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ok now that bt is FINALLY bones, all i really have to say is fuck yall for real. there are some of yall that arent that bad, but the overwhelming majority of you guys are actually fucking awful. i have had twitter mutuals be harassed by yall, i have had friends harassed, ive seen people i dont even follow being called horrific things and insulting their appearances, and so so much more. one thing that really sticks out is the blatant misogyny that some of you guys present. the amount of men that have gone online and confidently called women bitches and sluts and whores and cunts and hoes is genuinely fucking deranged, and i hope you all know that. there have been bt stans in my replies and my inbox and in my business, telling me that IM in the wrong for stating my opinions on the weird ass shit theyve been doing, telling me that they "dont feel welcome" in this fandom, and that they feel like this fandom is toxic and etc etc etc etc I DONT CARE BRO. i have said it once and ill say it again and again. some of you guys are just not meant to be in fandom spaces. there are block buttons for a reason. you can block people and tags and literally everything under the sun but you continue to SEEK OUT shit that makes you mad or that you dont agree with just so you can hate on the OPs in their replies. you dont seem to understand that people can have opinions on what characters they like and what ships they enjoy, and that other people have the right to criticize them. i am NOT sorry and i will NOT apologize for how i may have reacted. i do NOT feel bad for you. we all told you that this wasnt going to last, the showeunner said it wasnt going to last. the ACTOR said it wasnt going to last. and instead of using critical thinking skills and media literacy training, you got tattoos for this ship, you spent hundreds of dollars on cameos from a nepo baby, and you spent days of your lives hating on and harassing people over a FICTIONAL TV SHOW. instead of being upset at LFJR for leading yall on, you attacked oliver stark for being "biphobic"??@?!?!??!!??!÷*×(!&×,@ for having an opinion on his own character, especially after he spent time becoming genuinely one of the biggest bisexual allies i have ever seen. after he told reporters that he was planning on playing buck as bi anyway, after he made post after post saying how excited he was for bucks storyline, and after he advocated for this character he loves so dearly. you jumped down his throat for no reason. i have absolutely no sympathy for you. i really do hope you follow lfjr back to SWAT and i truly hope he gets every single line and every single scene just to keep him off of my fucking screen. 🫶
#finally comes the time where i make an incredibly long incredibly incoherent rant about bucktommys#not all of yall are bad but all i have had is bad experiences with you guys.#also im saying ostark is a bisexual ally bc im NOT going to rpf in this post...maybe later as a treat#FUCK lfjr#FUCK bucktommy#and FUCK TOMMY KINARD.#911 abc#anti tommy kinard#anti bucktommy#if ur pro bt DO NOT reply to this i do not want to hear ur opinions idc idc idc#idc if youre “one of the good ones” i dont care if buddies have harassed you (right now) i really dont want to hear it#obviously there are bad buddies too. this isnt about them#this is about how me but ESPECIALLY my friends and the people i follow have been treated recently.#buddie#THE END
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Ruin Me (part 6/Finale)
wc: 2.5k || rating: E || story summary: Steve shows up on Eddie’s doorstep with an offer he can’t refuse. || chapter summary: The boys realize what they want is more than just one night. || tags: omegaverse, alpha!Eddie Munson, omega!Steve Harrington, intersex omegas, explicit content (see ao3 for full tags) || posted in full on ao3
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Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6
Previously…
Unthinkingly, Eddie dropped another kiss to Steve’s forehead and then he was all but escaping his room to get Steve a glass of water. Fucking tap water, nothing filtered properly because he lived in a fucking trailer and Steve…Steve was used to the nicer things in life.
Which wasn’t Eddie.
“Christ, Munson, if your old man could see you now,” he muttered to himself, picturing the Munson Doctrine just flying out the window, as he filled up a glass. Not even a proper glass at that, either, but one of those novelty promotional things Wayne had gotten at McDonald’s with the purple guy on the front.
Whatever. It wasn’t like he could impress Steve even if he tried.
Coming back into the room, Eddie took a moment to take in the sight of Steve. The boy had settled more fully into the bed, laying under the covers with his nose buried in the blanket, eyes closed.
He wasn’t asleep, that much was certain with how he was nuzzling against the material every so often, but Eddie could tell that it was a losing battle.
He tried not to feel too much pride at fucking Steve into exhaustion.
“C’mon, Stevie, drink some water and take your pill,” he coaxed, setting the glass on the bedside table to rest a hand on Steve’s shoulder. He gently helped the other boy sit back up, trying his hardest not to smile at the sleepy but content look on Steve’s face.
“I like that,” Steve murmured quietly.
Eddie let out a small hum as he got Steve situated back up to a sitting position. “Like what?”
“When you call me that. Stevie.”
Eddie froze. Steve, seemingly unaware, took the glass Eddie was now holding out and dutifully took the pill and drank down more than half the water. He made a little grimace at the taste, but didn’t make any comments about its lack of filteredness. Steve then set the glass down and reached for Eddie’s hand, tugging him down onto the bed with him.
Eddie went easily, still caught on Steve liking the nickname that, admittedly, had probably started out somewhat mockingly but now was anything but. Steve’s arm wrapped around Eddie, encouraging him to lay down with him, and then he was shoving his nose back into Eddie’s neck and inhaling his scent again as he pressed against his side.
“I like your scent too,” Steve quietly murmured, lips brushing against Eddie’s suddenly very overly sensitive skin.
“So you said,” Eddie said, voice tight. “Bitter and soggy, I remember.”
Steve just laughed, lightly slapping a hand to Eddie’s chest, before he just left it there. His fingers idly began playing along the slight muscle definition Eddie had from moving heavy band equipment around every week, before lightly playing with the chain around his neck holding his pick.
“You smell good, alpha,” Steve murmured, and Eddie felt a spark go through him at Steve calling him that again when not in the babbling throes of passion.
Swallowing whatever was lodged in his throat, Eddie carefully wrapped his arm around Steve’s back until the omega was curled tighter against his side, legs tangling up slightly. “Yeah? Well you smell absolutely sinful, omega,” he gently teased, bringing his other hand to lightly settle over Steve’s on his chest.
“What do I smell like? No one’s ever really told me before. Just that I didn’t smell like the typical omega. Not sweet enough.”
“Trust me, sweetheart. You’re plenty sweet,” Eddie said with a small snort. He considered Steve’s words, however, tried to find an answer for him to make him happy.
“You’re sweet, but not like sugar. It’s…warm. There’s something acidic there, but not…bad. More…citrusy maybe? And something spiced, not spicy.” Eddie lightly huffed. “I don’t know how you can name off specific things like you did. I can’t tell what smells are for shit. You’re lucky I could differentiate anything at all.”
Steve’s laughter at that brought that lump back into Eddie’s throat. The omega pulled his head back though to noticeably roll his eyes. “Tell me you’ve never stepped foot into a kitchen without telling me you’ve never stepped foot into a kitchen.”
“Hey!” Eddie protested, trying not to laugh at Steve’s snark that he was finding far more endearing than bitchy. “I can make a mean pot of Chef Boyardee, thank you very much.”
“I stand corrected,” Steve said with a small snort of his own. He shook his head before settling it back against Eddie’s shoulder.
“It’s my parents, honestly. Dad agreed to let me stay in sports after I presented as long as I took up ‘proper omega pastimes’ as well,” he said mockingly, and Eddie could hear the air quotes though Steve’s fingers stayed pressed against him.
“So I had to give up shop class for home economics, and had to start helping my mom with making meals and taking care of housework.” Steve let out a slight grumble. “Pretty sure he only agreed to letting me stay on the team because I was the captain, but with Hargrove gunning for the spot…”
Eddie frowned at that. It was obvious that Steve liked sports; even someone who avoided sports like the plague like Eddie did could see that much. The idea that Steve’s father would rip that away from his son just because of his secondary gender…it wasn’t fair.
“So you’re a good cook then, Stevie?” he asked, wanting to turn Steve away from more depressing thoughts.
Predictably, Steve brightened up again, burrowing closer against Eddie once more. “Yeah, I like to think so. Dustin and the others don’t really complain when I’ve cooked for them, and Joyce even complimented me on my ragù and asked for the recipe.”
Dustin again. Who the hell was this Dustin he kept hearing about? Another alpha? Then why didn’t Steve just go to Dustin for help?
“You’re starting to smell weird again,” Steve complained.
Forcing himself to let it go…mostly…Eddie tightly asked, “Who’s Dustin?”
Steve brightened even further, and it might have made Eddie’s smell even worse, if Steve’s next words didn’t immediately throw Eddie for a loop. “He’s one of my pups!” He laughed a little at that. “He hates it when I call him that, though. He’s a friend, one of these kids I…babysit sometimes.”
Steve “The Hair” Harrington was a babysitter??
“You babysit?” Eddie couldn’t help but ask, befuddled at this new development into just who exactly this boy in his arms was.
“Unofficially,” Steve said, and though he grumbled it, Eddie could feel the smile pressed into his shoulder. “I don’t get paid for it or anything. I just help watch this rabid pack of middle schoolers. They start high school in the fall and I don’t know if I’m happy or disappointed I won’t be with them when they do.”
Steve watched middle schoolers???
“You’d actually probably like them. Don’t you run that Dipshits and Dingbats game? They’re big fans of that. Well, most of them. El and Max don’t play.” Steve tensed slightly. “Max is actually Billy’s little sister,” he murmured quietly. “He’s an asshole to her too.”
Eddie’s mind was in a whirlwind with all this new information. Steve babysat. Steve babysat middle schoolers. At least one of these middle schoolers he considered an actual friend. This middle schooler friend introduced him to Star Wars. And, apparently, also played Dungeons and Dragons?? And Steve knew Eddie ran Hellfire???
Oh yeah, and one of Steve’s pseudo-pups was apparently Billy Hargrove’s little sister. Fantastic.
Lost in thought, Eddie unthinkingly brushed his lips over Steve’s forehead. “Baby boy, I feel like I don’t even know what is going on anymore,” he mumbled.
“Join the club,” Steve said with another snort. He tilted his head up to press a soft kiss to Eddie’s neck in return, causing Eddie to jolt slightly. Which then, in turn, caused Steve to flinch slightly and draw away.
“Sorry,” he mumbled, moving as though to pull himself out of Eddie’s arms, prompting Eddie to hurriedly reach out and grasp the other boy’s chin, pulling him back in for a soft, gentle kiss.
Steve tensed for a brief moment before fully relaxing against Eddie with a content, happy sigh against Eddie’s lips. When Eddie released him, he snuggled back in against Eddie’s neck.
Eddie realized, with a horrifying certainty, that he wanted to keep him. Forever.
Fuck.
“Who’s Joyce?” Eddie asked in what was only a slightly strangled tone, trying to distract himself and possibly Steve from the realization that Eddie couldn’t hide from anymore.
“Hmm?” Steve asked sleepily around a yawn. “Oh, that’s Will’s mom. Will’s and Jon’s.”
Wait. Jon? As in Jonathan Byers???
“You’re friends with Zombie Bo—OOF!” Eddie wheezed out from where Steve had solidly smacked his diaphragm with the side of his fist.
“Don’t call him that,” Steve said fiercely, practically a growl, suddenly much more awake as he sat up to glare at Eddie. “He’s a good kid and what he went through was traumatic. That’s a stupid nickname and I don’t want to hear you use it ever again, understood?”
Eddie stared in awe at the fierce omega before him, all righteous fury for one of his pups, and Eddie realized with even more certainty that he didn’t just want to keep Steve Harrington; he wanted to be kept by Steve Harrington too.
“I’m sorry,” he said sincerely. “I didn’t realize. I think it’s a pretty metal name, but I promise it won’t ever cross my lips again.
Steve narrowed his eyes at him, as though looking for deceit, before huffing and laying back down. He squirmed a little, still obviously aching from their activities, before settling once more. Eddie wrapped both arms around him until Steve was practically laying on top of him and pressed a kiss to his hair.
“I am sorry. I didn’t think. Sometimes I say things with no filter. Obviously it would be traumatic. I promise none of the boys will call him that either when he joins Hellfire.”
Steve shot his head up again at that, mouth slightly agape. “Really? You’d let him join? And the others?”
Eddie grinned. “Well, only if they want to. Anyone can be in Hellfire if they wanna be in Hellfire. Even you, sweetheart,” he gently teased, booping Steve lightly on the nose.
Steve scrunched up his nose before letting out a soft laugh. “I doubt I’d actually be welcomed there. Dustin would blow a gasket if I ever actually played though,” he said with a small wicked grin. “He’s been asking me for ages. Even tried to get Nancy to play again to entice me. She’s Mike’s sister.”
Wheeler? Nope. Not happening. Wait…Steve was friends with his ex’s brother and the brother of the guy his ex left him for????
“Stevie, baby, I just don’t know if I can take any more of your secret lore tonight,” he muttered, earning a confused look from the boy in his arms.
He sighed, shaking his head against the pillow slightly before drawing Steve into another soft kiss. Steve’s cheeks were pink when he pulled back. “Come to Hellfire during our next meeting. We’ll teach you how to play and then you can make this Dustin kid blow all the gaskets.”
A shy smile curled at Steve’s lips. “Yeah? You’re not just looking for an excuse to get into my pants again are you?” he teased.
Eddie, risking it all to be as brave as the omega in his arms, grinned back. “Do I need an excuse?”
Steve chewed his lower lip once more in obvious hesitation, a brief flash of vulnerability bringing uncertainty to his expression, before he dropped his gaze.
Eddie gave him time to process it all, however, gently rubbing a thumb over Steve’s shoulder, mindful of the hickeys he’d left scattered there. He wanted to lick them. Despite his own anxiety, he tried to pretend like his heart wasn’t racing a million miles a minute.
Finally, after what seemed like forever to Eddie’s poor rattled nerves, Steve glanced up again at Eddie through his lashes. “Is it just my pants you want in?” he asked quietly.
Eddie felt a surge of hope. “I would really like to meet your pups too. Get to know them. And…get to know you better. Whether or not you ever want to do this again, I’d still like to see you again after tonight. But I won’t deny that I really want a repeat performance,” he added with a gently teasing grin.
Steve lightly huffed, rolling his eyes as though that could hide how his face flamed a soft pink. “Knothead,” he mumbled.
“Only for you, sweetheart,” Eddie breathed, taking Steve’s hand in his again to lift to his lips where he brushed a kiss against Steve’s palm. He then trailed his lips down to Steve’s wrist, nuzzling at the smaller scent gland there, causing Steve to suck in a soft breath. “Didn’t I tell you earlier I was going to make you mine? Ruin you for all other alphas?”
Something almost fragile flit across Steve’s expression at that, and Eddie realized this wasn’t biology. This wasn’t his secondary gender latching on to the biological imperative of claiming Steve now that they had coupled; this wasn’t his alpha trying to take Steve’s omega because that’s what nature dictated should happen.
No, this was merely Eddie wanting to make certain Steve never has to be that desperate, scared, or alone ever again because Steve didn’t deserve to be. Whether Steve was omega, beta, or even another alpha, Eddie knew that he’d be right back here, wanting Steve by his side.
Steve, who was so much more than Eddie had ever realized a person could be.
Steve, who was staring at him now like he had never seen him before, or like…he had never dared to hope how Eddie could be.
“Yeah, Munson?” Steve quietly asked. “Whatcha gonna do? Make an honest omega outta me after all?”
“Maybe I will, sweetness. Maybe I will,” Eddie smiled, because Steve’s sweet scent was there, full of tentative hope. “That is, if you can handle my bitter and soggy scent for more than one night,” he grinned.
Steve let out the most beautiful laugh Eddie had ever heard. “Oh, you are such an asshole,” he groaned, but then Steve was leaning in and answering Eddie’s question with a smiling kiss. Which was all good and all, but…
“I need your verbal confirmation, precious,” Eddie whispered against his lips, though he couldn’t stop his own lips from smiling either.
“Take me on a date first, alpha, and maybe you’ll get it,” Steve teased, and Eddie could only let out a small whoop of happiness, Steve answering it with his own laughter, as he wrapped his arms around Steve and rolled them over in bed, kissing Steve deeply where he pressed him into the mattress.
And no, things weren’t miraculously perfect. He knew they would need to worry about Steve’s parents, and he’d have to explain to Wayne why Steve would probably have to move in with them for a bit if things soured with the Harringtons, and they were technically still in school and Eddie was probably going to have to repeat senior year again, but…
In the morning, Eddie would find the perfect first courting gift. They might have rushed into the start of things, but they could take their time now. They would get to know each other properly, would take the time to test this thing between them, because there was a thing between them after all. A real thing.
A thing that Steve wanted just as much as he did, judging by his enthusiastic, smiling, laughing kissing.
“My alpha,” Steve breathed so prettily once they parted, rolling to curl against each other after Eddie reached over to turn off the light, nuzzling under Eddie’s chin to settle in for the night.
“My omega,” Eddie whispered back, pressing another gentle kiss to Steve’s hair as he held him, safe and protected.
Eddie fell asleep to Steve’s purring, his own chest rumbling with happy adoration and contentment.
By the time the sun rose on a new day full of promise, the storm had broken.
fin
Author commentary:
And it’s complete! But the story isn’t over yet 😉
Short and hopefully sweet, there isn’t too much commentary left here that won’t be answered in the upcoming companion piece featuring Steve’s POV and the morning after.
That being said, I did want to discuss scents again. I’ve mentioned before that Eddie isn’t really able to get specific scents because he’s not familiar with them, like most people. Steve, however, is able to get more specific with his scent recognization because he’s familiar with the components.
Steve’s parents are traditionalists, as previously stated. Especially his alpha father. He would definitely force an omega child into a “traditional omega role” which is basically the role women have been expected to be in for years in our reality. General misogyny still exists in this omegaverse as well, even against alpha women, but there’s more leeway for secondary genders.
Due to this, Steve is familiar with cooking and baking and thus familiar with the scents of food items and ingredients. It’s why he can tell that Eddie smells of molasses and dark chocolate, because I wanted Eddie to smell a little sweet while also being something earthy and rich.
And then I love the smell of petrichor (thank you Doctor Who for informing so many what it is called) and generally the smell of rain in the air, and wanted to give Eddie that scent as well. Something similar to Steve, but heavier.
While Steve doesn’t smell as sweet as other omegas, Eddie also smells sweeter than other alphas. Their differences are thus what connects them in similarity. The same by being different. I just thought that that would be a little poetic, a little wink wink nudge to show that these two belong together.
Now, these two have realized that they want more than just this single night together, both realizing that they like the other more than they initially intended to, though it won’t be entirely smooth sailing from here on out. They have Steve’s parents to deal with, of course, but also their own insecurities.
I’m not certain how short or long the next part will be, or even when it will come out, but I am currently working on it, so….we’ll just have to wait and see, won’t we?
Thank you everyone who has read and enjoyed this little story with me, and I hope to see you again!
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🐏Counting Sleep
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big, white, heavy eyes
beaming straight into my skull
my ribs start to burn
gasping awake as if empty, a heartbeat rages in his ribs. it’s dark. everything’s so dark.
hands fumble for the bedside lamp while eyes dash about the darkness. any shape perceived as a threat. light bursts from the lamp to reveal a pile of laundry and a coat on the door hook. the relief is overwhelming.
todd wheezes, leaning back before falling to the pillow. a hand at his forehead with the other at his chest. he’s calming down now. breathing proper again. eyes daring to close.
those big, white, and heavy eyes flick into existence behind his eyelids. shivering breaths and tremors overtake his entire figure. the nightmare lingered prominent in his mind, overbearing and overwhelming. any attempt to close his eyes or block it out was met with those masked eyes.
it wasn’t a part of soul now. but that thing—that thing still haunted him. it hurt so much. why did it still hurt so much??
panic and anxiety coursed through his pulse. he hugged himself tight in the sheets. but repressing the visage with pressure was no use. the thick blanket now encompassing him blocked out the lamp’s light. tears crawled into and out of his eyes as air became sparse under the blanket.
he couldn’t do this by himself.
todd unveiled himself to the world, gaze tearing across the dark corners of his room. simon’s desk was bare and tidy, and the night stood silent except for his panic. todd took a deep breath and thought. moments passed. enveloped in twisting anxiety while trying to calm it. although paying attention to it felt worse. he couldn’t help bringing his knees close to him as his entire body shivered. systems shellshocked. the fabric of his drapey pjs promised comfort: the blue with leopard spots felt mangled but fluffy. todd’s eyes lit up when resolve strummed his core. conclusion. a big inhale got him moving again: a decision to go made in the moment.
the floor was cold under thick socks. neat and sturdy. beamed with smooth wood. panic screamed doubt under every movement. painfully holding him back. yet he got up.
todd made it to the door alive. gripping the steel reflecting his lamp’s light with sweaty palms. turning it flung open to reveal a dark hallway. a lump of fear nearly blocked his throat. yet he pushed on. tunnel visioned and unsure of his every step. this could be his grave. the strumming resolve dimmed inside him, and the next step faltered.
down the hall. to the left. former study. dove’s room.
each further stride could only be taken with the thought of the pale purple walls. the blankets of fluff dove encased themself in. how they held his hand while todd told them all a story. wetness pierced his vision again but he steadied himself with a breath.
everything lasted forever in the darkness pressing in on his body. suffocating beyond end. he functionally stumbled to the door, croaking it open with swiftness. the creak made him flinch.
a gasp resounded in further darkness revealed by the door. a scared and tired sound. then silence. forced silence made when the hunted percieves a threat.
/d-don’t worry. it’s me, w-whole. todd. hi. i-…sorry. c-can i…?/
dove sighed thankfully, shifting in their bed before patting a spot in the darkness. had they already been awake? todd picked his way across the room, begging his eyes to adjust faster. shapes glared from every corner. yet he remained pulled toward the bed. something sharp met his knee and he gasped through his teeth. dove held out a hand and todd took it. he let it guide him to the bed. sighing with a quiver, he shook and massaged his aching knee. dove reached for it but todd flinched aback. they reflected the flinch, headwings subtly puffing. startled. confused. frightened?
/i-i….i…..i’m sorry. i th-think it was the…tablesomething./
todd sighed, frazzled. he let dove feel his knee.
/no blood. i-i just…i had a nightmare. i…/
the lump in his throat choked him up at last. rivers bled from his face like hungry snakes.
dove shifted, then held him.
moment after moment. precious seconds of comfort.
reassurance gathered as they rocked from side to side.
massaging and warming. releasing tension.
finding relief in the finality of peace.
hearing dove breathe comforted him. he settled and sighed. sleepy.
it was too dark to sign anything, and words couldn’t escape todd’s throat without bringing on tears. so no one spoke. it stayed silent, peaceful, calm, and serene.
dove pulled back from the backrub, gently smiling while wiping a tear away from todd’s face. dove then scooted and patted the bed beside them, offering todd to stay and perhaps (platonically) snuggle. a shiver snuck up todd’s spine in the cold darkness, and he succumbed to the idea of comfort.
todd lay weakly, and dove tucked him in. pulling a blanket from the basket and using their fingertips to tuck it under todd’s sides. effectivley burritoing him. dove rummaged around for a loose sleeping eyemask, and handed it to todd. he took it and sighed, looking at it with adjusted eyes. it was soft and sheep-like, with a closed-eyes decal and sheep ears on the front. brought him a smile as he put it on.
the world fuzzed out. not seeing felt so…peaceful. something stepped off of his chest and shoulders as comforting darkness slid over his eyes. no more veiny red. no more piercing masked eyes. it was so soft.
todd found dove’s hand when they’d settled in, wings and hair drooping across the pillows. heartbeats steady and tired. exhausted by the fuss panic and confusion brought. a throat burning with the aftermath of agony, another ineffective but speaking soundlessly. two hands within the other’s grasp. physically separate, but unified with comfort. dove shuffled into sleep. todd pensively pondered the cause for this twilight anxiety.
the nightmare withdrew from todd’s head. overfilled to the point of waking him up. that…thing. that entity of perfect existence still haunted him. that idealism. that torment. that want to never worry about his health again. it was reasonable, really. a manifestation of struggle and self-loathing. a hate bent to unstitch his sinew. tear him open. todd understood where it came from: a cavity in his body that held onto the past, and the sights that came with it. the stuckness and fear. the mistrust and toxicity.
that wasn’t who leo was anymore. leo had been burdened by the anxiety that todd manifested within him. gave to him. projected. todd had separated himself from his feelings so wholly that it grew beyond his control. becoming something and someone else entirely. yet when the universe of emotions in his head tested him, he perservered. he recovered. he was better now—they all were. he understood himself. challenges like that can be overcome. and if he could jump that strange, near-supernatural horror hurdle, then who knows what he couldn’t do.
todd finally fell asleep tucked in by dove and weakly grasping their hand. calmly counting breath like sheep.
#puttingpen2paper#heck yeah trauma!!!!!!#and character development!#i frea.king love. this silly au story thing. oh my gawd.#this was written more recently!#because they have chosen names now#i love them so much wraaughhhh#thanks for reading :]#chonny jash#cj whole#whole cj#chonny jash whole#whole chonny jash#chonny whole#cj heart#heart cj#chonny jash heart#heart chonny jash#chonny heart#cj hms#writers on tumblr#original writing#fanfic#short story#cccc au#cj au#chonny jash au#cccclinic#cccclinic whole#cccclinic heart
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my best friend ships janceddie (nancy, eddie and jonathan) so i doodled some as a gift for them. happy early birthday u lil shit :))<33
#jancy#edancy#nanceddie#janceddie#eddie munson#nancy wheeler#jonathan byers#<— these the tags they told me to post under#bi4bi4bi#hope u enjoy zeno u crack head#my art#stranger things#stranger things art#SHIT I FORGOT MY WATERMARK
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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(continuation of previous ask) I looked at their blog just now and they actually might be a bot? idk tbh
Thanks to everyone who’s brought this to my attention!
I’m pretty certain @/jyedthrry6 is a bot, they were uploading commonly reposted text posts, until somehow stumbling into lifting from my account. I think the give away to em being a bot is how they’ve reposted not just my comics, but my patreon announcement images, and images I shared on ask replies, so the same cropped images just on its own
My suggestion is just to report them for spam, cause I think it is a legit spam bot who accidentally got wind of my work 🙏🏾
#ask reply#such a weird thing to happen! thanks to everyone who told me#I've blocked em so that might cut off the reposting idk#definitely just report em for spam#and know I only have my one tumblr account#don’t engage with this user just report and go#I don't mind reeposters who credit me btw but I'm certain this is just a bot BAHA#I think the only reason it's putting my tags under the post because it's copying my posts format#again super strange this happened but thanks again for telling me!
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shaved him
#fixed his hairline too bc its been 2 YEARS and it still haunts me that legends didnt get the memo he was in his mid-to-late 20s#now to gaslight myself into believing thats what he looks like under the mask next time i rewatch botr#like i told the gang this is such a 2022 post from me#tagging later#mortal kombat#sub zero#💙❄️💙
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For anyone else who may need to hear this today:
You will find people in your life who exactly what you can give is enough
You are allowed to set boundaries, you are allowed to not give everything
Looking after yourself means you can give more in the long run
You are enough
#putting the rant in the tags in case people find it comforting to relate#and also ahh#but without ruining the post#turns out my ex told one of my friends “im so glad you can give me that they couldnt”#were pretty sure that he meant emotional support#i put myself under stress to support him and it still wasnt enough#i did things that i was chill with doing but didnt care for and didnt have the energy/capabilities to pretend to enjoy#but it wasnt enough#two days after this he messaged to be like oh hey i miss us and i miss us being close#fuck you dude#im not mourning us youre alone in that#i dont even hate him and i know that he didnt mean bad from it#but man it got me thinking#dodged a fucking bullet#this is vaguely ace rather than aro themed#i am still both but my aceness is coming out in this post#sorry aros#ace#asexual#tried to make it vague so it fitted both though cause i feel like both groups can relate tm
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People Who Understand Without Words.
Type: Skit. Character: Stahn (First Skit). Characters Featured: Stahn, Yuri, Repede.
Translation, recording, subbing by Shi. Proofread by Yewfelle.
#Tales of the Rays#Stahn Aileron#Yuri Lowell#Repede (Vesperia)#Tales of Destiny#Tales of Vesperia#Type: Skit#Tales of the Rays Translations#Translation notes: The line where Yuri speaks about people not understanding each other is possibly#meant to be spoken under his breath or like a mumble (the font size in the coding is usually set at a default#but there's a font size change indicated in the coding and with the context leads me to believe#this was meant to be more of a mumble... but even in the original JP text the font size change didn't work.#Could be a typo or broken coding/coding that didn't work since usually font sizes do shrink as coded)#Additionally Chelsea in Stahn's story here refers to the tree as ''tree-san'' which I went back and forth on including#but settled on Mister Tree instead since I'd rather save JP honorifics for usage that's really difficult or impossible to avoid#(such as instances that have direct and immediate conversation about them or play a deep role in the relationship/interaction).#Last part of the skit I wasn't quite sure how else to word it in a compact way the way Yuri's saying it#without spelling it out which Yuri purposely doesn't do (basically he's calling Stahn pure bc he's realized Stahn's the type of guy to just#immediately believe any story he's told (even if it's outlandish). he's saying Stahn is honest/pure/too kind for his own good.#The bare sentence is just “that you're pure” so I had to mess around a tiny bit with wording structure to get it across and not have it be#bland/flat/awkward sounding.#I have another tl note that won't fit in the tags so it will have its own post!
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#this one's like a fucking mystery. who's that pokémon?? what pokémon is this?? you can't fucking tell unless you open the cut or read below#where i tag what pokémon it is. i think i'm gonna put this one's tags above the actual name of the pokémon just to throw y'all for a loop#because this one? i don't even KNOW what counts as front-facing. i'm ASSUMING it's the top one?? but the prey eyes are just#unbelievable so i included that one under the cut. i don't even know if i can consider that “prey eyes” at this point. what is this thing??#what's the thing protruding?? a mouth?? it doesn't lend itself to making it look any more like a moon! it just— it just protrudes!!#i really just don't understand. what or why this pokémon is or exists. what type is it? pure psychic?#nnnNNAURP rock/psychic. can't believe i forgot about the rock typing considering the way that guy with the solrock in swsh#raid battles used it. whatever i think i've successfully revealed what pokémon this is by now#lunatone#and yes‚ i know now that zangoose walks on all fours in pmd. THANK YOU!!! FOR TELLING ME. EVERYONE ON TUMBLR#i got it when the first person told me. i looked them up. i saw them. with my eyes. i feel like i've talked about pmd enough in these tags#and in asks that i've answered that you all should know how much of a pmd fan i am by now but i guess it's GOOD TO CONFIRM#perhaps no one really does read these tags. unless they have an opportunity to correct me. lasered in on that#i'm not like mad i'm just like WOW everyone told me. that is SO many people telling me after the first one did and i know SO hard#anyway. i'm gonna go remove these tags from the dusclops post. pphhhheew
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Joachim Löw, former national coach of Germany, Hansi Flick, head coach of FC Barcelona, Andreas Köpke, former national goalkeeping coach, and Oliver Bierhoff, former DFB manager during the Farewell Game Of Lukas Podolski, 1.FC Köln on October 10, 2024 in Cologne, Germany.
#the GOAT under the goat showing up for the other GOAT#all fun and cosy until it really sinks in that this truly was Jogi's first time back since the fucking E*gland match. it's fine.#(btw my mom elaborated on her 'Jogi looked so goood!!' said it was bc he seemed so relaxed and at ease like she hadn't seen him in forever.#brb jumping)#Jogi Löw#Hansi Flick#Andreas Köpke#Oliver Bierhoff#do you. even need me to say anything at all or do y'all. know me well enough to write my tags yourself.#I think maybe I have one more Jogi centric post in me today or tomorrow. maybe I'll save my breakdown for that one. ANYWAY-#Jungens. Ab jetzt einmal pro Jahr immer so? Für mich?👉👈🥺#heart's a little heavier than before (I KNOW!! did not think it possible either) but mainly I am very happy#Hansi jetzt einfach dauerhaft mit der Sommerbräune die Jogi immer in jedem ersten Länderspiel nach der Sommerpause spazieren getragen hat😭#also can't decide what I love me the fact that there are fans who raised their very young kids to know who LP10 is or that there are fans#who told their children enough legends about Jogi that they're now asking for a selfie. Köln fans my club affiliation dictates that I am no#really allowed to vibe with you but actually you all got my heart🫶
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school kinda sucks, not even gonna lie
#its been one day#how am i gonna do this for 10 more months??#nothing bad even happened! and it still sucked!#and new uniform rules like oohoohoo that'll make the kids happier#no more sweatpants under my skirt?? have they forgotten we like in canada?? where its fucking freezing??#and we got a lecture in each class about “academic integrity”#and also my hair looked like shit even though it looked good when i woke up#and i have 2 classes with my arch nemesis (some kid i hate for literally no reason other than we compete for top student every year)#very frances and daniel of me#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#and my friend who i have a crush on moved schools without telling me (we're not that close)#and moved to my ex's school (they're friends)#but she's twins with my good friend who didn't switch schools so i'll see her again#but i wish she didn't leave#and she told some of my friends i think but i only found out cuz my ex told me (we're still friends)#and also my parents didn't let me go to a concerty thing tonight that i really wanted to go to because i have dance#but now i'm not even going to dance because i'm so fucking tired (i need my full 9 hours)(i got about 5 hours last night)#sorry about how many tags i put but i'm too worried to make an actual long post
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hello friends I'm gonna be using the tag "#detco spoilers" (minus the quotes) for. detective conan/case closed spoilers 👍
#khytal.ks#idk how often I'll use it bc I don't like posting spoiler-y stuff when I'm just starting to draw for a new series i'm into#but yea :]#I didn't know that expanding a post while looking thru a tag also opens whatever's under the cut#I've been posting things under cuts without a spoiler tag this whole time and nobody told me...... 😭
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it's wild having a friend from your small ass hometown who you didn't know when you lived there. like I expect to see my hometown in pictures from my friends I met there/who still live there, but getting a Snapchat from a friend you met three years ago that contains a road you're so extremely familiar with is wild when neither of you have lived there in 6+ years
#nuance in the tags for context of how small of a town it is#we didn't know each other at all when we lived there BUT we have several mutual friends irl#and we had definitely crossed paths before like he used to work at the only game stop in a 30 mile radius#i actually told my mom about meeting someone also from [insert small town name here] and showed her a picture of him and her response was:#“oh yeah I've seen him before he used to work at the game stop!!”#additional unrelated context for how small of a town it is:#one of my high school acquaintances bought the house i grew up in and found a note i left under the counter#when my parents remodelled the laundry room when i was like 14#and she sent me a fb friend request and a message with pictures of it#we follow each other on Instagram now and i sometimes see my childhood fireplace casually in the background of her posts#it's weird to not be expecting to see it bc sometimes i'll be scrolling and recognize it before i even realize why/that it's her post
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stares at my bio
#realistically. i do not post owl house anymore and haven’t really for months. and am unlikely to post about it again#but i feel weird taking it out!! i loved that show!! i still love it!! i’m just not fandombrained abt it anymore#like it’s not even on the backburner like tma or good omens is. dw is a long term interest. i’m actively into tlt#i think of toh as a show i love. just not in that way anymore ok this sounds like a breakup why am i being so dramatic#tbh i do not miss the fandom. kinda a cesspit of deranged takes and insane discourse. made me a main tags avoider#it felt like secondary school? everyone being weirdly mean and hiding it under a progressive skin and jokes?#lbr thats bc most ppl were teenagers. me included lol#but it was more good than bad. staying up late to watch the streams and getting excited over theories and all of it. i’ll miss that part#but the next time i say ‘hey this cartoon looks pretty cool’ i need someone to bodily tackle me to the ground and stop me. it’s not worth i#rip morgan’s animation era 2020-2023 i guess <3#nvm. i’ll just replace toh with homestuck! which is still kinda wild to me lol#like if you told the me of a year ago that i would be into homestuck more than toh rn i would not have believed you#morganposting
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Feeling thoughts abt the pics of the Red Bulls covered in confetti post-Brazil(2010 & 2012)
#okay fine im being a carf*cker#my bff shamed me when i told her these pics made me feel like carf*cker#i will not be shamed for speaking my truth!#but okay like in all of my tags under posts abt seb brazil podiums ive commented abt how i like the confetti#i just think all the pics from Brazil(especially 2010/2012) look sooooo good like so insanely pleasing bcs of it#so i was looking around at all the brazil pics on motorsport and gettyimages and-#ALL THE PICTURES OF THE RBR COVERED IN CONFETTI MADE ME SO FERAL AHSJSKSKS#idk why???? but when i look at these pics im just so 😩#ugh theyre just so pretty like w the confetti stuck in the tire degradation and on the bull and on the driver number#anyways im feeling like a carf*cker bcs of these pics in specific#brazil podiums my absolute beloved but i think i should only post these car pics bcs otherwise id make like a 30 pic post hahaha#rb6-rb9 are sexy does anything else really need to be said?#f1#formula 1#red bull racing#rb6#rb8#we do a little bit of f1#catie.rambling.txt
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