#woke up at 7am but got out of bed at 8

[brutal-out-here]

Today has felt like the longest day ever

[jackmanbj]

home surprise

jack was on his was back, he was finally done with tour and was exhausted, he had been working so hard and you could tell from phone daily phone calls he wasn’t getting all the sleep he needed.

“jack baby please rest before you come home” jack sighed and looked at you through the phone, his dark eye bags showing heavy “baby, i have been getting 4 hours a sleep” “jack! your saying that like it’s a good thing you need more rest! when you come home your going straight to bed!” “not before i fuck you” “yes before you fuck me! i need you to be rested up!” “fine baby, im about to start packing and ready for bed, i loveeeee youuu” “i love you so much more! now get some rest!” “i love you more tho” “jackman dont start.” “yes ma’am, and you better be sleep when i get there!” “of course baby”

you hung up the phone, of course you weren’t going to sleep you immediately went downstairs and cleaned it a up then started taking out the meat to defrost for jacks favorite meal then going to the living room to get snacks ready and movies planned out.

of course jack would get all this after he rested or he would quite literally pass out from exhaustion.

you checked the time 1:30am, jack would be back around 7am.

jack knew new you usually woke up around 8 or 9 so he wanted to make sure you were sleep to surprise you by you waking up to him.

you were going to wake up at 5:45am just to make sure jacks food was nice and ready for when he got back.

you set an alarm for 5:30am and fell asleep.

once it hit 5:30 you alarm went off waking you. you quickly got up and showered, brushed you teeth and started makings jacks food.

it was a quick easy mean so you were done by 6:48 jack had landed around 6:48 and would be here around 6:50 or 7:00 so you started putting the food on his and urban’s plate and placing them into the microwave.

when 7:05 hit you heard keys jingle so you quickly took the food out checking to see if it was still hot and they were so you placed it down in front the two chairs where jack and urban usually sat and got some forks for them.

“hi boys!” you gave urban a hug then went to hug and kiss jack.

“baby i told you to be sleep when i got here.” “i know but i made your favorite meal!” “did you even sleep baby?” “yes j, eat please!”

urban and jack sat down and started eating while you started cleaning up the rest of your mess.

“baby your not eating?” “uhmm not right now” “mk” once jack finished you took his plate for him and washed it and once urban was done you washed his to.

while you were finishing up the dishes jack came up behind you and rubbing on your lower thighs kissing your neck

“mm jack” “baby you can clean up later, lets go lay down hmm?” “im almost done, and i told you no sex till you sleep for at least, 7 hours. minimum!” “ baby.. i haven’t seen you in monthsss i miss you” “and i miss you to baby but where not having sex right now, ill be in the bedroom soon to help you unpack” “finee”

jack slowly walked up the stairs waiting for you to change your mind, but of course you didn’t.

once you went upstairs you seen jack unpacking.

“you need help baby boy?” “yes babe!”

you finished helped jack unpack and he went to go shower while you got his sweatpants out since that was all he liked to wear for bed anyway.

once jack got out he quickly put on his pants and laid down next to you.

“i missed you baby” you started playing in his damp hair and kissing his forehead “miss you so much” jack responded in soft snores. he was face first in your boobs drooling so you kissed his forehead once more and fell asleep with him.

[quinnysnursery]

whenever you can, can you make a fic of a daily routine with cg! matt and his baby? :) like the rundown of how he spends his day with her and how he takes care of her ?

[🩹] day in the life | matt sturniolo one-shot

paring : cg!matt sturniolo & little!reader

summary : the daily routine of matt and his little :)

warning/extra tid-bits : use of Y/N, bath scene at the end (matt doesn't bath reader but still worthy to note)

word count : 2,226

divider credit : @agsthv

a/n : i have dyscalculia. this is a disorder that affects me ability to properly calculate time, so if anything seems to be happening too quickly or too slow based off the time stamps i'm really sorry (sorry for any typos, i'm just a girl !)

Saturday, 8:00 am.

Matt wakes up

Waking up in the morning had never been easier for Matt, his brothers had always given him crap in the morning for waking up grumpy. Though that never seemed to be a problem when the two of you were together.

Like clockwork, Matt woke up at 7am every morning when the two of you decided to have regression days. It gave him just the right amount of time he needed to brush his teeth and get started on breakfast.

Saturday, 9:15 am.

Y/N wakes up

Technically, you always woke up at 8am. However, Matt had a weak spot for your sleepy-demeanor and couldn’t help but give you some morning cuddles before you actually woke up.

From the moment your eyes fluttered awake, Matt’s in “Dada Mode”. He leads you carefully from the bedroom to the bathroom, helping you sit atop the cool counter before helping you brush your teeth and get dressed.

Afterwards, the two of you make your way downstairs, Matt insisting you hold his hand. “Just in case” he always said, always pressing a gentle kiss to your temple once your hands interlocked.

Saturday, 9:30 am.

Breakfast 

Breakfast between the two of you was something Matt would always treasure. The way you’d instantly spring into conversation, asking him questions ranging from “Where do pancakes come from, dada?” to “Can we play outside today?”. 

Matt answered every single one with no frustration, even when you decided to go through “Why” phases. Today, Matt had made bite-sized chocolate chip and banana pancakes with scrambled eggs on the side.

During breakfast, Matt would usually give you the run-down of the day. If the two of you would be seeing his brothers, if you two had to run errands, etc.

Saturday, 10:00 am.

Independent Play

After breakfast, Matt would begin cleaning up the kitchen and run back upstairs to make the bed. This used to cause a problem as you weren’t necessarily a little who liked to be left on their own. After a few tears and tantrums, your carer finally came to a solution.

Matt would help you pick out an activity, usually a craft of some type before completing his morning task so you could have a bit of independent play, knowing that at the end, you could show Matt what you had been working on.

Today, you chose coloring. Picking out a My Little Pony coloring book before flipping to an Apple-Jack page, instantly getting to work. 

A few minutes later, Apple-Jack was now fully colored in and you could hear Matt trudging downstairs.

“Dada! Dada!” You squealed, jumping up from your seat on the floor and rushing to the bottom of the stairs. “Look! Ap’le Jack!” You giggle, bouncing excitedly as you shoved the paper in front of your carers face.

Matt gawked dramatically, sending rays of dopamine through your body. You loved when he looked at your works of art. “Angel, this is amazing!” He smiled, pulling you into a tight hug. 

It’s after this that the two of you find a space for the new drawing on the fridge before moving on. 

Saturday, 11:30 am.

Daily Outing

Matt always tried making sure you got out at least once a day, whether it be a trip to the grocery store or a trip to the zoo. He knew regression was good for your mental health, he also knew that getting out of the house was amazing for your mental health.

Today, the two of you decided to go for a long drive and find a small park to have lunch at. 

Matt quickly strapped you into the passenger seat, handing you your stuffed toy before closing the door and sitting on the driver's side. 

On the car ride, Matt listened to you yap about any and everything you could with a sweet smile the entire time. Before you requested listening to music, which he happily turned on.

“Dada! M’ love this song!” You beamed, pointing at the radio excitedly. He chuckled, running a loving hand through your hair before turning it up a bit more. 

The two of you continued on this journey for what felt like an hour, but in reality was only 30 more minutes. Not that you minded, anytime with your CG was time well spent in your professional opinion. 

Saturday, 12:00 am.

Lunch

Thinking ahead, Matt had packed a small lunch before the two of you set off to the park. Nothing extravagant, just two ham and cheese sandwiches and a couple of water bottles. 

After finding a nice clearing in a secluded area of the park, Matt wasted no time setting up a picnic blanket, sitting down and beginning to set out food for the two of you.

The picnic was amazing, just the two of you with the occasional squirrel that caused you to point excitedly. 

“Dada! Dada look!”

“I see him, darling. Can you take another bite of your sandwich for me?”

Saturday, 1:30 pm.

Naptime

Typically naptime looked like you falling asleep on top of Matt’s chest while watching a random movie together. However, due to the distance of the park and your apartment, Matt helped make the passenger seat as comfortable as possible for you.

Leaning it back just enough to where your back wouldn’t hurt, turning on the seat warmer and playing some lo-fi disney music before putting the car into drive and taking any and every back road he could think of to avoid even the possibility of your sleep being interrupted by some random person’s road rage. 

Matt made sure to throw his jacket over you, cursing himself for not bringing a blanket. 

“Nini dada…”

“Nini bunny, we’ll be home soon.”

“M’kay…”

Saturday, 2:30pm.

Snack & Shows

Waking up was startling for you at first, unaware of how you ended up on the couch of your house and not in the passenger seat of your caregivers car.

“Dada?!” You called out, tears already threatening to spill out from your eyes. Matt quickly rushed in from the kitchen, setting down a small butterfly-shaped plate on the coffee table. 

“Hey…I’m here hun, what’s going on?” Matt asked, brushing your hair away from your face. You stumbled for the words, eventually just hiding your face in his chest with a pathetic whimper.

“I was getting your snack, darling.” Matt cooed, rubbing your back. Just then you realized the small plate that was previously discarded was a homemade lunchable. 

“For ‘e?” You asked softly, a smile appearing on your face. Matt nodded enthusiastically, “Just for you, look, I even put a piece of candy for after.” He said as he picked up the plate and showed you the various pieces of food on it.

Smiling, you slowly began eating your homemade lunchable, kicking your feet contentedly. 

The brunette man watched you for a few moments before swiping the remote off of the coffee table, clicking the TV on and scrolling over to Disney+.

“Bluey!” You chirp as soon as you see the all too familiar logo appear on screen. Matt chuckles, nodding. “Okay, okay. Bluey it is.” He agreed, starting the show on the last episode the two of you left off on.

Matt was kinda worried at first that he wouldn’t be able to enjoy any of the shows you wanted to watch whilst regressed but after one episode of Bluey? Yeah he was just as hooked as you were.

Saturday, 3:00pm.

Playtime

Matt always enjoyed playing with you, no matter the activity. Whether it was a game of hide ‘n seek, barbie dolls, or walking around the neighborhood collecting cool leaves…Matt adored every second of it.

Today, you’d chosen to pull out one of the many craft kits that Uncle Nick got you. This one being “Paint Your Own Birdhouse” themed.

“Dada paint that side, ‘n I paint this side.” You instructed the man carefully, handing him one of the tiny paint brushes that were included in the kit. Matt nodded, smiling as he watched you immediately get to work with painting your side. 

“What’s my princess/prince painting?” Matt asked softly as he began dotting clouds on the blue background he’d just completed, he was going for a sky look.

“Secret.” You smiled, eyes fixated on whatever you were working on. “A secret?!” Matt gawked playfully, earning a giggle from you. “Dada can see…after.” You decided, eyes glancing up at him for just a second.

Matt nodded, accepting that. 

When it came time for the both of you to reveal your sides, you insisted on seeing Matt’s first.

Matt had painted on a nice sky-like scene, complete with clouds and a few stick figure birds. “Andy’s room!” You chirped, pointing excitedly. Matt’s head tilted in confusion for a moment before realizing the connection you made.

His sky-blue paired with the clouds looked like a replica of Andy’s bedroom wall’s from Toy Story. “It does look like Andy’s room! Good job!” Matt praised, wrapping his arms around your waist. You giggled at this, settling into your caregivers grasp.

“Does dada get to see your secret now?” Matt asked, resting his chin on your shoulder. You gasp excitedly, gently turning the birdhouse. 

Matt’s smile grew ten times wider at the sight before him. You’d painted on two stick figures, one resembling him, the other resembling you. If that wasn’t cute enough, a familiar bunny plush was also joining the pair. 

“Oh my gosh!” Matt immediately jumped into praise, going on about how talented you were, and how you got the color of his eyes “just right”. 

You soaked up every minute of it, in the arms of your Dada.

Saturday, 5:30pm.

Dinner Prep

Matt always tried to include you in everything he did, that included making dinner. Even if Matt was scared out of his mind about the various different ways you could get hurt, he knew that you knew the dangers of the kitchen and respected that helping him cook was a privilege.

“Spaghetti?” Matt offered, looking at the pantry as he tried to figure out what to make for dinner. “Nuh uh.” You shook your head, sitting atop the kitchen counter. “What about…sandwiches?” He hummed, earning another head shake. Sighing, Matt opened the freezer.

“Pizza?” He asked, holding up a frozen pizza box. You nodded excitedly, “Pi’za!”.

Due to the pizza being frozen, you didn’t get to help much with actually making it but you still enjoyed sitting atop the counter as Matt put it in the oven.

Saturday, 6:30 pm.

Dinner

Once the pizza had cooled off some, Matt wasted no time plating it on a dinosaur themed plate before serving it to his little.

You hummed happily, bouncing in your seat as you took the first bite. It was amazing, of course. You thought your caregiver was the best cook in the whole world, despite the fact the pizza came already made.

“Dada eat?” You asked as Matt sat down, a slice of pizza in tow. The brunette man nodded, brushing your hair away from your face. “Yup! Is it good?” He asked before taking his first bite. 

You nodded, “Dada ‘s the bestest chef ever!” You claim, earning a wide toothy grin from your caregiver. “Ever?” He asked, basking in the praise. “Uh-huh!” His little nodded, continuing to eat her food.

Saturday, 7:00 pm.

Dinner Clean Up 

Cleaning up after dinner wasn’t your favorite activity, but you did like playing with the bubbles in the sink.

“Careful baby, the water’s warm.” Matt said gently, his sleeves rolled up as he carefully washed the plates the two of you had used. You nodded, poking at the bubbles the dish-soap had created.

“Bubbles later?” You asked softly, looking up at Matt with a hopeful expression. Matt chuckled, nodding. “Yeah, I’ll run you a bath.” He agreed.

Saturday, 7:30 pm.

Bubbles

Bathtime didn’t look the same for you and Matt as it did other caregiver and little duos. Some people were comfortable being bathed by their carer but you weren’t, which Matt respected wholeheartedly.

So, instead of Matt helping you wash, he learned to craft the perfect bath. Full of bath bombs, salts, squirt toys and of course…bubbles.

“Bubbles ready?” You ask, setting down your stuffed rabbit as Matt exited the bathroom. Your carer nodded, “All ready, call me if you need anything. Okay?” You nod, thanking Matt before rushing into the bathroom- closing the door behind you. 

You couldn’t help but let out an excited squeal at the smell of rose-scented bath products that overtook the room.

Saturday, 9:30 pm.

Bedtime

When finished with your bath, you excitedly step into your pajamas and brush your teeth.

“All done?” Matt asked as you left the bathroom, the brunette man already curled up in bed. You nod, a sleepy smile spreading across your face as you climb under the covers and into your caregivers arms.

“Did you have a good bath?” He hummed, brushing your hair away from his face. You look over the bedspread, not answering him until you find your plush rabbit, “Mhm! T’ank ‘ou dada.” 

Matt smiled at your words, kissing the top of your head as he pulled you into a tight embrace. Sleep looming over the two of you, “Night night dada,” You yawn out.

“Night night sweet pea.”

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[studentbyday]

so the week is half over and i'm kind of feeling low on energy and needing lots of sleep, which is the perfect opportunity to (sort of) try out einstein's daily routine (which is tbh the most personally palatable daily routine of a famous person i've ever chanced across)! i've been waking up at nearly 9 anyway since lately my head spins and i feel sick if i don't sleep like 9-10 hours.

So yeah, wake up at 9.

Between 9 and 10, eat breakfast and read the newspapers fiction

I know after breakfast he was said to often walk to Princeton and arrive by 10:30 or smth but (a) I don't go to Princeton, and (b) these days I study at home, so instead I'm just going to do some form of exercise.

~10:30 to 1pm: work study

have lunch (i read somewhere that he spends 1.5h on lunch and tea? i wish i could have a lunch and tea that leisurely but i do not have the time. so i won't.)

afternoons: receive visitors and work study

also afternoons: naps if needed (tho thankfully i seem to have enough energy to last me through the day if i get 9-10h of sleep... also i just don't think i'll have much time for naps. 🙁)

~6:30pm: have dinner [and clean up]

after dinner: more work study if needed (most likely needed)

sleeeeeeeepppppppp [be ready for or in bed by 9 or 10]

i'll update this post later to let you know how it goesss~

i hope you're feeling better than i am this week 💗🤒

~the aforementioned update~

ahahaha i don't think i did a very good job of following any routine this week. on wednesday i slept a little later than usual and ended up waking up at 10am (i didn't set an alarm for some reason). on thursday i set my alarm for 7 and then 8 and then 10 because i had to finish reviewing the last of the microbiology for the midterm and actually woke up at 9:30. and on friday i want to actually wake up somewhere within the hour of 7am so i can hopefullyyyy finish all my schoolwork for this week?? despite the seeming slowness of einstein's routine, i always feel like i'm rushing when i wake up when the sun is already up and most everyone else i live with is already awake, so i'm going to try this again over reading week but change the wake-up time and stick to it dammit— 😤

also i feel like if i'm gonna be posting on tumblr again, i should post my screen time stats for accountability because for some reason whenever i start making stuff for social media, my screen time goes through the roof bc i get so distracted and like oh wait there was this thing i want to add no wait where was i— (as i got lost in a scroll.) and this happens multiple times. but sometimes i do feel very much like yapping and when i'm in this mood, i could yap for days on end so i gotta find a solution...

just LOOK at this horrendousness!!!

also. there was so much material to cover for the microbio midterm it was insane. i feel like i need to follow the 80/20 rule. like...just prioritize the big topics, don't care so much about the extraneous, minor details so i only expend energy for and fill my brain with what i really need to know. and i'm not sure how good flashcards are for that because it just seems kinda random, the order in which cards are thrown at you in anki, and i'm the kind of person who, at least during the first pass, compulsively desires to cover everything, and so what do you think happens? i end up with a massive “stack” of flashcards, including cards about minor/extraneous details. every. single. time. i'm not entirely sure how i want to navigate this yet, but i'm definitely gonna try that 80/20 rule...bc this was just too stressful 🥲

[merwgue]

A DAY IN A LIFE AS AN 18 YEAR OLD SENIOR

7AM- woke up and took my medication! Remember to always take your medication, being healthy is so hot

7:15- I went to do my skincare and did my make-up, and I stayed on my socials for a bit since i have to wait half an hour after taking my meds to eat!

7:30-had breakfast and went to do some extra credit work, then my friends called me and asked me if I wanted to go grab a coffee and continue studying at the library, I of course was like, obviously

8:30- continued studying with my friends for like 30 minutes, you cannot study with friends, it's too unserious!

9AM - quickly made it into class, and we started studying again, this time for real. The teacher is such a bore.

3PM- made it back home, quickly changed out of My school uniform, and decided to go out with my friends to go watch a movie (it ends with us, don't watch it, it's absolutely horrible trust me, we had the whole theater to ourselves and we kept laughing) after that we just went to the mall and hung out

8PM- got back home, changed into my pj's, hung out with my baba and he quizzed me on what I revised yesterday (my parents are quite involved in my study life🤣) and he checked my phone for any suspicious activities but I was cleared, then I just went to my room and started studying again, for anyone who's doing A levels, do not take further maths it is HELL.

10PM- I finished all my revision and all my homework then I decided to do some extra credit work, so I started researching! It's tiring but trust me it helps in the long run

11PM- I got bored, and I just started scrolling on tiktok and tumblr. I actually love tumblr🤣🤣

12AM- I just realised that I didn't do my workout today so I tried to do it late at night- keyword tried because I ended up giving up

12:30 AM- I kissed my baba good night and I went to bed, overall very good day

Have a nice days my loves mwahh❣️❤️

[doctorstethoscope]

Fluffy February Day 15 || Quality Time

pairing: hotch x reader

wordcount: 722

contains: food consumption, mentions of alcohol

Aaron’s morning routine was 73 minutes long. He woke up, took an 8 minute shower, then spent 11 minutes getting dressed and waking Jack up. While Jack dressed himself, Aaron would make breakfast for all three of you (17 minutes), and you’d eat as a family at the table (22 minutes, but sometimes longer if you or Jack was having a particularly sluggish morning). The three of you would pile into the SUV (6 minutes, or longer if Jack wants to tie his own shoes), drive Jack 9 minutes to his school, and then head into the office. 

Aaron was regimented with his time, yes. But that didn’t mean he wasn’t also generous with it. 

“What do you mean we’re going away for the weekend?” You asked Aaron that night when he produced a mystery go-bag he’d packed for you without your knowledge.

“I mean that the soccer season is over, which means no more 7am Saturday wakeups, and I wanted to commemorate the occasion by being lazy in bed with you all weekend with no distractions. Jack’s spending the weekend with his cousins. We all technically exceeded the FBI’s maximum working hours on the last case, so no one is calling us in. It’s you and me and a big comfy bed above a vineyard,” he insists as he shuts his computer down. 

“When did you have the time to plan this?” You ask, the grin on your face assuring him that you’re not upset. 

“I made the time. You and I need this— some time just us,” he reminds you, ducking down to kiss your cheek. “Do you want to see pictures, or do you want to be surprised?” 

The pictures, as it turned out, didn’t do the place justice. It was a small little bed and breakfast, set right up on a vineyard, as Aaron had said. There was a wine bar nestled into the small library off of the library, and your room had a spacious sitting area and a jacuzzi tub that you couldn’t wait to take advantage of. It had taken you a couple of hours to get there, so by the time you arrived all you had the energy for was room service and re-runs. You were determined to make the most of it on the second day.

When you wake up, Aaron’s already awake, his cheek propped up on his elbow as he gazes down at you. 

“Morning,” you mutter. “What time is it?” 

“Quarter past ten,” Aaron whispers back, leaning in to kiss your cheek.

“Why’d you let me sleep?” you ask, rousing awake at that. “We missed the vineyard tour.” 

“There’s another one in an hour, hon,” he reminds you. “There’s no rush.”

You’re perplexed by his statement, and get up regardless, changing out of your pajamas and into the casual outfit Aaron’s packed for you. “Do you want to go downstairs, grab a coffee and check out the library?” You ask. 

“Sounds perfect,” he agrees, changing quickly and following you down.

The inn seems to be empty except for you both  and the two owners, so Aaron pulls you into his lap on one of the vintage loveseats in the library after you’ve pulled a copy of Pride and Prejudice off the shelf. Aaron plucks the books from your hands gently, opening it up and reading it softly to you. You can feel the rumble of the words in his chest as he does so, and it’s enough to practically soothe you to sleep. 

“You are too generous to trifle with me,” Aaron reads aloud. “If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes are unchanged—” 

“Oh, Aaron,” you interrupt. “We should probably get going if we want to make that vineyard tour. I’m so comfortable here though,” you lament. 

“So, let’s skip it. We can get a tour later tonight or tomorrow before we have to leave,” he assures you, pressing a quick kiss to your temple.

“Who are you and what have you done with my perfectly scheduled husband?” You tease. 

He chuckles down at you, shaking his head. “There’s no schedule. Just you and me, that’s what this weekend’s about,” he insists.  “As long as you and I are spending time together, I got what I came for.” 

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[nardonotes]

16 sep '24

8:18pm

IM SO TIRED!!!!! MY BODY HURTS!!!!!!!! I WANT TO SLEEP BUT I ALSO HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO!!!!!!!!!! (ᴗ_ ᴗ。) but today my alarm woke me up at 7am but i stayed in bed till 7:40... i slept well too and had a crazy dream but i forgot what happened,,, i just rmbr it being crazy (good-ish?) to the point where i wanted to go back to sleep to finish it but ended up just forcing myself out of bed,, fufufuff~ and THEN i went to class :< which is actually a :> cause it was fun! i did some black and white designs for design class and the two hours passed by so fast,, after that i had a 3 hrs break and just walked home, rest for a bit, then went out to town to send my cv to this photo printing shop (fujifilm) for my work experience. they said they dont usually take work experience (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) but it's ok cause i have two other places i can apply for work experience (it's mandatory in my course) i been going to fujifilm for years now, literally since it opened too, they know my name and email off by heart cause i always get my film develop there so i really hope they let me in!!!! it's only till christmas sniff.... BUT ANYWAYS, after i gave them that- i went to buy a sketchbook cause my lecturer said it would be a good idea just to have one where i can draw whatever and i bought one (1) pencil LOL.

then had a 2 hours class right after, but it was chill. nothing too serious and just worked on updating my cv and cover letter :3 after class, I WENT HOME AND ATE :D i dont usually like chicken but THIS CHICKEN WAS REALLY FUCKING GOOD MAN,,, i had it with rice and it was so filling. and while i was washing my dishes, my sisters arrived home and AFTER THEY ate,, we went to the park with my sisters friend and her baby. he's so big now sniff,, i rmbr when he was literally a few months old and tiny af. now he looks about 3 years old but hes only 1 years old. they're leaving to live in amsterdam in a month or two and it's so sad cause i only just got closer to her. it's ok tho cause amsterdam is close enough, and her parents still live here so she'll be in and out i think :)) we got gelato before going home and i got kinder bueno flavoured (THE LAST SCOOP TOO) it was so good. i dont usually eat ice cream out of the blue like that, i usually get a drink instead but since it was just a scoop i had some.

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

what a long ass day fr,, i know im going to sleep good tonight too. i bought Notes of a Crocodile, The Analects of Confucius, and The Temple of the Golden Pavilion on my kobo (ereader). I do plan to buy the physical copies of all three, but not right now and it was just cheaper to buy it on the ereader.. I've read a few chapters of the temple of the golden pavilion before but never continued but my bestiana spoiled the ending and now i want to finish it bc the ending was a good ahh ending (imo). i can't wait to read before i sleep tonight,, reading so fun huhuhhu..... (⸝⸝⸝╸▵╺⸝⸝⸝)

these days, i've been really into my lil tech stuff again and i really want to homebrew a ps vita. i homebrewed my old nintendo 3ds but sold it for a [REDACTED] reason lol. i think a ps vita is cooler anyways. i also been really into micro journalling and coding. btw i cant code but i do like listening to ppl talk about coding and what they've coded. i wish i was smart enough to do allat.. i think i could if i really put my heart to it but right now i'm really liking my course. ill probably talk about it some more in the future but for now, i have written a fucking book and nobody reading allat!!! so im going to do my little me time before bed time and then go to sleep ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´-

goodnight to me, and my precious bed, and my precious favourite girl in the world and and and- [GUNSHOTS]

[kimmysurveyblog]

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YESTERDAY. 1) What was the weather like? Did it change your plans in any way? Cloudy and a bit cold & kinda. We would have gone swimming if it was warmer.

2) What did you do yesterday, anyway? I'm a SAHM so I spent the day with my toddler. We went to my FIL's in the afternoon to hang out with SIL. :)

3) Did you eat breakfast, lunch and dinner? What did you have? Coffee for breakfast. Protein bar & strawberries for lunch. Ham/broccoli/rice for dinner.

4) Did you do some form of exercise? What? Yes. I did 30 minutes of light cardio. I was in a bad flare up yesterday so I took it easy.

5) Who did you spend the most time with? My toddler.

6) What television shows or movies did you watch? None.

7) What time did you get up and go to bed? Woke at 7, bed at 10.

8) What was the best bit about yesterday? Spending time with SIL. We've been visiting once per week all Summer and its been really nice! She starts back at school on Tuesday.

9) What about the worst? My pain was sooo bad yesterday. I'm in the worst flare up I've had since Christmas.

10) Did you talk to anyone on the phone? Who? Why? I called my Nan to confirm plans with her for the weekend.

TODAY. 1) What time did you get up? 6:30.

2) What are your plans for today? No plans really. Spent the day with my toddler. Now she's sleeping and I'm relaxing.

3) Have you eaten any meals yet? What did you have? Protein bar, salad, broccoli beef bowl for dinner.

4) Are you planning on seeing your friends or boyfriend/girlfriend?My boyfriend lives with me.

5) Does your favourite television show air today? I don't have cable.

6) Have you spoken to your parents yet? They're deceased.

7) How many texts have you received? None. I got a few Discord messages.

8) Are you planning on going to bed early? Nope! Friday and it's a long weekend! I probably still will though.

9) Have you done anything remotely productive today? I cared for my toddler all day, cooked meals, cleaned, worked out. No more productive than any other day.

10) How much money did you spend so far? Are you planning on spending more later? $5 or so at Tims. No.

TOMORROW 1) What time do you have to get up tomorrow? 7am every day.

2) What do you hope the weather will be like? It's supposed to be rainy and that's fine.

3) Is there anything you’re dreading about tomorrow? Nope.

4) Is there anything important you need to do, or can you just relax? Visit my Nan and obviously care for my child but otherwise, no. It's gonna be a chill day. :)

5) Do you have plans to see your friends? My Nan.

6) What do you hope will happen tomorrow? We have a nice visit with my Nan.

7) Are you going to wake up at home, or somewhere else? Home.

8) If you don’t have any plans, what do you think you’ll end up doing? We'll go for a walk somewhere.

9) Do you have to get a work out in at some point? Nope! Rest day for me.

10) Will you be working or studying at all? No.

[beatsboy]

8.18.24 / week 8 of being a delusional artist

day 4 of moon time

how did i live like a delusional artist today? maybe in photographing my period stains on my bed maybe in journaling my dream about my ex the minute i woke up at 7am before going right back to bed because i can’t stand to be awake for another moment after having to freshly remember that they’re not here again (these dreams are like waking up to a fresh bandaid being torn off the wound over and over again) maybe in procrastinating, for they say that all artists do this, and while i know this is true, i am struggling to get unstuck and stay unstuck lately. it’s hard to fully break out of the cave, when you’re stuck, when you’re by yourself. sweet pea helps, licking my face (i swear) to remind me to go to the bathroom, to eat, to go outside. all he does is lick my face, so i have to interpret these as signals to get moving. last night, for instance, i was sitting on my computer for far too long, on the couch next to sweet pea. and promptly, as my bladder started to nag at me to go to the bathroom, he started to lick my face, inhibiting me from using my computer.

i’m starting to think he parents me more than i parent him, and i only pretend that it’s the other way around to feel better about my lack of self-sufficiency as a human adult. my fucking goals for tomorrow are to eat 3 meals, first one before 11. like, come on.

i just feel so slow while i’m bleeding, and i know that it will be over soon, but i think part of the reason i need to spiritualize it, to give it meaning, is because it’s just so fucking painful, physically, emotionally, and generally in relation to my gender.

i was supposed to leave the house today, and i did get all ready to do so, another sunday where i put my swim trunks on and waited. this time, it never came time to go, the party wrapped early, and i remained, having spent time getting ready, covered in sunscreen, with nowhere to go. and instead of quickly pivoting to art, which was very possible at that time, i got stuck. i got stuck waiting to go to bri’s to return their keys, for no reason at all, and then got stuck when i got home, and finally unstuck enough to make myself some food at 10pm, do the dishes, change the sheets (i did do some cleaning today, just very slowly, like imagine a slug doing chores, very slowly, and getting caught on corners), and sit here and journal.

i have therapy tomorrow, and tomorrow, i swear to god, i will continue working on music again. i had a good groove of working every day, basically until i finished boypop, which some have suggested i rename (which, yes, maybe, but what?) then, i got out of it, because it is so hard for me for some reason to maintain a consistent practice with my craft while working and socializing fucking still even though i don’t even work a full-time job like that. it’s truly not that i don’t have the time, it’s that i don’t have the energy? the focus? the routine?

healthy habits start small, though, right? i am believing in my future self, that i can make the new dates i’ve set for the release timeline. and i am giving myself these deadlines because i deserve to share my work with the world and i can’t wait any longer. i believe in the artist i want to be, in the artist i will be, because i am building toward it today. i am building my practice. i know i am good at what i do, i know i can do what i need to do to finish this project. i just need to focus and finish.

i’ve never completed an album before (unless you count the collection of phone demos i dropped on soundcloud for the lore) that’s like comparing publishing a fanfic on ao3 to getting your debut novel published, there’s a lot of extra steps that separate the two. it’s all i’ve ever wanted, so why am i waiting? why would i put off becoming the pop star i have dreamt of being since i was a fucking child? i am alone in my own apartment that i pay for with my own fucking money, why am i not spending every second making art in it? this is what i have always wanted for myself, space and time to make art, and i feel like i am wasting it spiraling and cleaning and pinteresting and tumblring and cleaning and looking up if the chemicals in my soap are poisoning me (pretty sure everything is poisoning me at this point)

i want to be fair to myself, i have not been completely idle. i redid the release timeline last night. i made a pitch deck for the next photoshoot the other day. i watched alien, for research (lol, but seriously!) i have been brainstorming the entire vibe/aesthetic/characterization of this persona, trying to mend together what we initially envisioned and what the music video shoot is giving (which are kind of different things but it’s ok)

the thing is, though, these things are part of the art, they are necessary to the art, to communicating the art to the people, to the audience. that does not make them art, though. the job part. the industry part. and sometimes i get so lost in these parts, that i forget that the whole point is to be able to sustain making art for the rest of my life. and none of this bullshit is worth it if i’m not making art. and if i’m not making art, it’s not going to feel like it either.

here is to tomorrow, to getting back to a daily practice, even if it’s in the form of small steps.

[ve1vet-cake]

Teo drabble

(this was almost called 'Oh naur'. My brain doesn't function)

14days with you is still an 18+ game and explicit stuff will be mentioned

MINORS DNI

Enjoy fellas

Probably very ooc Teo cuz am stupid weeeeee

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You woke up after a night with with Teo, like many nights before. Somehow you had gotten close enough to Teo for him to genuinely want to keep you around. You had met some of his other friends and even were one of his more regular 'dates' whenever you went out to party.

It was rare to make it simple. His friends were always eyeing you. You aware of he fact they were making bets on how long it would take Teo to discard you as well. Just last week he had apparently dropped someone for making him breakfast.

You had shrugged it off, though you were starting to like certain aspects of Teo and how surprisingly gentle he could be you were accutely aware of his boundaries. No love, or else you're out.

And you didn't want to lose such a good sex partner. You needed someone with experience after years of not having proper sexual partners.

Now here you were, sitting up in Teo's bed, stretching gently while figuring out how you'd get home this time. It was already 7am after all and you knew that Teo had a habit of waking up around 8 or 9 to get started with workouts and his skincare.

Cursing under your breath you peeled yourself out of his blanket, making sure he was still fairly covered before plucking your clothes off of his floor. With a yawn you made your way to his bathroom, grabbing your bag from his couch.

While you washed up and got ready for the day you tried getting rid of the soreness in your core and legs. He had been rougher than usual last night- not that you minded.

With a slight huff you smacked your cheeks to wake up a little more and got changed, putting on the spare clothes you'd prepared already.

With a last check in the mirror you smiled at yourelf before walking out of his room, quietly shutting the door behind you.

"I could walk to the nearest convenience store..." You were grumbling to yourself, deciding against going straight home and getting something to eat and drink first.

Lost in thought you didn't notice the woman before you, nearly bumping into her.

"A-ah! Sorry-"

You blinked, briefly apologizing. She must be one of Teo's staff.

You bit your lip, cursing yourself mentally for taking too long. If Teo were to come down now you'd be off the list.

"I was just about to leave. Don't mind me" You smiled gently at her, bowing your head before continung your way toward the front door.

Her kind eyes followed your figure a second, tilting her head in confusion before focusing the stairs.

"Won't they join us for breakfast?"

You froze, hand already on the doorknob. 'Fuck'

"Why should they?" Teo's raspy morning voice seemed to echo through the foyer. You suddenly felt trapped, afraid.

You heard him make his way to you or more the woman behind you.

"I mean we already started with breakfast and it's been so long since you had someone else to eat with." The woman pouted a little, worry glistening in her eyes.

"It's fine. They won't be coming back either way."

You felt your heart drop. Biting your lip hard you turned the doorknob and tried opening the door before hearing a smack sound behind you.

"TEODORE!"

As you looked behind you with widened eyes you saw the woman stand in front of a now defeated looking Teo. She had her arms crossed.

"You can't just treat every guest like that! I raised you better than his. Also; Aren't they the person you told me about??"

Teo's eyes seemed to widen as he shot her a clear 'Do not' glare.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"C-can I just.. go now?"

You stood there like a deer in headlights, unsure on what to do.

"No, come eat with us." The woman grabbed you by the arm, dragging you to the kitchen. "I like you, Teo has said that you're the first one to have held out for so long and to have respected him that much. You surely just overslept today, hm?"

"Y-yeah.. But.. He doesn't seem to want me here I can just g-"

The woman pouted at you.

Suddenly you felt a hand on your shoulder.

"You're lucky she likes you. after breakfast you're out. Understood?"

You just nodded, trying not to show your hurt. You had just lost something you held dearer than you thought.

After the in your opinion awkward breakfast you practically dashed out the door, immdiately calling a cab home.

"Are you really going to cut them off? They're so sweet and I like them.." Teo looked up from his phone, finger hovering over the delete number button.

[fitgothgirl]

I keep not updating because it's just felt like more and more of a weight the longer I go since the stuff I'd update about just keeps accumulating/progressing. But I'm just going to triage some things since updating on everything has apparently become a barrier lol.

Dealing with my four infections (quadfection?) is wrapping up soon; I've been on a total of five antibiotics for over three weeks straight, but I'm down to my last one and it finishes on Saturday. Been worried about how fucked my system is after all these since I've never been on antibiotics for this long, let alone five different ones (or even more than ONE), but I'm trying really hard to help out my gut microbiome. It's expensive but I've been having a kombucha basically everyday, and I've gotten some prebiotic sodas as well. Also I usually have a Greek yogurt everyday, and just am generally trying to eat well with lots of fiber and water.

Weight loss/fitness gains have been on pause during this, or technically even longer since the 10 days prior to all this was when I was in Costa Rica. Rest is good for all the fighting/healing my body has been doing with the quadfection though. When I got back I did lift a few times since I wanted to get back at it after the vacation and it was before the infections/antibiotics were getting piled on, but then I had a 2-week break from lifting until the day before yesterday. In between though I DID do a Zumba class, which was hard and I'm sure I looked like a fool but it was fun haha (gotta start somewhere!). The class was later in the evening so even though Zumba is popular, there were maybe only 10 people in that class, if that, so that was nice. I always need more cardio and just generally want to incorporate more complex/dynamic movement in my workouts because solely lifting can be kinda like tunnel vision for your muscles. I want more "real" movement, stuff you actually do in life, stuff that uses multiple body areas, etc.

Anyway, not feeling down on myself about the break or anything, my body needs it and it's been good to reassess things now that I've been a Gym Person for over 6 months. A little shake up might be good as I get back into things soon here. Even with the break, I've been trying to at least get in walks; I haven't been successful with my step goal most days and walking is just so good for everything... We're at the time of year where the season changes from day-to-day lol so when it's been nicer out I've been trying to jump on those days (rain is back now through the weekend though).

One thing I didn't even plan to work on but have just naturally fallen into since coming home is my sleep hygiene. Since Costa Rica is 2 hours ahead of my time zone, not only did I lose a couple hours of sleep, but everyday we were up somewhat early on top of that. And so when we got home, I woke up earlier than usual before work (i.e. not one minute before I'm supposed to log on lol), and I've just been keeping it going since then. I don't start work until 8:30am and I've now been waking up anywhere from 7am-8am. This is crazy for me since I've never been even close to a morning person, but the vacation gave me a bit of a leg up and I've just been riding the wave. I'm really enjoying the calm start before work, and going out and getting some morning sunlight in my backyard at least for a few minutes (Andrew Huberman fan here lol). I've even done some little dynamic warm-ups while getting that morning sun, like knee raises, jumping jacks, arm circles, etc. And all this sleep hygiene stuff means I've been going to bed earlier too.

Yesterday was really nice so I got out for a walk. The last year or so, I haven't been taking pictures as much on walks/hikes, mainly due to just trying to be in the moment. But I don't want to never take pictures again lol so yesterday I made a point to take a few. It's the wonderful time of year where everything is green and it makes me feel like we're in Scotland or something haha; albeit a nice summer day if it were Scotland. It's normal for Californian hills/fields to be "golden" for like 9 months of the year and it's even a symbol of the state, but I just love the green. 🥲 But yeah I specifically thought "I'm going to take pics to share with my fellow tumblerinas" so I was thinking of you guys when I took these. 😆😋

Bottom left is a plane-shaped kite and his idol, a real plane 🥺 lol

[narsh-poptarts]

2, 5, and 18 fort the artist asks?

(artist asks)

2 and 5 answered here and here!!

18. What are you currently trying to improve on?

oh my god time management holy shit i just spent literally 2 weeks with poor sleep and doing my homework at dumb hours and last minute and it was the worst, i woke up today at 8:30am after spending all night working on homework for a class at 10:30am today. i went to bed at 7am. i regret it. but also i don't because i got my work done and now i probably will pass that class. i never want to do that again. all of my homework is drawing. at least my drawings are sexy as fuck but holy shit at what cost, i need to have better time manageme--

anyways that's not what the question is asking. there's two things!!! im trying to improve on my speed at which i draw, and like. getting things on the page instead of just like. thinking about about it Really HardTM. i've been getting much much better at Just Drawing lately and im super proud of myself!!!

in terms of actual drawing type things, im trying to get better at comic paneling and flow!! like. how to make a comic/illustration be readable and still interesting to look at!!! or even WONDERFUL to look at!!! im doing pretty decent at making a piece be readable, and preventing the viewer from looking at the wrong panel at the wrong time, but im still working out how to direct the eye around the page and make it fun while doing so. i think it's just a matter of using the negative and positive spaces constructively to make something that looks REALLY really cool, but i haven't super been able to put it into practice effectively yet. im working on it!!!!

[bakugosmosaicbrokenhearts]

this time I have to listen to the new album right. Because the way I listened to the previous albums for their original releases was downright horrible. For Reputation it took me months to listen to it in full because I was so confused as to what was going on. For Lover YNTCD made me a hater for like two weeks because it was so bad and I had lost hope for the quality of the album, so it again took me months to listen to it (and at the end it turned out to be my quarantine album so yay for me). Folklore I was so caught off guard by the news I listened to it at like 8 am in my bed barely minutes after waking up and I was practically half dead listening to it so I couldn’t appreciate the moment like the absolute idiot I am (although I knew IMMEDIATELY that illicit affairs was a banger). Evermore also caught me off guard but this time I was PREPARED but I genuinely don’t remember how I listened to it for the first time, although I do remember texting my friends about it and them not giving a fuck. Fearless TV, I remember listening to You All Over Me with my best friend while on a walk, and I remember being absolutely gagged by Mr Perfectly Fine, but I dont remember how I listened to the album in general (but I DO remember how gagged I was by fearless’s (title track) quality and cleanliness). Red TV i don’t remember if I listened to ATW10 first or if I listened to the album first, but I do have a distinct memory of watching the ATW short film on my friend’s computer at a starb*cks, and I also remember being gagged by her version of Better Man and I Bet You Think About Me. Midnights was BY FAR the worst listening experience of my life I simply have to laugh. It was 7am in the morning on my way to uni, depressed as fuck, still recovering from my traumatizing surgery, and being stressed and anxious like there was no tomorrow about fuckass med school. I was on the smelliest, fullest bus in the world (and yet still managed to find a seat!), and pressed play on Lavender Haze, expecting it to be a sweet pop ballad, and instead getting a full on synth pop energetic pop song. And then I got from one song to another, still half asleep might I add and having absolutely no idea what I was even listening to! YOYOK was an immediate stand out because obviously, Maroon jumped out to me from the start, Vigilante Shit was the song that woke me up lmao, and Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve (the 3am tracks had already come out by the time I was listening to the album) was the first song in which I was fully processing the lyrics (keep in mind that I was half dead up until that point lol). My initial overall reaction to Midnights? I guess I can safely say that I knew that it was gonna be pop (even with the album photoshoot, I wasn’t fooled into thinking she was dipping her toes into 70s rock or 90s glam rock, not me!!), BUT I was so dead listening to it that to me, all the songs sounded the exact same (which is not true at all lmao). For Speak Now TV, I organized a listening party, (and by party, I mean me, my sister and my best friend) and it was an experience to say the least. I live in Europe which means that for every fucking ts release, the album comes out at like 6am or something. A la Taylor Swift, i had baked cookies and made hot chocolate for my guests, and at 6.30am, we were all ready to listen to the album in my basement. And when I tell you it was the most disappointing TV in the world to me, I’m not kidding. Since Speak Now is my favorite album, I was hoping for her not to fuck it up. Alas… And let’s not talk about the vault tracks either.

1989 TV was an improvement quality wise. I was still shaken up by my favorite child being beaten up and spat on three months prior but to my surprise, 1989 sounded great!! Concerning the vault tracks, since I am the slowest person alive, it’s only when I was re-listening to them again in my college library that I realized all the references to lost queen haylor. Finally, as for TTPD, I won’t be able to listen to it first thing in the morning because I have classes, so I plan to listen to it when I’ll come home at night after my piano lesson. I’ll cook myself a nice meal, maybe even get a cake or something to celebrate, and listen to the album with unwavering attention, and reading the lyrics with hawk’s eyes (I need to get that joever tea after all).

[jmflowers]

Week of shoots

“Day 5” I managed to sleep on and off until about 2pm, so I felt much better heading into night two of the shoot. I had to pick people up downtown again, which was an hour drive from my place in Saturday traffic, so I left at about 3pm. Managed to get everyone to location for the 5pm call time.

Almost immediately, I was sent off on driving duties to pick up a few things, and then to grab one of the actors from a train station. By the time I was back, most of the set was dressed and lighting was nearly done, so shooting started shortly after.

The first half of the night felt painful, though. Imagine that phrase “too many cooks in the kitchen” but it’s a film set and they’re directors. No one had a clear vision and it just made for confusion, which had all of the actors antsy - especially the child actor whose first ever night shoot this was. We were aiming for lunch at 11pm, but at about 10:45pm they sent the actors back to holding to warm up and the creative team all stepped outside to argue “in private”. The rest of us who were not vital unless they were rolling slipped downstairs to holding and just hung out for the longest lunch I’ve ever been part of on a set - it was after midnight before we jumped back in. And, of course, the child actor had fallen asleep in the car during that time and we had to wake her back up.

So, there was the production at like 1am - all of us standing around in an abandoned convenience store, eating expired junk food and breathing in a ton of dust, watching as an 8 year old was being coaxed awake for a scene as she cried, “I don’t want to be here, I just want to go home.” And then her mom found packs of slime on the shelf, offered her one, and kiddo woke right back up to kill every. single. take. During a fight sequence, might I add. We had to wrap her by 4am, so her death scene coverage was shot and she was out of there by 3:45am.

Crazy.

There wasn’t much to do technically between takes and the DP only needed a spotter for camera movements a couple of times (one of which included me shoved back beside a bookcase, trying to hide from being in the shot when she whipped around), so I spent most of the time catering to the actors. It was cold in the building, since the heat wasn’t on, so I took their coats every time we were about to roll and then slipped them back on them each time we cut and reset to a new shot. Thank goodness I still had my set blankets in my car from my own shoots earlier in the week, as one of them ended up being best for wrapping up our child actor like a burrito without needing to care about if it was getting fake blood on it. One of the actors ended up hugging me goodbye before she left and they both thanked me profusely for taking care of them, which felt good. I think that’s the part of set I enjoy the most - just being able to help people. There’s such a humanness to watching someone perform at the top of their abilities in a setting like that and then to see them turn around and find comfort in a jacket or a bottle of water or a joke. It’s fun to be part of that, whether it’s with actors or creators.

We wrapped officially at about 5am and headed out shortly after putting everything away that we’d made a mess of. Said goodbyes to everyone - including the audio recordist that I’d worked with on another shoot last spring. I had to drive 4 people home, so we headed back into the city and I got everyone to their doorsteps before heading back to my own city. Pulled into my drive shortly before 7am and promptly showered off a lot of dirt before crashing into bed.

Day 6 was all about sleeping, for the most part, and just getting myself back off the nocturnal schedule. Slept until about 4:30pm, ate, went for a walk, watched a livestream concert, and was back in bed by about 10pm (trying to convince myself that I didn’t need to stay up all night again). Back to regular life and 8am classes the morning after, because that’s the way it goes.

All in all, I had a blast. It feels like hanging with friends when it’s a small crew and a lower budget. We talk about life and make jokes and mix up weird food concoctions in the middle of the night (like an oat milk and expired Kit Kat “hot chocolate” I tried to make in the microwave to warm up…). Mostly it’s all about eating Welch’s fruit snacks and making a movie. Can’t wait to see the finished product.

[smalife1234]

I first want to say that I do love putting a new year in the weekly smiles!

And secondly please enjoy the read! I love you all and I am super grateful for all y'all's support 💞

Now on to weekly smiles

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What made me smile this week?

Monday, 12/30/24 - today we kept editing our vlogs and videos until the new year tomorrow we're supposed to upload! So I'm getting prepared for that and I'm pretty excited for the video because so far it looks pretty good and is going pretty well. Today was a very chill day. Today we just chilled and then we watched several videos and honestly chilled on gun idle which we rediscovered! And so far it's been keeping us content LOL I've been on the game Blacksmith way more often and have made lots of progress which I'm very proud of! Today was a chill and lazy day lol so we don't have much input!

Tuesday, 12/31/24 - today is 1 day before the new year! I am so excited for this year to end but also it's close to my son's 1 year since passing away we miss him dearly and I find myself thinking of it more but it's good to be open about it so I have worked on the final touches of the newest YouTube video coming out today but we had decided to upload it on new years day! At 1:00Am as to chart the very first video in 2025! Around 8:00 Pm we got called to play games with the family before the new year! We had a great time until Dad and Mom got drunk and then Mom started getting all annoying and went to bed early again. We have no problem with her going to bed. It was just out of nowhere and typically that means something is wrong! So we were confused but we let her sleep we called out sister mack to tell her everything that was going on because we were worried about Mom shortly Mom woke up and she had written a note saying don't bother happy new year and we were worried at this point shortly after that literally minutes later mom had woke up again and went outside with a blanket we had followed her out there to see what was wrong she didn't reply to us and was mad because we cared?? The parents ended up having a large fight there was crying and then we poured all the alcohol down the drain and then went to macks house for the night, the cute part of it all was Gizmo had balled up on my pillow and it was so adorable then Around 5Am smudge had joined me behind my back I got some sleep but not lot's of it and then we went home around 7Am and then when we got home and the parents were casually watching TV and if nothing happened. But we were ok for the rest of the day and just tried to avoid the parents most of the day. The rest of the day we just tried to enjoy and today made me smile.

Wednesday, 1/1/25 - it's now officially the new year. I want to say we had the most epic time but we didn't… and currently, we're trying to enjoy it the best we can. We have been playing games most of today and we've just been laughing at some funny moments! We had fun playing games and we didn't really do much. We apologize for this short entry but yes it has been a tough time these past day and a half and has been almost absolutely miserable… But we're making the best out of everything we could do. Happy New Year to you all. I hope your new year is going way better than ours.

Thursday, 1/2/25 - today we had a way better day our mom was still in a mood and was still slightly bitchy (sorry for the language) but we did enjoy this day way better I got a new leg mate in my chair which has been beneficial they had thought that blood polling to my limp legs all day wasn't the greatest so we decided to change and it gives less risk to my feet being less swollen! It is a good thing we had a good day of listening to Instagram audios and having a funny time talking about weird things lol thankfully today was easier than the past two days! Which is always a good thing today made me smile.

Friday, 1/3/25 - today was pretty chill. We found out about a new Earth game today and we've been playing it for a while now and have been making great progress. We've been watching so many videos of a Quadriplegics channel and we've been enjoying her videos! We've been talking about catheters and talking about very funny things LOL 🤣! Especially Emmie lol we've been having a fun time today and thankfully today was super chill again super sorry for the short entry. I've just been burnt out! I've honestly been trying to enjoy the “break” but as of currently I've uploaded 6 videos and 5 podcasts and working on the 7th videos all since December 20th which is insane! I've missed the last weekly smiles so I'm working on that! It's just so exhausting to constantly keep up with these ridiculously long ALS post-the-festive Holiday episodes, the constant four-day chemo rounds, and my wife's anniversary! It's been very hectic and I'm just waiting for it to slow down which Will hopefully come soon! But it's almost over the entire break which for me is honestly crazy! On how much of this break that I've been working… I'm super grateful for everyone's support! And today made me smile!

Saturday, 1/4/25 - today is almost the last day of our break. Today we had a pretty chill morning, we laughed, and then shortly I started my 73rd round of chemotherapy! If I'm being honest, the 70's are not doing me well… I started filming the horrific video that you all will see at 10:50 tonight which is crazy. It was honestly such a crazy video! But I've been writing the last weekly smiles and thankfully got it out and I've been writing descriptions for videos that are lacking a description but thankfully I got some of those done! And I've been working for almost 5 hours straight today which to me is honestly baffling but I'm almost done!!! Yes, freedom lol but I've been chilling and typing my entire heart out! Today has been good. It's just been very busy but today made me smile!

Sunday, 1/5/25 - today it's our brother's birthday! His big 21st we wish him a good happy birthday sadly we didn't get any footage but we did have a fun time watching him open his presents, he got a cool Transformers video game and he got vodka and blue and red liquid to make optimus prime shots I doubt he'll drink any lol but it was cool to see! He hung out most of the day with his girlfriend Nancy we mainly out the majority of the day doing the typical laundry and just chilling out for a few we helped organize moms shoes for a bit (not really an entire hour had gone by) but we got it done and then we actually had a chill day lol I filmed some content for autism and disabilities and worked on some more YouTube things like an upcoming thumbnail and things! Shortly after we heard that we had a 2-hour delay tomorrow! Which is pretty exciting! It's good to know that we get some time off of our school day! And this week which is a good thing! I am super sorry for the absence recently of the weekly smiles especially last week's but I do hope that being on time with this one will make up for the last one! 🫣But I am super grateful for you all! And lastly the most important Question of the week!?

What made you smile this week?

Img desc #1: doc is seen in a professionally shot photo she is on a bridge and smiling beside someone else while wearing a dark blue long-sleeved shirt colored jeans and brown shoes not seen in the photo.

Img desc #2: doc is seen looking annoyed near plants she is sitting in her old electric wheelchair while wearing a grey short-sleeved shirt and dark grey shorts.

Img desc #3: doc and Emmie are seen smiling together near a bunch of food Doc seen on the left is seen smiling while wearing a dark blue short-sleeved shirt saying the words in white text "Tumblr" and brown shorts Emmie is seen smiling on the right side of the image is seen in a grey hoodie with her arms crossed both of them are smiling.

Img desc #4: smudge their cat seen at Mack's house on the couch behind Matthews's back balled up. He is a Siamese cat

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When I was working the 7am shift, my son would wake up 30 mins to an hour before my alarm went off most mornings. When I switched to the 6:30am shift, that went away for a while and I could get a good chunk of sleep before my alarm went off, and got out of bed with my son still asleep. Lately though, he's started waking 30-60mins before my alarm again. Most of the time, he gets back to sleep before my alarm goes off, and I feel well rested enough to get out of bed without waiting for the alarm, which makes for a nice morning. BUT that means I'm dead tired even before my son's bedtime. Add onto that that my husband can't get him down for a nap until 2pm sometimes. Evenings have been so hard lately. Last night I was so tired by 8, but my son had napped until almost 4pm and wouldn't go to sleep. Then he woke early again this morning. Like it's great to wake up well rested at 4:45 but not to be exhausted at 8pm.