#(and its not bc i hate him. i came to like him in the end but i still couldnt stand hearing him)
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hi excuse me i got carried away. these were originally tags but uhhhh it got. long. so into the reblog proper it goes. i ended up just fully describing my modern au.
for the record this is all off the top of my head so its not all entirely fleshed out
origins protags:
hiram amell would be in college to be like. a neurosurgeon and play warhammer with whatever time he can scrounge up. meets loghain there and they beef especially because hiram keeps finding stupid ridiculous ways to beat him when loghain is like. the most decorated player in their community. that guy is a warhammer 40k legend.
i feel like he doesnt have the time or energy to really get fast food enough to have a favorite, ironically. he lives off of tv dinners and the cheapest + strongest coffee he can find.
ive also been turning around the idea of modern hiram having been a foster child to duncan (this doesnt really come up here but i do imagine duncan being a military veteran) in his later teens which is what gives him the financial ability to actually pursue college. meets alistair that way who was also taken in as a foster and then officially adopted a year before hiram entered the picture. i dont know if i want duncan to die early on i want these boys to have a dad.....
anyway alistair and hiram are probably roommates while hirams in college? idk if alistair would be in college too. maybe try it bc of the expectation but end up having to drop out? hm.
gunnr brosca is younger daughter to her norwegian immigrant mother who came to america for a man only to be left when she became pregnant with rica. this began their mothers downward spiral into both poverty and alcohol and soon enough there was no chance of her getting home. so both rica and gunnr were born in america.
gunnr works under the table to not bring attention to their family. not always taking legal jobs. really just whatever she could get to keep them afloat despite the hole in their saving from their mothers drinking habits. gunnr feels a lot of disdain towards their mother for the situations she's put them in (put rica in especially) and the life they live
rica does sex work and hopes to marry rich so she can lift them out of poverty. gunnr hates that she has to. hates the men that leer at her sister. pretty 1-to-1 translation of ingame brosca origin.
a job gunnr takes goes wrong and lands her in hot water and her best bet is to take the money she has to her own name and get the hell out of dodge. she doesnt want to leave rica alone but rica encourages her to go.
and so she goes on over to britain. she takes less risky but still under the table jobs from there out because im deciding she somehow got in through criminal means and definitely does not have the papers or documentation to be there. god knows what their mother did with their birth certificates or social security numbers but i think neither gunnr or rica has ever seen hide nor hair of either document so like yknow. gunnr barely exists.
also im calling it that duncan is just not important to gunnr's whole story or existence. if hes there its only by proxy of alistair.
hey speaking of alistair. idk how they meet. something casual like outside a bar or through a friend of a friend of a friend when something like. breaks in the apartment he has w hiram and the landlord wont fix this and one of alistairs friends is like. i know a guy who knows a guy who knows this woman. ill put you in contact. and alistairs like. Ohhhkay. kinda shady but. alright.
she comes over to fix it. he gets himself a little crush almost immediately. shes neutral about him at first but when he kinda stumbles over himself to exchange numbers she teases him like. oh in case this breaks again huh? but is kinda begrudgingly endeared and goes along w it.
strangely enough in this modern au i think hiram and gunnr's influences on alistairs college career (equivalent to the king choice) are swapped from what theyd normally be. hiram would be resistant to alistair quitting college and kinda hammer in duncan's expectations (which i mean i keep mentioning but hes Not gonna like. disown them or something. like hed be disappointed, to varying degrees, but this is something that hangs over hiram like a specter. like it would impact things but hiram kind of makes mountains out of molehills over it. probably because he's felt severely unwanted his entire life and feels that any mistake is The End.) and put the weight on his own shoulders onto alistair in that moment.
(to expand more on that ^ i think hiram holds alistair to the same standards that he feels he himself has to conform to. and it scares him to see alistair consider Not going through the hell of college because it solidifies that as an Option. it give hiram an out, one with consequences, And it leaves him alone in his burden. they patch it up later down the road but needless to say things get Very Turbulent.)
meanwhile gunnr would be like hey listen. you dont need college to make something of yourself. if it sucks hit da bricks. and i think that ultimately wins out and him and hiram have a big falling out because of it and alistair goes to stay with gunnr in her shitty little apartment (? if it could be called that. debatable.)
im not rushing their romance here at this point bc the end of the world isnt upon them so. they have time to just be friends for a while while alistair's squishy feelings grow and gunnr finds herself more and more endeared to him. its absurd to her and she doesnt know What to do with that so she just. acts normal
messes with him a bit more maybe. yknow to do Something. maybe he starts working with her on some jobs. hes not thrilled about that part but work is work. and its not Bad stuff so. i just think hes a bit of a goody-two-shoes and doing things in a Not Super Allowed way makes him squirmy.
also i need zevran to be in here SOMEWHERE for hiram but i honest to god dont know. how. i have to think on it auuugh. they probably meet sometime during him and alistair's falling out. hiram needs someone there for him besides that old man he antagonizes at warhammer and duncan
ok so hiram and morrigan. i have actually thought about this previously and i have notes but i dont want to look at them right now. we're freeballing.
morrigan is a friend he made at a small school he went to with one of his previous foster families (he was shuffled through a lot of homes). she has an abusive mother and hiram becomes really her only friend. everyone else avoids her and if you listened to her shed say 'good' and that she liked it that way but ultimately she is Not immune to being lonely. and she finds genuine companionship in hiram.
soon enough hiram is shuffled out again but he goes through hell and highwater to make sure the two of them stay in touch.
well eventually around the time hiram is preparing to start college morrigan calls him and talks about her mother's pressure for her to have a child and that she thinks she'd actually like to but far Far away from flemeth. she doesnt want her mother having any part in the life of this child. she also asks if hiram would be the one to father it and hes a ride or die kind of friend so he agrees.
they meet up. the event is kinda awkward considering he is gay and neither are attracted in any way sexually to each other but they put in effort and thats sweet in its own right. afterward she tells him that she has to cut contact and that she plans to skip country. she cant tell him where and he knows this. he doesnt ask. he tells her to be safe and good luck. they hug and then she leaves.
a lot of impulsivity on display here but theyre both like 18 so. yknow. also shes lucky this actually Does take. neither of them had enough sex ed to have had it occur to them that one night Might not be enough to conceive a child.
also hiram does not mention this night to anyone for a very long time. no one knows he has a son and most of the time he forgets until he wakes up in a cold sweat with misplaces guilt over being an absent father. anyway
my baby my beloved. renard hawke. he's a farmer who's family had to move to the city after too many years of negative profit and debt.
the farm had been on a decline for a long time, but a few years after the death of malcom hawke, it finally caught up to them.
hawke family tragedy speedrun: bethany dies a bit after they settle into the city in a car crash. im not really sure what happens to carver. he doesnt die. joining the military seems likely. im also not sure what happens to leandra. her being the victim of a serial killer seems a Little bit unlikely but it could still happen. she could also grieve herself to death, the stress finally getting her.
renard is actually the person ive thought about the modern version of the least! so im not settled on a lot for him or his friends.
he ends up with fenris of course. he forms a lot of connections really quickly in the city. hawke in every universe is just a guy ppl gravitate towards. i think him and gunnr would get to be really good friends actually, and through her he'd eventually meet the rest of the origins gang. well besides morrigan, as previously stated shes off and away, and people connected only to hiram would be slower to meet renard until things were better between hiram and alistair. no da2 companion is left out here i just dont have concrete ideas as of right now.
what i DO know. is that he eventually goes missing (here lies the abyss). he doesnt tell anyone that he's going, where he's going. he leaves a six word note for fenris, gets in his car in the dead of night, and drives. the last person on record to have ever seen him is Islanil Lavellan, at a diner in the early hours of the morning. renard and islanil did not know each other prior to that meeting, but varric knows islanil as he works with varric's publishing company.
fenris will not stop until he finds hawke. it doesnt matter how cold the case becomes or how many try to dissuade him, he Will find hawke.
ok thats where im stopping right now because i need to brainstorm the da2 stuff more and i havent actually played inquisition with islanil yet. and i have some ideas for faustus mercar (rook) but i havent finished veilguard yet.
ATTENTION ALL DRAGON AGE PPL!!!
Describe any of your DA OC's as if they were regular modern people.
Favorite songs, fast food they would like, favorite movies etc.
#dragon age#aaaa also for the record. dragon age 2 Is technically the only dragon age ive finished as of yet. so. teehee#im getting there.#companions not mentioned doesnt mean they wouldnt be included in the au i just dont have anything in mind for them yet#i wrote stuff down abt leliana a few weeks ago but ehhhhh. idk#also i have yet to think of a good modern version of fenris' whole situation. im not always a fan of how that's modernized so im not sure#how to come at it.#but i like thinking about modern stuff. its fun
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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[TUVOKTOBER: Day 9] Ballet with the Captain.
#Tuvok#bea art tag#tuvoktober#Janeway would love doing a ballet recital if there was significant lore in the holonovel about the stakes and so forth#Tuvok does not want to do a ballet recital. He does not see how this is enjoyable.#Janeway canonically took dance lessons as a kid and Tuvok just seems like he would have too.#They were both forced to take piano (or its equivalent) and dance - and they both hated it at the time#But Tuvok stuck with lute & Janeway quit both to go on to other hobbies (she had/has a lot)#<- gets bored a bit easily and likes the excitement of a new challenge#Janeway...ok. I think she would make her romantic interest in this holonovel be:#A brilliant but sort of dismissive reporter who's an amazing writer but gets stuck doing pieces he has no passion for. And she draws his ey#bc she's so good at dancing and they have flirty banter where she shows him how dancing isn't boring or dumb and you KNOW she's putting in#scene where she like makes him dance in the rain or something. And he's graying despite only being a few years older.#The holonovel ends with him appreciating dance and writing an amazing article about the performance which she reads after#some sort of misunderstanding only to realize gasp! He really DID love her! And she opens the door but he's already there (he came to#apologize) oh Kath will you ever forgive me? of course...[kissing]#camera pans over to Tuvok who's like “=_= ...”#st voyager#st voyager fanart#also Janeway is a rose & Tuvok is an orchid
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Boy King Seb :D
#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333#he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today#this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!!#can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant#i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am'#this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!!#i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;;#okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH):#this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved)#its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph?#but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010)#its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves#seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his#so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better#whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it)#not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh#anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO#its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation#pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!)#i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#f1 art#formula 1 art#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such#boy king au
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I can't believe I missed out on Lockwood and co bc I thought it's another silly monster hunting in victorian London show. It's such a good show (and it's a book adaptation!)
I absolutely love the world they're in. More wordbuilding should make use of "modern world but something went wrong along the way"
It's modern but the technology is kinda backwards, they have no smartphones (I personally dislike phones in fantasy settings so I'm really happy) and have to do research in the library, THEY USE SPADES WHICH IS SO COOL, like YEAH why not make swords relevant again, it's fantasy and they are great and it makes the world feel so original and real bc of that.
Also the whole economy (?) of the world, that young people are the only ones that can sense the ghosts so they're being used to protect everybody else (and die along the way but it's called a noble sacrifice, of course). It's so messed up. Which makes it so compelling.
All the politics between the different kinds of agencies and teasing with conspiracy theories that there's something the agents don't know about was also great (and it would probably be even better in season 2 if the show wasn't canceled)
I loved Lockwood, Lucy and George. Especially the fact that they're all crazy in some way and you can see that. Lockwood with his reckless plans, Lucy with her compassion to ghosts and George with his social awkwardness. They're all so lovely and love each other so much it warms my heart.
Characters and plot related thoughts under the cut
Tbh I thought George was gonna die pretty quickly bc characters like him (third wheels to another characters that have a dynamic that's more focused on) are often created to die for shock value, so it was interesting that he didn't and moreover, his plot line was dedicated to showing that he feels like a third wheel and how he deals with that which led to him befriending (?) that older woman. What the hell was that. This whole relationship made me so uncomfortable (which was most likely the point but still UGH)
Before I watched the show I saw some Kanej and Locklyle comparisons and yeah, they're pretty similar on first look but I'm so glad that's where it ends. I love both Kaz and Inej but Lockwood and Lucy are their own characters.
Lockwood is a genius but he relies more on his charisma than longtime planning. He would never get the reputation Kaz has. He's got big ego, he's self-sacrificial, he doesn't have trouble with showing his people he cares about them.
Lucy is so much different than Inej that I won't even compare them. She's great on her own, I wanna hug her and I'd trust her with my life.
I can't believe they ended the season just before showing us what's in Lockwood's room. My guess was that it's gonna be his parents in some form (bodies/sources) but I guess I'll go read the books now to find out
#lockwood and co#also what is up with the genres of bri'ish people#every time lucy spoke i was like yay she feels so real. i could just listen to her talk for hours. yes teh show is set in england. how did s#he pronounce monster? that's so fun#but every time kipps opened his mouth i was like ugh british people. cant he just die already.#(and its not bc i hate him. i came to like him in the end but i still couldnt stand hearing him)#ok gonna go read the books now
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The end credits of this season have such a Ciel in Wonderland thing going on where Ciel has to face the bad things he's done to people and doing so casts him adrift and he has to wonder who is still going to care about him after all of that and the answer is Sebastian every time. And it's interesting Sebastian is always who he is the most worried about still liking him in the end bc Sebastian is both the person that knows the full extent of who Ciel is and what he's done and Sebastian is the very person who has been enabling Ciel the whole time.
#ciel's morals are so fun to talk about bc i think it's funny when he doesn't give a fuck which is 99% of the time which makes the ways...#...he does give a fuck really really interesting. like it is interesting he's so worried about what sebastian thinks about him when it...#...technically doesn't matter. it's interesting he's so worried about it still when he's made up a hundred ways to make sure sebastian...#...does care about him. it's interesting all of the people ciel hates and he still really loves finny/mey rin/bard#and it is interesting at this point in the narrative he doesn't realize the full extent of how its not just sebastian who loves him...#...unconditionally bc the rest of the people that live in his house and lau and ran mao do still love him knowing who he is#i don't think ciel in wonderland was in a place yet to explore that aspect where they framed it like the whole house hated him post s1#anyway so much of ciel's feelings are there and concealed under ten different layers so it's interesting how they chose to go with the...#...weakest spot he has for the end visuals and through atonement#and that its interesting its through ciel's perspective bc. i said this when it came out but the lyrics do call back to a lot of...#...hallucination in sebastian's perspective. it's interesting sid brought that vibe when the vibe is a lot different than it was in 2010ish#kuroshitsuji#my kuro posts
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I’m trying not to be a hater but that tiktok and comment section pissed me off so bad.
#the way the fics end in Bruce saying sorry and everyone coddling tim and tims like ‘well I was just a placeholder 🥺’#the fun part about tim is that he made grown ass decisions at a little ass age that literally everyone told him would turn out bad#and then it turned out bad and he knows he dug his own grave so he just has to pretty it up as best as he can#and if he could go back in time he would do that shit again BECAUSE HE LIKES IT! BECAUSE ITS EXCITING! BECAUSE HE WANTED TO BE ROBIN#that Robin is a job shit is a lie he told himself that literally nobody around but YALL the stupid ass audience believed#that’s like the crux of him I think#lying to himself to get the job done because he can’t let his emotions get in the way but unfortunately that’s not how it works#and when he realizes that he gets pissed at everyone else for not letting it work and himself for not making it work#he somehow thinks that he can remove this attitude as tim Drake when Robin is the crutch tim Drake leans on in adulthood#which is an issue because now everyone around him is moving and he’s still stuck at 14 knocking on dicks door and hoping that he’ll have to#make use of the suit he brought with him. not because he’s excited or anything but just in case#his friends and family died and came back Gotham gets destroyed every other day and rebuilt every other week everything keeps changing but#nothing is and he’s stuck in that cycle and maybe it’s his fault for not letting things rest but he refuses to accept that because he’s GOOD#as Robin he does excellent work and always has and nothing will change that not even a new Robin. his friends are all making names for#themselves and he’s still stuck under Bruce’s cape fighting a teenager to be robin.#THATS whats fun about tim#the writing is stuck rn I’ll give u that but the next move should be an acknowledgment of that#tim doesn’t wanna peak in high school so he has to move on but he doesn’t know how and matter of fact doesn’t know why! nothings been this#permanent before (<-LYING!)#but no whatever everyone hates him realizes they’re wrong and he leaves Gotham bc he deserves better but comes back bc he’s so nice. ok.
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I have a whole essay about vegeta in me but my phone is at 9% so youre all spared right now
#I mean is it really a surprise I like the guy? look at him and look at what you know about me💙#and to make a botched summary: hes like one of those hypothetical “what if the villain joined the good guys” scenario except its real#the fact that hes also morally abhorrant for 80% of his screentime is both great and the reason why he can never get a single W#bc him winning against either a major antagonist OR protagonist wouldve validated the wrong morals he introduced in the saiyan saga#that goku fought hard to invalidate#anyway long story short: geets is a character meant to be broken. both physically and out of his own mind#and it was really cathartic to see him make an active choice (and not reactionnary like for future trunks) to protect those he came to love#AND recognize and accept goku's superiority at the sunset of the series in the last major battle#AND HIM LOSING BITS AND BITS OF HIS ARMOR THRU THE COURSE OF THE SERIES UNTIL HE STRAIGHT UP ENDS UP IN HUMAN CLOTHES IN THE EPILOGUE#IT WAS A GREAT DETAIL I LOVED (and I Fucking Hate when post buu they still put him in that fucking cell saga armor I hate it)#anyway love this character. the vegetable.#unless you also love him in which case I Hate Him. and if you talk to me about super Im Going To Kill You#tagging later
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i need him oh my god everyone i need him
#LISTEN#I started watched kinnporsche#which ive avoided bc one of the mcs is fucking ugly#OH BUT PORSCHE MAKES UP FOR IT#OH MY GOD EVERYONE. EVERYONE. OH HES SO ATTRACTIVE OH MY GOD#HES SO HOT I CANT BREATHE VERY SCENE IM JUST STARING AT HIM AND HEALING MY CHAKRAS OF SOMETHING IM JUST LIKE HFHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#AND HE REMINDS ME OF MINGYU#PERSONALTY WISE AND APPEARANCE#IM GONNA DIEEEE#GOD I WISH HE COULD END UP WITH VEGAS#KINN IS SO OUT OF HIS LEAGUE AND NOT ONLY IS HE UGLY HIS HAIRLINE IS REDECING AND I DONT LIKE HIS VOICE#STILL ITS HOT WHEN THEY FUCKED#I WAS LIKE R THEY DOING BOTTOM PORCHE OR IS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR SINCE WE SAW HIM FUCK A WOMAN#BUT THEY CAME THRU#AND HES OHMYGOD OHYMGSJGWHGH#IM SO ATTRACTED TO HIM#HES SO ANNOYING AND I WOULDVE HATED THE DRUNK ACTING IF IT WERE ANYONE ELSE#BUT HES SO HOT HE CAN SAY ANYTHING OR DO ANYTHING I DONT EVEN CARE#IM LIKE OH FUCK HES PERFECT NO MATTER WHAT HEDOES#THE CRINGIEST SHIT IS SUDDENLY SO HOT#SCREAMINGSCRAEMSIGNGNNGNGG#HES SO MY TYPE#NOT AN OLD DRAFT I WROTE THIS LAST NITE
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Coming out of my jjk hole to remind mappa i carry a big hammer and i NEVER FORGET
#congrats to them for successfully completely pissing off 2/3s of our gc with their modeling#do you think this pfp means nothing… DO YOU!!! i didnt spend hours staring at ch.137 panels for… that#what on earth#WHAT ON EARTH !#i literally pulled up the ep to watch the full scene bc i was like surely not that bad#ITS WORSE#onviously most animes end up worse than their mangas to me#since there are some things that are truly just best expressed through comic form#and when youre attempting to convey smth through one medium#trying to then reconvey that in another while maintaining your orginal concept#onviously means that it doesnt always work out whatever whatever we know this#mappa. changed a bunch. ONLY TO MAKENIT WORSE#EITHER MAINTAIN LOYALTY AND BE WORSE. OR CHANGE AND MAKE IT BETTER#WHY CHANGE AND MAKE IT WORSE#PICK A CRIME !!! I HATE YOU!!!#i havent caref abt jjk in so long bc i quite genuinely believe gege cant long game to save his life#which he only continues to repeatedly prove so i stopped giving him the chance to#but geges art style and small scene comp always came through and mappa TAKES THAT FROM YOUUUUUUU#anyways its been a while since i cared so deeply ant smth that genuinely doesnt matter but ANYTHING FOR MY BOY#yes this in part still my pfp bc im too lazy to change it but ALSO ANYTHING FOR YUUTA#anyways whoever does mappa modeling for jjk im putting a scorpion in your shoes godbless#v.txt
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sometimes...... legends canon star wars..... is worse.
#sw#death star novel#i'm most of the way finished with it and dear g-d.#do ya'll seriously like this novel???????#i need to know what the actual ultimate end-all-be-all daala x tarkin book is bc it is not this one surely.#she's barely in it! she is just here to be his yes man and have a few cute moments with him and that's it.#she is meant to be the main investigator for the mysterious ship explosion that happened but then she retained#memory loss of the past six months after some brain trauma caused in a fight. and then she got shipped back off to the maw.#like any agency and importance she had as a character besides being an emotional base to tarkin (who is also barely in it)#was rendered utterly and totally useless. like she doesn't matter at all besides a few hey we totally care about giving tarkin an arc#/lying moments from the authors. like? they don't even actually utilize her as a tool to uplift tarkin's character arc. she's basically#just there for the investigation (which is now a fridged plot point? i'm assuming that's that on that for its importance to#the story bc she was the only one who knew anything about it and her memory got fucked) and they immediately threw that away#bc it wouldn't fit with anh plotwise and her injury was used for like. two or three scenes of tarkin being kinda nervous.#that's it. like the writers obviously don't care about tarkin and it's killing me bc he is objectively one of the most interesting#characters in the death star novel's mile-long cast of boring apolitical straight couples.#also they make tarkin and vader mildly irritated with each other. even when this book came out (mid 00s) vader and tarkin#were still canonically friends. like in anh. the first movie. the movie that the rest of either canon is based upon.#but whatever! i hate when sw authors ignore canon just bc they personally don't like tarkin like shut up!#get somebody who does like him to write him for g-d's sake.#and that's not even really touching on just how misogynistic this book's writing of every single female character is lmaooo#like daala is the best written woman in it imo and i just ranted about how they used her exclusively as a crux to tarkin's emotions.#insane that she didn't have a first name for over 20 years. that says it all right there.
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re: last post I genuinely do think each ygo series has its own charm and I think its so funny when ppl get attached to the spinoffs esp. like they all have their merits and theres not rly a BAD start series, it just depends on ur own tastes!! theres something for everyone!! I think its rly fun to hear ppl explain WHY their favorite series is their favorite, too, when theyve seen more than (1) series
but I also do think ur fav series does say smth abt ur tastes. lol
#also not to keep joking abt capsule monsters but im desperate to find someone who says they only watched that one. and its their fav.#i think that would be SO funny#if I had to explain WHY zexal is my fav idk. yuma got so much hate when it came out i got INCREDIBLY PROTECTIVE so anything i see him im li#im like. thats MY BOY back off BITES BARKS etc#it has rly cool lore and ALIENS and the end group of villains is :') like. bestest most favorite little group of menaces#and its just fun idk. also the memories of watching it live aaaa....<-nostagic#sanchoyorambles#ygo#SORRY FOR TALKING SO MUCH ABT YGO BUT ALSO NOT REALLY BC I LOVE IT#i hope at least 1 of my followers gets interested from my ygo posting#and wants to check it out#....honestly i do think watching in Order is a TASK for someone not already into it lol. theres a LOT#it doesnt FEEL like a lot tho imo when u skip intro/outros like I do usually#idk i can watch 10-15 eps in one sitting if im trying rly hard#so 1-2 watch seshs in a week means u finish the series in like. idk 2 months?
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stoppp a costumer snitched on me wtf
#it was 1:14 i ended 1.15 ok. customer comes in with the mother of all fucking carts#like it was HUGE#except he was looking for a lane and we made eye contact and i was like no please#and he laughed and i was like noo dont do this to me but like in a light tone#anyways of course he fucking comes to my lane#anyways it is a long transaction so of course i dont fucking ifnish and its 1.24 when i finish and the guy didnt fucking help me like atall#and i was like fucking pissed not only bc i should have been going HOME. but he didnt help me whatsoever#and he had a real messy cart too#btw this is all heavy stuff for businesses so its not like usual groceries so i gotta punch in a buncha codes and stuff and lift if necessa#ry? anyways. i finish and he's paying and of course im mad and then he makes a joke and i remember that i am a comic personality so#i play along and im like omg haha yeah at whatever he said right#and he's just finding this so fucking funny and i want to hit him#anywyas i was like ''i was supposed to end like 4 minutes ago''#and i followed with ''but its alright dont worry about it'' and the usual ''have a great day'' or sth#anyways i leave im free i go home#apparently some fucking customer snitched on me. don't know if its the fucking guy or some other nosy bitch#and its the manager that obviously fucking hates me and im so fucking mad guys like who tf was it.#im so mad guys what the actual fuck#or. or i beet it was that girl after me (she came in at 1.15. she is a 60 yr old woman)#GOD I BET IT WAS. she's such a snitch she's done it before#but she also didnt help me#im so mad rn#lol i told my mom abt the customer (not the snitching part bc i found that out rn) and shes ike girl just quit and find a job closer#like god i am tempted. but i like my job i just hate my fucking manager#aparently she played it off as ''oh she's just being silly'' but ik she's mad mad#anyways i dont work till friday so idc
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being gay =3=ppp
#why can guys be so cute..... shouldnt be real.....#man if only i was more cis and less aroace Y-Y#no... i have a chance....#will it happen? no fucking way. but a guy can dreamm#augh this is so emberassing goddamn#sillyposting#mann we had our big party and like two hours before it ended our coworker came by + helped afterwards#but i hadn't seen him in so long and hes pretty nice and waughhh i hate crushes how do people copeee#and i KNOW partly that I like him because. there is an oppertunity its mutual.#i feel like thats the only way a romantic attraction starts for me.... if its possibly mutual and there are signs etc.#but that could also just me being aplatonic and autistic and not knowing signs of friendshipp#but mann he brought me a special typa shot that we sell and. put it on the table so excitedly just for me and. it was cute okay. it was.#but i hadn't drunk at all bc im kinda at work but its not like most of my coworkers atm were sober WHATEVER.#but I had to deny bc I. did not want to. despite being soso flattered and ARGHHH#i cant stop thinking about it i need to stopp i cant handle thiss#=3=pp#not epic....#T-T#he'll be forever on the list of 'people i could have had forever maybe if i was more normall' 5 and counting ig...
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randomly feel like going scorched earth with vchuuber fanart now. lol ! (disclaimer this is a 4 am post, mostly stemming off me realizing im losing my old passion & interest in the funny vee chuubers)
its mostly just cause i was more interested in their personas' lore than the actual streams/streamer in the first place... so seeing everyone get excited and hype over big events and me not being able to share that hype anymore (mostly due to my oshi retiring & the big group dynamic changing) has been crazy alienating
tldr never interact with a big fanbase worst mistake of my life. the discourse is fucking crazy lmao
#shoutout to u7trakill for finally ending a nearly 2 year toxic parasocial relationship lmao!#tbf my experience over the past 1.75 years has been#80 percent good/neutral and like 20% negative#tldr being a vtuber fan has put me in presence of the craziest mood swings for the longest periods of time#mostly gonna blame it on the fans and less the streamer themselves#bc guess what!! twt is a hellhole!!#n it doesnt help that a big chunk of fans are *those* types of anime fans#ie fucking freaks#and i hated that i had to share a space with them#YES curate your own experience. whatever.#doesnt change the fact that i still had to occasionally bear witness to the WORST kinds of ppl#liking pure straight up fiction is way less messy than liking streamers lol#sorry if that came off really harsh#its just. im fed up lmao#the highs of interacting with the fanbase when we had our highs was amazing#but GOD the lowest lows sucked so so so bad and there was/is infighting#anyway im rambling#doesnt help that ppl keep bringing up a very sour moment the fans had that id honestly wish wed forget about!! but they!! keep bringing it u#and to be fair!!! it was BAD#but i wish theyd stop implying the Event in every 'fan etiquette' post#i hold SO MUCH regret over that event even if i didnt go as far as some other fans did#and honestly! i cant believe it even happened! thats how bad it was#and it very obvs affected him HARD#but i really REALLY wish we would just. treat it as a yeah this happened thing now#bc hes Graduated. under mysterious circumstances#and theres nothing we can do now!#hate to be a past is in the past person but what can you fucking do!!!#delete later#deepest sigh#vent post
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Seeing someone claim a book is "pro-genocide" and knowing that the part of the book they are referring to literally could not have a louder message of "anti-genocide" if it fucking tried.
#all bc they seemed to have come to the conclusion that the people that were saved. were 'russian coded'(???????????)#synopsis: a clan causes trouble and kills a lot of people but people fight them off and end it#the clain is now dispersed and the people that used to belong to that clan (this branch a notable group of doctors sick elderly & children)#and the only two that are relatively healthy (that are friends with mc and most notably helped him) are part of this branch#the branch gets put into a open air prison and are tortured and killed until the mc comes to help the remaining members#and then the remaining members (except for his adopted son and technically one of his friends who is now undead survives)#are all killed#so to recap the only remaining person from the clan is a child who doesnt even remember any of them except for his cousin and the mc#(the mc not being part of the clan)#and this person decided the best way to describe it. was to be pro genocide.#the clan. being the genociders? and the people that killed them out of war by hold them captive and torturing raping and murdering them.#were not.#.end synopsis#i think i know what they were trying to go for but to staunchly say that it was pro genocide and then also admitting that they support it.#its weird as shit 🙃#and i get where they were trying to come from. but they also made up a line from the novel to explain why they came up with this#like they said that 'every clan member thought the war to be nothing' was in the novel.#and the person that said this. was somebody that hated the clan (for good reason) and was mad about how easy it seemed for them#but for a novel thats key message is about how rumours can ruin somebodys life esp if they dont have anyone trying to help.#its. obvious they skipped the messaging and went right to assuming based off their own morals
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