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lately i've been drinking orange juice and eating fruit and going outside in the sun and coincidentally 10-20% of my depression has vanished. must be witchcraft
#ramble#thank you to everyone who eased my smoothie anxiety#idk how i didn't realise it was bs sooner it makes NO sense#yes doing all the Health Things like getting nutrients and drinking water doesn't fix the way my adhd brain is wired#it does help though
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I find it fascinating how every single one of my health issues can be mistaken for laziness
#tw ableism#->#'ugh why doesn't she pay attention to classes?? lazy' -> I'm ADHD/2e. your lesson isn't interesting enough.#'why does your table have wheels? why do you have to work from your bed? that's clearly an excuse to be able to lay down wnvr you want'->#there's something unidentified happening with my back that makes me unable to sit straight for long periods of time and it hurts LIKE HELL.#'why did you only get up at noon? that's such a lazy behavior' -> my circadian rhythm is nocturnal. I'm only truly awake past midnight and+#+it has been like that since the day i was born. mom had to stay up with baby me until 3am#tw fatphobia#->->#'why are you so fat? are you eating healthy? are you going to the gym? smaller portions girrrrllllll' ->#first of all go to hell. but anyway i actively enjoy eating healthy food#i love salads.#and yes i go to the gym regularly. almost every day.#but i have a very fun thing called PCOS and it messes up with my hormones in ways no professional could help me yet 👍#but again. go to hell.#nonsims#non sims
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#the hobbit#jrr tolkien#adhd#adhd brain#adhd things#writing it down doesn't help#because I can't read my handwriting
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I don't think anyone talks about ADHD meltdowns enough.
I get them 9/10 times when I try to do homework.
It's not just crying because I do that every time I get frustrated with work and that's quite often.
It's not just accepting defeat and being angry with yourself because I do that a lot too.
It's breaking down sobbing, bending over and hugging yourself as snapping at anybody who tries to get you to continue working.
It's repeating I can't I can't over and over and feeling so ashamed whilst you're doing it.
It's feeling so angry with yourself because you know you can do the work you just can't do it like this and you're taking out your anger on other people.
It's other people trying to be helpful by saying that you can do it and there isn't much left so we have to crack on but that only makes you more frustrated.
Because they don't understand.
You want to.
But you just can't.
#living with adhd#adhd#meltdown#neurodivergent#adhd meltdown#actually adhd#actually neurodivergent#adhd struggles#adhd strikes again#adhd stuff#adhd things#overwhelmed#frustrated#it's the only time i yell at my mum and i feel so bad#i just get so angry#and i know it isn't her fault#but she doesn't know how to help me#and no one ever talks about it#executive dysfunction#cant focus
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Mable hanets anyeon
#marble hornets#slenderverse#alex kralie#brian thomas#tim wright#jay merrick#Fun fact I would post more if I cared less about the quality of the art#But because I care too much I end up doing nothing in fear of it not being good enough in my eyes#And my adhd doesn't help#So to retaliate here are some silly doodles! I hope you guys enjoy the silliness as much as I do#Also#Skully#And fat cat kralie
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but who told them all my distorted thoughts lmao
#miraculous ladybug#marigami#ladynoir#kagami#perfection#neurodivergent#autism#adhd#audhd#unmasking#mlb#mlb s5#mlb caps#mlb capspam#and not ladybug trying to be a CBT therapist or something lol#i think DBT might help you more kagami chan#i know distorted thoughts is a CBT term but i'm just starting to explore DBT#what's their term automatic negative thoughts or something? that does make more sense#i don't wish anyone would disappear i just always isolate myself#and used to feel sad about it but now it feels kind of peaceful#i still have my family though so that helps#but i've accepted i don't have the energy to be social right now i only have enough capacity for work and family#and maybe someday i can try to (re)build friendships again idk#just like kagami i don't know how to be : (#i do also hate being perceived and wish i could be a hermit sometimes lol#i used to be so certain about what the “perfect” i wanted to strive for was and had so many rules for myself in order to appear acceptable#but now that i know i was being excessively literal and perfect doesn't exist - i don't know what's acceptable or safe or “normal” enough#i feel like i'm in a cocoon or something trying to figure out who i am#but i'm so different from how i was when i was trying to be perfect idk if anyone will like or accept this version of me#i'm also so shell shocked from life the past few years everything is hard lol
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Slowly rotating designs for the meat marionette bodies.
Only sketched Dick & Bruce for now, but I like to think that they're partially made from their own blood. Any corpse that doesn't make it to the morgue, human or animal, might get dragged down by tendrils Gemini Home Entertainment style to the Hive.
Apologies if I am spamming, but what do you think @phoenixcatch7? Tried to make Dick look slightly more mammalian or avian compared to Bruce but idk if that came through lol.
#meat marionette au#batman#batman au#dcu#dc#body horror#sketch#art#Bruce is like 15 foot tall if including the ears lol#Dick is like 4 to 4 1/2 feet tall#Of course this is if they're standing on their legs and not on all fours#Random thing but Bruce definitely picks up his kids by their necks like a big mama cat lol#Also helps preens their wings especially since they have feathers unlike him#You can't tell me they can't contort their limbs or turn their head a solid 180 or even more#Omg the kids can use their tails to hang from things upside down or from Bruce's arms like shopping bags lmao#Curse you ADHD for latching on#Knowing it I will get a lot done in like 3 days and then procrastinate for months after lol#Y'know I wonder what Commissioner Gordon thinks about the Bat & what Gothamites in general feel about them#Like they're visibly protecting them but that doesn't make them any less unnerving or terrifying y'know#The bats might not kill but that is in fact a *threat*#Fun fact did you know over half your bones are in your hands :)
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more adhd jason grace or die by my sword
#jason grace#heroes of olympus#pjo#riordanverse#is he a strong leader. yes. is he the most forgetful man you ever met. also yes#could he kill you with a lightning strike. yes. does he often get lost in his activity du jour and forget to sleep. ALSO YES#stuff#also side note - more dyslexic jason specifically struggling at chb#where everything is labeled in ancient greek for the greek demigods' ease of comprehension#this is a fic waiting to happen but like#jason being completely lost with every sign around camp because his latin wired brain can't read that shit#he doesnt say anything because he's like 'im the guest here i should just learn ancient greek'#easier said than done his brain Rebels against learning it he tries but none of it seems to stick#until someone notices how jason will just blank-stare the sign posted on the armory door that says 'closed for cleaning'#and it's written in english too but that doesn't help jason he's almost as bad at reading in english as he is in ancient greek#so he DEFINITELY cant read the smaller print that says 'do not enter under threat of being eaten by cleaning harpies'#and our man just walks right in and almost gets eaten lmao#and then nico or someone is like. hmm. has anyone considered that this roman dyslexic demigod just cant fucking read ancient greek lmao#cue a campwide project to add latin to all the signs#these tags are a runaway train i just want more adhd dyslexic jason grace that's all
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Anyone else have ADHD and go through times where the hyperactivity and the ADHD Paralysis start to fight over your body and it causes your joints to hurt because your muscles want to move, but your brain is still in paralysis mode so you settle for weird almost violent joint rotations and or bouncing your legs to get rid of the pain... or am I the only one?
#shade rambles#adhd problems#just one of those nights#doesn't help that I'm in a hyperfixation mode#this is the second time i have had this#woooooo!!#anyhoo...
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ADHD Sans! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
Just ADHD things. :>
I'm very neurodivergent, and this boi is a whole ass mood. Don't mind me while I just pour all my ADHD problems into this lil skelly lol.
(ADHD Sans belongs to gudulle_vinyls on tiktok.)
#i have a few headcanons abt his papyrus too#i think he'd talk quieter so he doesn't trigger sans' sencory problems#and like anx sans' papy he would also be better at cooking to help his bro eat#and he wouldn't call sans a lazybones anymore bc it makes him feel bad about his executive disfunctioning#(all this is just me projecting)#adhd#adhd sans#sans#undertale#undertale au#art#digital art#didderd art
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as we approach the start of a new semester i'm sending all the compassion and empathy in the world to students who struggle with procrastination and what I affectionately like to call the Shame Monster that goes along with it. it sucks to always be treading water and feeling like a fraud to yourself and others, especially when it's something you truly care about. if you're always thinking "why can everyone else be responsible and organized but not me," your brain is overgeneralizing. you're not the only person to experience being overwhelmed and stuck. and even IF everyone else balanced their life perfectly, that wouldn't make you a bad person for struggling. if you care about something but keep avoiding it and don't understand why, there is probably more going than you realize. if your physical and mental health are being neglected, then you're never going to be able to accomplish what you want to do because you don't have any gas in the tank. it took me crashing and failing last semester for me to finally admit to myself that i was suffering from some SERIOUS burnout. i had this whole plan for research i was going to do over the summer and all these opportunities i wanted to take advantage of that i couldn't do because i was neglecting to take care of myself. the worst thing my anxious brain told me could ever happen did happen and i'm still alive. i hope that doesn't happen to you, but know you can recover and come back better. also: it's okay to stop wanting what you thought you wanted, or to take a different path than the one you were "supposed" to. don't do things because you think other people expect you to, or because you think it's too late to change your mind. that isn't sustainable. your college experience is for YOU, not for other people. you can do this!
#these are things that have been said before and im sure other students have figured it out earlier than me#but as i go into my senior year this is the advice i would have given myself four years ago and the stuff im still trying to remember#so maybe it will help someone else :)#*me remembering how i flamed out 3 months ago* girl its FINE YOURE FINE#this was not my hot scholar summer. but it was my ''treat your depression and stop wanting to kill yourself'' summer so i consider it a win#still have makeup work to finish. i'll get there#also i hope this doesn't sound preachy#i have a significant amount of privilege as a student#i dont go to a prestigious uni but i have a full scholarship so i get to study want i want and not worry about loans (<- american)#i have professors who have been flexible with me and supportive family#i know other students have individual economic social familial etc. pressures that complicate what i said above#im finally trying to work with my brain as it is and get out of the AWFUL procrastinate->overcompensate cycle that i've been in for 3 yrs#i dont have adhd afaik but i find posts about executive function struggles EXTREMELY relatable in a way that is probably connected#to my anxious depressive brain#you can ignore my essay this is basically a therapeutic exercise lmao
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Did you keep working on the wiki?
I work on it when I have time / even want to, don't bother with asking me for updates much, i haven't done almost anything since last ask.
a reminder that this will never be a worldbuilding i do for others to see, but just my super personal playground i go into constantly. and that sometimes i share about in public here
i don't really care about having to deliver things for people eitherway, as rude as that may sound im not obligated to, it since its just a hobbie. watch me take years, if ill even have it on public anyways!
#i wish i didnt even announce id make one publicly to begin with because now some people are waiting and expecting it someday#writing wiki article is harder than i initially though unmedicated adhd and dyslexia doesn't help#mt babbles
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hello if you're a writer and you have adhd i am gripping you by the throat and begging on my hands and knees for the secret to being consistent with writing.........i get like random bursts of motivation where i write like 50-70k in a single week and then 2 days later the thought of jotting down even a single word fills me with Dread. how do you do it. sobbing
#it doesn't help that i also work full time at a big fancy adult career job or some BULLSHIT like that#and then gotta get off of a 8.5 hour shift and GO TO THE GYM??? AND COOK??? AND EAT??? AND SHOWER???? and then ALSO WRITE????? help me#not to mention....i still want to have things like friends! and hobbies! and things i do outside of writing about silly block men#and sometimes! i just wanna relax and do nothing and watch netflix or tiktok#but the adhd makes it SO hard to coordinate it all and have motivation to do any of it!!! even if it's something i really WANT to do!!!!#rah rah screaming and sobbing#plant yaps#plant writes#idk about that last one i ain't doing much writing at the moment
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sam: i need to get a good grade in loreboy by doing ALL this research myself. i can't out-source or ask for help. that's cheating. how will i prove i went to college and know how to academically research if i don't spend 10+ hours reading all these dusty old books???
meanwhile dean, a few hours later: yea so i solved the case.
sam: *pikachu face* how?????? i'm only on chapter 57 of this first book????
dean: well. i was cooking bacon and the sizzling splatter of grease reminded me of that one time we were hunting [insert obscure monster here] and then cas came up behind me--well that's not really relevant-- anyways so it's [insert monster] and we kill it with a silver blade dipped in the blood of a black sheep born under a waxing crescent moon.
sam: waxing crescent... how do you know that????
dean: oh cas told me.
sam: *smug face* so you didn't figure it out youself
dean: there's no shame in out-sourcing and asking for help. that's just being efficient and using your resources, sammy. oh and also *flips him off* now, you coming or what?
#this is literally how it is#every time dean just. uses his adhd brain to make out of the box connections#and it's not like dean Can't research. he literally does all the time. and did his own research during stanford era#but it's just. he has no shame asking for help. he has no shame using his resources and going to people who already Know the lore#and that doesn't make him less intelligent#vic.txt#smart dean#smart genius baby
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I hc wash and south (and by proxy, north) as all being ODSTs prior to pfl and one thing I really like about hcing them as such is that it adds another layer of depth to why they were all chosen to be a part of the recovery force.
ODSTs are a special forces unit within the marines, and they're generally used as force amplifiers and in high risk or sensitive operations. two such scenarios include the recovery or recapture of personal and high level assets behind enemy lines, as well as deep reconnaissance and intelligence gathering. ODSTs are also used in politically sensitive operations, which pfl was following the crash of the moi.
so basically, who better to be on the recovery force than former ODSTs who already have a background doing the kind of work that would need to be done?
this also adds to some of the tension between north and south as well imo, as while they're a great team who are capable of working together they clearly have two very different skillsets—south is not portrayed as someone who has the patience necessary for long reconnaissance missions, and part of the reason why team b failed so spectacularly is because two snipers and an intelligence operative are not a good choice for a smash and grab mission. had north been replaced with south things would've probably went way better for them, because south is actually fairly similar to wash in her "get in, get it done, get out" mentality, though where wash comes off as more methodical and is willing to take that "wait and see" approach, south throws caution to the wind and has a "we'll cross that bridge when we get there" approach.
this is probably why wash and south were (on paper at least) going to get eta and iota—south would've benefited greatly from having an ai that was afraid and anxious as it would force her to slow down and think things through more, and wash getting an ai that was happy and cheerful would force him to loosen up a bit and be less high-strung and serious.
#rvb#red vs blue#agent washington#agent south dakota#agent north dakota#related but not related but i think the reason wash and epsilon ended up in the situation they did is bc they were hyper compatible#like most of the ai are paired w a freelancer to either balance something out or to amplify a specific trait#for example north was given theta so he'd get off south's back or sigma could've helped lina be driven by more than just competition#so giving an ai that is memory to someone who already has a great memory in theory seems like it would be good. but if the memory is just a#glowing ball of trauma then. well. it would impact them a lot more than someone who doesn't have a great memory#like tbh i think delta could've gone to maine and epsilon to york bc the guy is kind of scattered and his adhd vibes could benefit from a#better memory while maine who has a habit of letting his anger and frustration get the best of him would've done well w calm logical delta
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nd culture is having an controversial thought or moke like wondering, and reasons why the term "glass child" rubs me the wrong way, so i'm going to vent here??
tw: mentions of ableism
glass child: siblings of a person with a disability,that get neglected bc thdir sibling get more attention.People often perceive them transparently, especially when children seem resilient but are actually vulnerable
I feel majority of ppl who are "glass child", even before the term was created, resented their sibling and their disability bc of the neglect or if the siblings happens to be an awful person,show their ableism and excused it under their "rage". It feels like they be waiting the term to be created(?. ( I have seen many of them on the internet or irl)
"But glass child is necessary term for our experiences. It's not ableist, even if most ppl used it that way, it means we don't get taken care of bc we strong when we aren't"
I don't want to invalidate ppl's trauma neither come off as insensitive..but it happens to many neglected kids, they are viewed strong when in reality,they are vulnerable, only difference is the experiences and context, doesn't make it less valid or less painful even if there's a lot of ppl in the same situation,I get why new terms exists: to talk about topics and experiences ppl have in common, it can be helpful and all that but..why creating more terms? It's basically neglect. It can be different situations but at the end of the day, is still neglect, which it has many non excusable reasons,no matter what situation, is a form of emotional abuse. and it can happen to anyone:all genders,POC or white,lgbtq or cishet.
Many parents exhibit toxic and abusive behavior influenced by culture, generational trauma, or personal issues. This can include favoritism toward one child over another based on shallow reasons like appearance or arbitrary characteristics. Similarly, neglectful parents justify their actions with excuses like being tired, working, or caring for other family members. Such behaviors are harmful and unjustifiable.
In various scenarios, disabled kids may be viewed as burdens, facing neglect or preference towards non-disabled siblings, while a similar pattern unfolds with daughters overshowed in favor of sons due to internalized sexism,and for the dark skinned folks are ignored by their family, just to favor of their lightskinned sibling
Surprisingly, there seems to be no coined term for neglect based on ableism, colorism, sexism, etc., in these instances. (as far as I know,if someone does know those terms. Pls do tell. Idk, my first language isn't english so).
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#i had no idea that was a thing#i'd have to look into more. it doesn't sound like a term created with malicious intent#but i can definitely understand why it would rub people the wrong way#neurodivergent culture#mod milo#also thank you for using the different colours. not sure what its original purpose was but being someone with adhd#it helps a LOT when reading long texts
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