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i bet you guys forgot i do art (i did too sorry)
sketch under the cut because i really liked it actually which is why this is a rare non lineless piece
#fanart#homestuck#my art#<- wow dusting that tag off for the first time in fucking forever#op#rose lalonde#jane crocker#karkat vantas#dave strider#vriska serket#damara megido#mom lalonde#im actually really really proud of this somehow which is crazy since my art hasnt been good lately… the jane + mom are my pride and joy#really most of them actually there’s not a single one i hate even
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Did Brambleclaw actually disown the Three when the secret is revealed? I don't remember this happening (then again, it's been a while) but it does bug me how all three go "Poor brambleclaw :(( He was such a good dad to us and he has to learn we're not even his biokits :(((( poor guy" while simultaneously shitting on Leafpool and Squirrelflight despite them showing them more care and affection before AND after the reveal. If he does disown them, then.... WOW is the double standard real here.
In-canon? It's something you have to approximate. They don't seem to have a concept of ""disowning"" because blood relation is taken as such an insurmountable, FUNDAMENTAL fact of life. He doesn't write them out of his little kitty will and testament, but his actions ARE disowning.
It's as if the fact he is not their biological father is an automatic disowning. From the reveal onwards, he is immediately cold, distant, and the "betrayal" is mentioned often. The Three also explicitly don't blame him for his behavior, like it's just to be expected that he's Not Their Dad anymore.
Lionblaze in particular stares longingly at him several times, really missing him. And like... that's kinda what gets my goat so much
I do believe Brambleclaw is entitled to his feelings of betrayal. I believe Squilf was ultimately in the right to lie, actually, but he's still allowed to be upset and angry that she didn't trust him enough to tell him something so important. THAT SAID, YOU ARE NEVER ENTITLED TO TREAT OTHERS POORLY.
And that's what GETS me. He isn't upset that it was all revealed in such a painful and embarassing way when this could have been avoided, or that his lover struggled with this lie for so long without him, or that he feels he's lost his children. Squilf points it out in The Last Hope-- He's so ANGRY at Squilf that he will THROW HIS FAMILY AWAY
Lionblaze seems desperate to be his son again. Hollyleaf is gone for months, and Brambleclaw is still huffing about the secret when she comes back from the dead. Squilf is fawning in the hopes it makes him talk to her again. Doesn't matter. Brambleclaw Is Upsetti Spaghetti so the narrative will never examine his role in hurting this family he apparently loved so much.
(Narrative seems to understand full well that when Squilf lies for a good reason, that doesn't invalidate the hurt Brambleclaw felt... but when Brambleclaw is upset for a good reason, it actually DOES validate what he put her and his kids through)
In BB it is explicitly a disowning. He cuts them off as his children, and they reciprocate. BB!Lionblaze does so in a ball of fury, vowing that he has ONLY a mother.
#It does start getting.... ''better'' after oots. On the disowning front#Lion seems to be fixing his relationship with him#Which... actually is something I dislike tbh#Can we pls get canon acknowledgement of the Little Pogchamp scene where he lets Ash beat his son#And downplays this to holly#Pls#Idk i just feel lion makes a better mama's boy#Really close to squilf and then like... tries to get close to Leafp too but it just. Cant click.#In this very sad but also kind of validating way#Leafp isnt his mom... she didn't raise him. But shes still his aunt. She still loves him as ferociously as she always did#The reveal changed nothing about his family. In the end.#It truly was just a reveal.#(And then he stares angrily and also forlornly at bramble)#Bramblestar is honestly a very interesting character if you choose to take him at face value#And wade through the writer favoritism#I keep coming back to him man.#Such an incredibly mundane and honest type of terrible#Always consumed by his pride and terrible lack of self esteem. Everyone wants you to be better. But you keep messing up#Your honor. I hate him. I have a picture of him in my heart shaped locket.#I am putting him in an exhibit. I am blasting him with a hose.
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guess what no one asked for
my sfms. here they are
you think i just make ellis and nick l4d2 content WRONG
i also make men kissing in tf2
i also made a few ANIMATIONS but those are NOT for viewing because most of them are GIFTS to LOVED ONES except THIS ONE
youtube
its not very GOOD but i DID finish it unlike MOST of my ANIMATIONS
that is ALL i will now go back MASH content. i just wanted to give context for my current banner that i made for pride month. i am proud of at least 3 of those.
#i have many talents. most of them useless. most of them gathered for fun.#example; i am currently learning to juggle so that my brain does not start growing mold#i learned sfm because i really wanted to animate that one interaction between ellis and nick#'what kinda car you drive' “your moms car” 'well see that was just uncalled for. serious.'#never finished that animation but i DID learn a lot. and now im so cool and smart#some of these were done in conjunction with my sibling where shed draw a sketch and id make it real#some i spent 6 hours on. some i spent 1 on. you can probably tell which is which#the one on the stage took forever because of the particles#i hate particles in sfm with all the passion in my heart#i will now tag correctly to bother everyone#sfm poster#tf2 sfm#sfm art#sfm render#source filmmaker#sfm#ellis l4d2#nick l4d2#l4d2#coach l4d2#rochelle l4d2#left 4 dead 2#tf2 fanart#tf2#not tagging all the mercs i refuse to do that#sfm animation#shh dont tell anyone but the one with ellis and the guitar was made so i could have a thumbnail for my country music playlist#ok loveyou goodnight
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realizing i do this thing that i really really hate which is when i’m originally super excited about something but the default reaction is something negative i’ll eventually just start spouting off a million disclaimers every time i bring it up. like yeah i’m majoring in creative writing haha don’t worry i know i’m never gonna make any money haha i’m definitely going to just get a practical job and publish on the side maybe if i’m lucky!! like NO bitch have some confidence in yourself😭😭 goddamn i’m such a pushover
#did this with minnesota too#i was so excited to move and it was my top choice state#and so many people reacted negatively that now every time i tell someone i’m moving im automatically like#yeah it’s gonna be really cold!! haha probably won’t survive the winter!!#which is like. TRUE but i hate that those statements now override my original excitement#anyway was thinking about this bc my mom now knows about my major#which means i had to hear her ex boyfriend bitching about how im never going to make any money#in the middle of our living room at 9 am#like. thanks for the input patrick. jesus#anyway idk if this is relatable im just tired#personal
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ive reached the point where the term batfam is like a dog whistle to me
#which makes me really upset because i really do love these characters and their dynamics and its just easier to refer to them as ‘batfam’#but if i have to see one more post where jason and damian interact like siblings or really just jason anywhere near any of these characters#im gonna start ripping my hair out#motherfucker would NOT intentionally interact with like over half the batfam#i cant handle any more watered down relationships or forcing these characters into a nuclear family#i saw a mom!selina post earlier and wanted to shrivel up. she would hate motherhood…#im just tired#and god forbid anyone get annoyed with the bastardization of bats characters because ‘um actually i like when everyones happy’#ok great for you go read heartstopper or something#fran talks
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with a few minutes' reflection and a second conversation with my parents I have realized that I may have overblown things and overreacted a bit and also in some ways they're correct even if I think they're also harsh about it
#we talked it out. i don't think they intended to be hurtful they're just trying to make me see how badly my pessimism#can impact others?? I think all three of us were pissed off during the first conversation#there's a lot of other stuff going on behind the scenes too that I don't want to talk about#but like. my parents aren't total jerks. when we aren't all being belligerent to each other we get along quite well#and I really do respect them quite a lot. some days we Do Not do well at Being A Good Family though#my dad did say that he's seen people apparently cringe away from me when I'm acting annoyed though#which... may honestly be true. I have a very readable face and if I'm upset people tend to notice#I just... I talked to them again and realized that I took that one thing to mean ''everyone hates you and is just pretending to be nice''#idk if I agree about what my mom says about me bringing a Vibe that brings the whole room down#I think that one may just be because she's so used to me complaining to her about everything bc I... do actually complain too much#but anyway. we resolved the argument. my initial ''my parents told me everyone dislikes me'' was uh... MY inference#and not actually the words they said#I also think I should stop complaining online so much. it's just letting the complaining spirit grow#re: my last post
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I know it's a fact of life and all, but it does give me the heebie jeebies, knowing there's someone out there whose job is to masturbate male pigs so they can ship off semen to artificially inseminate sows.
Like I get it... it's just...like...business, circle of life, this is how the meat industry is efficient in how it breeds livestock, but...
I'm trying to imagine someone whose job it is to masturbate a caged pig, and it's like...
Hm.
I hope they pay them...something good.
Also I wonder if like...female pigs ever feel super weird about being artificially inseminated.
Like they know it's not natural.
I assume.
And then I think, well, what about the male pigs?
They probably know it's not natural either, being jerked off in a cage by some human.
What is going through their heads during all this...
#hm#anyway#you shouldnt reblog this not bc i care if you do or do not#but because whatever followers you have might want to strangle you for reblogging this#not sure why i was thinking about this#oh right#because i read an omegaverse fanfic about being milked for semen and then i was like doesnt that happen in real life#and now ive fallen into the rabbithole of animal husbandry#when you think about it its a really weird concept like morally#my mom forced her dog kelly to get bred by one of those stud dogs right and she said she felt so bad#cuz the poor dog looked right at her when he entered#and she looked horrified that her mother was standing there not doing anything i guess#and its like oh wow#that feels#wrongf#like i know they dont have the complex emotions of humans but#i dont know that kind of feels wrong for some reason#poor dog didnt know what was happening or what was coming#also they had to really pull the dog off because he didnt want to stop#also the command was like#take#which feels#uber creepy#but you know#fact of life i guess#you dont think about this shit if youre desperately trying to get a corgi i guess?#i wouldnt relate though#i only rescue dogs#i hate purebred bullshit#ill take mutts and accidental pregnancies all day every day
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Thinking about my current situation at home. Ignoring the obvious answer of “bigotry/ignorance”, do you guys think homo/transphobic parents are so indignant because they have a set image in their minds of what a queer person is/does, and can’t fathom that they may not know their kid as well as they think they do?
#queer#black queerness#idk what to tag this as to get feedback. and I hate tag spamming#mom had a huge argument with younger sibling this summer over their poor hygiene#and her argument as to why they aren’t trans was ‘I’ve known you your whole life and you’ve always been a girly girl’#there was a side comment about me never really adhering to femininity. but not important#to an extent it feels like for both of us she sees our existence as a ‘phase’ pushed on us by our friends#which is just blatant bigotry!! but idk#it feels like she has this set image in her head of who we are and who we’ll be as adults. and anytime we deviate from that she shuts down#like lol lmao she still thinks I’m going to be a mother someday. girl I am getting my uterus removed asap#many thoughts. I guess if anyone else has a take on this comment#honking
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uuuhhghhh that picky eater post is making me think about stuff again. no making me sit at the table for hours until i finished didnt make me not picky it just made me want to kill myself over eating
#jasper speaks#is this too personal yeah probably#tw ed#<- not really but like.. catch all ig#i will literally flat out refuse to sit and eat at the dinner table. i havent in years.#at friends houses i still dont exactly like it but in the name of being polite i just eat whatever im given#it was worse at my moms but my dad also used to try and push things a lot until he realised it was not helpful at all#and he does still cook things i dont like but at least he TELLS ME. AND GIVES ME OPTIONS IF I DONT WANT TO TRY IT.#or rather not gives me options but. lets me make my own stuff which i prefer to do.#idk. i think if u hate picky eaters u shall be met with the wrath of 1000 suns#tw suicide#tw suicide mention
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Christmas sucks
#negative post#I hate being a downer but I am so sad today#having some complicated feelings about this being the last Christmas of just Rach and I#and I was too tired and sick to make it special#plus we did Christmas Eve with Rachael’s family yesterday and I felt so lonely#no one wanted to talk to me they just wanted to hear about the baby and randomly touch me#and keep reminding me that I can’t help with anything or drink#which…did not feel good#and my mom is being neurotic#also the first anniversary of my last miscarriage#so there are some echoes of grief there#I just miss being in control and feeling on top of things#I’m so excited for this baby but I really hate being pregnant#personal shits
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I AM BEGGING SOMEONE TO PLEASE ILLEGALLY RECORD RITE HERE RITE NOW PLEASSEEEEEEEE
#I'm not allowed to go watch it cuz my mom hates them#which is also crazy cuz I'm literally too old for her to tell me I can't watch something but I cant really do anything about#ghost#ghost band#the band ghost#ghost bc
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I like the fact Tremaine's designated color is pink while Germaine's is maroon because if I draw them together it looks so bright and happy but they're in a dying world and both commit crimes many times a week just to survive. But hey, whatever.
If love is how they die, it beats starvation or injury! So letting them be codependent is like a treat almost.
#my characters#germaine and tremaine at least have each other (and kind of adopt motka as familial)#as mentioned prev with germaine who is the material wealth based layer guy#tremaine is the layer of lust and motka (who i keep mentioning) is the layer for gluttons#but while germaine is pretty much the embodiment OF being overly greedy and materialistic is incredibly rational#and while he hates it he knows when to cut a loss (item wise)#tremaine while the layer of lust and who does like the idea of having a fling has minimal desire for an actual romance#and based on the world they live in he knows its not really reasonable to expect a lot of intimacy and is mostly fine with it#but to cope with that lack of intimacy he is very touchy feely with the team including draping over his brothers back#or hugging motka whenever he wants despite germaine and motka being very much not fond of contact#to them its like ok fine tremaine is the exception but no one else can touch me#motka as the layer for gluttons is a bit different in that he is more uh.... the layer rather than the glutton#so he likes to cook and he likes to make others eat and he doesnt really eat much himself#hed rather make that someone elses joy especially since resources are hard to come by#so he acts like the group mom and germaine (as one of the oldest) is group dad and they're most of the reason why the group stays alive#also oddly enough to point out but germaine and tremaine are the only sibling layers while other layers DO have siblings#like the other oldest one has a younger sister and the team doctor guy has two younger siblings (twins)#and then the youngest member (limbo) has an older brother#so yeah i dont really know why the wellington brothers get to both be layers but theyre making it everyones problem#i really liked the cast for this plot but i dont really have much in terms of how i wanted the plot to go ?#so i dont draw them a whooooole lot but been thinking about these codependent brothers lately#and final note but motka used to have a younger sister but she died from illness which is why he is so lenient with tremaine#hes like i wish i still had a younger sibling so now you will be like my family if youd let me#and tremaine blissfully unaware for the longest time that THATS why motka is so lenient with the touching from him#its because hes more pleased by the Still Having a Sibling Aspect rather than pleased with tremaine
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Headcannon Time!!! So, Flowey is a jealous boy. He at first hated Martlet, Starlo, and Ceroba for taking Clover from him. He was able to tolerate them for a few hours at most after Clover's death, and about 5 years of just listening to them talk or talking to them for a few minutes. He learned how to play the harmonica for Clover to hear. Clover died 2 days before their birthday...Clover knew they weren't gonna be alive for their 10th birthday...Flowey doesn't do well with the day Clover died or their birthday. He saw how Clover was so calm with dying that he knew something was off, he never asked though and never will. He wants to live in bliss that Clover wasn't dying from the beginning or that Clover chose to die at the first place, because they came down here to save the human souls... Flowey secretly looks up to Sans. Flowey feels the need to give Clover a gift every single birthday for Clover, because they couldn't celebrate it together. Clover told him that he could care less about their birthday...he hates that Clover told him and he wants that thought to leave him alone. He had the most fun in years with Clover that day, it allowed him to feel emotions for the first time in many years...he never felt it again until he saw Clover. He was happy :)
And now the Gusty Gaggle. They were supposed to be named "The Gutsy Gaggle," but they all failed a spelling gutsy, so just went with Gusty. They have some members who join in sometimes, but it's mostly just Flowey, Clover, and Kanako. Clover is the leader, Flowey the brains, Kanako the one to get them out of trouble, when not causing it. They all have matching pins. They reside in the Ghosty South, even though Flowey can stay in Frisk's town, he just won't. They may or may not have thought of starting a band. They will take down Alphys when they see her, Flowey being the one doing most damage.
Now, some questions. Do you think that at the end of UTY, when it said "Someone called for help, you answered the call" that it was during the Asriel fight or Omega Flowey fight? I say that it first happened in Omega fight, but Frisk, under their breath asked for help to SAVE Azzy, so Clover came and saved him. Allowing Frisk to win. With is Flowey's favorite amalgamate? What's his favorite type of music? Will he kill Mettaton of Clover asked him to join them too? Has Clover allowed Flowey to play the harmonica? Does Flowey look up to anyone? What's Flowey favorite plant? Has he ever cared for other fallen humans? Has he and Dalv ever drew together? Does Papyrus know he's Asriel? Will he get therapy? What's his relationship with Axis? Does he pretend to be Dasiy? (Axis's wife, girlfriend, fiancé?) Will he care for Kanako after the barrier is open?
(HERE IS SOME MORE COOKIES FOR YOU FLOWEY!!!! ALSO SOME ICE CREAM AS WELL!!!! YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD!!!!! I GET YOU SOMETHING TO DRINK NEXT ASK!!! WHAT YOH LIKE?!?!? Also, I'm thinking of making a Gusty Gaggle ask blog and would like to use your photo as the pfp or background image, if that's fine with you. I GET MORE SWEETS FOR YOU SOON MY FLOWER FRIEND!!!! ENJOY!!!!)
oh my god the asks are slipping through my fingers... curse you artfight and general procrastination...
YEEAHHHH GET HER GUYS!!!! The Gutsy vs Gusty Gaggle is also a lil funny to me because for a bit I thought you misspelled Gutsy and almost called them the Gutsy Gaggle. Only kept it the Gusty Gaggle cause it also works oddly enough.
1. Do you think that at the end of UTY, when it said "Someone called for help, you answered the call" that it was during the Asriel fight or Omega Flowey fight?
I always assumed the 'You answered the call' was for the Omega Flowey fight. On the topic of who saved Asriel I always thought it was Chara because that made the most sense to me, since it would explain how they had those memories locked and loaded.
2. What is Flowey's favorite amalgamate?
Been a while since I played pacifist route but I think it'd probably be Endogeny since it is a giant dog. He'd probably play fetch with it to keep his throwing skills from declining just in case he needs to throw something really far one day. He also generally finds it entertaining to watch the dog run around.
3. What's his favorite type of music?
Undoubtedly breakcore, he'd go wild if you turned on breakcore.
4. Will he kill Mettaton if Clover asked him to join them too?
I don't think he'd kill Mettaton if he tried to join the Gusty Gaggle, merely decline because he isn't cowboy enough. But... If Mettaton were to hurt anyone in the group, Flowey would react more violently.
5. Has Clover allowed Flowey to play the harmonica?
Clover does allow Flowey to play the harmonica, it's just that sadly he's very bad at it. This can actually be repurposed into an attack funnily enough! He plays the harmonica in the most grating tone he can until you fess up to the murder.
6. Does Flowey look up to anyone?
Don't tell anyone but it's secretly Sans.
7. What's Flowey's favorite plant?
His favorite plant is an echo flower because they're just like him, they're just like him fr!!!!!
8. Has he ever cared for other fallen humans?
Excluding Chara, nope.
9. Have he and Dalv ever drawn together?
I think Flowey secretly draws things and tries to sneak them into Dalv's storybooks. He's trying to see how long he can do this before Dalv notices he did NOT draw those.
10. Does Papyrus know he's Asriel?
Most likely not, as Papyrus isn't close enough to Flowey for him to really want to tell him such an important thing. Maybe he hints every now and again that he wasn't always a flower, but he doesn't tell him that he was Asriel.
11. Will he get therapy?
Flowey is most definitely getting therapy, though I think it would take a while for him to actually trust said therapist and I think he'd have to switch around a bit.
12. Does he pretend to be Daisy?
For the funny, I think he does. He finds it hilarious that Axis fell in love with a pile of junk and even named it.
13. Will he care for Kanako after the barrier is open?
He says 'welcome to the secretly revived children club!!!' when Kanako gets up and agrees to hide her from her mother because he really, really, really hates Ceroba.
#tried out adding the questions so people won't have to keep scrolling up to check which one i'm responding to#flowey uty#undertale yellow#flowey headcanon#as to why he hates ceroba: flowey thinks of her as a child murderer who's so selfish she'd kill more children#he's like 'my mom was distraught by my death and i don't see HER killing children. straight up a skill issue on your part.'#toriel also didn't kill him for bonus points#i also just think the headcanon that flowey's secretly a sans fan is really funny#like he's such a little copycat#he doesn't want anybody to know...#undertale#flowey undertale
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I feel like it is potentially not the wildest idea that perhaps if you Hate Christmas and are going to be a Rude Ass Cunt for the entire evening it may be a good idea to not demand that the holiday happens at your house? Demanding that *you host* claiming that you *love hosting* and then, actually, getting mad at everyone for every little thing and overall just having an obnoxious attitude complaining left right and centre over any thing you can think of
You can just choose to not be a part of the holiday. You can be a grown ass adult and say “I don’t want to receive or give gifts this year” or “I’m not liking hosting so let’s do it elsewhere” or any number of potential communication tactics that aren’t Snapping At Everyone For Any Given Reason
You can just, yknow, not participate instead of actively ruining the evening for everyone you’re supposed to care about?
#this is the individual who tells me my doctor is wrong and my medication doses are bad bc salt is the devil#he used to be Christmas obsessed but over the last like three four years#he’s just gotten angrier and angrier#and quite honestly#I used to hate Christmas and all it made me think of#but this year I tried really hard and made Christmas something I wanted to be a part of again with#My New Family#so his attitude just wrenched that whole thing right up#My Family (Jack and pets) were a delightful Christmas#but fuck the BIL MIL combo was a shitshow#he bitched about the cookies and bread that I brought#he yelled at Jack because he disagrees with her doctors over things he has no business speaking on#snapped at his mom because she *checks notes* cooked the food to his preferences (he likes his meat drier than everyone else)#so she cooked it longer and everyone else just adds gravy to make it moister again#he was pissed about that for some reason#he shrugged off and moped about muttering shit about any gift he opened that we bought him#which#we specifically asked what he wanted bc he’s a picky bitch#and bought EXACTLY what he said he wanted#snapped at Jack for *offering to break down the boxes and take them to the recycling*#I cannot make this shit up#he yelled at his mom for coughing too much?#(medications making her throat dry??????)#like seriously?#at that rate just go sit in your room and mope to yourself#you’re almost 40 dude get your head out of your ass
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Local parent visits child and comments on the shyness of one of the cats in the household, child decides not to mention that said cat has literally never met a human she didn't try to climb like a cat tree while headbutting them for attention, more at 11
#gee mom i wonder why lup wouldn't like you#would it happen to have anything to do with your approaches to cat training and child rearing which involved a lot of screaming?#maybe she smells it on you that if she tried to meow at you#you might try to 'train' her out of it by yowling in her face like you did to all of YOUR cats#maybe she just smells it on you that you slapped the shit out of me one time because I flipped you off during an argument#anyway lup hates mom and yelled at me about having let her take over lup's space for like 10min after they left#i apologized and will fo so again tonight with catnip and dehydrated salmon#amara did great tho! mostly disliked rene (lmao correctly smelling the man on her I think but that's a whole separate thing that happened#god my parents are exhausting#they weren't even over for 5 whole hours and I have a cramp in my shoulder and a fuckening migraine#oh! she did at least bring me a better migraine abortive#i'll take that when I get home and massage some oil into my neck before heating it#oh man#a massage oil heatpack on my shoulders and hips sounds incredible right now I really should make a rice sack for that eventually#should buy myself some yarn this month and knit things
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thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way
#probably the thing i am resenting my parents for right now is how good they were at convincing me#not to pursue any career paths other than the ones they laid out#every time i was like hey this seems interesting should i check it out? they would be so quick with the#do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it? to do it for your whole working life?#and obviously 8 yo 12 yo 14 yo 17 yo 18 yo me would get terrified and go no sorry and just not look into anything further#supposedly this is the safe option but everything i do feels meaningless#all of the jobs in this field seem meaningless#the job market in this field right now is dog shit and I'm fighting like hell for positions that just make me sad to think about#but every time i think hey what if i tried another thing#now my brain shuts me down with the do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it#your whole life on it#and the answer is no and it's gonna be no for a long time i bet#don't know if I'll ever find my way out of it#told my roommate's boyfriend about my general dispassion for pretty much everything in life#he asked me if I'm even a person#which feels very true#i feel like this path I've followed if i keep following it#I'm not going to be a person i can be proud of#i know it's really early in my life to say but#idk if it's nature or nurture or my own damn fault but all the ambition has been weaned out of me and I've been getting just surviving#i just wish i got told more you can be whatever you want to be :)#instead of whatever you'll do you'll be good at so do what makes money and push your hobbies to the side you can do them after you retire#your mom likes this and you're good at it so you'll like it too it'll make you money this is the best thing#the other thing is harder and doesn't make as much money don't do that you won't like it that much i bet#when i was younger#maybe I'd be struggling more but I'd be really happy and fulfilled#or maybe this is genuinely the best timeline and eggs who tried to pursue art hates it now#maybe I'd be really stupid at all the other things i gave a passing glance at#eggsistential speaks#tag rant
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