#// branzy memories

[freakinator]

has clown ever betrayed zam?? cause i dont recall a time thats happened theyve always been either teammates/allies or straight up enemies from what i know

[kashswag]

… sighs …

i hate this source sm /lhj

[lifesteal-headcanons]

clownpierce in almost every SMP has the same memories, not even in chronoligal order. he just.... remembers.

It was so hard to ignore the pains in his arms, the burns on his legs, the feel of a desert sun beating on him and hearing the lava bubbling below, hear the chains rattling, whenever he saw Branzy. Why did Branzy remind him of the old man...?

Sometimes he forgets he's not magic, that it's only Realms!Clown that has magic. The most he can do here is enchants and potions, no full-blown spells. He hates it.

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[unstableverse-headcanons]

Parrot suffers from memory issues but it's so subtle no one ever brings it up. There have been several times when he's come face to face with someone who he's met before (90% of the time it's a LifeSteal SMP player) and he acts as if he's. Literally never met them before. And very often when this happens the reactions range from “Okay well that's rude fuck you” (Spoke, ClownPierce, etc) and “??? That's an odd way to word our meeting. Huh.” (Jumper, Derapchu, etc) and then you have the golden middle where you can never tell whether the reaction is going to be just a calling him out on it (has actually only happened once, and it was done by Branzy, who ALSO lowk has memory issues so the two of them just forgor about the interaction altogether), matching his vibes (Mapicc) and matching his vibes but with confusion (Rek).

Whereas Branzy's memory issues are a more-so watcher side-effect, Parrot's are a side effect from interactions with the director. While it is much more likely for an admin/ex-admin to develop memory issues due to the sheer amount of stress that happens, especially on semi-anarchy and anarchy servers, Parrot's is just. Entirely a side effect of the director messing with his code. And no one's even aware of it.(cough cough the memory issues also might be lowk tied to some mind control shenanigans but I think that's a hc for another time)

- psa can I be 🌺 anon? I don't recall ever seeing a 🌺 anon tag but if it's taken in fine with any flower tag lol

MEMORY LOSS!!!!!!

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[manyminded]

Thinking about your idea of Clown and Seawatt meeting again in a random location, bc in the end Clown just moved on. He may or not still be disturbed about what happened on parkciv (like his family and friends are dead), but in the end, being banned¿¿¿¿¿¿ ended in him meeting a lot of new faces and friends, and whatever he is with Branzy, with equal or even worse bloodlust than him.

Meanwhile Seawatt can't, he just can't stop thinking about the whole ordeal. He just can't move on, even he has new friends now. Him in particular would securely lash out not only to Clown, but also Branzy, and I think that is when shit gets real, bc Clown would inmediately jump back.

see this guy gets it.

Clown HAS moved on. it was an awful place for him - all of his memories are of him tied up over a pit of lava. He is definitely still deeply affected by it, and it shaped his world view tremendously - but he doesn’t dwell. What’s done is done.

Seawatt, on the other hand? He desperately clings to it. What little bits of culture and life, especially from the fighter level, he can keep? He holds onto with the tightest fervor known to man.

When they meet, Sea immediately draws his sword and aims it at Clown’s neck.

Clown only smiles. He is so nonchalant, voice quietly pleasant. He points out little facts. He does not fight Sea. He does not wish to. It would be much too easy, and much less entertaining. He does not care that he is being threatened. Because he knows he would win.

He’s the deadliest player for a reason, after all.

[casinoquartet]

YIPPEE! k!swagzy win! ^_^

what about ls!swagzy though,, giggles twirls my hair -atp just call me ka anon /silly

okay so like. i happened to already do some heavy lifting on my swagpierce post already so i'm just going to ss a part of it here so i don't have to retype it again

anyways. okay what the fuck was this. and the whole. branzy telling ash his name when he came back thing. there is already some homosexual energy into having another man reveal your old idenity to you but the fact branzy does it so fondly too???? like. okay bro. you were crushing on him in the workplace . we get it

ALSO THE FACT WHEN ASH GOT HOME. BRANZY WAS THE FIRST ONE TO GREET HIM. OKAY BUDDY. OKAY. THE "HOME IS WHERE YOU ARE" TROPE IS LITERALLY RIGHT THERE. OKAY

also. My God. when ash sees the guy in branzy's uniform and LITERALLY has a panic attack and says "why is this just like home...?" in the most broken voice ever??? oh my god??? AND calling clown fucked up too........good lord

i am genuinely SO SHOCKED how they're not more popular. like. oh my god. even though ash lost his memories. he still remembers branzy. and it's like, semi implied he also sees branzy as home. and when he comes back the fact branzy was the first one to greet him. God. God. Yeah. Oh My God. the narrative parallels. what if i exploded

[enlighten3d]

guys im going so insane rn why are they letting me think abt both rau and poetry at once oh my gods

I NEED TO EXPLAIN RAU TO TUMBLR. PARROT KILLS WIFIES BY ACCIDENT BCS HE THOUGHT THAT HE WAS THE CLONE AND THEN THE CLONE (lastfies) REPLACES WIFIES AND PARROT DENIALS/GASLIGHTS HIMSELF INTO THINKING THAT WIFIES NEVER DIED AND THEN HE HAS TO UNLEARN THAT AND LASTFIES IS FUCKED UP AND KILLS PEOPLE INCLUDING KEN BCS KEN DOES NOT LIKE THE SITUATION AND PARROT BLAMES HIMSELF FOR EVERYTHING AND O H M Y G O D S

theres. so much symbolism and cool shit and aaaaaaaaaaaa i love this au deeply. im not normal abt it. i love lastfies. hes fucked up (bcs this is based off The Post and hes the last living clone). and theres the thing of it being a tradition to the clones to rip off the part of the headband that says that clones number when you kill them so when lastfies kills ken (bcs ken and parrot were arguing abt the whole wiifes is dead thing (ken didnt know), parrot was getitng upset and lastfies does anth for parrot bcs parrot saved him and he respects parrot (aka completely misunderstands his grief as approval), lastfies gives parrot kens earring. so. whats another guy dead. he doesnt know ken.

and parrot cant even look at the moon or the stars anymore bcs wifies liked the stars and lastfies doesnt. and when he finally makes a grave for wifies he talks to the stars and imagines him (and ken) as one of the stars looking down at him. and the graves are in the place where parrot buried wifies headband, and the place where he leaves flowers upon flowers, two yellow carnations (one for each of them), and endless apologies, and he gives ken the explanations that she never got but ken doesnt hear them because shes dead.

and wato saw wifies die, saw parrot leave with the wrong wifies, but maybe it was a dream, maybe it was their memory being fucked up after the mask. they stop putting in the personal touches in the escape room, make them a bit easier. the new wifies never was as good at escape rooms. the point isnt to trap lastfies and parrot in them forever. and he cant even grieve because hes not going to fucking talk to parrot, and kens still stuck in proton (HES DEAD KEN IS DEAD HE DIED AT THE END OF PROTON BUT PARROT TELLS NO ONE AND EVERYONE THINKS THST HES ALIVE, JUST TRAPPED IN PROTON FOREVER), so she waits for ken yo show back up so they can figure it out, but ken never shows up.

and the memory of who wifies is is as fucked up as ever. evilfies was wifies, clonefies was wifies, and now its lastfies. clonefies (our wifies) never got an identity of his own, he was always just wifies, no one ever knew that he was separate from Before Wifies (evilfies), and no one now knows that lastfies is a different wifies too. and parrot accidentally killed the memory of clonefies too, not just because he literally killed him but because he never talks about him.

and lastfies thinks that parrot is proud of him, that hes doing the right thing, bcs lastfies has never known anything other than violence and betrayal and tearing off a part of who ones victim was as a keepsake, as a tradition, as maybe a higher chance his number will get called. and parrot is strong in his eyes, parrot just killed yet another wifies, parrot is proud of him because he wears the victories (he keeps that bloodied spyglass on his belt and ties that earring onto a piece of string tucked amongst his feathers and he never lets them go) that lastfies gave him. all of lastfies victories (branzy, thing 1 and thing 2 (kier and dev) (yes those three are dead), and ken) are now parrots bcs hes given them all to parrot. parrot has everything of lastfies thst has ever mattered and lastfies doesnt mind because parrot is his everything and his only friend and ally and as things have always gone that means thet psrrot will kill him eventually and lastfies will accept that when the day comes because hes only ever known betrayal.

fuck im not okay this au is all that i have been thinking for the past three days. fuck. @milo-the-mage thank you for coming up with this idea but also fuck you /pos

gods. sorry this is so incoherent but PLEASEEEEE ASK QUESTIONS IF YOU HAVE THEM, THERES SOOO MUCH I COULD EXPLAINNNNNNN

fuck

[clownp1ercer]

THIS POST WAS MADE BY A RQ-NEUTRAL (not a radqueer but I’m not gonna attack you) ALTER. RESPECT MY VIEWS AND OPINIONS.

[Minute . she/he]

My apologies for the yapfest, tldr will be at the bottom.

Making a post now because our stalker found our account. We have been getting repeatedly stalked and harassed since October-ish when we first left this person.

This account is abandoned point blank. None of us use this account anymore because it is not healthy for us to constantly feed an irl delusion that makes us hostile when our boundaries are broken (aka doubles interacting), among other things.

We still lurk around from time to time, but honestly like. The only reason we stuck around was for the community and friends we had made along the way.

Honestly being in this community on tumblr was. Not the best experience?? We’ve grown a lot as a person, February 2nd-ish will be our one year being in this community. We joined when we were freshly 17, originally as a joke with our irls (radqueer-vox, some radqueer tubbo account and some radqueer billzo account) [yes we were radqueer-dnf or whatever it was] but we quickly realized to us it was not a joke and some of us genuinely identified with transIDs. We also realized very quickly the attractions we had felt since we were 6 were para related and a direct result of the brainwashing and manipulation of our programmer. It felt really good to be in a community that understood, however, that left us very vulnerable and open. We let our radqueer life seep in with our irl life and it ruined friendships and relationships. Closeting ourselves is the best way for us to be right now. Every transID we have we do not plan on transitioning to. Every “transID” we “had” anyways was a feature that someone had in headspace that did not come to the body when they fronted. Examples like trans-scene style, or trans-black blood, or source related IDs. It’s easier to stomach claiming to be “transharmful” than admitting point blank that you’re still harmful from your source memories.

We were also groomed a few times in the community. Albeit we were looking for it, asking for said relationships when we knew deep down we did not want them; but a sense of familiarity always felt so comforting to be constantly hurt like we were in all of those relationships. Our current relationship has nothing to do with this segment so please do not attack Branzy as he is a VERY lovely partner.

I’m& not leaving with a terrible taste in my mouth and I will hold my personal beliefs as will separate alters. Some of us might come back, but we don’t know for certain as most of us agreed that being on rq tumblr is not good for us. It’s hard to make this post. We are leaving close friends behind and even closer memories. But this is better for us in the long run, and I hope everyone understands.

No we won’t give you our discord or other socials to keep in contact. We are leaving this behind us.

TLDR:: we’re leaving radqueer tumblr.

[the-dreamy-horrors-symphony]

So uh hey our Branzy fictive has stockholm syndrome because of our Clownpierce fictive and having memories and exotrauma and stuff :D Just felt the need to post that! (He's denying it) -Emily🐬

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Last ask b4 i sleep but do you know of a list of whos on lifesteal ? Also do you know any previous groups/teams of people? I wanna know b4 i draw ¤]

I do indeed!!! Bear with me because this is gonna get a Bit long but the members list:

Ashswag

Baconnwaffles0

BranzyCraft

ClownPierce

ItzSubz_ (NOTE: left early this season)

Jepexx

JumperWho

Leow0ok

Mapicc

McClutch (NOTE: left this season after an argument with Zam)

Midmysticx

MinuteTech

MrCube6

Pangi

ParrotX2

Pentar

Planetlord

Poafa

PrinceZam

Reddoons

Rekrap (NOTE: left after season four)

Roshambogames

Spepticle

SpokeIsHere

Squiddo

TheTerrain

Vitalasy

Vort3xDragon

Wemmbu

Woogiex

Yeah_Jaron

4CVIT

Season four teams:

Team Awesome/Leviathan: Mapicc & Ro (primarily), Zam (formerly), Parrot, Vortex, Spoke (occasionally)

The No Pants People Party: Spoke (primarily), Parrot, Clown, Rek

Three Heart Trio: Bacon, Planet, Jaron (Zam for a short time - they called themselves solar union when he was there)

Eclipse Federation: Vitalasy, Subz (and Zam, for a time)

The Shades: Redd, Pangi, Woogie, Mid, Vortex

Authorized Personnel Only (APO): Leowook (founder), Pangi, Woogie, Parrot, Subz, Zam, Bacon, Planet (members)

Wormhole Project (secret team): Spoke, Subz, Vitalasy, Ash (brought on Clown, Zam, and Mapicc to fight for them bear the end)

And then I’m slightly less sure about season five but:

Gucci Gang: Mapicc, Bacon, Parrot, Pentar

Lala Legion: Spoke, Planet, Ro, Ash, Squiddo (?)

Camelot: Jumper, Redd, Woogie, Subz (before leaving)

Kids in the Corner: Branzy, Mid, Jaron, 4c, Cube

Privatized Murder Corporation (PMC): Clown, Leo, Minute

Pirate Empire: Pangi, Zam

I also know a handful of teams from other seasons (primarily s3) but because I wasn’t in the fandom during that time my memory is a whole lot spottier around them 😔 if you’re looking that far back the wiki might be better than my memory

[fictionkinfessions]

im just trying to watch branzys “i committed 100 real crimes in minecraft” WHY AM I GETTING KIN MEMORIES AND THOUGHTS WHAT THE HELLL!!! my idiot c!tommy brain keeps going “wait how are these people laughing at the idea of starting a war between groups, how are they just joking about killing each other? if i did that dream wouldve killed me and taken away everything i cared about!” oh i dont know maybe because its just some friends playing a video game?? IDK! my brains going haywire rn, especially at the fact that theyre making a drug lab and its making me remember the drug van so IDK crazy things going on in my brain rn

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[freakinator]

so funny to me that in the season that's all about ✨the power of friendship✨ it's the traitors who won in the final battle -- though considering that the two (three actually but branzy isnt a PlayerTM) of them betrayed newer teammates for their older ones does it actually prove it even more

[brainpal-gachapon]

can we get a branzy fictive from lifesteal? obsessive love theme, transharmed, transocd, anything else is up to you!!

Name(s): Branzy, Breeze, Amor, Vurity, Lokill, Adorax, Zayed, Ozzy, Kizzy, Joey

Prns: he/they, love/loves

Gender(s): transmasc, oldgender, Fakeboy, Loverboylexic, Obsessilovic, Deadlovegender, Lovegoric, Yanderecoric, Endergender, Lovunivasic

Species: human

TransID(s): transocd, transdarling, transstalker + stalked, transpanpara, transOLD, typingquirkfluid, transLover’sShiftingDisorder, Transhanahaki, transLOPD, transPLPS, transvictim, transcyberstalked, transmurdered, transpoisoned

MUDs: UNHEALTHY RELATION VICTIM DISORDER, Love-Induced Hallucination Syndrome (LIHS), Future memory recall disorder (FMRD), Acute Attach-love Disorder with Splitting

Age: chrono28, mirrorage,

Source(s): BranzyCraft from Lifesteal

[lifesteal-headcanons]

Hello, new headcannoner here. Anyway-

I like to think the reason Clown and Branzy are Ashswag's parents is because he was created in a lab (KSMP) as one of Branzy's inventions, he's not fully human and is a glitch because of that.

Their memories were earased once they joined Lifesteal (hence Clown's kindness towards Branzy is different), so they kind of feel like their connected somehow but still has some hate for them (Lifesteal instincts).

-Anon Moon (if that's not taken)

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[silencer-lemonade]

I AM BACK. Hsr ls au anon is back again with another post. I have so many questions. From your first post, you mention that Parrot was a galaxy ranger with nothing to his name. Now in your second post, he had a run in with the IPC at one point?? So, WHAT HAPPENED?? Do Parrot and Clown know each other since you drew them next to each other saying, "Pre IPC." As well, they have matching scars?? Now with the stellaron hunters. How does their dynamic work? Between Jumper, Minute and Branzy, what's the co-worker relationship between them? Is Minute even a stellaron hunter? He is listed as one, yet also questioned to be a memokeeper and a cremator. The cremators.. Oh, the cremators. Leo thinks the memokeepers are lunatics, why?? Did something happen? Another thing, Ash connection to the cremators? And Spoke connection to the memokeepers? Why do they have connections to them of all groups? Does Ash resent Spoke for being blessed? Also, does other the existing hsr characters exist in your au? Ohhh if so I have so many questions. AUGHHH so much questions, so much whys and how! I will be watching in the shadows for whenever you drop. As for my take on the hsr ls au, that will be coming in a different post sometime soon. Overall, have a nice day.

For Parrot, he calls himself a self-proclaimed "Galaxy Ranger" but it could be farther from the truth. He only took up that title after his planet, Babylon-III, was overrun by the IPC; Parrot refuses to go back to his home planet, and he has no faction to turn to. He essentially walks through the stars (at least, for now until he arrives at Icarro)

Parrot and Clown have no real connection (at least until Icarro) but both are slight parallels to each other– both had their planets overrun by the IPC, but where one created a faction, the other had nowhere else to go.

Between the Stellaron Hunters, it's still as Canon as the HSR world– they are all co-workers, but they have their moments. Jumper mostly communicates through holograms or tiny cybernetics she has made during meetings (Mostly cause she doesn't enjoy going out and due to her condition).

As for Minute, he IS a Stellaron Hunter, however it's very rocky. He's only a part of them for his own gain– if someone were to ask of he thought of them, he would boldly call them "Bloodthirsty Maniacs" with no hesitation (as for the list, it's mostly because I was still trying to figure out what to make him sjdvjs)

Leo's connection to the Memokeepers is not so close. As a Cremator, he finds the joy of getting rid of Memory Bubbles, useless or not. It's why Memokeepers stray from him (not that he cares; all the greater they do anyways). TL:DR – Leo just has some bold takes on the Memokeepers.

Ash has some connections to the Crematora due to Red, a Cremator alongside Leo (the two don't necessarily get along). As Ash is a member of Device IX and many not knowing what this faction is, Red is someone who is dead-certain on figuring out what Device IX is (think like Acheron and Black Swan levels of mystery).

Spoke has connections to the Memokeepers due to Planet, a Memokeeper (who also happened to be the reason why Red started looking into Device IX). The main difference between this Duo and Swagdoons is that Planet knows EXACTLY what Spoke is and his affiliations with Device IX. In honesty, he likes to witness what the faction is up to, and isn't afraid of the Aeon responsible for the faction.

While Ash holds no resentment of Spoke being blessed, he sure as hell doesn't think Spoke understands the power he has (which he IS kind of right, especially once I fully write out Icarro's planet)

And yeah, other creators outside of Lifesteal also exist in the HSR AU; a few examples rn are Content SMP and No Name SMP

((Hyped to see your version of LS HSR :D ))

[pyrriax]

i love trying to write while not having my contacts . i cannot see. i am typing basically based off memory alone. however: progress?? i am writing down like. what tech each character uses / has because it Does affect the story pretty drastically.

but also i think suggestions for some of them might come in handy,,,,

i already know what it's gonna be for clown, branzy, quiff (yes he's part of this fic. friend or foe s2 brainrot is REAL), ash, and zam. but like. otherwise i have no ideas.... the plague.

i might just come up with it on the fly since i already have a standard established but who knows