#wtf are social cues anyway

[baby-kaz2y5]

Life is an unsolvable Rubik’s cube and I’m the color blind motherfucker who thought I could solve it .

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Its probably a combination of things. Also I think we just hear about it more often now with the internet.

It feels like having a dog has gotten way complicated and hard in recent years, posts talking about reactive unsocialized and untrained dogs everywhere but the thing is, was anybody intentionally socializing their dogs before the past couple decades? Are humans just way more isolated? Is it the thing about how you should adopt a rescue instead of buying?

[shreddheir]

doll girl who is ostensibly supposed to be pretending to be human but she’s very proud of herself and can’t read social cues, so every time someone questions her humanity in a way meant to denigrate her (ie wtf are you supposed to be) or gives a backhanded compliment she gets all excited and starts to talk about how much of a good doll she is and how happy she is that they noticed her true self and how yes totally they can take pictures of her she’s so proud of her outfit today. because they’re being just subtle enough that she doesn’t know they’re being mean and thinks she can be earnest around them. Anyways.

[shadowsstarwc]

Leland hcs🌻

(probably will have mentions of Johnny but these are more Leland-sided)

casually writing these as i sit in a lobby lol

- Leland is actually such a sweetheart, being guilt controlled very easily because he doesn’t want to do any wrong by any of his friends

- If he gets drugged by Sissy then it’s just horrible for him, especially if he’s the only one of his friends even still alive, he will make his way back into Johnnys shack the best he can before he lays on the floor and just sobs, mumbling apologies to his dead friends

- He constantly feels like crap because he lost all his friends, sitting outside of Johnnys shack on an old box watching over victims run around and get slaughtered. He can’t really do much to stop it and often talks to the victims who hide behind him.. obviously they sometimes get killed in front of him and he doesn’t like it

- The family need a reason to keep Leland, forcing him to be a pretty face to lure new victims in by giving him some injury which he uses to get victims to help carry him back to the property where they’re taken by someone else

- Leland can’t even sit alone outside at night and cry without being bothered by Hitch who’s like “here’s a ear, eat it” and Leland is just like ‘wtf’

- Leland’s social cues aren’t the best, sometimes he struggles to pick up on them if it’s really not obvious and he just gets confused (projecting a little)

- he sometimes likes to leave his shirt a little extra unbuttoned for Johnny, it always ends up with his chest getting grabbed which he’s decently fine with

-Everyone has some beef with Leland still being alive, except Hitch, Johnny, and Bubs. Hands, Nancy, and Cook especially all despise Leland and Sissy is kinda neutral towards him

- Leland absolutely loved physical touch, cuddles, waist grabbing, anything to be held.. he’s kinda touch starved if you couldn’t tell

anyway this was pretty short so enjoy

[phantomram-b00]

You know what time it is?? Me rambling about season 2 again. This time, I wanna talk about some stuff a family member mention about regarding Aziraphale’s action and whatnot since it never really left my mind, mostly because I can’t help but disagree.

My family member first mentioned how Aziraphale could’ve told Metatron to give him a minute and talk to Crowley before going to the elevator and how they were mad that he step inside anyway.

Okay I want to prefix by saying, don’t we all? I do think the fandom are ready to see him to do an apology dance more than Michael Sheen himself. But what they said about this, and look I feel this might be unpopular but: Metatron would not have giving Aziraphale another chance nor did Aziraphale had a choice really.

“Phantom why you say that?”

Because, Metatron hooked him into a trap by saying Aziraphale’s favorite word, “Crowley” and the fact that he get to come with him. Which, think about it, Aziraphale wasn’t giving Heaven a second thought it wasn’t until Gabriel and the shenanigans came in is when heaven became the focus again. And then Metatron give him a promotion and like many have pointed out, he said no. But once Crowley came into the picture, he was ready to share the “big news”. And one thing about Aziraphale is while he clever, like my family member said he ultimately chooses became ignorant and almost refusing to see the gapping red flag. It kinda like when an intense scene is happening and you want to cover your eyes but you still wanna look? That’s kinda what Aziraphale doing just he covering his eyes in an effort to not see the alarm bell ringing but still looking since deep down he know something isn’t right, even Crowley is telling him “something smell absolutely foul”. Even then, he still is not looking at the bigger picture, he’s more or less focusing onto the fact that he could possible make heaven/earth better and to have Crowley there. But that not what Crowley wants.

And of course, we see that Crowley ends up being right, the second coming is happening. Which is why he look back at Crowley, this is where my family member said “he could’ve told metatron to wait and go to Crowley to tell him about the second coming” which, um, given that as soon as Crowley left after Aziraphale said “I forgive you” (that hurts writing it wtf Aziraphale), metatron simultaneous showed up not letting Aziraphale process what just happen, he was just kissed by his crush- no, his love interest. His best friend since the beginning of time/garden of Eden. (And with implication, most likely kissed back).

Look, I’m not the best with social cues/facial expression. However, seeing just his eye, you can see him going through the motions, you can see that he place his hand on his lips. Even when his eyes are glassy, he not only processing the kiss but what he just said to his best friend, his partner in crime, his love interest; and that is breaking his heart just as much as it broke Crowley’s heart, but he wasn’t giving that choice to dwell because guess who shows up after divorcing their unofficial official marriage for them:

And this that, Aziraphale had to go, he agreed to take up this offer. Even if Crowley wasn’t gonna go or not (which remember this imma bring it up later), and so he kinda had to take the L and go with metatron. Now going back to metatron reveal the thing Crowley was talking about. Could Aziraphale had told metatron to wait so he goes back to Crowley? I mean he could’ve but who to say Metatron was even going to give him the time of day if he wasn’t going to let Aziraphale process what transpired? Metatron doesn’t want any more setbacks, he needed Aziraphale and he did. He won. But also, I feel Aziraphale felt he burnt his bridges and is afraid to go up to Crowley to say he was right, especially since I don’t think that not what he wants to hear, but you bet that if metatron wasn’t there, he would’ve so ran to Crowley in a heartbeat. But he can’t. He going back into the box he created before meeting Crowley and so he walked away with metatron to the elevator.

Now thinking about it, this look reminds me when Crowley first suggesting running away to Alpha Centauri. He’s exhibiting that he does want to go off with Crowley; he want nothing more than to go toward or even be with Crowley. But what do both these instances have in common? is that Heaven is what tying his hands down. Only this time, he think he can’t because he felt he betrayed and lost Crowley and now he has to go back and hope to make things better and not let the world die again. So that’s why I feel Metatron wasn’t gonna give him another chance or that Aziraphale had any liberties; I did mentioned this on my Aziraphale post about how heaven prevents him to progress as a angel/person or let him have a say without being judged. Hell metaton called Muriel “dim”, I think Aziraphale more than anything want to satisfy his hopeless romantic desire and run away with him, but I feel his love for humanity is also the factor as earth is where they made all the memories, all their growth, and much more. Frankly, Aziraphale was put between a rock and a hard place, and Metatron was never going to make this easy. It like in Season 1, Episode 4, when we first met him, right off the bat Metatron lays it out that armageddon is the key to start the war and win it; like the other angels he’s just as war hungry and doesn’t care about humanity. Now that episode he didn’t drag him back to heaven but he did warn him not to stall, so I don’t think this situation is any different as he doesn’t want any more setback, he want the second coming to happen no matter the damage he caused. He. Does. Not. Care. For. Aziraphale. (Or anybody/anything in that matter). He can switch it up and act gentle and kind but underneath it all; he just want blood from the demons and win this biblical holy war because it’s “the ineffable plan”. So I don’t think Metatron would’ve giving Aziraphale another minute in earth because he doesn’t want to waste anymore time and frankly there most likely something about Aziraphale he needs. Because he could’ve promoted Michael or Uriel or even Saraqael, but no. Something about Aziraphale he needs and he need him to start up the plan and he can’t wait.

Now another thing my family member brings up is that, Azirphale want to change Crowley and make him an angel again.

Look, it might seem that way and I can understand how it can seem that way given the scene. However, I disagree because, given they’ve spent millennia together I don’t think Azirpahale want to change Crowley at all. Now sure, have he ever make comment about Crowley being a demon? Yeah of course, as well as Crowley make comment about Aziraphale being an angel (*cough* Jobs episode is a prime example) but not once have he ever make a remark or show he want Crowley to change by any means. If that was the case, don’t you think he would’ve stayed friend let alone fall in love with Crowley if he wanted him to change?

Look at that smile, oh wait actually let me prove more

Okay to refrain myself from showing more of these husbands/spouses/wives (whichever you prefer ^^), the point I’m trying to make is Aziraphale would never ask Crowley to change himself because in his eyes he’s already perfect. He was perfect when he first met him as an angel and he was just as perfect when they met again at the garden. Now of course, in Episode two of season two, he does kinda make remark regarding Crowley’s morals but I toke that as the fact that Aziraphale only knows the morals that heaven defined for them and sure Azirphale have shown to follow his own moral compass like giving the sword away and saving job’s kids but given that he had a breakdown because he thought he was going to fall just for saving kids, we got a glimpse of him battling with morals and even still is now. Even back in, season one even thought he wants to stop armageddon still almost follows heaven, episode 3, he tried to back pedal and even went as far as try to convince himself that he doesn’t like Crowley (yeah okay Aziraphale surreeee 🤨). I do think season 2, is another example between the flashbacks and the current timeline. Episode three of season 2 kinda show the flaw in what Aziraphale’s idea of moral taught by heaven, just because what you think is right ≠ good morals (at least not always anyway.) he sabotage Elspeth during her job because he fear this whole thing was sinful and would damn her soul despite the fact the only reason she did it is to survive the streets of Edinburgh. Sure you can say it not the best way but given the context she most likely don’t have a lot of options. I just think, Aziraphale refused to accept the fact that he’s morally grey (I almost said he struggles, but I want to give him props that he clever enough to know that he isn’t morally white.) and want to see things black and white not knowing there a grey line in between those colors.

But I digress, even with this, Aziraphale accept and respect Crowley’s morals within the six thousand years they’ve known each other. He respects Crowley as a person too, he trust him with his life. (This is them toasting after Aziraphale almost died twice in one day both the church and a magic trick. What a day.) i don’t think he would want to change that, I mean this is the same year he had an epiphany that he loves Crowley.

Now, imma go into the status with Aziraphale wanting Crowley to be an angel again. Now said this in the beginning of this paragraph, and while sure with this it does seem like he want to change him But, I think this is more or less wanting to give Crowley the title he deserve after falling for something so simple as asking a question. (Again we don’t know why he fell, we still going within implication until season 3 get confirmed. I’m just throwing this out there). Aziraphale see this as wanting to give Crowley back the title that was rightfully his and want to change heaven with Crowley; he know how Crowley feel about heaven, he deeply disagrees with heaven and their views on their twist ideology. We seen him comment on this within season 1/2, with garden of eden, the flood, job, and armageddon itself and Aziraphale despite hiding it, agrees with him. So I think aziraphale was trying to use this as a way to tell Crowley, “Come with me, let’s go fix heaven and make things right. Let me give you a chance to come back after they wrongfully cast you out.” While also saying “I don’t want to go alone.”

“I need you”. Probably the most heartbreaking quote (besides no nightingales/I forgive you). Sure, even after he said “nothing last forever”, he still needs Crowley not just because he loves him both romantically and in a name of friendship. Because Crowley is his other half of the what complete him and he can’t imagine being without him. Again, he would NEVER have went to heaven if it wasn’t for the fact he could take Crowley. He wouldn’t want to change him, all he wanted is to fix heaven for/with crowley and want to save the world with Crowley. In his own way. not even seeing just how problematic it is for Aziraphale where even after the shit they put him through and even AFTER, when they try to execute him with HELLFIRE. He choose heaven ultimately, regardless if Crowley was gonna go or not. He already made his choice to leave and he unfortunately had to stick with it. Losing the things he love all in one day. Especially now with the second coming going into motion. I don’t doubt that if metatron wasn’t in the elevator that Aziraphale would’ve had a heart wrenching sob, I’m surprise he didn’t even shed a tear still. Man these biblical bitches are going through it and it breaking my heart each time I think more about this.

This is probably my longest post I’ve ever made, I think mostly because I needed to get this off my chest. Granted despite this, I respect their opinions. I’m just giving my two cent on this. So I’m open to hear you guy’s opinion on this. I love this show and this fandom and I don’t think it going away anytime soon. Neil Gaiman and the cast killed it with this show and the story and I’m excited for what season 3 might offer.

But before I stop, I do wanna mini ramble about how at first I couldn’t be able to listen to Everday without crying. (I might make a post about it. Maybe. Let’s see lol.) and at first I couldn’t put my finger on it until recently. I know everyday is more or less Ineffable  bureaucracy’s song; but I also see this as Ineffable husband’s song. Why? Well given how season 3 might be the last, I do think this song is foreshadowing their relationship and how it getting closer and their love will surely come their way. A-hey A-hey hey (I wanna say more but I don’t wanna talk more than I already did lol. Hope you guys like this post and have a good omen day ^^)

[fappellmoan]

not to sit here and weave a story out of nothing like a little protagonist via my quirky online storytelling but i rekindled my friendship with sam who is such an interesting person there are just a lot of stories of all sorts and this is funny timing but truly we just fell into such an easy banter this past class so we were like omg lets hang right so. his roommate really is just like stupid hot right. i could get corny with it but i wont. a face sculpted by the hands of god though. all this prefaced i will now tell u an absolutely nothing story and i really mean that read at your own discretion ((A/N: trust and believe i yapped. putting under keep reading to be somewhat forgivable) (i am not in my best of states rn. okay.)

anyway so we're chillin in sams room im getting caught up on the latest construction projects and shit.. one thing abt sam hes always up to something. they've got an entire work desk #butchrealness. then i hear some singing out in the hallway but from where im sitting cant actually see anyone so convo just goes sam and roommate 'hey' 'hey' and then i peeked my little head out and waved and said hey and they stopped and set down their basket and said 'Hey' and then i did not introduce myself (flop) (combo of cramped room and sam talking and me being wildly awkward) (also keep in mind i dont know if this person has swiped left on me or not been on tinder or if theyd even recognize me anyway and hating that that's even a situation bc i hate that stupid app but just hoping worst case scenario i dont come off as an insane stalker but rather a victim of circumstance) but they just chatted for a sec abt whatever shelf sam needs to fix and that was that. and then they went back to humming which was cute or whatever

to set the next scene we're down in the kitchen and sams cooking and this is a while after we took his homemade gummies so im not rlly high per se but chillin and something about the noise and setup in their kitchen is so overstimulating for me lol when shes cooking im just like frozen. i always offer to help but he always just gets in a groove it's best i dont intervene. one time he had to tell me to go sit down in the other room bc i was freakin out a little lol

so im perched on this single high chair they have in the kitchen right next to their washer and dryer as sams whipping up some food and im kind of obnoxiously saying Unfortch in response to a story he was telling me and he gives me a look so im like UnfortunateLy. and then hes like 'psh i know unfortch i live with this guy' cue roommate strollin in with laundry and theyre just like Whaat and sam explains and theyre like Oh ofc you gotta know unfortch or whatever. forgot to mention that earlier in sams room they said three similar abbreviated words in a row just during a normal sentence and it caught me so off guard i wanted to giggle. so naturally my brain is going through Immediate social response of a semi awk laugh or quippy remark about that but also theyre literally like a foot away from me and im largely nonverbal atm lmfaoo so i just mumble smth to try and go along w the bit but then trailed off cause i was like wtf am i even saying. brain was overloaded

and then i was like um. i literally was just staring around doing fuck all like a perched bird or something but i was fighting a war in my mind of like ok do i introduce myself or look to sam to do so or do we not do that or is that rude idk but also they have headphones on one ear and are doing all their laundry shit and i once again dont want to be like overbearing but also well come on now we gotta feel out the vibe (and i do a great job here.) idk so im like Ok dont just look at them but dont Not look at them just behave like a normal person. you know. the usual. sam comes over to give me a bit of bread with balsamic vinegar and oil and i spilled it on my sweater fuck this stupid baka life (didnt really show. but still they were right there..)

and so after a min of this they were kinda like awkward laugh 'dont mind me' and i once again was very self conscious and had several things that wanted to come out 'not at all' 'dont mind me' 'it's your house' 'these all sound awful abby' then i got anxious that i was in the way the whole time but they were almost done and if i got into a weird apology thing well i would have had to kill myself so i just once again kind of uttered something that would have sounded like 'youresogoodicanmovetoo' and also 'sorry if i just keep like looking over at you' WTF IS THAT SHIT. FUMBLE BOOOOO and my follow up was essentially nothing cause i couldnt decide if i should say 'im just a bit out of it/high' 'im easily distracted (kys)' 'idk what to do w myself haha' 'im useless in the kitchen' (not entirely true) i mean just a few minutes before sam and i had talked about how ill just wander around peoples rooms and observe things to avoid feeling awkward and it's just how i am and so i was kinda just doing that due to the nerves of the sitch but there was only so much to look at. and i just sat there. offputting realness. whatever. so. straight face emoji. and that was mostly the extent of that i dont remember what they said in response just like a lil laugh or w/e. probably couldnt hear my stupid ass mumbling. so im thinking my chances of charming them at all are really stellar

if you read all this i want you to just take note that the events depicted here could not have been more than 3-4 minutes collectively. and yet the yap goes on..

for future reference, what did we learn? probably best to just continue convo with sam, excuse urself to br, or perhaps even attempt a conversation w them if ever in a similar situation again and they talk to you first again. also stop inventing complicated situations in ur head chill the hell out. idiot. says the bitch with the anxiety disorder. feel free to egg me on or tell me to fuck off ok xoxoxoxxo love u

[thatautisticb]

the thing about my RSD is that so often I've said things that have made ppl ghost me for whatever reason (I was being too clingy/evasive/not attentive enough bc I can't read social cues). in the past, when I've asked ppl "hey are you mad at me?" they hate it and end up hating me anyway. so when I suspect someone that I care about is doing it now I can only desperately tell myself "well it's not me, it's them and I can't control their behavior" but if they would just fucking say something in the first place I would rather not keep getting fucking ghosted by ppl I really care about

it just validates my RSD and cycles wtf

[bythewillows]

I'm happy I can find a reonagi shipper that doesn't hate nagi's guts lmao. Do you think there's potential for them to end up together (in a general sense, like friends) and build a healthy relationship?

I'm tired of everyone on twitter expecting nagi to mess up again and hating him, and i know it's a possibility, but i want to see some character progression and not them making the same mistakes of the past (considering nagi DOES feel apologetic)

I don't want to think he's gonna toss reo away again like nothing, like so many people say in twitter. It's clear that they don't progress in football when they're together, but that doesn't mean their relationship has to be broken as a whole.

But anyway, i came here to let it all out, twitter is so stressful and even the reonagi shippers are sure of this happening

I completely understand my dude!!! Coming here after feeding off mostly twt for discussions was like a breath of fresh air haha, made me take a step back and realize "hey these two kids just SUCK at communicating" ☠️

First off (long rant incoming), yea it does seem to be a general consensus among reonagi/nagireo twt that Nagi's gonna "throw reo away in breakup part 3" after they lost to Isagi again, even after teaming up at their bests, n it do be a downer. As someone w a similar expressive style to Nagi (basically, bad at verbal communication and taking social cues) I can't hate him for what he did to Reo bc from his pov and with his personality it makes sense how he reacted, even if it was cruel and hurtful to someone he considers a close friend. Especially a friend who treated him like Reo did, which is why everyone's pissed off. But people forget that Nagi didn't even have friends before Reo, and that he probably wouldn't know he was being hurtful (other than the "you're a pain, idc anymore" line bc wtf bro but in hindsight he's a teenager who 1) doesn't think things through, 2) acts on instinct and 3) v rarely feels strongly on anything in the first place, so Reo telling him he didn't care abt the two things that got him into football, Reo's dream and Reo himself, probably tipped him over). Does it make all the suffering Reo went through alright? No, ofc not, and Reo should get an actual apology from his blockhead partner, but it's rlly sad to see so many people hating on Nagi for being 17 years old with no empathy skills (he says he and his parents are more like friends bc of how little they interact,,,,his best friend before Reo was a cactus,,,,give the boy a pass 😭).

((((spoilers for after the bllk manga ch202 here so if you haven't caught up or read the leaks pls be warned!!))))

Personally, I think they will end up together for sure, playing side by side once their character arcs are fully fleshed out (bc they're PARTNERS DAMMIT, THE SPINOFF CH8 LIVES RENT FREE IN MY HEAD)—but whether they stay together after the Manshine v Bastard match can go either way. We saw how well they played together and how the entire Bastard team couldn't stop their first goal against Isagi, showing how powerful their partnership can be, but it didn't last. Even if reonagi are completely in sync, Isagi could still shut them down over and over again (and even Kaiser could see what they were doing) after that first goal bc of two things: Nagi hasn't evolved his ego, and Reo devoted his extremely adaptable (therefore unpredictable) playstyle to accommodate what Nagi would want best at the moment. Because of this, Isagi and anyone with metavision who gets a read on what kind of player Nagi is has the ability to counter whatever they do—because Reo will do whatever Nagi wants to do, and will always favor Nagi. He said it himself, making Nagi the best striker is his new ego and that all other players are second to him, but this is detrimental to both of them because it makes them even worse than how they were in the first selection. Back then, Nagi could still direct plays while playing with Reo once pushed and Reo still wanted to score goals himself (the spinoff expands on this further when they play against other teams and w/ zantetsu), but now that they've both levelled up their skillsets (and bc Nagi likes succeeding + is frustrated that his game making isn't good enough yet), they've turned into an actual codependent team up in which Nagi relies entirely on Reo's creativity while Reo only focuses on Nagi scoring instead of him scoring, even when he has the opportunity to.

It's...bad. Even Ego pointed out how the We Beat Isagi Goal™️ would test Nagi's ego, bc he won't feel compelled to try harder anymore, and that that goal could never be replicated bc the conditions were too perfect both emotionally and physically, so even if Nagi was at his peak at that point, he would no longer evolve past now since his goal of "beating Isagi" was completed in such a memorable way. Nagi is basically stagnant and every other player with metavision can take advantage of that.

Reo, on the other hand, is on the other side of this and evolving extremely rapidly. During Yukimiya's final goal against Manshine, Reo had actually seen through Isagi's pass and moved to stop Yukimiya from scoring (but was tragically a step too late, my poor 99% boi, kaneshiro-sensei pls stop making him take Ls) and even Isagi was shocked he could!!! Reo's raw adaptability is growing to be a real menace and his main motive for evolving this entire time has been for Nagi, to get him back and to get Nagi to acknowledge him as the one who's best for him—so what'll happen when Reo gets to a point where his evolution is so great that when he looks back, Nagi is still at the same place he was during the Manshine v Bastard match? When he comes to a realization that the guy who's literally his own motivation to evolve isn't even trying to keep up with him bc he doesn't have any motivation himself?

I'm p sure you've read this already but @okkottsus has a rlly great analysis on reonagi n their skills + dynamic that puts it into words better than I can ☠️

If you haven't tho pls do it's amazing (and even has pictures!!):

So yea, imo, after a bunch of character development (on mostly Nagi's end bc he's stayed p much the same other than actually liking playing football after the team z vs v match) they'll get back together, but as for now I'm p sure they'll have at least one more break 😭 it's sad but it'll be good for them in the long run and above all else I just want both Reo and Nagi to be happy and healthy for each other. It's weird to hate on or blame one of them for their fallouts bc they're such a complex relationship and they both care for each other a lot in their own ways but oh well, people have opinions *shrugs*.

Anyway I hope this loosely related bunch of rambling is what you were looking for anon!! Ty for the ask, I'm also vv happy every time I see a reonagi shipper who loves both boys and it's always nice to talk abt them <3

[cosmo-watches-movies]

Heartlands (2002)

Summary: A Road Movie about kind hearted Colin (Michael Sheen), who has his world turned upside down when his wife Sandra (Jane Robbins) runs away with a policeman. He sets out on his moped and starts the journey through the country to bring her back home.

No spoilers watch the movie This movie feels like a warm hug, a cozy blanket and hot cocoa on a crisp autumn day. It’s a delight. I’ll do things a bit different this time, I won’t go in too deep because I want as many people as possible to just experience this film. Because that is what it is, a experience. It has some very beautiful shots, great humor and very charming characters. And it takes it’s time when it needs to. One might say it’s a bit artsy but I like it for just that.

Okay maybe some spoilers there are a few things I’d like to talk about

Colin is THE Cinnamonroll, he doesn’t deserve any of Sandras bs, but it does provide the incentive for the journey of his life so it’s fine in the end.

I love how when Sandra tells Colins friends, that she will leave him for the Police Captain (JIm Carter), they are just as irritated as I am while watching. The worst part is, that the Captain proceeds to throw Colin off the Darts Team (they are set to compete in a turnament the following weekend) and with that he robs our poor guy of the two things he loves the most at the same time. WTF I’m mad, what an asshole do you have to be? And Sandra just tags along? What did Colin ever do to you? Poor man is sitting in his shop balling his eyes out, they just robbed him of everything that was important to him.

A good friend of Colin convinces him to follow the darts team to Blackpool to win Sandra back, and although at this point I would personally think "fuck her actually", he didn’t even have the chance to talk to her about this, so fair enough. What else should he do now, sit in his store and mope? This is the better option.

Enter beautiful shots of the english country and small towns coupled with folk music, I’ve never felt this comfy in my life. I can’t even imagine how this movie hits if you actually grew up in the UK.

This movie is beautiful

Colin's first overnight stop is at some kind of cottage Inn in the middle of nowhere. There he meets a lovely couple, who are the first people so far who treat him nicely. Or rather like a normal human being. Up to this point I noticed two things: First: Colin is framed by the movie like he is still a bit of a child inside. He’s not immature I think, but a bit naive, very quiet and a bit socially inept, like he hasn’t quite arrived in the real world yet. Second: Other characters in the film notice this and some tend to treat him a bit lesser because of that. Doesn’t hit close to home at all, noooo… Buuut our boy Colin doesn’t really care about that, he just does his thing and is his most sincere self, even if he’s still on the way to finding out who he really is and what he wants from his life. I love that for him.

Anyway the guy (from that couple) gives Colin a haircut and a new shirt so now he looks like a whole different person. (This visibly kicks his character developement journey off and I love that visual language, plus the haircut really suits him, dude did a really good job)

Cue a shot of Colin being sad, listening to a folk band playing in the Inn and my heart is melting this is movie is so precious.

I don't want to spoil what happens in one of the following scenes, my thoughts are confirmed, Colin is a kid and I love him for that.

Colin, I’d like you to please stop doing and saying things that make me go: “Ha, I do that!” Thank you very much.

I won’t go into much more detail from this point on I will just say he eventually gets to Blackpool, talks to Sandra and makes the best decision of his life. He really learned a lot about himself in those few days. The ending fills my heart with butterflies everytime.

A pure, lovely, gentle and genuine performance by Michael. I don’t know how, but his acting in this feels like a hug from a very good friend. It’s so warm and sincere. Of all the films and shows I’ve written about until now, this one is by far my favourite. This is the kind of movie you turn to when you're having a hard time and want to work through it.

If you can, watch it in autumn. With a nice cuddly blanket, a person you love and a nice tea or hot cocoa. But however you do it, if there is one film from my blog you should watch, it's this one!

PS: If you should ever have the chance to meet Michael Sheen in person, please tell him a random guy called Cosmo on the internet loved this movie very much and would like to thank him for this extraordinary genuine and heartfelt performance. This film will stay with me for a long time <3

[odinsblog]

Random thoughts

The other day I was hanging out with my cousin and her children, a 3yr old boy and an 8yr old girl, and the boy had some kind of gremlin looking doll(?) and he was walking around holding it close and I thought that he kept saying, “this is my baby,” and I started to clown him about how could he have a baby, but fortunately I caught myself. I was about to do the heteronormativity thing, “boys can’t have babies,” instead of just letting him live in his imaginary world and have fun. And it turns out that he was actually saying, “this is my baby brother,” because he learned that his father had just had another child

And then I started to think about his sister, and how I used to mess with her when she was his age. Sometimes she would be showing off a new dress that she liked, and I would tell her how pretty she looked and then I would say something like, “I have a dress just like that,” and “May I borrow your pretty dress?” and every single time she would immediately respond by saying, “You���re a boy!” and telling me that she didn’t think it would fit me anyway

It made me think about how small children are like little “detail” vacuums in all the information and social cues that they absorb. This is not breaking news or anything, but it really hit me how, whether we intend to or not, we are enculturating children in what is and isn’t acceptable socially. Even nonverbally. They notice EVERYTHING and they incorporate all that they see and hear into their minds and behaviors

(disclaimer: I am not a parent, so ofc I could be way off base here. I don’t think so though)

And then, lol, as I was driving home, I drove past a smoking hot, super attractive girl and as I got closer, I recognized her and suddenly wanted to kick myself. It was a girl who, maybe a couple of years ago, had pushed some of my friends and acquaintances to ask me if she could temporarily live with me until she got back on her feet (if I’m remembering correctly, her parents had kicked her out for attending BLM protests and wearing BLM bracelets). Anyway, at the time I was super tempted, but I recall telling her that I didn’t have a spare bed and I didn’t wanna sleep on the couch indefinitely and she said, “We could share your bed. I won’t bite, unless you’re into that kind of thing” and for whatever reason, that set off alarm bells in my head, so I gently declined to take her on as a roommate

I almost stopped to offer her a ride, but it felt weird and also Imma coward

As an aside, someone asked me if she had been a 21yr old guy, would I have taken them in, and my answer was “probably” and Idk what to think about the implications of what that means. Like, I’m a cis/het straight guy, but why specifically did taking in a girl make a difference? A person in need is a person in need, regardless of their gender sexuality etc. And would it have made a difference if it was a girl who I wasn’t attracted to? 🤔

Anyway, I’m lowkey definitely regretting that decision now. WTF were you thinking, Odin??

[acomedytothosewhothink]

Wait, this whole fucking time “social cues” meant like, subtle body language and facial expressions?!

I thought social cues were like, someone yelling at you when they’re mad or laughing at you when they’re making fun of you.

Like, people don’t even react to things the same way. Some people are jumpy because they’re energetic, and others from anxiety. Some people smile with teeth, some don’t, and sometimes people show teeth when they’re not smiling, and sometimes a no teeth smile looks like a grimace or vice versa. Like no shit I can’t just read someone’s mind because they crossed their arms a certain way. WTF?!

And who is just like, staring at a persons face when having a casual conversation anyway? I can barely keep track of the conversation without forgetting what I was gonna say in the first place because people talk so. damn. slow.

So yeah, “social cues” is a dumb concept. Say what you mean!

On an unrelated note: I have been thinking that maybe it’s possible my ADHD diagnosis wasn’t completely…comprehensive. And that maybe all my autistic friends telling me for years to get tested might have had a point.

But it’s still stupid that struggling to understand some endlessly complex, pointlessly coded system of communication is considered a problem. How does literally anyone not struggle with that?

[xxlethal-lunaxx]

TW/ Harsh vent

The late diagnosed autistic experience when you remember your traumatic childhood and realized how unfair it was, how fucked over you were by the cruel people of this world. How I wish to not hold rage and anger for the pain that was inflicted on me. IT WASN'T FAIR, I AM SUFFERING! SUFFERING! FOR THE THINGS THEY DID OUT OF CHILDHOOD IGNORANCE WHILE I'M STILL HERE TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT AND HEAL FROM IT. It pains me how much fucking shit happened because I couldn't see the red flags and social cues, what did I miss....what could explain the reasoning behind people's behaviors?! I WANNA FUCKING KNOW. IM SO ANGRY, IM SO ANGRY THAT IM ANGRY, I DONT WANNA FEEL THESE EMOTIONS. Why did they do those things?! I keep getting flashbacks of the things that happen and I'm scared. As if it happening once wasn't enough my brain has it playing on loop like some sick game. I hate this, God help me its torture. I feel at times im lying to myself because i tell myself "it wasn't that bad" but then shit like this happens where I'm panicking and feel like I'm dying then I'm like "oh wow! Its real the symptoms are appearing". Wtf! C-ptsd sucks ass so much. It wasn't fair I had to be played with aggressively and held against my will and no matter how much I tried to resist they wouldn't let go. This is just one fucking traumatic theme thats popping up but next episode it could be something completely different, I never know exact triggers or what i can do to prevent c-ptsd episodes. I'm just scared and feeling alone. I hate this isolating disorder. The SH thoughts are bugging me so I know venting is a healthier coping mechanism, I really don't wanna relapse. I also vent here because if in anyway someone finds this and can relate and feel less alone then that's a thought that makes this all worth it.

[writingthroughmyass]

Trying to work on a new Logan fic but my ideas are just all over the joint 😭

I know I wanna do enemies to friends to lovers typa thing

DP wolverine verse where reader is a mutant with a physical mutation and the daily harassment gets to her and makes her snap and she attacks some peeps.

Cue Logan stepping in and being like wtf dude this is not the way. He channels his inner Charles and tries to get her to see that not everyone is like that and to have hope in humanity.

I'm so cringe but I watched Australia last night because Hugh Jackman and Baz Luhrmann ofc and it got me thinking a lot of bigotry with the racism and the stolen generation and like will people ever fucking change because dude Aussies are so disgusting towards the aboriginals and Torres strait Islanders.

That combined with all the stuff about the boxer Imane and I was like dude I feel like X-Men probably doesn't take it far enough with how people would react to mutants in reality. Human society fucking hates anybody different. The amount of disgusted looks my mum and I would get in public when I was a kid is fucking insane (I'm mixed and it's very obvious when I'm standing next to my mum lol).

But anyways I wanna explore some of that and how social media has caused it all to kick up a notch (playing Spiderman 2 and seeing the way they incorporate social media with the story has been pretty interesting).

I'll figure it out eventually 🥲

[sassybatmankpopranch]

Random rant/incomprehensible rambling so I won't exactly be like idk ... I'm rambling don't take it all too seriously. Either I ramble here or get ignored at home about it and I just need to let this out.

This has to be one of those neurotypical social cues stuffs or whatever, cause I still don't get it. Customers asks for location of the store I work at. I give the location and address. Customer says"that's not what I'm looking for." Fbgofkfibhdont the fuck you mean it's not?! I'm sorry am I just THAT BAD social cues or am I just plain stupid cause wtf... Like did I misunderstand something?!?! Like someone asks for directions or the location ... You do give them the directions and location... Right? right?!!!! Anyways, the situation ended peacefully I fucking guess but this small interaction has been bothering me for HOURS. Like am I that severely autistic or whatever. Omfg fkdbicmthuidnthhcfuncfahhhhhhhhhhh

[homelessvogue]

it was revealed to me in therapy today that i walk around in life thinking everyone is joking or mocking me as a coping mechanism when in reality i should believe what people say to me and like my first reaction was to be like “she’s saying this ironically obviously”

but then i kinda giggled and pointed that out and she was like no u idiot this is my point exactly

anyway the reason this came up is that she thinks i’m blind to the way people feel about me because i don’t pick up on social cues or unspoken double meaning type shit. she says i need to “be more aware of the signals people send and not just the words they say”

…wtf does that MEAN lmaooo like if you hate me, tell me. love me? tell me. want to fuck kiss me? chances are i thought about it ages ago but wasn’t it would ever occur to you unless you TELL ME.

idk why this frustrates me so much lmao but like we were all taught in kindergarten to use our words and all the neurotypicals forgot that once they hit puberty and started talking with suggestions and indirect hints and i’m expected to just KNOW wtf y’all want??

[amelia-yap]

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