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I’m kinda nervous rn….ok just so you know, my parents know I’m gay, but my mom suddenly invited me out to get our nails done, and idk maybe I’m just overthinking but its…..auuuaggggghh I wanna,,,,,maybe,,paint my nails,.,,,but a very VERY small but loud part of me is ringing alarm bells of crumbling masculinity,,,,,
AUGH I’m gonna scream into a pillow, gimme a sec, I gotta just get this out.
#neil talky#Its stupid I know it’s VERY stupid#shit like this shouldn’t be gendered but#Fuck you know???#I’ve always been that dude who’s just#dark clothes barely talks very cringy chuuni shit#but when my mom invited me I thought like#what if I get some cute shit right??#I KNOW THIS WONT MAKE ME ANY LESS OF A GUY#and I have they/them pronouns anyway so I dont feel like a guy ALL the time BUT#you know#you know!!!!#ugh#I’ll get over this I’ll hype myself up I AM gonna get cute colours and shit#Just need to#scream into a pillow first#The nail manicurist is my mom’s highschool friend and she knows I’m a queer so its whatevs but#gender panic for what other people will think ig#DEEP BREATHS NEIL HEEHOO HEEHOO HEEHOO
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aughh that f2l drabble u did was SO GOOD i love megumi being angry at his own feelings... even in a not physical reaction way ehhe i think he'd be so grumpy when he catches himself thinking ur pretty !!!! pls rot with me ..
megumi is sooo funny because he gets angry at his own feelings for… existing unintentionally, and then remains upset when he acknowledges them but doesn’t do anything about them 😭 he’s emotionally intelligent, just not emotionally receptive or available which is a hilarious combination bc he’s stewing about his own feelings instead of… feeling them
he knows he likes you. great. except it’s not because he didn’t ask to like you, or to think you’re pretty while you’re with him walking the dogs. logically, he understands this conclusion: you are pretty, but that doesn’t mean he wants to be distracted by it. and, sure, when he is thinking you’re pretty, he has such a soft look on his face, his eyes are so warm and his features are so relaxed, but the second he realizes what he’s thinking, his face screws up so quickly, you’d think you just kicked his puppy or something. if you ask him what’s up, he usually rolls his eyes and keeps it moving, but occasionally, you’ll catch him in on a particularly talkative day, to which he’ll confess, “your hair. it’s cute,” he grumbles, “why?” and then won’t give you a chance to answer, or even make sense of him, before he’s on his way.
there comes a point where he just begins to sigh. he sees you and he sighs, you touch him or hug him and he sighs, he opens the door to pick you up to head to the movies with nobara and yuuji, and he just sighs, because you’re all dressed up and you look good, but if he’s going to cope with this he needs to turn around and starts heading for the car while you try to make sense of him and catch up to his scurrying. it’s exhausting. he didn’t ask for this, but he’d rather die than not be around you, so such is life; but he’d also rather die than tell you about any of this, which somehow, adds more anger to this equation.
#anonymous#hes getting angry that youre cute to him and it's not cute aggression its aggression due to cute/attraction#hes so hilarious megumi fushiguro the comedian that you are#this is especially funny in a childhood f2l setting#bc i can imagine he catches himself thinking about you and snaps out of it and goes oh BROTHER! this STINKS!#(everybody but you and him seem to understand what's going on)#there are two versions of f2l megumi in my head#(1) surprised and then upset about his feelings for you; accepts them begrudgingly but is somehow still confident#that despite his anger for falling in love you that he is absolutely the right match for you#and (2) he accepted his feelings a long time ago. not that he plans on saying anything about it but he firmly believes u two are endgame#so whatever relationships or crushes happen in between are inconsequential. megumi thinks he was made to love u and some day you'll get tha#either way he aint shit 😐 thats always the conclusion w them#megumi.ask
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Chapter 106 - Class 1-A
#boku no hero academia#deku#izuku midoriya#bnha#my hero academia#okay while we have a closeup of his face...#do you guys think he'd have freckles anywhere else like on his shoulders or his back or something#his hero costume covers so much of him up so idk if he'd have them on his arms...#but i started thinking about him with freckles on his shoulders and got emotional over how cute my boy is#i have freckles whenever i get enough sun but i rarely get sun#i forgot i get them... and then i got some on my arm and i was like. RIGHT. GINGER.#they're fading now tho since it's been a while since i was in the sun (again)#anyway do you think during like summer breaks when he's like not at summer camp and he's doing actual summer stuff he gets more freckles#like after he's been spending a few days at the beach he's got extra freckles#katsuki who canonically knows how many freckles he has: fuck i have to recount god fucking dammit fuck this shit#sorry that's just my favorite fact about those two. they're so silly funny. why does he do that. why does he know how many he has.#and what is the point !!!#i love these kids...
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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually
#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match#maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya#oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig#OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2#amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe#wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here#i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready#oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets#i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma#my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff#so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk#i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff#also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao#k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see
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I don't think I can keep being open minded to n@tl@n guys
#I'm trying so hard to like the fucking region but every time I played the game within that region I feel so mad#I'm trying out the new area n the new creature is just so lacklustre#Tbh I think the design r pretty/cute but playing as them??? Ugh UGH#How do make flying awful#That mechanic broke on me??! I was stuck having to float down to the water lvl cuz I wasn't at right lvl to hit the mountain top#N for some reason the movement for it was locked in one direction so I couldn't even try n turn to get to closer area orz#I know it was just a glitch BUT AFTER having to find that creature only for it not to work? Piss off omg#Also there so much mountain n okay fine I understand that the region design ig#But having wave point be at the highest place where u need to have one of the creatures to even get there if u don't have the correct chara#Character?? Insane fuck you#Ngl this makes me want to not pull any fucking characters out of principal/only pulled the archon cuz I'm guessing she gonna have all movem#In this game so what even the point of the other characters for movement#Feels like it punishing ppl for not pulling lacklustre characters or not being whales n not caring where Ur spending money#I don't care how 'good' the story is if the exploring part of your games is so garbage without the characters/until the archon is released#CUZ WHAT DO U MEAN YOUR EXPLORING GAME IS NOW BEHIND A FCKING PAYWALL#this is not a 'this character makes exploring easier in general' this is straight just needing a character or u can't explore this area eas#I'm not looking forward to any new areas in this region cuz what the point if I can't enjoy playing a game#This is worse than when in@zum@ had a lightening island#At least I could get that sht turn off when I played a story quest#Maybe I would like the region better if by doing the story quest the exploring in this region would be easier#Ugh#I remember seeing a tweet of somebody saying 'well Ur not playing the new story/area so of course u won't like it u haven't played it!'#Shaking them violently cuz I'm playing!! I'm reading!! This place sucks!! Gimmick is awful!!#Praying for the next region to not rely on this kinda shit#I know it probs gonna have the frostbite like dragonspine but imma be honest? Dragonspine is so much more enjoyable to explore than n@tl@n#W it gimmick
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God, I hope patch DT msq is good.
#i just want to be able to talk about msq with good faith criticism again.#endwalker patch content breaking the trend of not being as good or better than base expansion was a fluke right?#we're gonna address the several elephants in the room of rushed plotlines that DT fumbled hard right?#we're gonna put in fun unique duties for u to play in instead of just making it all cutscenes right? cuz it's a game and therefore#an interactive medium right? u can even let me play as The Character Whose Name Summons Hellfire that's fine! that duty was fun!#and i love getting to see characters' unique strengths like that in gameplay!#some of my favorite story moments are from getting to FEEL the struggle of characters who aren't the wol! it's always impactful!#and we did not get enough this time.#all of her trials should have been interactive.#how cute would it have been to have to play as her trying to catch a llama? the spit gets on u and gives u heavy debuff.#how much fun to actually have to remember what ingredients went where and when they came in for a silly cooking mini game?#how RAD would that train scene have been if u had to play a duty to defend it with turrets and not just a cutscene!?#other expansions would have done this! this is why people were bored! half of it was low stakes non-interactive filler that didn't matter.#and the other half had no room to breathe and threw out insane shit with huge leaps in logic and felt contrived as hell bcs it was rushed.#just... be a cute beach episode but still be a fun game to play! or be the epic feelings jrpg but give shit time to marinate! pick! ONE!!!
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hey has anyone ever considered doing shinjiro smut for after the fade to black but he lays you across his lap, like has anyone ever considered the canon praise kink with him more—shinjiro who scolds you, calls you trouble and tells you to stay close to him like a "good girl", shinjiro who acts tough, pretends to be fed up with you pushing him around (he loves it, but that doesn't mean you're not gonna hear about it), ignoring what he wants, so two can play that game, and you think, god, he's not holding back anymore, he's going to kiss me, finally, we're going to— but no, he settles on his bed and pats his lap and tells you that you need to "take responsibility" for teasing him like that, messing with his feelings — "be a good girl." remember, you started this.
#shinjiro aragaki#suggestive#i also like the idea of asking him to do something and he outright scoffs like fully has an attitude about it#tries to remind you what he said about ignoring his needs and asks you what makes you think he's gonna pay attention to yours#you think you get to ask him anything? that's cute#i love playing into that though like i know everyone is all in on the 'i ain't holding back anymore bit' but sorry#man says 'you think you can just push me around? ignore what i want? yeah. well. two can play that game' in that VOICE too? whew boy#like i think he should get to do that a little bit i think he should put me over his lap until i behave#fuck i think it should be more than that though like imagine him lifting you and just. like. tossing you onto the bed.#trying to sass him about the noise and he's like 'you think i give a shit about those guys when i got you right here?' like#i want him to take the wind out of me ya feel i want to talk shit get bit#hit a little too but like open handed#or maybe he tosses you on the bed and you're like 'oh shit oh shit' and then he sits at the foot of it and fucking#PULLS you onto his lap and rucks up your skirt just like that and there are a few moments - a hitched breath#'under negotiated kink' i don't CAREEE that's part of the fantasy like how hot would it be to just have someone tick those boxes untold#either way whether he gets wild or not (preferably yes but maybe needs time to warm up)#it's like. god. he should get to y'know. like (some of) my autonomy being taken from me without him ever overstepping is hot. hot. hot.#he should bend me over his lap and make me keep count while he very tenderly very lovingly mocks me#condescending about the great leader letting herself be treated like this and enjoying it literally makes you turn around#and finally finally touches you properly but he fucking laughs and you're red-faced and he goes 'isn't that embarrassing' and ramps up#so you can't even answer him#god should i try to write this#i think i'm too much of a perfectionist to do this sometimes because i'll stew and never get it done ugh#anyway.#filth#pure filth#thank you#i think we outdid that suggestive tag#smut#(for safety)
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IF I GET ONE MORE ILL INFORMED AND INSECURITY BAITING INSTAGRAM REEL ABOUT HEALTH OR FOOD OR COOKING OR BUGS IM GOING TO DELETE THE APP FOREVER OMG STOP
#its so bad i just want pet videos!!!!! i dont need to be told everything that i do is bad for me and i need to keep 1000 things more in mind#this causes cancer this id bad have you tried cooking HAVE YOU TRIED COOKING THIS GREAT MEAL YOU LAZY FUCK WHY ARE YOU NOT COOKING#oh its because i'm disabled and a student living on my own THANKS FOR THE GUILT THO#i literally physically cant. if you want me to eat 'healthy' so badly why dont you come over to my flat and do it for me you shit#its insanely triggering for me like i was raised by an almond parents with a medical degree i cannot do this anymore#everything wants me to have an ed sooo badly but i refuse out of sheer spite you cannot get me you stupid fucks#i'm just so frustrated rn#so triggered#also the ocd#ugh#:(#i wish people would just stop with this 'pov did you know' thing when they dont even know what they're talking about OR just do it for the#anxiety factor views#many ppl feel better if they view this shit and it tells them that THEY are doing everything right instead of those silly lazy ppl#i dont need to CONSTANTLY be exposed to stories about people dying of food poisoning etc#just show me some cute dogs#tw ed#tw food#cw food#food#bugs#cw bugs#cw ed#tw caps#vent#personal#sage posting
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having headcanons for party banter/ambient dialogue with lleyth save me. save me party banter headcanons
#💾#i want to take time to actually write some of them out like i did for alexei that one time#but my brain is shredding up the furniture right now. so ill just blab vague ideas on the tags#i think a fun one is lleyth and lucanis comparing some of their favorite assassinations in detail#and the unlucky third person in the party is like you people are freaks. im not listening to this#because i KNOW lleyth would go into graphic detail#there could also be a similar conversation later but that time it would be about comparing potential ways to kill someone#and once again the poor third person in earshot is like. what the fuck guys#(probably davrin because he would be subjected to their crow banter the most)#and then there's banter where lleyth giggles at something lucanis says and calls him cute. which makes him cough#(probably asking him about something wyvern related)#also banter with harding where they get in a small sibling-esque argument re: ferelden#lleyth is ferelden's no. 1 hater. and they would bicker about this#and it would be something like. lleyth pointing out that ferelden is like 55% dog shit#and harding hitting back with pointing out that all of the birds in antiva shit everywhere too#and lleyth being like 'hm. i concede to your point. for now'#and i also just thought of a sweet ambient lighthouse dialogue w lleyth and lucanis :'(#where lleyth is just like '.... thank you for making tea earlier.'#'of course. and your migraine....?' 'it's better. it helped. you're sweet you know that?' ← (pre-romance)#me when my brain gives me writing ideas for singular dislogue snippets and not any of my actual wips: *snoopy strangling self*
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CORRECT THANK YOU FOR SHARING
#submission#I actually have seen this meme because someone sent it to my supervisor at some point and she showed it to all of us ajdbkajs#working with a bunch of gay autistic math nerds fucking rules lmfao y'all have no idea#one of my bosses is super into sci fi and is also a math teacher and puts star trek and firefly and buffy and hitchhikers guide etc etc#references in EVERYTHING he makes. I took a math class from him once and all of the test questions were about some fuckin show#whenever he runs meetings he asks us questions based on star trek usually. recently in a meeting he asked us to choose the best captain#I'm one of only like 3 people who watches all of this shit so I looove going to meetings when he runs them#bc he'll ask some fuckin question like who's the best star trek captain. and the 3 of us who knows what's going on will just start arguing#while everyone else looks around like what the fuck is going on right now (this one always gets the newbies)#my ALL TIME favorite Jake moment tho was when I was there one night and there were no students so we were all just hanging out#and Jake walks out of his office and he looks kind of annoyed. and he's a big dude like super tall and broad and loud as hell#so I can hear him like mumbling shit all annoyed and I'm like hey Jake what's up? you doin ok?#and he sighed and was like no. the schools internet filter started blocking my FAVORITE board game forum#and now when I have a thought I can't just look it up to see if anyone's said anything about it. and that's like ALL I do. it's so annoying#and I was like Jake maybe that's why they blocked it akddjkansbdjsdbebs#god I love that dude. and this barely mentions my other supervisor who is autistic and pansexual and married to a woman#and both of them foster several kids. Jake has like 10 fuckin kids or smth bc he was fostering a couple of kids and then he got married#and she already had children and then they had a baby together. idk he's got like a whole baseball team they're very cute
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while im already on the train of teen wolf thoughts, i might as well say that i do not get sterek. romantically anyway. that ship is so intensely POPULAR and ive been seeing stuff about it for literal years, way before i ever even considered watching teen wolf or really knew what it was. pretty much every teen wolf fic i see on ao3 has some manner of sterek in it unless i SPECIFICALLY search for something else, like its just a given part of fanon, but now that im actually watching it im kinda like. where? like yeah they had that one vaguely homoerotic wall-pinning moment in season 1, they snark at each other a lot, but like. i don't even see them together that often. and that's not even MENTIONING the fact that in season 1 stiles is 15/16 and derek is fucking,, 22 (or 20, I'm not sure on his age but ik its at least a four-year difference),,, which is just. yeah no thanks
if anything they strike me more as, like, goofy, vaguely sibling-coded friends. stiles came along as a package deal with scott and started annoying the shit out of derek and derek had no say in the matter whatsoever, and i think that's beautiful.
all this being said, stiles is absolutely bisexual
#out of all the ships ive seen for teen wolf the one i can get behind the most is scott and isaac#like. that's some MAJOR devotion bro. isaac brings scott up like every other sentence (not literally but ykwim) its cute#the whole allison love triangle is mucking that up a bit and honestly just. what even is the point of that#but WITHOUT THAT. <3#and they dont even have a disturbing age gap!!!#(yeah it has not escaped my notice that teen wolf has some. issues. with minor/adult relationships and inappropriate age gaps)#(theres the whole thing with lydia and that deputy whose apparently like 24 or some shit that i havent even gotten to yet. not looking#-forward to that)#other random tw ship opinions:#scott and allison are actually cute! i was pleasantly surprised in season one when i actually LIKED the main het ship lmao#stiles and lydia (or what exists of them so far anyway) are also cute#i still think it would have been cute/nice/whatever if jackson had repressed feelings for danny (which i know is not an impossibility since#-he DOES apparently come back with a bf later on)#but like i dont know how much i actually see that or if i just like it in theory . really i appreciate their friendship as a friendship in#-its own right#on that note. danny and ethan: SWEET. get it danny. love the trope of 'i originally had an alterior motive for getting with you but i#-caught feelings and really care about you now oops'#speaking generally though the romance (whether canonical or otherwise) is definitely NOT what attracts me to and keeps me hooked on teen#-wolf. not by far#but i like having opinions about it anyway uwu#magpie thoughts
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girl what the fuck are they doing in the mcu
#if it had been hugh jackman and ryan reynolds as themselves that's one thing but no it's wolverine and deadpool? for some fucking reason <3#if they do exist in the mcu which one of them is mostly likely to get venomed and weird about it cast your votes now#the mv was cute maybe not my fav but certainly not bad#lurv the instrumental i just kinda wish the beat was funkier in a way i know chris is capable of? but i do like her and i'm excited for the#rest of the album <3#again chris making seungmin dumb shit he can’t keep getting away with it........ he snipes his goals. sure. work queen#hyunjin ate the first chorus UP i love that look on him. final form.#the cody ko ification of changbin and chan's rap is fascinating but maybe not what we need to focus on when mimo is right there#anyway 🫶 if they do any other stupid shit i will post about it 🫶#a post#skeez
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If you had to give Garth a new friend group who would it be?
that's rough.....
because honestly part of his charm is that he's extremely maidenless... well not maidenless he Is pulling hot babes left and right but friends?? ooh boy,,,
i wouldn't want to take away the fab five from him, despite how poorly they treat him at times. However, i do think it would've been really cool to see him with the new teen titans! i completely understand why he wasn't with them at that point, like i get it. but just from a character relations perspective, i do think this would've been a natural next step if he wasn't so self-deprecating (and busy in atlantis). dick and donna were consistently the nicest to him out of the fab five so he gets to keep some of that previous dynamic. wally is also there but,, roy isn't!!! no offense to roy i like him on his own but he was a big reason why garth left in the first place so. yknow.
but anyway, garth does have good relationships with kori, garfield, and victor. and i guess raven too but we don't really see that,, like ever. he's obviously not close to them, but they're not mean to him. which is a big thing for garth! kori seems to hold him in high regard too, at least after he becomes tempest, so it would've been nice to see their relationship actually progress to the point where she trusts him like that. like in the titans (1999) issue 19 where she says she trusts him with her life. like. what the fuck!! there are also multiple issues where garth and garfield have a little friendship going on (that one panel where garfield yells at arthur gives me so much life adghlj). and there are a few cute moments between garth and victor.
i really don't think he'd become like,, besties or family with any of them, but if i really had to give him More friends, i think they would've been the safest bet.
within the confines of underwater,,, letifos Should come back. idc if they're dating or not, but she should just always be there. for Me, personally <3 i think it'd be hilarious if tula and dolphin also came back at the same time. it'd never happen but who cares. the four of them can be in some weird polycule together aldhg
my second hot take is that garth and koryak should've become besties
#that one issue is so good like not only did she just Say that but this was an entire war between her people and some other aliens#like thats huge!! and we should get to see them interact more!!#or the titans issue 14.. they were so cute in that one!#answered#if youre asking for like entirely new people i dont know what to say tbh...#ive pondered the idea of him having some magic friends but im not sure how that would play out#but anyway garth and koryak should talk shit about arthur right behind his back perfectly in earshot#and he should be so exasperated but deal with it because those are his sons and what else can he do#and he's too tired to punch both of them#aldhglj
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pro: ran into a coworker at a bar last night who I don’t really talk to usually (he works upstairs, I work downstairs) and we talked and im pretty sure we were highkey flirting and he bought me a drink and the bar merch shirt i was interested in and thanks to the power of alcohol i guess i asked for his number and he gladly gave it to me and. yeah
con: i have the second worst hangover i have ever had and have been fighting for my fucking life just to eat saltines
#it’s getting better but only now that it’s like. 6pm#as weird as it sounds part of why this sucks is that I volunteered to come into work today cause there’s a concert going on nearby which#usually means we’re at least somewhat busy -> make better tips#and I couldn’t go in because well. you know#I’ve been sick and dying in bed all day unable to move or eat or anything#let alone take the bus and go to work#but. as much as I wish I didn’t go this overboard I don’t totally regret last night cause.#yeah. potential thing going on with cute coworker guy. OH and potential job opportunity at my favorite bar in town#apparently said coworker Also has a job at the bar in addition to where we both work and the bar is hiring barbacks at entry-level#so I have someone to vouch for me and the bartender we were talking to seemed to really want me to apply too#one thing that’s kinda funny to me about all this is that the first two places (a bar then a club) we were at felt really mid because they#were packed with way too many straight people (at a gay bar and a gay club)#but the bar we ended up at (where we ALWAYS end up at. it is the oasis. it is the only thing I can rely on) felt. like. not overwhelmingly#straight? at all? I mean part of it’s just luck in a way with just who happened to be there and all that but it’s also that the staff seem#pretty significantly populated with queer ppl#I complained to the bartender about how the club we were at (one of the biggest gay clubs in the city- if not The biggest) just felt kinda#meh because yeah maybe there were some guys dancing in jockstraps and whatever but the crowd itself like. did not feel largely queer#or at least didn’t have the spirit I’d hope for in a queer space if that makes sense. felt very conventional. not enough wild outfits and#makeup and gender fuckery and so on#and the bartender was like dude I KNOW right? I went off outside there once about the invasion of cishets when this space isn’t FOR them#and so on and so forth. and god that was So real.#so the experience at my beloved bar last night was like. 1) guy comes up behind me just to order a drink but i was saving a seat for my#friend who was in the bathroom and mentioned that in case he was looking to take the seat. chatted a little. ended with him pointing out#that a guy nearby was trying to holla at me.#2) I look over and yes. the dj is. in fact. looking directly at me and mouthing the lyrics to whatever song was playing pointed my way.#it was pretty sweet honestly I think it was partly cause I looked like I was shy and alone#3) whatever gay shit was going on with my coworker and i. amusingly he seems to get more flamboyant when he drinks just like i do.#im not 100% sure what his sexuality is but i Am 100% sure it is Not straight. but yeah. if it hadn’t been so close to closing time ive been#hardcore wondering where that would’ve gone. maybe its for the best that i had to go when i did cause i was pretty drunk and who knows when#I could’ve hit the amount of drunk it takes to like outright say hey just so you know i’d suck your dick right now if you wanted
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i think my tolerance for moe (ie the anime stuff) is in freefall rn
#(very long tags just a warning)#once you start realising how ingrained the idea is of youth as the ultimate ideal is you see it everywhere and it gets annoying#the way most popular media is about teenagers doing stuff. the way all the popular art is conventionally attractive people#people calling porcelain doll-faced anime girls in gachas ''milfs'' and ''grandmas''#and in the same way the moe ideal is of youthful characters you can find ''cute'' or you're meant to feel you want to protect#something that's more about what they make you feel rather than anything seen as an actual person#and ''moe voice'' anime girl samples/vocals are everywhere in some the genres of music i listen to#so of course this shit is everywhere online. you go to discuss a certain game and nobody gives a fuck about the female mc as a person#they just want to share sanitised art where she's cute or in a maid outfit or whatever#they never have to think about the female characters in a story when they can just call her cute and share said art#they don't want a person they want something cute#age lines and anger and low periods and certain body types and other facts of life considered ''undesirable'' have no place in moe#people don't want that stuff. and that's what gets me. it's internalised and ingrained EVERYWHERE#and that's transformed into something very ugly in that it's being taken as an ideal rather than a character type#and it means a lot of the things i think are part of the experience of living are cut out and ignored and treated as unwanted#as well as manifesting as ageism and racism and xenophobia at worst when taken as an actual ideal#why do you think there are so many far right wingers who love all that moe stuff and have anime pfps?#anyway back to my main point of irritation with youth as an ideal: that's just an extreme case#i consider moe a form of crystallisation of youth as an ideal as well as what Certain People want from women#and that's why i find myself. tolerating it less.#i don't want a small anime girl to find cute and ''protect'' and otherwise not think about i want a PERSON#anyway ik nobody's gonna read this i just. i tried to listen to a mashup album from 2011 today#i got annoyed with the constant high pitched moe voice samples and had to turn it off bc i was thinking about all of this#i've never really gotten annoyed w it like this til now tbh
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sawashiro twitter really spicin it up today talkin bout sawashiro's inability to smile
#snap chats#i beat them to that topic months ago........ and now im living again watching everyone talk bout it#i never talk bout what goes down on my tl but it's funny because i have never seen jp twitter have a hivemind day#like my eng-speakin mooties Of Course so i wanna know whats cookin over there....#theyre all right btw. sawashiro just never smiles unless it's preceding some villain shit#really funny but also sad on the lowkey. and then he stabs someones eye in and im like Ok Maybe Not That Sad#he's not fine he's at least getting by#WHICH. I REPEAT. WHY IS HE CHILLIN IN 8. category 12 disaster incoming its so bad we had to make a new scale for it#ouuuggh but hes so cute.........oppening my canvas brb </3
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