#jumps in the way and he stops bc he doesnt wanna hurt his new friend

[destielcumcoffeeshopau]

I ran out of tags so I'm gonna continue here.

Read the tags first lol

Anyways so she explodes right and he's like oh no and then he goes back to Sonic's time and Sonic's fucking dead somehow and he's like wtf guys I left you for like five minutes

And then they bring Sonic back to life with the chaos emeralds

And then he teams up with Shadow and Sonic and goes super and then they kill the gods together

And then he wanders around the timeline, he has nothing left besides his self inflicted duty of protecting the future and he tries not to affect any of the places he goes bc he technically shouldn't exist anymore

Eventually he gives in to his loneliness and starts hanging out with Sonic and his friends and he makes friends with the past version of his cat friend

Anyways

He's a silly lil guy.

He's Italian and he loves apples and he's kinda feral and he's temperamental and determined and kind and he's soooo autistic and he's honest and straightforward and follows a strict personal moral code and he doesn't understand social cues very well and he's considered rude by social expectations

He loves ice skating and being active and nature and he has his own garden and he loves Christmas and holidays and he lives to make others happy and he's oh so fluffy and silly and he even has a job where he's a delivery boy and he LOOOOVVVEEESSSS it he loves giving people their packages and he loves their smiles

He's soo cute

Hehehe

GUSH ABOUT YOUR F/O IN THE REBLOGS TO ME AND I WILL ACTUALLY LISTEN AND RESPOND TO THEM ACCORDINGLY BECAUSE YOU 🫵 DEAR READER DESERVE TO HAVE YOUR INTERESTS TREATED WITH RESPECT AND NOT JUST GET A "wow that's neat"

doubles and proshippers dni! Doubles you also deserve respect I'm just not very good at sharing I'm so sorry!

[breanime]

Okay okay, since you are asking for drabble requests I have one for you in which one (Billy) of them ate the other(s)’s leftovers without asking, but the reader just starts crying bc she had a shitty day and Billy kind of doesnt know it would end that way.

This was also requested by my love @christinawxxx:  Hi! I have one for you one of them ate the other(s)’s leftovers without asking with Logan or Billy! ( I will shank a bitch if they eat my Mexican food just saying...) Thank you ☺️

And by the sweetest and kindest person ever @songtoyou: one of them ate the other(s)’s leftovers without asking with Billy Russo please.

Thank you all for the request--I hope you like it!

Everything was shit. You had the worst life.

Your boss was being an asshole, demanding more and more from you with each passing hour. You worked through your lunch and stayed after hours to finish your coworkers’ shoddy work without getting even a “thank you” in return.

Your best friend texted you to tell you she was getting back with her asshole ex, which pissed you off, and when you asked her if that was the best decision, she got mad. She texted you: “well, at least I’m not with a murderer!”, which prompted you to take a break from working your ass off to call her and let her know that what she was NOT gonna do was talk shit about Billy. Not to you. She started crying, and then she hung up, so… there was that.

And to top it all off, your train was late, so you were stuck at the station waiting for it to arrive, where you accidentally dropped—and broke!—your phone.

You were ready to cry by the time you finally made it home. Your feet hurt, wedged in your least favorite heels because you’d rushed to work that morning, your back and neck hurt because you’d been hunched over all day, and you were starving—

—but there was a silver lining to all of it: Billy and Mexican food.

Billy had taken you to a nice Mexican restaurant the other night, and you still had some left. You’d purposefully left it at home because it was so good that you only wanted to enjoy it in the comfort of your own home. All you wanted to do was eat your food and then sleep in Billy’s arms. You dropped your purse on the floor when you got home and kicked your shoes off. You could see the light from your room on down the hall, and knew Billy was probably in the back, reading reports or something. You limped over to the fridge, mouth watering at the prospect of your dinner…

…only to find it gone.

You froze, hand on the fridge door, staring into it. Your food was gone. You shut the door and turned, walking down the hall.

“Hey,” Billy greeted you, “Is your phone off? I called and it went straight to voicemail?” He was sitting in bed, wearing one of his comfortable sweaters that usually made you want to hug him, with a magazine in his lap and an empty container next to him.

Your food.

He ate your food.

“Y/N?” He sat up. “You okay?”

You opened your mouth, ready to say that you were fine, but what came out was just a sob. Billy jumped up, eyes wide and surprised—if not a little confused, but you held your hands up, keeping him at bay. You shook your head, the tears falling from your eyes quickly. You didn’t know what to say, so instead, you just let out another shuddering sob and walked out of the room.

“Y/N! Hey, sweetheart—” Billy was behind you, and he put his hand on your shoulder, making you turn around and face him. “—What’s going on? What’s wrong?”

You shook your head, closing your eyes and trying to stop the tears, but you couldn’t. You were just so… disappointed and frustrated and stressed and tired and hungry. “I—I—” your voice was shaking, and it occurred to you that this was the first time Billy had ever seen you cry like this before, and he was probably really confused. “—You ate my food!”

Billy blinked, pulling back a bit. “You’re crying because I ate your leftovers?” He asked.

You shook your head again. “I was looking forward to eating that,” you said, chest heaving, “I was—you just—”

Billy pulled you to him by the shoulders and wrapped his arms around you. You sobbed into his sweater, your tears soaking through the thick fabric. Your whole body was shaking as you cried, and Billy rubbed his hand up and down your back. He smelled so good, and he was so firm and warm against you… You hugged him back, your fists balled up in his shirt. You cried and cried, you couldn’t stop yourself, you were just so tired. But Billy didn’t seem to mind; he held you without complaint, softly humming in your ear to let you know that he was there for you. At one point, he leaned down and picked you up, carrying you to the couch bridal style and laying you in his lap. You turned and buried your face in his neck; you were all out of tears now, so you just leaned against him and let Billy hold you.

You took a steadying breath. “I’m sorry…” You mumbled, throat raw from crying.

“Shh,” he whispered into your hair, “It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize.” He kissed the top of your head, and you felt tears in your eyes again. “Did you have a bad day, baby?” You nodded, and Billy’s grip around you tightened. “I’m sorry,” he said, speaking into your hair, “I’m sorry I ate your food…”

“No,” you looked up at him, and Billy’s frown deepened at how red your eyes were, “I overreacted, it’s okay…”

“I’m sorry,” he said again, hand on your face, “And when you’re ready, I wanna hear about your day, okay?”

You nodded, snuggling closer. “I broke my phone.”

“At work?”

“Mm mm… At the station. My train was late,” you explained, “and some guy ran into me and I dropped it.” You sniffled. “I skipped lunch. I worked through it, and no one even stopped to see if I needed any help…”

He made a noise, and you knew Billy was trying to stop himself from commenting—he wasn’t the biggest fan of your boss or your coworkers.

“My whole body hurts,” you admitted, sniffling once more.

Billy kissed the top of your head again. “Can I make some suggestions?” He asked.

You nodded.

“I’m gonna run you a bath,” he started, “and you’re gonna relax tonight.” He looked down at you, his dark eyes staring into yours. “I’m gonna make a few calls and get you somethin’ to eat…”

“Billy, it’s late.”

“The restaurant owner owes me a favor,” he shrugged, “Don’t worry, baby, you’re getting your enchiladas.”

You chuckled, and Billy grinned, happy to see you smile. “Okay.”

“I’m also gonna take the liberty of calling you off of work tomorrow,” he said, speaking quickly before you could object, “I fucking dare your boss to say no to me.” His grin turned dark. “Actually, I want him to.”

You leaned against his chest. “Billy,” you sighed, smiling.

“That sound good?” He asked, looking down at you.

You nodded, closing your eyes. You were already feeling better—all you needed was to cry in Billy’s arms, but of course, he was going above and beyond. “That sounds perfect,” you sighed. “But can I add something?”

“Anything,” he answered, kissing your head again.

“Can you get in the bath with me?”

He smiled, leaning down and kissing your lips, making your entire body feel like it was floating. “I can do that,” he answered.

A few hours later, after a bubble bath with Billy that turned into soft, slow sex, express delivery Mexican food, and lots and lots of kisses and cuddles, you were in bed with Billy, your head on his naked chest with his arms around you. Your eyelids were heavy, and you sighed happily as Billy pressed kisses to your hairline.

“I ordered you a new phone,” he said, voice low. His hand was trailing up and down your arm, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin. “And I already called your boss.”

“When?” You asked, eyes closing even as you spoke.

“When you were inhaling your food,” he said back with a low chuckle, “He was so impressed with the amount and quality of your work—and I’m quoting him here—that he’s ‘in talks’ to get you the promotion you ‘so obviously deserve’.”

“What?” You sat up, eyes wide. “Really?”

“Yup,” he gently pushed you back down, resuming his caressing of your skin, “He said you can have all the time you want,” he leaned down and kissed you—a long, soft kiss that had your toes curling, “So that gives me all the time I want to make tonight up to you.”

“Billy,” you laughed, “you don’t have to—”

“—I was gonna start with another round of orgasms,” he said, grinning.

“Oh,” you blinked up at him, “well then get busy, Marine.”

Billy laughed, rolling over so that he was on top of you, his body pressing down on yours. You spent the night like that, connecting with Billy as he made love to you until you fell asleep, completely full and sated and relaxed.

The day had started out shitty, but in a matter of hours, Billy had turned it all around.

You really did have the best life.

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[parkersvibes]

finding out peter is spiderman

read part one here

a/n: omg guys. i got so much feedback from you all on part one so i decided to make a part 2. and yeahh i really hope you guys enjoy. if you do lmk and i’ll do a part 3 (:

(i also apologize if the read more doesnt work )))): )

warnings: fluff, a smidge on angst

pt 2. peter parker x stark!reader

• figuring out he was spiderman

• alright you’re a stark

• but no one knows that

• but you’re really intuitive

• so there were little things you started to notice

• after uncle ben died there was some weird shit (if you want a part ab comforting peter ab uncle ben lemme know. he deserves his own part)

• like how he stopped wearing his adorable glasses

•and i guess started almost bulking up????

• he got WAY taller

• and usually you’re used to seeing him shirtless but this one time you walked in on him

• holy mother of god

• IT WAS LIKE HE GREW ABS OVER NIGHT

• BECAUSE FRESHMAN PETE DID NOT HAVE A 6 PACK

• freshman peter also got winded walking up the stairs

• AND NOW HE’S RUNNING LAPS IN GYM LIKE ITS NOTHING ??

• must be nice

• but then things got more sus

• all of a sudden he was skipping class more

• leaving early

• cancelling study sessions and skipping movie nights with ned

• and you and ned were clueless

• you and ned started hanging out more

• MR. LEEDS IS HILARIOUS LEMME TELL YOU

• he was like this little ball of happiness

• you found out his real name is Edward

• HOW CUTE

• and WOW HIS MOM BEING FILIPINA MEANT THAT YOU WERE BEING FED ALL THE TIME OH MY GOD

• ngl pete got a bit jealous

• one night,,, when pete cancelled YET AGAIN

• ned asked you, “hey y/n?”

• “hm”

• “why don’t we ever hang out at your place”

• “i told you ned, my family is just a lot yanno. plus your family and may are really cool”

• “okay but how come you don’t have any social media under your name?”

• “wdym?”

• “like you go by ‘y/n Smith’ but everything that pops up on the internet isn’t YOU”

• “pfff i told you,,, i dont believe in that stuff”

• “y/n, you know you can tell me anything”

• you wanted to be honest. this was one of your best friends. and you’ve been lying to them about your family for over a year now

• “ned i just. it’s complicated”

• “like peter’s family?”

• “nonono, i’m lucky to have both of my parents- well i have a step mom. my real mom wanted nothing to do with me. so she left me on the steps of my dads house. never came back”

• “oh shit bro, i’m sorry”

• “nah don’t worry. my dad is really cool and my step mom... she’s awesome.”

• “what’re their names”

• NATASHA WAS GONNA KILL YOU IF SHE COULD SEE HOW BAD YOU WERE STRUGGLING

• “well- uh- my step moms name is,,, um. well her real name is Virginia”

• THE WORLD KNEW PEPPER AS PEPPER NOT VIRGINIA

• “and my- my dads name is ehm... st, steve???”

• natasha was gonna have your ass

• “y/n,,,”

• “yeah”

• “you’re a horrible liar”

• “PFFF WHAAAT? NO IDEA WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT”

• “dude you left your spiderman fan tumblr open on my laptop that one night,,, and i MAY have done some snooping”

• okay you mightve had a slight obsession with the webslinger. HE WAS COOL. and what better way to keep track of him without alerting your family,,, good ol tumblr

• oh god ned, HOW MUCH SNOOPING”

• “enough to know that you have a weird obsession with that spider guy and that your last name isnt smith”

• so you told him the truth. you were a stark

• and well,,, he reacted with

• “okay cmon,,, don’t lie”

• so you showed him your late night dance parties with Nat when she was feeling goofy

• and your random snaps of steve when he was trying to figure out how to work technology

• videos of you reacting to vines with bucky

(if yall wanna see domestic life with the avengers just lmk)

• which usually results with THE WINTER SOLDIER ALMOST PEEING HIS PANTS. and trying to reenact it with sam or the other avengers

• “heyheyehy y/n guess what?”

• “what bucky?” *is in the middle of doing hw*

• “FRESHOVACADO” *bolts out of the room before you throw something at him*

• only the two of you getting vine and meme references

• (meaning getting in trouble during meetings bc you’ll make eye contact and start laughing)

• OH HIS FAVORITE IS THE “country boiiii, i love you,,, 😛”

• anywaayyy

• ned was SHOOK

• “nowayohmygodyoureanavenger”

• “no ned,,, only when they need me to be”

• *led to him asking 100000 questions*

• “does Mr. America smell like old man”

• “what language does Ms. Widow think in”

• “how many shirts does Mr. Hulk own”

• “so do they wear normal clothes or are they always PREPARED”

• “does your dad have to walk a weird way when hes in his suit”

• “do they ever chafe in their suits”

• “yes ned. we’re stocked up on baby powder”

• which you didnt mind bc it felt nice telling the truth

• ned WANTED TO TELL PETER SO BAD

• “ned no, i don’t want him to think of me differently”

• he understood. but still defended peter and said that hed still treat you the same

• anyway,,, peter started showing up with bruises and stuff which had you v concerned

• “pete what’s up? you’ve been avoiding ned and i and you have skipped out on every movie night since sophomore year started”

• “t’s nothing. dont worry ab it”

• “peter cmon, it’s just me”

• you figured maybe it had to do with ben??? but you gave him his space. you just wanted to be there for him yanno. you didnt want him to shut you out

• “Y/N I SAID ITS NOTHING. FOR FUCKS SAKE CAN YOU LEAVE ME ALONE???” he snapped (and not in the good way)

• and this was on your way to class so the whole hallway heard

• ouch

• so you left him alone. probably more than he meant. but it hurt

• i mean he was your first friend here, and now he yelled at you to leave you alone

• ned felt awful at first. trying to comfort you and tell you it wasnt your fault

• but then he started acting weird. whenever you brought up peter hed be super antsy about it

• you- “i think he got into another fight or something”

• ned- “pFFT PETER? FIGHTING? no way,,, i got-i gotta go”

• so you figured that whatever peter was hiding, ned knew about,, which also hurt your feelings

• so you closed off

• and wow could the super family tell something was wrong

• wanda- “little stark, i can feel your sadness all the way to my room”

• sam/bucky/rhodes- “okay what’s the deal, we’ve played 5 rounds of fortnite and you havent once rage quit even though you’re doing terrible”

• tony- “kid, what’s wrong? everyone here can tell you’re not feeling great”

• nat- “cmon. ive given you 3 opportunities to kick my ass and you havent once complained about me going easy?”

• thor- “lady y/n what is causing you distress? not once have you smiled, i even wore my hair in pigtails,,, and that seems to always do the trick”

• and you gave the same response every time “‘m just tired” “lots of homework”

• they noticed you werent going out on weekends anymore

• so tony figured that your friend group and you were having some Stuff

• pep gave him an idea of meeting his new prodigy

• now tony knew it’d be kinda sus because peter went to midtown but he figured that if the kid kept his mask on it’d be fine

• “dad i don’t wanna see another one of your weird maid robots”

• “wha- no i want you to meet someone”

• “dad college isn’t for another 2 years. if it’s your friend from MIT-“

• then right before your eyes was the insect boy that youve been admiring through the internet

• needless to say

• your jaw dripped

• “y/n meet spiderling, spiderling meet my daughter y/n stark”

• *seconds pass*

• “i uh- oH- um- sp-spidERman, h-hi. biG fan of you- your work”

• *silence*

• you- “oH dad diD you hear th-that? moM is calling mE”

• tony- “what?? pep wouldve called on the interco-“

• spiderman- “y/n”

• you- SHOOK TO THE CORE BECAUSE YOU KNEW THAT VOICE. THAT WAS THE VOICE THAT SOUNDED LIKE HONEY BUT COULD CUT YOU DEEPER THAN ANY WEAPON IN YOUR HOUSE

• you- “p-peter???”

• tony- *shocked pikachu face* “you know each other???”

• you- “so-something like that yeah”

• peter takes off his mask

• “ohmygodpeterisspiderman”

• “ohmygodyourlastnameisntsmith”

• tony- “im gonna let you guys figure this out” *walks backward slowly*

*insert silence*

• you- “so this is what you were hiding, huh?” with a cold tone

• “IM HIDING? YOU LIED ABOUT YOUR WHOLE HOME LIFE TO NED AND I”

• *yelling at each other for another minute. even though you couldnt hear what the other is saying*

• you- *yelling loudest “I DIDNT WANT YOU TO SEE ME DIFFERENTLY OKAY”

• peter- “you really thought id do that?” (heartbreaking voice)

• you- “i- once i got to know you, i knew you wouldnt but i was scared. i didn’t know how to tell you. for once in my life i had found someone my age who liked ME for ME. not for my name or money or my dad. and i didn’t want to change that. i’m sorry i didn’t tell you sooner”

• peter- “... i get what you mean. after ben died everyone gave me that look. except you and ned.”

• you- “why didn’t you tell me”

• peter- “everyone i love or ever cared about dies. my parents and then my uncle ben. so once i got my abilities i knew that the risk was even higher and i didn’t want to put you in that position. i wanted to keep you safe. but it seems like you know how to handle yourself” (referring to the fact that you grew up with THE EARTHS MIGHTIEST HEROS)

• y/n- “so how come ned found out?”

• peter *scratches back of neck* “well- he- i- May let him in my room and i happen to be crawling on the ceiling in my suit and he dropped the death star” *head hangs in shame*

• you had to giggle at that i mean CMON

• you stepped closer to him

• “pete you’re my best friend. you can tell me anything okay?”

• “no more secrets?”

• “no more secrets”

• and you both pinky promise and your thumbs “kiss” bc IF THEY ITS THE ULTIMATE UNBREAKABLE VOW DONT @ ME

• peter parker gives you the biggest hug that maKES YOUR HEART JUMP BC PHYSICAL CONTACT WITH A PERSON AS PRETTY AS HIM MAKES YOUR HEART FEEL A CERTAIN WAY

• but you wrapped your arms around his neck and enjoyed the moment

• wow he is really cozy

• * the avengers are watching from the cameras in awe*

• led to MANY questions at dinner

• and so everything went back to “normal”

• it wasn’t until you went to bed that night that you realized peter said the L word

• WHAT

• so much for no secrets

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[angeliclunaetic]

just thinking back to the day i met him, till now and,, there was always something about him. something that drew me in and everything just felt right. That day we met,, something about him just drew me in. idk if it was his sense of humor or just how polite n sweet and caring he was in general but it was,, something. idek why i even texted him in the first place. i just commented on his stuff and decided to text him. we talked for a few and then he showed me a pic of himself and i was just,, in awe. he really was the cutest thing ever. yes i had thought abt using him when i first saw him but,, i couldnt even if i had wanted to. i seen his pic and thought “yeah he looks like he’d be easy to use” but then by the end of texting him that night,, i fell so deeply for him. actually no. i already fell for him. way before we even met. that must be how everything felt so right. but just texting him a little bit that first night,, i just instantly wanted to know more about him. i never even talked abt someone else to my gc and for some reason i had the urge to talk about him,, like i knew he was the one but didn’t realize it. and then when we called for the first time,, i swear i had butterflies. even though i was otp with him and his friend,, i was so nervous to just talk to him. i had thought of him as my crush at that point. no one had ever made me feel that way. i never got so nervous to talk to anyone. i wanted to stay quiet that entire time so i wouldnt say something stupid and embarrass myself but something about him,, made me want to be so open. so i talked to him,, and when we got off the phone of our first call,, i was so incredibly sad. i wanted to talk to him more and more and i just wanted to call him again already,, but i wasnt sure how he had felt or if he even felt the same. i thought he did but i didnt wanna assume and make a fool out of myself. i wasnt sure if he had a crush or if he was just being nice. but after a while it was easy to realize. he was way too sweet and caring to me. more than a friend should be. he was there for me the night i was bawling otp w my ex. and he got mad and upset about how my ex was treating me in a way that was different than just my friends. and thats what made me fall for him even more. just him. being himself. him being so sweet. so caring. him just being there for me and not judging me and wanting others to treat me right. and when we videocalled that first time,,i was so nervous. i was worried he’d see what i look like and not be attracted to me anymore. but he still was. but i was so nervous anyways. but when i saw him on video call for the first time,, i was in shock. how could someone be so cute. so perfect. how could someone capture my heart just by simply smiling at me. i knew from then, that i, was in love with him. i wanted to be his so badly. but when he had asked me out i wanted to just scream yes at him,, but something in my mind told me to just calm down and wait,, however a part of me was worried that if i had made him wait that he’d find someone better and leave me. but he didn’t he stayed. even after that night i had told him everything. of how i used to use people and how i had originally planned to use him and he still stayed. i swear i felt my heart break that night and i was crying so much out of fear that he’d leave me before we even got together. i had such strong feelings for him and i wanted him to be mine. but i wanted to make sure i was away from,, that thing,, and that i fully loved him before i got into anything serious. i didnt wanna jump from relationship to relationship either. a part of me just wanted to be single and just have fun. but just,, talking to him and texting him,, i wanted him. i didnt care if i wasnt single. i just wanted him. but also a part of me didnt want to love again. or “love” as i should say considering i never loved anyone before him. i was mentally and emotionally exhausted and relationships are just so much work and you have to give someone such a large piece of yourself and i wouldnt be able to handle being broken again. so many thoughts ran through my head. “what if i dont love him, what if im just attracted to him because im going through things and he’s there for me” “what if he wont wait for me” “what if he doesnt like me “ “what if im using him and dont realize” “what if i get hurt” all these “what if’s” and i never once thought abt the reality of it all. that i, had feelings for him. that he felt the same. that he was willing to wait for me, even if it took years. that he would never hurt me and even allowed himself to be hurt by me if that meant even just getting a chance at me loving him. i guess i was just so worried and just in shock. no ones felt so deeply for me before.and that night that i had asked him out,,, i had seen a pic of my ex with this new girl and i felt absolutely nothing towards it. so then,, thats when i knew. i was over him. that emotional attachment was gone. and my feelings for sam were real. and we had called that night,, that entire night i was so nervous and got butterflies, and i realized i never stopped smiling once during that whole phone call. and after we got of,, i, once again, was extremely sad. i wanted to hear his voice talking to me for hours and hours. i wanted to smile and feel nervous and get butterflies. and at that point i was like,, fuck it. yes i was still worried that my feelings werent true. but what was the harm in trying. he was the only person to have caught my eye in like,, ever. he was on my mind that whole night and probably abt like 30 mins after we got off call i asked him out. my feelings for him were too strong. i was worried he wouldnt wait and i couldnt risk losing someone as special as him to someone else,, if i did, i wouldve never forgiven myself. im glad i asked him out. even though i had surprised myself by it,, i just couldnt wait any longer,, i needed to make him mine. and i did. and i wouldnt change it for the world. the first month for me was very,, rough. of course we were still getting to know each other and our boundaries,, and i of course made some mistakes. my fears of possibly not having true feelings were coming back. and it pushed him away because he didnt wanna get hurt. and he almost left me. those two nights that we had an issue and he had left me,, they broke me. they really did. that  was the worst i had ever been. the crying,, the screaming,, the anger and complete sadness i felt. i felt as if i had lost everything. i felt as if i had nothing left. if i didnt have him,, then,, who am i. im nothing without him. he’s my other half. my soulmate. and i thought i had lost him. im glad im so annoying and clingy otherwise i’d be so fucking heartbroken without him. we had only been together for less than a month those two times and yet i felt so strongly for him. nothing has ever made me feel this way. i had never wanted to keep someone in my life so bad before. it was like,, i needed him to breathe. i needed him to smile. i just,, needed him. i cant live without him. just thinking about a life without him makes me fucking sick. i want him and only him for the rest of our lives. no one can even compare to him. im just,, in shock. like im really in love with him and it just amazes me. im sitting here writing this as he’s sound asleep and i just. i miss him a lot. i guess all my feelings are coming out now since ive been distant the past month but,, i dont care. ill gladly shout from the rooftops how much i love him. god there’s so much more i could say about us. even before we started dating. i cant get over the rush i felt. the excitement, the nerves, the butterflies,, even all the “what if’s”,, i still get nervous and get butterflies when talking to him but ofc they’re not gonna be as strong as when we had met and declared our love for each other. speaking of love,, now im reminded of the day i had told him that i love him,, we had “argued” the day before and i thought i had lost him for good,, and that next day,,i wanted nothing more than to just hold him and kiss him and tell him that i love him. i know the words “i love you” is such a meaningful thing,, i couldnt help but tell him. its exactly how i felt. i loved him. i couldnt be apart from him,, even after only a week of dating him,, i was in love that night i thought he was leaving me for good,, absolutely broke me. and the next day i just wanted to hold him tight and never let him go. even though i was so nervous to tell him that i loved him,, i just,, i knew i was sure. no one had ever made me feel so strongly about them. yeah ive cried over my ex. but nothing could ever compare to just the complete distraught i felt that night. that crying so much it burned my throat and threw up,, the screaming,, just the complete sadness and anger i felt. after that,, i knew i loved him, and i wasnt afraid to tell him. i was nervous bc of how he’d react but i knew that i was never more sure of anything else in my life. i love him. and i want to be with him forever. 

[stellawolfearts]

head in hands /pos

im so glad so many people agree with me, i get kinda nervous about sharing some of my ideas and interpretations.

another thing i really like about mk's and macaques dynamic is that like...

Mk tries to help macaque but macaque is....macaque and either brushes mk off and changes the subject or he says something self destructive. says something along the lines of "please, like you of all people could help me" or " why dont we hurry along and get to the part where your finnaly fed up with me kay?" cause like....hes always been abandonded and he doesnt know what its like to. not. to actually have someone stick by you. so because he doesnt know how to handle this new and scary thing he'll try and run to whats familiar and when ppl do that its not always a good thing. In macaques case its pushing people away, hurting them and then being lonely again. but of course Mk might act dumb but he's not stupid, and he's not a pushover

Mk just looks at him, and ynow how mk is ussualy a sweet guy and optimistic. Macaque can bring out the harder side of him. the serious and real side. tells Macaque "fine, if you wanna live in self pity all alone go ahead. its your life" macaque looks at mk for a moment, expecting something more but he quickly realises how much he wanted mk to like...react differently. like how he did before when macaque said no to being a hero. when mk stirred him on to being a warrior. but no, this time...mk's...giving up on him?

but then before macaque can leave mk turns to him "im here if you want a friend but thats your decision to make, you wanna wallow in your own self pity forever fine but im giving you an out. im giving you a chance your the one that needs to take it. no one is going to drag you out of the hole youve been thrown into and keep digging deeper. its your choice to make"

"but ynow, if you want to stay sad hurt and alone thats on you, if you want a friend, if you want to be better-happier. then choose to be"

and THATS my favorite part. this little scenario i made up in my head where like...mk helps macaque help himself. he's not forcing macaque to heal he's giving macaque a choice. a realistic choice of actively trying to be better and happy or running back to self pity, lonliness and toxicity.

cause, its so easy to fall into that when you have no one, when no one cares about you and you have no one to care about

years ago i didnt have any friends, back in middle school. i was the wierd kid. i didnt really know how to socialise and i was really depressed. both of those combined made me not toxic but just in a REALLLY bad mental state that i wouldnt drag myself out of, in short i didnt see the light at the end of the tunnel. then i made a friend. she put up with my wierdness and encouraged my little rants about my passions and we ended up being REALLY good friends even today were still besties. my mental state improved ALOT bc of her.

not because she did anything special, she was just a friend.

so yeah i know macaques type, while i wasnt actively toxic (at least from what im aware of i didnt want to hurt anyone but i also didnt understand social cues and social things--still dont but i have better practice now) i was just really sad and lonely.

the best way for someone to get better long-term is to help them help themself and i know this from experience. thats the heart of thier dynamic and development that i LOVE.

also i like the idea of macaque making dark humor/ self depricating jokes and Mk making a broom out of his hair and smacking him like a feral cat "H-HEY!!" "STOP .JOKING. ABOUT. YOUR DEATH!"

then on Macaques side he teases Mk but then when somone else tries to mess with him its instant murder mode "dont mess with my kid"

Macaque acts carefree but he deeply cares about mk and his wellbeing so when any threat comes his way. whether its something small like an entitled customer or big like a super scary and powerful demon he's the first one next to Wukong and Mei jumping in to kick ass for Mk and probably bury a body.

also...also lmao.

wukong and macaque know how to hide and bury a body bc of thier history. but then are thouroughly shocked to learn Mei knows how to as well and is pretty skilled at it.

Macaque and swk are burying a body but then look over and see mei burying one as well. she looks over them and smiles, waves "hi guys!!" she cheers then goes back to digging.

Macaque notes to never piss her off again and counts his blessings since mk convinced her to not kill him after the samadhi fire thing.

how did this go from macaques mentality to mei burying a body?

no idea. but uuuh, yeah take it.

LISTEN, this is my inerpretation. if u dont see the things i do thats fine. idc. u have ur thoughts i have mine.

this is how i see macaque.

which ik most ppl wont see it the way i do and thats fine.

idk man hes pathetic but in a really really sad way.

He's self destructive, he's spiteful, angry, manipulative. hes an asshole.

but i like to think he's also loyal, caring and family oriented.

i have next to nothing to prove my coming claims but. here

say he was on ffm with wukong, lived there. before any immense trauma. He has wukong, he had friends, family. people he cares about.

but then wukong leaves.

the hunters come and take everyone from him. wukong comes back and brings a war. then ffm's burned down and everything he had left is gone.

reduced to ash.

so he goes to the only person he has left. he literally has NOTHING, other than Wukong. so he tries to find her. only to be told to leave. he's finnaly found the only thing he still cares about the only thing he has left and swk wants him to leave.

desperate he tries to antagonize the group to get them to kick out wukong again. doesnt work. he tries to kill trip. he ends up dead.

so in his last moments, he died with nothing, the only spark of hope he thought he had hasnt saved him. no it just. destroyed him.

so then he's revived. he still has nothing.

all he has is hate for swk. thats it. vengance spite and a need to survive. that will make anyone the asshole he is today.

but like. i see potential to be better. and caring. he needs to get his shit togethor but, if he had a friend. (cough-Mk-Cough) then i think he could pull himself togethor. not for his sake, but for this stupid kid that he's hurt yet still reaches out an olive branch. the only one he's seen in over a thousand years.

thats mostly why i like the mk and macaque dynamic

cause, mk isnt macaques fix. no. its more so. a reason for Macaque to pull himself back togethor.

Macaque has mostly never really had a reason, his only motivation fro anything is vengance against wukong and not dying. thats, a really sad life.

but if he has some other motivation like, doing something good bc mk would be proud, not doing something bc mk will be dissapointed and that first step can be a way to, help himself...help himself.

he just needs some other reason, something to live for other then vengance and then one day, one day he can make more friends, make up with wukong. pull himself back togethor after losing everythin. even hismelf

yeah.

[absolutelybifurious]

homecoming feelings inc (spoilers: most of them will look something like i love tony stark i LOVE tony stark i loVE TONY STARK I LOVE ad nauseum) 

peters video recording of civil war what an absolute babe

“thats not a hug im reaching for the door” (yeah right tony we all know you crave human contact)

why does peter know spanish?

peter taking time to pet the cat *_*

peter desperately looking for ways to help and giving that lady directions,,,, my son

“why did i mention the churro”

peter saving the cat and handing it back to the shop owner LIKE OH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD I LOVE HIM 

michelle doing situps with her book

no one will convince me flash doesnt have a massive gay crush on peter parker yall, i mean cmon?? HE MAKES EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM CLASSIC CRUSH SIGNS,,, hes legitimately obsessed with him, like i’m not kidding i can’t remember the specifics but several times i was like ok this is just kinda coded like hes into peter actually?

“you’re here too” “am i?” truly the best scene in the film michelle is a gift and zendaya is our glorious goddess who has bestowed this wonder on us

god the van scene, i immediately loved donald glover but that could be bc hes cute. but the thing is, this movie did such a Job of making peter immature. like i was continuously frustrated with him bc he was so markedly different and less mature than any of the other heroes. he screwed up again and again and again and the kidness of him was so well done. like it infuriated me half the time. but damn it was well done

TONY INSTALLED A HEATER IN PETERS SUIT

TONY WAS PAYING SO MUCH ATTENTION TO PETER THAT HE NOTICED WHEN THINGS WENT POORLY

TONY LISTENED TO THE PROBABLY HUNDREDS OF REPORTS PETER SENT AND REMEMBERS THE FUCKING CHURRO

tony wants to talk to peter about his college plans

tony stark is the best dad ever, and really in general he is the best person ever and no one will ever tell me that there is a person with a better heart in the MCU BECAUSE THERE IS FUCKING NOT 

TONY STARK IS TOO GOOD FOR ALL OF US WE DO NOT DESERVE HIM

poor ned :( “that hats not working” i was really mad at peter for the way he kept ditching all hsi real life friends

kinda glad vulture killed that guy what a disrespectful douche

“i thought that was the anti gravity gun” “wHAT NO” hmMmMmMm I LOVE

also he treats his other ppl with a lot of respect and later the ppl still think they can leave and like, thats cool

michelle noticing what peters quit already

i have a hot date with black widow later

that is false

another long one: i didnt super buy peters crush on liz. it felt really faked because he never really made choices for her, and i get that he was more into spiderman but i never felt the significance of the crush... i think that was played over a little bit too much

also i dont think ive been this impressed with a villain in the marvel franchise since loki. vulture was so compellingly realistic. i know they tried that shit with whats his face from civil war but he was so irrelevant i didnt care. vulture was relevant, scary, but also emotionally compelling

fucking taser web

you jumped off the sign and landed on your face

i love karen

i read a post about tony coding an AI thats emotionally encouraging and invested in peters life bc tony is invested in peters life and like iw ant to die

i just dont want to celebrate something built by slaves

THE GUARDS LIKE PREACH

michelle is a gift

“kiss her peter”

“thank you”

donald glover I HAVE A NEPHEW YEEEEEEEEEE BOY GIVE ME MILES I DESERVE IT

the whole interrogation scene was golden,,,, “NEVER DO THAT AGAIN KAREN” 

you’re a criminal!!! you deserve it!!!!!!!!!!!!! bye!! criminal!! i love peter so much

TONY STARK CALLING TO TELL PETER WHAT A GOOD JOB HE DID IN DC TONY STARK BEING A SUPPORTIVE, GOOD PARENT AND WANTING TO MAKE SURE PETER KNOWS HE IS PAYING ATTENTION 

peter just keeps causing disaster after disaster 

that whole ferry scene had me cringing

but he tried so hard to help everyone!!

tonys anger after it was totally warranted. i dont blame him for taknig the suit. 

MY FAVORITE LINE: if you really cared you’d be here AND TONY MOTHERFUCKING STEPS OUT OF THE SUIT

and god rdj brings the fuCKING PAIN you can see how panicked he is how muc hhe doesnt want to hurt peter but how SCARED he is bc peter isnt listening to him and god!!! what if something happened to peter!! you can hear the self loathing and the pain that hes carrying from all the other movies all he wants to do is make sure nothing happens to peter or anyone else

tony listened to peter to try and stop the vulture, tony takes him seriously!!!!!!!!!!! tony is such a good dad and such a good person and HOLY SHIT!! TONY STARK!!!!!!!!!

hes hurting so much in that scene he doesnt wanna be like howard HE DROPPED EVERYTHING TO GO HELP PETER IM UNDONE

also look how well peter got back on track after he lost the suit

still ??? at the liz scene tho?? i just didnt feel that relationship much at all, there wasnt anything there

PLOT TWIST PLOT TWIST PLOT TWIST 

MMMM THATS SOME GOOOOOOD SHIT 

and once again vulture is incredibly compelling bc that brings a whole new context to why his face changed re: dc and why he didnt try to kill peter on the ferry

michelle doing the casual flip-off, god i love her so much??

holy shit peter in the wreckage, tom holland go off that acting tore my heart in half AND THEN HE REMEMEBRED TONY WORDS

CMON SPIDERMAN I AM SOBBING

FLASH ASKING DO YOU REALLY KNOW PETER PARKER HES IN LOVE

vultures desperation in this final scene is,,,wow, you fucking feel it, it makes sense. hes such a compelling villain.

peter saving vulture what a fucking babe

liz really is a sweet girl i wish i’d believed the crush more bc she deserves all the love

my friends call me mj YISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS gimme that michelle/peter RN

michelle acting like she doesnt care and then THAT LOOK THAT LOOOOK OMG ZENDAYA KILLED ME HOW DID SHE CONVEY SO MUCH ACTUAL LOVE AND COMPASSION AND CRUSH 101 IN A 2 SECOND CLIP YALL

happy in the bathroom. goodbye to me.

can we talk about tony? being so ecstatic that peter did all this? tony saying thatw as the tough love moment you needed and being so convinced that it wasnt and so convinced by his own acting that he could never actulally ahve inspired anything like that so hes just going to blaze ahead and not even acknowledge that yes!! it was actually!!!!!!!! he was a great father figurei n that moment and in this whole movie 

but he doesn’t believe that so he’s just going to keep being sarcastic to cover up for the fact that he doesnt think any of this had almost anything to do with him and everthing to do with peter

bc he has no concept of his own self-worth and yet to contrast that he directly inflates it and is so used to ppl disregarding it and accusing him of having an ego that even in this moment when he does something really amazing he makes it about his fake-ass ego and doesn’t let anyone actually give him credit for anything bc he is too busy giving himself fake-credit that he uses as an excuse in every other scene to call himself a piece of shit,,, that other ppl use to call him that bc ppl cant see through it bc he doesnt actually WANT anyone looking too closely, and yet, in this scene, he seems to be using it to exempt peter from actually acknowledging what he did was good bc hahaha im a self-congratulatory egomaniac

anyway hahahaha i love tony stark

also he is sad, he wants peter to stay with him, but he lets it go bc he recognizes it was the mature choice (and probably not the one he’d ahve made) 

hes so proud of peter i want to die

PEPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE RING!!

they’re both so confused about happy and the ring i love it

PEPPER!!!!!!!!! THEY’RE BACK!!!!!!!!! THANK FUCKING JESUS BC IF SOMEONE DIDNT LOVE TONY STARK IN THIS DARK TIME THEN IW OULD HAVE FOUND A WAY TO BREAK INTO THIS FICTIONAL REALM AND DO IT MYSELF

that little kiss was everything she lvoes him i love them

ugh

this movie was gr8 a++++

i love my son tony stark and his son peter parker and his future wife michelle