#2022 was one of the worst years of my life
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justalittleconfusing · 3 hours ago
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This chapter, when I first read it, nearly broke me. I first “met” @seriouslysam8 when I left a comment on Backstabber on September 25th 2022. I opened up about how that story helped.
“Great chapter!!! Great story. Sorry if reviews have been less frequent, my son’s illness took a turn and it’s just been really hard over here.
But your stories I look forward to every week. They get me through a lot during the week (especially the MOT series). I started reading your work earlier this year when I would be up late with him when he was really struggling.
This isn’t a specific review on the chapter, but something about your characters and world just made the best escape for me. Watching Harry overcome addiction and the family thriving despite his struggle. Watching Harry holding lily in the hospital all alone but finally letting his guard down when Luna came to help hold the baby he was too scared to even let Molly hold.
The idea that those who have passed are watching us in our darkest hours and can protect us and visit us in someway in our heaviest need (watching my son slowly get worse, I need that belief right now).
I guess what I am trying to say is, I hope you don’t let naysayers and lack of reviews deter you. You gave me the biggest gift this last year. I hope you can find a way to see for yourself the beauty you have brought to the world by taking the time to gift the world with your words.”
I started binging the MOT universe I January 2022z. I wrote that review on one of my darkest days. I was truly afraid I may lose my son. And I had a lot of nights awake with him in severe pain where I was helpless to help him.
The Emma/William journey is very personal and real for me. It came from so many micro conversations over the last 2 years with Sam. And she took all of those and crafted these characters because she told me she saw how I managed everything with a humor and strength. And when I read Emma with Dr Harry I cried.
Because in a world where I was often kicked down, looked over, made to feel like I do everything wrong, here was this wonderful person who SAW me. She saw the late nights and fear and hope and fight. And I am so honored to have a small part of that shared with her beautiful community of readers. And the worst of the doctors to see be hated on. And the best of the doctors to be cheered.
So thank you @seriouslysam8 from the bottom of my heart for listening to my life, being my friend, and giving me this incredible life changing opportunity to read your stories. From your earliest work until now, I deeply respect, admire, and appreciate you!
Selcouth Update!
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Chapter Five: Father's Day
Here it is! The chapter is up! We are finally in the main storyline. I hope you enjoy!!
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youngpettyqueen · 2 years ago
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🤡, 😈, and 💔!
🤡 "What’s a line, scene, or exchange you’ve written that made you laugh?"
the entirety of like a dog, but specifically-
"Hawkeye gives Frank a ‘go on’ look. “He started it!” Frank accuses, the picture of petulance, “He bit me!”
For any single other adult person in this godforsaken war, Henry would laugh at such an accusation.
But this is Hawkeye.
He looks at him. He hopes the ‘please for the love of all that is holy tell me he’s lying’ is obvious in his eyes. “Pierce.” He says.
Hawkeye suddenly finds a loose thread on his sleeve very interesting.
“Pierce,” Henry says again, with feeling, “Did you. Bite. Frank?” He can’t believe he’s asking that of a grown, adult surgeon and not of one of his children. The temptation to drink is rising.
Hawkeye shrugs. “I warned him!” He exclaims, “I told him ‘Frank, if you don’t stop pointing in my face, I’m gonna bite you.’ And he didn’t stop pointing in my face.”
“So you bit him.” Henry fills in the blank, remembering a time when this kind of disappointment was reserved for when one of his girls put chewing gum in the other’s hair.
“So I bit him.” Hawkeye echoes, nodding, with not a hint of remorse."
and-
"“You tasted bad.” Hawkeye informs him.
“Go soak your head.” Frank grouses as he shoves past."
made me laugh very very hard when I put them down. I reread this one whenever I need a good laugh
😈 "Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?"
ending the second chapter of and miles to go before i sleep on a cliffhanger of the emotional high point of the Hawkeye and BJ kiss. I did that purely to be mean and make people yell at me
proceeding to take a month long break from that fic due to god slapping me upside the head with writer's block was NOT part of the plan and I genuinely felt so bad for leaving people hanging on that but my god the writing machine really just BROKE
💔 "Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?"
both leave your roles at the door and what remains, but ill give the shoutout to leave your roles at the door for this one because the reason it breaks my heart is it resonates with a personal area for me for this bit specifically-
"“It should- it shouldn’t’a been him-“ Radar whimpers, “Not- not him, not- ’s not fair-“ Margaret combs her fingers through his hair where it pokes out of his cap as his voice cracks into another sob, “He wasn’t- h-he wasn’t supposed to die, I- I loved him, I love him, he can’t be dead, he can’t-“"
in February of 2022 my Nonna passed away. my Nonna and I were very close, she moved in with my family when I was 8 years old as my Nonno was living full time in the hospital at that point and it wasn't good for her to be alone, and she lived with us for 14 years. she played a large role in raising me, and I loved her and continue to love her very dearly. needless to say, her death, though expected, completely wrecked me
Radar here acts much the same way I did. this bit above specifically is how I felt. she wasnt supposed to die, I loved her, I love her, she cant be dead. I wrote Radar to feel the way I did, and sound the way I sounded- like a little kid who didnt understand. Radar cries like a child here, because I cried like a child. I wrote this from the experience of my own grief, which I sometimes still find myself sitting with, and it broke my heart but... in a good way. it felt cathartic. it felt healing
and then I inflicted the sadness on everyone else cause im an evil fic author and I like making people cry and yell at me for making them feel things
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bucketspammer4life · 7 months ago
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looking through my old messages is so traumatizing i want to go back in time and kick myself in the stomach like what possessed you...
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caleohateclub · 8 days ago
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you know its bad when i start wishing it was 2020 again!!!
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joycrispy · 1 year ago
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I don't know if I have any capital-T Thoughts about Doctor Who that anyone would consider worth reading, but I sure do have a lot of capital-F Feelings about Doctor Who.
I feel compelled to share them, so watch out for that, at some point.
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missholoska · 2 years ago
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2022 wasn't a great year for me, but having no empty months despite everything feels like an accomplishment :'>
also I technically achieved my art goal from last year since I did manage one single comic \o/ and I fully intend to do more, I've got a lot of things I'm excited to draw this year! ✨
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crimeronan · 2 years ago
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getting taken very seriously by medical professionals continues to astound and perplex me. i haven't been the subject of this much doctor attention since my whole Autoimmune Leg Deformity thing like two years ago. even though all my ER imaging showed nothing seriously wrong, i'm like, getting cold called by my caseworker (apparently i have one of those) so she can Firmly Insist i make a doctor's appointment. then she's like "and tell them it's an ER followup so the staff get you in ASAP, otherwise they'll schedule you out til february" and i'm like wait, ER followups DON'T wait two months minimum for care??? wild. i talked to my usual friendly pharmacist about my symptoms tonight and she went "D: poor thing.... :(" like yeah okay sure that's me. pobrecito.
and like... it's all very understandable because the symptoms are centered around my lungs and chest, which docs Do Not Fuck Around With, but i'm also like. no you guys i PROMISE i'm totally fine. i just live like this it's FINE. it's all good please calm down. Chill Out,
me, like every other goddamn day on this site, for the past Several Months: i feel like i'm actually literally dying i feel so bad it's unreal. at this point i hope i do die i'm so tired i feel so bad i feel so bad did i mention i feel bad. death is not JUST the only solution but ALSO the only logical end to this story. i am withering. i am decay incarnate
doctors, nurses, pharmacists, administrators, etc: yeah something's mad wrong with you. WHY did you leave it this long?? we need to diagnose and treat this immediately???? jesus??
me, discovering impostor syndrome for the first time in my Life: oh NO. NOOO NO OH GOD. NO I'M SORRY I LIED. I MADE IT ALL UP I WASTED YOUR TIME I'M ABLE-BODIED AND ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. I MADE MYSELF AUDIBLY CHOKE ON THE AIR WITH MEASURABLY LOW O2 ON PURPOSE TO GET ATTENTION I'M SO SORRY IM SO IM S-
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helpimstuckinafandom · 11 months ago
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Happy new year y'all! I want to thank Baldur's Gate 3 and Dan & Phil - the year had me in the first half I'm ngl but y'all came in swinging and pulled me through
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yourheartinyourmouth · 2 years ago
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I keep dreaming about him. It hurts.
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eggmeralda · 2 years ago
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that era last year when I was psychosomatically intolerant to pretty much everything I ate and I was just obsessively reading every truffula flu blog but I couldn't think about it if I was out of the house bc it gave me too much serotonin that I'd get anxiety and I'd have to go home and then I became agoraphobic and also wouldn't eat bc I was too paranoid so I'd be living off like bread and crackers every day and then I couldn't sleep bc I was so Deprived of everything but it was still a really fun time bc of truffula flu <3
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spaceaudio · 1 year ago
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boston2 anniversary is kind of crazy
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estcaligo · 2 years ago
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in conclusion, year in review💀💀
⚡️caligo's longest and saddest tag lol 🐊💖⚡️
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pepprs · 2 years ago
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mutuals, a proposition. what if i went off the grid and blinked out of existence and cartwheeled into a pool of lava also. i am thinking this may be my best option given the stakes and the circumstances
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lusus · 2 years ago
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pretty upset w myself for not being able to do an art summary this year cause ive been pretty successful doing them the past few years and i just hardly did anything this year. but. whatever it is what it is i guess.
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the-squeege · 2 years ago
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Here’s my 2022 art summary! I’m actually quite happy with all the drawings on here this year, cant wait to do this again next year :)
Here are my gross old ones, almost didn’t wanna post the 2020 one dear lord 😭
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justabunchofdragons · 2 years ago
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o... .. .,,, ! !!! i am very happy with where i am in this moment
#listening to worst of you by maisie peters and its not even a super uplifting song .gjfkfjfk i just#remember listening to her a lot when i was playing loads of minecraft and working on my survival world#ah .2022 how i was excited for you#once again thinking of angel. my friend who. disappeared off tumblr never knew where she want#there's a screenshot of us saying 2021 will be our year if we get there. and i got there and i hope she did too#i hope she's still somewhere .safe and happy#ah. msuic <3 memories in them there is. love in them . so much#didn't keep a bullet journal this yr and i doubt i ever will again. ough so much effort. might do a minimalistic one#but making spreads n stuff is so. ough ! yikes. pretty but it takes LONG and i just don't have the time#trying to use notion (goin ok! not rly using it) trying to make a neocities (failing badly) trying to balance studies + life (not terrible)#trying trying trying. that is all. that is everything isn't it. its always that. one day i will be good! i will.#i never do new years resolutions and its silly to think abt them .a whole month before 2023 but i kinda wanna learn to crochet#and figure out the neocities thing#someone remind me to set up a wall of text. i promise not to abandon this account (i made a new one. haven't used it yet)#i promise to love everyone always (except the people beyond loving) and i promise to keep writing silly poetry#i do not promise to stop oversharing on tumblr. this is my second diary & u guys are my best friends <3#hang on to love sin and your youth <3 it'll get easier & easier & easier#i can believe we made it#chaos.txt
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