#wouldnt be able to help anyways

[boiipotato]

So this one time with my ex-wife

Not gonna describe the situation, but we had to rough it and sleep in a tiny room, an I had to sleep on the floor so she could sleep on the bed, my stomach was always hurting on and off cause I didn't have weed, and the anxiety was so bad cause of our situation.

There was this moment she dropped her hand for me to hold on to it, and I grabbed her hand and felt such bliss. So much energy was coming from her body to mine, I felt no pain, I felt so relaxed and happy and loved.

Moral of the story is I wish I could find that again, I wish more then anything I wasn't so lonely and unloved. I have so much love and no one to give it to, no one that will feel my energy the same way. I'm so fucking lost

I understand that she left me cause of my chronic pains, and I wasn't able to take care of her like we dreamed. We was so full of love and it just wasn't enough.

[har-har-harvey]

also, since tumblr won’t let you post more than one video unless they’re links or embeds, here’s a link to another clip i posted that adds a bit more context to the scene :)

[nyashykyunnie]

Okay but in a fr sense why the hell are my types so goddamn opposite of eachother? Blud it's either the cold and strict type or u cant trust that fae aa look and it makes me go🤺🤺🤺🤺 everytime I realize it

WHERE THE FUCK IS THE CONSISTENCY LORD??!!!?!!????? Dear god just give me my future husband alr like man or just outright tekl me if I'm gonna die single buddy I'm in a dillemma at how my types are just pkain polar opposites spare me pls

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[hayaku14]

kuroba toichi you need to stay dead or im going to fucking kill you myself

[boy-above]

here's my new sona! its pronouns are it/he :3

[stephaniedola]

desperately want to buy a 90s geo trackerrrrrrrr i saw one on the street fell in love instantly and now i dont want any other car ever

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[the-beard-of-edward-teach]

huh.

[thehattertheory]

Can you imagine being Nate in The Nigerian Job? Very first episode, Elliot casually drops that Everybody Knows about his child dying, and that the insurance company wouldn't cover it.

He didn't tell Maggie until the end of the first season. He was so ashamed he hid from his wife and dove headfirst into a bottle.

[sk3l3t0n444]

how are people scared of bats :(

[trainingdummyrabbit]

the amount of damage cringe culture does is both staggering and a lot larger than it seems it would be

[britneyshakespeare]

when i worked at an after school program. i know i start stories like this all the time but i have to say that was the most exciting and entertaining job i ever had. so anyway when i worked at an after school program. there was this one kindergarten girl who joined a little later into the school year. she was ADORABLE. i would tell stories about this girl to my family all the time. when she was new and i was trying to integrate her w some of the other kids in her age group i was following her, watching her playing, and playing w the other kids. another reason this was the Best job ever is i got to play w kids all the time. god.

but anyway i was walking inside w her as the sun started to go down and she said "i think one of the girls from after care is your friend" (i don't know which girl in particular she meant bc a lot of the young ones really liked me) and i said "i'm friends with EVERYONE from after care" and she just had the most adorable little *gasp* "even me?"

sometimes when i see smth nice i still say to myself *gasp* even me?

[mikumoroll]

i wish the inquisitor didnt show up in-gameeeeeeeee i wanna make eimhin as rook so fucking badly but i cant figure out how to reconcile that one bit yet. like idk who i'd put. part of me kinda wants to make vivienne and just have her fill in (i miss her and eimhin & her were so. close.)

varric guiding him would make sense from a character perspecrive (eimhin never wanted to be the inquisitor and often a lot of decisions he relied on his advisors/companions for, tbh,) like he's just scared to fuck it up again or whatever. sure. i can rewrite other bits in my head like solas nd him interacting, harding's talk about the inquisition (they're just reminiscing!!!!), etc....... i just get so mad when i see the way they frame rook vs solas in the weird b&w fade prison bc every time i see it im like. fuck. this shouldve been the inquisitor. and also really all of it entirely just. god. rook shouldnt have to give a single fuck WE shouldnt give a single fuck the game just TELLS us to and it's so annoying!!! let me be the goddamn inquisitor you fucks!!!!!

[nomairuins]

anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day

[salsflore]