#with caelan

[twcfaced]

who: @caelanessaex

prompt: ❛ the question is... do you have it in you to make it epic? ❜

Os músculos de sua face se contraíram ligeiramente, o nariz franzido construindo uma careta que revelava sua falta de convicção no próprio potencial para atender as expectativas do irmão. Sua disponibilidade para ajudar os outros Essaex era uma constante, na qual todos eles podiam confiar, sem qualquer hesitação, mas o mesmo não podia ser garantido quanto à sua capacidade gerar coisas grandiosas. Suas tentativas eram válidas, porém, e o suficiente para satisfazê-la. Ao menos, por ora. Continuaria a apenas nutrir seus sonhos mais gananciosos enquanto não encontrava a liberdade que desejava. ── Como eu detesto decepcionar as pessoas, apenas o que posso te prometer é que irei me esforçar ao máximo e com bastante otimismo. ── Ofereceu sua sinceridade crua ao responder o irmão, encolhendo os ombros em um claro sinal de humildade, mas também moldando nos lábios um sorriso entusiasmado. Sempre teria suas boas intenções para oferecer. ── Mas, o que é que está precisando de mim? Logo descobrimos como podemos tornar isso épico. ── Se aproximou dele, pronta para escutar mais sobre seus planos.

[ohnoitstbskyen]

Caelan Conrad: Drop the T - The Deadly Consequences of Gay Respectability Politics

This is a genuinely essential watch, I think. I have often lamented that younger generations, who are otherwise more open and more likely to identify with and embrace queer identities, simply don't get educated in queer history, and the many generations of elders who went before us and paved the way to the world and the understanding that we have.

That education simply isn't easily available, it gets cleansed out of school systems by white supremacy and conservatism, and it gets suppressed on the internet by algorithms that are programmed to understand queerness as "advertiser unfriendly."

So thank Freja, Frigg and Frej that people like Caelan Conrad and their many collaborators are doing the heavy work of making up some of the difference. This video focuses on assimilationist- and respectability politics in the queer community, the false wedge that is being driven between gay people and their trans and queer siblings, and the long history of reactionary forces using exactly that tactic to try and stifle the drive for queer liberation.

Hear your history, so you may know who you are.

[lelianaslefthand]

CAELAN GOLDMANE 🌟 half-high elf ✩ noble ✩ oath of the ancients paladin of lathander

[burnt-outtransgender]

I dunno if anyone else has noticed or if this is just a genuine thing thats canon but imma say it anyway- Armour’s names are so funky with his lore-

Imma start w/ his OG name “Atlas”- an atlas is a book showing everything- an open book. And books are easily destroyed or damaged

Then theres Armour- a hard solid thing that protects you. You normally dont need armour all the time and definately not around people you trust and care about.

The whole thing of him going from Atlas- an open book so easy to read and so easy to destroy- to Armour- something strong and solid that protects vulnerable areas- is so cool to ma brain!!

How he quite literally drops his armour around people they trust and allows herself to be vulnerable and open to people is just so arararararara- im so normal- /silly

[burntouttransgender2]

✩ FableSMP Headcannon Time ✩

(Entirely gay granddads- bc i care-)

✩ Raemond gives the best bear hugs- like a full proper “get lifted off the floor slightly and held really tight but not enough to hurt” hug

✩ Raemond and Everett playfully argue about how much the other they can see in Rae and Isla and whoever gives up first has to give the other some kind of back massage (cuz lets be honest, no one with the last name Morningstar has any concept of not falling asleep at a desk or workbench-/silly)

✩ When either of them falls asleep- the other purposefully uses him as a pillow/fully lays on the other to make sure they dont sneak off to work on projects

✩ Everett likes making little bits of jewelry like pendants or rings for Raemond, Isla, Enderian and Rae- even little bird and potion themed ones that he puts on a small memorial him and Raemond made for Icarus in their house

✩ Even though its rarely used, they have two bedrooms in their house exclusively reserved for Isla and Rae

✩ ^On a similar note, Isla wanted to stay the night at her fathers’ house after finding out they were in Elysium and Enderian was more than willing to let her have a night alone at her fathers’ place but they all insisted on her staying too

✩ Raemond can cook really well and brings food to Everett when he’s been in his workshop too long- same vise versa but Everett can only make good desserts-

[lucifer-imaginaryfriend]

Nothing stopping this man from showing off his kids (and future overlords/rulers of hell)

OCs belong to @bunny-is-cute and are from their blog @hells-greatest-performers

Please consider checking their blog out! It is so captivating, charming with many twists and turns that keep you wanting more!

[firstmatedville]

behold. autumn log cake

[hunxi-after-hours]

你说得对 / You were right 我该醒来 / I should wake up

披荆斩棘的哥哥 CALL ME BY FIRE S4 | 五公 FIFTH STAGE

《求不来》 Unattainable

[bogkeep]

i remember the shift, when i went from being "some random kid online who likes to draw" to "popular fanartist within a small community". it was on the fan forum for a webcomic nearly a decade ago. i had been posting my art on tumblr for a couple years already, usually getting between 0 and 15 notes on each, with a couple exceptions here and there. as you can probably imagine, being an awkward queer and autistic teen had never made me feel particularly popular before. i wasn't really lonely, personally, though many of my peers are and were, but the idea of many people actively wanting to be my friend and thinking i was genuinely cool - that was incredibly novel.

i have always loved getting attention for my work and find people interested in what i have to say. like, who doesn't? it was a very fulfilling and inspiring experience when it started happening to me on a regular basis, to the point where i could expect it. i went from being constantly apologetic about how annoying i imagined myself to be to others, to feeling confident that at least some people were excited to have me around. absolutely revolutionary to realize that people weren't just pretending to like me, they liked me for realsies, and that putting myself out there and being sincere and genuine in my enthusiasm and interest was actually a positive trait many people valued. wild!!!!!!!!

when you come from a place like that, of course you try to be everyone's friend. that's the scarcity mindset. you have to hold on to every friendship ever offered to you because it's such a rare and precious thing and you don't know when or even if it might happen again. but if you get Popular, well, at some point you learn that you can only nurture so many friendships at once, and that you can't click with everyone. like, it only makes sense. but it sucks!! learning the necessity of rejecting people and letting them down is a harrowing journey, but one that must be made.

there's many deeply lonely people out there, especially online, a space of Connection. connections to other people are so good and necessary and being lonely is an awful thing to be. this means there's a lot of people who can't even imagine not wanting more friends, let alone not be constantly looking for some. it's always a bit of a tragedy when a Very Lonely Person tries to attach themselves to someone Socially Overencumbered, as that's highly unlikely to end satisfyingly for anyone involved.

anyway, i think capital f Fame is like that, but times a hundred thousand. it's deeply fascinating to me how Fame is treated as this deeply aspirational state when it's proven again and again to be a cruel and abusive mistress. like, i understand - don't we all want some attention, some validation, for someone to recognise us on the street with stars in their eyes, like OH you're the COOL PERSON who did the COOL THING and i want nothing more than a HUG and a SELFIE and also i made you this HAND MADE GIFT and PAINTED A PORTRAIT OF YOU... that's the dream, isn't it!! to be recognized for your skill, to be admired, desired! THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE WANTS, ISN'T IT.

but it isn't.

there's a limit to everything. there's a whole spectrum of Getting Attention and Validation between "literally everybody ignores you and everything you do" and "paparazzi follow you everywhere you go" - and i can promise that you can find a lot of fulfilment and joy on the lower end of that scale. it's difficult to explain sometimes, especially to people who get No Attention - it's like telling someone who is starving that the most expensive restaurant in town isn't really worth the hassle, a good affordable sandwich will make you so much happier, trust me. like maybe it's just personal preference and what i can personally tolerate! but i had merely a whiff, a crumb of what they serve at that place, and it's Not That Good. easy for me to say huh!!!!

i'm basically a nobody on the wider web, but i've still had my fair share of unpleasant stranger interactions both of the rude and overly familiar variations. i've been treated as a commodity rather than a person. i've been put on a pedestal and dragged through the mud by the same people. it kinda sucks!! and i don't want to tell people that they should never ever put themselves and their art out there because people might be cruel, because that shouldn't be the expectation! yet for some reason, it is!!!! people experiencing Fame have to deal with all kinds of inhumanely horrible things literally no human person is equipped to experience. many people say that's the price people pay for fame, but that's said by people who haven't experienced even a Fraction of the stochastic terrorism an Audience can do to you if they choose. not all attention is good attention.

i know none of this is a fresh new hot take. i know we all know stalking is unethical and traumatic. but i am still so fascinated by the divide between people who don't understand why anyone would reject any form of adoration and those who have to work very, very hard to keep their boundaries intact.

[lumilasi]

Really wanted to draw baby Caelan suddenly, so decided to utilize this art meme template again. At this point I've drawn his past kid self more than his current adult form lol

[temeyes]

STILL FIGHTING MY ARTBLOCK!! finalized more ac oc designs, now ft the Cousins (prev one was their respective parents!)

[lelianaslefthand]

wyll wednesday!!!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

[burnt-outtransgender]

So I’m watching the Umbrella Academy cast review fan theories and Ritu Arya just said “Once a villain, always a villain” then made direct eye contact with the camera…

“Once a villain, always a villain”

I think Fable SMP messed with my social depth perception

[incalotlarts]

STRIKE

[zara2148]

Has anyone else recommended Caelan Conrad as a queer YouTuber? They just dropped a new video, so now is a good time to check them out, especially as this latest video's opening concerns misinformation in the queer community.

Edit: further in the video now and it also explains the AIDS impact on queer assimilation movements, better than Jim Jam's offensively inaccurate line about "boring gays."

[lucifer-imaginaryfriend]

Alice in wonderland Hazbin Hotel Style!

Idea from the talent @bunny-is-cute

Characters from @hells-greatest-performers