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guess who made enough tips to get hammered B-)
#the horrors#me of coooourse#probably more manic angry after work than I should have exposed but hey fuck it#I’m stressed and hate my fucking job beyond belief#oohhh this job is so easy#okay entitled little boy still living at home with their rich family#you don’t worry about the cost of living yet#then you will worry about your job constantly because it isn’t a choice anymore#it’s not optional at all anymore#work shit min wage or go homeless#WORK FULL TIME MIN WAGE OR GO HOMELESS#you can’t have shit to yourself#be grateful you went homeless and ur family loves you and is there#hahahahahaha can I please be salty first about failing#CAN I PLEASE EXPRESS NEGATIVE EMOTION AND STILL BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE AND WHO I HAVE THANKS#THA KS THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS LET ME FEEL IT OUT PKEASE PLEASE PLEAEPEOPLEQSE
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Fiddauthor doodles
*leaves this politely on the floor and scurries away*
yeah. enjoy ^_^
#THEY MAKE ME ILL WHAT THE SHIT#I AM GOING TO EXPLODE#fiddauthor#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleauthor#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#ford pines#gravity falls fiddleford#stanford pines#gravity falls#normal about them.#the first occurs in the comic btw.#doomed yaoi#no because ford get your head in the game. there’s a married man that wants you more than he wants anything else.#I’m just as oblivious as him though. I can’t be talking.#also fiddleford how does it feel spending all your college years hopelessly pining for your roommate#and feeling frustrated with the lack of romantic progression because neither of you can read signals for shit#so when you inevitably don’t amount to anything and are forced to just ignore anything that may have ever existed between you two#you spitefully get hitched and have a kid to prove to yourself that you’re a) straight and b) not just some loser coward#but all along you’ve just known he was the right one for you. nobody could ever compare to what he gave you#everyone else has simply acted as a replacement or substitution for what you felt for him. you can’t shake the feeling ever.#and when years later you get a call from him you justify immediately leaving to work on the project as a) your entitlement to him and b)#a desperate and hopeless attempt at rekindling your college days#HOW DOES IT FEEL FIDDLEFORD
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Saw some shit take on generative AI that pissed me off about how AI “helps people who don’t have the skills bring their visions to life”. Mine brother in craft, art is not just about vision. It’s about EXECUTION. Literally everyone has ideas. How many of those ideas make it into artwork, writing, games, movies, etc etc? How many times have you complained about a show having a great premise but bad execution? It’s in the doing.
#i thought we as artists derive joy from the making…? 🤡#why would i want a machine to autocorrect my ‘vision’ from stolen art when i could just shittily make it ��#unfortunately having a good vision isn’t enough! you need to make that shit into reality! or commission someone to do it! or grab a picrew!#also not that compelling of a vision if you can’t be bothered to bring it to reality yourself 🤷🤷🤷🤷#salt#ria.txt
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being blocked by the ceo of tumblr for being vocal about the unfair treatment trans women face on this site under the public posts on his public blog is honestly the most insane thing that’s ever happened to me in my time on this site. he is not escaping the transmisogyny allegations
#transmisogyny#like what a fucking spineless rat#if you can’t take valid criticism don’t post about something people have been mad about forever#like this kind of shit has been going on since automattic bought the company#also cringe naming your company after yourself lol
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you read RP as "are-pee"
yes but specifically I read it in the vinny vinesauce “booti pls” aka “rp guy” voice because I have 10 years of mushroom growth infesting my mind
#plae deemcee to is the beast donte is good and bets in geaem#speaking of. vinesauce. there was a Mario kart stream a few months ago and Gianni was there#and while there was no gabe present that shit was insane#you just have to experience it yourself I can’t say anything else#I mean. how else would you read it#not in the arrrrpee guy voice but like. how else would u read it. are you guys saying role play every time#asks#ask#non voice post
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the fact that most of the people in this fandom don’t even seem to like the books😭if you didn’t enjoy canon why the fuck are you here. fandom is for nerds. this “fuck canon, canon doesn’t matter, well sirius and remus were ~straight~ in canon so i hate it!” shit is actively anti nerd. deeply annoying and also not even technically true.
#marauders era#anti marauders fanon#anti marauders fandom#harry potter#Post#vent#“Sirius and Remus were straight in canon” show me the paragraph where it says that🤨 oh you can’t#Just because our heteronormative society wants you to assume everyone is straight until proven otherwise doesn’t mean you have to#🫢#shit jkr said on twitter long after all the books were published doesn’t matter guys what are you people on about#“Death of the author” until it means you can say “well jk meant for all the characters to be cishet and white so we can fundamentally#Mischaracterize the marauders and co all we want”#Use your own goddamn brain and come up with interpretations for yourself please#Fandom started because of love of canon why are you so intent on denying that
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not being able to enjoy a story if you can’t self insert for whatever reason is such a skill issue in my eyes idk
#ari.txt#text#like i never got that fr#maybe it’s cause i never felt the need to do that#it actually stresses me out personally#but also cause ???? that’s so restricting ???? how did you survive until now as women especially#when half the videogames and movies protagonists are men#and is it that the reason you’d be hard pressed finding people creating ocs of color even in the wildest rpgs?#honestly wondering cause when i see people losing their shit over any kind of representation#you have to ask yourself why can’t i stay curious when it’s not about me
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So uh, look. I’m not a huge fan of Neil Gaiman as a person, mostly due to some things he’s said, done, or not done in the past (still enjoyed plenty of his books and a big fan of Good Omens with Terry.) but some of the shit people online are saying to him are mildly-to-extremely inappropriate and you need to reset some boundaries on yourselves. Take this from someone who was mildly popular in a fandom for a while there. It can be genuinely scary to receive threatening messages out of the blue from a complete fucking stranger. Especially when you have no point of reference about what they’re threatening you about, if it’s even a joke, etc.
Just because he’s made himself accessible to fans does not mean you can treat him like your Tumblr bestie with violent, threatening inside jokes. He’s not your buddy. You can’t lol your way out of sending threatening messages to a stranger. This is literally the reason your past faves stopped interacting with fans online. (Trust me, I was in the Marvel fandom when Loki/Tom arrived.) This will end as it usually does, with him being forced to leave online spaces and become inaccessible again. And then y’all will bitch and whine that he thinks he’s ‘too good’ for you or whatever and the cycle starts all over again with someone else famous.
Please. Please just learn to fucking behave. Be a weird (affectionate) and violent gremlin in your personal blog spaces or discord or wtfever. Don’t send it to a public figure just trying to have a good time in the fandom. Ok? Can we try to be better this time?
#fandom#social cues#niel gaiman#behavioral stuff#also like if you genuinely struggle with this#and can’t seem to stop#it’s ok to get some help with it#therapy or even just discuss it with someone close to you#sometimes going over it and having an outside perspective can help you see that your behavior is harmful#anyway#be better#do better#trust me it will make your experiences better#fandom will still be fun and weird and silly#and you’ll still be able to message your favorite author#you know?#don’t ruin that for yourself and others#and no I will not be taking questions about why I dislike him#any time I get into it people argue that he’s a perfect cinnamon bun or whatever#even in the face of facts and screen shots and shit so#no#not a fan but treat him like a fucking real living person#k thanks
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BuckTommy shippers stop calling everything you disagree with homophobia challenge
level: impossible (apparently)
#like holy fuck the joke made a lot of people uncomfortable because it was in poor taste#not because everyone’s secretly homophobic#seriously get over yourself for a moment#we can have different opinions#buddie#911#any opinion against BT and they’re convinced you’re just a homophobic buddie shipper#like actually regardless of what i ship that shit makes me uncomfortable#he’s rude and insensitive and that has nothing to do with buddie#tommy made himself unlikable on his own#911 on abc#anti bucktommy#like no actually i’m not a homophobic kinkshamer maybe if you could read for two more seconds youd see that#like everyone’s giving a multitude of reasons for not liking him or that joke#and the BT stan’s are just ‘wow buddies can’t stand queer rep unless it’s what they want’#or maybe my dislike has nothing to do with them being gay because i happen to have more than two brain cells to rub together#and if you could read i think that would be obvious
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having intrusive thoughts and ocd is so stigmatized but i appreciate people still making posts about it and sharing their experiences. every time i try to talk to my doc about the thought loops, rumination, and spirals that regularly haunt me i just get told i’m “overthinking.” it’s nice to know that i’m not stupid for being worried and feeling upset that i can’t turn this off
#delete later#i’m not dx’d with ocd#and there’s likely overlap with the things i Do have#it’s just not something i see talked about a lot and i like seeing it. makes me think#oh shit! i’m not the only person in the world that thinks like this!#also helpful to know that having a constant monitor that has to repeatedly self-justify every single conclusion you make about yourself#and you often can’t stop yourself from telling people about these conclusions because you *need* someone else to witness them#otherwise they ‘don’t count’ or are somehow ‘wrong’#isn’t a uhhh normal thinking pattern that average people have#it’s helped me gain some insight. and i’m thankful people were willing to be vulnerable about this stuff to so many strangers
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the rituals are intricate and very comical
#idk what to focus on here. ron my guy dont you worry yourself about anything ❤️#your jealousy and resentment will lead you to make a mistake so big next year that it knocks enough sense into you for a lifetime#🔮 you will finally recognise your role as the glue that holds the trio together and you will vow to never abandon them again#only then will the circumstances be right for you discover that they both love you and need you🫵 as much as you love and need them 🔮☝️#that being said i did clock how flustered harry’s compliment made hermione and additionally#how harry blushed hearing hermione describe his romantic appeal.. id get scared too if i were ron. with or without inferiority complex#Also undeniably ron must agree with hermione that harry is ‘fanciable’ as fuck. or he wouldnt feel this threatened#also him gagging on his food after hearing someone verbalise this fact DHJDJ. you could of course chalk it all up to his crush on hermione#or you could add the very interesting layer of his own perception of harry to it#bc as i have wisely stated before in a previous post. ‘hee is obsessed with that harry kid’ <- i could write essays on this#but it boils down to the thin line between ‘i want to be that person’ and ‘i want to be WITH that person’#a very well known phenomenon amongst the members of the ‘in gay love with my best friend’ community#you can’t make this shit up. i don’t even have to try that hard to see romionarry in everything they just literally keep doing the work 4me#hp6
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Hi! I suddenly very invested in the shinsherry ship dynamic, of course I have my own ideas and hc. Do you fancy the dynamic? If it is a yes, do you have some sorts of hc for them?
Pd: I am still working on in this shinsherry fic so I need a bost of energy.
Oh my, idk if I’m the best person to ask tbh since I tend to write shinshi and CoAi exclusively compared to other dynamics. The closest I’ve come is probably Don’t Blame Me. I won’t be much help, but I do agree we need more of it in the fandom! It needs to be explored! I’m hopeful you’ll be able to share your fic with us!
Idk if it’s cause I’m a Gemini, but as much as I believe Sherry to be a part of her. It’s more of a persona to me, so underneath it all she’s still Shiho. Just forced to be this character that she never wanted to be out of survival. So when I do dabble with her being more of a bad girl, that’s the approach I go for.
Sherry is all snark, sass, confident, and cutthroat who takes no shit. She’s not allowed to be weak, she fights back and isn’t above playing dirty. At least on the outside this is how she appears to be, but at the end of the day she’s soft and does actually own a heart. Shinichi I think sees this side of her despite her best efforts to pretend she’s pure evil. Though at first he’s definitely tricked into thinking she’s just bad news, but him with his savior complex wants to rescue her. Thus begins their interesting relationship
The more he tries to get close to her, the harder she pushes him away. But in the grand scheme of things they’re both after the same goal, so she helps him bring the org down. She’s a traitor anyway, may as well play the part to the fullest. She expects to be locked away to atone for her sins, but Shinichi has other ideas.
I’m basically retelling my own fic, but I think the most important thing to me is that Sherry is in charge and she gets to decide how close he gets to her. She’s the one with the experience and she knows what she wants and what she’s willing to give him and what she wants to take from him. As time goes on he gains more control and tries to defy her, but she’s one step ahead every time. My queen stays winning!
The second but equally as important thing to me is the devotion on his part. She has a bad reputation and yet he’s still willing to throw everything away for her. It’s like everyone on the outside is telling him she’s bad news but he’s still getting burned just for a chance to love her. Basically he’s down bad for her as he should be.
My girl is a bluffer and mostly all talk, but fuck around and find out. She’s ruthless in her own ways and won’t hesitate to play into her role, self destructive and insane but she’s just passionate okay.
This dynamic is honestly very intriguing, it’s all a game and not meant to be real. So very flirty and fun with very serious consequences but they’re not going to worry about that. It’s almost a break/relief when they’re together which doesn’t make sense cause everything they do is very high stakes and people’s lives are in danger but I think the risk is part of what gets them. It’s very push and pull, will they or won’t they? The almost, and pure frustration but also satisfying at the same time? They shouldn’t make sense, but they do. They made opposites attract, the tension is very real.
She’s cool, calm, and collected while he’s the exact opposite until they settle into their routine and he has no choice but to be just as cool about how casual their relationship is. Not that it’s much of a relationship, cause no labels. She teaches him patience cause he’s way too damn impulsive, and the consequences of his actions. He takes her teachings to heart.
He’s left in the dark a lot and he hates it but again he doesn’t have much of a choice cause she won’t give him the answers. There’s a lot of trust on his part, she doesn’t tell him anything, she has to trust him too but she definitely holds back just in case since she’s paranoid and she is still trying to protect him.
I’ve rambled too much and I don’t think I even made sense. But I think it depends on the setting too. Cause I have other ideas if she is for real riding for the org. There’s a lot to their dynamic but the tldr version is: Sherry is more dominant and Shinichi is hopelessly intrigued. Best of luck to you, Love! Happy writing! <3
#CoAi#shinshi#shinsherry#cynple replies#I think too much about writing fics where they’re both evil or just one of them but yall are not ready to handle that#maybe it’s cause of my own branding or people just can’t understand exploring different stories/dynamics#I know I use fics as an escape but I enjoy reading things that are realistic#I hate when they’re all just perfect and nothing ever goes wrong or they don’t make bad choices#that’s so not real. they’re human and they will fuck up but some of yall have problems with that#which whatever you read whatever you want but when you start saying stupid shit to the authors is what I have a problem with#keep your unwanted opinions to yourself and just let the author live#we don’t do this for a living and I sure as hell didn’t ask to be criticized#don’t like don’t read#it’s not that hard folks#this is basic fandom etiquette
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i love when i (understandably) freak out over things that happen in life (my car breaking down and getting kicked out of my rental so the owner can sell it and having to find a new place in the shittiest market ever where barely anything is available and saving for an astronomical down payment while still having to pay the rent for the place i’m getting kicked out of) people are like “oh well things are looking up now that all that’s over with right?? so there’s no reason to be stressed anymore”
no.
fucking no patricia, it’s not over, it’s not okay, i am still stressed, i’m literally crying in my car everyday. i cry at work, i cry at the grocery store, i cry in the club, i cry fucking everywhere i cannot stop fucking CRYING because i’m constantly living on the edge of “what’s next?” because there will be something fucking next. there’s always something next.
#how about YOU have some fucking empathy#and realize that people are allowed to be sad and upset over things#not everything needs to be a fucking look on the bright side moment or a stay positive! lesson#i’m only positive because i fucking have to be i can’t afford not to be#because if i’m not i will literally give up on 2 seconds#i’m not fucking kidding#so let me BE SAD AND FEEL MY GODDAMN EMOTIONS INSTEAD OF MASKING WITH FAKE HAPPINESS#LET ME FUCKING CRY#AND FEEL#AND BE A FUCKING PERSON LIKE HOLY SHIT#some of yall need to shut up and learn to keep your advice to yourself#it’s not ALWAYS the time to give it#just#fucking#stop#apple babble 🍎#non fandom#delete later#this about rl ppl btw sorry yall#i just have to scream into the void rn 😭
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Ok before I answer any more asks, I feel like I need to get my full thoughts out there. This might be a bit long, but I have a lot to say.
First off: I am very impressionable. I always have been and I always will be. I am well aware of this. When people tell me things, I often believe them at face value. I’m trying to get better at that, which is why I tried to stay neutral this time around when everything first came out. Then I removed myself from the situation for a couple days, came back to it today, forgot to beat my hyper empathy into submission for ten minutes, and found myself almost believing him one hundred percent. I almost forgot about his first response, where he lashed out and threatened to sue people over this. I also tend not to focus on situations like this often because it’s really bad for my POCD. I am bad at this. I need to preface this post by saying that.
I don’t support Forever anymore. I can’t, not after everything that’s happened over the past few days, especially after seeing his original reaction, which was to get mad and threaten to sue and to brush it all off as just twitter drama. And he still brushed it all off as twitter drama in this most recent stream. He didn’t even acknowledge how old the alleged victim was, which means a lot of people who only knew of this through his streams don’t know that he flirted with multiple girls as young as 13. He said it was just jokes, but he did privately message at least one of these girls and meet her in real life, even if it was within a group of people. Things can happen even within a crowd.
There had to have been more things that happened behind the scenes for all of his friends to suddenly drop him. Whether it was some kind of proof that he was aware this was wrong as he did it, or if he lashed out at the other ccs for initially unfollowing him when this all came out, I don’t know. But he handled this very immaturely in his first response without even looking into the issue, and I don’t feel right supporting him anymore.
Still, and hate me for this if you want, I can’t help but sympathize with him a little bit. I know, I know, but I was a shitty person when I was a teenager, and I’m constantly paranoid that things I’ve done or said will stick with me forever or come back around to bite me in the ass. Hell, I have done and said things when I was 17 that would get me dogpiled on twitter if I was a cc. I do understand why he was upset. Knowing that he has mental health issues because of repeated twitter hate mobs does make me feel sorry for him in that regard. Just because being exposed for past actions may have been deserved this time doesn’t mean that excessive hate was deserved every single time, nor is it deserved for every cc who has fucked up in the past.
However, he was very immature with his initial response, and him pushing this off as just a twitter cancellation is enough to tell me that he does not quite see that he was in the wrong. He keeps saying that he’s matured and that he’s better now, as if that alone is supposed to absolve him of any kind of responsibility. I think he handled this wrong, and I don’t want to support him anymore.
As for q!Forever, I know he has a lot of similarities to the cc. That will be too hard to look past for a lot of people, and if you don’t want to engage in content that includes him anymore, that’s well within your rights. I still love q!Forever despite that, and I personally will still consume content that includes him, and I don’t want to write him out of the story of the smp. We can do the same thing we did for c!Dream and basically adopt him as our own oc. q!Forever can be our character now if we want him to be, and we can still acknowledge that Forever put a lot of work and thought into his character and appreciate what he did for the smp while not supporting him as a creator anymore.
And finally, I also don’t like the way that this entire situation was handled in general by the fanbase. The person who did this (as far as I’m aware) was dedicated to going after ccs for generally trivial things. If they wanted justice for this, why not bring it up before now? Why not before he joined the smp? And the victim didn’t want any part in this as far as I know, and yet people went after her demanding comments on the situation. Twitter kept celebrating the ccs dropping Forever like it was some fun party, just like people have been doing for the whole Dream situation. Twitter hasn’t handled this with any sort of tact whatsoever, and many of us here on tumblr (myself included) have been more invested in arguing and over correcting our own actions and phrasing when some biased people bring up invalid points to actually step back and take a break.
We’ve all been on the defence from each other. People on here have criticized each other’s views, invalidated other people’s experiences, and thrown insults and names at each other like this is a playground fight instead of a serious situation. The situation is over. Let’s just breathe.
#forever situation#qsmp#you guys can come into my inbox if you want to talk about all this yourself!!#can’t guarantee I’ll have any more comments to make#my intrusive thoughts are killing me right now and i feel like shit but i would love to hear from the rest of you#we’re in this together u guys
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i lost the post but i saw someone talking about how some of y’all act like being weird is a choice and like. YEAHHHHHHH.
that’s fine, it might be for you. but i just live like this and don’t know any other way. like yeah i’ve worked customer service, i can do innocuous small talk, but anything beyond that, i don’t understand what i’m missing. and it’s frustrating to see the tonal disconnect especially from people who are like “uwu embrace weirdness!!” where they’re like. dressing quirky and talking about bugs and listening to obscure music and eschewing small talk to ask Deep Questions on the first date and unlearning their tendency to not infodump. and generally have an idea of what Weirdness is supposed to look like. idk man some of us wake up and get out of bed and can’t figure out why the rest of their coworkers chitchat with each other but when they join the conversation it dies.
weirdness is value neutral. let’s stop trying to turn it into a badge because quite frankly, it’s not a choice for everyone. it’s fucking exhausting to never be on the same wavelength as other people and they’re going to react the way they do and label you the way they will without any conscious actions on your end. it’s difficult to talk about this without feeling like you’ll be dismissed as immature, a teenager whining “no one understands me” but the thing is. sometimes you don’t grow out of feeling alone and different, and there’s no good way to talk about it without feeling like people will think you’re just fishing for pity.
#most of it is stuff i can’t help like!!!#coworkers and i don’t share a lot of interests so i’m always like. yes i’ve heard of that show but haven’t seen it. no idk that band sorry#and they’ll like. talk shit abt other people who share my interests without realizing that i also like those things#so i just have to sit there and take it#i feel like i don’t have a lot in common with my friends even. a few shared interests but very different lives#in my experience the conscious choice has been to try to keep up with what’s popular but it’s just. not interesting to me#i got bored and forgot to finish s2 of stranger things and never picked it back up#even alt subcultures have gone kinda mainstream and i never quite slot in#let’s not even touch the gay culture ‘flags’ that are extremely online and unrelatablr#and the most frustrating thing. every time i try to talk about myself and my interests i feel people shutting down#one person i know. open mouth sighs in exasperation when i open my mouth#i don’t know why you’re making it my problem that we’re different#i know there is supposed to be a niche out there for everyone but some of that feels like#those niches are falling prey to marketability. if you’re too far out of the mainstream. too out of touch. it can’t be helped#a lot of messaging online is like. embrace weirdness but only if it’s subversive in a very specific way#too normal to hang out with self-proclaimed proud weirdos. too weird to hang out with normies#like i thought the thing was to disavow performativity. i’m sorry i don’t find the same things interesting#i don’t care about the office and you don’t care about the hundred years’ war. that’s fine. why is that seen as a personal fault of mine#i feel like some of the reaction i get might be bc it comes across as hipster shit. idk#i’m literally just oblivious and looking for any kind of indicator for social interaction#but so often it feels like the onus of finding common ground is on me. i have to listen abt things idk but no one cares what i have to say#i think what makes it more frustrating is this reaction from people who claim to not care. do their own thing#and then get annoyed when i do mine and it’s. different#instead of being like ‘fuck the mainstream! conformity is bullshit! be yourself!’ it’s like#‘fuck the mainstream because it doesn’t appeal to me personally and i’ve made my own club!’#and this is not going to come out right because i’m just at my limit and venting and don’t know how to say things the right way#so people don’t misunderstand me#i just happen to never like the Right Things and know the Right Things and act the Right Way and idk how else to say it other than#can we be more normal about weird people#idk it’s hard to talk abt this without sounding like i’m just complaining but i’m more bewildered and trying to state things as i see them
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So I was reading articles about John Hurt (as I do when I procrastinate on life in general lol) and I saw a still shot of a movie I’ve never seen still shots of before; so I looked it up. It’s a play. I was worried I wouldn’t find it in full online; but I did, so here it is in all its glory:
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He’s just… ugh I want to gently hold his face in my hands he’s just so sad and lonely with his weepy voice and eye bags. I couldn’t process half of what he said but I think this is a warning about always speed-running through life to get to the next good thing. We should appreciate the moment; because in the end, we’ll have nothing at all but our memories. If we rush through life, we won’t have any memories to keep us warm at night when the chill of death creeps up on us in our old age.
Also, spool, spooooooooooollll…….
spoooooooooooooooooooooolllllll [cackles in mentally unstable]
@kaleidoscopr @theindo @possessedbydevils @randomtwospirit
#The fucking banana. I was talking to him through the screen like#“…a banana??? You keep bananas in…. there? You good man? A—are you okay?#What the hell are y—” [cracks up but quickly stops laughing] “Oh— oh honey… you’re not right are you?#No you’re not right. Uh…. Why don’t you sit down; your breathing sounds awful. You sound like you’re gonna die…#OH GOD [loses my shit laughing/cringing ] “Oh— oh ouch. No no no— I’m not laughing at you I just— I like your actor…#a lot… too much probably#and he’s just good at what he does and the timing of it all… this is exactly how I act when I’m home alone#I swear I’m not laughing at you… I just— PUT THAT BANANA BACK YOU’RE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF”#John Hurt#stage acting#Krapp’s Last Tape (2001)#Samuel Beckett#Yeah… funky stage play. Very moving and dreamlike#[This is me gently holding Mr. Krapp and rotating him in my mind like a bowl of ramen in a microwave]#Screaming crying throwing up beating the walls#I am unwell#Ough ough ough#It’s not difficult for me to watch per se#but I’m very much the kind of person who HAS to help when someone’s having a hard time doing something#— especially if they’re old or otherwise infirm — or I’ll feel like a piece of shit for weeks… and this fucking man#this fucking man is so good at being frail and pitiful that I feel genuinely agitated that I can’t reach into the screen and help him#It’s like the torture scene in 1984 all over again where he just barely manages to wrench himself upright on the table#then immediately falls off onto the concrete floor with the most tragic sickening bone-grinding splat you’ve ever heard#AND HAS TO HOIST HIMSELF UP ONTO HIS FEET ALL BY HIMSELF WHEN HE’S MALNOURISHED AND EXHAUSTED#Like ughhhhhh let me pick him up and wrap him in a blanket and carry him somewhere warm and safe and make him an omelette#And I know I write whump and I shouldn’t be this sensitive#but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MR. HURT YOU ARE KILLING ME#Youtube
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