#wish i had a friend

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

whens megatron coming back

[wondermentishere]

9/25/24

and suddenly, i feel lonely ~

im glad i got some hope back today, though. ive been having issues with my car for the past couple of weeks and its really been stressing me out and draining my pockets. dealing with predatory, scammy ass mechanics in this city doesnt help either. i was excited to be immersed in the culture and community of downtown, but i just feel so alone. i dont want to go outside. it feels so hard to get around down here. everything takes so much effort.

i decided to just have my groceries delivered since its not much more expensive, which is helping me conserve energy. i also decided to take the train to work instead of ubering/fixing my car. its still in my mom's name, and im not sure if she ever gave me the title. ive been wanting to give it back anyway for the past 3 years, because its the last thing linking me to her. im still relying on her in a way. im grateful she let me use it, but the universe is giving no choice but for the chapter to close.

taking the train is about an hour and a half commute. that kind of sucks, but it beats having all my lifeforce utilized to sit in traffic for 60+ minutes. atleast this way i can get ahead on decompressing after work, and hopefully wont want to rot in bed as soon as i step through the door. ill watch tiktok, listen to podcasts, and read books. itll be fine. im kind of nervous on what wild shit ill be confronted with, but ill just sit at the front near the driver and mind my business. i had to remind myself that i was a teenager taking the bus in the west end of atlanta years ago. ill be fine lol.

overall, spending less on transportation will be my saving grace in a way. more money to save and pay off debt. no longer dealing with the anxiety of finding parking when im out and about. ill be broke these next 3 weeks, but after i want to make it a mission to go somewhere new every weekend. to do what i actually moved here for. maybe ill start making friends off apps too. i really want to start volunteering, buy more instruments, get a new kitten, and decorate my apartment as well. a second job wouldnt hurt to help reach financial goals quicker either ;P

i get down and lonely, but reminding myself that theres things out here to achieve; cool stuff to experience. it perks me back up. maybe i can start planning a quick trip somewhere for the upcoming holidays as well. itll get my mind off sadness.

[scurviesdisneyblog]

Early visual development for Wish (2023) by Griselda Sastrawinata-Lemay and Brittney Lee.

An earlier version of the film saw Star take on a human form as a magical, glowing character inspired by Peter Pan. Ultimately, the creative team reconceptualized Star as an ethereal, playful entity resembling Mickey Mouse. "Now Star and Asha have an emotional journey. They are soulmates." -Allison Moore.

[ilovelifee]

Gravity falls as onion headlines part II part I part III

[sangthael]

progression of events

[monochromeia]

Reading The Way of Kings is really funny so far because you go from reading about Kaladin and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day(s) to Shallan and her sailor buddy Yalb's wacky book-buying adventure back to Kaladin about to fucking kill himself.

[fairycosmos]

i just feel like friendship is one of the most expansive and beautiful forms of love you can ever experience and i wish we gave it more credit

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

[letsplaythermalnuclearwar]

Homer!Odysseus and Epic!Odysseus would try to kill each other if they ever met

[assassin-artist]

[ar-mage-ddon]

pursuing the unknown

( EPHEMERWEEK 2: curiosity )

[qualityrain]

why are they batshit insane

[petrichara]

Trying to remember the last time I played hide and seek. The last time I said hi to everyone on the street or saw the girls I spent every day of six years with. The last time my dad picked me up, or my mum brushed my hair. When was the last time I dressed without consideration? There is so much to think about now. I remember falling on the grass at school and making stories with the clouds. Hanging upside down from the swing and realising how big the world was. I wonder on the path of growing when we stop feeling big. I am taller now, smaller still.

[muzsmocsing]

Being friends with Xie Lian would be so weird because this man peppers in bits of his insane life ruining trauma randomly mid sentence. You'd like accidentally step on his toes and he'd go "ah don't worry about it, that foot's been cut off and eaten before anyways" smile, and then never elaborate.

[sammjammin]

Kills 99.9% of all germs!

[greghatecrimes]

We always want to give our children what we never got for ourselves.