#what if I get some cute shit right??
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I’m kinda nervous rn….ok just so you know, my parents know I’m gay, but my mom suddenly invited me out to get our nails done, and idk maybe I’m just overthinking but its…..auuuaggggghh I wanna,,,,,maybe,,paint my nails,.,,,but a very VERY small but loud part of me is ringing alarm bells of crumbling masculinity,,,,,
AUGH I’m gonna scream into a pillow, gimme a sec, I gotta just get this out.
#neil talky#Its stupid I know it’s VERY stupid#shit like this shouldn’t be gendered but#Fuck you know???#I’ve always been that dude who’s just#dark clothes barely talks very cringy chuuni shit#but when my mom invited me I thought like#what if I get some cute shit right??#I KNOW THIS WONT MAKE ME ANY LESS OF A GUY#and I have they/them pronouns anyway so I dont feel like a guy ALL the time BUT#you know#you know!!!!#ugh#I’ll get over this I’ll hype myself up I AM gonna get cute colours and shit#Just need to#scream into a pillow first#The nail manicurist is my mom’s highschool friend and she knows I’m a queer so its whatevs but#gender panic for what other people will think ig#DEEP BREATHS NEIL HEEHOO HEEHOO HEEHOO
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absolutely gagged by sister imperator #1
#spoiler ramblings in the tags!!!!!#sister imperator#sister imperator spoilers#RIGHT.#that was so dark holy shit#the preview didn't really prepare me for it#abortion moment was ROUGH#tobias is making some statements#whole thing was very on the nose jfbfjfj#her sisters getting killed as well????? 😭😭😭#i enjoyed it!!! was in open-mouthed shock a few times#when i've absorbed this a bit more i'll be thrilled to have a backstory#she's so cute i love her#hope she has a wild time in the circus#in a good way#idk what to say ive got nothing intelligent to add fjfbjfj#GREAT art#some really stunning panels in there#we're so lucky to have some comics from our beloved band 😫 living the dream rn
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Chapter 106 - Class 1-A
#boku no hero academia#deku#izuku midoriya#bnha#my hero academia#okay while we have a closeup of his face...#do you guys think he'd have freckles anywhere else like on his shoulders or his back or something#his hero costume covers so much of him up so idk if he'd have them on his arms...#but i started thinking about him with freckles on his shoulders and got emotional over how cute my boy is#i have freckles whenever i get enough sun but i rarely get sun#i forgot i get them... and then i got some on my arm and i was like. RIGHT. GINGER.#they're fading now tho since it's been a while since i was in the sun (again)#anyway do you think during like summer breaks when he's like not at summer camp and he's doing actual summer stuff he gets more freckles#like after he's been spending a few days at the beach he's got extra freckles#katsuki who canonically knows how many freckles he has: fuck i have to recount god fucking dammit fuck this shit#sorry that's just my favorite fact about those two. they're so silly funny. why does he do that. why does he know how many he has.#and what is the point !!!#i love these kids...
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LIVING for your ponytail Yugi he’s so cute 😭💖
thank u! i hold dear in my heart the way yuugi is like a little plushie that wants nothing more than to die a noble death
#not art#ask#probably why i also refuse to draw yami taller or with the chiseled jawline he gets in canon#thats a child none of us get to forget thats a child#there kind of is a sense of like. swimming through the currents of mythos to reach real life? in the original ygo manga#(mostly talking abt manga bc that's truly like the only ygo media I actually look at and feel a kinship with lol. idk shit abt the anime)#a lot of the story is told with a heightened sensibility a la sailor moon. exaggerated characteristics colloquialized events etc#it fits the way teenagers feel emotions yes but it is also Convenient. like the way kaiba drops the cuff key into the harbor#and it falls directly into jou's field of vision. that's not how that works in real life#it's kinda drag-like in tone. essential steps with spectacles as the mortar and emotional arcs as the throughline#yuugi's wish for kinship and understanding and appreciation is realized within this framework and then the framework like#packs itself up and exits stage left. it's a year-and-a-half-long dream. you only bring into real life what you think of to bring#and that like. kinda fits with how yuugi reads in the manga for me. where he's always reaching to be A Character while not being able#to stop being just a teen in some city at the same time right. listen i have pdfs worth of chatlog with friends abt gender reading#and all of the stuff with the cute little things whose specialty is being cannon fodder or sacrificial lambs and the dialectics etc in ygo#the toy is the actual character while the fantasy and you holding it is in fact the messy reality of you#would like to say ''yuugi looking cute as hells is important to all of that'' but tbh thatd be a lie lol#i do just think the star shaped ponytail is a good idea i wanna keep drawing. but also yeah softening takahashi's style is kinda#a shame but I do think for the purpose of my own art at least it is kinda somewhat intended as commentary? in a sense#big ups to my guy rest in peace you were doing all that straight lines and circles and chrome in ink in the year of our lord two thousand#it is INSANE that ygo ended looking like that. at that point in time. not my preference but neither is caving or deep sea diving#he and his assistants were doing that shit By Hand. do you know how fucked up that is#but yeah due to the art style being that kind of clean and geometrical and processed there is. not a lot of greeblies#as well as a lot more risk of tangents and things reading not super clear due to line uniformity etc#and I like my greeblies and am from the fuckass school of french language comic so. here we end up#one thing i pride myself on in my own art is doing my damn best to get across the texture and weight of subjects with just ink so#i do think i make yuugi extra squishy lmao. like if u ragdoll him at a wall itd make a thwack#and <3 i categorically refuse to make atem/yami any more solid <3#thank u for coming to my tedtalk sorry this happened under ur ask. actually not sorry its my house. welcome to my house
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hey has anyone ever considered doing shinjiro smut for after the fade to black but he lays you across his lap, like has anyone ever considered the canon praise kink with him more—shinjiro who scolds you, calls you trouble and tells you to stay close to him like a "good girl", shinjiro who acts tough, pretends to be fed up with you pushing him around (he loves it, but that doesn't mean you're not gonna hear about it), ignoring what he wants, so two can play that game, and you think, god, he's not holding back anymore, he's going to kiss me, finally, we're going to— but no, he settles on his bed and pats his lap and tells you that you need to "take responsibility" for teasing him like that, messing with his feelings — "be a good girl." remember, you started this.
#shinjiro aragaki#suggestive#i also like the idea of asking him to do something and he outright scoffs like fully has an attitude about it#tries to remind you what he said about ignoring his needs and asks you what makes you think he's gonna pay attention to yours#you think you get to ask him anything? that's cute#i love playing into that though like i know everyone is all in on the 'i ain't holding back anymore bit' but sorry#man says 'you think you can just push me around? ignore what i want? yeah. well. two can play that game' in that VOICE too? whew boy#like i think he should get to do that a little bit i think he should put me over his lap until i behave#fuck i think it should be more than that though like imagine him lifting you and just. like. tossing you onto the bed.#trying to sass him about the noise and he's like 'you think i give a shit about those guys when i got you right here?' like#i want him to take the wind out of me ya feel i want to talk shit get bit#hit a little too but like open handed#or maybe he tosses you on the bed and you're like 'oh shit oh shit' and then he sits at the foot of it and fucking#PULLS you onto his lap and rucks up your skirt just like that and there are a few moments - a hitched breath#'under negotiated kink' i don't CAREEE that's part of the fantasy like how hot would it be to just have someone tick those boxes untold#either way whether he gets wild or not (preferably yes but maybe needs time to warm up)#it's like. god. he should get to y'know. like (some of) my autonomy being taken from me without him ever overstepping is hot. hot. hot.#he should bend me over his lap and make me keep count while he very tenderly very lovingly mocks me#condescending about the great leader letting herself be treated like this and enjoying it literally makes you turn around#and finally finally touches you properly but he fucking laughs and you're red-faced and he goes 'isn't that embarrassing' and ramps up#so you can't even answer him#god should i try to write this#i think i'm too much of a perfectionist to do this sometimes because i'll stew and never get it done ugh#anyway.#filth#pure filth#thank you#i think we outdid that suggestive tag#smut#(for safety)
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Claire getting her feelings SO SOOOOOOO hurt by Sam is one of my favorite dynamics. You see, they ALSO have the magical ability to hurt each other's feelings because, deep down, they're also-- x
#mix and match traits game actually#always fun#also do you know how offended claire would be to see jack drinking and getting to do dangerous shit right outta the gate DO YOU HEAR ME#IT WOULD MAKE HER INTO A TERROR#I'm not just some kid at the kids' table I've hunted more than GOLDEN BOY has#also this unites the claire sam mary parallel too#in this way they are alike even if their preferred modes of obtaining independence and self-reliance are different#late-seasons mary veers protector-ward ofc#in a surprisingly henry winchester and samuel campbell mode of idealized protecting for the greated good#whereas i don't think sam and claire ever quite get to those modes in-series#claire is so cute tho#rarely does anyone try to impress SAM#jack spends more time trying to impress dean and cas...#it is so special to me#sam has her number on the lone wolfing too it’s hilarious#what was it he said in s10? she only thinks she wants to be alone etc etc
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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually
#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match#maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya#oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig#OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2#amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe#wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here#i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready#oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets#i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma#my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff#so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk#i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff#also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao#k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see
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Was thinking again about Montceratops earlier and how fucking Normal it would be for Roxy to have found another fucking missing animatronic by that point. Like okay cool. Another one. This one is how old??? Aight... okay then. That's a new record I think...
Roxy and Cassie's dad asking for help for Montceratops at this point is like "let me guess. Roxy found a new friend." and it's not even a question. They don't have any idea what the fuck she's found this time but they see Cassie's dad walk in like "hey so uh. You wanna maybe prep the cylinder?" for the very first time asking the other techs for help and they just fucking know Roxy's found some old fucked up lil guy in the god knows where lmao
They learned from the dinosaurs, the chicken, the duck, the Eclipse and the fucking herd of horses that Roxy wasn't gonna get in real trouble for any of this shit. At this point? Yeah they might as well-WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S A FUCKING DINOMONTY?! WHAT THE FUCK????
#and now they HAVE to help because they're too curious about how this fucker even EXISTS not to lmao#roxy just casually saying whenever cera brings up how much trouble she'll get into for this that meh#most the people in the room think she's a murderer and she's still fucking here like buddy.#finding another animatronic is the LEAST of their worries right now lmao. cassie's dad is Concerned. as always with him.#this would make her bringing back the twin bunnies bonbon and bono back so unextraordinary too like#'oh okay. these guys are cute I guess. anyway-' while the bunnies are so fucking confused what do you MEAN no one cares???#they're back from the dead!!! hello??? is anybody listening??? they're... they're DEAD okay?? they DIED!!!! what do you MEAN 'whatever??'#if this had happened in their day? roxy would have vanished by mysterious circumstances by now.#cera is thinking the exact same thing. so is literally everyone else. how is she getting away with this.#the answer is that the higher ups don't care and the manager gave up lmao#manager tries to throw the book at her but she literally has higher clearance than him what the fuck is he gonna do lmao#that's another thing! it never won't be hilarious that if roxy has this security position granted by the board!#no one but cassie's dad has the clearance high enough to fuck with her! and he's literally the only one that doesn't want to do that!#some of the other handles are frothing at the mouth for an excuse to tase the ever loving shit out of her and cassie's dad just...#does not care. he actually got rid of the taser. or maybe he gave it to roxy I don't know. but he doesn't even have one anymore#that's how much he just does not care to 'control' roxy. he met her at her lowest point in life and is thus more concerned for her welfare#and that she doesn't snap like a twig and ACTUALLY kill someone. he knows she could. this is the animatronic he trusts most with his kid.#lmao cassie's dad makes absolutely ZERO sense to anyone ever#except me. he makes sense to me. because I made him like this. he is a good guy that's maybe a lil too forgiving#a bit of a pushover you might say. very protective but also learns who is and isn't a threat very quickly. like he clocked roxy right away#roxy fucking drenched in dried blood must have been a green flag for him or something lmao /j
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while im already on the train of teen wolf thoughts, i might as well say that i do not get sterek. romantically anyway. that ship is so intensely POPULAR and ive been seeing stuff about it for literal years, way before i ever even considered watching teen wolf or really knew what it was. pretty much every teen wolf fic i see on ao3 has some manner of sterek in it unless i SPECIFICALLY search for something else, like its just a given part of fanon, but now that im actually watching it im kinda like. where? like yeah they had that one vaguely homoerotic wall-pinning moment in season 1, they snark at each other a lot, but like. i don't even see them together that often. and that's not even MENTIONING the fact that in season 1 stiles is 15/16 and derek is fucking,, 22 (or 20, I'm not sure on his age but ik its at least a four-year difference),,, which is just. yeah no thanks
if anything they strike me more as, like, goofy, vaguely sibling-coded friends. stiles came along as a package deal with scott and started annoying the shit out of derek and derek had no say in the matter whatsoever, and i think that's beautiful.
all this being said, stiles is absolutely bisexual
#out of all the ships ive seen for teen wolf the one i can get behind the most is scott and isaac#like. that's some MAJOR devotion bro. isaac brings scott up like every other sentence (not literally but ykwim) its cute#the whole allison love triangle is mucking that up a bit and honestly just. what even is the point of that#but WITHOUT THAT. <3#and they dont even have a disturbing age gap!!!#(yeah it has not escaped my notice that teen wolf has some. issues. with minor/adult relationships and inappropriate age gaps)#(theres the whole thing with lydia and that deputy whose apparently like 24 or some shit that i havent even gotten to yet. not looking#-forward to that)#other random tw ship opinions:#scott and allison are actually cute! i was pleasantly surprised in season one when i actually LIKED the main het ship lmao#stiles and lydia (or what exists of them so far anyway) are also cute#i still think it would have been cute/nice/whatever if jackson had repressed feelings for danny (which i know is not an impossibility since#-he DOES apparently come back with a bf later on)#but like i dont know how much i actually see that or if i just like it in theory . really i appreciate their friendship as a friendship in#-its own right#on that note. danny and ethan: SWEET. get it danny. love the trope of 'i originally had an alterior motive for getting with you but i#-caught feelings and really care about you now oops'#speaking generally though the romance (whether canonical or otherwise) is definitely NOT what attracts me to and keeps me hooked on teen#-wolf. not by far#but i like having opinions about it anyway uwu#magpie thoughts
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I don't think I can keep being open minded to n@tl@n guys
#I'm trying so hard to like the fucking region but every time I played the game within that region I feel so mad#I'm trying out the new area n the new creature is just so lacklustre#Tbh I think the design r pretty/cute but playing as them??? Ugh UGH#How do make flying awful#That mechanic broke on me??! I was stuck having to float down to the water lvl cuz I wasn't at right lvl to hit the mountain top#N for some reason the movement for it was locked in one direction so I couldn't even try n turn to get to closer area orz#I know it was just a glitch BUT AFTER having to find that creature only for it not to work? Piss off omg#Also there so much mountain n okay fine I understand that the region design ig#But having wave point be at the highest place where u need to have one of the creatures to even get there if u don't have the correct chara#Character?? Insane fuck you#Ngl this makes me want to not pull any fucking characters out of principal/only pulled the archon cuz I'm guessing she gonna have all movem#In this game so what even the point of the other characters for movement#Feels like it punishing ppl for not pulling lacklustre characters or not being whales n not caring where Ur spending money#I don't care how 'good' the story is if the exploring part of your games is so garbage without the characters/until the archon is released#CUZ WHAT DO U MEAN YOUR EXPLORING GAME IS NOW BEHIND A FCKING PAYWALL#this is not a 'this character makes exploring easier in general' this is straight just needing a character or u can't explore this area eas#I'm not looking forward to any new areas in this region cuz what the point if I can't enjoy playing a game#This is worse than when in@zum@ had a lightening island#At least I could get that sht turn off when I played a story quest#Maybe I would like the region better if by doing the story quest the exploring in this region would be easier#Ugh#I remember seeing a tweet of somebody saying 'well Ur not playing the new story/area so of course u won't like it u haven't played it!'#Shaking them violently cuz I'm playing!! I'm reading!! This place sucks!! Gimmick is awful!!#Praying for the next region to not rely on this kinda shit#I know it probs gonna have the frostbite like dragonspine but imma be honest? Dragonspine is so much more enjoyable to explore than n@tl@n#W it gimmick
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God, I hope patch DT msq is good.

#i just want to be able to talk about msq with good faith criticism again.#endwalker patch content breaking the trend of not being as good or better than base expansion was a fluke right?#we're gonna address the several elephants in the room of rushed plotlines that DT fumbled hard right?#we're gonna put in fun unique duties for u to play in instead of just making it all cutscenes right? cuz it's a game and therefore#an interactive medium right? u can even let me play as The Character Whose Name Summons Hellfire that's fine! that duty was fun!#and i love getting to see characters' unique strengths like that in gameplay!#some of my favorite story moments are from getting to FEEL the struggle of characters who aren't the wol! it's always impactful!#and we did not get enough this time.#all of her trials should have been interactive.#how cute would it have been to have to play as her trying to catch a llama? the spit gets on u and gives u heavy debuff.#how much fun to actually have to remember what ingredients went where and when they came in for a silly cooking mini game?#how RAD would that train scene have been if u had to play a duty to defend it with turrets and not just a cutscene!?#other expansions would have done this! this is why people were bored! half of it was low stakes non-interactive filler that didn't matter.#and the other half had no room to breathe and threw out insane shit with huge leaps in logic and felt contrived as hell bcs it was rushed.#just... be a cute beach episode but still be a fun game to play! or be the epic feelings jrpg but give shit time to marinate! pick! ONE!!!
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In sooo so much pain BUT! Downloaded pkmn ultra sun and am having so much fun :)
#literally getting so emotional i loved this game sooo much as a teenager. played the shit out of it basically daily in middle school#i never got to play any of the ultra games bc i already had the base game n my parents wouldn't buy me the new ones... 😑#but now i get to play it. yaaayyy#i think im gonna trade some of my guys off my old save onto this one when i remember. i miss my decidueye lolll#i went with litten this time. literally hardest decision ive ever made the starters r sooo cute in this game#if pokemon sun/moon has no fans i am dead etc etc i have the biggest soft spot for these games. they don't make em like they used to#does anybody else remember when everybody bullied popplio for no reason... :( and for what. apologize right now#.txt#you don't like seal? 🦭? clown seal? 🤡🦭? arf arf?
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girl what the fuck are they doing in the mcu
#if it had been hugh jackman and ryan reynolds as themselves that's one thing but no it's wolverine and deadpool? for some fucking reason <3#if they do exist in the mcu which one of them is mostly likely to get venomed and weird about it cast your votes now#the mv was cute maybe not my fav but certainly not bad#lurv the instrumental i just kinda wish the beat was funkier in a way i know chris is capable of? but i do like her and i'm excited for the#rest of the album <3#again chris making seungmin dumb shit he can’t keep getting away with it........ he snipes his goals. sure. work queen#hyunjin ate the first chorus UP i love that look on him. final form.#the cody ko ification of changbin and chan's rap is fascinating but maybe not what we need to focus on when mimo is right there#anyway 🫶 if they do any other stupid shit i will post about it 🫶#a post#skeez
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If you had to give Garth a new friend group who would it be?
that's rough.....
because honestly part of his charm is that he's extremely maidenless... well not maidenless he Is pulling hot babes left and right but friends?? ooh boy,,,
i wouldn't want to take away the fab five from him, despite how poorly they treat him at times. However, i do think it would've been really cool to see him with the new teen titans! i completely understand why he wasn't with them at that point, like i get it. but just from a character relations perspective, i do think this would've been a natural next step if he wasn't so self-deprecating (and busy in atlantis). dick and donna were consistently the nicest to him out of the fab five so he gets to keep some of that previous dynamic. wally is also there but,, roy isn't!!! no offense to roy i like him on his own but he was a big reason why garth left in the first place so. yknow.
but anyway, garth does have good relationships with kori, garfield, and victor. and i guess raven too but we don't really see that,, like ever. he's obviously not close to them, but they're not mean to him. which is a big thing for garth! kori seems to hold him in high regard too, at least after he becomes tempest, so it would've been nice to see their relationship actually progress to the point where she trusts him like that. like in the titans (1999) issue 19 where she says she trusts him with her life. like. what the fuck!! there are also multiple issues where garth and garfield have a little friendship going on (that one panel where garfield yells at arthur gives me so much life adghlj). and there are a few cute moments between garth and victor.
i really don't think he'd become like,, besties or family with any of them, but if i really had to give him More friends, i think they would've been the safest bet.
within the confines of underwater,,, letifos Should come back. idc if they're dating or not, but she should just always be there. for Me, personally <3 i think it'd be hilarious if tula and dolphin also came back at the same time. it'd never happen but who cares. the four of them can be in some weird polycule together aldhg
my second hot take is that garth and koryak should've become besties
#that one issue is so good like not only did she just Say that but this was an entire war between her people and some other aliens#like thats huge!! and we should get to see them interact more!!#or the titans issue 14.. they were so cute in that one!#answered#if youre asking for like entirely new people i dont know what to say tbh...#ive pondered the idea of him having some magic friends but im not sure how that would play out#but anyway garth and koryak should talk shit about arthur right behind his back perfectly in earshot#and he should be so exasperated but deal with it because those are his sons and what else can he do#and he's too tired to punch both of them#aldhglj
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anyways. i feel like ive said this before but i think that wouldve been a bigger concern of his when he was younger and was trying to think abt how he was gonna like. live in the world. well and then the world exploded and he decided he could do whatever he wants forever and started larping as his fursona and i think hes chill about it now. like i think hes okay.
#i think at the end of the day he does like his body. especially as he gets older and circumstances change and he feels more like a person#who is alive again i think he really does like himself. and i think part of it is just that he really does do whatever he wants whenever#he wants to do it.#like i think it feels like a bigger deal before everything explodes because like well you have to find a way to navigate the social aspect#of everything you do right. and in my mind i think hes recieved a lot of shit for a lot of things in his life#hence why hes kind of a very angry and isolated person. so i do think when him and fish meet and theyre this very confident person#and a relatively happy person too. and they do it in a way that feels really genuine. so i think that gets his gears turning where hes like#maybe. maybe i could do that and it would fix it. and the social aspect of it basically dissapears because the best person in his life#(in his eyes obv) is also doing that and isnt gonna make it a big deal and a lot of what they like about him is the same stuff he got shit 4#so its like. idk i think maybe theyd talk about it once but i think the hurdle for him is that he doesnt really want to change anything?#not anything changeable at least. i think he likes who he is i dont think hes really particularly insecure in his body or anything#i just think he feels this kind of disconnect from the idea of a person and the idea of himself#i think that something rlly persistent for basically his entire life as mako that he just doesnt. feel like a person. he cant really.#part of why they cling 2 each other is bcs they make each other feel. real and grounded and people. human in a way.#so i think roadhog as an idea helps with that especially again as he gets older and rat becomes a thing and life gets Good again i think#for the first time in his life hes going to really consistently feel like somebody#^ this is why i dont like talking abt hog as a persona and why i liek to call the mask his face. because it is. this is the person he is yk#and i think at some point hes okay being a guy with two names and two faces and sometimes his fish calls him their wife#and he wears cute underwear and its not a big deal and he doesnt even really think about it anymore because it all just feels natural. easy
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once again thinking about trent startling easily
#so many possible routes to go with this#from comedic/silly (hes just Like That and its cute) to 😏 to agonizing angst#i wonder what like. people think about this? in universe i mean?#whether it's people he actually talks to fairly regularly (ted and colin and beard perhaps--or#specifically roy who's already got some shit to work through i mean#when he makes jamie flinch i think that's something he could see as like. bad and he doesn't want to do that bc he Knows#but then like. it's funny when trent jumps right? bc he's just that asshole journalist? even if they're cool now it's not like it actually#is harmful or matters. right? but then confronting that like contradiction of like. if it isn't funny when you make jamie jump#why is it funny when trent jumps? just bc you dont KNOW if he was smacked around as a kid? would it matter even if he wasn't?#roy dealing with his anger issues and his way of scaring people around him (even in small seemingly ''harmless'' ways) you know what i mean#im not wording this well but that's fine#or to go back to colin like. just ough. something about that one in particular gets me they've got so many parallels with like. becoming a#bully to stop being a victim? and like. i don't know) ANYWAY all that versus like. just. random players? that trent doesn't talk to?#isaac who reads body language noticing how tense and jumpy he can be (versus how his body language opens up and loosens around ted perhaps)#or just. again. random players! fucking. jamie. ough.#or even like keeley or higgins or rebecca#i don't know can you tell im still obsessed with pov outisder? i just think its neat.#and even like... before. like obviously this is most prominent in s3 when he's willfully taking off the masks and letting down the walls#being more vulnerable--because of ted or even for ted--and like. he's very used to performing the scary cool unfazed journalist thing#so not only is he not hiding behind that persona but he's also more vulnerable and open and therefore its not surprising he'd be more jumpy#but like..... god..... do ythink he was always a little jumpy he just hid it better?#do ythink in a room full of sharp eyed journalists paid to observe any of them ever noticed the ruthless trent crimm badly startle#at loud noises/raised voices/a hand to close to his face? bc like. he would try very hard to make them not notice. but everyone slips up#do ythink one of them did anyway? i dunno i jsut think ough#trent crimm#ted lasso#now this would make a good 5+1 fic but i do i really need another one of those?
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