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The official Sun Haven Discord server is exploding rn over v1.5. Mostly over portrait updates (a minor and poorly done one that was retracted the same day as well as potential completely new ones) and the fact the game has been out fully for over a year and still has no credits at all.
I've seen several people ask for the game to have credits added (myself included, multiple times) and I can't recall ever seeing any response to the requests. Granted, that could just be me personally having missed any.
#sun haven#i'm saying this on tumble instead of in there because#i really do mean it when i say exploding#i've never seen the server have this many messages at once#also who knows maybe it'll bring people on tumblr but not in the discord into the loop a bit#that and one guy's been firing at the same person#while also admitting they're already not doing great mentally#like that guy is right#but they know they don't have the right state of mind to be making fair arguments#and are going to ruin the pro-credits people's#btw there's no anti-credits people just people who haven't noticed/don't care#credibility because of how aggressive they're being#all because they won't step back to cool off first
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Do you think it's possible to make a main protagonist of a story, who was an abusive person just like Vicious was, be likable? like, keeping the fact that they won't be forgiven by their victim, but at the same time exploring them actually evolving and becoming a better person and creating new healthy relationships. Not to pat abusers on the head, but yk, something like "You can choose to CHANGE". Because ngl I keep thinking about Vicious' future. I know she won't die and thankfully she will get out of Jasper's abuse, but what then? Would she go on a journey to realize her mistakes and act differently? Who knows.
I see a lot of people talking about Bojack Horseman, but I don't know if it's a good example because apparently the point of his character is to be a hypocrite who acts like the victim for everything that happens while continuing to ruin his relationships (I've never watched it so sorry if I might be saying shit lol 😭). I even know that there is a moment where he almost takes advantage of an underage girl, and while I do believe in change and growth, there are things that have limits for me ofc
There's likeable and then there's sympathetic and/or relatable.
Bojack Horseman as a character is relatable to a lot of folks but there has certainly been a crossroads when it comes to people who relate to him excusing his behaviour because x, y or z happened to him and completely missing the point of Todd blowing up on him and then there's people who still relate to him but feel he needs to be held accountable for his actions in order to improve himself.
And they're absolutely correct. A main reason why Bojack failed to improve is because he was stuck in an endless cycle of victimisation and feeling like he was not responsible for his actions for whatever reason. Namely the abuse he suffered at the hands of his parents. Only he's not that child anymore. He's an adult and he's very much responsible for his actions.
Like I will openly admit that I was an utter asshole to people online years ago because I didn't have a very nice home life and I was dealing with undiagnosed autism and mental health issues. I felt powerless and being a confrontational prick online gave me power. Bojack certainly works in a similar manner. His celebrity status gives him the power to act out in ways he never could as a child and whatever regret he feels is purely a sense of apprehension that his celebrity status and the power/respect it grants will be taken away from him. It's very selfish and it's why he didn't grow at all until his actions were exposed. And he certainly would've been doomed to keep things going had he not gone for that second interview. Especially as a college professor, given his history.
I can't speak for everybody who says they wish that second interview hadn't happened and Bojack may or may not have improved on his own but - from my perspective - he would've just used his newfound confidence and power as an 'advocate' for addiction to harm others, especially indirectly. The indirectness already happens with audience members of the show who feel Bojack justifies their problematic behaviour.
And this is something you have to be especially wary of if you wish to pursue this kind of topic: your character being used to validate the negative behaviour of others. Bojack's writers did a great job of making it clear that - while sympathetic - Bojack needed to be held accountable for his actions and needed to improve. People can view that as a negative thing all they want but they are not the kind of people the writers wanted the approval of anyway and they're not really worthy of anybody else's approval either imho.
And we also have to recognise that change doesn't automatically come with forgiveness either. Going back to Bojack again, I feel Herb would've absolutely entertained having a friendship with him once more if Bojack had accepted he was not entitled to forgiveness. It's just the kind of character Herb is. Charlotte, on the other hand, would've been 110% right to have Bojack tossed in jail as a mother. It all depends on the character and the nature of the deed. Like you've already pointed out, there are limitations. And it's also why Vicious will never have access to Hope or Adamant again. - RJ
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Okay, I already proposed Soulmate AU wherein Fiyero and Glinda are soulmates and he still chooses Elphaba; now let's get spicy: Glinda and Elphaba are soulmates, and the musical happens as canon
Like, just consider, Galinda goes to Shiz expecting to meet her soulmate and it's this? I think she'd just lie. Meanwhile Elphaba is not even surprised; while it's rare for someone to reject their soulmate, it does happen and Elphaba always knew it would happen to her, she's just gonna carry on as normal and die alone as she always knew she would
Now Fiyero enters the scene. Since her soulmate is a bust Galinda immediately zeroes onto him; for Fiyero, his soulmates is... I don't know, Nessa? Feldspar? Doesn't really matter; and Galinda is hot so why not? So Dancing Through Life happens as canon; Galinda sets up Boq with Nessa and as thanks Elphaba gets Galinda into the magic seminary and Galinda embarrasses Elphaba in front of everyone. When Elphaba is doing her little dance Galinda is thinking, this is my soulmate, I did this to my soulmate, she did something nice for me, and I did this to her; so she joins her in her dance. This is the first time the two connect as soulmates are supposed to and it's beautiful
Now, Galinda might embrace Elphaba as a friend but she's not yet ready to admit she's her soulmate, so she continues to date Fiyero and becomes Elphaba's best friend; Elphaba is okay with this because she always assumed no one would ever love her, so this is good enough.
Then the Lion Cub happens. So, if Galinda is Elphaba's soulmate why her magic put her to sleep but not Fiyero? Well, I'm taking a bit from falling upwards into love by Anonymous (highly recommended by the way), love is unlimited but trust is finite; Elphaba might love Galinda, but deep down she knows she can't trust her, not yet anyway, but Fiyero? Deep down she knows she can trust Fiyero, and he proves it immediately by not waiting a second to help a child in need.
So we get to the clearing, and Elphaba and Fiyero have their moment. Fiyero's soulmate is someone he can't love romantically so he has no problem falling in love with someone else (even if he's not ready to take the step quite yet); but Elphaba is just not that girl, her own soulmate doesn't love her, why would she ever consider this handsome, charming, popular man would think twice about her? No, it's better to leave things as they are, loving two people who won't love her back
And now it's time for the Emerald City! While Elphaba might still think she's not that girl, Galinda's feelings for her have been growing; she still changes her name at the station because right now she's seeing both her soulmate and her boyfriend drift away from her and it scares her; and from her perspective it works, Elphaba asks her to join her in her trip, just the two of them, no third wheel and no sister in sight.
So Glinda and Elphaba have their one short day, the city is amazing, they're having a great time, their relationship is the best it's ever been, Glinda is mentally writing the break up speech she's gonna give Fiyero; it's great, everything's great, until it isn't. Now both girls are standing on top of the tower, and Elphaba asks her soulmate to join her one more time, and she says no; in the musical Elphaba accepts Glinda's rejection calmly, but I like to believe that, at least here, inside she is heartbroken; she finally, finally was one with her soulmate, and she said no. They say their goodbyes and Elphaba is declared an enemy of the state
ACT TWO!
With Elphaba gone Glinda didn't have time to break up with Fiyero, so the two stayed together all these years both of them knowing it's a sham; they don't love each other, they never loved each other, I'm not even sure they manage to actually become friends; they do care about each other, very much, but I'm not sure they managed to actually develop any kind of real relationship, not with the specter of Elphaba hanging over their entire relationship. Also I'm cribbing from another fanfic that I like (credit to @vinkunwildflowerqueenupdates) in which Madame Morrible tells everyone that Fiyero and Glinda are soulmates, and isn't it great?
So it's time for Elphaba to return to the Emerald City to free the monkeys; and right here, this idea the movie seems to have of having Glinda be part of Wonderful fits amazingly here. Wonderful is the Wizard attempting to seduce Elphaba into the dark side, and who better to do the seducing than Elphaba's actual soulmate? Who she loves? And naturally when the whole thing comes crashing down, it's even more painful for Elphaba because you soulmate is supposed to be your other half, the person who complements you, and hers just betrayed her; and actually I kinda forgot the part where Glinda has participated in the slandering of Elphaba, her soulmate, for years and that's gotta add to it. So Elphaba has been betrayed by her soulmate, she just had a nuclear falling out with her beloved sister, she had to turn her college friend into tin right after he denounced her; and now Fiyero, the only man she's ever loved, comes running in and it looks like he's against her too, so for one painful moment Elphaba thinks she has lost everything, but then! Fiyero takes her side, he threatens the Wizard on her behalf, and he says he's going with her; he doesn't ask, he doesn't demand, doesn't argue, he states as a plain fact "I am going with her". Elphaba's soulmate rejected her more once, and now Fiyero, a man who is not her soulmate, who has no reason to love her is saying that she is going with her, he is offering to do what Elphaba's soulmate wouldn't, so he takes it; they leave together and Elphaba accepts his love
As Long as Your Mine here is not just about Fiyero and Elphaba, it's also about rejecting the whole idea that your soulmate must be your true love; because Elphaba's soulmate has hurt her over and over, and Fiyero, who is not her soulmate, never has; he has stood by her in a way no one else in her life ever has. And as mentioned, Fiyero does have a soulmate, and while he loves them, their love was never romantic, could never be romantic (I'm still half a mind of just making Feldspar Fiyero's soulmate).
Now we come to catfight and the only truly significant change in canon for this whole thing; because this fight is not about Fiyero, it's "You were my soulmate, and you abandon me" "*I* abandoned you? You betrayed me, several times. You sided with the man who sought to destroy me because I refused him, you helped slander me for years, you stood against everything I fought for" (yeah, I might be a bit biased)
Now the rest of the show happens as canon, and Glinda and Elphaba still can't be together. For Good is even more painful because the witches know that they were meant to be together, they know they were made to be two halves of the same whole; but because of who they are and the world they live in, they can't, they never could, and it's so tragic. But like in the musical, it's not all misery; Elphaba lives, and she still has Fiyero, the only person who always had her back, the only person who never betrayed her, and the only person who loved her unconditionally even though he didn't have to; he's changed, but he's here and he loves her still, and they don't need to be soulmates because they love each other. I recognize Glinda gets the short end of the stick, but she's a collaborator so she gotta work for her happy ending, to create the Oz Elphaba dreamed of, the Oz Elphaba sacrificed her whole life for; it's how Glinda can honor her soulmate, to do what she couldn't
#my post#wicked#soulmates#soulmate AU#writing#AU#elphaba thropp#glinda upland#gelphie#fiyeraba#my writing#wicked spoilers
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This. This is the kind of batshit insanity I'm talking about. Y'all have serious mental issues and while this isn't your FAULT, it is still your PROBLEM. YOU have to solve it. YOU have to take responsibility for the feelings you're feeling and maybe self reflect a little and learn to regulate them like a normal human being because the amount of comments I saw under Hannah Bahng's picture WHICH IS ABOUT HER DROPPING HER MATCHA LATTE WITH A PINK STRAW saying something about Minsung is SO CONCERNING it makes me sick.
The level of literal insanity of people.
If larry stylinson was a thing it would be even worse than what it was back then and it was already a catastrophy, and I say that as someone who shipped them, I admit that. I was a young teenager and they were cute, but even at the time I UNLIKE other people had basic human decency to a) leave other people out of this shit and b) not be delusional or bother THEM with it. Or their girlfriends. Or anyone. c) realize that they don't know me and I don't know them, respect their privacy and not take this shit so batshit serious or invade any of their lives. The list goes on.
HOW can people do this. HOW boring and miserable must your life be if you live in a fantasy world in your head SO much that you cannot separate your...idk? Wishes? Fantasies? From what the people you emotionally depend on WHICH YOU ALSO DO NOT KNOW PERSONALLY? Do you not LEARN basic manners or behavior? Hannah is a real human being, just like Minho and Jisung are.
No matter how many posts or Videos you see or fanfics you read or edits you make, you have NO right to make any assumptions about anything in their life, let alone write bullshit like this.
And OF COURSE it's always the accounts who hide behind some idol's picture who they're also obsessed with.
This is not your fantasy world.
You can ship idols, i get it, some have chemistry. Yes you can wonder if there is something actually going on, that's a natural human behavior to analyze or wanting to understand relationships of other people - but REFLECT YOUR OWN FUCKING EMOTIONS AND THINK BEFORE YOU ACT.
It is NOT serious. Even people who are online a lot do NOT think of these people this way just because they make a funny tweet about it that says they "are going insane" or "want what they have" or "ask for one chance". It is a JOKE.
The internet is NOT REAL LIFE .
Idols are TRAINED PROFESSIONALS who perform and have STAGE personas. Interactions are fanservice. Even if they aren't - YOU DON'T KNOW THEM. YOU DON'T GET TO ACT LIKE YOU INTERACT WITH THEM ON A FRIENDSHIP BASIS JUST BECAUSE YOU FOLLOW THEM ONLINE. YOU DON'T GET TO SAY WHAT YOU "KNOW" ABOUT THEM BECAUSE YOU DON'T.
You watch videos and go to their concerts. You are a customer.
Your desire to have a relationship like theirs or someone who treats you like a kdrama boyfriend is a YOU problem. Stop supporting this "delulu is the solulu" shit just because some rare examples marry their celebrity crushes. Even for them it's nothing like they imagined you can be damn fucking sure of that.
Stop faking ai videos of idols kissing you or each other or ANYONE. Stop reposting rumors and taking everything so damn serious while being dramatic. Stop faking those texts. You never got a text from your idol and I AM SO SORRY TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS but you never WILL.
If I can do that and think like that even as an account who has some otps who are real people then mayyybe you should check your own way of thinking. let me make something very clear, because I'm getting the vibe that we're not all on the same page on this : I ship idols as FRIENDS. hot friends with great chemistry who have a lot of soulmate capabilty and would make an amazing couple. I consume content too. BUT I REALIZE AND AKNOWLEDGE THE DISTANCE THAT IS BETWEEN THEM, AND ME.
EVERYTHING I THINK, I THINK. It has NOTHING to do with them. If I make a comment about them being married, that is a JOKE. I CAN ASSURE YOU 80 and hopefully MUCH MORE THAN THAT percent of us are JOKING. could there be something? Yeah maybe. We DONT KNOW. and it is NONE 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣 OF OUR BUSINESS.
Fanfiction is a great way to express yourself, but the people who inspire you should be your MUSES. a fictional avatar created by writers to live in a story that is also very much NOT a representation of the actual human being that is being portrayed. Think of that person as an actor playing a role in a movie they wrote the script for, playing a CHARACTER.
NOT REPRESENTING THE REAL PERSON OR REALITY IN GENERAL.
Some of y'all have lost any kind of filter and ability to separate reality from fantasy and fiction. And if your life is like that and you feel like you have to escape reality to deal with it, PLEASE get help. I'm so serious. Many people joke about this online but some who read those jokes don't realize this is such a big issue.
You are projecting part of your problem onto a real person that should not be affected by it.
And there are many reasons for that - capitalism, the media, the companies who keep feeding into these delusions and parasocial relationships, but most of all, things can only be sold when people buy. You are part of the chain and that is not your fault but it is your problem. And that makes it your responsibility to solve it.
It's getting out of hand.
Get inspired. Have a little crush, fine. Be obsessed with some bad for a while.
They can be very important to you I get it. I've been there. I'd love to tell some of them that they helped me through tough times as well.
But that is MY wish. Not THEIR responsibility.
"They are famous and it's their fault if this happens."
It is not a famous person's responsibility to feed into your delusions wtf? This became such a common thought lately...and it's also a marketing strategy. "They themselves talk about their relationship!! They ship themselves!!"
No, THEY actually know each other, spend time together that does NOT happen on a screen, WITHOUT their stage personas activated or the filter or media training they all have. They actually talk about their real relationships because they HAVE one with one another. Yes people even have connections.
Now imagine if you did NOT over interpret every bit or every small cut in a video of them holding hands or touching each other.
"I would NEVER touch a friend like THAT" and then it's a back hug. I'm sorry YOU never had a friendship like that. I have. I WOULD, in fact, touch my friends like that. I would write songs for my friends. I would also make dirty jokes. Dance together even when we're nor dating. Cuddle. Sleep in the same bed. That's just a healthy friendship. (It can be, it does not have to be this way to be healthy.)
Lonely people obsess over celebrities to make up for the lack of social contact they have. There are studies on this. Look it up.
And the entertainment industry knows this and uses it daily.
Don't use them to built a parasocial relationship to escape your actual problems in life.
That kpop idol as well as your comfort character as well as your otp should NOT be your only source of happiness or part of your escaping mechanism. Y'all just don't wanna stop being delusional. Ground yourself and put that phone away. Exercise. They are part of your entertainment in life, THEY ARE NOT PART OF YOUR ACTUAL LIFE. BIG DIFFERENCE.
#kpop#psychology#shipping#idols#analysis#rant#can we please go back to just like kpop as music ffs#fandom culture#hannah bahng#minsung#jj project#seongjoong#chanbaek#fiction#fanfiction#thoughts#parasocial relationships#daydreaming#delusions#tiktok#stray kids#ateez#bts#exo#celebrities#relationships#celebrity couples
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Hello how are you? I wanted to ask for itona horibe alphabet thingy. I hope you’re well, don’t feel pressured to write it or anything. thank you
Assassination Classroom ~SFW alphabet~
Manga/anime: Assassination Classroom
Warnings: spoilers of the events that concerns Itona
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
He has a very great and deep desire for affection and is hungry for contact, but he isn't used to showing it by being too clingy: he would be too embarrassed to always smother you, so he strains to repress that tendency; when he can no longer resist the urge to wrap his arms around you, he hugs you from behind, burying his face, most of the time flushed, in your back or in the crook of your neck.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
He would be the friend who tells you the truth to your face: he's a very frank person, don't expect him to tell you something by softening his words. However, he would also be very attentive, and he would understand if you were sad. The only way I can think of the birth of your friendship is you two being classmates.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
He really likes to cuddle you, but he doesn't admit or want to show it: in fact, when you ask him for cuddles, he immediately rushes over to hug you. His favorite cuddle position is him sitting at his desk while working on some of his gadgets with you who, sat on his lap, wrap your arms around his waist and press your face into his neck.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Since he has a great desire for affection and is very afraid of being abandoned, he would like to live with you and marry you soon enough: in his mentality they're a way to guarantee himself to be with you forever. I think he isn't great at cooking or cleaning, but he's good at other household tasks (for example, don't worry if there are network problems, he'll solve them in less than five minutes).
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
If he had to break up with you, he wouldn't do that, he would simply leave you without saying anything, disappearing from your life forever: he couldn't stand the sight of you destroyed or in tears owing to his words, although he knew you would hate him forever if he left you like that.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
As I already wrote, he would like to get married quite soon since, when he starts a relationship with someone and opens up to them, he plans to spend his whole life with them, settling down, getting married and eventually starting a family with them. He'll probably propose to you as soon as you're both eighteen.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
He's brutally honest without wanting to be, so he isn't particularly kind with his words but, since he's been engaged to you, he's trying to calibrate his words better when he talks to you so as not to hurt you. From the point of view of gestures, instead, he's very gentle: his touches, for example, are always very delicate, and he refuses to touch you when he's angry as he fears he might hurt you by using too much force.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
As with cuddles, he really likes to hug you: he doesn't show it, but he loves feeling your body pressed against his and, whether he could, he would hold you in his arms forever. Nevertheless, he can't hug you that often, so his hugs are very tight and long, as if he wants to merge your bodies together forever.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
On one hand I maintain he tells you he loves you quite quickly, perhaps because he doesn't fully realize the meaning of those three words or maybe since he has become so fond of you he can't help but confess his affection for you, but on the other hand I feel like he would say them to you after a long time, as it would take him a while to open up to you about his feelings.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?)
When he still had the tentacles, he quickly got jealous (sometimes he would also have dragged you home if someone had flirted with you); since they were taken away from him, he has attenuated his jealousy: of course he still feels jealousy, but he tries to control himself by getting closer to you, not to take you away, but only to show himself whether whoever is flirting or talking to you decides to make you too uncomfortable.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
His kisses are very needy since he doesn't have the chance to show affection too often, which is why he usually kisses you on the lips, or at most on the cheek. He would prefer to be kissed on his lips, but he wouldn't mind if you gave him kisses on other parts of his face. He'll blush a lot if you kiss his forehead or head where his tentacles used to be.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
He isn't particularly good with children: he's too honest, so he can hurt and make older ones cry; he's also a little clumsy with the little ones and isn't able to take care of all their needs (for example he refuses to get out of bed at night if they cry or hates feeding them).
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
When you've to go to school, unfortunately you don't have much time to spend alone together: you two wake up early, don't have the chance to cuddle, but manage to go to school together (even if you go to different schools or classes, he accompanies you first). In the mornings when you can afford to sleep more, you don't get up until late in the morning, you two stay in bed all the time to cuddle yourself.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
You both go to bed relatively early, so you've a lot of time to spend together. Generally, after getting ready to sleep, you either chat about your day (for instance he tells you about the gadgets he was building during the day) or sit on the sofa and watch TV or read a book together (or rather you read while he rests his head on your chest letting you run your fingers through his hair) or cuddle or, if you're very tired, sleep.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
I think he would tell you the less profound things about himself right away but, while I would suggest he would also add the deeper ones to them, I think it would take him a while to reveal the latter to you, especially about his feelings. What's certain is he tells you the information in parts and not all at once.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
With you? Never. With others? It's a little easier for him to get angry. Everyone has noticed how, no matter what happens, he never loses patience with you: that behavior probably comes from his great fear of being abandoned, which leads him to avoid behaviors that could make him unpleasant to your eyes, even if you never stop telling him you want to see all sides of him and it isn't a bad thing to argue with your partner.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
He certainly remembers the most important things about you, such as your tastes or the important dates of you or you two, but I don't know how much he can remember for the less important ones: for example, in my opinion he wouldn't remind what you say to him while he's engaged in some activity, but he would remember other details about you related to what he also likes.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
He always claims he doesn't have favorite moments in your relationship, or rather all of them are on the same level, but the most precious memory he has of you two is when you helped him to come back to himself after going crazy due to his tentacles: he couldn't understand anything anymore, totally blinded by his hatred, but at a certain point he felt someone's warmth and weight against him; thanks to your hug he calmed down.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
When he was still subject to his tentacles, he was very protective: he glared at anyone who looked at you for more than ten seconds and didn't let you go out alone, he was really suffocating. However, after freeing himself from them, he understood he has to give you more space, so he began to be less suffocating, but still protective. The best way you can protect him is to help him mentally, for instance by encouraging him when he feels inferior to his class and Korosensei.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
He puts a lot of effort into dates and gifts: he's a very creative person, so you'll never be bored when you two go out together and always get from him cute trinkets, most of which he made himself. As for your anniversaries, he usually celebrates them with meaningful gifts and activities to do together. However, sometimes he puts a lot of effort into everyday tasks, sometimes he puts none at all, especially if he's working on some of his electronic devices.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
One of his bad habits is having many inferiority complexes towards his companions and especially Korosensei: he always needs your constant reassurance you won't abandon him even if he was weak, otherwise he'll feel very bad and could become a little aggressive. Another negative trait of him is his bluntness, but he'll try to soften his words if he sees you feel bad out of them.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
He doesn't worry about his looks practically at all: obviously he doesn't go out with you with his pajamas or hair all messed up, but he does it even if his clothes aren't ironed or his hair lacquered. If you pointed out to him he was a mess, he would either ignore your words or dwell on it, perhaps thinking you would like a more well-groomed guy better (in which case, reassure him you love him, in whatever state he's in).
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
He would feel truly incomplete without you: he would miss you so much if you weren't with him. If he was without you for a short time, he would still miss you a lot, but he would be better able to distract himself from thinking about you; instead, if a lot of time had passed since you were gone, he would start thinking only about you, reconnecting everything that surrounds him and every event that happens to him to you.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them)
He has the habit of building you small technological devices: sometimes he starts creating an object, but then he thinks about you and, without him even realizing it, his hands work alone, modifying and transforming it into something you like. When that happens, he comes up to you and hands it to you, walking away before getting embarrassed by seeing your happy face.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn't like, either in general or in a partner?)
He would hate to be engaged to someone who has the tendency to go away for a long time without telling him anything: since he has huge abandonment anxiety, he would be very scared if you disappeared, as he would think you left him alone. He wouldn't even love someone who blames him for the inferiority complexes he might have, as they would show him to be insensitive to his story.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
You two sleep together, with him as the little spoon: whether you sleep on your side face to face, he wraps himself around you like a koala, wrapping his arms around your chest and his legs around yours and resting his head on your chest or in the crook of your neck; whether you sleep in the classic spoon pose, you wrap your arms around his chest, bringing him to rest his back against your chest, and tangle your legs together.
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what meaningful plenaration does "sane" add to "safe sane and consensual"? safe and consensual are both pretty intuitive as to what is and isn't and why they're important, but what is the aspect of this nebulous hypothetical insane sex (this would work better as a phrase if insane sex wasn't already a thing people said about good sex. much to think about) which is uniquely best to avoid but not already covered by safe or consensual?
i've been thinking about that one thing i saw a while ago about reevaluating ssc in the face of increased awareness of like, mad liberation and the ways that mentally disabled people are barred from sexual agency by ableism & the psych system and i genuinely can't come up with a reason why sane was in there in the first place
great question! let's talk about it!
but first: hey. what on earth does plenaration mean. I absolutely understand the question that you're asking but I don't know that word (unusual for me, if I may flex a little!) and google is giving me NOTHING.
anyway, moving on!
SSC was initially popularized by in 1983 by the New York group Gay Male S/M [Sadism/Masochism] Activists, and particularly activist David Stein. let's take a look at their full statement:
GMSMA is a not-for-profit organization of gay males in the New York City area who are seriously interested in safe, sane, and consensual S/M. Our purpose is to help create a more supportive S/M community for gay males, whether they desire a total lifestyle or an occasional adventure, whether they are just coming out into S/M or are long experienced. Our regular meetings and other activities attempt to build a sense of community by exploring common feelings and concerns. We aim to raise awareness about issues of safety and responsibility, to recover elements of our tradition, and to disseminate the best available medical and technical information about S/M practices. We seek to establish a recognized political presence in the wider gay community in order to combat the prevailing stereotypes and misconceptions about S/M while working with others for the common goals of gay liberation. (x)
GMSMA was founded three years prior in 1981, which is only important because that was also the year the first AIDS patients were identified. I don't know if you're familiar with a little thing called The AIDS Crisis, but suffice to say that during the 80s the public perception of gay male sexuality Was Not Good, particularly something double deviant like sex that was gay and also kinky. in a later essay reflecting on (and criticizing!) the mainstreaming of the term, Stein said he wanted to SSC framework to distinguish mutually consensual sadomasochism from "the criminally abusive or neurotically self-destructive behaviour popularly associated with the term 'sadomasochism'."
in other words: while I can't tell you everything that lay in the heart of David Stein when he first used the phrase, it's very clear that the GMSMA seemed invested in improving the public image of kink by separating it as much as possible from the notion that it was something only practiced by crazed degenerates - you know, something queer people have been forced to do for pretty much all queer sex throughout history? in the same 2000 essay linked above, Stein reflects on how many people took SSC as "a welcome validation for a type of sexuality still considered "sick" or "crazy" by much of our society."
is there still ableism baked into that narrative re: the notion that mental illness is a bad thing to be affiliated with? yeah, absolutely, and we'll get to that! spoilers: it's been a source of much criticism, which is why many people now prefer RACK over SSC. but give me a second to get there!
in the essay I've been pulling from, Stein freely admits that GMSMA never attempted to offer concrete definitions of SSC, particularly not the latter two: "We left "sane" and "consensual" much vaguer, "sane" because it's pretty vague to begin with once you get past the obvious meaning - able to distinguish fantasy from reality - and "consensual" because we didn't realize how tricky it is."
the idea of "sane" meaning a person is meaningfully able to distinguish fantasy from reality was echoed by Gil Kessler, a longtime kink educator and board member of GMSMA. rope enthusiast Tammad Rimilia defined it differently, saying that sane kink referred to a situation where "all parties are engaging in this activity by direct intention and can judge the effects of their actions." you can see that echoed in Stein's earlier statement about differentiating the kind of sex that GMSMA encouraged from "self-destructive behavior."
tl;dr, the "sane" is mostly there to specifically draw attention to the fact that some people engage in sex in ways that may be a form of self-harm and/or may want to engage in sex when they are experiencing reality in a way that prevents them from making rational, fully-informed choices, such as psychosis or manic episodes. per their own statement, it seems the GMSMA would discourage having sex with people in this category.
obviously that may already fall under the purview of safe and consensual, but show me an organization that's never gotten a little redundant in its mission statement and I'll eat my shirt.
now, back to that criticism! as Stein notes in the essay I've referenced heavily in this answer, understandings of safety, sanity, and consent have come a long way since 1983! the risk-aware consensual kink model (RACK) has gained popularity for many reasons, with much of the conversation centered on both the inherent ableism of SSC and concerns about the promise of "safe" and the unhelpful and unrealistic expectations it may set. hell, even notions of consent are constantly growing and evolving. and that's wonderful! SSC comes from a very specific time and place in the history of kink and may no longer be the pinnacle of best practices for everyone, but there's still plenty to be learned from its origins.
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🧱, 🧸, 📚 for your fellas from the muse ask game
YIPPEE ASK GAME TIME!! Going to do my two main OCs because if I did canon muses I'd be here a while.
[ 🧱 ] how would you describe your muses’ morality? what are their core values?
-Aeris: Aeris's grasp on morality is very black-and-white and troublingly dependent on following the rules that other people (that he respects) put down for him. I'd say that he's a good person at heart, and he wants desperately to be a good person, but he's very much a follow-the-leader sort of fellow, and his idea of morality is constructed entirely of what the people around him say it is. This isn't because he lacks a mind of his own, but is instead a byproduct of a lack of empathy + an inability to understand how to properly incorperate into society, leading to him mimicking others around him. He doesn't want to hurt people, he wants to help, but because most of the time the world outside the wilds is a very confusing place, he often ends up following others rather than his raw intuition. This is great if his mentors are good people! But it's also absolutely catastrophic if they aren't.
As for his core values- He'd say that his core values would be care and protection of Marcie, the Last City, and everyone within it at all costs. What he WON'T disclose, however, is the fact that his own curiosity/desire to understand the universe is just as strong as those values, and can sometimes eclipse it in very rare (or poor) circumstances. An Aeris with a question and a broken/slack leash is an Aeris who's going to wander off and get himself in trouble before long, with potentially fatal consequences.
-Marcie: Marcie's got a much stronger grasp on an actual moral code than Aeris does, and a much more human understanding of it as well. She's sternly cut from a 'do no harm take no shit' sort of cloth, but she's also not going to say no to bending or breaking those rules if need be to keep her loved ones safe. She's less likely than Aeris to do anything outright illegal, yes- and this is entirely because of the hunter/titan divide in thinking- but unlike Aeris, she's also quicker to come to more illegal lines of thinking than he would be- or that she'd like to admit. For example, if confronted with an unruly combatant who refuses to peacefully collaborate yet contains information necessary for her goals to progress, Marcie is much more likely to mentally jump to 'we need to torture the information out of them' as a solution much quicker than Aeris ever would, even if she'd never fully admit it. The difference between the two siblings is that Marcie would try a plethora of different options before she got to that point (unless she REALLY does not like the guy), whereas by the time Aeris comes to the conclusion that he needs to use torture, he'd already be at the point where he's completely fine acting on it.
Like...you know those fun tumblr blogs that you really enjoy following but who just CANNOT stop arguing with exclusionists and radfems with the passion of a thousand suns because they just can't let the bullshit they're spewing slide? Yeah. That's Marcie. She's also stubborn, proud, and unwilling to admit when she's wrong, which doesn't help matters. Aaaand she's also willing to buckle a bit if a very pretty lady is in the picture, which. Wouldn't we all, honestly.
Core values! Unlike Aeris, Marcie's core values extend past protection of the Last City to actual more fleshed-out, definable roles than just the very flat, nebulous role of 'protect the Last City (and the universe too ig)'. She sees being a guardian of the weak and vulnerable as her calling, yes, but her ACTUAL focus is on keeping her loved ones safe and healthy, and ensuring that as many people as possible can have that assurance too. Sure, she goes about that the same way a herding dog might (by worrying, nagging, and nipping where its needed), but I'd say keeping her family happy almost takes precedent over keeping the City safe. It's a very lucky thing that these two values go hand-in-hand
[ 🧸 ] does your muse keep anything sentimental? if so, what do they keep and why?
-Aeris: Aeris isn't one for keeping many possessions outside of weapons, but the ones he has are oftentimes extremely important to him. Most anything that Marcie or Eido give to him, for example, is deeply treasured because those are gifts from his little sisters, and it makes him feel loved. Likewise, anything that Misraaks gives him relating to House Light (like his bannercloth cape, or the pair of shock daggers he wears on his hip) is treated much more seriously because to him, that's a token of acceptance/a mark of his place in the world, and he does not take that sort of thing lightly. Outside of that, though, he's got his favorite weapons and that's it. Pre-first death, he had a little stuffed rabbit that meant the world to him, but his father took that from him when he was a preteen to get him to 'man up,' so it was gone for quite some time before he died.
Oh, wait, I nearly forgot- he's also got a necklace made out of Taniks's teeth that he wears pretty much wherever he goes. Do with that what you will.
-Marcie: Marcie LOOOVES cute little knick-knacks and memoirs of her travels- if you ever go to her and Aeris's shared apartment, you'll find that everything outside of his room is almost exclusively full of decorations and keepsakes that she put on display. She's got bookshelves just COVERED with all sorts of gifts that she's collected over the years of being a guardian/major Crucible fighter, several medals, little bits and bobs and pretty things that she found on her travels, gifts from Archie, etc. She tends to keep work life and home life somewhat separated, but she's also named a good chunk of her favorite guns, and hangs them up on the wall when they need to be retired, often with little plaques underneath detailing their names, their makes/models, and how long they've been in service. The Ace of Spades is the most treasured of these guns, as it technically belongs to her (she was the one who was actually close to Cayde; Aeris never got a grasp on his mannerisms and was thus leery of him even if Cayde genuinely liked him), but it's the only one out of her collection not displayed because it does more good work in Aeris's hands than hers. Crucible fighter or not, she's not as good with handcannons as Aeris is.
Her most prized possession, however, is the little half-rotten pocket journal that she and Aeris were rezzed with. It's the only remnant of their past life that either of them have, and even if it has barely anything of value in it from the few journal entries that survived the many years between their deaths and their resurrection, (just their names, the fact that they're siblings, and that their father was a whore and a scoundrel, according to previous Marcie's long-winded complaints), it's still something irreplaceable that she treasures deeply. She had it preserved via Cryptarchy technology and keeps the original copy in a double-bound plastic bookkeeper locked away in a Golden Age safe. This seems like it would be overkill, but it was in fact an insightful precaution, as that was the only way that it survived the Red War.
[ 📚 ] what books does your muse have on their bookshelf? what books would they like to have? if your muse isn’t an avid reader, is there anything they collect or might like to collect?
-Aeris: Aeris isn't much of a reader post-rez, though he was before he became a Guardian. When he did read, however, his bookshelves were full of survival manuals, how-to guides, odd fact books, and surgical/medical textbooks, with an emphasis on the anatomy, physiology, and biomechanics of living organisms. You know those big, glossy books with the detailed pictures and illustrations on every page, crammed in with some of the tiniest text known to man? Yeah. A huge part of this was because he was training to become a surgeon before everything went south, but it's also just because he is the very definition of 'curiosity killed the cat.' It's just that now that he's capable of coming back, he's got no need for textbooks.
Now, he just collects survival gear, guns, and various odd bits and bobs that he brings back on his travels, oftentimes entirely by accident. He doesn't really live in his apartment much, so it's just kind of become a dumping ground for all of his extra gear or trophies that he can't keep on his jumpship (which is much more organized on account of him never really moving out of it when he got an apartment proper). Like I said, he's a fellow of few possessions most of the time, but because he often comes up with things he needs on the fly, he's usually got quite a bit of random shit just lying around his room that he's going to use or trade for something or the other, like various bits of bones, hide, and scrap metal he scavenged while hunting in between missions, as well as the usual odd guardian tech strewn about in there.
-Marcie: Marcie's a big fan of reading during her downtime in the classic old-fashioned style, using actual paper books rather than her datapad (easier on her hands and eyes). Unlike Aeris, however, her bookshelf is comprised mainly of fluffy, fun fantasy stories, with the occasional abandoned craft book loitering around somewhere in the midst of all of it. She tends to like either things like Pern or the Inheritance Cycle (where the main character is bonded to a companion who sticks by them thick or thin), or REALLY bad pulp fiction erotica romance novels. Typically with werewolves in them. Actually, a lot with werewolves in them. This girl unironically has actual published A/B/O novels on her bookshelf, and they're one of her favorite things to read when she wants to wind down. Anything soft, cheesy, and full of lesbians/general pretty women getting swept off their feet into a loving, romantic relationship is her thing.
I've already gone over what she likes to collect, but mementos are a big thing! She likes anything that she can keep as a memory of someone she's met, much like how Saint holds on to all of his ribbons (she was inspired by him to do that, actually). The walls of her apartment and her many bookshelves are just crammed full with carefully-placed knick-knacks and memorabilia- a sharp contrast to her closets and her jumpship, which are both absolute disasters on account of them being the places where she just shoves everything she actually needs, but doesn't want to deal with at the moment.
Muse Ask Game
#vivifrage#reply#my ocs#ask game#ask meme#marcie#aeris#oc: marcelline attenbough#oc: aeris sharphawk#took a bit on this one bc i wanted to go long#i love them sm
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thank you for the explanation c:
I watched rangugamer's playthrough (although it's in Spanish, it is a lot of fun, people in the coments make fun of him for -at times- acting like the smitten jsjssjs).
honestly, I've had a lot of fun with the game. I was overall surprised by the writing and the format, it's so good~ originally I thought the princess was going to be changing in real time, so each chapter was a surprise. 'm a fan of the art style too, and the themes, and how cohesive it is, and how crazy it gets, and how good it is to the player- because really, you might be hesitant to kill the princess at first, the game truly doesn't discourage you from doing it, ever.
I love this two entities playing pretend with each other <3
also, I really enjoy seeing people's designs for the voices, it only makes sense if the protagonist can change the princess appearance, why not the other way around :3
(I cheated 'cause I already had big-bird-man as a mental image through fanart instead of figuring it out, but I'll admit, moth man did cross my mind for a sec the first time you look at your reflection too- uh don't know where else to put this, the beast is my favorite princess!, big fan of creature design- what's yours? ).
Ooh, thank you! I don't know Spanish, unfortunately, but that sounds like a blast -- I've watched a couple of people play in English who immediately go Smitten mode/get super excited when he shows up, and it's always VERY funny :D
And I'm glad you've been liking the game! It really is something special to me; I love the art style, I've been a fan of Abby Howard for years, and I love how much freedom the game gives you and how much... sense the routes make given your choices? I love that it doesn't really judge the player/the player character but that it also has compassion for the Princess in all her forms no matter what she does, and never loses sight of the fact that she becomes the way she does in response to your view of her and the way you approach her. And I love the interstitial parts with the Shifting Mound and how tender they are. And how none of the endings are necessarily presented as "this is the good ending" or "this is the bad ending" (well, outside of The Good Ending, which is very tongue in cheek, and arguably the ending where the voices all hate the Long Quiet isn't great for him LOL)... It presents you with the option to End Death And (Most) Change, or free her, or some third option, and doesn't really tell you which is "best," which I find really interesting, especially with how it presents the Narrator...
"I love this two entities playing pretend with each other" is just such a great way to phrase it, I love that <3
The fandom is so creative when it comes to designing the voices! Pre-Pristine Cut there was also a lot of variation in how people designed the Long Quiet himself, and I like seeing people's takes on the Princesses being a bit different sometimes, and the OC Princess some people come up with :D
I think my favorite Princess is Spectre, although Stranger and Wraith come very close... My favorite chapter might be Nightmare or Happily Ever After. When it comes to character design, though, yeah, there is something so special and fun about Beast and Den! Though Nightmare and Wraith are very high up there for me too...
And I just love everything about Razor. She might not be my top fave but I love her personality, her art, her progression from Sweet Innocent Princess to Blade Explosion, her little :> and :O faces, and just in general all the voices and the Narrator in her chapter are hysterical while the two separate possible endings for her path feel really cool lore-wise to me because they feel like they're mirrors of the "leave together as gods" ending (The Arms Race -> Mutually Assured Destruction) and the "leave together from the cabin" ending (No Way Out -> The Empty Cup). Everything about her is a blast <3
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I love your world building! Your name ideas are awesome. Love the idea of Indis being a true prophetic mother name
-@outofangband
Belated thank you! Also, sharing my thought process on that one because it's a very classic Silmarillion headcanon origin: it bothers me that Indis's name means "bride." I hate how it reduces her to a feminine trope - at "best", only here to have a troubled marriage; if you're a staunch Fëanorian, a femme fatale homewrecker. I immensely dislike how this is, in fact, an fairly accurate description of her role in the story...
Which is deliberate on Tolkien's part! The "canonically correct" way to ameliorate this misogyny (though neither erase nor excuse it) is to remember that this whole text is a mixture of history, legend and myth passed through multiple storytellers over thousands of years, translated and re-translated and interpreted through the eyes of elves and men and hobbits and men again, until even if this person ever actually existed in the history of Middle Earth - IF! - "Indis" probably wasn't even her epessë, much less her commonly used name. Probably her name got ink blotted on it at some point, or mixed up with someone else's name, and the next Númenorean scholar to rewrite the text followed the Archetypal School of historical interpretation and decided to name her "Indis" because of her role in the story...
But this, too, bothers me. Because I love the framing device of these various books, I love the historian-given dubious canonicity of literally every detail of The Hobbit, Lord of the Rings, and especially of The Silmarillion. But! We need some solid canon upon which to hang all our headcanons, so it's imperative to retain a delicate mental balance of knowing everything could be made up (more than it already is by being fiction!) while also adhering to as much as possible as something that Really Did Happen - and names are pretty solidly in the latter category. I mean, everyone has multiple and for those who don't, we tend to make more up, but a belief in the basic premise of the text is necessary in order to function in any fandom, and "names of characters" is pretty "basic premise."
So it's impossible to ignore that her name is Indis; and it's impossible to ignore that the name "Indis" is closely connected to her place in the narrative, more than most characters, and that said place is uncomfortably non-feminist - you can round out her character all you like, but you have to admit that her role in the story is to be the Second Wife and Mother whose acts of being a wife and mother cause trouble! That's a fact! And it's not great! And the name "Indis" isn't helping because if she was named anything but her literal narrative role, that would be characterization! She could be noble like Artanis, she could be of the sea like Eärwen, but she's not! She's just "bride"!
...so, I redeem this by making this definition of her life deliberate within the text - and not just by a future Númenorean scholar, but by Indis's mother. (Female! O! Cs!) Furthermore, names of prophecy are implicitly grand (even if they're not necessarily either good or bad). It makes being a bride itself feel more active - and why not! Do Indis's acts of love and marriage not change the fate of the world just as much as Lúthien's? Consider that Indis's act of marriage is so important that it echoes back through the Great Music to be known by her mother as she held the future bride as a babe in arms. Consider a mother holding her child under stars beside a lake and going, "damn, this kid is gonna have ripple effects. I should add a bragging warning label."
Also, if you accept the headcanons that
a) most Elvish languages treat "sex" (physical) and "marriage" (soul-bonding) as basically synonymous; and
b) Indis spends thousands of years in the Second/Third ages patiently and stubbornly figuring out how to Make It Work between herself, Finwë and Miriel, such that all three of them can marry with genuine all-around mutual love unto the end of days, for peace among the still-troubled Noldor but mostly for happiness for herself and those she loves most (also an act of bride-ship worthy of prophecy, note) -
then you can with a straight face imagine Indis saying, "I fucked my way into this mess and I'm going to fuck my way out of it."
Feminist critique + consideration of canonical historicity + elaborate headcanon web = sex joke! Now that's good fandom!
#indis#outofangband#the silmarillion#analysis#vanyar#feanor and feanor's kin#(WHETHER HE LIKES IT OR NOT)
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Amelia Shepherd - SERIES
12. Stressful hospital day & Lexie
Warnings: none
AN: Ugh, I'm a bit late, but sorry, my school has started and I can't keep up at all. I hope you like it and see you in the next part <3 ♡
Word count: 1,6 k
A few months later...
A lot has happened in the past few months. One of the most challenging experiences was the series of major exams that determined whether we would progress to the second year of our program. Those exams were truly awful, like really awful!
Most of our interns passed, except for poor George. He is the only one who will have to repeat our first year as an intern. I'm thankful that I made it through those tests, and I owe a big thank you to my great mentor, Amelia.
We were hanging out more and more, and she really helped me learn a lot. Our dates were all about learning. Amelia was an awesome teacher and girlfriend, even though we haven't made it official, we've been seeing each other for quite a while.
On the other hand, Derek and Meredith broke up. Yes, again! Can you imagine how upset Meredith was when Derek started a new "relationship" with one of our nurses? But after a quick mental struggle, a whole new Meredith showed up. She didn't want to listen to the Shepherd's Word, and that's when everything changed.
She became sexually promiscuous. Whore. I mean, I don't judge her. I love her, but she has been intimate with almost every other man in her life. It wouldn't be a problem if one of them weren't George. Can you imagine the drama that would have caused? Oh, and I forgot to mention that George was married to Callie at the time.
All of which led to a quick divorce and a lot of drama in the department. Cristina and I took care of the new interns. They looked so full of energy and hope, oh, they didn't know what to expect! Our interns walk up to us, and Cristina turns to look at them and starts repeating Bailey's speech from their first day as interns.
"I have five rules. Memorize them. Rule number one, don't bother sucking up, I already hate you. That's not gonna change."
Izzie tells them rule number 2: trauma protocols, phone lists, pagers, and how they are supposed to answer every page at a run. Then starts to leave expecting her interns to follow her, but they don't so she tells them they are supposed to do so.
So I decided to tell them about the fourth rule...
"The dying patient better not be dead when I get there, because not only will you have killed someone, but you can't cause problems from day one. Are we clear?"
The young brunette raised her hand and said that there were only four rules. "When I move or any of my intern's colleagues, you move." When it was time for a lunch break, we all sat down together and went out to have some lunch.
Meredith, Cristina, and Izzie talk about the new interns. Their reactions have not been very enthusiastic, but I can't say that mine have been either. "Oh, they're so annoying," Christina complained a lot.
Yeah, I get what you're saying, but we really should try to be nice to them, you know? As soon as I said that, everyone just started mumbling and swearing even more. The conversation just kept going, with everyone gossiping about anyone they could think of.
But I didn't pay too much attention to them. I had my mobile phone in my hand and everyone probably knew who I was texting with.
My Amelia ♥
I can't wait to get home, I can't stand the way Derek keeps talking about Meredith, it's getting really annoying.
Also, I miss you so much...
Me
Believe me, listening to Meredith talk about not knowing the name of the guy she's sleeping with is hard, too!
And yes, I miss you, too! Even though we saw each other only yesterday 😉
So she's still sleeping with everyone she meets?
Yeah, I know we hang out yesterday, but I'm missing you even more now. And don't even try to say you don't like spending time with me.
Yeah, she's enjoying her new life, but I have to admit it's pretty funny.
I mean, It is always good to spend time with you.
Only good? Is that how you describe screaming my name darling?
...
"Len, Len, Lenaaa!" Izzie's hand waved in front of me to draw my attention to them.
"I'm sorry, what did you say?"
"If you weren't always looking at your phone and paying attention, you'd know." Cristina gave me a very judging look while she took a sip of her coffee.
"Oh, yeah I'm sorry... I was just texting a friend." A friend who lets you forget your own name.
"You mean the one who left those big hickeys on your neck? Interestingly, you tried to hide them because only a god could do that."
"Thank you, Meredith. That really helps."
"Hey, what do you think you're doing?" There was a really loud shout coming towards us. Bailey was standing behind us, looking super angry.
"We're eating?"
"And do you know what time it is? You should have been on shift a long time ago, GET TO WORK NOW!"
Unfortunately, we had to leave our meal to go to work. I spent another hour doing boring medical procedures, as Webber is still sulking and won't let us work on surgeries. I didn't think it was going to take this long, but it's really starting to piss me off.
"Hi Miss Clever, Please sit down, I need to have a look at you." One of my patients was a 25-year-old young woman who developed a lump on her abdomen, and nobody knew what it was until we found out it was an incipient tumor
"Doctor Anderson, Doc, Grey sent me to help you." It was that pushy brunette again.
"Seriously? I don't remember asking for help, but if you're here, please come and examine the patient."
When the doctor approached the patient, she began the examination with a gentle and caring demeanor. I was genuinely surprised by the warmth and compassion she showed towards the patient. Upon completing the examination, the doctor promptly shared the precise diagnosis with me.
"Well done, Doctor...?"
"Lexie, Lexie Grey."
"Gray?"
"Well, I'm Meredith's sister, I mean like half-sister."
"Oh, I didn't know that Meredith never told me about you." But I have to admit that there is a bit of a resemblance between them.
"Well, probably because she had no idea who I was."
"Oh, cool, put it in the file, and you'll be joining me on shift today."
I decided to mentor Lexie because I recognized her potential, and as we've spent more time together, my belief in her abilities has only grown stronger. She consistently demonstrates wisdom and offers insightful perspectives, which has only reinforced my initial impression of her.
While helping a patient, someone's hand pulled me into another room, Meredith and Cristina.
"Hey guys, what's going on?"
"So, is she boring, or is she annoying?" She was very straightforward.
"Well, to be honest, I've got to admit that you behave quite similarly."
"PLEASE! I am better!"
"Oh my God, Meredith, calm down, it's just your sister, oh my God, ever since you stopped fucking with Derek, you're getting more and more nervous."
I really appreciate Cristina's insights and commentary, but I found it disappointing that the conversation continued for an hour focusing on criticizing Lexia. I personally don't think she deserved that level of criticism. After that, we transitioned to discussing other patients. It seems that everything we do here comes naturally to us.
"Hey darling, how are you?" Amelia's hands were wrapped around my waist, as she rested her head on my shoulder.
"I guess my mood gives away how things are going around here, but I'm really glad you're here. But what are you doing here?" Her scent always makes me feel so calm.
"I had to bring a couple of things over here and to see you is a very good reason as well." She drew me even closer to her.
"Oh, stop it... you make me blush!"
"Then I must do it more often, I love to see you all blushing for me." I just laughed and she lifted her head and whispered in my ear. "I'll take you to dinner tomorrow and I won't take no for an answer."
"Amelie, you know you don't have to do this." She gave me a quick kiss on the neck and moved away.
"But I want to, see you tomorrow, dear."
The rest of the day went by very quickly. I finished my work as usual. After I finished, I said goodbye to the girls and ordered an Uber to take me home. I had to take an Uber because I couldn't drive in the morning due to the terrible rain.
As I stepped into the Uber, I knew we were headed for a wet journey home. The roads were slick from the morning storm, and as we lingered at the crossroads, I reached for my phone to while away the time. Just as the traffic light changed to green, our driver eased into the intersection - but then we were jolted by a sudden, ominous rumbling buzz.
I witnessed the situation, and then another large car collided with ours, causing us to be knocked to the ground, leading to my fainting.
PS: How does it end?
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No pressure as always, but I’m curious if you saw Thomas’ Year in Review. He talks a lot about his struggles with Sanders Sides and why the creative process has taken so long (at least, he gives his own take on the situation.)
If you saw it, I’m very curious about your thoughts! Because I honestly don’t believe that this video discredits any criticism, especially your criticism, but I’m curious if any of your opinions changed after watching it regardless. And no judgement either way, I just love hearing your thoughts ^.^
My dear, it's always a pleasure to reply to your asks! It might take me some time, but in the end, the answer will always come.
Thank you very much for telling me about the video because, if it wasn't for you, I would've probably never watched it and missed out a lot. Extra kudos for that.
So I watched it. And I read your post about it too (HERE because more people need to read it): it was very well made and I agree with you wholeheartedly.
However, I also took a lot of notes while watching Mr Sanders' video and there are a lot of other things I want to say in addition to the ones you already said. So I will gladly expand my thoughts and feelings here.
(It might be longer than expected, so I'll put it under a "read more")
Accepting criticism
Thomas admitted he easily internalizes negative criticism
He said that people are allowed to write everything/to criticize and that he doesn't want others to get mad over SaSi criticism
First of all, I am proud of him for showing this self-awareness. From what I saw of him, Thomas looks like a very prideful person, so it probably took him a lot of time and courage to admit his faulty behaviour.
But in the end, he did it. He showed some of the maturity I've always wanted to see coming from him and he deserves recognition for that: good job, Thomas. I know it wasn't easy because it sucks to admit we're not good at something, but it was a great proof of adulthood coming from you.
However, I would like to point out that he doesn't internalize just negative criticism. What the ts critics noticed (and you can find several proofs in the #ts_criticism tag), is that Thomas tends to reply with a lot of passive-aggressiveness not just to people offending him, but also to simple and harmless questions like "Hey, where is the SaSi finale?". Which are not negative, not criticism and even less negative criticism.
So it's not that he just internalizes bad criticism: he internalizes every single question regarding the SaSi finale which is not a compliment towards him or a "take your time, bro". And he internalizes it as something bad, which is not great, nor fair.
With this video, he took a step in the right direction and showed some self-awareness, which is very good. But now he needs to learn how to distinguish between different kinds of criticism - as well as recognizing that asking him questions isn’t criticism. It’s just asking questions.
(I also hope that some people won’t follow his mentality of “saying anything that isn’t a compliment = criticism”, because this can lead to a dangerous, distorted vision of the world.)
And since we’re talking about criticism, I wish that by saying "please do not get angry over criticism" Thomas finally put an end to the stupid idea that “people are not allowed to criticize”.
I know some people don't like to hear this, but criticism is inherent to the nature of every single work. Everything that exists in this world is allowed to be criticized. Heck, it's exactly because these creations are criticized, that they exist. Do you know what work isn't criticized? The one people don't talk about.
And no, despite what the opposers of criticism think, when people criticize something it's not because they hate the product: it's because they care a lot about said product. It's because they saw something good in it and they're disappointed the product wasn't as good as it promised. It's because they are so invested, that every mistake frustrates them.
In the end, it's not criticism that kills a product: it's indifference. It's not talking about it anymore. When you don't care, the product is dead.
So the opponents of criticism should be happy people are talking about SaSi with such passion, throwing ideas, suggestions and calling Thomas out. It's because, despite the empty promises, they still give a fuck about this project and want to see it succeed.
Maybe, thanks to Thomas' works, more people will not ban every criticism as "bad" Because Yes. Heck, they might even read a couple of posts and find out that the criticism tag isn't made of hateful people: just of people who care like them.
And maybe this will also discourage pathetic losers like the anon @softestvirgil mentioned in their last post. An anon who is so strong and brave, to say they would hire a hitman to kill another person just because they criticize something the anon likes. Very mature, very clever and very bold, coming from a coward who doesn't even have the balls to show their face, while saying this.
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The difficulty of writing
Thomas said he got overwhelmed by the public's reaction to SaSi "in the most wonderful and intimidating way"
When Joan left, Thomas felt the overwhelming weight of the series all on himself. He couldn't see himself doing SaSi without Joan
Roleslaying was a breath of fresh air, since it was a series with no stakes
Thomas realized he was doing his best with videos that didn't require him to write
Thomas said there have been moments when he despised everything he was writing. He spent whole days on a single interaction between two characters, only to hate everything and wonder how Joan would write them/what the viewers would think.
As always, I am a prophet. What did I say in these last years?
Thomas doesn't know how to handle this series? He admitted he couldn't see himself doing it without Joan.
Thomas prefers Roleslaying and shorter, more carefree videos because they're easier and they don't require him to write? He admitted he did his best with videos that didn't require him to write.
Thomas isn't able to write the series? He had struggles and hated what he was writing.
So, what was the result, if not Thomas postponing and focusing on other projects - thus ending up with characterization errors, mistakes and things he completely forgot? Just like I said?
But even if I'm right, I am glad Thomas FINALLY talked about it. One thing is deduce what's going on, one thing is the author himself admitting it.
So yes, I really, really appreciate him doing it. Again, it was probably very hard for him to say it out loud, but he did and deserves recognition for that.
I particularly felt for him, when he said he spent days on a single interaction, only to hate everything he was writing. I empathize with him a lot because that's exactly what I felt while writing the prologue of my story, multiple times. I spent days writing the same two paragraphs, over and over, trying to find the right way to do it, the right rhythm, the right words. And I ended up deleting everything, only to start again and try again and delete everything again, over and over in a neverending loop.
I know it must've been hard for Thomas, because it is hard. Because you feel like shit. Because you ask yourself how can you not write this right, what are you doing wrong? Maybe you did everything wrong from the start, maybe the entire thing is wrong, maybe you're just too stupid to do it - and you see other stories and other writings and they're all so good and you suck so much and you feel like an even bigger loser.
And now you may ask: how can you break this loop? How can you move forward?
We will talk about Thomas' solution in a bit.
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The lack of an outline
Thomas admitted he lost connection with his characters
He said he was feeling bad for letting people down
He said he's writing the outline of the season finale by referring to notes left by Joan
He finished 3 drafts out of 4 parts. And they're still reviewed
Wow, it looks like the lack of a proper, full outline leads to characterization errors, forgetting things and taking a lot of time. Jeez, I wonder who said all of this since like, idk, forever?
As I imagined, there is still no outline at all and Thomas isn't even working on a full outline for season 3: he's working on an outline for the season 2 finale. Which means season 3 is still stuck in a limbo.
And yes, I know they're not great news, but at least they're real news. Real fucking news about the finale, not just "finished draft 3" or "worked for 8 hours" or "it will come out this year maybe yes maybe not". We finally have real news and we know how much Thomas did and what he's currently working on and how much is still left to do. So, again, he deserves recognition for finally talking about it.
Does that mean the writing is good now? Heck no, this isn't a proper way to write and my previous post still stands: the writing is still taking too long, the lack of an outline is still a problem, part 4 and the review will probably take another two years minimum and a competent writer would've helped A LOT to make the writing smoother and faster.
However, I better understand now why Thomas didn't hire one: he probably wanted to do everything by himself to not disappoint everyone and was too prideful to ask for help - considering he didn't tell anyone about his struggles either.
But what did it lead to? The outline is still missing (with all the expected consequences) and Thomas suffered for the huge weight of expectation he put on himself.
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The importance of not escaping criticism
Thomas' resolutions for this year are:
to be more open and honest about his struggles
to stay away from criticism (he doesn't even want to be tagged in it)
Those are great resolutions, especially the first one. Considering he kept everything by himself and didn't tell anyone about his struggles, being more open and honest about them is a very good decision.
And staying away from negative criticism is good too, considering that 1) it's good for mental health in general and 2) he just admitted he internalizes criticism, so staying away from it can only be helpful.
However, as said before, Thomas sees as “negative criticism" everything, including people asking him about the finale. So if he escapes from all kinds of criticism, he will also escape from harmless fans who just want an update from him.
Besides, it’s never good to escape from all kinds of criticism. Criticism is essential for writing, especially constructive criticism. Sure, you might find the 12-year-old who says "You stink and your work sucks because my headcanon is not here!", but you may also find the expert who will explain some technicalities of writing. Or just someone who can offer a deeper insight into a character. Or just an interesting idea to develop into a plot point.
Also, considering how Thomas tends to label every little critic as "negative", people who want to show their love might end up feeling "forced" to use just compliments, in hopes that Thomas will notice them/know they love SaSi. Which isn’t good either, because... well, people would be forced to censor themselves and suffocate their rightful questions just to make him happy.
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How to escape the neverending loop of hate-writing
Thomas said he wants to rediscover his joy in writing by working on more Asides/other projects to "stretch his brain"
He also expressed his love for short-form creation
Thomas' solution is a good one. Doing other things, focusing on other stuff, letting SaSi in the back to write different stories: this is all good and valid, I’m sure it will help Thomas’ mental health a lot.
However, writing small stuff with no stakes is also what Thomas wrote for most of his life. So by doing that, he basically reverts to something he’s already used to. And of course he loves it, it’s his comfort zone: it’s very understandable he feels at ease inside it.
Still, this is not a bad thing: it’s good to do it once in a while and it's even necessary for your wellbeing. But you can understand by yourself that this doesn’t help solve the problem. This just postpones the problem. Maybe it won’t come back now, maybe not today or tomorrow or during the season 2 finale. But the problem will eventually come back.
Why? Because SaSi still lacks an outline. Because the story should still move in a more mature, complex direction. Because there are still a lot of threads to develop and close. Because the characters still need mature development.
How do I think Thomas can solve the problem? Sure, detaching himself from it is good for a while, but he cannot do just that and escape into his comfort zone. He needs to face the problem and he can do it only by learning how to write.
And if it’s hard to do (because it is), then the best solution would be to hire a competent writer. Not because the writer will replace him, not at all. The writer will help Thomas to learn and understand the technicalities of writing especially for a project as big as SaSi: like how to develop an outline, how to connect all threads, how to move from a simple to a more complex plot, how to keep a continuative plot throughout several episodes without destroying the stakes. The writer will be an assistant for the writing of SaSi and a teacher from whom Thomas can learn everything he needs.
So, if Thomas really wants to give himself some grace this year as he said, I suggest he shares his writing responsibilities with someone competent and bias-free. A real writer from whom he can learn not just for SaSi, but for his future projects too. Not only this will benefit him in the long run, but it will also give him a more humble and mature approach to writing in general, by recognizing and accepting his limits and doing actual work to improve himself.
But this is just my suggestion. If he wants, Thomas can keep doing what he’s doing now, i.e. working on smaller stuff into his comfort zone and stepping out a little bit when he feels more confident.
Again, this isn’t a bad solution, but the problem is that it takes a lot of time. But, like, A LOT. You need to regain confidence from inside your comfort zone, then step out again to face a bigger problem - a problem you still don’t know how to face, because you don’t know how to write and you don’t even have an outline or a plan to tackle it. And what if you lose confidence again? Will you come back into your comfort zone and wait again to gain enough confidence to step out once more?
I know you will never read this post, Thomas, but let me tell you this: I also lost the spark with my characters several times in the past. The first time, it was because I still didn’t know how to write, so I was frustrated by the writing itself and how everything was dull. Then I lost my spark because the plot kept getting stuck and I had no idea how to improve it.
Both times, I left the project in the back and focused on other smaller stories, smaller projects and books to read.
After the first time, it took me a couple of years to get back on this project. But do you know how long it took me the second time? This year, it will be 8 years. The last time I wrote that project was 2016. And only now, after 8 years, I think I found the solution I was searching for.I could do that, because I never showed this story to anyone. It has always been my personal, secret project. But can you do the same? Can you really afford to spend 8+ years, doing everything by yourself? As I said in my previous post, unfortunately Sanders Sides has your face. And you cannot revert the biological clock forever.
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In conclusion
Do I appreciate Thomas a little more after this video? Definitely. He still didn't apologize for his lack of organization and his take on criticism is a bit questionable, but he's improving. He showed more maturity than he did in the past three years and I appreciate that. He has my respect for doing it, for admitting his mistakes and for opening up.
Does that mean he can take forever for the finale? Heck no. I still want to see the finale before the end of time and I still want to get more frequent, honest updates coming from him. And, no that doesn’t mean he has to do 20-minute-long videos every time: even just a simple, clear tweet is enough. Just to let us know how the work is going.
I also hope he will develop better communication with his team, improve the organization and, most importantly, hire a competent writer from whom he can learn more about writing in general (and regarding SaSi).
While for the fandom, I wish we would be nicer too. It doesn't make sense for us to fight over a simple series, when there are bigger problems out there. Let's enjoy our time together instead, let's criticize if we want to, let's do fanart and write fanfictions and let's fight over silly stuff only, like which ship is the best and which Orange is the best Orange. Even if the second doesn’t even need a debate, because we all know pirate!Orange is the best ;P
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Reverse1999 Anon Response
Anon inspired me with some great questions so I wrote an essay. Love doing this stuff!
1. I’m not sure I understand Vertin’s goal in the prologue. She wanted to see if her suitcase would save Regulus, but wasn’t that a huge gamble that could have cost Regulus her life if it didn’t work? Wouldn’t it have been safer to let Sonetto take her back to the Foundation, which would guarantee her safety? I just can’t see Vertin risking someone’s life like that.
This is a very good question that made me think too! It also gave me a chance to analyze my beloved Timekeeper again so I appreciate it. The simplest answer would be Vertin believes in living rather than just surviving. Now for the essay because I can't help myself.
We can see this with her speech to Druvis during dinner with Manus Vindictae where she challenges if the rowan branch is truly alive. With that in mind, her speech with Arcana sheds more light into why Vertin would take such a risk. When Arcana asks about the wellbeing of the arcanists Vertin rescued, Vertin admits that they're suffering. They end up in asylums. They desert the Foundation and she doesn't see many of them again. Some take their own lives. Those who are alive live in misery and stagnation. Like Druvis's rowan branch, are they truly alive? Going back further, Baby Vertin believed there was more to life than simply living back then too. She was the bellwether who led the break away event because of her ambition.
Vertin has tried to save people from this fate numerous times. She doesn't want to lose her friends to the Storm nor does she want them to lose their freedom under the Foundations control. She's seen time and time again the suffering caused by watching eras disappear. These arcanists lose everything and then they lose their freedom or their minds once they are shackled by the Foundation.
This brings us to Regulus. We can assume she's had her eye on Regulus for some time but the pirate is very hard to track down as we can see from all her adventures. She mentions listening to Regulus on the radio when she mentions the “two moons” thing. Regulus is not only a rebellious arcanist, she's a larger than life soul who wants to live her life to the fullest. In a way, she and Vertin are of like minds. I think Vertin already planned on confronting Regulus before the Storm. It might be why she was summoned when Sonetto screwed up the ritual in the beginning. She was already nearby. She mentions that she was looking for Regulus at one point too. If Manus Vindictae didn't blow up her ship and the Foundation wasn't hot on her heels, maybe Regulus would have met Vertin under different circumstances.
Nonetheless, Vertin took advantage of the confusion to speak with Regulus.
Regulus is exactly the type of person who'd make the perfect candidate because she refuses to be bound by rules and is an arcanist. She has both the mentality and capability Vertin needs. She did try to inform Regulus of her plan but the puppy appeared! This is important because from what we've seen, Vertin usually informs people about her thought process and ideas (like with Druvis and Schneider). However, in this instance she didn't get the proper chance.
Now this part is sneaky but I understand her where she's coming from even if I don't agree. There was enough time (roughly 10 min or so) to make it one of the Foundation's buildings which are immune to the Storm. Sonetto made it to the buildings. At this moment, Vertin decides to take Regulus into the Suitcase instead of sending her off with Sonetto. She did in fact risk Regulus's life. Perhaps in her mind Regulus would either be lost like the others she “rescued”, or reversed. However, there is a chance for the pirate captain to be free if her theory works. I don't think it's right that she made that choice for Regulus, however she does come clean and explains in entirety why she did it. She thanks Regulus for helping her in her “experiment.”
While we know now Regulus would probably make that choice herself if she knew everything she does now since she is the “live freely or not at all” type, it doesn't make it right. We can try to rationalize it by saying things like “Regulus would run away from Sonetto again and get reversed anyway” or “She didn't have time to explain”. But the fact remains that Vertin chose to take a bigger chance with her experiment than she doesn't know will work. The Foundation is proven protection from Reversa which is why it is the safer option.
Vertin is not perfect and even she gets desperate. Throughout the rest of the chapters we do see her explaining everything from her thought process to how she feels about situations. That being said, I 100% believe Vertin has conflicting feelings about it. Just because she made that choice and everything worked out, doesn't mean it's right. I think most people have done something knowing that it's not a great choice for various reasons. For example, out of fear, anger, or hurt. Btw, if you want to read something interesting, check out this impression on the Venomous Psychube. It is a frog. If my theory about Psychubes being reflections of Vertin's thought process is accurate, this makes the impression hurt more lol:
The dark night peeks through itself, leading to a secret delight. Along with scream and whine, the familiar death arrives as it has foretold, bringing a swamp of corpses.
2. Speaking of which, how did Sonetto get back safely without a floppy disc? She must have been quite far from the Foundation?
I briefly touched on this but I think they were relatively close to the building. Vertin is the one who made the call to take the risk with Regulus rather than send her off with Sonetto and into the Foundation's hands.
3. What do you think Vertin thinks of Sonetto post chapter 4?
In chapter 1 Vertin helping Sonetto felt like she did it out of a sense of duty and because she wanted to enlist Regulus in her experiment. After Sonetto gets assigned to her and experiences the Storm, Vertin gets much softer. You can see she genuinely feels responsible for Sonetto and then that extends to the others she invites into her Suitcase.
I think the two will be closer. Sonetto fought for not only her in chapter 4, but for those lost in the Storm. She challenged the Foundation. She made the people who turned down Schneider and many others face justice. Sonetto is coming into her own and while she can't turn her back on those who raised her, she will not give up her future because of them. Idk if this counts, but if you raise the bond with Sonetto you see she gets more comfortable asking for things or bringing up things she wants to do. For Vertin who likes to share experiences with others since she was a kid, I think that would be a nice change from her watching people vanish and leaving her alone to do it all again. She has a constant and curious puppy now. I'm only half-joking when I call Sonetto the emotional support puppy. I think we will see her have more effect on Vertin as the story goes.
These questions have motivated me to take a look at the different influences Sonetto and Schneieder have on Vertin. Its something I noticed while back tracking. Thank you for sending these questions!
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CONTRAHERO HEADCANONS GO:
Who is the big spoon and who is the little spoon, or do they switch depending on how they feel?
In general, or any particular storyline/AU you want to talk about, which of them do you think kisses the other first?
Who among the others would either of them go to if they wanted advice on relationship stuff or just to talk about nervousness or worries or even happiness with someone other than the other person?
Who among the others was just waiting for those two to get together already, who suspects they are together before they get together/admit they're together, and who was just 100% totally oblivious until it's either blatantly obvious or they straight-up get told?
What are their favorite kinds of dates?
Answer any, all, or none of these, however you are feeling :D
YEEESSSSSSSS, THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!
- Contra’s often the big spoon. They like holding Hero, and Hero likes being held, so it works out great for them. They’ll switch it up too tho, especially when Contra’s feeling down or is just tired, and being held by Hero is the best recharger there is.
- When I imagine their first kiss, it’s often Hero who kisses them first. Contrarian is too avoidant and afraid of intimacy to be the one to kiss first (unless they can pass it off as a bit, or it’s just really obvious Hero wants them to kiss him right now), while Hero is a pretty straightforward guy and will go for it if the chance presents itself.
- Ohohohohoh, that’s a good one. Hmmmmm. If Contrarian ended up talking/venting about relationships to someone, I feel like it’d be broken (Cold is their bestie, but c’mon, its Cold, his approach to feelings is the I Do Not See It emojis), they’re not very gossipy or judgemental, and can be very sympathetic, so I feel like, out of everyone, Contrarian would feel safest leaning on them. They would consider Smitten for a moment, get embarrassed about what they think he might say, then go Nope.
Hero wouldn’t actively seek out someone to ask advice/just talk about it (he doesn’t feel like he needs to bother others with his dilemmas), but if prodded in the right moment, by the right person, he’d spill his guts out. And that person would be Smitten. He’d get Hero to spill out all of his hopeless romantic fantasies and how much he’s been enjoying spending time with Contrarian, and listen to it patiently, all the while grinning delighted. I also think he’d give great advice about how the transition from strictly platonic to romantic doesn’t have to be a big deal, or change all that much, if you don’t want to (what I think would be Hero’s biggest fear, together with scaring away Contra). He’d also make many corny comments that makes Hero go beet red (does he do it on purpose? Does he not? Who knows!!!).
(too bad Contra dismissed Smitty’s advice straight away)
- Hunted and Smitten absolutely notice it before they even get together. Hunted already sees them as mated, Smitten is waiting with bated breath for them to get together
Cheated jokingly says ‘are those two gonna kiss, or what?’ once, then goes, ‘wait–’
Cold knows there’s Something going on, but his alexithymic brain can’t quite figure it out for a while until it becomes obvious. Skeptic is in a similar spot
Paranoid would catch on eventually, after they get together, but before they start telling others, I feel like. Maybe she confronts them about it, and that’s what inspires them to just tell the others
Stubborn and Opportunist are the ones who really didn’t saw it coming, but while Stubborn just shrugs and goes ‘good for you’, Oppy is absolutely stupified (that’s not what his mental relationship chart looks like!)
Broken just always assumed they were already together
- I’m terrible at thinking about dates concepts aaaaaaahhhhhh– while Hero would absolutely touch on his hopeless romantic side and take Contrarian to candlelit dinners or a picnic in the park on occasion, I feel like they enjoy simple hang-outs a lot more. Just the two of them watching some shitty movies on TV together, roasting it while cuddling on the couch.
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Episode Four: Hungry!
Full disclosure, it took me a while to warm up to Wolfwood.
I hadn't read the manga or watched the older adaptation. Didn’t know anything about him except his ridiculous gun and that he was a priest (hence the ridiculous gun, because anime). I couldn't figure out why he was present in the narrative, except... because he was in the manga and older adaption. It seemed a little indulgent; I wanted more time with Meryl. He wasn’t even a priest. Obviously Nick has plenty of homoerotic tension with Vash, but all due respect and sympathy to Vash/Wolfwood shippers, m/m pairings have always left me cold (to be fair, pairings generally do that irrespective of gender. Desire unfulfilled is more my speed).
Sad to say that I still don't ship Vash/Wolfwood, but I did definitely come to understand why people do and why they like the guy. Though am I the only one baffled that Vash gets cast as the virginal princess so often? After this look?

Whew. No wonder Wolfwood looks like he got hit with a two-by-four. Ahem.
This is a very necessary episode that feels maybe too "necessary", like they realised they needed to introduce everything it introduces and didn't leave enough time to integrate it all naturally. It's too tight, and Stampede is already a show so tight it squeaks. Still, I think blowing Wolfwood's cover before the day was out was, if not the only right decision, not a wrong one. Almost immediately this guy comes across as sketchy, half from that he's barely trying to act like he's not (which absolutely sends me; he really hates his job) and half that he's just... an awkward dude, angry and obviously hurt in a way he won’t admit to. And while we know there's more to Vash than his façade, it's hard to tell just how smart he really is, how perceptive, because this is Vash. Meryl is the type to show off her knowledge, because she's young and eager to prove herself. Vash is a creature of endless masks and insurmountable walls. He refuses to, as he sees it, burden anyone else with his thoughts.

So we do exactly what Zazie does in this episode: show Vash something wounded and vulnerable because he'd tear off his own skin if it would make things easier for someone else. Except instead Wolfwood is the one who feels a little too exposed, of course. It's so funny to me how obviously he didn't expect this? And how frustrated when he realises he'll have to drag this self-sacrificial lunatic all the way to July alive without becoming attached. I honestly think he failed in that latter part before they even got shot out of the Worm. Vash is just so loving, and so loveable.

Also, the Worm guys (as I mentally call them) might be my favourite minor characters next to Rosa and her offsiders. They're a hilarious audience to the madness. I’m glad they got so many dinners in one go.
And Zazie - what a great character, one I genuinely think is an improvement over prior incarnations rather than just being different from them. Nail game on point, entirely free of fucks given, and a sterling addition to the cast. I'll talk more about our buggy friend later, and I have more to say about Wolfwood besides that hitting him with the trailer forced me to pause the video until I stopped cackling.

Finally, the closing scene chills me in hindsight for a number of reasons, but what gets me the most is that it's a bookend. At the episode's start, Vash refused to eat. Wolfwood had to convince him to. And it's not that he can't use his Gate, it's that he's decided to keep it closed, so something will have to make him decide to lay bare his power once more.
And somehow, I can't imagine Knives asking nicely.

#trigun stampede#tristampparty#i think roberto's derringer tipped everyone off#even i knew#this episode has some of the funniest background gags btw#like wolfwood seeing meryl wig out at the worms and grinning to himself#and trying to feed her bug meat#he's such an asshole big brother#trigun meta#meta: tristampparty episodes
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Problematic Players and You
(PT: Problematic Players and You)
Trigger Warning: This post discusses several triggering or otherwise sensitive topics, including, but not limited to, abuse sexual assault, bigotry, and violence. Reader discretion is advised. Additional Disclaimer: This is not a post defending the actions of athletes mentioned *nor* is it an attack on said athletes (or their fans!). This is about dealing with serious events involving players as a whole.
Have you ever woke up one day and found out that your favorite race car driver said some not-so savory things? Have you ever checked the news one day and found out a hockey player you love was accused of rape? Are you a new sports fan who did research on an athlete you like only to find out they're a straight up creep? And have you ever asked yourself: “Where the hell do I go from here?” when it comes to merch you’ve already bought or the amount of gifsets you’ve made for them? Well, you’ve come to the right post! Because let’s face it, we’ve (probably) all been there, done that and got the t-shirt (Err, jersey).
First off, what defines a problematic player?
Well... there's not really a set definition. Everyone has a different idea of what's 'problematic' and what isn't. However, there are some deeds that athletes do that are... kind of ick, so any of the following could make them be considered very problematic:
-Bigotry (ex. Racism, homophobia). -Cheating (as in cheating on your spouses. Not cheating as in using PEDs even though that too is also kinda trashy). -Abuse, sexual assault, etc. -Questionable/not so great political opinions.
And then there’s athletes who’ve been involved in so many off-ice controversies and allegations that it’s reached a point where regardless of how many are true or not, and no matter how much new information is revealed, they won’t be well liked by fans (Patrick Kane, anyone?). Okay, but why do athletes do this crap in the first place?
Well... there's a couple theories on why some do these things.
Sometimes mental and environmental factors can influence an athlete’s decision making. Say, if an athlete was abused by a coach when they were young, that might factor into any actions, good or bad, a player makes in the future. In cases of bigoted opinions, athletes are raised to have such opinions.
Age can also play a factor into a player’s actions. The younger they are, the more likely they’re going to do stupid shit (Or so I've noticed, please correct me if I'm wrong lmfao). Again. The theories are limitless. However most of the time athletes do these things because... they chose to do that. And a part of that is being because sports culture. Yeah. Sports culture sucks. Who would've known?
So do problematic athletes... stay problematic forever?
Well, yes and no.
As much as our first instinct is to “cancel” said athletes and pressure them to take accountability, we should also give them a chance to grow when they do take accountability instead of pushing the issue further.
However, that also depends on if they chose to grow. Hell, it depends if they even admit to making a mistake or admitting to guilt at all (which is, unfortunately, very impressive in a society like this). If they don’t.. Well, that’s their choice. Best we can do as fans beyond that point is just spread awareness. Remember: 99% of the time celebs won't listen to their fans. Some will. But do not expect your favorite to do the right thing. You will be disappointed. Another thing to keep in mind is that even if changes to character are made, people (us included) will still probably continue to view them differently for a while. As much as we’d like to put the past behind us, that just isn’t easy. (And besides, in the long term this is probably a good thing, since as fans it’s not our place to forgive; that’s up to the people affected). Actually while we’re at it..
Help! What should I do when an athlete (including my favorite) gets into controversy?
It’s always stressful (and sad) when an athlete you’ve admired and looked up to is eventually outed as a terrible person. It’s even more stressful when you’re a newer fan to sports and you just find out about said problematic deeds.
Well, first thing's first: process your emotions, and feelings. And once you're done crying, screaming, whatever action you're doing to process your feelings, spread awareness if you feel comfortable enough doing so. When spreading awareness though: DO RESEARCH AND ONLY SHARE RELIABLE SOURCES. Unfortunately serious allegations almost always have misinformation popping out. Hell, sometimes "allegations" may just be someone causing trouble on the internet (Corey Perry situation, anyone?). If the source is from a random Twitter user (that doesn't work in journalism), or the source is from a site like Deadspin and/or TMZ or any other site that has a history of clickbait, odds are, it's best to take it with a grain of salt. Team fansites (like RMNB, a Caps site) are also not always reliable, so take caution when reading through them as well.
It's better to stick with actually known sources like ESPN, Bleacher Report or a journalist like Elliotte Friedman. Rick Westhead and Katie Strang are really good journalists when it comes to issues relating to hockey. Additionally, do not expect to know *all* the information. Do not demand all information to come out. Sometimes not everything can be shared for legal reasons. Be patient and wait for everything to come out. And even then, don't expect it to be everything that happened (because again, legal reasons). Also, don't expect other people to talk about the incident in question! Do not guilt others into discussing it, do not force others to post about it. Focus on what you can do before focusing on what others can do! After most information (if not all of it), it's up to you to come to your own conclusions. Lastly, regardless of what your decision is, whether you decide to stop supporting them or you choose to believe they did nothing wrong (for any reason), but you're stuck on what to do anyway... Well... and this is probably anticlimactic I know, what to do is... up to you!
Internet wise, your internet space is your space! Your Tumblr blog is your blog! If you wanna stop posting about that player and also delete every single mention of said player outside of spreading awareness? Great! That’s your choice! Wanna keep said posts up but tag them and/or add a disclaimer! Also great! Wanna keep posting them or writing fics about them? Completely fine! Just tag it accordingly and keep in mind why these folks may not like said players. And *please* continue to be critical of said players when they do something wrong. Your favorite is not immune to criticism.
(In other words, yes Hawks fans, you’re allowed to post your Kane gifs and 1988 fics. Just tag it accordingly. And just know that people *will* probably judge you for it).
One thing you should not do however: DO NOT CENSOR NAMES. This fucks with filters and screenreaders (More in-depth post on this here!).
And because apparently this still needs to be said, don’t wish injury or death on the players and for the love of Wayne Gretzky don’t fucking send harassment to their families (seriously why do people do this fucking garbage holy fuck).
Secondly, don’t buy their jerseys or other merchandise from official sites! They will profit off that. If you've already brought it, don't just throw it out. Instead, leave it in storage, sell it or, if you're good at tailoring, try making something new out of it! Additionally (especially in cases of rape, violence, etc), SUPPORT THE VICTIMS INVOLVED. They need it the most.
What about the folks that continue to support said athletes?
If someone continues to post an athlete that’s done not great things, it’s tempting to educate them and tell them (which, if you’re going to do so, please tell them gently and not yell at them, especially if they’re a newer or younger fan who has zero clue what’s going on) But if they already know (which odds are they probably do unless they’re a newer fan), and/or they refuse to stop posting about them after being told, the best plan of action is to just… leave them alone. Just leave them be. Do not bother them further. Do not harass them. Do not send them threats. And for goodness gracious don’t make a callout post or blocklist of every single supporter of said athlete.
(Seriously attempting to make a long blocklist never ends well, especially since half the time the users on said blocklist turn out to be literal children).
That said though, if your friends/mutuals are actively defending bigoted comments and/or making statements that borderline towards abuse apologism, it’s not a bad idea to hold them accountable in a private setting. Yes I said private setting because most drama can be avoided with a private DM. But other than that... someone still writes 1988 fic? Leave them be! Someone still makes gifsets of Alex Ovechkin? Leave them be! Hell, someone still talks about the Staals? Just leave them be! The best course of action is to… just use the block button and/or filter posts accordingly. That’s literally it lmfao.
But why do people continue to support these athletes anyway?
Well it all comes down to the following: A. They have trouble grappling with the fact that they are, in fact, problematic. B. They’re Neurodivergent (especially autistic or individuals with ADHD), or struggling IRL, and kinda rely on those people to function or get through the day.
C. Detaching yourself from a problematic figure is… really easier said than done. It is not easy at all lmfao. D. They're refuse to listen to info. E. They genuinely have no clue what's going on. Either way. Don't judge too harshly. Not everyone can just stop supporting a person/media and guess what? It's not as easy as 99% of Tumblr dot com thinks. Not everyone can just stop enjoying/liking something. And guess what? That's actually O-KAY. Last thing to know.
Lastly, you, yourself, *could* probably be supporting a problematic player right now! And you would never know until much later! At the end of the day, 99% of athletes have done problematic things one way or another. And honestly, if we tried to get rid of every problematic person... there probably wouldn't be any people left on Earth at all. Yeah, some actions are more shittier than ever, but trying to make everything "unproblematic"... is never going to work no matter how you look at it, and that is OKAY.
Remember the most important rule (stolen from someone on discord with the second edited by me!):


Now get out there and cheer for whatever player you'd like.
(Special thanks to @hard4softthings @saucerfulofsins @tapejob @youneedtolookatthis @restingbuchface @bedardconnor and a bunch of other folks for providing most of the advice/info/tips for this post!)
#hockey culture#hockeyblr#hockey#sports#nhl#pwhl#women's hockey#men's hockey#ask to tag#id in alt#was going to post this tomorrow but considering recent events i feel like it's important for folks to know this#especially since this affects a lot of people#(and as always critique/corrections welcome!)#long post#problematic athletes#sports and abuse
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Oneshot Part 1
Nina sighed. She walked up to Victor. She cleared her throat. Victor glanced over from Corbierre. He wanted to talk to her anyway. "Yes. Ms Martin?"
"I need. I need to talk." She started. She despised this part. He's going to have a shit fit. Especially when he finds out about... He turned to her. "About?"
"I'm having a highly advanced surgery soon. So. The recovery time is going to be a while... So... yay. I'm not going to be here next term." She’s leaving without my help? He thought, thinking back to Denby's letter. "Surgery?"
"Yes. We have a family friend... Sokichi Banba, a world class and famous surgeon. He's going to perform the special surgery I need to live." The one Rei-sun already completed. But Victor did not need to know that yet.
"Sokichi Banba? I never heard of him." Victor noted, incredulous of her story. Of course not. You have your elixer.... Then again, Victor never needed the level of care I do. Cannot wait for my disease to end. "He's extremely famous. Like the best of the best. The Gorengers, JAKQ, Battle Fever and Goggle V to name a few exist because of him."
Maybe she tipped her hand mentioning the Big Four he established to fight the various Shocker groups. Even if the Great Moron proved to play the role of the useful idiot for several interdimensional threats. But Victor's age and lack of knowledge might work against him. He probably never heard of Shocker or Gorgom. So he won't judge me for Nobuhiko-hijii. The girl sighed. She never did like to admit she's the great granddaughter of Shadow Moon, born Nobuhiko Akizuki. The reactions never receptive, many times hostile. Her great grandfather hurt a lot of people under Gorgom's control after all. It's not even clear if he violated her great grandmother, Katsumi, while the Century King. Her great grandmother, Diane Martin, never forgave Nobuhiko for any of his crimes. The less said about her great great grandmother, Peggy's, opinion of him the better. Only her great grand uncle, Kohtaro, really forgave him. Her fiance and Kohtaro's great "grandson", Rei, on the hand... ya. Rei-Sun never held it against me, but even she thought the man was extremely dangerous.
"If he's a surgeon, why did he establish bands?" Victor inquired. He made a mental note to check this out. There no way this sounds even remotely legit. The Chosen One blinks. Band? "Uh. They're crime fighters."
His eyes glance at her, incredulously. "Crime fighters?"
"Ya. My great great grandmother Peggy: My great grand aunt, Karen and my great grandmother Diane all serve on the teams." She informed him. "You can say... it's a familial right to serve..."
Never mind the surgery required which she's about to complete. Hopefully, away from Gorgom's prying eyes. Them securing her and brainwashing her is the last thing she wants. Though, if I want to protect her friends, I might need to make the hard choices for them. Not sure how they're going to react. But it's better than Gorgom capturing them... she shuddered at the thought. Her mind displaying all the horrible scenerios in her head. Victor took her shudder differently. "Tell me the truth, Nina."
"I am!!" she bellowed stomping her foot. "I'm fixing my degenerative disease through intensive surgery!!!"
She despised her illness with a passion. Unlike the rest of her family, her cybernetics failed to operate normally due to the disease. Thus, she required more medical attention than any member of her family. She seen so many doctor offices, she could recite each one's credentials from memory. Luckily. Her great grandfather created the perfect solution. One that everyone approved of, installing all of Nobuhiko's cybernetics while also installing upgraded versions the basic stuff based of it into her. This way, people will differentiate her from her predecessor. Now that Nina knows she's Amneris's descendant through King Tut, she could pin point where the disease came from. A royal reminder of her sacred heritage.
His features soften then harden into rage at the thought. "What?"
"I'm dying from the same disease that weakened King Tut's senses enough for Senkhara to murder him with ease. Are you happy now?!!!" The girl's voice carried out of the room, informing everyone in the house. Her housemates freeze in place, Sibuna especially. Fabian's face pales in multiple shades of white while Eddie nearly popped his eyes from how wide they spread. Words failed to escape his mouth from the shock. His dad patting his back, telling him to go talk to Nina. Patricia turned red. Her feet already in motion to the stairs. Joy not soon after, feeling incredibly shitty for her previous actions and wanting to punch her for hiding this important detail. Though Joy could tell Patricia also wanted a good whack at the girl. Amber and Alfie flatten Mick as soon as they move, Jerome barely pulling Mara put of the way in time. Though Jerome follows them. Nina dying bodes badly to him. The last thing he wants is a destroyed world because Nina unexpectedly died. Who knows when Nina's successor will be born. Mara confused follow him, accidentally stomping on Mick. A redhead everyone in Anubis seen following Amber helps Mick up. He dusts himself off, thanks her and rushes upstairs. His housemate's life more important than the party. The girl follows, only to get close to Amber.
They instantly move themselves to Victor's office in a flash. Party goers became casualties in the line to the stairs. Sibuna quicker than the others. Poppy not sure what's going on, followed her brother to Victor's office. King Tut was murdered... Who's Senkhara? The girl thought as she followed her brother. Obviously Gerbil knows whatever's going on.
Victor grabbed her. His face red. A bit loudly, "Get the cup!"
"I'm not going to drink the elixer!" Nina retorted with equal volume, knowing his plan. "You barely have for yourself."
"Do you think the Gods care? They need you alive, Ms Martin." Victor shot back. Nina sighed. She asked, "What do you think Gorgom will do with an immortal Creation King?"
Victor stared. He could not understand the question. Gorgom? Creation King? None of that made sense to him. Mara looks at Fabian, trying to gage his response. The topic of Gorgom and Kamen Rider Black permeated through their 6th Year world history report. Gorgom, the old terrorist cult in Japan from the 80s. Why would Nina talk as if they're still active? Without their leader, Shadow Moon, they dissolved ages ago thanks to Kamen Rider Black. Fabian glanced back to Mara, equally confused, blinked. Patricia tilted her head with Joy while Jerome's eye's widen. Mick turns to Fabian, "Aren't they dead?"
"No." Nina corrected automatically without thinking. "As long as the two Century Kings live, they live."
"Uh. Nina. There's only one. And Shadow Moon is dead. He died in the 80s." Fabian informed her. Nina smiled sadly. "No. Hiijii's death was misreported."
"Your... your great grandfather?" Mara squeaks in awe raising horror. Eddie stares. Bluntly asks without a single thought about anything. "You're related to a psychotic, deranged, mass murdering cult leader with a passion for brutal murder, civilian casualties and property damage? At least the cult leading makes sense. Doesn't it? It's who you are."
Nina sniffs as tears cascade down her face. Amber quickly moves in to comfort her. She viciously glares at Eddie for the comment. Patricia glares at him pointedly, slapping him. Bellowed loudly for the entire house to hear. "Way to go Weasel."
Both girls allow Nina to cry on them. Jerome glares. "Really? Says the guy's dad who joined a cult led by Victor: never informing the cops about everyone's favorite professional demented psycho, Rufus Zeno: helped Victor obtain his stupid elixer's ingredients through ... less legal means: helped said cult in an attempt to become immortal by kidnapping Joy: responsible for said kidnapping personally along with her dad: enlisted officers and the teachers to cover up the kidnapping: allowed Mara to get shot to in effort to hide kidnapping which almost took out Mick: let at least Patricia to nearly die at Rufus's kidnapping hands: left Amber and Nina there for trying to save her: sacrificing me, another of Rufus's kidnap victims for the plan, a plan that nearly killed everyone in our house in said attempt to be immortal: attempted to murder Rufus; a guy who frankly deserved it: allowed Mara to get shot again for getting in the way of a murder attempt..."
Jerome blinks, he turns to Nina. He inquired the answer to a lingering question. "How did you get Mara healed quickly?"
Victor paused. That's a good question. She didn't steal his elixer to heal her. He checked; multiple times in fact. Nina called one person, spoke some language then Mara was out of there without a single second of recovery time. He checked her injuries afterwards too. Nina smiled through her tears, "Banba-hiijiisama is the best! No one can beat his knowledge, especially in cybernetics."
"Cybernetics? Cybernetics!!?" Victor roared with a fury of a hundred suns. Nina felt her size shrink. Victor grabbed her. "I WILL NOT ALLOW SOME QUACK PLACE METAL INSIDE YOU!!!"
Another round of eyes widening. Mara glances at her body thoroughly, wondering what this Banba guy did to fix her. Victor moved his face to hers. He saw the tear marks all over her wrickled face. "GET THE CUP! NOW!!!"
"No. It's..." Nina started. Fabian asks. "It's normal. Well. Normal for you isn't it?"
"Yeah... almost all of us have cybernetics." She felt shame rise once more. The floor looked so interesting to her eyes. "I'm practically the disgrace!"
"Nina! You can't mean that?" Nina nodded "Because of my disease, mine aren't working right. They're failing. Failing. Dying. Not functioning as it's supposed too. It's tragic. One the key factors that connects me to my family. My parents, my aunts and uncles, my cousins, my second and third cousins, grandparents... most of em any way, great granduncles and aunts, my great grand parents and even my great great grandmother and great great grandaunt dying due to my screwed up genetics. It's disgusting to think about."
"Uh. How did you parents die in a car accident if they're machine people?" Amber asks. Another good question. was the responding thought. Nina rolls her eyes.
"Cyborgs, Amber. They were cyborgs. Gorgom killed them while they're driving..." She takes another good look at the floor. "in an attempt to capture me. The failure."
She stared deeply into Victor's soul. All the ninety something year old could see is Sarah's burning eyes glare at him in undying hate. "Their killer looked exactly like you. Even wore a similar outfit."
The words hanged freely in the air. No one said a word. No one wanted to. Everyone patted her back amongst other things to comfort her. Poppy said nothing. The information scarring her for life. Victor frowned. So. That's why she easily believed Sara's theory...
Jerome continued where he left off thanks to the silence. "Let's not forget all the times daddy dearest covered for Victor's crazy crap or allowed Rufus Zeno, a deranged mad man with delusions of grandeur I might add, into the school and kill everyone with dangerous insects. Oh and writing it off all of it when it falls through. That's only last year's crimes. Shall we go over this year's crimes too?"
Eddie wisely quit talking, but glared at Jerome. Poppy stared, fright burned into her face. What the hell did gerbil and the others go through? That's insane! I... wait... Why is no one acting that shocked about the crimes besides Weeping Willow?! Nina dying with cybernetics and family issues is shocking? But none of... that?
Unfortunately, everyone's voices carries downstairs. People stare at the unsuspecting dancing Mr Sweet and the stairs. Most wondering how any of the kids survived. Trudy faints in Jasper's hands. Her mind overloaded on emotions.
#house of anubis#kamen rider#kamen rider black rx#kamen rider black#shadow Moon#sibuna#nina martin#victor rodenmaar jr#nina explaining her heritage#nina's life outside of amun#fabian rutter#patricia williamson#amber millington#alfie lewis#jerome clarke#eddie miller#mara jaffray#mick campbell#soap opera house living up to its name#part 1 due space concerns#hoa
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