#which i know isnt true but. brains will brain

[flapmemelord]

sonamy (?) .... all the discussion around Ian Flynn's take with Amy in Frontiers and the edits on her character that followed racked my brain in the right ways... I've tried my hand at what kind of mental process Amy would go through to stop chasing after Sonic, while taking account why and how they stayed the way they were for such a long time (and why that made sense for them).

Some symbolism and A LOT OF other thoughts explained below

Sonic holds his hand (warm, familiar) to invite Amy back to their chased-being-chased (romantic subtext-ey?) dynamic in public but in private spending some time together (black knight date i see you), but this time, she doesnt take it.

She would have taken it before, it's safe, it's known, it's been fun - not necessarily always. He plays along this dance they've known forever, and it looks like this could be it. She ignores how deadpan he looks, pushes him around, hopes he relents / takes in stride her playing around / tries to take in stride how annoyed he looks, rolling his eyes. he smiles still, it's easier when he smiles (She's a Fe dom) she probably didnt pick a place to his tastes, but she wanted to try something new at a café today and... it'd be what she'd always known. Maybe this time she shouldn't, maybe it's the doubts, maybe its wanting to see how far she's come too.

Amy wouldn't actually tie him down to a life that isnt his style. She likes him best when he's being this force of nature, true to himself, compassionnate, free. So she asks herself if letting him go is her becoming more like him (her dream isn't to marry him but becoming like him), as in letting him express his need for freedom (note it's a misconception on her part, Sonic is very much free with her, at least much more than SHE thinks he thinks he is).

I think it's easy to project onto Sonic, even if you know him well. Or maybe time got the better of Amy. She probably has faith (devotion to the end of the planet) in him and could not believe wrongs could be done by his hands. And in a sense she's right, because Sonic is a goal to reach as a character rather than one going through developpement rn or whose moral compass is ever really challenged. He's already had his act and it happened off screen (apart from well sonic lost world or other iterations of the character, like prime which target his recklessness). I'd find completely believable if Amy said she'd never think a SECOND Sonic would see her as a nuisance (as in really /neg), but I like it if Sonic is encouraged to speak about how he feels. Though it sounds tough (the boy might be a very healthy ESTP, but trickster Fi is trickster Fi) And I think that's why I like Ian Flynn's direction with Amy (although i like less the repression of her outward femininity, i like boom!amy's design but one of Amy's core strength is how girly she is). Since she's not reaching out to Sonic, it challenges him in another way if he wants to be part of her life.

There's this sense of privacy that these two share in their dynamic too - which I don't think I've noticed with other characters. As someone that struggles with emotional permanency it took me a WHILE to understand how, why, how, Sonic could still feel something for Amy. Another being he's a boy at heart, and that romance doesnt mix well with that. I don't see them doing more than some (very very sublte and) occasionnal flirting here and there, at most. Even if they make Amy's feelings for Sonic dissapear. Don't mind platonic dynamics Sonamy AT ALL, I'd love to see them close......

[spoopdeedoop]

real friends have weird greetings that usually involve hitting each other

[toytulini]

me, stupidly and weirdly resistant to listening to audio books vs reading a physical book for no real reason: man i wish there was a way to like, read a book while i crochet like i do with tv shows and movies and podcasts

[lighthouseshepard]

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[horsegirlrehab]

very fun of my brain to always just get temporarily consumed by a new art form, hey babe ik u just discovered you can paint on fabric but what about any of the other art you're supposed to do <3

[faineant-girl]

hey guys is it embarrassing to like characters.

[altruistic-meme]

trying to decide if im about to implode or not

[arolesbianism]

I may be failing my plan to not make any isat aus. So there's this guy her name is Euphrasie right. What if I took her and combined what could be 3 separate au concepts into one. And in the process forced myself to go back and reread a bunch of shit to make sure I know how to maximally fuck over this sad wet puppy of a woman

[olli-online]

[creature-from-unknown-orgins]

I should sleep

[pulchrasilva]

Having people you care about who are suicidal while you're not suicidal is truly a special torture I think I want to go back to wanting to kill myself im gonna throw up

[sandmanalone]

Here have a lil guy

[daffythefox]

^ my tags on a different post wanted to update that they also dmed me asking if i was okay. which means they’ve now triple texted me they’re literally obsessed with me i won the narc crash (is still emotionally devastated)

[skitskatdacat63]

okay, i don't know why, but i have ALWAYS been like you described. i have so many movies, TV shows, books, podcasts, songs, etc that i want to experience but do i? nope, just put on another F1 race, please. i don't know if it's fear of the unknown (hello, flood of unexpected emotions!) or not wanting to challenge myself or also wanting to watch F1 and F1 just wins out, but here we are. i suspect it's part of my OCD? or some other ND thing that hasn't been diagnosed in me yet??

in fact prolly the only reason i watch F1 is bc i watch it with my sister. it is a lot easier to do new stuff with someone else...which deludes me into believing that if i just got a partner, we could open the floodgates and watch everything i haven't seen together, but lord knows it don't work that way 😑 in any case, i don't know what's wrong with us, but you're not alone!

I'm glad I'm not the only one!! 💕💕

(Reply ramble under the cut cause I wrote more than I expected)

I think I just struggle to start anything new or to finish anything. I totally agree with what you said about it being the fear of unexpected emotions/the unknown! Like for race seasons for example, I just spent a significant amount of time immersed in 2005 which is a specific set of information(you know: rules, strategy, drivers, etc.), so to start a new season would be a completely different set of info. As I said in my earlier tags, some part of me likes the anticipation more and also I always get way too hyper about things and that energy is overwhelming 😓 And I also feel like I have a fear about how much time I'm going to spend(which is stupid because I'll spend like way too much time aimlessly scrolling for the same amnt of time it'd take to watch a race.) Like the idea of specifically putting aside two hours to do only one thing is stressful to me, which is why I often used to like watching races when I literally couldn't do anything else(waiting for a class.) But now I'm stuck back in the cycle of not wanting to start something new, even if 2009 isnt exactly new because I've watched a lot of racing at this point, but still new enough to me that it's hard to convince my brain to start it. Like once I get into the groove of things, I can float through and enjoy myself, it's just that beginning barrier that's hard to get through.

I also definitely agree with having to watch it with someone else. I either have to binge watch things super quickly or watch them with other people, if not, I'll just end up never starting it or abandoning it. I think it's because it's really nice to be able to discuss your thoughts and feelings abt it with another person and not just be stuck with a million thoughts bouncing around your head(which is why I tend to make posts and then rant in the tags LOL)

I think thats why ive been able to get into F1 to such an extent and why it's been so fun for me. It's a live experience(with a strict time constraint, i.e. you can only watch it right here, right now) where there's a bunch of people watching and interacting. I love tumblr during a race weekend so much, I don't think I'd be obsessed with it as much if not for the ability to see everyone's reactions and interact back with them. I think that's why I struggle to start old seasons, because it's literally just me obsessing alone in my room and I can't talk about it to the extent that I can with the current season. Watching F1 as it goes along in a current season is just a perfect experience I guess, because the schedule pushes me along and I don't really have to rely on myself to keep going.

But yeah who knows!! Brain just being brain as always I guess, but it is annoying that it prevents us from doing things we want to do! But I will say, still, its so stupid that I procrastinate over watching 10 minute long YouTube vids LMAO, like pls I get the hesitation with a 2 hour race, 2 hour movie or 100k fic but, 10 minutes, seriously brain???

[femmefaggot]

genuinely very very happy about maya still Do Not get me wrong. I simply wish... the world was better and less cruel. and that I was not complicit in that cruelty. and that honorspren in shadesmar werent such hypocrites.

[the-acid-pear]

just finished a video on no longer human. It really do be like that