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16 likes on tiktok is embarrassing but 16 likes on tumblr is like winning a grammy

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sundays should be 48 hours long. 24 for enjoying sunday other 24 for mentally preparing for monday

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show with writing so deeply inconsistent that both the defenders and the haters got a point

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Hey. Spreading the word to tumblr, aka "I don't like this change so I WILL complain about it" personified.

Discord is bringing mobile ads in June 2025. They've officially announced this.

SPREAD THE WORD!!! WITH ENOUGH BACKLASH, MAYBE THEY'LL RETHINK IT- OR AT LEAST DELAY IT!

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dazai found out about the pocky thing :/// oof

hehe the sketch was cuter...

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adhd will get you thinking "i should make this doctors appointment" every day for 7 months and counting

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Ma Meilleure Ennemie

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kino being "all the sweetness" in ambessa’s heart is so clearly on display in the pages of the book. there is such a distinct difference between the way she regards him internally versus mel. there are a few moments throughout the novel where she looks at him and is taken back to memories of him as a child, and she refers to him as her "sweet little boy" on page 327. when she looks at her daughter, mel doesn’t get any of that tender nostalgia. instead, her mind wanders to rudo at the sight of her tattoos, or she dwells on how mel is "unfit" to be her heir. there are moments that are softer than others (ex. the hugs they share) but, generally, ambessa’s thoughts don’t express the same sort of affection that kino receives. truly, this is the difference between the relationship mothers have with their sons versus their daughters laid plain.

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The funniest thing about Ambessa in her book is that by the end she's so excited by the idea of what Rell and Mel could accomplish together as mages and leaders of the clan, and yet everything Ambessa does poisons the well between those two. Ambessa showing such clear favor to Rell over Mel, clearly upset Mel in a way that was obvious to everyone who knew her. Even people who weren't directly involved in the daily Medarda drama, like Rudo, could see what a slap in the face it was to Mel.

Meanwhile you've got Ambessa grooming Rell for a leadership and exposing her to the brutality of the battlefield (that even her parents who put her in the gladiator pits didn't want), all the while she's incredibly ambiguous about Rell's place in the Medarda Clan. Sure Ambessa said she told Rell she'd adopt her, but she never explicitly said how Rell was supposed to help "lead this family to glory". And that's because Ambessa didn't actually know who she wanted as heir, she'd cycled between Rell as the leader, Rell as Mel's #2 (like her and Rictus), and Rell and Mel as co-leaders.

The big punchline for it all is that while Ambessa's inner monologue goes on and on about how powerful those two would be together, Mel and Rell's respective POV chapters are clearly indicating the conflict those two are headed for. For example, when Ambessa was taunted by Gintara that no one would (or could, a dig at her kids) avenge Ambessa's death, Rell privately tells her she would. That statement nearly made Ambessa cry, but we all know that Mel KILLED AMBESSA!!!

This family is cursed.

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its not even 2024 anymore its some other bullshit now

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wip i’ve been working on for too long I MISS THEM SO MUCH

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i will see your body bare and still i will live here

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country boy quitters feeling real embarrassed right about now

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you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life