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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang đđđ#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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oh my fucking god i don't have any clothesssss
#what moving to another country does to a mf...#it's like. i gotta shop for winter clothes ASAP#because i have like 2 sweaters and 1 sweatshirt like that's it LMAO#and a jacket i bought HERE#why did i not pack winter clothes when coming to fucking sweden you ask. good question#my baggage was already 30 kilos#im only one weak person#i already died that day due to my 30 kilo baggage many times#i had to ask random people to help me lmaoooooo the way i'd rather die than doing that in a normal day đ#it was THAT bad..#and now i dont have anything proper to wear. fml#and i am so bad when it comes to clothes shopping like u have noooo idea#im terrible at shopping in general. :/#ughhhh i will try to do that this friday :////// hope i don't freeze in the meantime :////#đ
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WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY đ
Happy Nah-pacalypse!
@meanwhile-in-heaven
@meanwhile-at-the-bookshop
@meanwhile-in-hell
@meanwhile-at-crowleys-flat
#good omens#ineffable divorce#angst#armageddon't anniversary#Crowley#Muriel#Aziraphale#WHY DID YOU HAVE TO DO THIS đ
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redesigning my headcanon for Sebek's parents, based on important new information (SCALES)
(you can't see it but they're both wearing crocs)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#they are truly the most inspiring love story of our generation#though i guess he's not dr. zigvolt since zigvolt is the clan name...#unless he took her name which i absolutely could see. why would you ever not want to be called zigvolt.#this does tie nicely in with my headcanon that sebek's siblings got more of the fae features than he did#and he has a Complex about it#i get the impression that sebek's siblings are much closer in age to each other and also have more of their dad's chill#so sebek is sort of the baby of the family and he's got a Complex about that too#i think a lot about the zigvolt family for characters who have never actually appeared#on the subject of actual canon though#i do actually really appreciate that both sebek and silver each had a little moment of reassuring each other#that this is 400 years ago and also incredibly unfortunate circumstances#and present-day reality lilia and baul love them very much#(i do think sebek is secretly baul's favorite grandkid)#it was just nice to see! especially from sebek! he is sometimes a very thoughtful boy and it's always nice to see that side of him#sebek trying SO hard to get baul to like him though đ#and lilia being like 'aw i think you're getting kind of fond of him :)'#i love. Characters.
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whoever runs the verified batman account in instagram needs their ass ate cause these are hilarious
#10000 CRIMINALS TERRIFIED IS CRAZY#365 days that would have been better with alfred#NOW WHY DID THEY GAG HIM LIKE THAT#you sent the joker once and for all 9 times đđđđđđđ HELPPP#heâs getting out almost every month#what the fuck are you doing bruce#THE GENRES ARE SOOOO đ#gcpd scanner đđđđ#amazing#topnotch#no notes#they go to the good omens school of social media marketing#batman#bruce wayne#the joker#tagging this as batjokes because why not#batjokes#dc#kamwashere
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My biggest flex will always be how I knew Neil was the more feral and dangerous one than Andrew this whole time even before tsc and seeing the entire fandom freaked out makes me want to kiss and hug Nora and just thank her for finally finally showing everyone and Iâm not just crazy
#seeing all the post about like omg Neil is so feral?! like brother did you not read aftg did yâall forget aftg is from Neilâs pov#ofc Neil wouldnât say heâs feral in his own pov tfđđđ#and remember in aftg Neil still has to hide part of himself BECASUE his father and eveyrhhing but now heâs literally free from his biggest#fear and he could do whatever the fuck he wants#Istg the fandom is like the foxes man idk why everyone is so shook#literally cant thank Nora enough for showing everyone finally#Idc if I sound proud or whatever but I fucking knew it this entire time and I have been shouting it for so long like finally#thatâs why so many fics annoyed me so much like#I just needed to say this because I finally felt seen and heard andFINALLY LIKE URGH#tsc and aftg supremacy#tsc#tsc spoilers#the sunshine court#the sunshine court spoilers#aftg#all for the game#tfc#the foxhole court#aftg series#aftg fandom#aftg incorrect quotes#neil josten#andrew minyard#andrew joseph minyard#neil abram josten#aftg neil#aftg thoughts#aftg textpost#aftg shitpost#incorrect tfc
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Oh how I love Angst đ€đ
Natasha romanoff x reader nat cheats on reader and reader just gives up.
Gone for good
Natasha Romanoff x Reader
Warnings: angst, crying, Nat is a bad gf, Nat cheats
Word count: 865
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You frown to yourself as you check your phone, no texts or calls from Natasha. Today is your 2 year anniversary and just a few days ago she stated she had a very important classified mission to go on but she was going to take the two of you to your guysâ favorite restaurant. You didnât mind situations like these because you knew what Natashaâs job meant to her and you would never be the type of partner to take that away from her, so long she also prioritized you and the relationship. You sigh to yourself as you check the time once more. 6:45 and the reservation is for 7. You wouldnât be surprised if she forgot. Over the past couple of months, your relationship with Natasha has been rocky. As much as you will never admit it to anyone, she hasnât been a good girlfriend. At least, not the same one she used to be at the beginning. Lately she cancels plans, misses dates you set up and now forgetting your anniversary, you wonder if something more is going on.
You let your tears fall, falling into the couch as you cry. You got yourself ready, looking sexier than ever, just for her to not pick you up. You let a few hours pass as you cried to yourself in your living room, wondering what you did for Natasha to treat you this way. Rather than feeling sorry for yourself, you grab your keys and make your way to the compound, hoping to find Wanda or Kate.
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âY/n, this is like, the millionth time she has done this. Havenât you had enough?â you frown as you look down at your hands, playing with your fingers nervously. âI know Wanda but I love her⊠I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Everything was so good until it wasnât. Maybe she doesnât love me anymoreâ Before Wanda could open her mouth to speak, a drunk Natasha and an equally drunk woman came stumbling in, their hands all over each other. You watch as the mystery woman trails her lips all over Natashaâs neck, Natasha pushing her against the wall as they make out, your heart dropping at the sight of Natasha cheating on you. There she is, your girlfriend of 2 years, who forgot your anniversary, all because she has been cheating on you.
âWhat the fuck Natasha! Are you serious right now?â Natashaâs head shoots up at the sound of Wandaâs voice, her eyes widening as she sees you. âY/n⊠baby itâs not what it looks likeâ You scoff, getting up off the couch as your blood starts to boil. âYou forgot our anniversary to get drunk and pick up some random chick to come home with? How long has this been going on?â She grimaces at your words, and moves closer towards you with her hands out. You move back, telling her to not come any closer. âBaby this was the only time and⊠and I promise it doesn't mean anything! She doesnât mean anything. Iâm sorry sweetheart can you please just forgive me and we can move on from this?â You get a good look at her, and when you look at her, you see a complete stranger, not the woman you fell in love with, and the reality of it causes your heart to break more than it already has. You love Natasha more than anything but, you know now that this was the last straw, and nothing she says or does can fix it.
âNo Natashaâ her eyebrows furrow, a frown prominent on her face. âBaby câmon we can fix this, don't throw it awayâ you smile at her sadly, shrugging your shoulders. âYou already did. Weâre over Natasha. Me and you are done, do you understand? I honestly canât even look at you right now. Please, just leaveâ âW-what? You donât mean thatâ She stands there looking at you, the random woman already long gone, her mind sobering up as she realizes what she has done. She looks at you once more before walking away. Your body feels numb, and the anger and betrayal you feel inside you is so strong, you canât help but to slide down against the wall you are against and cry. You feel arms circling around you as Wanda holds you close, pulling you to her chest as she lets you cry in her arms for however long you need.
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Natasha enters the kitchen the next morning to find Wanda making breakfast. âWanda? Whereâs Y/n? I need to speak to themâ âTheyâre gone, Natashaâ Natasha frowns as she looks at her. âWhat do you mean theyâre gone?â Wanda smiles sadly as she looks at her. âTheyâre gone Nat, they leftâ Natashas heart races in her chest at her words. âWhat are you talking about? Where did they go?â Wanda shakes her head and leaves the kitchen, leaving Natasha there alone with her thoughts. She stares at Wanda as she walks away, tears falling down her face. You left, and youâre never coming back. She stands there crying to herself as she realizes that she has truly lost you for good.
#why did you have to do this đ#made me sob#natasha romanoff x reader#natasha romanoff angst#natasha romanoff x reader angst#natasha romanoff#natty bear my love đ§žâ€ïžđ€
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Gege is still recovering and goes on extended hiatus but turns out was secretly drawing and now releasing this new official art of Yuuji and Choso! đ they look so relax and happy, outside having picnic together! Choso is napping on the rattan mattress while smiling and Yuuji is waving at the cameraman. Between them two cans of beverage. The left one a can of tea and the other one written either Pokka or Ponka? (Pokka Sapporo is a JP's manufacturer of canned and bottled beverages)
This is an official art by Gege Akutami that will be made into lenticular bookmark as natsucomi freebie in (participating) bookstores coming July
#I KNOW THEY ARE LIVING TOGETHER HAPPILY EVER AFTER WHAT WE SAW IN MANGA IS FANFIC CZ GEGE LOVES THEM TOO MUCH TO SEPARATE THEM#JUST ADMIT IT GEGE! YOU HAVE SOFT SPOT FOR THESE TWO ARENT CHA NO NEED TO BE SHY! WE CAN ALREADY SEE IT AS CLEAR AS DAY#WHY ELSE YOU MADE CHOSO AND YUUJI'S SCENES AND FLASHBACKS BEFORE LEAVING SO DRAMATICALLY BEAUTIFULLY TRAGIC LIKE THAT#thank you so much for this new official art omg đđđ#look at what comes thru my gc I got triple gifts choso-related things today what did I do to deserve these surprises#jujutsu kaisen#official art#choso#yuji itadori#jjk choso#itadori yuji#itadori yuuji#smiling brothers go on relaxing picnic after shooting Choso's last scene the angstiest scene in the drama series Called JJK#gege akutami#choita
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The boy stops in his tracks. âI know you,â he says, tilting his head curiously. Heâs not tall, but heâs regal nonetheless, dressed all in white. Something about him makes Leiaâs hair stand on end, and although she hides it she feels a stirring in her own chest. I know you like I know my own soul, she thinks wildly, and wonders where it came from. Has she gone insane?
âThatâs nice,â she says, and shoots him anyway.
He deflects it in a flash of light, a glowing blue laser sword appearing in his hand like magic. Sheâs only seen one of those before, and itâs Vaderâs. If this boy is anything like Vader, she realizes, sheâs in deep shit.
Sheâs smart enough to know when sheâs outmatched. Leia makes the tactical decision to run for her life.
Later, as sheâs getting the hell out of there, she wonders why he didnât try to stop her.
She remembers being young and tugging on her mothers skirts, demanding to know why their guest was so sad. âDoes he not like it here?â Sheâd asked, and then, trembling, because Kenobi always seemed saddest around her. âIs itâŠbecause of me?â
âOh, Leia,â her mother sighed, lifting her into her arms. âItâs not that, I promise.â
âThen what is it?â
âMaster Kenobi lost a child under his care, years ago.â Brehaâs eyes grew deeper, darker. âIt was not his fault, but he blames himself. You remind him of that child, thatâs all.â
Leia had quieted at that, contemplative.
The next time sheâd seen Master Kenobi, she had given him a hug. He didnât seem to know what to do with that, so she resolved to give him more of them. âHeâs lonely,â sheâd told her mother. âNo one should be lonely.â
Looking at Obi-Wan Kenobi now, the memory seemed so far away. Heâd aged thirty years in the ten it had been.
He looks, Leia thinks with a small twinge of regret, very lonely.
âLeia,â he greets. âItâs been a long time.â
Out of the corner of her eye, Leia sees a glint of white.
Kenobi freezes in his tracks. âLuke?â He whispers, and through the distance Leia can hear it as if heâd been speaking directly into her ear.
Master Kenobi lost a child under his care, her mother whispers in her head. He blames himself.
In an instant, Leia understands everything.
Kenobi is still staring at the boy heâd lost so long ago when Vader cuts him down.
Later, as sheâs pacing around on the Falcon to Han muttering darkly about Princesses and supernatural abilities, she rememberers the way the boy collapsed, as if all his strings had been cut. Vader was too occupied with him to even look at her as she shot at him desperately.
Luke. She hates him more than she hates herself.
âThey know where you are,â he hisses frantically. âTheyâre coming for you. You have to run.â
âWait!â Leia quickly pulls up their sonar. Nothing yet, but it would explain the distant queasiness sheâd felt since theyâd landed. She tended to trust her gut. âHow do you know? How much time do we have?â
âNot important, and not enough,â he says. âI have to go, and so do you. You need to leave yesterday.â
âHow do I know I can trust you? I donât even know who you are.â
He pauses. âCall me Skywalker.â
âThatâs not an answer, Skywalker.â
âYes it is.â
She opens her mouth to argue, but there are faint voices on the other end, drawing nearer.
âShit,â Skywalker mutters. âI have to go. Iâll be in contact, okay? Donât ever tell me where you are, or where youâre heading. Vader and Palpatine arenât shy about reading minds. Just leave as soon as you can, and figure out the rest.â
âButââ
Itâs too late. The comm has disconnected.
She stares down at it, disbelieving. How would the Empire know theyâre here? Why should she trust a stranger who somehow got her personal comm code?
Gut feeling or not, on paper this was a perfect location. Supplied, armored, and most importantly, extremely well hidden. There was no real reason to think it would possibly be found out.
Itâs probably a trap. Almost definitely a trap.
Han sticks his head in the door, a sour look on his face. âHey Princess, can you tell these idiotsââ
She makes a decision then and there.
âWeâre leaving.â
âWhat?â
âWeâre evacuating, effective immediately.â She pushes past him, and he follows so close heâs nearly stepping on her heel.
âWhy? I think itâs pretty cozy here. Actual sunlight doesnât hurt, either.â
âApparently too cozy.â She grabs the first person she sees, a pilot who stares at her with wide eyes. âEmergency evacuation. Spread the word to pack everything you can and leave, Iâll let you know where weâre headed when weâre in orbit.â
He salutes and scurries off.
âWoah, hey now.â Han snatches at her elbow until she turns around to face him. âWhatâs going on?â
âThereâs a new informant. He told me the Empire knows weâre here. Theyâre coming for us.â
âAnd you trust this person becauseâŠâ
âI donât have a choice,â she snaps. Someone runs past them, holding three packs filled to the brim with rations. âItâs either heâs lying and weâre not in danger, or heâs telling the truth and weâre going to die if we donât listen. Itâs not exactly hard math.â
It could be a trap of course, but he hadnât suggested any sort of direction or destination to follow, and Leia wasnât inclined to share. Especially not after his tidbit about Vader and Palpatine reading minds.
He squints at her. âThatâs not it.â
âWhat?â
âI donât believe you,â he insists. Heâs so infuriating. Leia doesnât know why she hasnât kicked him out yet.
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âYes you do, and youâre either gonna tell me why, or find a different transport when we head out of here.â
âWho said I was riding on your hunk of junk?â She demands. She actually was planning on going with them, since the Falcon has more than enough room for all the supplies that canât fit in the other ships and none of the trustworthiness of the other pilots, but Han doesnât need to know that.
âWell?â
Damn him. Damn him for knowing how to read her. She doesnât know when she let that happen.
âI feel it,â she admits, defeated. âSomething tells me heâs trustworthy. Weâll wait and see if itâs right.â
He studies her. She holds her head high, but inside sheâs jittery at the scrutiny. They donât have time for this.
âYeah, all right,â Han finally says.
âReally?â
âYes, really.â He rolls his eyes, like sheâs not acting absolutely insane by putting all her trust in a random man sheâs never even met. âNow come on, Princess, werenât you the one who said we had to hurry?â
What is it about this man that makes it impossible to tell whether she wants to punch him or drag him into the nearest supply closet? They donât have time to find out.
âSo thereâs good news and bad news.â
âBad news first,â she demands.
âThey know thereâs a mole.â
âShit.â Of course they know, how could they not? She should have been more careful, less obvious about the correlation of their movements with the Empireâs plans. âThe good news?â
âTheyâve tasked me with hunting down this âpathetic rebel spy,ââ Skywalker says, humor in his voice. âThat should buy me some time.â
Leia canât quite stop the snort she lets out. âSeriously?â
âYep. Youâre speaking to a professional mole-hunter, here.â
âWell congratulations on the promotion, Skywalker.â
âThank you,â he says grandly. Then, quieter, âIt wonât last, Princess. Theyâll find out eventually.â
âI know. Just hang in there, it will be over soon.â
âWill it?â He asks, suddenly sounding very young. She realizes that she has no idea how old he is. She doesnât know anything about the man who has saved them more times than she cared to admit, and the idea rattles her until they sign off.
Later, she looks up the name Skywalker in their archives. There are a few results, but only one sticks out.
Anakin Skywalker, Jedi Knight and hero of the Clone Wars. Killed at the hands of Darth Vader. There are gossip articles too, speculations on his relationship with the pregnant Senator Padmé Amidala, who died around the same time Skywalker did. The baby, it seems, died with her.
Unless he didnât.
Itâs ridiculous. Itâs impossible. The idea is so ludicrous that Leia almost rejects it entirely.
But it makes sense. By the Maker, it makes sense.
The child of Anakin Skywalker, it seems, would be a powerful Force user indeed. Powerful enough for Kenobi to take the baby and run. Powerful enough for the Emperor to want him for his own gain. Powerful enough to send Vader after Kenobi and take the boy himself.
Maybe even powerful enough to shield his mind from Vader and Palpatineâs intrusions.
Powerful enough to hide the fact that heâs a spy.
Leia sinks into her chair, covering her face as she laughs.
Maybe Luke isnât so bad after all.
âNo, no, no,â she mutters, digging through the smoking wreckage of the TIE fighter. âDonât be dead, please donât be dead.â
âPrincessâŠâ Han lays a hand on her shoulder that she immediately shrugs off.
âNo, heâs not dead. Heâs not. Luke!â
A faint cough answers her, and sheâs so relieved to hear it she could cry. Behind her, Han starts bellowing for a medic and, âSome damn help here, do you expect us to move all this ourselves?â
âLuke, itâs me,â she sobs. âItâs Leia. Youâre at the Rebel Base. Youâre safe.â
More coughing, and thereâs a worrying rasp to his voice when he says, âYou knowâŠmy name?â
âI figured it out.â
âSmart.â This time, the coughing is so bad Leia and Han both wince.
âShit, kid,â Han says, moving another piece of rubble. âDonât talk. Weâre gonna get you out of here, all right?â
âStand back,â Luke chokes out.
âWhat?â
âStand back. Please.â
Han protests, but something in Leia knows they should listen to him. She drags him back, and motions everyone else to fall back with them. They do, albeit reluctantly.
âClear,â she calls, hoping Luke can hear her.
The TIE explodes.
âFuck!â Han goes back in, Leia on his heels with the terrifying feeling that sheâd just allowed Luke to die, before they both stop in their tracks. Around them, the broken pieces of the TIE are floating.
And curled up in the middle is a man dressed all in white.
âLuke!â She pushes past Han to start dragging him out, and after another moment of staring around them, he helps her.
As soon as they get clear, the pieces fall to the ground with a clatter. Luke falls limp with them.
Han is still looking at the TIE. âCan you do that?â He asks quietly.
Leia pauses her examination of the unconscious man in front of her to glare at him. âIs that what youâre most concerned with right now? Really?â
âExcuse me for asking, Princess!â
âItâs white,â Luke grumbles, pulling at his hospital gown bitterly. âI hate wearing white.â
âShould I be offended?â
He rolls his eyes. âDonât even. You look great and you know it. I just feel like I never left.â
âWell,â she says gingerly. âI guess itâs a good thing you got sick of it. If we went around in matching outfits all the time, people might think weâre twins.â
He snorts. âYeah, right.â
#star wars#star wars fanfiction#luke skywalker#han solo#leia organa#imperial luke skywalker#exactly when luke was taken by the empire is totally up to speculation it could honestly be anywhere from newborn to 5#as for why luke has his dadâs blue lightsaber here instead of like a red one or smth- well you see your honor I thought it would be a slay#but also when you think about it for more than 5 seconds youâre like actually yeah thatâs sick and twisted of palpatine and vader actually#youâre carrying your fathers most treasured weapon#you donât know your father once fought the rise of the very empire you stand to inherit with that blade. you donât know who he defended#you donât know your father brought about the end of the republic with that same weapon#he killed the younglings with it. he fought his closest companion with it#youâre carrying what was once your fathers most treasured weapon. you are your fathers most treasured weapon#just as your father is a weapon now#also I didnât make it clear but obi-wan has his âstrike me down and I become strongerâ moment like he still dies on purpose to cause proble#but when he saw luke he couldnât look away. he had to see him with living eyes one last time#can u tell I had So Many Thoughts on everyone elseâs perspective in this fic too#han is having a constant crisis in the background because 1) force is real 2) princess is annoying AND pretty which sucks for him#in particular and 3) pretty princess is learning to use the force and is hot while doing it. Chewie is laughing at him. life is hell#good lord did not mean to put an entire essay in the tags. i love their super special twin powers (cosmic entity that binds their souls)#edit: GUYS I FORGOT TO NAME THE FUCKING AU#AND WHEN I TRY AND FIX IT IT GLITCHES OUT ON MEEE đđđ
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I SWEAR CELEBI'S THINGY IS COMING SOON BUT I REALLY WANTED TO POST THIS ALRIGHT
yeaah... future trio got me too...
and Darkrai is there too, because of course he is.
hey look i drew a cute Drifloon :D
...ignore the rest
whatever started at Darkrai doodles ended in brainrot of future trio + darkrai and I'm blaming @scribz-ag24 for this
#Can you believe between the first pic and the 4th pic is only a week inbetween. I sure can't but like why did I mirror the pose...#ON ACCIDENT??? Everytime I look at the two Grovyles I'm like... how... how did they end up so differently???#also probably blaming @cozybells as well for this but I really fear tagging people so I'm just letting y'all know in the tags because#I do wanna let everyone know who inspired me when someone did <333 better get running [you know who you are!!!!] DusnoirXDarkrai is next...#also: upon seeing scribz-ag24's art my brain said: You need to color too! ah yeah that went well with the doodle batch#I really hope you're able to read everything with how messy I can write sometimes. If not please let me know and I'll add sth in this post!#Also the doodle batch was the first thing I drew so well... never drew dusknoir before and grovyle once i think...#please go easy on me I have yet to explore the relationship between literally everyoneđ and I have no idea what Iâm doing and I'm a little#lost I normally only draw King Boo or Darkrai but I'm sure scribz-ag24 sprinkling in bits of Darkrai got me in love with the future trio to#grovyle#future trio#celebi#darkrai#dusknoir#pmd hero#pokemon#drifloon#totodile#my art#my stuff#tagas friend spoiler#pmd#pokemon mystery dungeon#IS THERE A SHIP NAME FOR FUTURE TRIO... there must be. ...oh... is it just...#futuretrioshipping#i feel sooo stupid rn.#also everytime i drew darkrai i had evil spiteful bastard in mind (except for the one with an arrow pointing out he's redeemed) but i think#i literally mixed every possible version of him in my head so got absolutely no clue what i'm doing :D#anyways i hope you enjoyed this and thanks for reading through my ramblings! Have such a wonderful rest of the day yippiee <333#pmd2
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i've compiled all the data from the past three years into one slideshow for easier access! a full spreadsheet can also be found below :]
full slideshow: [link]
full spreadsheet: [link]
#icarus speaks#species survey#now. those of you who have been here for a while#might recognize that that was Not the color i used for 2023#and you'd be correct. and is also the reason why this has taken me a few days#because i did. in fact. go through and have to re-add every 2023 chart#as well as every 2022 chart. because the text was black and at that point did Not match with the other two#the things i fucking do to myself đ#anyways. u guys will likely not see me again for the rest of today đ again .#i am. so tired.#<- guy who did this to itself
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A major annoying thing about being in a male dominated stem field (chemistry for me) is you basically work w guys 99% of the time & they ALL think you have a crush on them if youâre even fleetingly nice. And so far Iâve refused to water down my personality to compensate for it but itâs so annoying knowing Iâm inadvertently feeding into someoneâs unchecked ego
#My approach is Iâll treat my guy friends like I do my girl friends#And I guess I have a flirtatious personality from the jump so people get the wrong idea#But idk sometimes Iâm literally just friendly and some dumbass guy is like yeah she wants me carnally#Getting confessed to by one of my classmates last spring while taking some of the hardest courses of my life was so traumatic#Then being hit up by his friend right after đđ#Please tell me what I did to make u think I was into you enough for you to be this bold so I can never do it again#This happens to me at parties too and guys get too touchy#Why does it have to be this serious#This is why Iâm so glad to be avoiding guys rn like straight cis men are literally the bane of my existence#SO bitter ab these people theyâve ruined guy friendships for me forever#So many suppressed feelings ab this too I should journal about it probably
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yâall i cannot stop fucking thinking about it. will with his big blue eyes, youngest of them all, completely musically untalented and rhythmically challenged but by the gods does he understand the human body. following lee around holding his quiver and rattling off whatever he just learned from watching michael in the infirmary. doted on by his big siblings. talking for hours about a galaxy far far away with heroes who choose to save the world, arenât forced to, hey, theyâre heroes, just like you, lee! and his siblings have dreams, they know the prophecies, they look at their little brother and they know he will be alone. they donât know why or how yet but they can feel in their very soul that he will be out in the stupid world with all its hatred and violence and he will have to defend himself. and he canât shoot straight and he cries when he hurts someone in training, and all he wants to do is help, and he doesnât understand that people can be cruel and they will take his kindness and bleed him dry. and a war is coming. they can feel it. do you think they would be desperate? for themselves as much as will? i donât know how long i will live. i donât know how long i have left. but you will be there, son of phoebus. i know you will. remember me, okay? remember how i loved you. remember how we loved each other, remember how we healed and fought and cared. please. please, will, remember us. and remember how we loved you.
#I AM FUCKING SOBBING ON THE GROUND#WHY DID I WRITE THAT đđđđđ WHY DID I OPEN THE CAN OF WORMS#all i can think of is lee!!#with his brothers and sisters and his gift of prophecy!!!#KNOWING he is going to die!!!!#knowing will is the only one who is going to survive!!!!#what do you do with that!!!#how do you deal with that!!!!#how do you put armour around his heart???#how do you protect him when you know you wonât be there#when you know heâll have NOBODY???#HOW?????? HOW DO YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF#WITH THE GODS????#and knowing how he finally goesâŠ..#do you think it haunts him in elysium#or do you think for once the gods we merciful#and let him die before he saw the look in wills eyes#as he cradled the pieces of his skull#and sobbed#and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed#gods help me.#will solace#lee fletcher#will solace & lee fletcher#will solace angst
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#because⊠we wrote one idiot đ!!!#I guess wp and nbs just learned that black ppl have our own National anthem and are of course spazzing tf out#just⊠write one?#yourselves??? if this is such a big deal like kskskskskl#thereâs no arguing with racists but this is still funny#I saw a few black folks not know about it but they probably either went to white schools or arenât from America so they missed out on#having to sing lift every voice and sing for 5 days a week 8 years straight#I only sung it for 7 since my 8th grade teacher didnât care if we did it or not#I just didnât feel like standing up sorry and Iâm sure her lazy ass didnât either thatâs why she didnât care lmfao#no wait I did do it for 8 years because my mom made my teacher hold me back in 3rd grade đżâŠ. so#crying#you can feel the antiblackness roll off of that âsâ#rambling
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A DRAGON WEISS FER YE!!!!
GOSH I love her design so so much,,, the silly <3333
WAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE CREATURE EVERRRRR đđđđ
#weiss schnee#derg AU#rwby#THIS IS SO#YOU CAN'T SEE ME BUT IM JUMPING SPINNING IN CIRCLES UPON SEEING THIS#WAAAAAAHHHH#CRYING#TUMBLR USER COWCOWWOW#YOU CAN'T JUST BARGE IN OUT OF NOWHERE AND DROP THIS AND SO MANY AWESOME VIBES#THIS IS SO ADORABLE I WILL CHERISH AND LOVE IT FOREVER#PRINTING THIS OUT FOR MY BREAKFAST LUNCH SNACK AND DINNER#SHE IS JUST#SITTING THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#she waits for her wife to return with snacks and hoodies#oh my god she is just a little creature...#this made my entire year ty đđđđđđ#glad you like the design hhhh i most certainly did not know what i was doing#but coloring the red crystals on her tail always makes me giggle it's so fun#she is indeed the silliest#the sole reason why ruby and yang have a fireproof house after meeting her#i have been staring at this for 30 mins and more to come#waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagghhhhhhh#she looks so squishable..
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Fandom Gripe #23: I know that fandom is in some deep denial about its treatment of female characters that are canonically involved with fan favorite m/m ships, but do yâall realize that when you disappear female characters from the narrative wholesale to push the idea that your canonically straight fav was âsecretly gay all along!â youâre making several bad implications? That 1) bi men donât exist, 2) bi men do exist, but those who have genuinely loved a woman before cannot genuinely love a man after that (therefore bi men donât exist in practice), 3) women cannot inspire genuine love and devotion in men, therefore any relationship with a woman is âlesserâ than the one they later have a man (see previous parenthesis), or 4) to acknowledge the existence of a lovable woman who isnât a terrible person, where if a relationship previously existed, it did not end because of âincompatibility,â is enough to destabilize the present relationship between two queer men?
Because why is the tgcf fandom allergic to acknowledging that He Xuan had a whole ass fiancĂ©e that he loved? Why does no one ever seem to remember that the kidnappings and murders of He Xuanâs sister and fiancĂ©e were the final straws that sent him on his rampage, and he still keeps a shrine to them in the present-day of the story? Why is her entire existence and significance to He Xuan as a man, character, and to his character arc disappeared in favor of pushing Shi Qingxuanâthe brother of the man responsible for his fiancĂ©eâs deathâinto that same role, as if to say that her impact on He Xuan is significant... just not when it's from her? Why does He Xuanâs life in fandom essentially begin not just after her death but because of it?
#tgcf#human gripes at fandom#anyways these are rhetorical questions because I already know the answer#i just absolutely hate it#why do yâall hate female characters so badly đ#especially when they âget in the wayâ of m/m ships?#mxtx shows that woman more respect in the book than fandom does outside of it#and she didnât even give that character a name!#simply embarrassing#i could have also talked about jgy here#but letâs be real: that man never loved qin su (or anyone)#so i did not want to include him when discussing people who are *actually* capable of unconditionally loving others#but anyways#mdzs fandom sure loves to either disappear qin su#or act as if sheâs the one responsible for why their precious âmeng yaoâ canât just hop into bed with his bros#you know? the one he killed and the one he used as an accomplice in his murder? those bros? that he so obviously loved with sincerity?#at least moreso than he could ever love a *woman* amiright?#(for legal purposes that last tag was a joke)#i also really hate the implication that he xuan had no life before shi wudu ruined it#that in fact shi wudu made his life 'better' by tying him to shi qingxuan#the romanticization of shi wudu's actions to make way for a ship is... a Choice
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