#your potential has nothing to do with feeling your youth and how little you know

[uncanny-tranny]

It's actually kind of heartbreaking how many people feel their life has ended right after high school or college, and honestly, the heavy romanticization of that period of time is so overwhelmingly predominant that it can be hard to avoid. It's insidious to constantly be told that ages 10-24 are the only worthwhile parts of life, that everything after is essentially meaningless and dull.

It's hard not to look around you and think that your life still is open and full of potential when you're told over and over again that the rose-tinted childhood is the last time you were alive. It's hard to realize that your life isn't over when you walk off the stage of your graduation.

We must realize that we will always be full of potentials. Your life won't be over until you take your final breath, and then? That's simply another chapter in your story, one of many. Let yourself realize that you're alive in the here and now. There will be good and bad, but never a complete loss of potential or hope.

[kthologue]

if i can't have you— gojo satoru

contents. fluff, clanhead!gojo, yandere tendencies, oblivious!reader, he’s a little sick in the head but reader's an enabler

notes. a little concept i thought of. not proofread sigh

clanhead!gojo, who you’ve known your entire life. born into two of the oldest jujutsu clans, you were raised side by side. you were the only constant in a world that demanded everything from him before he even had the chance to ask.

clanhead!gojo, who swears that you’re like a little sister. always an irritating and reckless thorn in his side, always throwing yourself into things without thinking. he says it like a joke, like a punchline, hoping the words will sound true if he repeats them enough.

but he knows it is not. not with the way clanhead!gojo has practically been obsessed with you since his youth. who has everyone falling at his feet. who abuses his power in order to keep you by his side, no matter the cost.

clanhead!gojo who remembers many years ago how he had persuaded you, with that devil-may-care grin, that it would be a brilliant idea to practice your first kiss together. “come on,” he’d said, “wouldn’t it be better to do it with someone you trust?”

clanhead!gojo, who feels invincible when you finally kiss him for the first time, as if everything in his life had led to this moment. in that instant, he knows that there’s no way he’s ever letting you slip away.

but now clanhead!gojo is stuck listening when your aunts gather in hushed tones over tea, whispering about your latest courtships, your hopeful suitors, the potential match your clan is eyeing. he pretends not to care. he tells himself he doesn’t. that he's gotten over you. that he's gotten over a silly childhood infatuation. and yet his jaw tenses. his eyes narrow. his hand curls into a fist beneath the table where no one can see.

he tells himself it’s just instinct. old habits. protective, brotherly concern. he’s always been like that with you, hasn’t he? watching your back. hovering too close. stepping in even when he shouldn’t.

but it’s not concern that keeps him up at night replaying the sound of your laughter, or the way your smile lingers like a bruise on his chest. it’s not brotherly to remember the curve of your shoulder when you walked ahead of him at the last clan gathering, unaware he was staring.

it’s not family that makes him hate the idea of you belonging to anyone but yourself. or worse—anyone but him.

and yet he says nothing.

but he listens. and he watches as the stranger sits beside you at a clan meeting. 

the room is filled with hushed chatter and the clinks of porcelain dishes. it’s a formal clan dinner, with every head of every allied family gathered around the table. gojo satoru sits at the head, uncharacteristically silent, fielding endless questions about the clan’s future.

but he’s not listening.

he can’t.

all because you had walked in with a man he doesn’t recognize, smiling and practically glowing, introducing him as a dear friend from a recent trip to kanazawa.

and satoru’s blood has been boiling ever since.

honestly, don’t you have shame?  bringing home a man you have yet to commit to—what are you trying to prove? 

he clenches his jaw and bites his tongue as elders speak around him, voices muffled beneath the sound of your laughter floating down the table. that bright kind of laughter he used to hear in private back when it was just the two of you skipping meetings and chasing dragonflies.

“sato?”

the nickname cuts through the room like a knife.

you’re smiling at him. that teasing, knowing smile that makes his chest cave in.

“what are you brooding over there for?” you ask, tilting your head just slightly. innocent. unbothered. as if you hadn’t just upended his entire sense of balance with your presence.

the sound of his name, that version of his name slips from your mouth like silk, soft and far too familiar for the way things are supposed to be now.

he stiffens, a flush crawling up his neck that he prays no one notices. he used to bristle at that nickname—sato—when you first gave it to him. but now? it’s the only name that makes his heart stutter.

 “i don’t think you’d be able to handle the thoughts in my head right now,” gojo says smoothly, his voice a little too soft to be casual.

it’s almost convincing, except even he can’t make sense of the storm in his chest.

you tilt your head, eyes glinting. “are you calling me dumb?”

gojo chuckles, the sound warm and real. it was the first genuine laugh that’s passed his lips all evening. “no, no. i’d never dare. i’ve seen you with a fan and a grudge. i fear for my life.”

you lean forward slightly, lips quirking. “smart man.”

he raises an eyebrow, playful. “i have my moments.”

“few and far between.”

he grins. “yet somehow i’m still your favorite.”

you roll your eyes, but the fondness in your gaze betrays you. “you’re delusional.”

“maybe.” he lets his eyes linger on you a beat too long. “but i’m not wrong.”

there’s a pause.

just long enough for your date, who’s been quiet through the exchange to glance between you two and clear his throat.

“i didn’t realize you two were so… close,” he says, the question barely hidden in the statement.

gojo doesn’t look away from you when he replies, voice lighter than air. “old friends. we go way back.”

you smile politely at your date, but there’s something wistful in your expression. “some habits are hard to break.”

and gojo swears he sees it—that flicker of doubt in the other man’s eyes.

good.

let him know you were never his to win.

that’s why when you storm into the compound three days later, hair slightly tousled and annoyance written all over your usually composed face, tossing your phone on the table with a dramatic sigh, clanhead!gojo can’t help it.

he feels elated.

he plays it cool, of course. reclines back on the tatami mat, long limbs stretched out, lips twitching at the corners.

“what’s got you in a mood?” he asks, already knowing the answer. already hoping.

you shoot him a look and groan. “he ghosted me. just disappeared.”

gojo raises an eyebrow, biting back a smile. it was a good thing that bastard made himself scarce before gojo had to intervene.

“how long has it been since the dinner, three whole days? should we send out a search party? put up flyers?”

you scowl. “i’m being vulnerable and you’re making jokes.”

he holds up his hands in mock surrender, but the grin sneaks in anyway. “sorry, sorry. it’s just... shocking. who wouldn’t want the pleasure of being haunted by you on a daily basis?”

you glare at him, but it’s softened by the way your lips threaten a smile. “don’t make me regret confiding in you.”

he shrugs, letting the silence settle for a moment. then, more quietly,  “maybe he realized he was in over his head.”

you look at him, surprised by the shift in tone. “what’s that supposed to mean?”

gojo meets your gaze, and for a second, there’s something else there.

“not everyone’s built to handle someone who actually matters,” he says, voice casual, but his fingers tap a restless rhythm on his knee.

you blink. “well. that was weirdly nice. are you feeling okay?”

he rolls his eyes. “i'm always this kind.”

but you’re still looking at him, eyebrows furrowed, like you’re trying to piece something together.

“i just...” you hesitate. “it’s starting to feel like maybe i’m not supposed to end up with anyone. like i scare people off.”

something flashes in gojo’s eyes, too fast to name.

“you don’t scare everyone,” he says quietly.

you don’t respond immediately, but your gaze holds his  like you're trying to decipher something he hasn’t said. gojo doesn’t break eye contact either, and it feels like you’re both trapped in a trance.

then, you scoff, breaking the silence.

“you don’t count,” you say, your voice light but filled with an edge.

he raises an eyebrow, half amused, half confused. “what? why not?”

you tilt your head slightly, lips curling into a half-smile that feels a little too vulnerable. “i don’t know… you’re different.”

gojo’s expression shifts, softening just enough to make his heart beat a little faster. 

“i mean…” you trail off, awkward for a moment before you manage to push the words out. “it’s not a normal relationship to practice our first kiss together.”

he blinks, momentarily thrown off by the sudden shift in tone.

and then, it hits him. his teenage self’s desperate, pathetic attempt at wooing you.

right. that. the kiss.

gojo sometimes forgets how much of a charmingly conniving little shit he used to be. the memory of his teenage self trying too hard, fumbling with the moment, comes rushing back. a rush of warmth rises to his cheeks, but he hides it behind a sarcastic grin.

you shift, and for a moment, there’s this quiet understanding between you both. 

he looks at you, really looks at you, the usual teasing spark in his eyes replaced with something different. he opens his mouth to say something, but the words don’t come out right away.

"you know..." he starts, his voice lower than usual. "maybe we never really practiced that first kiss. maybe it was just the first time we... realized it was something we should've done a lot sooner."

you blink at him, your heart unexpectedly catching in your throat.

“wait…what?” you say, laughter bubbling nervously at the edges of your words, but the way your voice trembles says something different.

gojo just looks at you, the corners of his lips curling into something that almost resembles vulnerability. “didn't you feel something too?” he steps a little closer, eyes fixed on yours like he's trying to read the unreadable.

and maybe you finally realize it then, like a wave crashing over you that he’s been trying to say this for so long. 

you take a shaky breath, locking eyes with him. “you’re not saying that you have feelings for me...?”

gojo rubs his temples, letting out a frustrated laugh. “i have been at your mercy my entire life, how much more obvious could i be?” his voice is a mix of exasperation and something deeper, the smirk on his lips faltering for just a moment, his usual cocky demeanor slipping as his frustration becomes clear.

he leans in slightly, his tone turning more intense. “i made all of the guys at jujutsu tech swear off to you." the words hang between you two, and for the first time, there’s no playfulness in his voice, just the truth, raw and unapologetic.

you freeze, disbelief painting your face. your mouth opens and closes a few times, trying to process his words, before you finally manage a shocked gasp. "that was you?!"

his posture casual as though this is nothing new, but there’s a subtle intensity behind his playful demeanor. "well, i didn’t trust anyone else around you. "

your heart beats louder now, your breath quickening. you know you should be angry, that you should call him out for his overbearing actions, for crossing boundaries in a way that feels almost possessive. yet, despite your better judgment, a twisted part of you can’t help but feel… pleased.

but it’s still too much to say all at once. so, you take a deep breath, and you can’t help but laugh softly. the years of hesitation comes crashing down.

your voice quieter now, more certain. “so... what do we do about it?”

“get married. have ten kids. move to a cozy cottage in okinawa,” the words almost slip out, unbidden, but gojo stops himself. it’s too much to ask, too soon.

instead, he finds himself leaning in, his fingers gently cupping your cheeks, the touch almost trembling despite his usual confidence. his thumb brushes against the soft skin of your face, and for a moment, everything else fades. he realizes in that moment that nothing in his life could possibly matter more than this.

you blink up at him, and in the way your eyes look back at him so widely, so softly—he feels like he’s been holding his breath his whole life, just waiting for this. waiting for you to look at him like that. he could drown in that gaze, could get lost in it forever.

gojo leans closer, his heart pounding, each beat louder than the last. and then, finally, he kisses you.

it’s not rushed. it’s not like the first time, awkward and fumbling, full of uncertainty. no, this time, it’s everything he has wanted and more. his lips move against yours with the kind of certainty he’s never known before, and when he pulls away just a fraction, it feels as though the world has stolen his breath, leaving him gasping for air.

so gojo goes back in for another.

[empressconjure]

Pick A Card: Are they thinking about you??? 🤔🤍

Think of your person and pick an image 1-3 (left to right)

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Pile 1- ace of cups, ace of pentacles, 3 of cups

Signs- All water signs, especially cancer, all earth signs

The short answer is yes pile one !!🥰 for a lot of you this is a new person in your life!! If not then this person wants a new beginning with you!! They think about all the good times they had with you and they want to create more memories with you!! This person thinks you are a lot of fun and they have a lot of love for you !! They think this connection has a lot of potential to turn into something great!! I’m seeing that this person is thinking about going out on a date with you!! I clarified the 3 of cups and pulled the queen of wands so I’m seeing that this person is very attracted to you physically!! They think your hot and they love your confident aura🔥Don’t worry it’s not just physical though, they love your overall energy and they want to learn more about you!! A lot of you who chose this pile may be fire signs or have strong fire placements!!🔥❤️

Pile 2- page of pentacles, page of cups, wheel of fortune

Signs- earth and water signs

I’m definitely seeing that this person is younger than you for some of you! If not, they have a very youthful energy. This might be someone you know from work or school. I feel like you and this person aren’t that close at the moment or maybe you don’t know eachother that well but this person has a crush on you🥹 this person does think about you sometimes and when they do think about you, they think about being friends first and seeing where things go with you!! So nothing too serious yet. This person isn’t the type to rush in relationships so they just want to go with the flow and see what happens. I asked what they want to happen and pulled the page of wands so this person wants to explore this connection further😂 😂 it’s crazy that you got three pages lol this person is definitely very childlike lol

Pile 3- 9 of pentacles, 3 of wands, strength

Signs- Leo, Aries, Virgo

I’m seeing that there is distance between you and this person! You may live far away from them for a lot of you. This person does think about you but they are trying to control these thoughts because they feel like they have to move on. I feel like a lot of time has passed in this connection and they think about how things could have been in this connection. I pulled one more card and got the 7 of Wands so they definitely think about you but they are trying to keep these thoughts under control. I also clarified the strength card and got the 6 of swords and ace of wands so yeah this person thinks that you moved on and they feel like it’s too late for them to be with you so they are trying to move on also! They don’t have any negative feelings towards you, they just feel like they missed their chance. I’m seeing that they still have a little bit of hope that this connection can work out but they aren’t confident that it would work out. If you want this person you should definitely give them a hint because they definitely think you moved on from them 😭😭😭

[bisexualiteaa]

Angel Baby

Toshinori Yagi X F!Reader (fluff!)

Synopsis: Reader is a teaching assistant who works alongside Toshinori, little did he know, that your feelings for him were a little more than just the professional kind.

CW: mutual pining, AFAB, reader has hair, reader has an angel/biblically accurate angel type quirk, fluff, all the fluff, teacher x teacher assistant trope, no spoilers, use of Y/N L/N but not often, potential spelling/grammar issues

AN: Writer’s block has had the most AWFUL grip on me for so long oh my gosh 😭 please forgive me if this is trash, mha has been my latest hyperfixation and I’ve been dying to get SOMETHING out of my drafts so I hope this is any good, please enjoy! 🥺🫶

He never fully knew how to explain the way that he felt about you, it was too complicated, too taboo. Was it admiration? For the way that no matter how dire the situation, you always found a way to lighten it with your humor. Was it longing? Longing for the youthfulness you radiate that he once had himself, but now feels so long gone due to his injury and loss of One For All. Was it sympathy? For the fact that someone like you who was so young, so radiant, so full of potential was stuck as his teaching assistant rather than out there, working the streets and earning a name for yourself as an amazing pro hero. He had no doubt that if you had the chance, you’d become the number one hero in no time. Your attitude certainly made you perfect for the job. That bright, unwavering smile, that confident voice that promised safety and warmth so long as you were around. Was it nostalgia he was feeling perhaps? Because the more he thinks of it, the more your traits and qualities, as not only a person but as a teacher and a hero, remind him an awful lot of himself. Especially back when he was the symbol of peace. Hardworking, dedicated, selfless, ready to drop whatever it was you were doing to help someone in nothing short of a moment’s notice. Even the students looked forward to seeing you enter a room, watching them all light up with excitement as you would offer a kind “Good morning!” Or “Hello everyone!” When you would walk in, followed by that stunning smile and a polite wave. Hell, even Aizawa wasn’t such a grump when you were around, a small smile stretching to the corners of his mouth when you would walk in.

After a while however, and after talking over such hypothetical feelings in pure hypotheticals with Midnight, it hit him; his admiration, his longing, the warmth and familiarity you bring.

Was it love?

Could that explain it all? The fluttering in his heart that he gets when you beam that gorgeous smile up at him after complimenting him. That tightness in his chest when your perfume lingers by his nose when you stand close to him. The excitement he gets when he sees you bring him a bento box of food you’d cooked the night prior specially to share with him because he often forgets his own lunch. The way he walks onto campus with a brighter smile than even that of his signature All Might smile, looking forward to seeing you and working with you. Perhaps it even explained the way he’d get a little sad or disappointed when he doesn’t see you or you’re substituting or working alongside another teacher for the day. You two had great chemistry together, something that hadn’t gone unnoticed by the students and faculty, always noting that shared equally large passion for hero work and inspiring the students to be the best they could possibly be. It’s what made your classes together so fun. Even a few of the teachers started to pick up on the extra pep in his step since you’d started working at the academy. Oh no, was that it? Was this the explanation for it all? Everything was pointing to that being the answer.

Could anyone truly blame him for feeling this way though…?

No, it would be wildly inappropriate of him to make any advance on you. He had to be at the very least double your age, not to mention he was a coworker, a *superior* even! It would be creepy, unbecoming and just down right rude of him to stoop to that low of a level. He’s seen plenty of other staff harass you, listened to you express your disinterest and annoyance when they would try to hit on you or stare for too long. Even a few bold students have gone out of their way to throw disrespectful and flirtatious comments your way, he didn’t want to be another nuisance added to the list. Yet as the days carry on, he’s noticed that it’s only become harder and harder for him to keep these feelings and this realization at bay. However in that time, the line between your acts of kindness and the possibility of them meaning more began to blur. After all, he was the only one you’d bring lunch to or bake for, he was the only one you’d share the privacy of your lunch hour or dinner time with. You went out of your way to remember his birthday, brought him gifts for holidays, memorized his favorite meals and drinks, you’d even partake in a cup of tea with him when he appeared to be lonely. Perhaps he was looking too much into it, after all who’s to say that maybe you did that because you were simply just that kind. Yet something about it all felt strangely intimate. Was he overthinking it? Gosh, what was a man to do? He couldn’t rely on speaking to fellow teachers about it, especially not Midnight anymore, because now she never stops pestering him wanting to know who it is. He knew that if he were to say, that would only land him in even more trouble, and heaven forbid he ask any of the students, he would never hear the end of it from them either.

It was one evening after school when it all changed, he’d never forget that day for as long as he’d live. It was a Friday evening, the last day of school before spring break was to commence. Wind blew through the air, giving it a pleasant coolness to counter the harsh rays of the sun that was just beginning to set against the horizon. The cherry blossom trees around campus were in full bloom, their petals falling any and every which way the wind could possibly carry them, littering every sidewalk and staircase with their beautiful pink color. It was as he was walking out of the school that he saw you sitting on a bench, almost looking as if you had been waiting for someone. You gave a bright smile as he came into your view, waving to him as he drew nearer. “Toshi!” You called out to him, making a smile immediately stretch to his lips as he came over to see you. He truly had no idea the sun could paint you with an even more ethereal glow than you already had about yourself. The wind billowing through your hair, cherry blossom petals falling all around you as you smiled so sweetly up at him. He swore his heart stopped in that very moment, gazing upon you like you were the finest work of art. “Don’t tell me you were waiting for me” he asked, the sides of his lips upturned slightly as he rested one of his hands in his pocket with a bag slung over his opposite shoulder. “And if I was?” You asked playfully, making him chuckle. “Then hopefully I didn’t keep you long. If I’d have known you were waiting, I would have finished grading a lot sooner” he answered, placing his free hand on the back of his neck with an apologetic look on his face, making you chuckle. “Only you would decide to work when we should be celebrating some much needed time off, Toshi” you joked with a giggle, make a heat rise to his cheeks at your observation but at the absolutely *adorable* sound of your giggling. He’s heard you laugh before, never had he heard you giggle. Now he was finding himself wanting to do anything to hear it again. Crap, he was definitely down bad. He rubbed the back of his neck giving a flustered chuckle as you stood up. “I was thinking maybe we could grab dinner together! Don’t think I didn’t notice that you skipped lunch today” you said, peering up at him with almost a motherly look, your hands on your hips as you looked up at him, making him chuckle a little. It was a cute look on you. He never wanted you to fuss over him, never wanting to add anymore stress to your already full plate, but he couldn’t help but feel warm knowing that for once, someone had his best interest in mind. “Your observation skills never fails to surprise me. Can’t sneak anything past you, can I?” he asked making you giggle again, swearing that it was music to his ears. “No sir you can’t, got eyes everywhere” you joked, making him laugh at your response. With the way you could spot the students misbehaving behind you, or seeing something even he couldn’t see, he almost believed you. “Well, what’dya say?” You asked kindly, looking up at him expectantly and with excitement, waiting for him to answer.

As if he could ever bring himself to say no to you.

The walk to and from the restaurant was a blur, he remembers talking about small, very trivial things as you both walked together, but where the memory really begins is when you guide him up to the roof of a building. “This is my little hideaway! Sometimes I sit here and watch the sunset after a long day or just come here and enjoy a good meal and the fresh air. Has the best view the city’s got to offer” you said and he could concur, seeing you stand there with a thin translucent bag of bento boxes in hand, the breeze once again blowing through your hair as the sun now painted the sky a bright reddish orange. In that moment he couldn’t help but bring out his phone to take a picture, he’d been needing to update your contact with a profile picture. Nothing was more fitting than this very moment, little did he know he’d thank himself in the future for taking that picture. “Beautiful…” he said breathlessly, looking upon you with such awe, as if he couldn’t believe that you were standing before him just now. Little did you know, he wasn’t talking about the view. You giggled once more before grabbing a blanket from your bag to sit down on. “Isn’t it? You’re lucky, I’ve never brought anyone up here. You’re the first person I’ve ever shared this quaint little spot with” you said happily as you looked up at him, watching him blush at your remark. Did you truly think him that special? Drat, there goes that pounding in his chest again and that feeling in his stomach. “Come! Sit and eat while it’s still hot” you urged, patting the ground next to you as you pulled everything out of the plastic bag, setting it all out for you both to enjoy. He was quick to join you, turning towards you as you gave a hum of delight and a cute little happy dance at the taste of your food. He couldn’t help but laugh as your cheeks were full, a slight flush rising to your cheeks as you realized you’d been caught in the moment before swallowing. “So good you could hardly wait for me to join” he commented, teasing you a little as you continued to eat instead of waiting for him like you usually do. “I was hungry!!“ you defended, making him give a whole-hearted, boisterous laugh. One that bubbled through him, making his eyes close and the small creases next to his eyes and at the corners of his mouth appear. It was genuine, one born of pure happiness, and you couldn’t help but sit and smile sweetly as you watched him in that moment. It had been so long since last you’d seen him happy like that, and your heart raced knowing you were the cause.

Ugh, could you be anymore down bad?

When you were both done with your food, you pulled out a small box wrapped in a red and white checkered cloth, tied with twine and into a beautiful bow on top. “Hope you have room for dessert!” You mused holding the wrapped up box out to him, his large hands cupping yours for a moment before taking it from you, leaving you both to blush for a moment before you smiled sweetly. “I hope you like it. It’s been a long time since last I baked but…guess you could say I’ve recently been inspired to pick it back up again” you admitted, that flush to your cheeks climbing up to your ears and making your face a little hot. “So if it sucks, don’t make fun of me too hard” you added with a chuckle, watching him open it up to see a slice of matcha cake with cream and freshly sliced strawberries in between the layers. It was so perfect he almost didn’t want to touch it. “You made this?” He asked, his tone astounded as he looked to you. “If it’s good, yes! If not, I got it from the convenience store up the street” you replied with a grin, making him laugh at your response. “It looks wonderful, I’m sure it’s delicious” he said before grabbing a fork to take a bite of it, and his assumptions were absolutely right. It was like a forkful of heaven. It was soft, fluffy and sweet, the strawberries keeping it from being too heavy, and it was cold, so it was perfect for the warmer temperature outside. “You’re amazing…” he replied so genuinely, making you smile excitedly before a flush came to his cheeks once more as he realized just exactly what he had said. “A-At baking! You’re an amazing baker!” he stuttered out, trying to “finish” his sentence despite meaning what he’d said, but he didn’t want to come off too strong. Your sweet laughter rang in his ears at his not-so-smooth recovery, but it still made butterflies settle in your stomach nonetheless. “Thank you” you replied kindly. “You’re amazing too, Toshi” you admitted fully, confidently even as you looked at him with a soft smile, making his brows raise slightly in surprise. “Thank you, for coming and sharing the evening with me. I’m…I’m really glad you came” you added, fidgeting with the long skirt of your dress. “I don’t know about you but…I really needed this” you finished, your tone for once sounding unsure, nervous even, nothing like the normally chipper and confident tone you always carry. “Me too” he replied in an empathetic tone, making you give a small smile his way before leaning your head against his shoulder.

Internally, he was panicking. What was he to do in this moment?

His heart was slamming against his sternum so harshly, so loudly he couldn’t help but wonder if you were able to hear it. Then you spoke, breaking him from his rampant thoughts. “Toshi?” You asked softly, his name sounding so sweet as it fell from your lips. “Yes?” He asked in reply. “Can I tell you something?” You asked, making him turn his head a little to look at you. “Of course, anything” he replied wholeheartedly, and it was true. He was your confidant just as much as you were his, always there to listen, offer you guidance and any help that he could. “I think I’ve fallen in love” you said, making his heart race even faster. “Oh! Well that’s wonderful, why say that like it’s such a bad thing?” He asked, trying to put up a happy front to hide the worry that was eating away at him deep inside. The worry that perhaps someone else had caught your eye, that someone else was the lucky one to hold your heart. “It’s not! It’s lovely but it’s rather…complicated” you continued, dancing around the truth for as long as you could, trying to work up the nerve to speak on your feelings. “How so?” He asked, earning a sigh from you that you hadn’t realized you’d been holding in as you toyed with your skirt again. “Because it’s a coworker…technically a superior even” you said, making him worry his bottom lip between his teeth in anxiousness, wondering who it could have been. The only people you really surrounded yourself with was him, Aizawa, Hizashi and Nemuri. Could it be one of them? “I see how that may make things complicated” he added, contemplating whether he should ask his next inquiry or not, scared of what the answer could be. It would make his whole day to hear you tell him it was he who captured your heart, that it was him you were in love with. Yet it would shatter him all the same if you were to tell him someone else was the lucky person to hold your affections. It was quite the conflicting position to be in. “May I ask who?” He asked respectfully but cautiously, making you give him a breathy chuckle in response as you looked up at him. “Is it not obvious?” You asked with a playful grin stretching across your lips, making him look at you confused. “Well you only really surround yourself with the same four people. Am I correct to assume it’s someone out of us?” He asked, making you shake your head yes. “Is it Hizashi?” he asked once more, making you shake your head no, as he began to list the names of the teachers. “Nemuri?” He continued, watching you shake your head no once again and his heart began thumping with anticipation and anxiousness. “Aizawa?” He asked, making you shake your head no in response as you smiled up at him, hoping he would soon connect the dots himself. His eyes widened for a moment, and that feeling in the pit of his stomach let up, a buzzing jittery feeling beginning to consume him instead. Excitement, happiness. Thrill. “It’s you, Toshi” you answered so matter-of-factly, as if he should have known it all this time. Was he dreaming? There was no way you were actually in love with him, were you?

“Me?” He asked, sounding absolutely taken back at this new found information. “You sound so surprised about it, I thought it was pretty obvious. Aizawa and Nemuri dog on me all the time for it, I’m surprised they haven’t told you” you said with a soft, breathy giggle, making a flush rise to his cheeks that he hadn’t figured it out sooner and to hear that the others seemed to know about it before he did. So all this time, his suspicions were right. “I…” he started to say, not really knowing what he was going to follow it up with, he was rather speechless at the moment. What was he supposed to say? It had been so long since he’d taken his own heart into consideration, let alone since he’d stopped to ponder the thought of someone else doing so. “I never really stopped to think about it, I guess” Liar. You couldn’t help but chuckle a little at his blissful ignorance. “You never once stopped to think about the fact that I only bring lunch for *you?* That I spend most of my time with *you?* That you’re the only one who knows me so well?” You asked with a small grin, but your smile faltered a little upon seeing his face. “But…why me? Why not someone younger like the others? Someone more able?” He asked, genuinely seeming self conscious about this. “I’m…I’m hardly even a hero anymore” he answered, bringing a hand to his side where his injury was, making you turn to him. “Toshi…” you spoke softly. “That’s not true” you answered, bringing your hand to his. “You wanna know why? You wanna know what I see?” You asked with a smile, getting up and offering him a hand to stand up with you.

You held his hands as you walked backwards. “I look at you and I see a man that’s so passionate about what he does. Whether it’s teaching, or training, or hero work” you started, looking him in the eyes as you said every word. “I look at you and all time stops, my heart races…” you added, still slowly inching your way backwards until you were standing at the edge of the roof top, a smile on your face as the wind blew through your hair. You looked so ethereal like this. “You make me feel so happy Toshi, so free” you continued with a bright smile. “Like I could just…float on air!” You said before falling backwards off the roof, leaving him mortified. In that moment, he knew exactly what his successor felt the day he first met him, the way his body moved without a single thought, jumping after you without a care of if he would survive or not. You smiled up at him as he grabbed you, falling with you. “Are you crazy??” He asked, making you laugh. “Maybe a little, but just trust me!” You replied, making him look at you like you were mad as you both plummeted towards the ground. “What in the world were you thinking??“ he asked. “That you felt the same way if you jumped after me” you finally answered, watching his eyes widen as wings unfurled from your back, encircling around you both. In all the time he’d known you, he’d never seen your quirk before, you’d never spoken of it, but it all made sense. That glow about you, the way you were so incredibly warm and welcoming to be around, how nothing gets past you, it all made so much sense. You were an angel in every sense of the word. “You claim you’re not a hero anymore Toshi, but you were so ready to throw your life on the line just to save me. You’re someone I look up to every day, someone who inspires me, someone who makes me feel safe and happy. So I’d say you’re still a hero, and you’ll always be the best in my book, not as All Might, but as Toshinori. Because that’s the man I fell in love with” you confessed with a wide, genuine smile as you brought yourself safely to the ground with him in tow. He couldn’t believe you’d go through such lengths to show him how much you cared. But he had to admit, as crazy as it was, it was effective, because despite the adrenaline racing through his body, his heart felt full.

As your wings unraveled around you both, he looked at you with absolute wonder. Your wings were beautiful, you looked like the very definition of a hero. Someone who radiated peace, safety and warmth. You were breathtaking like this. Your smile lighting up your face like you hadn’t just fallen from the top of a ten story building, your radiant energy giving you almost a buzzing glow of pure happiness. He felt like a beggar standing before a goddess. What had he done to deserve this? To deserve you? He’d never know that answer, but he felt like the luckiest man in the world sharing this intimate scene with you now. He couldn’t help but wonder, was this what other people saw in him when he was in his prime? Was this how others felt when he arrived? When he would save them?

In that moment, he felt as his body once again moved before he could even think, only this time it was a bit different. He didn’t move in the way a hero jumping into action would. No, he moved in the way that someone in love moves, showing you how he felt in a way that words could never properly convey. After all, why describe the way he was feeling when he could show it to you? Before you knew it, his hands came to your hips, pulling you to him and into an electric kiss. You could barely contain your excitement, looping your arms around his neck as he dipped you, kissing you like it was the last thing he would ever get to do.

You smiled as you gazed up at him, a soft giggle escaping you like that of a school girl sharing her first kiss with her high school crush. “What?” He asked with a similar smile, a flush covering his cheeks as he looked upon you so fondly, for once paying no mind to the world around him. All that mattered in this moment was that he finally had you. His heart felt as if it may leap from his chest as he looked at you, seeing you give him that stunning smile and hearing you laugh as you stood there in his arms. “Nothing, I’m just…so happy” you answered, looking up at him with such love in your gaze, such wonder. What did he do to deserve this? To deserve you? “Oh yeah?” He asked, making you giggle once more as your one hand now rested against his chest, your eyes flitting between his and his lips. “How could I not be? I’ve had the most wonderful evening, and the most handsome man I’ve ever met is standing before me” You replied with a wide smile. “The only thing that could possibly make it any more perfect, would be if he was to kiss me again” you finished playfully, making him chuckle. “What kind of hero would I be to rob you of that wish?” He asked as he leaned in to kiss you once more, a giggle escaping you as he kissed you, feeling one of his hands coming up to cup your cheek as he held you close.

And that is his favorite memory of all time.

[irmakkockan]

SECRET RELATIONSHIPS EP 5: THE IDIOT PART 2

Well, I’m not giggling, screaming, or kicking my feet anymore.

I’m just angry and sad. Really.

Ahh, Suhyeon, seriously? You could have had it ALL. If only you had grown some courage and hadn’t let Jaemin play his mind games with you. If only you had taken one step forward instead of running in the opposite direction every single time. The world was yours to take - and for you, that was always Daon. And now what? You’re just a violent, impulsive mess of a human, always screaming, never bending, never listening, and definitely never honest.

I mean, I’m this close to liking Jaemin more than you because, at least, he knows what he wants. He’s evil incarnate, sure, but at least he’s consistent. He’s working toward world domination one ungodly scheme at a time. WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU EVEN DOING? You let yourself be manipulated by Jaemin, you didn’t confess, you ran away for seven years, then came back only to force your way into Daon’s life with fists flying. You threaten everything and everyone - like, what is your endgame here? Are you that out of touch? I just - UGH. I can’t even focus on anything else.

Why, just WHY aren’t you even trying to talk to Daon? I get it, you think the moment you mention Jaemin, he’ll shut you out. THEN START FROM SCRATCH. Tell him how you’ve always wanted to be by his side. Tell him how your feelings evolved - from interest to liking to all-consuming love. Beg him to listen. Apologize. For the contract. For fake-dating Jaemin. For the unnecessary violence. For leaving him behind. Just… SAY SOMETHING.

Now? You’re irredeemable. Everything you do is inexcusable. And it’s such a waste. A waste of a love that could have been beautiful. A waste of ten years. A waste of youth. It’s driving me MAD. I can’t get over this.

ANYWAY. That confrontation at Daon’s apartment complex? The kind of drama-lover’s dream that should have had me eating it up, but I couldn’t even enjoy it - I just need Seonghyeon to win this war. I’m done with this shit.

And honestly, I can’t even be mad at Daon for being passive, for being a pushover, for letting everyone walk all over him. The guy is TRAUMA PERSONIFIED. He came from nothing. His family is a mess. The two people he had deep, deep feelings for started dating each other, leaving him in the dust. One of them is a violent lunatic, the other keeps him at arm’s length. Suhyeon threatens him. Jaemin has been orchestrating his isolation for over seven years, making sure he never had anyone else, never formed any strong bonds. We should be amazed that he even has a job and an apartment, let alone the ability to speak to other people. The man should be a husk of a person. That he can even consider Seonghyeon as a potential partner is honestly a miracle.

God. This is getting tougher to watch. But I think we’re seeing Jaemin unravel in real-time - little by little, coming apart at the seams, growing more unhinged by the second. Now that will be my Roman Empire.

[eemamminy-art]

Saw your reblog! Could have sworn I sent an ask in a bit ago but I’ll try again just in case. ^^

Hello! I really enjoy a lot of your Penny/Maru art and headcanons. However, recently I saw you were also fond of Jodi/Caroline. I was curious as to what headcanons you had of the two and/or if you had any possible art for the ship? :0

I did see your other ask, and I was hanging onto it because I actually haven't drawn Jodi/Caroline yet but I wanted to for a while, and didn't have time to reply this week until now! I also knew this was gonna take a while to write up haha so thanks for being patient

this is the first time I've drawn them! I put a little bit of how I draw Abigail and Sam into their features c:

Headcanons and stuff below the cut because it's really long

The whole ship for me spawned from like… when I was first playing stardew, I noticed Caroline has so much dialog about how she's frustrated with Pierre for being so consumed with work that he's absent when it comes to his family. She also doesn't seem to like being a homemaker, having lines about getting takeout often, while Pierre seems to value those things, as shown in that Abigail heart event where he wants her to help with the cooking at home 😬 And in Jodi's case, she's really badly overworked and talks repeatedly about regretting having kids so young and not being able to live her life. Though after learning more about Sam's storyline, I'm a little less empathetic toward Jodi as I initially was because she's the type of mom who takes on more work for herself and then complains she's overwhelmed, instead of like, having her kids or husband do chores to ease the burden. And like of course Jodi and Caroline are always talking together in the plaza, or at festivals 👀

So this is the basis: They're both unhappy with their families/husbands, and I could imagine a scenario where they both just throw it all away for each other. If you'd want it to be extra angsty, you could have them be really conflicted and question whether it was the right choice, but they've already come that far so they're afraid that they wouldn't be able to go back even if they wanted to now. I suppose you could also have them just be cheating on their husbands if that's your thing, but I personally hate infidelity and am really choosy about how and when it's used in a story, so I would be happier with them just cutting ties and running off together.

Since I've started writing my fic, and thus had them in it as side characters, I've started writing their husbands as all being more attentive than in the canon (Demetrius to Robin especially-- I know we're not talking about them currently but I'm such a ride or die for Demetrius I feel the need to say 😂) so I haven't thought as much about this ship as I did right when I very first got into stardew valley. But I think the potential is there!!

Maybe it starts as like.. they're having these green tea afternoons together and Caroline feels so good being appreciated and listened to for once, and Jodi feels so at peace being able to relax even just for a few minutes, that they're like oh god… I kind of want this forever. This, and nothing else. It's a selfish choice but it's also something understandable, given how unhappy they are and how much they've put their families before themselves. What if for once, they put themselves first and just absolutely salt the earth on their way out? 👀

I think also that Caroline gives off the vibes that she's adventurous? It's kinda implied in some of her dialog (I think especially if you romance Abigail?) that she was a wild young woman who never saw herself settling down even though she ultimately did. In Jodi's case, she had Sam so young she never got to properly enjoy her youth. So I think they would have a blast together living out the wild 20's they never got to experience now that they're women in their 40's :3 and they kiss of course that's the most important part 😂

[princelylove]

Hmm I just have this question in my mind. Who do you think is the worst yandere to deal with and who is the easiest to deal with in Joestar blood line? (If can, I'd love to know your ranking on each person)

For me, I think the worst to deal with is Jotaro (he is too strong and smart to fight back) and the easiest is Jonathan (a gentleman, he is so sweet, so easy to manipulate)

~ 🏵️ anon ~

I included Lisa Lisa + Holly because nobody talks about them enough. I love women. Technically Lisa Lisa doesn’t count but shhh. I omitted Johnny because I feel like I should reread sbr… This is subject to change if my interpretation of any of these characters develops, but for now I'm fairly confident in it.

From easiest to worst:

I have to agree with Jonathan for the easiest. He hasn’t discovered free will or the fact that he has the potential to be a lot worse. Look at DIO- besides from the vampirism, that’s all Jonathan. That’s terrifying. A man of that size hunting you down is frightening, but you’re in luck, Jonathan has no plans of mistreating you. He’s very careful to respect your wishes- and mopes when you tell him no. He respects you, he’s not going to go against your wishes and escort you home without you wanting it. (He’ll just follow behind. Very far behind. No one is going to harm his darling on his watch.) He sulks if you flat out reject him, but he’ll leave you alone for a little while. It’s not gentlemanly to pursue someone after they’ve said no! It’s not gentlemanly to beat all of his love’s suitors to almost-death either, but that’s got nothing to do with you. “I just can’t afford to lose you. Won’t you please let me walk you home?”

The worst you’re getting with Josuke is his little random urges to act on his sadism, which is once in a blue moon. You’re fine. You even have the right to go outside and go places without him! He’s like the obsessive boyfriend that blows up your phone when you haven’t texted him in a while. If your phone has a do not disturb mode you’ll be alright. Just send him a selfie and a quick explanation of every little thing in the shot. He tends to cling when you return to him, but is that really so bad? Josuke’s your own personal weighted blanket, and doesn’t jump to conclusions when you miscommunicate. He’ll hear you out, let you explain yourself, take some time to think about it, and give you a little smack on the wrist if you didn’t do anything too bad. That isn’t to say that he won’t properly punish you, it’s just that it takes a lot for him to get there. He’s fair. “You’re going out? Kay, text me.”

Holly is a sweetheart, and by herself, should be much higher on this list.. Her son, however… is the worst. He likely learned his yandere tendencies from her in his youth, when she was still with his father. If you’re going to “parent” him, he’s gonna make sure you’re really fit to be around her in the first place. Holly knows how to read the room, she’s very good at picking up on someone’s true intentions. She’s seemingly very passive, but that isn’t really the case! Holly is very tolerant. She understands the stress, and just wants to help. You can lash out, say things out of stress, maybe even try to run away, but you’ll be back. If you’re not… Well, first you’ll receive a very special “pretty please” message, and second you’ll receive a very pissed off Jotaro, here to drag you by your collar back to where you belong. Holly truly believes that she knows better, and while she doesn’t have the personality to be firm and a bit mean to you to get you back in line, her son does. She doesn’t want to punish you! You’re her everything, your pain is her pain! You’re never in any real danger with Holly. Jotaro coming to get you, though? Fair game. “Oh, sweetheart… please let me put a bandaid on that. I’ll kiss it better!”

As long as you’re complacent, you’ll survive Joseph. Considering the lack of a physical threat, he should be a bit higher, but he’s more overbearing than Holly is, and more willing to trap you himself. Sure, he’ll follow you everywhere and insist on showing you every little thing he’s doing, but he means well. He’s very overbearing, but as long as you consistently show Joseph affection and the attention he’s begging for, you’re allowed to have a relatively normal life. It’s like having a big puppy following you around that thinks he’s a lap dog. He just won’t ever leave you alone. Or let you buy things yourself. Why would he?? He’s right there, let him do it! Not like he’s doing anything with that Joestar money. Joseph’s very touchy, he’ll almost always have his arm around you, or insist on holding hands. He needs you. He goes crazy without you. He can’t sleep, won’t train to his full potential, and barely touches his food if you’re not there. Joseph is obsessed with you, and can’t do anything without having a little hit of you first. Poor guy. “Have you ever thought about moving to new york?”

Jolyne can be an asshole, but she’s a lot better than the rest of this list. She tells it to you how it is- you’re hers, and she wants to be by you all the time. Jolyne’s not the most emotionally expressive, I see her a lot in younger Jotaro, but she is very verbally expressive. She has no mental filter; Nothing’s ever up in the air when it comes to Jolyne. She’s just sort of keeping guard over you most of the time, and is fine with just being around you, for a little while. She’s fine with physically threatening you if you get out of line, her muscles aren’t just for aesthetics. She does it in “subtle” ways- picking you up to move you out of her way, pulling you onto her lap, putting her well-built thigh over you while you’re sleeping together. She tells you to call her “Jojo” and won’t answer to anything else- I think she spent too much time with Gwess. She craves that mushy, disgustingly affectionate talk she used to get from her ex, and fully expects it from you. She’s terribly insecure, and needs the consistent reassurance that you’re into her or she’ll get in your face about it. You don’t like her anymore? What kind of stupid bitch changes their mind in a day? Did she do something? Are you mad?? What’d she do??? “You and me. That’s all you gotta think about.”

Lisa Lisa loves to micromanage. You don’t really need to think with her, do you. All of your needs will be met on her private island- there’s staff, luxurious utilities, and plenty of space for you to “free roam.” You might feel free in the beginning, but once you see people going about their day across the water, it’s clear how trapped you are. Lisa Lisa likes keeping you where she can see you, and if she’s busy with training, you can sit off to the side where it’s safe to watch. If it weren’t for Suzi Q, she’d ask that you bring her drinks every once in a while. Aht. Don’t forget her kiss, either. Lucky for you, Suzi Q is absurdly good at her job, and you won’t need to lift a finger. Just sit there, read your magazine in the sun, or pay attention to Lisa Lisa’s teachings. Not that she’d ever approve of you using hamon. You're meant to be hers, that's it. What's the point of teaching a lap dog how to be a guard dog? Just sit still and be pretty for her, or face the consequences. “Darling, come back inside.”

Jotaro does not know how to be normal. His yandere “habits” weren’t exactly discouraged in his youth, so he sees no issue with behaving this way. An older Jotato might be better to deal with- he’s more calm, more rational. I’d put older Jotaro in the high middle difficulty rather than being on top, since he has a lot more patience and won’t just rush to kidnap you, but young Jotaro? I’ll pray for you. Most of the people down this low on the list are intelligent, thorough, and aggressive. Jotaro meets all three of those categories. He just wants to protect you. Don’t be stupid and push him away. Controlling and way too overprotective, Jotaro sleeps well at night knowing that you’re exactly where you need to be- locked up where no one else can find you, and in his arms. He doesn’t really think much of physical affection- his mother normalized it so much that he truly doesn’t see anything wrong with always touching you. He’s just making sure your heart’s still beating, your lungs are still working, your stomach isn’t growling… Jotaro knows you need the sun, but to be honest, the most you’re getting is the courtyard, or an open window. He just can’t risk it. Maybe he can be convinced to give you some vitamins for what you’re lacking, as long as he can read the label and have some time to research where exactly it’s coming from. If you try to run away enough times, he’ll break your legs. He really doesn’t want to, and will hesitate riiiight before he snaps them both, but he will. He’ll nurse you back to health, and work you through physical therapy, so don’t whine. You did this to yourself. “Don’t be such a pain in the ass, I’m helping you.”

Giorno is not too keen on letting his possessions act on their own. That’s what you are, really. All of passione is under his possession, sure, the products, the money… the people. He views you as one of his things. That isn’t to say that he doesn’t love you, he very much so does, but there just isn’t room for doubt that Giorno views you as ‘his’ first, and a person second. He knows what he’s doing to you by clipping your wings, it’s a shame things have to be this way in order for him to obtain what he wants. He understands it's wrong to kidnap someone, and to restrain them, but in the end, isn't it for the better? It's like keeping a cat strictly indoors. You may underestimate him since he isn’t as physically built as the rest of his family- even Jolyne has considerably more muscle than him- but that would be unwise. Giorno’s thought of every possibility, and has prepared for it sufficiently- what he has on Jotaro is his ability to adapt, quickly. He's a very quick learner. Giorno can sweet talk his way out of any situation, whether that be through twirling his hair and giving you that doe eyed expression or through a genuine threat. He has both the foundation and passione twirled around his pinky. What makes Giorno so awful is his ability to read you, and the fact that if you ever seriously wrong him, you’ll never see Heaven. Once Giorno loves you, it's him or death- You get no warnings. It’s pointless to hide your true intentions from Giorno. You may think you have choices, but it’s all the same in the end. His expectations are very high, but to avoid disappointment, he’ll likely pick someone that already meets some of his requirements- Why would he go through the effort of fixing someone to his liking when he can find someone that’s perfect for him, and will stay perfect? Giorno is as alluring as can be, and once you’re finally within his grasp, there is no way out. “I expected more from you.”

[vaguely-concerned]

I feel that during the first coffee date walk through the market, rye has a fraction of a millisecond's kneejerk trauma freakout of '...wait. wait. am I really catching feelings for a rich boy again. with how that went down last time. am I truly that stupid' (once derogatorily referred to quite openly at a party as 'young master anaxas' pet mortalitasi' to which the young master anaxas only grinned and shrugged and STILL you don't break up with his smug controlling ass for good for six more months because you have a desperate bottomless yearning pit where your self respect should go, twice shy lol). and then he actually looks at lucanis standing next to him getting harding spearmint to help with bad dreams and generally being so quietly thoughtful and sweet through the prosaic yet necessary medium of grocery shopping it makes me feel a little unwell to truly contemplate. and rye is like '*the softest fondest eyes anyone has ever turned on anything* ...you know what. I suspect we don't have to worry about that repeating, I think we're probably safe. I am comfortable being this level of stupid. (slowly dawning marital intent even at this stage)'.

(part of the reason rye buys NONE of illario's bullshit at all right from the beginning is that he's basically vaccinated against this exact type of dude after that relationship lol. charming suave guy who in the beginning pays you a lot of lavish attention and takes pains to make you feel special every time you're in a room with him -- but shallowly and mostly, it slowly dawns on you, when there's something he wants from you (and he's often doing it at the expense of someone else, raising you up to put someone else down and you won't believe this... it can turn into a seesaw at a whim. yay). and beneath that there's just a seething pit of resentment and inferiority complexes and bitterness left to fester until he can make it everyone else's problem and that IS going to start to bubble up between the cracks with you too if you stick around for long enough. no thank you been there done that wasted my youth and potential on it and all I got was this lousy shiny set of new emotional intimacy issues haunting me for life! trust me illario I HAVE, as it were, chosen the wrong dellamorte before, which is exactly how I know I didn't this time. go get him lucanis I've got your coffee

hilarious mental image: rye and illario sitting quietly together while everyone else is busy milling about during a cursed dellamorte family dinner (the vibes are so bad. you know the vibes are bad. sitting as still as you can and hoping for calm skies is your best bet without lucanis or teia favourite child privileges to work with) and rye out of the blue gazing thoughtfully into nothing over the edge of his glass with half-lidded eyes to go 'you know. you remind me a lot of my ex. not in a good way' and illario with absolutely no shame and hilariously also something that's the closest he ever gets to real sympathy going 'yeah, I get that a lot'. best talk those two ever had, unironically. their bond leveled up to its final form that day. *soulsborne boss defeated text* MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING REACHED)

[theapexastrologer]

"Why is Saturn debilitated in Mars' Sign, but Mars is exalted in Saturn's sign?"

I came across this question on threads and wanted to share my answer here for those of you who might have a similar question regarding this exaltation, along with exaltations & debilitations in general.

To make this a little easier to understand I want to breakdown the planets as ppl. Saturn is the energy of the "butler" in astrology and Mars is the "general". (For reference understanding, the other traditional ruling planets are as follows: Sun= King, Moon= Queen, Mercury=Prince, Venus=Princess, Jupiter=Advisor).

Before we get started, I want to make a huge note here: exaltations & debilitations have *nothing* to do with friendly or enemy planets and *everything* to do with which zodiacal energy brings out the best & worst from each planet.

The Sun, who is the King, is exalted in Aries, which is the energy of the battlefield, and where the King obtains glory. So the butler, who is Saturn, doesn't thrive in Aries and actually struggles to fulfill his duties.

Why is that?

Well, Saturn is good at following rules and staying within boundaries, serving others, and keeping order, and it's also the same reason why he fails to uphold order in Aries— the battlefield is way too chaotic.

👉🏽Remember: Aries is explosive, spontaneous, sporadic energy. It's competitive and ego driven— "I have to be number one!" This is dramatically different compared to both of Saturn's domiciles, Capricorn & Aquarius— both of which relate to the collective, not the individual. It's part of the reason Saturn thrives in Libra. It's because he does best when considering others.

Saturn fails to function well in Aries due to his inability to easily put order to chaos. Saturn in Aries actually *requires* the energy of Libra -- diplomacy, compromise, balance, and harmony to grow.

One of the other commenters on that thread spoke about the potential violence of Saturn in Aries— at it's worst manifestation, it'll be "overbearing (Saturn) dominance (Aries)", because Saturn in Aries has the potential to become an absolute tyrant. 😬 It's a hard placement in order to force extreme growth (all debilitations are).

BUUUUUT, wherever Mars is will also influence the severity of Saturn in Aries as well as some other factors like mutual reception, conjunctions, squares, and oppositions with Saturn mainly, but also with Mars.

Now, let's address why Mars is exalted in Saturn's sign Capricorn.

Mars is the "general", right? The general, the army on a more grand scale, *thrives* off of strong structure and rules. Capricorn is rules, tradition, structure, the bones, the foundation, the plan, the map, etc. This provides the perfect middle ground of control for Mars to thrive in, because Mars has two different extremes.

In Aries, Mars is sporadic and impulsive— all over the place— and in Scorpio, Mars goes waaaay too deep, too focused, too intense, too obsessive, mmk? So with Capricorn providing the outline and the structure, it keeps Mars balanced and more directed. Capricorn *channels* Mars’ powerful energy— provides the perfect environment to get the best out of Mars.

So this is less about "why does it do well in one ruler's house?" and more about which type of zodiacal energy allows a planet to thrive and bring out the best from it or which sign hampers a planet's abilities the most.

Granted, this is the foundational aspect, but always remember that rulerships and hard aspects (conjunctions, squares, & oppositions) can play a big part in this.

For example, in my sidereal chart, I have Venus in Virgo, which is a debilitated position, but it's with my Mercury in Virgo, too, which is Mercury's domicile and exaltation point and ends up boosting my Venus and gives me a love for small cute things and manifests through my love for chibi things, youthful fashion, and delicate jewelry.

If you want to know more about how a particular exaltation or debilitation point is working in your chart, feel free to shoot me a message or drop it in my asks. I also offer limited readings (only able to take 1-2 a day, depending), but simply message me if you're interested in booking a consultation with me and I'll give you the details. 🙏🏽💕

[halcyon-autumn]

Fantasy High Characters and the song I think they'd listen to the most off the new Taylor Swift album

Kristen: okay early Trackerbees Kristen would listen to But Daddy I Love Him SO much and probably post lyrics on instagram. Judgemental small town with religious overtones opposed to a relationship? Just like her fr. Post-breakup Kristen blasts So Long London SO LOUD that the rest of Mordred Manor starts to have weird pavlovian responses to any song with the same chords.

Sandra Lynn: Sandra Lynn would not make it past Fortnight on the album I fear she would hear one song about an affair and turn off her phone. Sorry Sandra Lynn I love you queen but she would not have a good emotional time with this ablum

Jawbone: Jawbone WOULD love Fortnight but he doesn't pay attention to anything but the chorus and sort of assumes it's about the game. Occupational hazard of working with youths.

Riz: I truly beleive Riz was a Dateline kid and he'd like a cool song about going to Florida because you murdered someone. It's got burying bodies in swamps and stuff! Florence + The Machine is there! Great song for murder-obsessed teens.

Fig: I Can Do It With a Broken Heart because, she claims, "it's got a great beat!" (she misses Ayda)

Sklonda: Just pick whatever song you think people would listen to during sex and put it here. We know next to nothing about Sklonda/Gorthalax but I assume the sex is good so fill in the blank.

Kipperlilly: Kipperlilly was actually listening to Who's Afraid of Little Old Me on airpods when she stabbed Buddy Dawn and Brennan just didn't mention it. She's like 'oh an angry song for a short person that people don't want at parties? that's me.' Yes good question she WOULD sing the asylum lyric without any irony

Rueben: Rueben HATES Taylor Swift he DETESTS her no one can bring her up around him or he will go on a RANT but catch him crying to loml and thinking about Wanda Childa

Tracker: Nara walks on in her listening to How Did It End? and is like "oh why are you crying???" and Tracker has to lie REAL FAST and say she's thinking about Gallicea (sorry Nara)

Gorgug: All of the Bad Kids band together to keep him from hearing a single song off this album so that he doesn't think about Zelda and start crying.

Aelwyn: imgonnagetyouback because she loves to sing about violence

Adaine: Adaine listens to the first eight seconds of The Prophecy over and over against her will because Aelwyn keeps sending it to her under various guises being like "did this happen? did you see this? is this what the old elven people want?" it's like Elven Oracle rickrolling. To be clear - Adaine hates this song.

Fabian: I think Fabian would hear ONE sad song, think about the immense loneliness he feels every day, and throw his special edition vinyl out the window like a frisbee.

Gilear: Gilear accidentally downloaded an Enya album

Arthur Aguefort: this one is hard to explain but I think Aguefort would choose Clara Bow as a karaoke song despite it being one of the worst potential karaoke songs on the album. This is deliberate on his part. Also I think he'd be a real Stevie Nicks girlie.

Feel free to comment/argue/tell me your thoughts!

[jungkoode]

i’m just curious, because after reading kkangpae and fmu, your y/ns seem quite similar. but your y/n in SATMH is a bit different, personality wise. i think they all have a strong character but i was just curious as to why kgp and fmu yns are more similar than they are with SATMH yn? just a curiosity! love your writing kiku!

Wow! First of all, thank you for such a thoughtful question—this is the kind of thing that makes me feel like I actually know what I’m doing when, in reality, I’m just out here throwing vibes at the keyboard and hoping for the best.

Okay, let’s dive in! My Y/Ns—ah, my precious chaotic creations. You’re right that there are definite overlaps between FMU!Y/N and KGP!Y/N, but they’re all different, I promise. I think their similarities mostly come from the fact that I’m just chronically sarcastic as a person, and that bleeds into all my characters. Second-person POV doesn’t help either because it feels like writing a snarky diary entry on behalf of someone else. But let’s break this down properly, starting with SATMH Y/N.

SATMH!Y/N is grumpy but not without reason. She’s fed up—fed up with her career, her world, and let’s be honest, Jungkook. She’s bold, assertive, and dripping with journalistic fatigue. Her job forces her to constantly chase stories that slip through her fingers, so she’s annoyed and tired in a way that makes her maturity shine through. Jungkook (aka Spider-Man, aka her personal headache) gets under her skin because she sees his potential, but his behavior frustrates her. The university hierarchy also adds a layer of tension—there’s the awkward sunbae-hoobae dynamic, her suppressed feelings, and the fact that she can’t fully prove her suspicions. Yet, even when she’s mad, she’s solid. The closet scene? That wasn’t a weak moment for her—it was intentional. She’s the rock to Jungkook’s youthful uncertainty, a calm reassurance to his trembling inner chaos. She’s confident but human—grumpy but so self-assured that she intimidates Jungkook and even herself sometimes.

Now, KGP!Y/N has a similar strength, but it’s quieter. She’s got a sharp tongue, sure, but she knows when to bite it. If SATMH!Y/N is bold and decisive, KGP!Y/N is reflective and observant. She’s sarcastic, yes, but there’s a warmth to her—it’s subtle but there. She gives off big-sister energy, not because she’s bossy but because she knows how to create boundaries without demanding respect. She’s someone who would call you out but not in a way that leaves you feeling cornered. Her journey is more about finding her place in a tumultuous world and learning to balance her sharp wit with emotional depth. The thing with her is that she’s learned not to poke a bear unless she’s ready for the fallout. KGP!Y/N is composed, sarcastic, and grounded in ways that FMU!Y/N is still struggling to figure out.

FMU!Y/N, on the other hand? Oh, she’s messy, chaotic, and unapologetically young. She’s the little sister in the family—bold in her snark but with the kind of energy that screams, “I’m still figuring it out, and honestly, fuck it.” She’s living in that phase of reckless independence where she’s testing her limits, maybe too much. There’s a bravado to her that’s more fragile than it seems—she puts up walls of sarcasm and wit, but you can tell she’s still looking for her footing. Her “nothing phases me” attitude is a defense mechanism, a way of hiding the cracks underneath, and her choices reflect her craving for freedom after breaking away from a suffocating home life. She pushes when she knows she can, sometimes too far, but it’s less about malice and more about finding herself. KGP!Y/N is careful, FMU!Y/N is impulsive. KGP!Y/N observes, FMU!Y/N tests. If KGP!Y/N is a lighthouse, FMU!Y/N is a storm.

I guess, at their core, all my Y/Ns are strong because that’s what I love writing about—women with grit, resilience, and layers of emotion. But they wear that strength differently: SATMH!Y/N’s confidence is refined, KGP!Y/N’s is measured, and FMU!Y/N’s is raw and wild.

Honestly, seeing readers pick up on these differences makes me feel like a proud parent watching her kids get awards at a school assembly. Thank you for giving me the space to talk about them like this! And thank you for reading and sticking around for all these chaotic characters I pour my heart into. Hope this answered your question!! <3

[nyxvamps]

Child of Chaos - Xand Donovan:

Chaos Itself was curious. All of these primordials and titans and gods and other deities are making offspring, so It decided to do so as well. It had created many things, but had never 'raised' a child the way parents do.

It created Itself a human form. They did so easily. All They had to do was observe some humans for a few minutes and create a body that would pass as attractive and that could hold a child. They’re very androgynous and it seems as though no matter who looks at Them, they see something they like.

The whole process of creating a child in 9 months wasn’t something They were interested in, so They sped up the process to a day.

The child was born and They realized They would need to learn how to raise a demigod (demiprimordial? demientity?). So They observed. They picked and chose from the minds of the humans around Them what seemed to be the best ways to raise a child and did what They could to raise this child into a well rounded human. It worked, to an extent. When you are the literal beginning of existence you tend to have some quirks that can pass down to your offspring.

Overall, The child, that was named Xand Donovan (names that many people seem to think are "cool" and "edgy" which is apparently a good thing among human youth.) was a typical yet very weird ass kid.

Xand looks normal, until you see them from the corner of your eye, then it's like their eye's flashed like a cat's or their outline blurs slightly. It always feels like it's about to storm when you're near them. That feeling of static gathering like lighting is about to strike.

Xand kind of has, maybe, a little bit of a god complex, but not in a "im better than everyone no one can best me" kind of way, but in a "I'm going to live forever so why should I waste my infinite time with being insecure and caring about how others view me. They will die soon and will become a blip in my time in existence" kind of way. If that makes sense.

Xand loves humans. They have genuine relationships with them and they creates friendships and longs for people in their personal life and feels and wants and needs just like humans do. But Xand also knows that they are different and that they are an infinitely powerful being that is only nerfed by the fact that their parent is stopping them from ascending into primordial...hood? Why, because they are too young.

"Parent? I am 247 years old. That is like, 23 in human years. When will you let me join you as a diety?"

"Like I have said before my child, when you are older and have matured. Now. Explain again what these two women are trying to portray by running over and over again to their original song. It's very catchy."

The two of them, though they look human enough, feel very not of this world. If you were to meet one of the olympians, you feel that as well, but with Chanon and Xand Donovan, it's like being in a room with an eldritch horror, but not realizing how horrificly in danger you actually are.

They are uncanny valley without being uncanny. Something sets you off but you convince yourself that you're imagining it while your hair stands on end and you start to sweat.

Now: Power time.

We know that Chaos is literally the beginning of everything, therefore, can potentially have whatever power it wanted. It's child is not that powerful but is very much op. Of course.

While Xand is not able to ascend yet, their powers are more imaginable. Powers that make sense and you are able to wrap your brain around unlike being the beginning of all existance.

Xand is able to change their appearnce in anyway possible. Think, Nimona. Nimona can change into a shark, an exact replica of Bal with his voice too, a bird, a random little boy, (cough *ashes* cough).

They are able to create anything out of practically nothing. If they have a handful of dirt, they can make a new phone. A pile of trash? A beautiful house. Water partials in the air? A nice glass of juice. If there is matter, it can be manipulated. If Chaos let Xand ascend, they would be able to make anything out of nothing, just like their parent.

Xand can also "be" multiple places at once. Now, right now they only have one physical body, but they are able to split their consciousness up into multiple pieces that can functionally be in different places at the same time. Kinda like multiple ghost versions of them that are all their own sentient beings while separate.

We're gonna go a little cliché here and bring in telekinesis. When your parent in the beginning of creation, you're gonna be able to manipulate matter. and that means being able to throw it around and move it at will.

im gonna have so much fun with this character.

[nellie-elizabeth]

Grey's Anatomy: Hit the Floor (21x09)

Guess which romances in this episode I don't give a shit about? All of them!

Cons:

I don't even want to belabor the point because I'm just repeating myself, but in short? Jo and Link suck and don't work as a romance, and Link was seriously getting on my nerves in this episode. He's weird about the women he dates, he gets too intense about them. This is what ruined the Amelia/Link thing too, except that theirs was a relationship I did enjoy, and this one with Jo is bad and also is supposed to be endgame unless one of the actors wants to leave the show before the other one. I hated the implication that Jo had "never had a stable adult relationship before" because like... I know this show took a giant crap all over Alex Karev on his way out the door, but you cannot say their relationship wasn't a stable and adult relationship before that. Yeesh.

Teddy actually didn't bother me on her own this episode, like, she was being a jerk to Ben but Ben was being super incompetent so her being kind of snappish worked for me. But Owen continues to suck so fucking bad. I almost had to laugh at the moment when he admits to the random patient lady from his past that he has feelings for her. Like, Owen, keep your shit together, my dude.

Lucas and Simone? Nothing bad here, but just boring as usual. Blue and Amnesia Girlfriend From Past? Somehow both boring and aggravating. If I can't have Jules and Mika then I'd like some Jules/Blue or, you know, in my wildest dreams we kick Lucas to the curb and get some Blue/Simone because I like their vibes best...

Lucas's plot thread this week was about having a trauma response to being in a shooting, and he and Amelia have this conversation about the Shepherd family's specific trauma about this scenario... it bothered me that they didn't bring up the hospital shooting, because Bailey was actually involved in a shooting too and surely that could have been a point of connection? Oh well. The moment when Lucas says he's "not a feelings person" after he needs to take a break was really funny to me, because like... oh, you're not a feelings person? Whiniest, most cow-eyed character of the interns? Always angsting about something or other? KWAN is the "not a feelings person," he's the one with the reputation for being stoic. Jules too. Lucas is way too feelings-y, that's like his whole thing. I really don't give a crap about this character.

Pros:

Okay, despite being very grumpy about Link and Jo, I did think Jo's comedic dismay about the very youthful OBGYN doctor having to do her exam was pretty funny, as was Link shutting down his chitchat at the end. That was a cute little bit. And I liked Bailey being there to support Jo, and talking some sense into Link. She's the best.

I kind of like that Ben isn't doing a super good job fitting back into the hospital, I think it's interesting. He's trying to take initiative and fix problems where he sees them, but Teddy's got a bigger picture view of what's going on, and she's trying to remind him that he's still got work to do to earn his position here. It's a tension where I can actually see both sides of the argument and I'm kind of looking forward to where it goes from here.

I also thought it was interesting how the shooter from last year's mid-season finale was handled. This isn't a mass-shooter situation where somebody went on a rampage, this was a person committing a desperate crime out of desperate need, and I appreciate that the episode sort of sat in the nuance of that. You have Jules who has decided to turn inward after losing Mika, get a wake-up call in the form of the shooter's girlfriend, who talks about how her boyfriend has turned inward after a series of misfortunes and doesn't seem to think he can reach out for help.

Another major patient story-line is the teenager whose mother was a Winston one-night stand. Winston and Amelia have to grapple with potential complications of the surgery as it seems the teenager might have lost the use of her legs. They're able to fix the issue, but there's tension between them leading up to it. I like Amelia and Winston's complicated friendship. They have this family tie through Maggie but it's obviously quite fraught, and they butt heads professionally too. I'd like to see them get more scenes together moving forward. Especially if they ever circle back to that Amelia/Monica thing they started to tease, because it would be funny for Winston to be awkward about that...

It's a little hard looking over my thoughts on this episode and confronting the fact that the things I'm excited about are potential story-lines that might take off or become more prominent.... and the "cons" section is just full of every major romance arc the show has going for it. I think Meredith and Mr. Boring are due to come back next week, so I'll have another romance to gripe about then! Woohoo.

6/10

[coffeeman777]

Hi! Can I have your opinion on something?

My friend and I have known each other/been friends for almost 3 years now. It’s an online friendship, but we call almost every week and talk almost daily. Lately, their (only using ‘their’ for the sake of anonymity, in case they see this) posts here on tumblr have been… *very* anti-Christian. I’m a Christian myself, and my other friend and I talk about our faith openly with/around this ‘problematic’ friend. The posts are incredibly demeaning and blasphemous, and they constantly call our faith/beliefs/the Bible and God nothing but nonsense (I’m paraphrasing - believe me, you don’t want to know what they’ve actually been saying), but only here on tumblr, not to our faces. They’ve expressed mild interest and/or mild support about Christianity before, but will wait for about a week and then post a bunch of horrible things about our faith. Not to mention the proshipping posts they’ve been making…

I really care about this friend, but I’m on the fence about what I should do. I don’t want to just drop them, since we’ve been friends and basically inseparable (as much as online friends can be) for years now, and we play weekly games together with some mutual friends (that I unfortunately run) but… their posts really bother me. I’m pretty awkward when it comes to talking about feelings and breakups (friend-breakups especially) but I feel a little weird about doing that too, especially since our mutual friends don’t know/notice it as much and it would make it weird with them (potentially). I’ve been praying for her since we met, and my Christian friend who knows about these posts (we talk about it often, trying to figure out what to do) has been too. That friend (the problematic one) has been posting stuff like that steadily for years, but it’s not nearly as bad and it used to be pretty few and far between. Now, it’s practically every other post, with random political stuff in between. They never used to be like this, at least not very openly. They claim to be atheist, but then will say they pray once or twice, joined a Christian youth group server I made (supposedly to learn; they did show interest at one point in becoming Christian but hadn’t really since then) and then will essentially blaspheme as much as humanly possible the next minute.

I guess I’m just lost about what I should do with this situation. I’ve been praying about it, but can you please give me some advice about what I should do? Sorry for the long ask!

Heya! I'm sorry it took me so long to get to this.

I think you should maintain the friendship and continue to share the Gospel with them as long as they'll allow it. Do your best to ignore what they say in their posts. Try to give them as much grace as you possibly can, and give every interaction with them as much joy, compassion, and mercy as you can summon. Live the Christian way openly and unapologetically. Let them see it. Talk about the Lord constantly where they can hear it. Be ready to answer their questions as much as possible.

Unbelievers are lost in the dark, and they do dark things. We can't let that stop us from being the hands of Jesus reaching out to them. If the things they say really bother you, ask the Lord for grace and help to deal with it. And of course, ask the Lord to break this person's heart and give them grace to receive the Gospel. No matter how tough it is, we should persist in situations like this.

I hope this helps! Be blessed!

[mdhwrites]

Can you elaborate on your comment on Discord that "[TOH characters in general] get a lot of backstory but little connects with their present character"?

*looks at every Hunter fan out there* How do we feel about the fact that this kid was literally raised to kill wild witches and be the Golden Guard but the only fighters in the main cast who are worse than him are the literal child and the illusionist?

Hunter is easily the most obviously egregious one but also the one that actually has a potential magical slide. After all, we don't actually know if Hunter has been alive for sixteen years. He potentially could have been alive for probably only five, thus making it so he has time to be trained and indoctrinated but was also 'old' enough to be easier to handle, left alone, etc. like that. Of course... That doesn't really fix the larger problem with Hunter's backstory versus his present day character, is it?

See, this is how I would breakdown what the theoretical present day concept for each character is that Luz meets versus the backstory version: Eda: Irreverent criminal who is only out for herself and probably would just be committing larger scale crimes for funsies if not for the curse. Backstory: Lovable scamp with a heart of gold who only ever does jokes, nothing actually bad and look at this child she adopted and totally won't threaten with rent later on.

Amity: A driven, goal obsesses girl who will do anything to be the best. Even simply losing the title and not being made to look like a fool is enough to warrant someone needing to die and she bullies the weak for fun and superiority. Backstory: Felt bad for hurting her teammates for personal glory and victory (those same teammates she will tell to eat a dick in that same episode), only bullied Willow for her own sake, frankly would rather just be a little goofball than actually succeed at anything.

Lilith... Okay, frankly it's more that S2 Lilith makes absolutely no sense with S1 Lilith. If they hadn't entirely warped her character, her backstory is actually pitch perfect for her grown up self, even down to being a little silly and caring about her sister. A LITTLE silly mind you.

Golden Guard: Actually fits the backstory as the rage and confidence of youth mixed with too much power and indoctrination make for an incredibly dangerous, close to unhinged Kylo Ren clone who will go from joking to I WILL MURDER YOU! if you don't take him seriously or annoy him.

Hunter: I'm just a widdle silly guy who can't even gut check a girl and force her to give me my staff. I am all for wild magic because maybe it can save my uncle, despite my uncle's problems being caused by wild magic. I will literally never win a fight alone except against Kikimora, the closest to a true, reoccurring gag villain that the series has.

Now yes: A character can grow and change as they get older. It can be a fun joke to have a prim and proper character have been a nightmare as a toddler. But this isn't how TOH portrays these backstory moments commonly. Much of the time, the backstory is meant to effectively be in the place of real moments in a character arc.

Take Amity's moment with Willow. In a normal character arc, this is the chance for the character to prove that they have a good heart and are maybe not as mean as they seem. However, Amity already has done that at least once with confessing to not wanting to see Luz hurt in Adventure in the Elements, if her diary didn't already do this in combination with not holding onto her rage against Luz there in Lost in Language. So they HAVE to put it as a backstory moment or it wouldn't be notable. Except... It would have? Hell, they even try to frame it as a kindness to Willow at the beginning which is a good idea because Amity's first appearance was being cruel to Willow but now that she's changed some but hasn't interacted with Willow since episode 6, she needs to show some kindness to her. But it's ALL kindness because they've already fully transitioned into good girl Amity so rather than feeling like a growth moment, it's to justify what they're doing. To say "Of course her development isn't this rushed because it's not development! It's just the old Amity coming back out."

The moment with the Thorn Vault is similar. A character like Amity SHOULD have a moment where she decides success isn't everything and steps back so as to allow someone else to take the spotlight if it means doing less harm. It's a good idea for a moment in her arc. But again: Amity has already moved past that part of her arc. She hasn't been focused on success or being the best since her SECOND APPEARANCE. And this is her last one in S1 so it goes into the backstory to show that she does understand the consequences of her actions rather than having it be a part of her arc.

Frankly, this stuff is just a part of a different blog I need to make about how Amity episodes are strangely NOT about Amity. She actually doesn't factor into them much so her arc feels bad because even episodes like Lost in Language or Adventure in the Elements only have five minutes of Amity at most.

Meanwhile for someone like Eda or Hunter, it's retcons. Eda needs to be convincingly like Momma Eda so making her actually motherly with King when they first met is a good idea... But it contrasts all they did in S1. Hunter is meant to show the cruelty of Belos but they want him to already be the sad but mad boy by the halfway point of the season (which btw, halfway through S1, Amity was already borrowing an Azura book from Luz showing compromise, kindness and connection, much like Hunter connecting with Amity's fears, almost giving into her speech about kindness and adopting Flapjack. There's a reason I say the shortening did fuck all to these character arcs because they follow the same god damned patterns) so that stuff needs to be in the backstory, like his scout training.

And to me, that is the antithesis of a backstory. Unless the point is that they're different from who they used to be, which it's often not for TOH, it should reinforce what we know about them. How did they get to the point they're at. It's actually one of the only strengths narratively of Them's the Breaks because the final challenge by Terra is a good moment to make Eda start rethinking her long term goals and if she likes the coven system at all.

It would just work way better if her present day character was anti-coven because it pits people against each other and tears the Isles apart instead of just "It makes you way less cooler than me because I can do ALL styles of magic." As such... It's them acknowledging what a good motivation in the setting and plot would have been but recognizing it too late so they have to add it as a retcon.

And you can only get away with that trick so many times before it feels like your story is a house of cards trying to pretend it's made out of stone.

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Since we are in Spooky Month, what are your Twisted OCs greatest fears? Could be something mundane or psychologically scarring.

Hmmmm...that's a good one. That's a very good one. Let me see...I think for this one, I'm gonna kind of do two different answers. One will be a more mundane, possibly even silly sort of fear; the other will be something deeper and more soul-consuming, so to speak.

NAKODA

Nakoda does not like fire. He's based on Kaa, and while Kaa never SPECIFICALLY points out an aversion to flames - that's really more Shere Khan's thing - we can presume it's not something he likes. In the movie, and ESPECIALLY in the original books, it's indicated that ALL jungle creatures fear "The Red Flower." Kaa included. So I think, as homage to that, fire would be something Nakoda isn't especially fond of. In his case, though, I think it's more likely because he got burned pretty badly at some point in his youth; not sure where or if he still has the scars, but regardless, that sort of makes him averse to flames. On a deeper and more psychological level, Nakoda is afraid of being...worthless. I think that's really the great fear in his heart: that nothing he does or will do will be WORTH anything. This is ironic, because a big part of Nako's character is that he lives in the moment, and isn't really sure of his future...but I think, deep down, he recognizes that's an issue. He WANTS to be worth something: that, I think, is the "control of his life" that he desperately seeks. He just doesn't know how to get it or what form of worth he really needs to find.

BILLY

Billy's greatest fear is loneliness. It's something he's experienced for a very long time, and it's something he hates feeling to the depths of his soul. His worst nightmare would be everyone he has gained in his life suddenly just disappearing off the face of the Earth, with no sign they ever even existed. He craves affection, attention, and companionship above all else; the whole reason he tried to kidnap Grim and the other "little ones" he first befriended was because he just wanted those things, and didn't know how else he was going to get them. It took him time to realize you can't force people to care about you and stay with you, but that doesn't mean he doesn't still fear people not doing those very things. I would say a more mundane fear he has is...(thinks)...honestly, only thing I can think of is some of his own schoolmates, specifically the likes of Malleus, Lilia, and - to a lesser degree - Vil. He does not want to make them mad. Basically, any specific person that could potentially do him harm. Beyond that, not really sure, since a lot of the more common obvious fears I think Billy wouldn't be bothered by at all. He likes spiders, he likes clowns, he's not scared of sharp things, he very obviously doesn't have an issue with heights...maybe claustrophobia could be one? I dunno, it's weirdly difficult thinking of what could scare him just on a more "obvious" sort of level. XD

ELIAS

Elias has an understandable aversion to water. Taking a shower is one thing, that can be nice, but he's not fond of swimming, not fond of heavy rain, certainly not fond of flooding and other such things...basically, unless it involves soap and him singing in the shower, he's not big on water. In his natural state, obviously it doesn't hurt him, but when he's in Blot form, water is a primary weakness for him, so that sort of carries over. A more complex fear Elias has is the fear of being forgotten. It's why he craves the spotlight so much, why he puts on the show of being "The Phantom Blot," why he occasionally gets so hammy and wants everything to be big and spectacular. He wants to have a lasting impact. His worst nightmare would be everyone he ever met forgetting he ever even existed.

RENO

Bug Spray, for a start. I think the reasons why are understandable, albeit comical. I also have this silly thought in my head of him being afraid of flyswatters...for no other reason than the idea of someone chasing him around with a flyswatter in their hand, and him whimpering like a baby even though it wouldn't actually do any real harm to him, is HILARIOUS to me. XD Beyond that...I'd say his worst fear is losing the things he cares about. A vague notion, perhaps, but I think it's the best descriptor I can give: his fear isn't so much that people will forget him, or that he'll just be alone, it's specifically that the people and things he cares about most will be TAKEN AWAY from him, with him being unable to stop that from happening. For someone who will do anything to win, loss ITSELF is probably the greatest fear they can have. And the higher the stakes, the more he dreads that loss.

JAMES

James is equal parts afraid of and flustered by the thought of getting eaten and digested alive, much like me/the MC. >////> So that's an obvious one right off the bat. But beyond that, I think James' greatest fear - what he's TRULY scared of - is death itself. It's WHY the thought sort of scares him as well as flusters him, actually. Because on the one hand, the idea of being permanently preserved as part of some other, stronger, mightier beast is something that makes him blush and squeak. But on the flip side, that means losing who he is, and James has QUITE the ego. On still another side, however...there's the alternative. Aging. Growing Old. Feeling your body shut down around your soul as you draw nearer and nearer to an uncertain and unstoppable end. Getting eaten, digested, and made part of some gorgeous animal's body is a certain and disturbingly appealing fate, in the way James sees and imagines it. Simply...fading from youth and life as time goes on...that is what James REALLY fears. Just like his inspiration, Captain Hook, James is afraid of time ticking away.

SMITTY

So, this may sound silly, at first, but...Smitty is afraid of jellyfish. Seriously. Not a joke. While most people think they are beautiful creatures to behold, he thinks they're freaky and creepy. And when you add in the absolutely nasty things jellyfish can do, he just gets more and more disturbed by them. So jellyfish are a genuine fear for him. He can take all kinds of other beastly creatures, but jellyfish? Perish the thought. (This is all inspired by the version of Smee in the Disney-published book series "Peter and the Starcatchers": he, too, is afraid of jellyfish, and even suggests naming a Pirate Ship after them, specifically because he thinks they are so scary.) Beyond that, I think Smitty's greatest fear is abandonment. He's afraid of being left behind by the people he cares for most - the most obvious one, of course, being James. The idea that those he cares for most could just stop caring about him and leave him behind, without another thought...that terrifies and saddens him deeply.

MAELSTROM

Maelstrom is afraid of sharp, pointy objects. Not to an excessive degree, mind you: he can handle a butter knife or a pair of scissors just fine. But due to personal and unpleasant experiences, a lot of really sharp, pointed, metallic objects just give him an unpleasant, unsettling feeling. Swords, spears, daggers...harpoons...very large hooks...not a fan of any of those. On a more personal, deeper level...I think Maelstrom is probably most afraid of what many bullies like him are truly afraid of: being seen as weak and small. His worst nightmare would probably be something like finding himself in a fishbowl with giant versions of people he's tormented tapping on the glass and jeering at him...perhaps a couple even threatening to swallow the "little blue fish" for no other reason than sport. Basically, put him on the opposite end of what he's probably put a lot of tiny ones through, and he'll be a babbling little baby.

THEODORE

Much like Elias, Theo has an aversion to water. However, in his case, it's a much less understandable issue. Unlike his inspiration, Theo won't melt if you throw a bucket of water on him...but he REALLY doesn't like getting wet. A bit like a cat, it makes him feel trapped in his own hide. Even though he does...you know...BATHE and so on, it's always a quick and hurried affair. I think the reason is because he nearly drowned at some point in his childhood, and ever since then, water has always been an iffy thing for him. On a deeper level, Theodore's greatest fear...is perhaps an ironic one. His greatest fear is...not being loved. Now, this is probably confusing, since I've made it clear Theodore isn't really the sort to BEHAVE in a way that invites one to love him. That behavior, however, comes from him feeling betrayed and disappointed in the past, and not being able to let go of that frustration: he is eternally frustrated with the world itself, and feels immense disappointment with himself. His greatest fear is that he will disappoint people who try to get close to him, so he does everything in his power to AVOID that happening, and stay focused on trying to gain the power he feels he must have in order to EARN that love and respect. It's a bit of a backwards way of working, but bottom line...Theodore is an oddball. He hates just about everyone, or at least claims to, and he's a constant grouch and occasional sadist...but part of that is a fear of attachment. Because attachment can be so easily broken.

GRIT

Grit is allergic to eggs, and does not like birds. While he won't DIE from ingesting a single egg - unlike a full Nome - he is still PART Nome, and so eggs...do not agree with him. Too much egg in any substance will potentially kill him if he eats enough, and even a little can give him a bellyache. So anything with eggs disgusts and mildly scares him...and birds? Birds and he do NOT get along: he is scared of them at worst, and annoyed by them at best. Beyond a general detestation of poultry and fowl and anything avian-related, however...Grit's greatest fear is losing his home. He is very close to his parents - especially his human mother - and genuinely cares about and loves the underground kingdom where he was born and raised. The idea of losing all of that, of it being taken away or emptied or otherwise ruined or destroyed, is the single most appalling thing he can imagine in the world. He fears and loathes anything that threatens his home and family as a result.