#yes this is definitely how this works

[kalpasio]

No but, does this mean this is the only bakery for the kalpas crumbs??? Kalpas baking hnggg.

- the other herrscher anon nibbling on biscuit

this is like farmers market for Kalpas crumbs but there's no customers so we're all standing around talking to each other about baking techniques lmao

kalpas lives in my head rent free and bakes bread at all times it's just that there's coffee in there instead of water so he's pissed rn

[thasorns]

THE HEART KILLERS (2024-2025) เขาจ้างให้ผมจีบนักฆ่า dir. Jojo Tichakorn Phukhaotong

[anonymouscheeses]

They are everything to me.

[chirpsythismorning]

Yeah a teaser dropping on ST day would be cool. But can we agree that a DNA board reveal would be infinitely better?

[elegantwizardtree]

you know, for being as emotionally and mentally clocked as I am. I SHOULD NOT be staying up this late reading birdflash fanfics…. but here we are.

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Copying her ex is one thing, but stealing her thunder? That's low, Babs.

[cobaltfluff]

happy pride month to them!!

[aquickstart]

ok sure i'll talk about farleigh start. i'll talk about his tragedy of never being enough as it were and then having to deal with fucking oliver. sure. disclaimer: it's about class (and race) and the horrible reality of the rich. the horrible reality of living as farleigh.

another disclaimer: i'm white! and poc definitely pick up on everything i'm talking about here as it is, and better. i was and am specifically interested in farleigh vs. oliver but it's impossible to examine without considering race. definitely let me know if anything abt this sucks!

farleigh and oliver are similar. it's annoying because every intruder that is not himself is annoying, partly because felix's attention swaying from farleigh is dangerous; there is always a threat of being discarded, even if no precedent existed. the potential is terrifying.

but you'd think he's seen this before, every summer (if venetia is telling the truth) or at least often enough to learn to recognize it fast, so he should know this will pass. part of it is i think still the deep anxiety, and i think he hated every boy that was there before, and it is sort of routine.

but definitely a huge factor in farleigh's annoyance is the fact that he's a biracial (black for cattons, that's all they see) man in a white rich household. he's alert and exhausted all the time. of course he's angry at oliver, regardless of whether he's the first to crash at saltburn for the summer or the fifty-first.

but the important thing is this.

farleigh is very jealous of and angry and pissed at oliver because farleigh sees all the similarities between them. outsider, in financial trouble, whatever it is, in need of cattons; and yet oliver is preferred. and farleigh seems to be the only one to really consider it. felix does not pick up on the hint when farleigh brings up the birthday party vs. his mother. felix's clumsy "different or... anything like that" is as much about race as it is about class, of course. the "we've done all that we can" bit is felix absolving himself of guilt because surely they had, surely the mysterious collective cattons that he's not really part of had tried all they could do. to him, farleigh is different from oliver, because farleigh has been helped. felix is rich and white and twofold uncomfortable with farleigh, even if he's nice about it, even if he genuinely enjoys his company; he doesn't look too close at farleigh because he feels too guilty to come too close. and farleigh can't do anything about it. he can't nice himself into it. the fucking tragedy of him is that he's never enough in the world of the ultra-rich white, even if (especially because!) he's born into it.

farleigh is very pissed at oliver because farleigh also sees all the differences between them. you know who can be nice poor white enough to fit in? fucking oliver. felix says "just be yourself, they'll love you" when oliver first moves in. farleigh was also probably told the same thing, and felix also probably believed that farleigh could just be himself, but even if the cattons were magically not racist at all (impossible), it wouldn't make a difference to farleigh. he would still self-censor, keep in check, be in dangerous waters (because racism is not just about the individual, but about the system). we see that he'd won himself leeway by years of trial and error by the way he speaks to the family, but it's still within the boundaries of acceptable, built by the cattons. he's part of them because they allow it, and farleigh is very, very aware.

the annoying thing is oliver can be himself. like, truly, genuinely, he can just be. and farleigh can't help but envy that.

as a side note, oliver is obviously jealous of farleigh in the beginning as well, because regardless of the reality of farleigh's situation, he was born into it, and hence, at least in oliver's mind, has his position solidified. oliver's whole thing is unquenchable thirst and hunger for whatever and everything the cattons have (including themselves!). he wishes to have been a catton from birth. to oliver, at first, there's nothing farleigh can really do to lose it. and until he figures out the cattons completely, he can't help but envy that.

but i think farleigh senses something different about oliver early on. at least on the level of the text, we have "you're almost passing [for] a real, human boy", which is so important because farleigh is the first to point out oliver's weirdness. the next to do so is venetia in the bath scene calling him a freak, but it's too late. farleigh is too early.

and i like to think he clocks oliver too early because he sees the jagged edges that he recognizes in himself. i think that one other thing that farleigh envies is oliver's freedom to let go. freedom to let go is very similar to freedom to be, but not quite the same.

to be is about perception: farleigh knows he cannot fall out of line, but would like to, and oliver does not have to worry about it at all (i mean, he does, because oliver also performs for felix, but farleigh doesn't know that).

to let go is about the self: farleigh is too scared to even want what oliver eventually does, to even consider the possibility. oliver can let himself want. oliver can let himself act. oliver just can do things and want things. i'm not sure farleigh can.

and so in this scene, when oliver's wants and actions have landed him nowhere with farleigh, felix, venetia, the cattons, of course farleigh gloats. he can let himself do that, because if the cattons are slowly discarding him, farleigh can allow himself this one small victory. he's relieved because despite the dangerous similarities, oliver is, thankfully, not really the same as farleigh, right?

but like. this movie is a love letter to all things gothic. oliver is a white man. he prevails. the brief performance that oliver put on did eventually end up more effective than farleigh's lifetime of constraint. my heart fucking breaks for him to be honest.

the issue that remains is the fact of farleigh's survival. i like to think that oliver came to respect him. oliver is smart, but farleigh is clever. he picks up on everything oliver does (to refer back to the karaoke scene, farleigh immediately retaliates in the cleverest way, in the moment), and he's the only one to do so consistently (venetia, again, for example, comes close, but too late; oliver doesn't like that, there's nothing to work with). hence, stay with me for a little longer, the paradox: farleigh survives because he was never enough for the cattons, but he is very worthy of oliver's attention. in his own freaky way, oliver wants him. look at that.

so. farleigh. farleigh might come back. he always comes back. and i think oliver wants to try harder next time.

[creekfiend]

everyone says u gotta feel your feelings but what if I've invented a better way and it's called not doing that

[thatswhatsushesaid]

the way i always read mxy and jgy's whole thing was that mxy was a incredibly poorly socialized kid who More Than Anything wanted a family who loved him, and jgy just didn't really want this (way younger) kid clinging onto him all the time (or really at all, for pretty understandable reasons) and tried to put some normal distance between them bc like, yeah they're blood related by barest technicality but they didn't grow up together or anything, and then the jinlintai rumour mill decided to get involved bc giving them a chance to slander not just one but TWO of jgs's bastard offspring at once is like putting a sack of raw meat in front of a pack of starving wolves, and then jgy couldn't really get involved at that point even if he wanted to bc then they'd accuse him of Secretly Liking The Attention (You Slut) and that was simply not a risk to be taken (for again, very understandable reasons). i'm aware my reading of it is at least partially supported by nothing but hopes and dreams, but the whole book has that overarching theme of "don't believe rumours, they're 90% horseshit from people who are as bored as they are rich" and regardless its better than the hard crack that other anon's friend was smoking to somehow decide jgy was fucking grooming mxy?? insane left turn from any kind of logic right there. some people will just say anything

some people will just say anything, anon, you're so right. and while i don't think there's anything in the text that explicitly confirms what you're describing in the first paragraph, i think that scenario is infinitely more plausible than other-anon's [edit: other-anon's FRIEND, sorry anon, not trying to slander you!!] "jin guangyao is a groomer" theory, which immediately falls apart if you just think about 1) what the text is showing you, aka 2) jin guangyao's actual circumstances in the book.

[vaguely-concerned]

I don't know what I love more, the fact that as rook you can make a statement in NO uncertain terms that you are NOT responsible one way or the other for the theological implications of the shit you're discovering in the 'regrets of the dread wolf' memories. not my jurisdiction. quite simply none of my business. not my chantry circus not my chantry monkeys. irrelevant to the matter at hand here we'll kill that god if we get to him he can get in line. or if the best thing about it is seeing the lone little 'lucanis approves' that pops up right after choosing it. corvid with a knife about to commit deicide keeping it real and sensibly, pragmatically, wilfully agnostic with me here in this magical lighthouse today

[tisslesu]

My old art of Izuna, Tobirama, and Sakura in Trese🎭🗡️ AU

(If you wanna watch an animated show about a woman and her brother figures fight supernatural beings from Filipino folklore, I recommend watching Trese)

Sakura as Alexandra Trese🗡️, and Izuna and Tobirama as The Kambal (Twins): Crispin and Basilio🎭

(Nov 2021)

[aroaceleovaldez]

finally finished my project of collecting voiceclaims that are as close as i can find for my hcs of the main HoO cast - just for funsies so it's not as perfect as I'd like but whatever, it was a neat exploration and exercise of me trying to think of literally any franchise for voice actors.

Leo got two cause I had trouble of finding good clips for the voiceclaim that's closers to my hcs for him (the second half of his section). Also got to play the fun game of digging through my art for decent doodles of each character.

Also fun fact, I am almost completely unfamiliar with 3 franchises in this video and was just digging for voice clips on youtube. Try to guess which ones.

[mila-bee]

When he’s protective 🥰

[maybe-boys-do-love]

Actually kind of tired of seeing people qualify shows as QL or queer coming-of-age instead of BL when they’re perceived to depict any aspect of the gay experience beyond two guys just falling in love.

[benvenutio]

i do genuinely feel that austin butler is a christian bale-type actor trapped in the body of austin butler, and what he should've been is a weird lil guy along the lines of jim carrey and adam driver who have the right faces to play fucked up bizarre lil freaks. austin butler has the extreme dedication to character work of willem dafoe but he is in all things hampered by the fact that he looks like a male model. take the veneers away and put him in the body of a malnourished lab assistant who lives on mountain dew and see what he does w THAT. feyd rautha only made me more convinced that what this guy needs is the space to let his freak flag fly