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I remember a time where Timmy asked for an older brother named Tommy, now he is the older brother he wished he had. Has Timmy ever protected Peri from a bully?
Timmy HAS!! Sometimes older fairies thinks they can mess around with Peri because he's younger than them. But they quickly learn to regret it for many reasons.
Between Peri's magical outbreaks when he's upset, and Timmy's feral drive to fight without magic, the Fairywinkle-Cosmas haven't had to deal with bullies except on social media.
But even then, you're never safe.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop peri#peri#asks#avarus of the west#itty bitties fop au#timmy had faced bullies all his human life. he swore that he'd NEVER let peri suffer the same issue.#when peri went to boarding school timmy was very very worried and anxious!!!!#but everything turned out ok.#mostly bcs irep was extremely overeager to beat people up and peri was a VERY good excuse to do that#although whether timmy feared for peri's safety or the safety of his bullies is for another conversation
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BILLDUMP TIME (with transparency, because I can). Don't mind me, I'm just yeeting my goofy art at some way more talented individuals out of nowhere and then hauling ass back to the security of being a weird silent lurker ahaha
@tesscourtes and @beccadrawsstuff, respectively! These two Bills make a little prism of sorts together because of their recent crossovers on Patreon~ :3c Speaking of which, I highly recommend supporting both these artists! They do fantastic work! (TessCourtes and Beccup)
@qoolk on the left, and @monobmp on the right! I am such a sucker for these outfits~ OuO Go and check these two out, their art is phenomenal!!! >u<
@1spooky2me The most difficult Bill of the lot for me to draw, ahaha... Their art is so incredibly consistent and dynamic, I am, a little envious <:,) A little envious, but mostly impressed, so go look at their amazing art, what are you waiting for
And finally, @ckret2, whose writing is sublimely in-character and just a delight to read - they're a great artist, as well! I simply Could Not resist drawing their Bill in this ridiculous incredible and very fashionable pink feather dress, even though he only briefly wears it in their fic, so I also did a little bonus doodle of him in his standard hoodie to make up for it. XD (Also, as far as I'm concerned, Bill and Mabel were both correct in that lime green accessories make the dress Much Better.)
This is just a small selection of the human Bill designs I enjoy. I may draw and post more later on, who knows! Feel free to reblog with some neat Bill designs, either your own or by other folks - if any of the designs particularly call to me, I'll add them to the little list I've got going~ :D (Alternatively, if you really like my stuff and want me to draw something specific, you could...mmm...perhaps, commission me...? OuO)
Also I'm tagging Billford because uhhhh yeah, sorry not sorry, every single one of these Bills is getting shipped with Ford by the artists in some way or another, lmao
#fanart#gravity falls#bill cipher#human bill cipher#human bill design#billford#bill is just so Gender#regardless of whether or not he's a triangle. just. such Gender. wow#honestly tempted to draw the OG twink!bill and the mangopablo save-the-town!bill just for funzies#i may also attempt to draw alex hirsch's “canon” human!bill but uhhhh who knows LOL#i kinda feel like he made the design extra ugly just to poke fun at the fandom#so the “canon” aspect of it is kinda up in the air for me personally LMAO#not sure if i drew goldilocks!bill thicc enough tbh#just. look. it's hard to draw a person who is as close to triangular as a human can possibly get. ok??? ok#I TRIED AND THAT'S WHAT'S IMPORTANT OnO#in other news why did these turn out so much better than the drawings of my own design??? wtf that's so rude#get it together ME this is fukken embarrassing#btw if i draw something for you and you respond to thank me only to have me say nothing back it's because i am very awkward and anxious lol#there is also the adhd which makes me forget that i failed to respond like a normal person would have ahahahaha o-o#but mostly it's the horrors of being perceived for more than the two seconds it takes to yeet an art at a person O-O#why am i like this? good question! maybe i'll have an answer someday when i can actually afford therapy XD#I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP FIVE HOURS AGO
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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I love my character in The Golden Rose so much. His stat screen is basically like
#the golden rose#he's a sweet anxious marshmallow with minimal combat skills who mostly talks his way out of trouble#which makes it extra-hilarious#babble tea (blacklist this for less chatter)#also this game has managed to join the like. four things Ever. where I've liked a human fighter dude LI.#Hadrian is just Very Good#I did have to play his romance on a dude so he didn't start with a clear crush because otherwise the aro Nope fired#but playing a dude makes it opt-in and thus avoids that and now I'm happy as a pig in mud about it#anyway yes this is a game rec
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I know Sun has a bad habit of pulling his rays, has he ever accidently torn one? Can he even tear them that easily?
Sadly he has, during really bad fits of anxiety...
And they don't tear easily.
Don't worry though, they heal and leave no scars. And Moon is always there to comfort him.
#answered ask#fairy au#fnaf daycare au#fnaf daycare attendant#sundrop fairy#fnaf sun#fnaf sundrop#sundrop#angst#doodle#cw self harm#accidental self harm#poor boy is very anxious#first time it happened moon was scared and upset#but mostly worried#fairy au lore#dca fairy au
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Thoughts on Padmé x Anakin x Rex?
Padmé and Anakin are so mutually obssesed they would first have to check into that before trying to bring another person to their carefully-balanced-kind-of-damage or something it's going to explode.
Honestly it's a fun ship! But I don't have too many thoughts about them because when I consider them is usually in very low-stakes-fun-AU-scenarios.
And I'm actually a bit of a fan of Rexwalker myself! Athough I tend to like them more as very good buddies, the covering-for-you-dynamic it's so funny for them, lol It's also angsty and complicated because, y'know, the power-imbalance and unchecked trauma? Is funny that the clone that's actually a slave for the republic is the most normal if you bring him into the anidala romance circus.
Also shout out to @phoenixyfriend , she has a lot of rexanidala fics and recs for anyone interested reading this!
#I have rexwalker wips somewhere in my endless wips folder although im generally very lazy to draw or care about ships unless i REALLY dig it#which is why you see me mostly drawing anidala despite the fact I do actually have lots of ships i like/consider#anakin is such a strange character he's hard to ship around bc look at him his social circle consists of 4 ppl#and padme's impressive social circle are her coworkers and her decoys#which is impressive bc SW has SO MANY characters lol#also sorry i ramble a lot just to answer 'it's a fun one'#thanks for the ask!#rexanidala#anakin is also such an anxious and intense guy he would need a LOT of talking and reassurance and stuff#bc otherwise he would feel guilty as hell like the three of them could have agreed to it and he probably would feel like he's cheating LOL#the thing with rexanidala which is the most interesting to me to wonder about is how padmé got into rex#she's actually a very closed person and part of the reason she fell for anakin that hard was over mutual trauma bonding#so i wonder i wonderrrr#but also generally the thing with me is that i tend to lean more into non-romantic dynamics and platonic stuff believe it or not#so if you see me doing lots of art for a ship (like anidala) it must be bc i really love them both otherwise i'm more into family or#complicated relationships stuff probably because i'm aroace and a ship must have some incredible complex thing going on for me to care#with rexanidala the biggest brownie points it gets to me is all the AU possibilities the ANGSTY AU possibilities bc it would change A LOT
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I need tfa shockwave to become bloated and to make him gain weight. Imagining him moping and eating energon ice cream
I can totally imagine him spending those 50 years stranded with Autobots, under the impression that Megatron's dead, overeating to get through the grief and try to keep himself sane.
I'm not personally all that into sad weight gain myself, but the idea of characters feeling guilty or conflicted about it has always kind of struck a chord with me. Whenever I think about shockwave stuffing or weight gain stuff, it's usually in the context of when he first starts climbing the ranks and gets access to better and more decadent fuel with higher pay and with him getting invited to Upper Class Social Functions™️.
On the one hand it's Good Fucking Energon, better than anything he's ever been able to get when they knew he was a warframe, not before the war (lower class, not financially secure enough to blow that much on fancy fuel), not during (gotta ration this stuff), not after (the cons had been just barely scraping by on the outskirts of the galaxy, the energon's mid at best). Its a chance to enjoy something he's been denied all his life. On the other hand he is filled with so much fucking rage that the Autobots bask in luxury while he and his kind have been left with the scraps, and something about indulging in that same luxury while it's kept so exclusive feels like a betrayal of his people and his principles.
Buuuuuut principles and rationality can only hold up for so long against the desire for a Little Treat. Or two. Or seven. Or, uh.... He lost count. Dammit...
#not polls#chubformers#i literally think about this so often. i have much to say. mostly because i think shockwave would look very very cute with a full tummy#and because hes an anxious dweeb who probably overthinks everything
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I like to think that Andrew doesn't actually get incest guilt or shame but instead he gets really really anxious and guilty that he doesn't
Like whenever they are done and he just looks at his side and sees his happy covered in bruises and marks sister, he knows he should feel bad, or nasty, or gross, or anything
But he just doesn't, and it's that anomaly that really gets to him
#like in game he never really seems to get guilty over what they do except for dismembering the body#mostly he seems to get anxious and scared of consequences i think he would be the same with his relationship with Ashley#no I'm not making this an ASPD thing <- yes i am i dont get characters to proyect onto this much very often#the coffin of andy and leyley#coffincest#andrew graves#ashley graves
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cracking open a new box of contacts is like cracking open a cold one with the boys except the cold one is the box and the boys are my eyes
#peach stuff#feels exactly the same tho#i accidentally procrastinated a lot in getting my prescription renewed (it had been expired for two years)#and then my supply of contacts ran out so i was forced to schedule a new eye exam#(because they won’t let you order prescription contacts unless your prescription is up to date)#and it was a little bit of a disaster but mostly fine - that was when all the queer people worked there and it was honestly very healing#i learned that my prescription was actually less than what i thought it was ?#and to be honest i think it’s because the last time i went to an eye doctor i was very anxious so maybe i just kept saying the wrong thing#but anyway. new contacts that are actually my prescription and they’re FRESH#just like a cold one. with the boys
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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before lesson 11 has come out
Solomon: You really just gave him the grimoire....
MC: I invested it in trust that will reforge my pacts.
Solomon: Well... I think you can call it the way, yes. Though you could have done more.
MC: You know, I don't even need it to control them.
MC: ...And if the grimoire was your version of a knife under the pillow I recommend you to remember who you sleep with. :)
Solomon:
Solomon: I—
Thirteen: You two, get out of here!
#free to read as you wish but also#i have a little headcanon that my MC couldn't sleep well after what happened in lesson 16#after season 2 everyone had something to do so they just swept the Night Dagger thing under the rug#the dagger remained with MC and ends up under their pillow since then#even if they was going to stab themself with it it still can kill demons#right?#one day Solomon accidentally came across it and it was a pretty awkward moment#(Solomon obviously drew some conclusions from it)#(mostly very anxious)#since they started dating and sleeping together my MC took out the dagger#they definitely crack jokes about it#like#at least it wasn't a sword#or#i don't need to sleep with a knife anymore 'cus i sleep with you#but in fact they just started to feel generally better#so there is also a little reference and a payback in this dialogue#obey me#obey me nightbringer#obey me solomon#✧ headcanon
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[ID: a series of digital doodles and sketches based on the owl house, featuring either Willow or Hunter. The first image is a coloured sketch of Willow in her flyer derby uniform flying casually through the sky on her staff. Hunter can be seen in the background, and is labeled "lover boy" with a thought bubble indicating he's thinking about willows arms. The sketch is coloured and shaded and the palette is a mix of a sunset and the pansexual flag.
The next image is a doodle of Willow in I Was A Teenage Abomination next to Willow in Any Sport in a Storm. The younger willow is shorter and stands shyly while the older Willow is taller and more confident, winking at her younger self. Orange hearts are drawn around them. The doodle is coloured and shaded.
The next image is a simple black and white doodle of Willow, Hunter, Amity and Luz in their designs from thanks to them, based on the three weed smoking girlfriends meme. In the foreground willow says "my three (sort of) (ex) girlfriends. And yes, they smoke weed" while in the background, Luz coughs smoking a blunt, hunter looks on stoned while holding a bong, and amity looks uncomfortable holding a blunt.
The final doodle is a drawing of Hunter in hunting palismen next to Hunter in for the future. Both are in profile facing towards each other with the younger Hunter on the left and current Hunter on the right. Younger Hunter has slightly greyer skin, deeper eye bags and an unhappy expression, while current Hunter has brighter skin and a sad, fond expression. The doodle is coloured and labeled "HE WANTS TO BE NICE SO BAD!!!" Multiple times across the canvas. End ID]
Monthly doodle dump lmao. Yes I'm still gonna post the FTF reqs, it probably won't be until after exams are done, whoopsy. The theme of this doodle dump is "I love willow park and her boygirlfriend so fucking much"
#the owl house#toh#willow park#hunter toh#hunter noceda#huntlow#with some implied#willuz#and#amillow#though those last two are presented mostly comedically#the weed doodle is basically a summary on my willow shipping thoughts (since no one was brave enough to ask me abt them last time rip)#she's got that weird gay little girl platonic-romantic grey area relationship dealio going on w/ both luz and amity#in different directions (bestie life partners and bitter exes on the up and up)#and then hunter is her sweet little purse chihuahua she takes with her everywhere and talks up bc she thinks hes cute#drawing old vs new hunter made me emotional btw#HE'S SO TALL AND EMOTIONALLY MATURE NOW COMPARED TO BEFORE. WHERE DID THE TIME GO#same w/ 2B willow and ep3 willow. they are both very important to me and the contrast is important#she's learning to be nicer to the anxious little girl in the abomination track she used to be.#but during asias she was just trying to get away from her and that makes me sad even if i understand and relate#speaking of asias i gotta finish watching it it's been weeks lol. but posting this put me in the mood a lil#idk which dub to do tho. probably latin american? maybe Brazilian. we'll see what takes me fancy#anyway. uggy sketch dump be upon ye! appreciate it this is many weeks of struggling to create /j
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are we in february yet
#guys don't ever let your childless aunt make you and two of your cousins her heirs#especially if said cousins only speak somewhat french and live abroad and you're the one who has to deal with all the fallout#of her death and the inheritance process#and the unwillingness of people to make it easier for you#yes i know it's very specific#i could be writing and posting fic in my downtime#instead of being an anxious mess of a person about stuff that could be easily resolved by other people being slightly more efficient#will probably delete this later#i mostly needed to scream into the void#blabla
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Kinda hurts a little when you've spent years creating a specific character in a specific universe for hardly anyone to see them, only for someone else to do the exact same concepts and get applauded for it. Did I just do it that badly or something
I remember when I first made all of my OCs supernatural in early 2022. I was one of the first people in [redacted] fandom who made it canon and talked openly about how my OC were vampires. And I got harassed for it endlessly. People were in my asks and dms telling me it was cringe and overpowered and lame, and that I was dumb to think anyone would care. Regardless of all of that, I kept them around and didn't stop talking about them. And then everyone else caught on and also made supernatural OCs because I helped to normalize it. Which isn't the problem, make as many supernatural OCs as you like, I'm not telling people to stop. That's not what bothers me (I have to add that disclaimer bc someone will undoubtedly try to get offended).
I think what upsets me is that it feels like I talk into a void sometimes and it sometimes feels like I don't have a place to share the things I'm proud of. I have an entire world that I made and this intertwined network of 10+ original characters and I just don't know where to talk about them or how to talk about them. I know we're "supposed to create for ourselves" and to "share it for good reasons", but it's really hard to put myself in that mindset. I don't do it for clout and I never will, I love my characters too much for that. Maybe I've just been doing a bad job of sharing anything about my world and characters, that is highly likely. I just can't help but remember the times I did share things and they went completely unnoticed
Just a little bit of acknowledgement would be nice. I think I'd be happy with that. Just a little bit of acknowledgement for the way I've had to fight to have my supernatural OCs exist in a cyberpunk setting in a hostile fandom. Just a little acknowledgement of the months of effort I put into my characters. And that would be all. Or maybe I'll learn how to just ignore everything and just keep doing as I have been. Putting my head and continuing on, savoring those small bits of genuine friendly interest when they come my way. That's good too
#let me make it clear that i am not begging for sympathy or notes#do not get that twisted#this is just a vent. me venting mostly to myself about my feelings on something. please don't take this as some sort of concrete truth#i'm expressing my own very conflicted emotions towards my experiences in this fandom and how i've had to fight just to be accepted#many people really did not want to accept that i created vampires in a cyberpunk setting#i am just very conflicted and anxious surrounding the whole thing. i don't know how to proceed#i just know for certain that i don't want to do it by myself and alone anymore#misc: personal
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back to self-analyzing what the fucks going on in my brainium
#txt#i need to go back to a therapist methinks#cuz why am i only now reading about OSDD-1a#bc errrmmmmmmm.........................#i know C-PTSD is very comorbid with dissociative disorders#but like given things ive experienced and struggled with its always felt like there's something More going on idk#idk it's like...i can see OSDD CPTSD or even...BPD i guess#but its just like i dont feel like ONE of those fits me its like i relate to a bit of all three#mostly so CPTSD but thats bc DUH I HAVE CPTSD#my lifes been trauma after trauma there's definitely not simply ONE traumatic event that's defined me#also wondering in another area if it's just adhd autism overlap#or maybe i AM autistic afterall just VERY VERY good at masking it or compensating for it#or if i have the same subcategory of Bipolar a former friend had that commonly gets misdiagnosed as the former two#which is likely bc all my blood relatives have gotten diagnosed with a form of bipolar and im not joking#idk man i just wish i knew wtf is wrong with me and how to like...do something about it but like actually#and not just focus on the depression or anxiety because that's CLEARLY NOT HELPING#yes im depressed and severely anxious but dont u think they might have a ROOT CAUSE#i'm definitely convinced and have been for years that they stem from something else#deeper and more of an issue than anyone trying to study wtfs wrong w me has figured out including me
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☕️🫧
#im gonna meet up my old friend today.... :////#like we havent seen eo in 7/8yrs??#and its not like we just drifted apart it ended not so great#i just have lots of anxiety surrounding him and also stuff that he reminds me of#so im feeling very anxious.....#he hasnt replied yet to like confirm confirm so a small part of me is like#oh noooo i really dont hope he wont reply at all and then we have to change day 🤥#but yeah probably maybe im seeing him today#and we're going to a café (which... i do not like cafes. theyre overpriced. noisy. crowded.#u have to EAT infront of ppl 🤢#and yeah mostly i just have anxiety abt the price bc like i dont have money to spend on this stuff. i need it for groceries#but what am i supposed to say?? yeah no sorry im poor we will have to sit on a bench in the rain#i hate spending that much money on smth food wise that isnt even gonna taste good and im just gonna sit there and be uncomfortable#but it's just one time i guess.....)#and it's like wth am i supposed to talk abt with him?????#it's so weird to think that years ago we used to go to cafes and mcdonalds and stores and shops all the time#no problem. no issue. we used to talk for hours and hours#we have so many pics together.. we have gone on so many walks#but now it's just like... not the same anymore#i lowkey think that u arent reallyyyy supposed to drag all of this up. and it's better to just let some ppl be of the past#tbh i have no idea why im doing this 💀#but its too late to back out now bc avpd wise im mostly worried abt how i can be judged#so if i cancel now he will think im unreliable and annoying and all of that#ughhhh im so anxious i dont wanna do this !!!!#but he just replied and said meet u there so 🙃🙃🙃#like genuinely i have so much anxiety i dont wanna
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