#but in a way if i hadn’t had mcr or boston2 that year i would have probably died
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boston2 anniversary is kind of crazy
#kind of was the start of the worst miserable downfall of my entire life#but also was kind of the only surface break in a full year of drowning#so mixed feelings bc i feel like were it not for the post concert crash i feel like my sophomore slump would’ve been much better#but in a way if i hadn’t had mcr or boston2 that year i would have probably died#i was shocked when i saw it had been a year#bc i feel like that felt so far into the school year and my depression last year#and this year it’s only the first week of school!#but emotionally it feels like it’s been 2 or 3 years#like my soul has aged like 5 years since then#i am making no sense bc im high but idk i feel like i need to commemorate it#one of the saddest and most special moments of my life and triggered so much feeling in me#like i was the weirdest worst person in the world for not fitting there or here#it sounds like im ragging on it but i really needed the change in my worldview and my thought about my place in the world and at harvard#it was my lifesaver. it was the best day of my life last year. it was the first and last time I felt beautiful in 2022#my hair is like that again after a year of growing out. I feel like I’ve completed a cycle & a rebirth or something since then#and famous last words was a religious experience to me that I assume is how a born again feels in a Baptist tent#thank you for being there those of you who went you have no idea how much you changed my life
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