbon”. He got caught for that one and got his ass beat, but he’ll say it was worth it.

He draws things on the back of Nappa’s bald head while Nappa is asleep. Usually faces, but once or twice it was a dick or butt crack.

Once, he sent a dick pic to Freeza’s scouter during a debriefing and made the little bastard choke on his wine.

Another time, he got a dick pic onto the debriefing display and it ruined the whole meeting because everybody started yelling at each other. Raditz sat back and watched the chaos unfold with a shit-eating grin on his face. Yep, he showed the entire Freeza Force a picture of his enormous fully erect dick and he’d do it again.

And another time, he played the audio of Zarbon moaning and gasping all over Freeza’s ship, and Zarbon couldn’t do anything about it because it would mean confessing to letting Raditz fuck his brains out. Zarbon likes to project this image that he’s chaste and above such base desires, so being reminded of the time he had with Raditz embarrasses him so so sooooo much.

He jacked off into Freeza’s wine once. Freeza took a drink, spat it out and killed the guy who brought the wine. Nappa and Vegeta were in on this one, so the three of them snickered about it for months.

He taught Vegeta how to kiss by making out with him. It sorta broke his heart a little when Vegeta later said he wasn’t interested in him that way, cuz he had a bit of a crush on the Saiyajin prince.

Raditz might act cold and uncaring, but he has a big soft spot for kids. He wants to settle down and have some of his own someday. Unfortunately, life under Freeza doesn’t give him that opportunity. Plus, he’s a little afraid to for the genetic reasons about to be mentioned below.

The serious stuff:

Raditz’s biggest struggle is his epilepsy.

He was born with a rare gene mutation called a Naeb deletion (or Naeb syndrome) that kills most Saiyajin babies before their second birthday. (It’s pronounced “naw-EEB”.)

There are four Naeb genes in the average Saiyajin, or seizure suppressor genes. All four have to be present or a Saiyajin comes out with Naeb syndrome. Raditz is missing two of these genes.

Some Saiyajins carry an extra (fifth) Naeb gene-- a mutation-- that causes these deletions in children. If only one parent has that gene, the chances of a kid with Naeb syndrome are fifty-fifty. If both parents have the mutation, all their kids come out with it and it's usually fatal. Bardock had an extra Naeb gene, but Gine didn't. That's why Raditz has seizures and Goku doesn’t.

Every Saiyajin with Naeb syndrome is missing their last set of molars, has two extra ribs, has denser than average bones and extremely long hair. Their brain development is also faster than average, which can mean it grows faster than the skull around it. Sometimes the skull doesn’t grow fast enough to keep up with the brain, so the brain is crushed.

Structurally, Raditz’s brain has all the parts it’s supposed to, but they’re in slightly different places. He has less cerebrospinal fluid than average, his corpus callosum looks like a ring from the side and his lateral ventricles are smaller because his brain had to fold in on itself more to fit inside his skull. There’s a spot in his parietal lobe that’s pressed right up against the inside of his skull, and his meninges and a few millimeters of cerebrospinal fluid are the only thing that stops his brain from lacerating itself. That spot is always spiking with abnormal electrical activity. It’s like a match striking over and over. His brain doesn’t like being so squished in his skull, so sometimes it misfires when that “match” strikes and you get a flame, which is a seizure.

Raditz has a few different seizure types depending on which parts of his brain react to the constant “striking” activity and some of his seizures have a few triggers.

Doctors call Raditz’s epilepsy “mild”, but Raditz disagrees and considers it severe because he’s the one affected by it and not them.

He’s tried many different medications and none work. Surgery isn’t an option because Saiyajins don’t tolerate brain surgery very well and the chances of developing new seizure sources outweigh the benefits.

His scouter records and logs his seizures. He gets the time of the seizure, the length of the seizure and a video of the environment he was in. (If something flashes, the flashing is removed.)

Flashing lights can trigger seizures. His scouter has special polarized glass that counter flashes whenever someone’s ki flashes, so he just sees a solid color in that eye. Blocking one eye helps prevent the electrical excitation in his brain that turns into seizures. This doesn’t work if he’s exposed to flashing lights for longer than sixty seconds though. This is meant to give him time to turn away or cover his other eye.

He can’t go anywhere with strobes because of his seizures. Bars are okay since most don’t have strobes, but nightclubs are inaccessible.

Focal aware seizures are his most common seizure type, and he can have hundreds of these a day. They’re twenty seconds long. You can’t tell he’s having one unless you know what to look for, which is a faint quiver in his eyelids when he blinks. Sometimes he closes his eyes until the worst part of it is over.

It’s hard for him to describe how these seizures feel. They start as a little tingling at the tip of his thumb that spreads to his wrist. It’s a very annoying sensation. Then he gets sudden vertigo like someone yanks the ground sideways. During that vertigo he perceives everything as being way too close and too real. He gets a strong sense of doom. That’s the worst part. Then it’s over. The tingling stops, his senses return to normal and his heart rate slows.

He learned to compensate for the vertigo, so he can still fly and fight while having a focal aware seizure and nobody would know the difference.

Atonic seizures aren’t his most devastating seizures, but they’re the only seizure that embarrasses him to have in public. His muscles suddenly lose tone and he blacks out for a split second. If he’s walking or standing, he falls headfirst to the ground. If he’s sitting, he slumps. If he’s flying, he loses altitude for a second or two.

His atonic seizures happen when he doesn’t get enough sleep. They tend to come in clusters of two or three in a row. They can mess with his memory, causing him to lose a few minutes or be confused about where he is. If he’s in the middle of a conversation, he might forget what was being talked about, but reminding him gets him back on track.

Tonic clonic seizures are Raditz’s most devastating seizures. These are the big bad seizures that can be triggered by flashing lights. He can have them spontaneously, too, and averages about one or two a week.

Spontaneous ones start with his usual tingly focal aware seizures. He knows it’s going to generalize if the tingle continues up his arm instead of fading away. The second the tingle reaches his neck, he goes. His eyes roll back, he gets stiff, he shakes and he’s down for awhile.

Induced seizures give him no warning other than a sudden, extremely intense pain in the back of his skull. Induced seizures are worse than spontaneous ones because they’re more violent and last longer.

Some of his other weird TC triggers are going into or coming down from an oozaru transformation, getting dehydrated, not eating enough, being awakened out of delta wave sleep and stimulants like caffeine.

Regardless of how a TC started, he loses several hours of memory and doesn’t get it all back. His worst seizure wiped out a month of his life and he never regained those memories.

If he just ate, he will puke as he enters the tonic phase of the seizure. This is a huge choking hazard for him. He doesn’t care if he pees or poops himself during a seizure, but vomiting is really bad. If he just ate a huge meal and feels a TC coming, he’ll stick his finger down his throat and get the puking done before the seizure hits.

He almost always wets or soils himself during the clonic phase unless he just went to the bathroom before he had it.

If he powers up as a TC starts, his power rises uncontrollably until the tonic phase progresses into the clonic phase, then he releases massive ki waves that destroy everything around him. He hits power levels he can’t reach while conscious and in control of his ki, but this is dangerous because he could power up until he explodes and there’s no way to stop it.

His instinct when he realizes a seizure is generalizing is to either finish a fight quickly or power down and go hide to have the seizure because he knows he’s vulnerable during and after.

The worst seizure of his life was caused by Captain Ginyu. He goaded Raditz into attacking without his scouter and flickered a ki ball right in his face. Raditz went down. The Ginyu Force kicked him around while he was on the ground seizing. Nappa lured them into a fight to stop the unfair beating and Vegeta dragged Raditz away to finish the seizure. It was awful because Raditz threw up and soiled himself and the Ginyu Force made sure he got covered in all of it.

Raditz doesn’t remember this and neither Vegeta nor Nappa told him what really happened.

Post-ictal Raditz will remove anything on his body that feels bad, so he often ends up naked. He won’t recognize friend or foe and isn’t going to react kindly to being crowded.

If he’s alone, he’s likely to sit staring at the ceiling or sky until he collapses into sleep.

His scouter shows him a picture of his attack ball if he’s on a mission and that’s enough incentive for him to go find it even while too confused to tell someone his own name.

After his post-seizure sleep, he wakes up kinda giddy and hyperactive as his unsettled brain chemistry tries to restore balance. He will be sore as hell, too, usually that’s how he knows he had a seizure.

Nappa and Vegeta have seen so many seizures. They take bets on whether Raditz will pee, poop or do both. Then they’ll flip him on his side and wait it out. Barring emergency retreats, they don’t let him leave an area until he can identify a scouter by name.

Yep, seizures messed up some of his slutty sexual escapades. Usually by killing whoever he was trying to fuck since the violent convulsions hurt other people and his immediate environment more than they hurt him.

And finally…

The loss of planet Vegeta isn’t something Raditz likes to talk about. He was on a scouter to scouter call with someone there when it happened and all he heard was a bunch of screaming. He still can’t handle listening to recorded audio of screaming people because it reminds him of hearing his planet die.

[xxgothchatonxx]

It is 1am & you know what that means!!! HANNIBAL TIME! SEASON 3! FLORENCE EDITION! THE END IS NIGH! I also like that the picture for this episode is from the “it’s not that kind of party, is it?“ scene and that’s so exciting for me!!!! Also, first Hannibal in the apt! Exciting part 2!

Antipasto:

* SEXY OVEN OPENING?? Oh nope, Not An Oven.

* AHHHHH SEXY LEATHER/BIKE HANNI!!

* Okay, PARIS?

* Honey, you are terribly underdressed.

* Going grocery shopping, Hanni?

* His hair, the length & soft of casual sweat it’s in is SO FUNNY TO ME BECAUSE IT’S SO RELAXED!

* Oh, acorns & oysters man has the silly 2000’s scarf & vest combo.

* OH HE’S A POET! That tracks!

* “One can appreciate another’s words without dissecting them.” Hannibal, I have an English degree. Fuck of.

* He IS grocery shopping!

* These fades to black are GREAT!

* GOOD MORNING CHEF! We have liver on the menu!!!!

* OH THE CLOSE UP OF THE BLOOOOOOOD FROM THE JUICE OF THE LIVERRRRRRR YESSSSSS

* & the theme for this opening is, “Bonsior”

* Black & white? OH! EDDIE’S BACK!!! Oh right, the legs.

* It’s a leg candy apple. Amazing.

* We open with Eddie’s legs & close with Bedelia’s, so we not?

* I am unfortunately thinking too much about the future and not being super present with this season because I know more than I did in the past seasons. So I think I’m going to be going back a lot since I’ll no doubt be paying attention to what’s to come & not what’s in front of me.

* Hannibal seems so impatient with him, for some reason.

* AHHHH YESSSSSS THE DANCE LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOO

* I’m SO HAPPY YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!

* And that man is the man with the ice pick in his head!

* OLD ITALIAN HANNIBAL MY BELOVED!!!!

* “The eating of the heart is a powerful image.” *blinks in season 1, episode 7*

* That fucking GRIN ON HIS FACE I LOVE IT!

* Ugh this season is so BEATIFUIL!

* “You no longer have ethical concerns Hannibal. You have a statical ones.” “Ethics become aesthetics.” That scene is finally mine to hear! That scene has been living rent free in my head for weeks since I found it on @amatesura’s blog. Stunning!!!

* “Morality doesn’t exist. Only moral.” Fucking bastard.

* “I feel like I am in constant control of my actions. Given your history, that is a good day.” Bedelia, baby, I’m so sorry.

* We closed (just about) season 2 with black soaked Alana. & we open this season with drowning Bedelia. What is it with Bryan & naked women in water?

* OH HELLO RED BEDELIA FLASHBACK! & JACK!!!!! MISSED YOUUUUUU!

* Bedelia, babe, you okay?

* Was that perfume there before or did Hanni leave it??

* Look at his white little ass.

* OH RIGHT RED BEDELIA IN HER OWN HOUSE! OF COURSE!

* “I’ve taken off my person suit.” Bedelia’s dream come true.

* They make a helluva pair.

* Why they have decided to make Florence look so green and gray and sad is beyond me and the biggest fucking mistake in their in higher production! We want warmth! Give us fire! Just like the one room in Hannibal‘s mind palace.

* Gillian can’t speak Italian, but that’s OK. She’s hot.

* I love these medieval torture devices and Hannibal looking great in a dark yellow little waist coat.

* WHY DOES THIS LOOK SO FUCKING GREEN?? I HATE ITTTT! (She says, eating up the color in Haunting of Hill House)

* Oh NOOOOOO HE’S IN FLORENCE!!!

* FLASHBACK SNAILS?? EXCUSE ME? Who’s terrarium? OH MY GOD THAT’S AN ARM!!!! HANNIBAL! THAT’S WHAT BEVERLY SAW!!!

* Ohhhh sexyyyyy jazz & the greatest aphrodisiac!

* And suddenly, she’s lost appetite.

* *Grins In Bisexual Cannibal*

* God, everyone in this show is So Hot.

* BEDELIA’S HAT I LOVE IT! Hate how much it blends into the background, though.

* She matches the train!!! Adorable!

* OH MY GOD FINALLYYYYYYYYYYY

* I CAN FINALLY SEE THE FULL SCENE & NOT JUST IN GIFS!!!!!

* I get that Hannibal was like THERE, but WHY?

* Hannibal has a habit of collecting women with a “controlled use of force.” If we’re going based off of the shows timeline in order of appearance, it’s first Abigail and then Bedelia. But if we’re going in terms of the actual canonical timeline, Bedelia and then Abigail.

* Oh THE NECK! Cant wait for all the soft touching this season. That’s what I’ve the most.

* OH THE EYES LINING UP! AMAZING!

* GIRL, GET THE FUCK OUT THEREEEEEEEEEE!

* The little drops of glares & attempting to push each little layer & secret back is Amazing. Shame I’m gonna forget about this guy Soon.

* “…as distasteful as I did.” “On the contrary.” BASTARD MAN!

* Mutual benefit? Nah, sweetheart, you’re gonna be dead by the end of the night. Mark my WORDS!

* SLOW MOTION BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOD WHAT DID I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!

* That blood will stain that wood.

* Those three (Hannibal, Will & Bedelia) are nothing if not curious.

* I have been so in love with the image of Hannibal taking Bedelia‘s coat but now knowing the context I am mediately regret EVERYTHING!

* ESCAR-MOTHERFUCKING-GOT LET’S GOOOOOOOOOOOO!

* God, Eddie is a tour du force. There’s so much power but also a clear fear leaking through. But standing ground nonetheless.

* AHHHHH THE GIANT HEART YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

See, this is why I call season 3 of Hannibal "Bryan Fuller's Gift To The Bisexual Fannibals" because we got Hanni in leather in the first episode AND Alana in pantsuits in the rest of the season!

The "storytime" with Hanni and Abel is just wonderful. Also I think the reason why Hanni was a bit irritated might have been because he was like "ffs dude, can't I just eat in peace? Do you have to bang your fork?" but yes, unfortunately this is the last time we'll see Eddie on Hannibal... but what an exit! She was such a delight! 

“I’ve taken off my person suit.” Bedelia’s dream come true. *wheezing* I love you, Nat 😂

So I had an epiphany prior to you sending me this. I’ve realised that Bedelia and Hanni’s relationship (the whole “so are you going to keep quiet about me being the ripper orrrrrr am I gonna have to reveal what happened to your patient that I TOTALLY didn’t set up?” thing) is kind of what could have happened in The Sopranos between Dr. Melfi and Tony. Like, there’s a question among fans with the whole “Dr. Melfi thinking about asking Tony to kill her rapist that got let off with a warning” story, that if she had gotten him to do it, would she be indebted to him? Personally, I don’t think Tony would have used that as “now you’re indebted to me” material, but I definitely get why people would think that. But with Bedelia and Hannibal, it’s like if that did happen, you know? Bedelia reminds me a lot of Melfi, if Jennifer didn’t have her morals. 

I’ll finish with... fuck, escargot is delicious 😂 (especially the garlic-flavoured ones - YUUUUUM!)

So yep, that’s the Bedelia centric and I think the next episode issssss Will’s centric (in “wait so what the fuck happened after That Finale?”- oh yeah, um... you’re gonna hate me again, just a heads up <3)

[the-good-bad-truth]

I’m going to be talking about some of the issues that I feel social media or people create when it comes to celebrities alleged sexuality, queerbaiting and sexualizing someone’s sexuality. The first issue I have is that people like to assume or push a sexuality on a celebrity. A perfect example is Shawn Mendes. As far as I know and what he says, he is straight. It bothers me how people will call him things like “fruity” or “sissy” because of how he swims. What if he’s actually straight and this spectacle people are making about what he is for nothing? If it is 100% confirmed that he is straight, people will hate on him and might even accuse him of queerbaiting. He can’t even say anything because then he could be labeled homophobic. This brings me to my next topic and how some celebrities will queer bait. I think that it’s not necessarily the celebs fault but it could be their teams or fan base that create this image. For example, in Ariana Grande’s song “Thank U, Next” she sings a specific lyric , “I met someone else/But this one gon’ last/ Cause her name is Ari”. Obviously writing out the lyrics, we can see she’s talking about self love but it sounded like Aubrey. People assumed she was bisexual. It also didn’t help when she did a song w/victoria monet, she said likes women and men and then came Break up with your girlfriend, cuz i’m bored mv. I think this isn’t really her fault because it was people didn't pay attention to what she was saying. I also think that hollywood knows that young society like to praise LGBTQ+ icons, movies, so tv shows, movies or labels will make 1 character gay or will allude to the artist being gay. It’s not like I'm trying to say I don’t want to see a character who is Lgbtq+, but some characters' entire storyline or personality ends up being stereotypes. I also think there are some celebrities who will use their sexuality to appear sexy, or appeal to an audience or to gain sympathy. There are also celebs who use sexuality to boost their careers but when it’s time to talk about the issues/struggles that LGBTQ+ face they are silent. Jussie Smollet created a fake hate crime to boost his career and get paid better. That makes me sick cuz I can only imagine the gay men that actually are harmed or lose their lives to this and he only did it to get 5min of fame. Olivia Wilde and Megan fox like to every once in a while bring up that they are bisexual. Olivia wilde has said that she would only date a women for only sexual pleasure. It’s like she was sexualizing lesbian/bisexual love and only making it seem girl/girl relationship could only be sexual. Megan fox also said she wouldn’t sleep with a woman who slept w/men because they would be dirty. She did admit it was hypocritical of her but she just kind of proved that she thinks women need to be clean. They are known as Bisexual icons but they don’t really advocate or talk about LGBTQ issues . I guess I could give Olivia Wilde some credit because in a movie she direct a movie where there was a lesbian female character. I’m not trying to say they have to be forced to speak up. But they are celebrities and have a platform, so why not use it to advocate for the people who are like them? I also wanted to talk about how fans will create gay ships w/ band members who might not even be gay such as Harry/Louis or Camila/Lauren. Until then, I want to say Happy Pride month. I hope that everyone in the LGBTQ+ community is safe and happy.I also want to say that I am sorry for the stupid and disgusting things that ignorant people say or do. Just know that all of you are strong and beautiful, amazing human beings.

[hopelikethemoon]

Opposition of the Stars || (Ezra x Reader) || [smut] || {Moonbeams}

Title: Opposition of the Stars Rating: Explicit Length: 2,700 Warnings: Smut (blowjob) and mild angst  Reader Details: To the best of my knowledge, there are no references to Reader’s physical details, beyond being a bisexual woman. I tried my best to keep it as vague as possible. Notes: Oops, cliffhanger!   Part six of the Moonbeams series.

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“I recognize this name,” Ezra announced as he thrust the datapad back in your direction. “Proctor. There’s a young woman with the... the pack.” Ezra scratched at his jaw as he stared at you. “She’s one of the younger ones.”

Your brows furrowed as you stared at the datapad, “He would’ve been here for the first time perhaps sixteen years ago?” 

Ezra hummed, “She looks about sixteen.” 

“So this Proctor might have a child here?” You questioned, dragging his fingers through his hair. “Is she like you?”

He tilted his head, “Yes.” Ezra’s eyes flickered from your face to your stomach and you felt it roil with nerves in response. 

“I have the stim.” You reminded him, touching the slightly raised spot on your arm. “We are still two years out before its due for replacement.”

Ezra worked his jaw slowly, “I hadn’t even considered the possibility. I assumed the curse would make it an incompatible match.” He let out an exhausted sigh. “And he’s dead?”

“Quinn was able to track down some information from the mining corp.” You explained, giving Ezra a sideways look as he slid his arm around your back, grabbing tightly at your hip in response to Quinn’s name being mentioned. “It appears that Proctor was part of a venture to study the resource potential of Lykaois and Arcadia. But he failed to comply with his contract and used the corp money to fund his…” Your brows furrowed. “I guess, to come see his child.” 

Ezra pressed his tongue to the inside of his cheek as he stared at the datapad in your hands. “Did they terminate his contract?”

You nodded. “Quinn loaded in his death certificate.” You swept through the files on the data pad, “Failure to comply.” You read, zooming in on the image of the certificate. 

His hand tightened at your hip, “My heart breaks for them. When Proctor left, I’m certain that they believed he would return, just as he had for cycles before. Not knowing if you were safe...” Ezra sighed heavily through his nose. “That’s such a long time to have someone in your life… But such a short time given the constraints here.”

You reached down to curl your hand around his at your hip. “Some people are willing to do anything for the people they care about.” 

Ezra turned and pressed a kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering there. “What else did your friend Quinn find for us?”

“So jealous,” You nudged him in the ribs, reaching up to ruffle your fingers through his hair. “And for the record, I don’t know if I told you this before…” You met his gaze. “I dropped out of the program. I know — I know.” 

“It will take you three years to reapply.” Ezra said flatly. “And even then, you’ll be at the bottom of the ladder.”

You shrugged. “It seemed worth it.”

“I’m glad you’re not beholden to their coin, but what will you do if something happens, little lamb?”

“Make do.”

He shook his head slowly. “When?”

“After my second trip here.” You admitted, looking down at the datapad. “I think that decision was part of the reason Shiva thought I had lost my mind. I had just entered the second tier — but it didn’t really matter after Lykaois.” You smiled to yourself. “After you.”

Ezra rested his chin on your shoulder, his warm breath dancing against your neck. “I believe that’s a special kind of madness, little lamb.”

You hummed, before laughing softly. “It is.” You swept your thumb over the screen. “How often do you use the lunaxium?”

“It depends.” He tapped his thumb against your hip. “I use a decent quantity of it — crushed — following the full moon. It helps calm the unease.”

“Allegedly, Arcadia has traces of lunaxium deposits. Perhaps you could travel off world to Arcadia.”

You could feel Ezra’s eyes on you. 

“Arcadia has an ocean. Did you know that?”

“Don’t tempt me, cruel mistress.” 

You rolled your eyes. “Now that we know the beast won’t maul me to death—“

“It was one time—“

“— we should try visiting Arcadia.”

Ezra grumbled, brushing his lips against the crook of your neck. “I would not sacrifice you for the sea.”

“I’ll continue my research when I go back to the Block.”

“Ezra,” You whispered as you nuzzled your nose against a spot just beneath his ear, your lips brushing against his skin. “Let me take care of you.” 

He let out a shaky breath, tilting his face towards you, “You don’t have to, little lamb.” Ezra drawled out, brushing his knuckles against your cheek.

You closed the distance between your faces with a kiss, shifting a little closer to him as you trace your fingers down his chest.

There’s a greedy man beneath this careful façade he’s erected. He tries to come off as unphased, he cloaks his own desires and focuses on yours, and he tries to maintain control. But you’ve seen him slip.

You cupped his cheek, stroking your thumb over his scar, as you drew back with an impish grin. “I want your cock in my mouth.” 

Ezra groaned, surging forward to kiss you again. His tongue invaded your mouth, sweeping over the roof of your mouth. You slid your fingers into his hair, tugging at the strands as they slid between your fingers. 

“Please,” You breathed out as you broke away from the kiss, pressing open mouthed kisses down his throat. “You’ve taken such good care of me.” You kissed the hollow of his throat, pressing your palms to his chest to roll him over onto his back. 

His jaw went to slack as he stared up at you, his hands encircling your hips as you moved to straddle him. “You can do whatever you want with me, moonbeam. I am at your mercy.” 

“I plan to take full advantage.” You grinned, taking his hands off your hips and interlacing your fingers with them as you leaned forward and pinned them to the bed above his head. 

Ezra tilted his head to gaze at your breasts, a crooked smirk forming at his lips. “I must admit, I am rather fond of this view.” 

You laughed softly, giving his hands a squeeze as you stayed in that position, “And what view is that?” You questioned. 

Your breath caught in the back of your throat as his mouth brushed over the swell of your breast, his artful tongue sweeping over your taut nipple. 

“An hundred years should go to praise thine eyes, and on thy forehead gaze. Two hundred to adore each breast, but thirty thousand to the rest.” Ezra drawled out, his breath warm against your skin as he trailed his mouth over the valley of your breasts. 

“Marvell?”

Ezra hummed the affirmative against your throat, squeezing your hands back in return. “For, lady, you deserve this state, nor would I love at lower rate.” 

You released your hold on his hands, pressing your hand to the mattress beside his shoulder as you pushed yourself down his body. 

He was just quoting a line of poetry and yet, your heart was pounding in your chest. Love. Quinn had asked you if you loved him. Shiva had asked too. 

Did he love you? Or was it just a beautiful line of poetry that suited the moment?

Instead of dwelling on it, you focused your attention on kissing a line down his chest, nipping at the soft flesh of his stomach beside his belly button. 

Ezra’s fingers rested at the back of your head. A groan escaped him as you kissed lower, your thumbs dragging over the lines of his hip bones. 

You settled yourself between his legs, running your hands along his inner thighs as you looked up at him. “You have no idea how badly I’ve wanted to do this.” You told him, loosely curling your fingers around his length. 

He jerked beneath your touch, his stomach muscles clenching as his eyes focused on your face. “Are you going to show me how badly you’ve wanted my cock in your mouth, little lamb?”

You felt your cheeks warm as you held his gaze. “You know I am.” You murmured, trailing your lips down the length of his cock, your tongue sweeping out over the soft skin of his sac. 

You watched his expression as you dragged your hand over the length of his cock, your thumb sweeping over the bead of moisture that had formed at the tip. “Ezra,” You whispered, catching his eyes as you made a show of licking your thumb.

He groaned out your name. 

You smirked as you curled your fingers around the base of his cock and swept your tongue up the length of his erection. 

Ezra took such good care of your needs. You had lost count of the number of times he’d buried his face between your thighs or had awoken you with wandering touches. 

You wrapped your lips around the head of his cock, teasing the tip of your tongue over the head. 

His hips bucked upwards and he muttered a weak apology seconds after, his fingers grasping at the sheets beneath him. 

You moaned as you took the length of his cock into your mouth, taking him in until he hit the back of your throat. You pulled back until just the tip was between your lips, looking up at him through your lashes. 

His hand grabbed at your shoulder, his fingers fanning out over your back as you descended back onto his cock. His hips bucked upwards again, driving the length of his cock into your mouth. 

“Shit.” He hissed out, his voice hoarse as he spoke, “Moonbeam, let me fuck you. I know you’re ready for me.” 

You pressed your palm against his lower stomach, keeping him right where you wanted him as you pulled off his cock, a strand of spit connecting your mouth to him. You met his eyes as you ran your tongue over your bottom lip. “Not until you come for me.”

Ezra swore under his breath, his head falling back against the pillow as he stared up at the ceiling above him. “I don’t want to hurt you.” He admitted, stroking his fingers down the back of your neck. 

“I’m not worried about that.” You assured him, curling your hands around his hips to keep him steady. It was only an allusion of control, Ezra was unnaturally strong and your grip wouldn’t control him. 

Rather than waiting for another weak protest from him, you parted your lips and took him into your mouth again, swirling your tongue around him. You found a rhythm as you started to bob your head, hollowing your cheeks to create just the right amount of pressure. 

Ezra slid his hand down to grab at your hand, groaning out your name again. “My sweet, little lamb—“ His voice cracked. 

You looked upwards, watching the pleasure wash over his face as he reached his peak. He squeezed your hand tight, his hips rocking upwards as you worked your lips over his length still.

A soft moan rose up the back of your throat as you swallowed every last drop of him, holding his gaze as you slowly drew back. You smirked at him as you swept your tongue over the head of his cock. 

“Come here.” Ezra mumbled, tugging at your hand. 

You crawled up the length of his body, straddling his stomach as you leaned over him. “Did you want something?”

Ezra ran his hands down your sides, grinning up at you, “You look like the cat that ate the canary, moonbeam.” He drawled out. 

“Are you a canary?” You questioned, leaning down to kiss the tip of his nose. 

“Perhaps.” He whispered, drawing you in for a needy kiss, his tongue sliding over your bottom lip. 

You drew back, brushing your fingers down his cheek as you met his gaze. “Ezra.” You wondered if he could feel how rapidly your heart was beating. 

“What is it?” 

“My favorite Marvell…” You couldn’t believe this was how you were going to tell him. “It ends with, is the conjunction of the mind and opposition of the stars.”

Ezra blinked slowly, his brow furrowing as he studied you. “The Definition of Love?”

You bit down on your bottom lip and nodded, “I know it’s so soon… but I feel—“

“I feel it too, moonbeam.” Ezra cupped your jaw and drew you back in for another kiss. “I feel it too.” 

“I’m afraid to admit that I make for a poor attempt at a mechanic.” Ezra remarked as he wiped his grease covered fingers onto his well-worn fatigues. 

“Me too.” You wrinkled your nose as rested your hand on his shoulder and peered down at his work. “I’m going to go check on the external wiring.” You told him, leaning down to press a kiss to his cheek. “Try not to set anything on fire while I’m gone.” 

“It was one spark,” He retorted, catching ahold of your hand before you could slip away. He rubbed his thumb over your palm. “I’m looking forward to setting this up.”

“I can’t wait to talk to you when we’re apart.” You smiled at him, before pulling free of his grip. You grabbed his jacket off the hook on the wall, bundling yourself up before venturing out into the snowy tundra. 

The wind was blistering cold as it whipped across your cheeks and you weren’t looking forward to the trek back to your own transport. 

You knocked your knuckles against the hull of the vessel as you crouched down to slide under to access the communications antenna. It was outdated, just like you assumed it would be — but not too outdated to serve its purpose. 

“Green to yellow.” You reminded yourself, fishing the transponder mod out of your pants pocket. “Yellow to Orange.” You flipped a toggle, releasing the wiring from the panel so you could slot the mod in to boost the output. It wasn’t a perfect patch — but it would work. 

You pried the wires out, fingers shaking from the cold as you rerouted the power to the appropriate inputs. 

The sound of snow crunching underfoot made you jump a little, but it didn’t deter you from your work. “Don’t distract me.” You hissed out, brows furrowed as the wire slipped out of the port. “You have a steady hand—“ You glanced back and frowned when you didn’t see anyone standing where you thought Ezra would be. 

Weird.

You turned your attention back to the dangling set of wires, fishing out a blade from your pocket to peel back the protective covering on the wire. 

Something cracked behind you, causing you to jerk and jab the tip of the blade into the center of your palm. 

You swore loudly, flipping the knife closed and pocketing it as you watched red blood drip into the brilliant white snow beneath you. It was a shallow cut, but it hurt like a bitch. 

A gust of wind blew harshly through the clearing, causing loose snow to whip up off the ground as you turned towards the snow. The snow spun upwards, momentarily blinding you as you squinted into the wind’s path. 

Your heart skipped a beat as you spotted a figure looming at the treeline. Cautiously, you started inching towards the front of the transport — trying not to draw attention to you.

All you had to do was get inside and shut the door. Ezra wouldn’t let anything happen to you. 

You crept around the side of the vessel, freezing in place as your eyes fell to a fearsome looking wolf crouching near the door. It snarled, teeth bared but it didn’t growl at you. 

You took a step backwards, tensing as you felt a presence standing behind you. The hairs at the back of your neck stood on end as you turned around and came face-to-face with a towering stranger.

Your lips parted, prepared to scream, but the man reached out and clamped his hand over your mouth. 

You grabbed at his wrist, trying in vain to pull his hand away — but the sweet scent of his gloved hand quickly lulled you unconscious.