#my thoughts 💭

[power-up-girl]

I haven't seen anyone talk about the expressions on these screenshots... so imma do it

It's a flashback from both wukong and macaque's memories

So wukong looks absolutely angry and is going to punch macaque in the face mere seconds from now,

This is macaque looking at wukong with a sad maybe tired expression like feeling betrayed his bestie is going to punch him

[evansbby]

an update from me :)

hey everyone, i know i haven’t been very active on here lately. and the reason is because a lot of things in my life have changed. i’ve been debating even sharing this but i feel like i’m in a good enough position to be okay with sharing it.

so these past two years, i had been super active on here (late 2022- early 24) and that was because, well, I didn’t really have anything else. that’s because I had graduated in 2022 and then i just couldn’t find a job in my field. like so many other recent graduates, it was just so hard and tough and it really made me lose all faith in myself.

i found myself to be in the worst mental state i had ever been. I cut myself off from my friends, felt like a burden towards my family, was having meltdowns and panic attacks almost daily, even started eating unhealthily and was just overall in a very bad place.

HOWEVER, i always felt like I could come on tumblr and that’s why i was so active and writing all these stories because honestly, they were almost like a crutch to me. like the ONE thing i had to look forward to in life during those times was the feedback I’d get when i posted a fic, and honestly it’s what kept me going. like i swear to god, on some days this blog and community was the only thing that i had to look forward to and keep me going, and writing felt like such a huge escape.

because i felt so USELESS. like i was wasting my life and not making any money or being able to kickstart my career after uni, and that it would be like this forever, so when I was writing it actually felt like I was doing something with a purpose. honestly on some days I would literally wake up early and go sit in Starbucks all day just writing my fics like i was cosplaying working or something just so I’d have a purpose. (I don’t go to Starbucks anymore lol boycott)

anyways, i never shared this on tumblr these past few years bc you guys don’t understand what a failure i felt like. i would sometimes get asks on here asking what i did for a job and I’d feel so embarrassed of my current state of being unable to find a job when it felt like everyone else who had graduated with me had one and obtained one so easily. like i felt ASHAMED.

i remember once i got an ask asking what my job was and I just said “fashion marketing” bc that was one of the things i wanted to do and id done an internship in that field so i just put that but it was a LIE i was unemployed and the most depressed ive been in my whole life but I thought maybe i could manifest it.

ANYWAYS, and you’ve probably already guessed it, but the reason I’m not so active anymore is because I did eventually find a job. a really good one that I’m enjoying so much and I’m so happy at. Finally, I’m feeling like myself again, like I’m living that life in London as a twenty something that I’d see everyone on tiktok living!! Like I’m finally just having fun, going out with friends, being active, having money to spend on fun things etc.

and it feels so surreal and crazy because when i was depressed and jobless, it made me doubt myself so much. Like the constant rejections and failed interviews made me doubt myself and lowered my self esteem so much and I thought I’d NEVER achieve this life that i have now! And I don’t want to jinx it but I literally thank God every day for finally granting me this because I really feel like I would’ve gotten worse and worse and IDEK.

But back to the main point, and so because of my new job I just don’t have that much time for tumblr anymore. But this isn’t a goodbye post… not at all! I find that when I’m super busy in life is also when I get the most motivated to write! Like for example in summer 2022 I was on here so much and that was the summer I had the most fun, was the most busy. I think when I’m busy in life, I get motivated to write.

Which I believe is the case right now, because I’m SO motivated to complete all my stories, I keep thinking about them and writing them slowly, so please don’t think anything is abandoned! I just wanted to make this post to be more transparent about what’s been going on in my life and what had been going on these past two years. That maybe someone else going through something similar can see that eventually, everything does work out.

Anddd I don’t really know how to end this. I just want to say, yall don’t understand just how thankful I am for having this blog, this platform, to write my stories. For having you guys. Because who knows how much worse my mental state would’ve been these past two years when I didn’t have ANYTHING else going for me, if I hadn’t had this blog it would’ve been so much worse.

Thank you so much for believing in me and enjoying my stories and always always letting me know how much you enjoy them. And I’ll say the truth; I know everyone says that engagement on tumblr has been bad lately but I can say that bc of you guys I have literally never EVER had this issue. And that’s not me being big headed, that’s just the truth and it makes me so happy and grateful. Yall always came through for me and still do now! Every time I think my fic is going to flop, you guys come through for me. I appreciate it so much. You guys have no idea how much you helped me when I was at my lowest. And continue to.

Many thanks

Me 🩷🩷🫶🏼🫶🏼

[dark-strangers-art]

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“She looks like an angel

she smells of desire

she tastes of lust

she feels like sin”

~Dark Stranger ©

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[green-static]

Society doesn’t understand my utter need to see husk covered in blood repeatedly stabbing someone and tearing them apart with his claws to protect angel. You just don’t get it

[haitianempress]

I was thinking of giving Game of Thrones a chance and watch it cause I've seen House of the Dragon clips everywhere I go. Then someone tweeted about this supposed sex scene and the dude was fucking his mom...WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THIS SERIES ABOUT?! I also heard this same dude groomed and married his niece. Eww 😷 🤢. I'll stick to Charmed. I seriously don't know how people can stomach this bs meant to be "entertainment" and "fiction." NOPE! Not cut out for it at all.

[itspkuwu]

EEnE characters ranked (MY OPINION)

Let’s cut right to the chase, because I really wanna put this out there.

Lee Kanker is in last place. She gets lower than F tier. Where Marie and May had moments where they seemed to genuinely care about each other, Lee just sits there, manipulates, and spreads cruelty. And as for the times where Marie and May were fighting/being mean etc? Well, I have a theory. Remember in Big Picture Show where we see that Lee has a third eye? You know who else has a third eye for no good reason…?

DEMONS. LEE IS AN ACTUAL DEMONIC MENACE WHO BRAINWASHES HER SISTERS JUST TO MAKE OTHERS FEEL MISERABLE. AND EVEN THEN SHE MISTREATS HER “MINIONS” TOO.

And remember when Nazz kissed Double D and Eddy on the cheek? Compare that to how they react to the Kanker’s kisses. How big those lips are… that specific shade of red… the way the Ed boys become horrified every single time…

THE LIP STICK IS CREATED BY LEE AND HAS DARK MAGIC INSIDE OF IT. THATS MY THEORY. IM STICKING TO IT. SCREW YOU LEE.

(that was a joke lolol)

Everybody in the “lol why” tier it’s just an object that isn’t Plank or I haven’t seen those episodes yet. So I can’t really give my thoughts yet.

Rolf’s animals get their own tier. They have an amazing caretaker :3

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH DORK DORK DORK DORK ITS KEVIN DJDJUDUFHDBRJRIRID.

He’s just a jerk lol. AND NO I DO NOT SHIP HIM WITH ANYBODY. NOT NAZZ. NOT DOUBLE D. ESPECIALLY NOT DOUBLE D. NOBODY.

except his bike.

Eddy’s brother (whose name is apparently Tarry??) is also a jerk. But he makes a pretty cool antagonist. And he just makes me like Eddy even more.

also i feel like he would be a tumblr sexy man

Mildred blinks at you :D

Plank is an immortal God who will one day rule the world. This is my canon.

I REALLY wish we could have seen more of what happened to Jonny post Big Picture Show. Him being “The Gourd” and having a villain arc just sounds super fun. Other than that he’s just a weird kid. I like him.

Don’t let Jimmy fool y’all. He’s a lil maniac. He probably gets it from Sarah. And it’s always a shocker to me given how much he acts so innocent and harmless. He’s a pretty neat anti hero.

I KNOW I SHOULD HATE SARAH. But I feel like there’s more to her than meets the eye. I honestly think her parents taught her the hate her big brother. If they weren’t around, she probably wouldn’t been to mean to him. Making me feel extremely sympathetic for both of them. And at least she looks after Jimmy, giving her redeeming qualities.

To be honest this show needs a character like Nazz. Everything has to be balanced out with someone who isn’t constantly out to get something, being mean, or acting like a weirdo. But yes, she does have her moments, which are rightfully deserved. Plus, I just really like her chill and hippie way of going about.

Marie Kanker and May Kanker are being ranked together. The potential they have to be redeemed is through the roof. They deserve so much better. If Lee wasn’t around to mess with their heads, I think they would be truly happy. Marie could spend her days jamming out and living on the edge, while May is cute and ditzy and a voice of reason at times. Plus both of their hairstyles are really eye candy for me.

The Ed boys are also being ranked together. What else can I say that hasn’t been said already? The way these three bounce off of each other is extremely enjoyable and definitely gets good laughs out of me. I know they have their moments where they aren’t so friendly, but you don’t always have to get along with someone for you to still love them. And when the gentle giant goof, the soft hearted nerd, and the selfish man with a heart of gold do get along, it’s sweeter than jawbreakers :)

AND NOW WE HAVE ARRIVED AT THE TRUE GOD. THE LIGHT IN DARK TIMES. THE DIAMOND WITHIN THE DIRT. THE ONLY BOY ON THE SHOW WITH A GOOD HAIRCUT.

ROLF. THE SON OF A SHEPHERD.

Rolf is hands down one of if not the best side character in animation history. He’s a goober for one thing. But a goober that’s gets us to take him seriously. You do not mess with this man. His pride is enough to break you leg. And yet, he still manages to be one of the nicest characters in the show. He’s so friendly and upbeat! And when he isn’t… his dark side is also a fun time.

And another thing, he’s a fish out of water. Which also allows the viewer to feel sympathetic for him. Like in Wish You Were Ed. Seeing Rolf cry is something you’d never think you’d see, but when you do, it makes you feel a somber emotion you had no idea existed. It’s amazing.

yeah, Rolf is amazing.

Also I asked my sister if she wanted to dance to That’s My Horse at her wedding and she said no. What a loser right?

So uh, that’s my list. Hope you enjoyed.

Go hug a chicken.

[lilmcttens]

out of spells- I don’t think they’re ever letting her go again..

[eternalamaranth]

One of my favorite realizations I’ve had in adulthood is that you are not your pain. You’re experiences in life simply lead you to finding out more about yourself—what you desire & what you don’t. You can either let that pain dictate your actions or take responsibility over your own life & embrace what comes with it & find the goodness IN THAT CHANGE. There’s power in knowing that you decide how you choose to handle, process, & move forward from that point. 🩷🧚🏽

[happyaccidents-x]

Do I miss you? Or the idea of you?

[rosypeachblossoms]

Watching a Gene Wilder’s interview with Conan O’Brien and I’m so emotional😢😢😢

When he said to Conan “I’m happier than I’ve ever been in my entire life” in his soft gentle, oh so sincere voice, holding Conan’s hand, I cried 🥹

I’m so happy he lived his last years of his life happier than ever 🥺🤍

I love you, Gene🩵

[power-up-girl]

why red though ???

Why red ?????

Is it because al is the one who gave him the virus??

Or is it something else~?

[evansbby]

Two different types of man…

Exhibit A:

You: Hey Andy, I’m going to get my nails done.

Andy: Okay, sweetie! Can you pick me up a sardine sandwich on your way home? 🤠🤠 And my dry cleaning should be done too so go ahead and pick that up! Also, I’m thinking of ordering a pizza tonight, let me know if you want some and I’ll tell you how much you’ll have to transfer me later for your share! Toodles! 😜😜😜

Exhibit B:

You: Hey Ari, I’m going to get my nails done.

Ari: Alright, sweetheart. Would you like me to drive you there? No? Okay, let me just send you some money. Please get the pink colour that I like. I was also thinking I could take you out to dinner tonight. I know the reservations at Sebastiano’s are always full but I could pull a few strings and get us a nice table there. I sent you a little bit extra so you can buy yourself a pretty new dress for tonight after you get your nails done. Okay, bye sweetie. Daddy loves you.

*A. Levinson transferred $1000 to your bank account*

WHICH MAN WOULD YOU CHOOSE? 🤔🤔

[safiyu]

(Photo : Instagram: @twicetagram) TWICE Jeongyeon

[karisomk]

When that Imposter feeling hits and you trying hard not to delete all your fics and in prog. Cause suddenly your brain hates it.

Phew. Anyway I'm slowly working threw my list of fics that are in progress right now. I'm hoping to drop the plant nursery one by tonight or tomorrow. And Ndithande, Ripe Tides and Dry Drowning this weekend.

[xdaddysprincessxx]

Rewatching Tlou and Joel really went from Texas to Boston after the apocalypse. Like that’s a fucking hike. But then again him and Ellie go from Boston to Wyoming so like 😳😅 I like a good hot girl walk but damn

[mossyhearth]

Sometimes I just realise, as if I’d never known it before, I’m alive. Alive and Living, and anything could happen tomorrow.

When that happens, the trees are always a little greener. The clouds are a little rounder, the smiles a little wider. It took me a while to realise what it was. Gratitude.