#not me tho which truly is off. i am otherkin but its always from a place of coexistence of layers
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just finished a video on no longer human. It really do be like that
#luly talks#a second video as i had seen the wendigoon one way back#but i kinda had forgotten most as i do bc that guy is a bit all over the place so its hard to absorb information he delivers#ngl tho. like the video was good but whenever the guy went yeah he truly isnt human (derogatory) it felt sooo uncomfortable#you fell for the character's facade that you're meant to dismantle etc#but like its true how sometimes when you're in such dissociation and so detached from everything to connect becomes impossible#bc you can only think about what you are doing or not and cannot look at the other person like in the book your guard is too high#i liked a comment on the video a lot too saying that he ran away and didnt help his wife bc he idolized humanity#and she was human but if that didnt protect her then what was the point?#which i mean yeah i mean depersonalization on its own is never a rational Thing you know but its like#i dont know what i was gonna say#but the idolization of humans is not even rare either. is that conviction that to be else makes you inferior#not me tho which truly is off. i am otherkin but its always from a place of coexistence of layers#i can imitate humans and i can imitate cats and i can imitate dogs i can learn to be like you#which i guess would imply there's no natural state of self but i dont think that's the case#but i guess there's nothing in the everythign and there's everything in the nothing#and in the end im just#luly. i guess. name feels like a heavy chain lately#i dont know how to do with that.#you know i always enjoyed it but as im in this state of trynig to. clear up the brain fog. perceive individuality in the multiplicity#names become hard. as well as gender. which i guess are the main thngs that bring you identity so its not surpring#sorry this rant got way more personal than it'd be#its just a really uncomfortable thing#especially when you take masking into account its just a lot.#sorry i really got off the rails there#anyway yeah it happens to the best of us#brain stuff
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Hi :)
So it turns out I'm better at poetry than I ever give myself credit for, and it came from poring out feeling all over a word document in the sequel of Timepieces. I hope you don't mind that I used the word Endling - I originally got the idea to call the poem (+myself) that from your fic, as you might have guessed.
I searched up "endling definition" on google and got smacked in the face with a picture of myself which I then realized is a picture of the last known one of my kin. Which is sad. The world considers my people extinct and the last living truebody thylacine was the endling. Benjamin I didn't know you but I miss you waaah T_T
Writing thylacinekin Harry is weird but gratifying. He is a sad boi with an extinct animagus form. He doesn't consider his animagus form an animagus form, he sees it as his truebody. I made Timepieces crack and am accidentally making last of a kind angst :/
I don't have any questions for today so I hope you're all doing well! Take care of yourselves + each other as always, remember to eat & drink something tasty, and enjoy the rest of your day! This has been a Daily Interaction Ask :)
go ahead! i dont own the concept of endlings njdfkgdfg i just used it for my deltarune fic but it fits with a lot of concepts! and yeah! go wild! being able to write shit in fiction that you cant say in real words somethings is just--very good, i think. its that same hat meme just pointing at your own character like YEAH THATS ME also dont read too deep into this i am the author but if you make any inferences about who i am as a person from this no you didn't <3
yeah thylacines are. kinda the face of endlings arent they. benjamin my beloved. i do wonder what it was like. just...being the last one. damn. like did he know he was the last one. im making MYSELF sad here but. idk. i like writing about animals. i like wondering what they're thinking about.
ANYWAYS. honestly i think its kinda the best thing when a work starts as crack but gets so deeply serious at the end--like, no! no, this was a joke, but its not anymore! this means something! truly i understand my deltarune fic journey started kinda depressing and Its Just Gone Downhill From There. im gonna end off happier than i started tho mark my words.
you as well! im excited to read last of a kind! the world needs more otherkin works out there.
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