#when it comes to shannon.

[daniclaytcn]

🔥 shannon ? or diaz parents ?

i got another ask about the diaz parents so i'll answer for shannon.

shannon is...hm. i think the current fandom trend is to swing wildly in the other direction and absolve her of any and all wrongdoing, which i frankly think does her a major disservice as a character. she is by far the most complex guest character the show has ever had, which is really saying something considering she was there for only half a season. to take away the agency she exercised in making the decisions that she did just erases all of that. and frankly, i think fandom is subconsciously approaching this from the bias of "she's a woman, and women cannot ever be bad mothers" and not to say that shannon was a bad mother for her entire run, but there was a period of time where she certainly was! just as there was a period of time where eddie was a bad father! idk i just think there's a lot of nuance to be found here and its troubling how fandom just wants to strip it all away so everything can fit into neat little boxes.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

23 years!! So Eddie hasn’t been to confession since he was around 10?!

Well if that isn’t interesting!!! That feels so pointed because that is a very young age to stop going to confession - unless you’ve started to realise you’re different - that the church as been teaching you the things you’re feeling and realising about yourself are not ok according to their teachings and beliefs and the best and easiest way to avoid religious wrath, not look at yourself too closely and bury your feelings is to just stop going to confession (assuming he was still going to church with his parents as I can’t imagine they’d not have him go to church every Sunday at 10!)

[nerdy-frog98]

Okay I’ve had several days to think about it, and I’m not upset about Eddie’s cheating storyline anymore.

Nobody asked, but HERE’S why.

Eddie is an incredibly traumatized character. The military experiences (+ his dead friends), losing his wife so suddenly & without closure, and a couple near death experiences will do that to you! Add that to parents trying to take his child away ON TOP OF feeling like he needs to give Christopher a mother at any and all costs…? Maybe a little bit of Catholic guilt sprinkled in there too.

Season 5 was not my favorite for a myriad of reasons, but one thing I did like about it was Eddie’s complete mental breakdown. It felt like a long time coming... BUT. His mental breakdown didn’t even really scratch the surface of his issues, and there are still a lot of things he needs to face before he can truly be at peace. One of those things is Shannon.

The effect that Shannon’s loss had on Eddie has, in my opinion, never been explored properly. We got a little of it in season 3 with the illegal fighting, and then hints of it again when he was with Ana, but it never felt like closure to me. It felt like season 6 tried to give him closure (through Marisol), but it wasn’t satisfying because it was more or less a duller version of what happened with Ana. “Moving on” for his sake, but with no real emotional repercussions. Maybe this is just a personal opinion, but his story has felt like a ticking time bomb to me since the moment he broke up with Ana. His breakdown in s5 wasn’t the real bomb though.

Now imagine being Eddie, a guy with a lot of unresolved guilt and feelings for a woman who died right in front of him. Imagine you see a woman with that dead wife’s exact face. I can honestly say I have no fucking clue what I would do in his position. What he did- erasing Marisol in his first conversation with this lookalike Kim, then later lying to Buck to meet up with Kim- is morally not okay. Sure. Would any of us act in a rational way though?

I’m not meaning to justify cheating, but I do genuinely believe this is one of the only ways that stubborn ass was going to figure out his issues in a way that might actually help him move on. He’s being delusional with Kim, and once the ball drops, I believe there’s a great big breakdown waiting for him on the other end.

People often accuse Eddie of being the most boring of the 118, and I hate that assessment so goddamn much. Eddie is probably one of theee most complex characters (besides Buck) in the entire show. He’s self-destructive, kind, loyal, patient and impatient- he’s a good father and a good friend, and he’s FLAWED. That is why I love him so much.

My initial disappointment with him partially stems from me wanting him to have a singular season of PEACE, which…I realized wasn’t possible without blowing up the bomb first (would’ve preferred to disarm the bomb but I’ll take what I can get).

[lucyshypemaster]

keefe was actually insane for this

[the-way-astray]

what if della used to be a councillor

[lesbiansforeddiediaz]

Where my Eddie meta differs from the popular fanon is I don't think all his problems are because he's gay and I don't think kissing a man would heal him or really benefit him much at all. (He is gay but that's not important right now)

[itsactuallycorrine]

This episode is an interesting one for Buck’s character, beyond all the major plot movement. We rarely see him get mad at all, especially not at the people he’s closest to, and definitely never see the kind of verbal barbs he was slinging at Eddie. In fact, Buck is usually never vocally hurtful or pejorative towards anyone, in a way that’s clearly deliberate (something almost none of the other main cast avoid in general and especially not with Buck, even if it’s something as simple as fondly calling him an idiot, a dumbass, etc. And he always takes it on the chin with a smile, but he doesn’t initiate or engage in that kind of teasing)

In fact, before this episode, the last actually deliberate hurtful thing he may have said was to Chim in 2x01 about the calendar before Eddie asks him what his problem is. I don’t count his parents because they’re not close, and most of the things he’s said to Maddie that have hurt her have just been him speaking his truth about his feelings

But this shows us where his baseline is, to which point he can be pushed before he is compelled to lash out with his words, and in what way (passive aggression vs. head-on confrontation) and how brutally he can yield his words—needling Eddie about leaving is just as much as a pressure-point as Buck’s abandonment issues, because Buck knows how Eddie feels he abandoned Shannon and Christopher

[bookwyrminspiration]

i'd like to buy a different dialogue tag for 400

[valewritessss]

I haven’t read Kotlc in a very long time so can someone remind me, Dex said he watched some human movies with his mom or something like that, right?

[epiphainie]

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[chaoticbug]

@ the new episode

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Ohhhhhh!!

The Shannon saying to Eddie at the lake she thought he was someone else and Buck confusing who he has feelings for and ending up dating Tommy parallel!!!

[bisexualbuckl-y]

i can't stop thinking about buck's future reaction to this new eddie storyline in like a best friend way, because i don't know how aware buck is of how much eddie is struggling with his mental health lol, like how long ago was the last time they spoke about shannon in relation to eddie? does buck think eddie is over her death? or maybe not over but at least he's come to terms with it? i feel like we'll see eddie trying to hide this thing with kim and buck will surely know something's going on but i don't think he'll ever imagine something close to what's happening, and then aside from the lying and bad feelings surrounding the situation he'll also feel awful because he just didn't know how this was still an issue eddie was having... yk?

[the-way-astray]

me when i change my handwriting every book:

(keefe's handwriting in legacy)

(keefe's handwriting in unlocked)

(keefe's handwriting in unraveled)

[pedroam-bang]

When These Walls Come Tumbling Down - Arcane (2021)

[iridescent-lightning]

question: what's the last film you watched and what did you think?

statement: easter eggs are the best shape of chocolate and i should be allowed to buy a big hollow egg all year

Oooh. That's a good question, and unfortunately I don't remember the answer 😅 to be entirely honest I don't watch many movies or tv shows! I mostly just have various videos essays or astronomy college lectures on in the background while I make stuff. Keeps me sane.

...yeah chocolate eggs really do hit special don't they? Nothing quite like that first cronch. Gonna have to delve into my chocolate stash at work tomorrow now LOL (I've been really enjoying the Reece's eggs lately. Peanut butter. I'm too hungry for this 😭

For the art tax (stuff I do while half listening to youtube) have this Espeon I made! Patterned it up myself through Much Suffering... I really wanna make glaceon but I need a Very Specific Color that.. kinda just doesn't exist? So I had it printed on plain minky and it's now in the mail.

Anyway I can stop rambling now, thanks for the question and the 100% correct statement, friend!