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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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AhHA! Finally gotchu! *quietly slides mimics au sketches across the forest floor* 🫶^u^


Extra sneakiness ✨:
- Hey Glitch,, whatcha. *cough* Doin over there??
- ,,Keferoning … - I think.
#transformers#tf mimics au#tf jazz#yall/ don’t even mind the ramble but#to me/ the definition of Keferoning is probably loosely related to the phrase#•Wanting to do something creative. / Being scared. / And doing it anyways. 🎉✨•#very chaotic good sorta energy 😂#I’m at that point where I’ve got like 2 large wips on the top shelf#precariously balanced on top of 20 million other concepts I wanna finish#and my ladder just finished falling apart like a Lego set#sound effects and everything 😭#Have I mentioned how time is my greatest enemy yet??#cause it is#and I would lovingly fight it to the death for an extra hour of crafting time#🫶😌
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Will never get over how Starscream and Skyfire's relationship is always doomed. There's never an iteration of them where they both stay on the same side at the end. They always end up being against each other, tearing each other apart (whether intentionally or not). They always end up losing each other, be it by a snowstorm, by the war, or by death itself. They never receive a happy ending together, one if not both of them is doomed to suffer.
Skyfire is doomed to be an Autobot, by forces out of his control. Starscream is doomed to be an Decepticon, by his own self destructive tendencies. They are both doomed, because of who they are. They always try to save the other, in their own way. But it never works. They are doomed to fail, whether they stay together or not.
#Starscream and skyfire are parallels of optimus and Megatron. do you understand me.#believing in someone when no one else did. seeing something worth supporting when no one else did. being the one person they trust.#they both ended up being torn apart by the war and their own ideals. losing each other because of their conflicting views.#one became an autobot and the other became a decepticon. one of them must fall.#i have lots of feelings about them yknow.#doomed yaoi shit going on here#will never get over how much g1 starscream cared about skyfire. like. he kept trying to have skyfire stay by his side#he was still a shitty guy and treated skyfire like shit but there was genuine care and emotion under it all. he still cared#i need a universe where they get to reconcile. where they get to be happy. pull an earthspark and let them be friends again#i need a skyfire who learns to love and accept post-war Starscream. i need a Starscream who despite everything still want skyfire with him.#i need them not to be doomed but rather learn and grow. accept the flaws and faults of the past and learn to move on#can you tell i love skystar#can you tell i love them#skyfire#jetfire#starscream#transformers#transformers g1#g1 transformers#the fire burns#skystar
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#baldurs gate 3#bg3 tav#bg3 art#lae'zel#Kast-Away#Don't you just hate it when you wake up somewhere completely different from where you actually went to sleep?#can you just imagine just looking outside and seeing everything is horrible and falling apart around you and--#oh wait#tiefling
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the shellfish au is so angsty it's delicious!!
ugh i'm imagining a crossover where a healthy, well-adjusted set of relativity stan twins accidentally get themselves portaled into shellfish's world and both go ???????? what's wrong with you guys????? why's your stan like that???????? why's he calling grunkle dipper "great uncle mason"??
&& the impromptu visit just highlights how happy stan *could* be and really highlights how much the shellfish one... is not
cue both sets of guardians staring wide-eyed at each other in vague horror
Selfish Shellfish AU - Masterpost
You��re speaking my language, but I don’t know where to start. SO MANY OPTIONS! :’)
Do we put the 12-ish OG!relativity falls kids with the 14~17ish Shellfishies? So there can be a misunderstanding that this is them in the future?
Or are they the same age so the contrast between the Stans is absolutely glaring?
But even then will we put them together before Shellfish!Stan & Ford make up or after?
Before, but Stan is still on the run?
OG!Stan and Ford will be going around trying to uncover what happened with Stan and no one will tell them anything. They come to the conclusion that Stan must’ve died with the way everyone in this universe keeps looking at them.
But it’s the worst for Shellfish!Ford who is confronted with everything he could’ve had, if he had been a better brother. A better person. Someone who didn’t just abandon the people closest to him the moment he found something more interesting to waste his time on.
Ford is used to hating himself. He always did. Every time he looked at his hands or let Stan protect him like a coward, he hated himself.
But now, looking at who he could’ve been, his past issues all seemed so petty and inconsequential.
As it turns out Ford never knew what true self hatred felt like until they, Grunkle Dipper, Other Ford and himself, were buried nose deep into their research and Other Stan came and dragged Other Ford away from them.
Other Ford protested loudly, but Other Stan simply laughed and shouted over his shoulder: “See you later, Nerds!”
The two of them came back an hour later, giggling and triumphant, with a solution to their dimension replacement problem. Together they managed in a mere hour what three geniuses couldn’t do in two weeks and had fun doing it.
Ford truly hates himself now.
And there is no one to blame but himself.
Then he finds out that Other Ford also had the option to stay in Gravity Falls but didn’t take it because that would mean he wouldn’t get to grow up with Stan and nothing could be worth that loss.
It’s mentioned offhandedly and in passing.
Ford excuses himself quietly, locks himself inside his room closet and starts to bawl.
He loses track of time but then there is light and his brother is there and Ford stops thinking. He lets himself be embraced and apologizes until he passes out.
Well anyways the OG Stans eventually figure out what really happened, decide they can’t have that and drag Ford with them to find the little lost Shellfish. :)
Before they make up, but Stan is living with them in Gravity Falls?
We can start that one with OG!Stan glaring at Shellfish!Stan and be like: “What the fuck is his deal? Why is he so rude? How dare he make Ford sad!”
Turns out they make it worse before they figure poor Shellfish!Stan out. But after they do, they plan to kidnap this Stan back to their home dimension :D
After the Selfish!Stans make up?
It seems fine. Everything seems fine even if Stan and Grunkle Dipper and Grauntie Mabel seem to be mad at each other?
"Hey so what’s that all about anyways?"
Ford goes into overprotective brother mode, pulls them aside and threatens OG!Ford with violence if Stan ever dares to ask the wrong questions again.
“Ehm shouldn’t I be the one that gets threatened?”
“NO! I love you and you didn’t do anything wrong ever. SO SHUT UP. ALSO I LOVE YOU. NEVER FORGET THAT.”
“…o-kay”
“Pssh Ford, we really need to get out of this dimension fast. They’re acting worse than Grunkle Dipper on five bottles of Mabel Juice and no sleep.“
“Agreed.”
They eventually see how Shellfish!Stan acts around the adults and all his scars and it all paints a horrifying picture.
[But also them trying to do small talk:
“So, how’s Pa?”
“He’s dead.”
“Oh no, I’m so sorry.”
“Not as sorry as I was when I killed him.”
Stan laughs.
OG!Stans force an uncomfortable chuckle. Ha ha. Nice joke…
They feel a cold shiver from behind and slowly turn around. Shellfish!Ford is standing there, the glare on his glasses hiding his eyes. For some reason there is a sledge hammer in his hand.]
Or how about Stan on the run but suddenly there's OG Ford or both OG!Stans??
How about they arrive in New Jersey before Filbrick dies?
Or in Gravity Falls and they’re like “What are you doing? Get your Stan back. NOW!”
[I might also need the Shellfish!Stans to pop up in canon or after canon on the Stan-o-War now. Maybe while Shellfish!Stan was still on the run hmmm]
#Selfish Shellfish AU#stanley pines#stanford pines#gravity falls#relativity falls#tw child abuse#I'm so sorry it always takes me so long to answer an ask#at least it feels like it. I read the ask and then I keep rotating it in my head for way too long without writing anything down#I love these kinds of stories so much where the chracters meet other or past versions of themselves#ask#I was so focused on Ford I forgot to think about anyone else now. but yes mabel and dipper are horrified. and them meeting their other#selves as well and the OG ones are like “I know we fucked up and we had our troubles but you didnt even spend 30 year apart with dipper in#portal. how the HELL did you become this way??#[don't as me. havent figured that one out yet so everything is very handwavy in my head XD]
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I love your same age au in every way but especially how it explores how Marc and vale reach different aspects of adulthood faster and how that colours their relationship. Like Marc close knit sheltered family vs child of divorce Valentino sparking gossip for days in small town Cervera by calling Marc’s mum by her first name instead of mrs marquez!! BUT at the same time serious and mature Marc being the breadwinner of the family at like age 15 vs vale free to piss off police and hit da club
All this to sayyy Marc puberty latebloomer?? I feel like it somehow still preserves the whole ingenue-dirtbag thing canon rosquez have going on. Like wyd when your established biggest rival/fellow prodigy/lowkey racing soulmate has wlf on his leathers and is doing an impression of these girls begging him to sign their tits and you laugh because it’s vale and he’s wild but there’s a squirmy jealous longing twist in your gut because the tabloids love vale and let his lanky golden frame get away w anything but u could never risk that. And you’re STILL not taller despite drinking the juice your mama prepares you every morning but your voice has suddenly dropped an octave and your jawline is sharper and your aunts are calling you handsome now, not cute. And sitting in his motorhome (which is just his, no extra beds for his father and brother) you can’t stop staring at his adams apple as he talks and wondering how his newly grown in stubble would feel against your still smooth cheek. Yknow????
screammmm i LOVE this ask so smart… yeah it’s vale keeping tabs on marc for yearsss visiting his house as gunshy codependent frenemies and feeling weird about it but also not consciously regarding him as a sexual prospect bc marc was like. pimply and had a bad haircut and looked like he was twelve for a hot fucking minute and they’re both teen boys in the 90s so it’s simply not an emotion he will allow himself to feel. no way. BUTTT then suddenly marc is 18 and still has a baby face, but it’s a baby face with cheekbones ! and girls are paying attention to him. and he’s paying attention to girls. and then marc sends it too hot up the inside of him one weekend and smiles all huge at him on the podium and vale starts sweating in his little robin hood teen pop idol outfit or what the fuck ever… like look at their teen years marc gets his face all at once and vale retains teen androgyny for a few years in ways marc simply cannot access (they are. 15, 16, 17, 18 here)








and then the weird moments that they hang out like cats in each other’s motorhome in between sessions trying to figure each other out (vale) and trying to get the other to visit their house (marc) and talking about racing (both) take a distinctly illicit vibe turn. not doing anything maybe but. thinking about it.
PLUS you also have such a good point about marc as this comparatively more shy and serious and small kinda kid bc of his late blooomer status in relation to vale as well… vale spinning like a mirrorball doing fun little pranks and getting all this attention while marc is a little less of a natural at that sort of thing (he GETS THERE but i think in lots of ways vale is a roadmap lol and baby vale wouldn’t be into the joint thing in this regard so. he has to figure it out a little bit by himself)… idk like it’s interesting to think about marc as an athlete existing in the time of those crazy tobacco money ragers and all that jazz because i think they’re both like to party (obviously…) but the vibes of those parties are perhaps a leedle different a to me (babynflames brought up marc HATING ibiza recently while vale was like. probably sucking off sete gibernau in a club bathroom in ibiza semi regularly for a couple of years there in the early aughts. there’s also i think some generational stuff here, not just their raw personallities etc) but of course the FUN route on this highway is to think of vale as a somewhat horrendous influence wrt to marc who is. maybe wrestling with what it means to have valentino as his biggest competitor and also to want to be the person he’s sucking off in club bathrooms in ibiza. and they’re like 19/20 at this point and trying to kill each other every other weekend and no one has the emotional articulation skills or bravery to break the sexual tension equilibrium so i could conceive of a scenario where marc gets invited on a group clubbing vacay of vale’s and then has to see him making out with a different (dark hair, dark eyed, spanish) girl across the club for multiple days (while hyperaware of where marc is at all times) and that’s part of why marc hates ibiza… but then eventually the girl notices and re-enacts the movie challengers with them because it’s WOMEN’S HISTORY MONTH and it’s not gay if it’s in a threeway
#the family stuff as well it’s like mutual envy of each other bc marc wants to be the darling of the world#and vale wants to have a family where no one leaves !!! fuck !!!#callie speaks#asks#in this scenario i think vale actually takes it a lil personal when marc’s parents split up#and feels weird about it bc it’s MARC’S arm and family falling apart#but he’s been tooling around tracks with them forever being silently jealous#and now not only can marc not race (biggest touchstone in his life kinda) but he can’t even go to cervera and have everything be like it wa#when he was 19 and tagging along after the catalan races…#like it’s another little abandonment but he can’t say that to MARC obviously bc it’s not HIS parents#anyway vale hates brutalist house in this verse ? i guess ?#and marc growing into his media monster role feels weird for BOTH esp after like 8 divorces lmao#rosquez#same age au#mgp
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just for fun this time during 'sea of blood' I counted out all the venatori corpses I think we can be pretty sure were lucanis' handiwork before we show up (not including the ones he kills in his initial cutscene, and with an assumption that he's been at work mainly up and down in the areas we move through until we find him, not behind the locked door -- I think that's mostly the work of rampaging undead and other venatori-hoisted-by-their-own-petard suchlikes). can thus happily inform you lucanis has killed at least 32 venatori before rook and company get there. at least one of them he's impaled on their own weird crystal spike things the venatori mages cast as an AOE attack and that they're trying to keep him contained with when we find him. so he's clearly been keeping busy lol. that's my boy dispensing poetic justice and claiming some enrichment in his enclosure while he's at it good for him!
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#I think he's been scouting around found what's techincally the way out realized he can't leave without his blood#and been shepherded/cornered in the room where you find him. or just as likely he lured them in there to take them all out at once#and also he's not a mage. how the fuck is he going to actually get the door out open and then not just drown if he does#even though he found it. lucanis dellamorte's very bad no good extremely awful horrible day (300+ day streak)#CAN the non-mage venatori get in and out of here without a mage to take them. many questions#him coincidentally escaping right now seems to be down to everything falling the fuck apart down there after zara officially voided#whatever OSHA regulations they ever had and the fallout of solas' ritual made magic run wild across the continent#it's interesting to note that the ossuary we see in this is actually pretty much emptied -- she's already retrieved#what she considered her successes. there used to be way more experiments down here until like a week before this#it's just lucanis and the other rejects left lmao#I do like (well. like is probably the wrong word) to imagine that lucanis has spent a sisyphean year of nearly escaping in there#he's killed a guard gotten to look around for intel for five seconds and been thrown back into his cell multiple times before#this time he's just got chaos and rook (basically synonymous terms right lol) on his side#also to all the 'why is he in his full armor and already with a neat beard' complaints -- because this is a video game#and getting a whole new model for him done for all of 45 mins of content max would not be a wise or fruitful use of resources#hope that helps!#if we're going to go watsonian about it he must have been wearing something when he got there and he probably had luggage#so idk he found those in a store room or something b/c callivan... not the brighest bulb in the lamp store clearly
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The difference in the way Mike treats El and Will is so insane when you really think about it.
Season 1: Will goes missing and Mike does everything he can to get him back. He SEES WILL’S CORPSE, mourns his loss, and the split second he hears Will’s voice on the walkie talkie he jumps back into action to find him. He convinces the entire hesistant party that he’s still out there.
Season 2: Mike SEES EL. HE SEES HER. STANDING IN THE FLESH OUTSIDE HIS WINDOW. What does he do? Elects to convince himself he’s crazy. He sticks by Will’s side and continues to mourn the loss of El. They make a point to show the cops chasing her. NOT MIKE. He never looks for her, he just walkie talkies her instead.

Mike saw both Will and El die, and he had MORE reason to believe El was alive because there WAS NO BODY. They know Will vanished into thin air. Why doesn’t Mike go look for her? Why?
He likely walkie talkied her looking for the same moment he had with Will. Will dies, he’s heard on the walkie, hes alive. That’s what Mike was looking for: he was trying to replicate what he had with Will (*cough* like he does in the s4 monologue *cough*).
Even better… it happens again in season 3. In a much less kidnapped, dead angsty way, and more of a teenage, dramatic angsty way. El breaks up with him, he whines and needs constant help (from Lucas) to “chase after her”, and does so very late. Will fights with Mike and within MINUTES, zero prompting needed, he chases after him. Just like Max claimed Mike would for El.
I will not deny that Mike and El have an extremely strong bond, and as Mike said, they care for eachother so much… but Will consistently gets more boyfriend treatment from Mike than El does. Mike loves El, but he doesn’t *love* El.
#byler#byler endgame#anti mileven#this isnt a bi/gay mike stance btw#i still cant tell if he had geniune romantic feelings ever or not#at most i think he had a crush#and felt obligated to fall in love with her and tried to force it#and everything crumbles apart in season 4#edit: added a pic of the scene where mike sees El
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a sequel to the “I MISS MY BLORBO SO BAD!!!!!!” gifset because wow guess what guys I STILL MISS HIM VERY BAD!!!!!!
#khux#ephemer#flashing gif#my posts#timeless child#you know what time it is: ramble time!! ❤️#my faves: the one-handed door opening; idk there’s just something endearing and perhaps graceful about the one arm moving back#probably in part due to khux’s chibi style and the animators’ skills#and then that bottom right one where he literally goes through the stages of grief#I always thought it was a testament to his character that while he’s of course upset about DT falling apart he’s actually more visibly#affected by skuld’s reaction to it; to everything; and he immediately prioritizes making sure she’ll be okay#how the animators managed to subtly squeeze all that in 10 seconds I have no idea. but I love them for it#and on a lighter note I also love the chair one bc the animation doesn’t actually show him pulling it in#so it’s funny to imagine that the chair has motion sensors or some shit 😆#gifemer
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cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst
When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.
It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.
“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.
“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.
“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.
“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.
“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.
“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.
“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.
“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.
#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this#and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj#but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!!#I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written#there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone#and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost#and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again#but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same??#they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem#not them* heck#it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself#where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’#and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories#but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you#and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time#you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them#so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT#sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in#okay bai#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫
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it's so frustrating they don't take the necropolis as an opportunity to explore spirits with more depth in veilguard. or even Manfred's whole thing. Manfred being able to learn to speak implies that any wisp is capable of it with time. they have preferences and emotions and comprehend speech but you still shouldn't be concerned that they are used for slave labour in the necropolis. you're supposed to be horrified that Hezenkoss is abusing spirits but not at that. engaging with spirits as people introduces too much nuance to the situation and veilguard is absolutely incapable of dealing with it. otherwise they'd have to engage with why Solas wants to tear the veil down
#i love the line emmrich has where he says the dead venatori will be “put to work” or something.#it recognises the enslaving aspect and that he considers it punishment for the slaver's body but NOT the spirit. so interesting#“its okay when we do it because what we're enslaving arent REAL people” is compelling. unfortunately for DA that is always where it ends#every time they pull another “are these things people?” plot thread (often) they get scared and run away 😭#the tranquil. the mages. the darkspawn!!!!#that post i just reblogged. like yeah they DONT want you to consider the archive spirit as anything like a person. it all falls apart#dragon age spoilers#da4 spoilers#m#datv critical#tags from future me: i feel like that last line comes across wrong. spirits as people isn't what stops them talking about the veil.#it's the problem veilguard has with letting any moral complexity or greyness exist.#where inquisition tried to two-sides issues until it made no sense. veilguard ignores/dodges any potential issues with everything.#you might not want to help the crows if you acknowledge their sins. you might feel bad about tearing down the veil if you discuss it#so you cant. manfred likes the bubbles. its not that deep
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It's not about killing the joker!! Period!! That's it!!! End of!!! It's not about killing the joker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not for Jason and NO not even about making Batman do it!! It's about!!! Batman!! Choosing him!!!!!! Where Shelia didn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That post literally says it's about Batman choosing him !!!!!! Batman choosing him doesn't mean Batman hat to kill the Joker himself BECAUSE JASON LITERALLY CLEARLY GOES IN STORY 'OK IF YOU WONT DO IT. LET ME KILL THE JOKER'



#WOULD THE JOKER BEING DEAD BE AN EXCELLENT BONUS YES. THATS WHY HES THERES TIED UP AND APART OF THE PLAN#but it not. ABOUT him#donyou get me are you getting me#its not about making batman kill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#people and seeing my post and thinking its about making batman kill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like yes ita about killing the joker but its not. About killing the joker#my phone is at 2% and im about to fall asleep. hello.#helloo#hashtag venting hashtag im kinda hungry hashtag cannone of my posts where im not over specifiying everything ever breach containment again#please#aaauighhhaougjhhhhhhhhhhh
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as unkempt as he always was, i'd like to think that birkin at least tried to look put together in his early days. the middle part was him trying to look professional past the hairs sticking in every direction and the back of his haircut never looking quite right.
his mother's nagging about his appearance seemed to linger in the back of his mind even after he moved out, going days, weeks, years without talking to her. any real meaning or even importance behind the self-grooming was lost, boiled down to habit. taking a minute to pick through his matted hair with a broken comb in the morning was a ritual that kept him sane. it grounded him.
the evential side part was him letting go of the half-cobbled man that he used to be, relinquishing what little identity he had in pursuit of finishing his life's work. even until his final moments, golgotha had always come first.
#good morning birkin nation!#i always distinguish between younger and older birkin by the hairstyle when i draw him#the 2:8 hairstyle makes him look so Exhausted#i think he's always had eyebags that give the grand canyon a run for its money#and that his clothes are always slightly wrinkled no matter how much time he spends pressing them#his work folders are always messy not to the point where it's illegible but just enough to inconvenience both him and anyone that tries to-#-look through them#and all of this only worsens when his mental and physical condition does ahaha#no birkin enjoyer is a stranger to the concept of birkin destroying his body for the task of finishing g#but i think we also need to think about everything else that falls apart for him#to the point where waking up in the morning to work on g and going to bed three days later thinking about g is his only constant#idk where i'm going with this#i think about him a lot.#resident evil#william birkin#i need to figure out other queues that his health is declining to incorporate into my art for those who are true and noble enough to notice#cues* sorry#slash pay attention#slash remember#also i need to figure out how to distinguish between younger and older wesker in a way that isn't just changing his body shape and clothes#lol#citrus writing#i guess#i need a ramble/analysis tag but i guess the writing one works too#headcanons
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I feel like the highest form of praise for a fanfic is calling the author a bitch motherfucker out loud, while sitting alone in your room
#6 chapters of slow burn for the next chapter to end on a cliffhanger where it looks like everything is about to fall apart#i almost screamed#fanfic#fanfiction#starwars#star wars#sw rebels
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I love you detectives wrestling with cosmic horror I love you government agencies in a futile pursuit to contain the supernatural I love you academia and bureaucracy strugging to quantify and codify the otherworldly I love you systems and habits desperately trying to hold the line against the chaotic the unclassifiable and the unfathomable.
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#herearedragons speaks#sorry thought about detectives in cosmic horror setting for .02 seconds too long#I just. when the tools we have crafted to understand the world strain under a weight we could never predict#but they're all we have and so we will figure out how to use them even in these circumstances#the failure and the triumph of these frameworks are equally interesting to me#because obviously it's fun to watch the structure fall apart and its inherent vulnerabilities be exposed#it's fun to have to confront the fact that sometimes the rules don't work and the logic is flawed#but also I love the opposite scenario#a sam vimes type situation where you confront the horrors with nothing but your cop code and you WIN#because it's a tool that was designed to help you make sense of the world#and that's what it does. despite everything#like sometimes The Framework is oppressive and sometimes The Framework is all that's keeping you from insanity and sometimes it's both#hello. can anyone hear me. hello.#I think I've made this exact post before#just goes to show I will never be normal about this#why yes I was really into the scp foundation at one point why do you ask
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#theyre asking you back ahsoka. im asking u back#OH IM SICK IM SICKKKKKK#THE JEDI WERE SPOUTING SUCH BULLSHIT ABT THISBEING HER GREAT TRIAL#MEANWHILE ANAKIN WAS JUST WAITING TO ASK HER BACK#and it was never going to work out he did everything to try to help her and yet it pales in comparison to how betrayed she felt by the rest#of the order#they dont get to stay with each other.#theyre brought together by the very thing that tears them apart and no matter what they dont get to stay together#alternative possibilities dont even matter bc in the end it was already set in stone ahsoka was always going to leave and anakin was always#going to fall#and thats it thats the whole premise of clone wars really. youre going to watch all the ways things could have gone differently#and youre going to hope against all logic that something changes but u know it doesnt it never will and thats why ur watching isnt it.#hope when u know its too late but its worth it anyway bc there was love there was always love it was there it couldve changed things#but this is not the story where it does. and you have to watch that happen and thats what makes it so fucking good#goddddd sorry putting all this in tags cuz i have an illness#elli’s random thoughts
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