#which is a whole vent in itself

[she-anemone]

need to draw frequently again. need to make a video game. need to make MONEY. need to LIVE.

[rileys-battlecats]

i really gotta get better about listening to my own brain and needs when i'm making things. i've been working on a video and i'm almost finished (yippee!!), but drawing this One Specific Frame was giving me trouble. i could have just brute-forced my way through it and finalized the initial sketch, since it was relatively good enough. but instead i left it and took a day off from working on the project, let myself recharge, and came back to the sketch with fresh eyes today. and what do you know, my redrawn sketch today is WAY better! now, i can finalize that frame and be genuinely proud of it, instead of just powering through on something i was less than happy with.

i hadn't done any other art stuff that day when i couldn't get my sketches to look right, so letting myself stop and have a break from the project felt sort of "unearned" i guess. but it's just. what i needed! and the break did what i needed it to do; i was able to come back later and make something i could be proud of.

anyway i guess this is me saying that, if you're like me and have this weird morality-complex about letting yourself rest, it's ok to take breaks, even if you feel like you haven't "earned" one yet :)

[scatterpatter]

*Goes into the derealization tag*

The Derealization Tag: Weirdcore! Dreamcore! Unreality ~aesthetic~! Hehe liminal spaces go brrr <3

Me:

Me: *Exits the derealization tag*

[peachyyjellie]

i think my writing has gotten worse actually

[touchlikethesun]

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[anaalnathrakhs]

wait, 8 years old kid, you can be alone all day but we'll drive all the mandatory stuff ourselves! wait, 12 years old kid, you're too independant! wait, 14 years old kid, come sit with us instead! wait, 17 years old kid, i'll take the car and pick you up 800 meters away from home! wait, 18 years old kid, don't you know how difficult and hard and painful it was for us when you didn't do activities you don't like with us, back then!

wait, 18 years old kid, i don't understand why you're not more independant if you want it so badly, after all it's normal at your age!

[sateurn]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

These sobs really limited my tags?????

I have so many more thoughts this is so so much less than 1/2. Broski. Big dislike

[clandestine-rabbit]

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[gurorori]

hmm. thinkin bed thoughts

[overly-dramatic-artist]

Another piece of life advice I’ve only recently (today) put together is that most people want you to succeed. When you’re given responsibilities by someone, 99% of the time, they want you to do well and will support you while you navigate new waters. They’re not handing this to you just to watch you fail. Please reach out when you’re getting stressed, I promise they will do what’s they can to make sure what needs to happen will get taken care of.

[phagodyke]

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[blissfali]

i need to complain and be miserable but its gonna involve me dropping my fragile facade of coolness for a moment and i need everyone to be really chill about it and remember how cool and awesome and collected i usually am

[tetranymous]

Oh yeah I was FINALLY able to reel in the thinkpad's cooling issues last night!!!! At first I didn't believe it because it was still as loud as ever, but checking the temps confirmed it! Hovering around 60°c rather than before where it was idling at 80°c with nothing open! :D

Also whoever decided to make the windows power options Like That? Curse of mega diarrhoea. Why is there THREE separate options for power mode???? One in the slider in the battery taskbar icon, one in control panel's power settings, and one in the BIOS?????? And they all act independently of eachother. Like... Would it not be easier to have a general one and then options for fine tuning??? (like the one in control panel but with more options. Would be nice not to have to go into device manager for some of them. I FORGOT DEVICE MANAGER POWER OPTIONS (only sometimes lets you change it though!) THERE'S FOUR)

In conclusion:

[deconstructthesoup]

One thing I absolutely adore about Dead Boy Detectives is the immaculate costume design. Specifically, how it perfectly encapsulates who the characters are, both as a whole and who they are in the moment.

From the very first scene of the show, we know immediately that Edwin is a bookish, somewhat stuffy guy from the Edwardian era who attended a boarding school, and Charles is a punk from the 1980's who's most likely the wildcard between the two of them, just going off of the way that they're dressed. Both of them have distinct color schemes and different styles, but the general shape of their outfits is actually relatively similar---both of them have collared shirts (Edwin's dress shirt, Charles's polo), something over those shirts (Edwin's vest, Charles's suspenders), a jacket of some kind (Edwin's suit jacket, Charles's flannel thing), a longer overcoat (Edwin's traveling coat, Charles's peacoat), something around the neck (Edwin's bowtie, Charles's necklace), slacks, and nice shoes. They're distinct, yet matching, two clearly defined separate characters yet part of a set.

Edwin's prim, proper, buttoned-up personality lends itself to the way he dresses throughout the season---in the first episode, he only dresses down when he's in the office with Charles, aka his safe place and his safe person, and he doesn't really dress down like that again for a good long while after getting stuck in Port Townsend (though, if my memory serves me correctly, he does take off the suit jacket while watching TV with Niko). But in episode six, he's changed up his usual look for a cozier, casual-looking sweater and a little bit of collarbone, and in episode seven... well, he's in his nightclothes, and he's about as open, raw, and vulnerable as you can get. Edwin's color scheme is also predominately blue, which lines up nicely with his logical and practical, yet deeply sad and closed off personality, and the only time he really wears anything other than his normal blue-and-brown outfit (willingly, that is) is when he's in that green sweater in episode six. And, uh... all I can say is that it's quite telling how blue and green---or, well, teal---are the main colors of the gay/mlm flag.

Charles, by contrast, dresses down a lot, and that makes a lot of sense when you consider the fact that unlike Edwin, he feels comfortable pretty much anywhere. On any given episode, he goes from wearing his peacoat to just wearing his flannel to ditching the flannel to not even wearing the freaking polo---though, again, the latter is something that only happens when he's in the office with Edwin. Safe space, safe person. And, well, plenty of people have analyzed Charles's polo shirt going from red to burgundy to black over the course of the series, and there being a little bit of red under the collar of his coat that's only visible when Edwin fixes it, and then it goes back to burgundy, and then it's red again when Edwin's out of Hell... for good reason! It's color symbolism at its finest! Not to mention, the red and black not only perfectly contrasts Edwin's color scheme, but it also lines up with Charles's personality---he's a rebel, he's hotheaded, he's bold and brash and loud... and yes, he's angry, but he's also so, so loving.

When we first meet Crystal after she loses her memories, her outfit choices feel very deliberate. They're stylish and vaguely trendy, they're arty and a little bit witchy---pretty fitting for a psychic who's also a showbiz kid, even if she doesn't know that last part. But all of her clothes appear thrifted, or at the very least vintage, and the patterns and the general vibe all feel natural and comforting. Her makeup's always fairly simple, her hair's either down or up in a couple of cute space buns... overall, this Crystal looks like the kind of person who'd make you tea when you're in a bad mood, who'll listen when you just need to vent, and who may not always know the right thing to say but will understand what you're going through. But when we see her in the flashbacks, her clothing's flashy and prioritizes high-end trends over comfort, she's either got her hair up or has it straightened, and she not only has dramatic makeup, but acrylics. This is a girl who talks shit about you behind your back, who's bitter and cynical and wants everyone to feel the same way, who makes up for the lack of love and stability in her life via material things. It's also worth noting that Crystal's color scheme has a lot of purple, which is a color that connects to wealth and luxury, but also creativity and magic---which, yeah, fits her two conflicting sides pretty damn well.

You cannot talk about Niko Sasaki without talking about her outfits, and the meaning behind each of them has already been talked about at length. However, one thing that really stands out to me is that the reason they're so iconic isn't just because of the monochrome color schemes, but because they're out there. They're weird, they're eclectic, they're a little mismatched in style sometimes, and they're so unapologetically her. Niko wears heart-shaped sunglasses, unironically. Everything about the way she dresses speaks to how, even though she's a recovering shut-in who initially doesn't want to be perceived, she's still very sure of who she is.

Jenny's design, like Charles and Edwin's, is a design that gives you the key information you need the minute she first appears onscreen. The dark makeup, the silver jewelry, the leather apron, and the hairstyle all point to a person who's tough, doesn't take anyone's shit, and has long since given up on caring what other people think---in other words, she's a badass. But the butterfly tattoo hints at a softer side, a side that we see time and time again throughout the series as she shows that she cares about Crystal and Niko, and even the boys... eventually. Also, Jenny's design is perhaps one of the most clearly queer-coded in the series, to the point where her being a confirmed lesbian is pretty much a no-brainer.

Esther's design oozes camp, from top to bottom. The fluffy coat, the bustier, the boots and the cane and the everything, speak to a woman who's kept with the times and yet has seen it all. There's really not a lot I can fully say about her design, other than what Charles has already said: "She looks like a witch... like, kind of a sexy witch, who smokes a lot." (Or maybe I'm just tired and running out of steam at this point, idk, I love Esther's design and I can't really put it into words.) It's also pretty fitting that her color scheme has a lot of yellow in it---after all, she's always striving for more, so what better color for her than the color of gold?

Everything about the Night Nurse's design speaks to a woman who follows rules and discipline above all else, from the pantsuit to the pinned-up hairstyles to the tie to the heels. She's also the most muted out of the main cast in terms of color, dressing mostly in browns, dull greens, and duller browns---and while I don't have a lot to go into detail about there, I feel like that's kind of a symbol of her narrow-minded and bureaucratic worldview.

And the animal characters... Jesus Christ, I fully forget that they're all being played by human actors. Tragic Mick dresses like a man who's always spent his life by the sea, layered denim and all, and it's never a stretch to see this sad, bushy-bearded, baggy-clothed fisherman and imagine him as a walrus lounging on a beach. Monty, at first glance, seems to only wear black, which would be perfectly fitting for a crow, but when he's in better lighting, you see that he dresses in layers of red and blue, calling to how he envies Charles and Edwin and clearly longs for something more---and this might just be me, but I think that even though his outfits seem fairly normal at first glance, they feel kind of like a costume for Monty more than anything else, like he's trying to emulate a teenager that he's seen on TV more than someone in real life.

The Cat King fits this just as well, with all of his outfits aligning perfectly with whatever his cat form is at the time---when he's a fluffy ginger, it's always sequins and fur coats and clothing pieces that are specifically designed to take up space and call attention, and when he's a black shorthair, it's sleek styles and shiny leather and pieces that are designed to cut an intimidating yet more subtle figure. And while I could go into detail about all of those, what really stands out to me is how clearly queer everything is---more than Jenny's alt lesbian attire, more than Esther's campy coat and corset. From the very first scene he's in, he's wearing a skirt, and it looks natural. Nothing about the way the Cat King presents himself is exaggerated, nothing about the way he dresses is played for laughs---he's flamboyant and feminine and flirty, and he looks so fucking hot while he does it. It's gorgeous.

So... yeah, uh, all the awards for the Dead Boy Detectives costume designers!

[ghost-bard]

Every day i am reminded that people would rather celebrate my death than think critically about any of the media they consume

[baekuras]

One thing I hate about my job is how we don’t have a clock in/clock out system but are only getting paid for 39hours a week even when we have to be there earlier to open, later to close and extra late for work-meetings ofc outside of worktime (last one I luckily didn’t have to be there for on my day off because our boss is nice)

And now a new part in our contract, which mind you we haven’t been informed of, is that we have to PROFESSIONALLY end our consultation before leaving for break or before leaving work of course also unpaid because that is expected of us

anyhow a professional ending will be not even starting the sale and the best you can possibly get 10mins before closing for smth that usually takes about half an hour overall is the super rushed version because...we are not getting paid for that thx ✌

also if we have to professionally end every consultation but also accept everyone because ~we are like family and should treat our customers as such~ bs...we wouldn’t get breaks which funnily enough are mandated by law or get them way too late because there are days just a shitload of people will come in You have to turn some away for later What kind of bitch-move is it to whine about every “possible” loss that isn’t even a loss but a “see you tomorrow”-making an appointment...deal

no joke we had a sale week and after the huge success of that the higher ups were surprised and mad we didn’t continue selling as much afterwards and in fact right after the amount of people coming in dropped ....maybe....just maybe that is because the people who would have come in a week or more later...came in during the sale.....you know.....how sales work?

work is stupid i swear

i don’t get paid enough to bend over backwards we have work attire we need to wear, barely above minimum wage (okay to BE fair-now we start at 30k a year...well and if you worked there longer you get more even if you do less work oh look another negative <3), it’s retail but optics, even if you take on other parts of the workplace and don’t just sell glasses for example the pay is the same, you have meetings and inventory and all that outside of work-hours although inventory at least is compensated as extra hours off another day I am not staying longer if I and all my colleagues who have to stay with me because you can’t close alone don’t get overtime pay

tbh if we’d get paid for the extra half hour a day (at least) we have to be there earlier+later (or more if we open shop lol) then sure it’d cost them a lot more but because it’s retail it’s expected of us to open and prepare outside work hours

my fucking dentist opens at 8 and only THEN are rooms prepped and pc’s started even with people waiting for their 8am appointment because they work from 8 to (depends on day)