#i know this and i love you and its goinf to be ok

[7roaches]

need adventure time and utmv fans to talk abt betty grof and nightmare sans parallels with

[riiviir]

hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!

[sixosix]

heyyy kittteeeennnnn~~

(from thre very recent ch of thawed!!)

ilove u sm ausauASJHAKNJSA this is all i can do rn bc i am eepy and im planning to hibernate this christmas break to make up from my loss of sleep BUT!!

ok so u know how like cats eyes dilate when they see someone they like rght? and lyney is somewhat, if not fully, a cat right? yeah, i dont have to elaborate further<33

hres an extra

he dfinitely cried fr

HI WHAT THE HELL

that lyney art is SO CUTTTEEEEEEE AAAAAHHHGGGGHHH HE LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 im cryring im on my knees spbbing. I want to put him under a hydraulic press.

THE DETAIL W CATS EYESS OHHH youre so good. You get it. you hit exactly where i was goinf and youre a genius for that. Ugh. THE WAY HIS FACE LOOKS SO FRAGILE im going to scream horrible words. he definitely looks like he’s about to cry and that was definitely what i wanted to portray in that scene

THE SWCOND IMAGE im cryint. Im saving that. LYNETTES FAC E 😭😭😭😭😭 HAHAHHS

i hope u sleep well!! we have the same plans so here’s to us making up for our fucked up sleep schedule ❤️❤️❤️ thank u sm for this consumable art. Im in love with your art so much its unhwalthy. I LOVE YOU MERRY CHRISTMAS

[jjcocker]

ok Hai. hcs for the toss boys parents bc I basically nade them my ocs

starting w kii-yans parents bc i was mainly thinking of his mom in orddrr to eqnna make this

kii looks Exactly like his mom. like if u get a childhood photo of her abd comparw it to him someine who doesnt know her woukd think "ah. Girl Kii-yan."

his dad ummm I have 0 headcanons for him but hes there. Hes just. boring idk LMAO (/jkoe

his mom is the most "how do you do fellow kids 😎" type woman. She tries So Hard to be hip and all and she fails in such a way that its like. endearing

she definitely has 294857583984 bajilliom baby photos of kii. She Loves Her Son!!!! she also has a flashdrive full of More baby photos of him

shes childhood besties w both ao's mom and akas mom

and like . heres a Snall Detail i added on that; akas mom is trans. The little friendgroup they were was 2 girls 1 boy. and so. its like. oppisite toss boys. heehee hoohoo

ok i kinda went offtraxk but yeah rhats all

ok now to aos parents

his mom was Horrible at cooking . thats a. rabdom start but shhh

his dad is. How do i say this withiut sounding insensitive. full of Issues. from childhood to adulthood that man has Seen and Endured things that his son does not knwo of

his mom had short hair but she didnt really like having it. she wanted to grow it out

she was Really close friends with kii's mom. theyd constantly show/send each other baby pictures of their sons goinf "look at widdle aoi taking his first steps🥺🥺🥺" "look at my littl kii nearly eating a rock 🥺🥺🥺🥺" or. smth idk I dont have children

she was the youngest of the moms

ok goign back to his dad now. he does Not clean his glasses at all

hes also the typa guy to say "when I was Your Age-" to ao everytime he complained abt smth LMAO

ok I thikn thats all. now to akas

ok i actually hc her to have 2 moms,

^ so im calling one her mom and the other one her mama. yea

her mom is a bit (very) clumsy .. shes tripped on just about everything. Shes also tripped on nothing so

her mama is like. a fashion designer (hir ockiin:3) and all.

^ Durinf remix 5 (ibfeel like the toss boys were all in that "its not a PHASEEEEE" moment BRKTJTHHT) she nearly fainted seeing aka bc she was wearing the most godawful fit (to her) + tried to cut her own hair (it went horribly wrong). so

i feel like her mama is probably the only thibg preventing both aka AND her mom to blow somethinf up. Unintentionally or not

akas mom was exactly Just Like Her as a kid so. yeah

and um. i kinda ran out of creatiticy here girl help

[lem-argentum]

i want to ramble about dagger and zidane ff.ix so im goinf to do that hi.. not selfship related but they’re where the quote in my bio is from if that matters ^^ <3. okaya

DAGGERRR. 💛💛💛 is such a good character i love how she’s written.

i saw a post along the lines of “iirc the first time dagger smiles in a cutscene is when she cuts her hair” and THAT IS ALMOST TRUE *BUT!!!!* she does smile in one of the first cutscenes when she’s escaping the castle.!!!! WHICH!!! STILL ADDS TO THE POINT THAT PERSON WAS MAKING BECAUSE her joy comes from forming an identity for herself and choosing her own path andmfndj.!!:!

i wanttt to talk about her name. she initially starts going by dagger just as an alias and it doesn’t hold any weight then, but over time it ends up being representative of like.. the moment she started living her own life you know.!! the fact that her given name (the one given by the royalty of alexandria not her birth family) was only meant to make her into a replacement for the previous princess is also part of it. becauuse. it wasn’t even a name given to her by brahne, really, it was a name given to someone else passed onto her without any regard for her as an *individual*

and SO. when she starts traveling with zidane and takes on an identity of her own little by little it makes me AAHGJ. <3 it’s good. she names herself after zidane’s dagger and eventually uses that same knife to cut her hair being symbolic of the same thing and ahfkdfmcd ITS GOOD.

zidane is also respectful of that the ENTIRE GAME have you noticed that from the *moment* dagger picks a name of her own, zidane uses it the ENTIRE WAY FORWARD even when other characters drop it and even after a year passes and even in the final lines of the game .!!?!!!znnn!!!!! there are things to be said about how he treats her at times (he is zidane “i’m always thinking about girls” tri.bal after all) but he honors her decisions without hesitation and lets her lead the way and legitimately cares about her and :’) <3 i like them.

can i also mention ff.ix has one of the most fun opening sequences ever writing-wise and zidane and dagger’s “i have a favor to ask of you — i wish to be kidnapped right away.” moment defined romance and this game is GOOOD the end ok i’m done <3333.

[ars3n1cc]

mleg :•3

Bernadette

I Don't Speak To Whores

Under Control

Lent

Cemetary Girl

Dead Next Door

It's Never Enough

Freakin Freak

PEACESIGN

Here To Stay

I've Got Some Falling To Do

No One Wants To Play

i got too sleepy halfway through im goinf to bed night night boyfriend ×2

thank you for all the music omg,,

Bernadette

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

fucking. pedo ghost. hell yes. its like phantom of the opera meets that one vibe i was really into years ago

i dont speak to whores

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

kinda knew this one already, not too well though. its fun :•33

under control

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

omg this is so silly fun,, absolutely going on my summer nights playlist

lent

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

ohh yes i know this one!! i think you showed it to me. it was in a conversation shit talking girl in red when you can have gay music like autoheart i think. theyre both good lesgay solidarity

cemetary girl

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

clownecrophilia

dead next door

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

yes holy shit yes

its never enough

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

ive known this one for years. yes<3

freakin freak

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

you were right in calling it awful /silly /lh

peacesign

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

fuck i love this shit<33

here to stay

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

🌽

ive got some falling to do

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

ive listened to this once before its very fun. Neil cicierega is pretty

no one wants to play

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

YEAH.

[bewby]

hi seven, hi hi hi, i am slightly tipsy but i want to wish you a proper happy birthday.

you‘re so fun and funny and you‘re one of the sweetest people out here and i‘m so happy we‘re friends. i always get emotional at the end of the year but tbh this has been a really good year mostly bc i met you guys. you have such a great way to connect people, you are always worrying so much abt what everyone thinks but i don‘t think you need to bc just look at how many people love you!! it‘s SO many!!

you‘re smart AND you have empathy AND you try to treat people kindly AND you‘re opinionated in a way that feels wholly you. i know you worry also abt who you are and if it‘s enough but i please look at how everyone who sent you a happy birthday knew you and knew what you liked. you leave an impression and you love people a lot and it‘s so great to be here with you. you said you don‘t know if you deserve all the love and i‘m here to say: that‘s not important. people decide how much love they give you and so many people decided they wanted to give you love. i can‘t say about the future but that means that in this moment, you deserve it.

i really hope you‘re not too hard on yourself through all this (ur early 20s) and i hope you know that i‘m always here and ready to help you out if you need, ok? i believe in you and i‘m proud of you for trying so hard. i really hope this next year is good to you and i hope we can continue to go through it together and also here are like, the 4 hanjis i have saved on my phone 4 u

I FINALLY HAVE TIME AND AM NOT DRUNK AND OFF THE SHITS . I AM SO FUCKING SORRY THISN TOOK SO LONG CHRIS. anyways. how do i even START. reading this all over again and i'm just sitting here like

CHRIS. Chrisisisisijdjfkfhshsj. chris okay listen. i have never received a message on my bday as thoughtful and sweet as this like i'm literally. so thankful SO SO THANKFUL to have you in my life and for you being here. when i first read this like hours ago i was like insanely overwhelmed and i still tried to like answer you despite the atmosphere and everyone beinf loud making me like. feel like a cat with its fur goinf up like i was just. AHHBGBFJ. but. that's how much i appreciate you as my friend ... i TRIED TO PUSH THROUGH ... i'm sorry i failed but i'm here now lettinf you know that. not only am i so thankful for all of your help that you always give me and all your knowledge (as you have way more life experience than me) but also. iam more than anything thankful that you are my friend and someone i can joke with and feel comfortable with, i love your personality and i love the way you have opinions on things and how you try to make everyone feel loved and included like you literally keep the gc we have with mel emily and jace so alive and i appreciate this so much about you... you genuinely are so loving and i hope you know i love you lots too. you're the best ever and i'm so happy we're friends okay . FUCK YOUUUUKJJJHHU HOW DO I EVEN REPLY I SOUND SO SILLY. thank you So much. i will cry and die now ☹️

[potatoes-n-stuff]

I HAD SOME SAD DEMONSTUMP IDEAS BEFORE I SLEPT LAST NIGHT SO IM GOINF TO TRY TO REMEMBER THEM HERE SO I CAN WRITE THEM LATER

Uhhhh I think the first one was related to petes parents? Pete still always wanting Patrick to meet them officially on the phone but Patrick still refuses. Oh one day his mom hears Patrick singing and says its nice and Patrick gets all blushy and like hes finally at a point where he's too embarrassed to say no so he lets Pete drag him over to the phone. Mom keeps saying things and making him all blushy on the video call like asking when the wedding is HAHA and Pete isn't helping by telling her he will let her know. OK but he is honest. He does tell her they're not together. Mom says Pete cant hide anything from her and they just laugh

Then they have a conversation about.... about.... that..... Pete being like.... would you marry me. . Lmao.... as a joke....Patrick's like...hahaha...... you known you literally pay me to like you, right? And Pete bursts out laughing but also patrick immediately regrets saying that cos he can hear it. He knows Pete well enough now they he can hear that that laugh was forced. He didn't mean to let that come out sounding so hurtful.... but maybe that's good. Maybe pete needs to know that, right

Everything else is normal tho. They go to bed and Pete happily snuggles into Patrick's back and kisses his neck goodnight. Patrick wraps his tail around petes thigh and sighs

And then pete has a crisis later cos he's so stupid his best friend is a demon and the demon part isn't the problem but like his best friend is someone whom he's literally paid to take care of him what did he expect. His brain tells him he knows Patrick and Patrick wouldn't do this to him but also no he's having a crisis he's not listening he calls his friend to have a crisis with cos he's in love with a demon who couldn't care less about him the demon just wants him for food what the fuck-

Yep that's my sleep time thoughts. Also I remember last time I had another crisis post. So I need to find that uhhhh and resolve the two. So I can decide on where the story is going. So I can update the doc. Woo

[happily-babed]

small ventilation

more or less bc i dont have friends and if i get ou my feelings somehow i can let through them better 😊

okay so back ground. Jordan and i work together. established physical attraction on both sides almost immediately. nothing has ever happened. we have hugged. our hands brushed the other day and panic say in.

we've been working together for a few months now. but I've also recently ended a 3+ year relationship. (ended bc dutch and i still talked for a while after.) so I've not really been in the greatest place for a NEW romantic relationship. neither one has pushed it, I've been grateful. we have discussed what could be, but its always been if.

fast forward to last night. we go on the duck hunt (dont find the duck). he drives us back to Sebastian's where has been staying (?). as hes about to get out asks if it would be a bad time to ask me out. super casual. no biggie. i say yes and expect that to be the end of conversation. no. it's not. he hits me with a why. and i realize that while jordan knows that dutch and i talk sometimes, he doesn't know how I feel. i just tell him that its weird between us still. he says "okay, well let me know when its not" and gets out. i have to too and thinking back i see he felt that, deeply.

so i leave, need to stop or gas. as its pumping i send a ramble message or 5 to Jordan explaining a little more in depth why i think we should wait. explaing that while we are broke up, i still have some feelings for dutch. that I still love him. while explaing that I do like Jordan and dont want to give him some half assery version of me. it's a little jumbley and im on the verge of tears when im done.

i drive home, still nothing. a couple of hours pass and i get hit with "okay, thank you bri."

at first I was like aw heck yea you are welcome. but then I start thinking on it. he saying ok that I played him, i toyed him, i hurt him. lm trying not to panic. I've been hanging out with him, making this bind, for months now and its goinf to end bc we want different things.

so i ask. i need to know. what kind of thank you was it. like what are you thanking me for. as i originally thought it was for me realizing his worth and not wanting to give him less. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING.

now i whole ass like him more. i actually got my first butterflies w him on our way to his house the night of the hunt. like the night he asked me out was the nifht it hit me how much I like him. and then he hits me understanding. something i didn't have last time.

i took him to work today and all was good. we're about to go 3 days without seeing each other (most likely) and its weird. we were having the same days off and hanging out on those.

so LMAO. here i am. in bed. crushing on a younger co-worker.

ps. we both have bad living situations and have talked about getting a place together. would help ive tremendously but i dont want to jump back into another relationahip w someone in living w. the end.

[turtleedovee]

ik i asked this question but i am going to answer these other questions because this is so EXCITING

Fav TS&TS chapter?

THIS IS HARD!! REALLY REALLY HARD

i guess rn i would have to pick

Chapter 19: Season Two, Episode Eight : The Spy

BECAUSE WE SEE ALPHA TWO “UNOFFICIALLY” IN ACTION AND SO MUCH IS GOING ON AND THEN GHOST FINALLY WAKES UP AND THERES SO MUCH WHUMP GOINF ON I LOVE IT

Fav out of the Alpha 2?

again… you are so right this is like picking favorite children IM— AHHHG

they’re all so good in so many different ways but i think my top three IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1.) belov

2.) zac

3.) rafael

S1 or S2

god this is hard because they are so different!! in season 1 we spent our time learning boone and dukes background in like the first two chapters and the rest we got to know them as a team! and the action and story was so good all the time!!! season 2 on the other hand each character has a chapter learning about them and it’s so good because for me especially being able to know this team before ghosts entry helps me love all of these characters even MORE RHAN BEFORE

Favorite Flashback chapter?

ooooo this is a really good question

i would say either 7t7k or The Merchant of Death

7t7k i love because we Danny and f/n relationship and they were so in love and just seeing them in this crazy situation pull off this fucking insane assassination AHH LOVE

merchant of death because it’s so 🥲🥲because again, danny and f/n relationship is so real and i am a fully danny (pre wraith maybe) supporter. i don’t doubt his love for her at all, and if i am proven wrong i will become a shell of my former self.

but another thing i love seeing is their WORK relationship like first and foremost he is her superior and they are there to get a job done and it’s a really interesting dynamic to see. like this is IN-TENSE and danny just being rough with f/n when she goes against his orders is like 😳

but also because it’s the last chapter before they all 🥲yeaaaaa

(also you killed me with those new flashbacks from ts&ts for the ambush :((( how dare you do this to me i-)

fav moment or chapter from the red room?

oh boy… where to start

ok look something you must know about me i like stakes.. action pack, climax at PEAK— love

so i think my fav chapter has to be No Time to Die

and i think specifically because of belov having to fight a brainwashed boone :,(

just seeing their relationship and love for eachother and belov is trying to protect her i can’t it hurts

AND THEN AND THEN—

natasha.. avengers… assemble

THAT MOMENT

that moment—

literature at its finest i can’t deal because GHOST AND ALL OF ALPHA TWO THERE AND THEN THE AVENGERS AHHHH

(i’ve said it before and i still stand by it— ghost being a sort of side character is so fun to read!! it’s so interesting and i love it all the time when we get those little snippets at the end of ts&ts)

THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY BUT I LOVE THIS AND YOUR WORK IS SO MWAHHH have a good day darke :)))))

DARKE!!!

i’ve been meaning to ask this for so long but i always forget but NOWWWW I REMEMBER

out of all the chapters you have written, which ones are your favorite?! like id say top 5

the reason i’m asking is because i’ve been thinking about my favorite chapters (now don’t get me wrong they’re all FIRE) but these are the ones i find myself rereading the most (in no particular order)

1.) Chapter 62: Frankenstein’s Monster

2.) Chapter 65: It’s Been a Long, Long Time

3.) Chapter 36: Anonymous Avenger

4.) Chapter 39: Zero Dark Thirty

5.) Chapter 57 Killer Instinct

(coming up with this list was HARDDD BECAUSE THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES)

Ahhhhh Vallll!!!

This is such a hard question. It's like trying to pick your fave child or something...

That being said...

5 - Occluded Front

This one was so much fun to write. The back and forth between Ghost and the Soldier, the fact that the Soldier has been watching her in the back of Bucky's mind....oooofffff *chef's kiss* this is the chapter that really set us up on the path back to Aftermath and Bucky on his path back to the Avengers and, of course, it sets us up to meet the one and only, Wraith.

4 - Zero Dark Thirty

The angst. The first kiss. The drama. The deal with the devil herself. Need I say more?

3 - Shadow Boxing

Wraith makes his big, bold entrance in this bad boi. Plus! We bring not only Aftermath and the Avengers together, we meet Bucky in Prague and he gets to meet Ghost again. This is one of the chapters where it was supposed to be combined with the chapter before it but Wraith took the reins and became rather nefarious. Which was so, so fun.

2 - Wargames

Yes, this chapter is Duke/Boone centered, but it was the one that cemented with me the fact I was going to write The Soldier and The Spy. Watching them work together in that chapter and knowing that they had a past together really inspired me to write season one. And season one turned into season two. And now season two is turning into season three. Without this chapter, and y'all's support, of course, TS&TS probably wouldn't have been a thing.

1 - Little Red Book

The big bad bean itself. This chapter took a lot out of me at 20k words but it was so, so much fun to write. Again, we got the Avengers and Aftermath working together. We got Bucky and Ghost working together...we get Bucky actually getting the help that he needs...And, most importantly. We get Ghost and Bucky's first 'I love you.'

Another big thing about this chapter is that it gave me my official chance to pull away from the MCU and enter into the BS:U entirely.

Gahdamn, this was hard. And I'm now realizing that, as much as I love the fluff I've been writing recently, I really miss fight scenes bc I love going back and reading them.

Tell me what y'all think! I'd love to hear what your faves are!!!

What's your fave TS&TS chapter? Who's your fave out of Alpha 2? Did you like S1 or S2 better?

What's your fave BS:A Flashback chapter? And why?

What about a fave moment or chapter from The Red Room?

[survivortongatapu]

Episode 3 : Like He Lost Tag On The Playground | Andrew Gentile

So few subjects to choose from to entertain myself Too high to competently do this education stuff Too many grains of rice to eat I need a bagel with loxspread because I'm Jewish

The motivation to show that I'm manly, good at challenges and have lots of testosterone is not worth all this pain of clicking stupid numbers in the multiplication table. I keep telling myself I'm doing it for two charities: - The sanity of my tribe - The children

Literally 9x6=potato at this point

Lol being immune and lurking? I’m in Ecuador going to the Galapagos rn so outcast island is the best thing ever.

So I have no idea where I stand on my tribe at all! I'm initiating most of the conversations that I have which sucks! And I'm trying my best to form bonds but also not try too hard! 

 hope i can get enough to win this immunity to be honest i am glad i was not voted out 

We lost the challenge and I'm just woo! Jordan got a lucky pass and only got to submit 30 points had that been me I would have been voted out smh. Kaci got evacuated to Outcast island luckily so no drama tonight!

YES! we won rip kaci but woo us i hope we can keep winning

So IDK what the heck our vote was last round. I thought everyone was voting for Adrian but instead it was a huge mess. Basically I'm glad we won because otherwise I think we'd be in for another messy tribal council. 

his confessional will probably be a little less filled up than normal because: A. Free Rice took up all my time of socializing with people B. No tribal but on the other hand, i got the highest score in Free Rice which idk what to feel about it. It's good because I helped my tribe win, but bad because.. challenge threat label? But having a challenge threat label in Ausvivor when.. half the game is premerge won't affect me much. Only thing really going on is the Reward/Idol System... APPARENTLY Andrew found half of a Super Idol on the Purple Rock... and we need to find the Purple Rock. He said he told me, yes, ME! because he trusts me the most which is GREAT. Also though, I'm talking to Charlotte and she's done the EXACT SAME THING as Andrew on both times she's gone to the Idol System, first time, they both grabbed the torch in the cave, second time, Andrew got the Purple Rock like... 2 minutes before her which SUCKS for her. But I'm glad Charlotte is telling me about it too. I got a disadvantage for our tribe in the next challenge because I searched in the top hole of a tree, which Pocket told me to search in because he did the bottom and middle holes, but whatever! Antoine went into the bush on the clear path, and did the Yellow Rock. My goal right now is to figure out what most people on our tribe have done for the Idol System so I can have a greater knowledge of it and find out where idols are! Overgrown -> Keep Going = END Clear -> Top Hole = DISADVANTAGE Clear -> Middle Hole = END Clear -> Bottom Hole = END Clear -> Keep Walking -> Bush = END Clear -> Keep Walking -> Keep Walking -> Yellow Rock = DISADVANTAGE Clear -> Keep Walking -> Keep Walking -> Blue Rock = ? Clear -> Keep Walking -> Keep Walking -> Purple Rock = HALF SUPER IDOL Clear -> Keep Walking -> Keep Walking -> None = ? Rocky -> Cave -> Grab Torch = END Here's my list of what I know so far, so I wanna know what happens on the Overgrown and Rocky sections now. Outcast Island is also having its first Tribal, and I'm assuming Conor or Kaci will go because they're more inactive. And besides that... nada! I have WAY better strategic relationships with people now because everyone talked game last round. I feel so much more aggressive and proactive in this game! It's really nice getting what I want. Like I've never done that in games before so being able to have more control over my fate is SOOOO nice and strategy is.. kinda, sorta fun! So I'm having a great time and playing the game, and I guess I can just hope I win.

We lose. Johnny no lifing does NOT prevail RIP Kaci. She would've been a good ally, but she's a fool and didn't tell RTP that she was excusing herself for the challenges, which is kinda playing survivor 101 if you know you're not going to be here, which is fucking tragic, but it's okay. Maybe her pretty face can make her way back into the game from outcast island. WE SHALL SEE

So things are goinf well...-ish. We might have lost the challenge but we don’t have to go to tribal thanks to Kaci’s absence. Thank god. I think if we went to tribal now it would all blow up, I still want time to soldify the bonds I’ve made, so no matter what i have options when things do inevitably change.

I really hope we'll win the challenge tonight. I'm worried I might have to fight for my spot if we lose! I hope those hidden rewards are worth it cause they are hard to find.

So Tim basically has attached himself to my hip as a dynamic duo in this game. Honestly, I am perfectly okay with that. I feel like Tim will be a particularly loyal ally to my cause, and he will definitely boost my reputation on this tribe. Still working on getting in with Stephen, but I feel like I have done that successfully. Johnny is another potential ally on this tribe and lord knows I need to start earning them.

bye trip and your idol hehehe

Y'ALL I'VE FINALLY DONE IT! AFTER TOO MANY GAMES TO NAME I HAVE FINALLY FOUND AN IDOL. And it's a ruby idol, so I can't wait to fuck shit up. I'm not telling anyone about it either cause I trust no one :)

Glad we won this challenge, but I am starting to get nervous. By this point I expected strategy to come into play a bit more, with people already starting to talk about who they want gone. But thats not happening. Tribal would, at least, reveal alliances and start the game going. That being said every round we win is a round I’m 100% safe, and a round I could find an advantage in reward.

I love that we won immunity! It's such a great feeling to not have to worry about going to tribal. Also, RIP Trip. It's sad that the person who sacrificed himself for us was voted out first. Though I do doubt if there was ever any hope for him seeing as he would have had zero connections. At the very least, Kaci is surviving which is good for me since she is someone I would like to work with. If Adrian comes back, though, I could very easily use him to take out his other tribemates like Jay. Hopefully, he is bitter enough to do that.

I CANT THIS TRIBE IS.... I wish i had a gif of this but just imagine the gif of Brenda Lowe saying "I don't even have to do anything and people align with me!" LIKE!!! IVE BEEN ADDED TO 2 ALLIANCES WHILE IVE BEEN AT SCHOOL ALL DAY. AND PEOPLE SAID TO WAIT FOR MY OPINION TO DECIDE WHO TO VOTE.. I LOVE HAVING CONTROL. I have.. POWER.. love it. Also Chrissa and Pocket are fighting because Antoine is in Pocket's pocket essentially, but Antoine doesn't really talk to anyone else, so Pocket wants Charlotte out, while Chrissa wants Antoine out. IDK Also now I'm in 3 alliances!!! Alliance #1 - Good Eggs - Andrew/Carson/Chrissa/Jay/Owen/Pocket Alliance #2 - hey youtube stu here - Andrew/Bryan/Carson/Jay/Owen/Willow Alliance #3 - The Watchdog League - Andrew/Antoine/Carson/Pocket/Willow this is fucking.. insane why are these people like this i feel like the only sane one. also, jay threw Pocket under the bus in Alliance #2 Pocket threw Jay under the bus in Alliance #3 so Willow/Charlotte/Chrissa/Jay/Antoine/Pocket are the names circulating andj ust... i dont even know. this tribes a mess

These people are the most wishy-washy people ever. First nobody want to say a  name and then, when I decide to throw a name out, nobody want to really commit to it. OMG, I don't know what to do with these guys. Like i'm suppose to be in an alliance of 5, who care who is voted out outside of it! To be honest, I wouldn't be surprise if my name come up tonight or if i'm going home. It's either me or Jay to be honest or I'll be surprised.

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Oh boy, immunity aint that swell. reward was lame, i injured myself but didnt even die like come on ryan. anyways ya, its chill #LongLiveJordanPines

So apparently Pocket is throwing out my name. It’s too early to try to take him down but I won’t forget it.

I hope the vote goes smooth i just want us to be on the same page and so i just hope however the vote goes we still are on the same page 

Ok so. Jay made an alliance of me, him, Carson, willow, owen, Charlotte, and drew. So I’m cool with that for now. Also. I thought willow was gonna be the target before hand. But it turns out pocket was targeting Charlotte and Chrissa was targeting Antoine and they had a little kerfuffle about it. I don’t like that pocket was targeting Charlotte. So I suggest to this alliance we vote him out. But like. This vote is probably gonna be all over the place tbh. Smh. 

Im more than happy to not have tribal but my forest searches are going horribly! Ive gotten closer to Raffy and even proposed a final 2 with him. ALSO Stephen found half of the supeidol and decided to tell me about it I'm estatic! I smell a swap coming though so.... Honestly thats good for my game because that means that I won't be voted out from my original tribe who I think have an alliance already made :/ (without me in it of course). I still want to work with Johnny and Raffy and Stephen and maybe even L.A but for now jm leaving all of my options open!

So I found something in the reward, half a super idol!!!! eek. but now i have to keep looking for the other half, although chances are someones found it. But it’d be a bad idea to broadcast in the hopes that someone will come forward with the other half. I have told Tim, my ally, so that if he hears anything he will tell me. I hope that isn’t a mistake, but I trust him. Idk if I’ll tell Johnny, or Jordan, the ither two I’d consider aligning with, I don’t 100% trust them yet.

Its time to find part 2 of the SuperIdol, let the hunt begin.

Ok despite this round being twice as long, even less happened. Kaci was medevaced, which sucks because I really wanted to work with her. At least I know I'll have an ally at outcast island if i get voted out. I've got johnny on my side still, as well as jordan, rob, and probably stephen. I had a convo with tim today, and I also want to work with him. I'm just wary of how many people i give my loyalty to because I'm sure andrew is also going to have his own allies. But honestly? why am i even thinking about this game. Why do i have to constantly remind myself that I also have an opportunity to win. Anyways! I think i'm in a good spot on this tribe. I wouldnt mind a swap tho, lets shake it up!

this game makes me wanna eat my own ass bc pocket and chrissa fought and the vote switched from pocket to chrissa to charlotte to antoine back to chrissa back to antoine maybe idk I'm literally gay and i wanna die and I'm like in 18 alliance chats and I'm on call with jay carson and willow trying to figure this out someone pls fuckin help

i somehow flipped this vote to Antoine?? like i said earlier i wanted antoine out and this is somehow working... i love big movez!!!!! im shaking. this is for you pocket!! also apparently charlotte likes antoine more than chrissa.. we're working this. i really do feel like brenda lowe rn with everyone coming to me and me just telling people things! like i dont think imma get the blame for this vote from ANYONE because andrew/jay/willow were doing the heavywork while i suggested it. whew. hope antoine goes because he sorta petered out after night 1.

heres a short synopsis of the vote and what happened: 1. i got added to 3 alliances and every single one wanted different things, with pocket, jay, antoine, charlotte, and chrissa being targeted. 2. i went on call with bryan/jay and they tried getting me to vote pocket, i like pocket, so i was like EHHHH maybe iDK! i like majority :3 could we do antoine? 3. talked to andrew during that call who wanted chrissa out hard, said "CAN WE CUT ANTOINE PLEASE.." 4. went on call with andrew/jay, said we could do antoine, not too bad to flip it. they agreed, added willow, told everyone while i ate food. 5. :) woo lets see if this works

ugh its gonna be ant tonight which is kinda sad bc hes really nice f;alksdjf this is too messy honestly 

I would vote out Pocket rn because he's asking to if it weren't for the fact that we all just went to the trouble to save him, and now he's gonna be a piss baby that things aren't going his way. Sorry I don't respect that and now I don't respect him as a player so he can go back to Party City (Zwooper) where he belongs.

This round has been a massive mess. So to start, I wanted to vote out Antoine, but Chrissa and Pocket had a fight about whether it's Antoine or Charlotte. I talked to Andrew and we decided to cut ties with Chrissa and Pocket and start a new alliance with Bryan and Willow replacing them. Well what do you know! A new conflict broke out on whether to vote Chrissa or Pocket! It really looked like Chrissa was leaving until Owen messaged me saying that he's voting Pocket no matter what. So naturally I call my closest ally, Carson, and we get to talking and we decide we want Chrissa to stay. But we didn't want to alienate Andrew, so after the vote was set on Pocket, we talked to Andrew about the vote since he didn't want Pocket out. We ended up deciding on voting Antoine because if he leaves, and Pocket continues to trust Andrew, we have a solid five (Me, Andrew, Carson, Willow, and Pocket) and I trust Bryan to vote with us too. 

And as we speak, Pocket is having a meltdown and asking to leave and I'm sorry I didn't go through so much effort to get this vote the way it's supposed to be JUST TO CHANGE IT AGAIN! Sorry buddy, I need numbers, and you're one of those numbers. :)