#you know what ultimate control is?

[mostlikelytofangirl]

Imagine during sunshot WRH gets in the habit of rewarding MY with sex. Son of a whore but it's the sect leader that's rewarding his subordinate with sex. MY makes a particularly entertaining spectacle in the Fire Palace and WRH gives him a handjob right there. The person he was torturing is not even dead yet

Oh hoho, if I told you that this is one of my fave flavors of ruoyaos :'D. And I'm very pleasantly surprised with the fact that there's an actual small handful of fics with this premise!

I guess it's just such a fascinating and likely way to explore their power dynamics. I mean, it'd be very easy for someone so powerful to just take what he wants in this regards (like JGS), but I think one of the things that make WRH unpredictable is that he can switch things up and still be the one in control and having the other submitting.

Like. I've seen a couple fics with him servicing MY (either with blowjobs or eating him out) and legitimately not interested in the favor being returned. Not even fucking him (well, not in the fic), bc the act of having this perfect little composed guy come undone by his hand is already enough of a treat.

Pain? Pain is too easy and unelegant. Pleasure? Now that's a whole new, fun way to have someone crumble for him. Especially when it's someone he doesn't really intent on hurting but that would be just so FUN to see how much he can open them.

NOW, the context you mention is honestly perhaps the only time in which MY, the infamous son of a whore, would actually accept it. Not only bc of the implicit rule of 'you just don't oppose what Sect Leader Wen wants of you', but actually seeing it as the reward it is bc WRH doesn't make it about his pleasure, but about MY's. And for someone with so much trauma and repression about that matter, letting himself be an actualy sexual person beyond what society says of him is something he'd probably find very difficult to do if he wasn't kindasorta dubcon'd into it. At first, at least.

As I see it, MY could have been very much ready to close his eyes and think of England until it all finished the first time he was "offered" such reward. But it would be clear soon enough that WRH is legit not doing it just bc he wants to fuck him (which, let's be real, he didn't need any excuse of ploy to have that anyways). And funnily enough, I do think psycho daddy can be a very selfless lover bc of course he'd memorize what got him the best reactions out of the boy and he's totally not above using that info to reduce his flawless, professional aide to a moaning, trashing mess as quickly/slowly as he wants :'D.

And eventually scalating it until he is rewarding MY in front of others? Honestly? After a certain point I can see it as the ultimate way to elevate MY bc one thing would have been to take the boy in front of everybody, that's humiliation (although it would depend on the situation and dynamics imo), but Sect Leader Wen servicing someone regardless of his own complition??? ALL WHILE SINGING HIS PRAISES????? DUDE. This is the man that has probably never poured his own cup!

Also can we just all agree that these two happily fucking on a bloody floor while semi-conscious tortured prisioners watch is just very inherently sexy 😌

[yanoharuhito]

im not In Tune with this fandom yet but like. ive looked over both ata 1 and 2 and like...what makes people think wooly is evil... or even remotely antagonistic.... it's not like he's there of his own will or anything, right? his interests differ from amanda's and that's okay i think

[angelsaxis]

miles story being written for him and how he means to reject that opens up with a racially motivated mess from that guidance counselor who some might say "meant well" but who ultimately was just going to do more harm than good. why arent more people talking about that

[t-u-i-t-c]

balance & naga // episode 31

[rawliverandgoronspice]

last reblog came straight to you from: spent the afternoon trying to explain to a new-ish videogame writer who comes from movies and series why process is such a mess and why no, we can't refine text ahead of gameplay and we must bow down to actual ingame pacing and also no, designers don't read what we write and are kind of annoyed at the existence of game writing by default (sorry yeah it sucks you get used to it)

[adore-gregor]

Ooof

Looking at old posts, sometimes you just ask yourself what was I thinking 😅

[arsenicflame]

hi so, checking in (sorry, its personal bullshit again, ill get back to the fandom stuff you actually wanted,,,, eventually)

things. are going bad. like, really bad, like last january bad. like im about to lose all my personhood again bad. im hoping its still just going to be a small blip and things will start upticking soon, but. im bracing for that not to be the case. it feels different to me

i vaguely mentioned earlier in the week taking a bit of a step back, and ive decided to extend that into a full break. my queues probably going to run out before im back, though i have slowed it down some. thatll be the only noticable difference for 99% of people. i wont guarantee any dm responses on here, but ill do my best for the couple of people who have me on discord

i didnt really want to do this again but it gets messy in my head, and ive found the best way to control the clawing beast of attention and need and the things that make me want to be a person i dont want to be is to cut it off at the source. its not nice, and it hurts, and it definitely kills the chances of making friends but. i promise you its better than the alternative.

ill see you when i see you, i guess. i hope its soon. i hope this isnt how it feels to be. i hope the feelings that have existed this week go dormant again. but itll be what itll be. i can't change that

[enchantingruinscandy]

on episode 2 of ben 10 ultimate alien. i had to take a tumblr break halfway through bc ben was making me so anxious

[buckevantommy]

*clearing out my open ao3 tabs* i shall save these smutty reads for later, for my sex wolf..

[godblessyoublackemperor]

cant sleep soothing myself w pottery videos

[7roaches]

need adventure time and utmv fans to talk abt betty grof and nightmare sans parallels with

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

[clerati]

I would argue that Gilmore Girls does nuance *really badly* because it tends to gloss over details and handwaves to "families are complicated am I rite?" super often and super casually like that makes anything and everything ultimately okay so no details are necessary.

Nuance requires context, and context requires detail.

[thealphabard]

I feel like I've said this quite a lot the last few months, but as far as anyone in my past is concerned, I'm a whole new ass person. I'm happy and have found myself in the best way possible and, for some reason, that infuriates the toxic people who have long since left my life.

[souridealist]

FFXIVwrite #12: 'quarry'

[Immediately after Endwalker base game. I... don't know if the line between the prompt and the result is traceable for anyone but me.]

Alphinaud finds Elilona on the hill across from the Rising Stones, tossing the Ragnarok’s teleportation device meditatively in her hand.

“Are you all right?” he asks her, dropping onto the warm spring ground. She tilts her head and weighs the question, eyes on the horizon.

“I think so,” she says at last. “I think I am.” The disc falls into her waiting palm. “Urianger said something that I’d… been thinking myself.”

“About — Ultima Thule?” Alphinaud’s voice doesn’t usually crack on the name, but he usually finds a way to think of it as a place or a phenomenon, not what it was.

“Yes. Well, no, not — yes.” Her smile twists in rueful half-apology. “Yes. About Ultima Thule, and about Zenos.” The disc spins in the sunlight. “I don’t really know how much you saw, how clear it was. But he came, and he carried me. He saved us. He had a message from Hydaelyn for me, too, in a way.”

“A message? Did she —” He hits the end of the sentence like an unexpected downward stair. Did she what? What can you ask of a goddess you served and met and killed?

“The Echo,” Elilona says, filling in her own question on his behalf. “She… knew, I think, or had enough left to touch the aether, something. But she knew I’d see what he saw, and she told him what she wanted to tell me.” Alphinaud must make some sound, because she looks to him. “It wasn’t about the world,” she says. “Only me and her, and my… progenitor. Something she hadn’t wanted to make me carry, and then thought might be better to know after all.”

“Will you tell me?”

“I will,” she answers, serious as ceremony. “But another time. I don’t think I know how to tell it, and for what I was thinking about today, it only matters that he knew it was a message. He knew he brought it.”

“And then you fought him.” He keeps his voice even and calm. Elilona has fought a great many people, and not all of them the ones she would have chosen. The only things about her that he doesn’t understand are made up of all those mid-battle moments where he hasn’t been able to go.

“We talked, first.” She snatches the disc from the air, this time, and rubs her thumb over the surface. “About who we are, and why we do what we do. He — asked, demanded, pleaded? I don’t really know. But he wanted me to tell him that I do this for the challenge of it.”

“What did you tell him?”

“That it wasn’t exactly true, but that he wasn’t wrong to see himself in me. Maybe not quite as much as either of us thought, but something.”

You are very unlike him, Alphinaud wants to say. But he’s learned something, at some point, along the way, and so he doesn’t.

“I fought him because he asked me to,” Elilona adds instead. “He offered to let me walk away. But he’d saved us all, and it’s not the end I would have chosen but I had to give him something. So.” She shrugs one shoulder. “I fought him. The way he wanted.”

“To the death?” Alphinaud ventures, mostly to give her something to answer.

“Nothing held back.” She flexes her fingers. “The way… the way I don’t do. When I came back to myself after, I’d torn chunks out of his ribcage with my hands.”

Alphinaud swallows the stone in his throat and reaches over to very deliberately take her hand. His fingers barely span the back, but he holds on.

“Thanks, Alphinaud.” She wraps her arm around him and pulls close; he presses his face against her shoulder. “But — I did come back to myself, after. And it was what he wanted. I wanted… I wanted to let him see it. And I could put it away.”

“I see.” He sits up, gives her hand another squeeze before he lets it go. “And you’re all right?”

“I really think I am.” She looks down at the disc in her other hand. “And then, after it was over — this was there. And I have a better sense for aether than dynamis, but I don’t think I could have called it alone.”

It takes Alphinaud a moment. “You think he sent you back to us.”

“I do.” She curls her fingers around the device. “A last gift.”

Alphinaud could forgive Doma and Ala Mhigo, or at least move on from them; he could have worked with Zenos, if the man had tried. He hadn’t thought anything could make him forgive Elilona’s sobbing, ragged face after the fight at the Royal Menagerie. And this doesn’t, either, but it does soften that reckoning.

“Well,” he says. “I suppose I can be grateful to him for that.”

“And I.” She tosses the device one last time and slips it into her pocket, pushing herself up to her feet. “I hope he found what he was looking for.”

[fauvester]

ntu au maria rivera decides that the only way to keep her boys safe is to decrease the amount of crime in miracle city. using evidence based compassionate policies and harm reduction! she gets elected mayor and makes all drugs legal (and regulated) and starts a bunch of social programs. the ntu gang working in miracle city and manny being like Yeah you can get lsd and coke at the government corner store but its weak as hell idk what to tell you