#i just have such a rich inner world

[fappellmoan]

not to sit here and weave a story out of nothing like a little protagonist via my quirky online storytelling but i rekindled my friendship with sam who is such an interesting person there are just a lot of stories of all sorts and this is funny timing but truly we just fell into such an easy banter this past class so we were like omg lets hang right so. his roommate really is just like stupid hot right. i could get corny with it but i wont. a face sculpted by the hands of god though. all this prefaced i will now tell u an absolutely nothing story and i really mean that read at your own discretion ((A/N: trust and believe i yapped. putting under keep reading to be somewhat forgivable) (i am not in my best of states rn. okay.)

anyway so we're chillin in sams room im getting caught up on the latest construction projects and shit.. one thing abt sam hes always up to something. they've got an entire work desk #butchrealness. then i hear some singing out in the hallway but from where im sitting cant actually see anyone so convo just goes sam and roommate 'hey' 'hey' and then i peeked my little head out and waved and said hey and they stopped and set down their basket and said 'Hey' and then i did not introduce myself (flop) (combo of cramped room and sam talking and me being wildly awkward) (also keep in mind i dont know if this person has swiped left on me or not been on tinder or if theyd even recognize me anyway and hating that that's even a situation bc i hate that stupid app but just hoping worst case scenario i dont come off as an insane stalker but rather a victim of circumstance) but they just chatted for a sec abt whatever shelf sam needs to fix and that was that. and then they went back to humming which was cute or whatever

to set the next scene we're down in the kitchen and sams cooking and this is a while after we took his homemade gummies so im not rlly high per se but chillin and something about the noise and setup in their kitchen is so overstimulating for me lol when shes cooking im just like frozen. i always offer to help but he always just gets in a groove it's best i dont intervene. one time he had to tell me to go sit down in the other room bc i was freakin out a little lol

so im perched on this single high chair they have in the kitchen right next to their washer and dryer as sams whipping up some food and im kind of obnoxiously saying Unfortch in response to a story he was telling me and he gives me a look so im like UnfortunateLy. and then hes like 'psh i know unfortch i live with this guy' cue roommate strollin in with laundry and theyre just like Whaat and sam explains and theyre like Oh ofc you gotta know unfortch or whatever. forgot to mention that earlier in sams room they said three similar abbreviated words in a row just during a normal sentence and it caught me so off guard i wanted to giggle. so naturally my brain is going through Immediate social response of a semi awk laugh or quippy remark about that but also theyre literally like a foot away from me and im largely nonverbal atm lmfaoo so i just mumble smth to try and go along w the bit but then trailed off cause i was like wtf am i even saying. brain was overloaded

and then i was like um. i literally was just staring around doing fuck all like a perched bird or something but i was fighting a war in my mind of like ok do i introduce myself or look to sam to do so or do we not do that or is that rude idk but also they have headphones on one ear and are doing all their laundry shit and i once again dont want to be like overbearing but also well come on now we gotta feel out the vibe (and i do a great job here.) idk so im like Ok dont just look at them but dont Not look at them just behave like a normal person. you know. the usual. sam comes over to give me a bit of bread with balsamic vinegar and oil and i spilled it on my sweater fuck this stupid baka life (didnt really show. but still they were right there..)

and so after a min of this they were kinda like awkward laugh 'dont mind me' and i once again was very self conscious and had several things that wanted to come out 'not at all' 'dont mind me' 'it's your house' 'these all sound awful abby' then i got anxious that i was in the way the whole time but they were almost done and if i got into a weird apology thing well i would have had to kill myself so i just once again kind of uttered something that would have sounded like 'youresogoodicanmovetoo' and also 'sorry if i just keep like looking over at you' WTF IS THAT SHIT. FUMBLE BOOOOO and my follow up was essentially nothing cause i couldnt decide if i should say 'im just a bit out of it/high' 'im easily distracted (kys)' 'idk what to do w myself haha' 'im useless in the kitchen' (not entirely true) i mean just a few minutes before sam and i had talked about how ill just wander around peoples rooms and observe things to avoid feeling awkward and it's just how i am and so i was kinda just doing that due to the nerves of the sitch but there was only so much to look at. and i just sat there. offputting realness. whatever. so. straight face emoji. and that was mostly the extent of that i dont remember what they said in response just like a lil laugh or w/e. probably couldnt hear my stupid ass mumbling. so im thinking my chances of charming them at all are really stellar

if you read all this i want you to just take note that the events depicted here could not have been more than 3-4 minutes collectively. and yet the yap goes on..

for future reference, what did we learn? probably best to just continue convo with sam, excuse urself to br, or perhaps even attempt a conversation w them if ever in a similar situation again and they talk to you first again. also stop inventing complicated situations in ur head chill the hell out. idiot. says the bitch with the anxiety disorder. feel free to egg me on or tell me to fuck off ok xoxoxoxxo love u

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

weeee fantasy au scribbles look at these Guys

[atigrado]

class of 09 the flipside

[mildcicada]

If you surrendered to the air you could ride it.!!! .....I give up, I surrender etc.

[gummiibladii]

quirky 14 year old mbticels typing their families like:

dad: xstj cuz he MEAN AND BORING UGH!!! old man doesnt UNDERSTAND ME. 😡

mom: xsfj cuz nice :) still very boring an normie unfortunately (get well soon)

younger sibling: esxp/enfp cuz soooo louuudd and hyper🙄🙄

me: intj/intp/entp/infp swag big brain ethereal being because im deep. no one gets me. im just too intuitive and intelligent for these people. they just dont get it. ugh

family dog: estp i guess. runs around a lot lol😂

[capaldiera]

pet peeve of mine is when people have incorporated donna noble lesbianism into their understanding of the character so much that their predictions for how she would respond to a situation is just "she would immediately start dating the hot woman" well that's not what donna does though is it

[alpacinogirlfriendofficial]

hello i just stumbled across your blog and saw the selfie you just posted … you are stunning

omg thank you that's very sweet 😚😚😚😚

[vampyrobot]

Splatoon isn’t even a game to me anymore it’s like a little universe in my head that has all my friends (ocs) in it that I just so happen to also have on my switch

[scattered-winter]

Tell me about the new transformers trailer bestie

trailer

ok listen so my relationship with the transformers movies is so so so so so so so so complicated but GOD i'm so excited for this one to come out

initially i was like "they're making ANOTHER one ???!!!" because literally they are all so bad. its like the pirates of the carribbean franchise they just gotta STOP. but the new movie is with a totally new director and producing company (paramount and skydance are collaborating) so i have HOPES.

I did a little research and apparently the new movie (rise of the beasts) is a sequel to the solo bumblebee movie (aka the ONLY transformers movie in my rich inner world) so !!!!!!

it's also technically a prequel to the michael bay bullshit BUT it could potentially be a reboot instead because the characters in the trailer (the gorilla [optimus primal] and other animals) are the current autobots' descendants so it could possibly be an xmen days of future past situation where the past + future characters cause the timeline to reset. in which case the michael bay movies would no longer be canon. bless <3

the designs for all the autobots and maximals (animal robots) also SLAP btw. something about me is that the quickest path to my heart is robots <33333

I really really love the details with the maximals because !! its hard to see because of the low quality but they have actual fur and skin in a few places !!! because the maximals are the future descendants of the autobots, they're much more advanced, and they're a mix of robotic and organic and honestly it's SUCH a cool detail

and optimus prime's faceplate <333 it's soooooo <3333333333 like i said in my earlier post I didn't initially like optimus' design because it felt. boxier and clunkier than his designs in the michael bay movies but tbh it's grown on me!! it resembles some of his earlier more original designs which is a nice touch, and plus I'm not one to bitch about any robot design that fucks severely.

and bumblebee <333 my good pal bumblebee my sweet cheese soldier my babygirl loser wife my best friend my science experiment my summertime study buddy bumblebee <333

looks like he's gonna experience The Horrors and who am i to not be excited for that?

in conclusion: big robot make brain go brrr

[navramanan]

my supervisor fighting MY being boring alligations since that one time i called myself boring now anytime he asks me what i did on the week end and i say nothing he tells me he doesnt think i’m boring i probably have a rich inner world (i dont i’m insane)

[punksouthie]

buffy and faith are thad thawne and bart allen, and also remulus and romulus, and also abel and cain, and also the master and the doctor, and also revan and the exile, and also orpheus and eurydice, and also buddy glass and seymour glass, and also achilles and hektor, and also peter parker and eddie brock, and

[vveakfish]

told my brother i think denji and shark-fiend are boyfriends, and all he said was “are you Stupid?”

[demetriandelibinaryboyfriends]

Me getting obsessed with YasMoon and finding that next to no one ever writes them/headcanons stuff about them/interacts with them in any meaningful way </3

[blujayonthewing]

[lying on the floor staring at the ceiling] if the party was just a little bigger. or if jill knew how to do text-based roleplay. I could at least forum rp the lad. alas........

[justanawesomeowl]

Honestly, I often wish my brain would be more normal about dudes. I'll meet someone and my brain will have me half in love and letting this random person live rent-free in my mind. And sure, they seem great (it doesn't happen with every single dude I meet thank God) but I also don't care that much about them?? I'm very happy and content with my life as it is, and this overthinking is more annoying than helpful.

[adamantine-ribbon]

another thing about having such a rich inner world (schizophrenia and DID) is that we keep so much to ourselves instead of saying it out loud