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mossywizard · 2 years ago

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Shaking my gay ass to be normal and focus on normal things, like Circe’s magic and how maybe she just gave the men a better life chillin on her island as “pigs”

#i also like actual scary villain don’t get me wrong #but woe is me they no longer long for their home? rip #drugging someone is never good tho but like #do you see the goofy vibe ??#I’ve literally not read the whole Iliad I’d you quote me I’m shake you not on the way I shake me #well- maybe in the way I shake me #I’m just trying to keep giddy heart in line and get a story written well!!#or figure out a more productive means of writing cuz maybe I’m trying to shove too much thought into a lil narrative #lil narratice as it breaks into a second and possible third book but- aaaa

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boygirlctommy · 3 months ago

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i love the bit from oct 17 2020 when tommy and quackity trapped wilbur in a cobblestone box to keep him from pressing the button... wilbur punching through the blocks with his bare hand to try to get to the button... tommy frantically replacing the block in front of him yelling for quackity to do something... the moment when tommy stops, blocks the exit, and tells wilbur to do it. press the button. but then theyd die with him. quackitys like "wait, wait-" but tommy holds his ground and wilbur. ohh wilbur. "why'd you have to make it so hard?"

#my post #this is just me rambling sorry i love that stream ive watched it sososossoooo many times from all 3 povs #AND AFTER TOMMY AND QUACKITY LEAVE....#wilbur replaces the button. i just need to know that its there.#and he goes on and on about how hes such a showman. how he shouldve just pressed it when he was alone.#but he just NEEDED someone to see him he needed someone to bear witness. guh #shaking. shaking. shaking. tommy put so much trust in him in that moment. he looked at him and said i know you want to hurt yourself but yo #wouldnt hurt me. and is he right to believe that? is he? maybe back in lmanberg maybe back during 'your life is worth more than the #revolution' but in pogtopia?? during 'wilbur wanted to be treated poorly so he treated others poorly'? it was a gamble for sure #and i mean as time went on tommy realized that. that as much as he cared about wilbur he couldnt trust him all the way.#but either way. in that moment i think tommy was sure that wilbur wouldnt press it if he realized that tommyd be killed as well.#that even though at this point people were saying wilbur was crazy. that hed lost it. that even if he didnt get it he knew something was #different about wilbur now. in that moment he bet everything on if there was anything of his brother left he wouldnt hurt him.#fucking. collapses onto the floor #disclaimer if anyone actually reads this far im not trying to slander pogbur in 2024 by calling him crazy thats just how like. every single #other character saw him.#anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk

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thatgoddamngingerundercut · 8 months ago

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Run BTS Challenge Suga and Jimin

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud..#but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

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trainingdummyrabbit · 1 month ago

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hey. dont cry. In Hell We Live, Lament (Instrumental) - Mili, ok?

#smthn about the piano during the duo part... the strings. grisps n shakes.#spinning and spinning lightly on your feet. its very delicate but also makes me want to tear into the walls w my teeth. u understand ^_^#for how much i love both versions of this track i like Never talk abt it dfbgjdhfg #piktalk #anyway again reminder to listen to the instrumentals sometimes they go really hard #im capable of being normal abt music and talking abt it in a normal well adjusted way. like eating drywall. nods #id say i want to make an amv for it but ive only got like two bits lodged in my brain so. maybe ill do a fragment or two at some point

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attleboy · 11 months ago

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goddddd times are getting grim... i'm debating making art on my phone with my finger again...

#i have like 2 hours of commute and i'm wasting it currently. i have way too many things to do i might as well fucking try #maybe i can scrounge up a stylus pen or something #the grind never stops [visibly shaking]#me chat.

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ratatatastic · 5 months ago

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or alternatively dweeb meets other dweeb more news at 11

LIGHT. LIGHT IN HIS EYES. LOOK AT EM BIG OLE EYES. LOOK AT HIM TOUCH HIS JERSEY.

GLORY BE TO THE MIKKSY SIGNED JERSEY RAAAAAAAAA

CanesWear Signing | 7.1.24

#niko mikkola #florida panthers #the mortifying ordeal of being known #you can tell how bad i was shaking from how much the jersey moves in my hands oh it was so serious for me its not even funny #“youre my favourite player thats why” “thank you” girl i would eat concrete for you without any hesitation #“new jersey?” me sweating profusely because i have to admit i had this jersey for a while now in front of his face oh god oh FUCK #“where do you want it? here or here?” “anywhere choose where anywhere” “ill do this way”#behold decision paralysis plus the constitution of a doormat with an awful aim to please vs the assuredness of a bull romping through field #“i mean its your jersey at the end of the day”#he says without thinking because he lacks a brain to mouth filter and immediately wants to slam his head into the nearest hardest object #but its okay it got a little smile out of mikksy so maybe my motor mouth can be used for good #my voice is so hoarse because i stood under for 7 hours and also loudly cheered like never before all throughout those 7 hours yesterday #also a lot of people had tickets for both mikksy and lundy or just lundy so thats why the line was moving slowly #so at one point they went OKAY WHO HAS TICKETS FOR JUST NIKO and i raised my hand like oo oo mee ☝️ and got rushed to the front #also a lot of the stuff he was signing was nonspecific posters and hats or other players jerseys (that already had other signatures on em)#which is why the attendant was like oh sweet jersey! and mikksy was like new jersey? because there werent many people at all #comparatively his signing was priced the lowest at 39 out of all cats players. the highest currently is benny at 60 #does it suck his line was shorter. there was surprise when someone toddles in with a mikksy jersey. and that his signing was priced low?#yes ofc but also i didnt have to stand in the heat for long got ushered in faster and my wallet didnt cry so lets not kid ourselves here #there are silver lining to everything but anyways first hockey jersey and first signature on it acquire call that a man on a mission 😎👉👉#long tags i love mikksy i lot you understand right <3 #also im never wearing this jersey again so i might as well buy a frame and ANOTHER mikksy jersey #to bad it also has my 30th ani cats patch on it too </3

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autisticaradiamegido · 10 months ago

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day 26

someday if i can figure out how the hell people get these things made i would like to do some little destiny & malice acrylic charms. i think those are so fun. and while i mostly want them for Myself i figure that if i DID figure out the process, i should maybe open up the option to anyone else that might want them, soooo...

informal poll: if i figure out how all that works, would any of y'all be into that, and approximately how many of you?

#day 26 #year 5 #my ocs #destiny chainsaw #malice winterfang #i know i've said i don't really like the idea of commissions and this isnt like a PROMISE or anything #i still have a lot of research to do before i commit to a shop of any kind #BUT. i think like a redbubble or something in that vein might be a manageable project #i mention stickers specifically because that seems like a very manageable thing to produce and ship even if i didnt go through like #a service to do so #particularly because i dont think id get a TON of orders for my niche OCs lol #but if i got some practice with something small like this it MIIIIGHT help me build up to making things for a larger market like...#say... well you know what i'm about over here lmao #we've basically all but gotten the official blessings of the powers that be to make homestuck merch without fear of reprisal at this point #ANYWAY that would be a ways off and be a much MUCH bigger project both artistically and in terms of like #me learning how Online Commerce works from the seller end.#BUT I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING IT. and it seems to me that it would at least be relatively simple to sell like. prints of old art maybe #i dunno! like i said i'll see how the poll shakes out while i do a bit more research

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tommygotwrittenoff · 4 months ago

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i need them to put eddie in a coma so he can have his own little coma dream realization

#like can you imagine #maybe he didnt reenlist #maybe hes got that perfect little romantic life he keeps thinking he had with shannon #maybe they stayed in el paso #or the three of them moved to la together when shannons mom got sick #and maybe eddie isnt a firefighter maybe he went into contracting or landscaping because he likes to work with his hands #or maybe he went into nursing because he likes helping people #but hes living a perfect little life with a son and wife and their white picket fence but he cant shake the feeling that something is wrong #he pulls aside for a firetruck on his way to work and something about it makes him feel funny like he misses something #and so he asks shannon when he gets home #hey did i ever apply to the fire academy #and she says no why would you have done that?? as she places a warmed frozen lasagna down on the diner table #he watches chris pick at his plate and swears that chris loved lasagna #and maybe hes out on his lunch break at the park and he hears a woman cry and run to find a man collapsed on the ground and shes panicking #so he tells her to call 911 and he starts compressions #the fire department shows up and hen and chim take his place and he fills them in before stepping back #youre good under pressure buck says from beside him #and eddie just kinda looks at him for a second because #he feels right #this feels right #being right here beside this man with a crooked grin on his face feels right #but eddie just shrugs and says well i was in the army kinda came with the territory #and then bobbys voice crackles through the radio buck i told you to stop flirting on calls get in the truck now #and buck returns an ay ay captain and winks at eddie before hopping in the firetruck #he watches engine 118 drive away and thinks he should be right next to buck in that truck #okay i got carried away but i need it #like there are so many possibilities for eddie coma dream and like #tim listen to me i need you to do think i need eddie to be put into a coma so he can realize that his life now is everything hes needed

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 12 days ago

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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It

#blue chatter #they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity #I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit #and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned #I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will #I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me #uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight #and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need #to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told #that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily #even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though #I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right #which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing #I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was #definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.

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cerealbishh · 1 month ago

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"So... I should have called you when Kathryn came home sick. I just hate this every-other-week mom thing, you know? So when Kat needed me, I just had to show up for her. And I know it doesn't make sense-"

"No, it- it does make sense. Why do you think I let them eat ice cream at midnight? And look, I overreacted too, because of my weird-ass relationship with my father..."

#cbs matlock #matlock reboot #matlock 01x02 #olympia lawrence #julian markston #julympia?#olympian?#olympia x julian #please... not the cheeky little eye squint they both do at each other in the second gif! that felt the teeeeeeeniest bit flirty to me #he knows her moves!!!#he stared at her for quite a bit in the 4th gif and i like that he doesn't hold her back from doing her job but that's a low bar #the way she laughs with him in the last gif! it makes me feel like... in a weird way she's most vulnerable with him(and elijah)#her smile when she says ''seems like we know each other pretty well''#and the way he got her to break into a laugh when she was trying to maintain a straight face #also the way he nudges her leg with his hand #i love them being friends... but i mayyyybe sense something more #i think maybe julian was close to turning his dad in and that's why his dad doesn't trust him??? but maybe i just have a jason ritter bias #matlock spoilers?#skye has said that daddy dearest is trying to pit them against each other... so i feel that that's why there's some mistrust going on #i love that in both episodes it sort of ends with him being there for her so i'm scared of when that won't happen #they kinda make me miss don and nyla #skye also said that one of the biggest reasons olympia loves julian is because he gives them both have the space to work and be a family #matlock spoilers #they kinda are giving parent energy in the last gif #tw: food #they're both just trying their best tbh #skye p. marshall #jason ritter #i changed the third gif because i liked that you could sort of see olympia smiling and REEEEEALLY see julian just shaking his head

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depresseddepot · 1 month ago

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going to be absolutely haunted by every heart a doorway by seanan mcguire for the rest of my life i think

#shaking you and shaking you #where's my door? can you hear me? do you understand what I'm saying? where is my fucking door #i will never be the same again (positive) but also i will never be the same again (negative)#the way the 12 year old clawed out of me at the idea of wonderland/different worlds/secret doors being real all along #makes me think that hmm maybe i didn't actually come to terms with feeling like i didn't belong ! maybe instead i repressed it !#if i had been in even a SLIGHTLY worse mental state rn that book would have destroyed me. sent me over the edge i think #i didn't even realize how intense it was. christ how did i repress all that lol #WHERE IS MY DOOR #where is MY home !!!! this surely can't be it !!!!#anyway. if i think too deeply about this it makes me feel like i need to grieve #so i wont think about it ! xoxo #ANYWAY phenomenal book. couldn't put it down. the ace rep was unexpected but nice #will now be reading everything published by seanan mcguire thank yew #its one of my favorite books now but like. i also wish i had never read it. yknow??#incredible work of art and i loved every second of reading it #but now im alone in this dark room with the voice in the back of my head that tells me that there are special things in this world #and that i was not/am not good enough for a single one of them #and its getting louder !!!!#well. guess ill just go to work tomorrow #fucking christ

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eclipsesalign · 4 months ago

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Missing old ocs

#yes this post is about sukozen sadly but i’ve moreso just been thinking about how good that story could be now.#i could have never made it now but it could be so good.#the final version of the story that i came up with moments before any and all interest in it fizzled out is good. to me.#its a shame that i couldnt get to that sooner #sukozen and erratus’s dynamic would be so much more expansive if i wrote it now. i have so many thoughts about it.#i think i will maybe draw sukozen soon.#i feel bad talking about or even mentioning him to my friends because i feel like i talk about him way too much #but how can i not. that freak was a fundamental part of my adolesence.#sigh i even feel bad making this post and mentioning him here #shaking my fist at the sky THIS SHIT COULD BE GOOD BUT BY THE NATURE OF ITS EXISTENCE I CANT DO ANYTHING WITH IT #although thats probably what makes it good in my mind. the whole story is a whole story. it ends #also sucks that i cant even replicate the story in my new headworld #it would just be weird! and i would feel weird ever even retreading something vaguely related #ah well. back to working on the picrew #sorry this is also word vomit

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airbenderedacted · 2 years ago

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What was the beta s2 villain design? I haven’t heard or seen abt that one n im curious

,,,,Bombshell my bbygirl,.

#she is So fucking cute & as a standalone design i love her but #for WOYS2's main villain.. for WOY's MAIN CAST........ bro absolutely not this is literally just 'hrjfdf woman hot' villan and nothing else #swapping this out for manic hot topic gremlin bastard lesbian was where they struck gold like. ty god hrjbhsdjgfbng #not that the way they used dominator was /perfect/ by any means #bc believe you me there's a few things in the show that were ehghhghhh at best & stuff from the crew that pisst me AWFF at worst but #overall dom was really solid. the purpose her character served and the writing & character building choices for her were all *chef's kiss*#there was a lot about her whole vibe that was communicated REALLY WELL through her design alone imo #(and a lot about her personality and motivations that you could gleam from JUST her first out-of-suit appearance on its own #i just really wish they'd given WAY fewer fucks about her being pewtty or conventionally attractive or Whatever bRO IT'S HOLDING YOU BACK!!#i dont think Any of that stuff was prioritized when brainstorming for bombshell here 😭 maybe they hadn't fleshed out those ideas yet #bc with Bombshell? the only things her design communicate are that she's hot & apparently that's Important + she has a bug theme going on #& i GUESS that she's ostentatious & goes for v loud clothing. those pauldrons command a room #so you can get ''commandeering'' and MAYBE even ''powerful'' from that #but for a MAIN VILLAIN meant to majorly challenge the main cast & shake up the show‚ THat is extremely milquetoast!!!!!!#again there's rlly nothing here to take away from her design overall other than that she's sexy. why define her that way for being a her #it's such a big ''nah man''#it's tired it's been done to death #the read you get on her from Overall Vibes alone are very bland!!!#i have to wonder at what point they really started to get the ball rolling in the right direction w/ their S2 big bad to end up w dominator #wondering if maybe it was when they figured they should make her a punk to contrast wander being a hippie?#do you think maybe they just got input from women #grateful every day for the absolute bastard supreme we ended up with #finalhaunts

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rivilu · 3 months ago

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disjointed fandom posting sorry but it just hit me that pwotr is like. the only rpg where a companion never once left my team

#you can guess who it was jgkdfg #but yeah i think it has to do with disapproval not being a thing in the usual sense #Daeran was there 24/7 but my team in general is very stable compared to how often i switch it up on bg3 or the dragon ages #it's like . Daeran Woljif Seelah Lann + free space that gets swapped around (but most often it's Arue)#like aside from the point when woljif isn't there for plot reasons - i think the only time seelah and lann werent there-#was at the trap for the Other?#and that was only for plot reasons again bc basically Elluin was 99% sure the situation would escalate/#he'd wind up murdering a bunch of inquisitors and. yk. don't generally want the paladin and the guy who can't stand your bf there for that #though maybe I'll change it in future because it would be spicy if they WERE there to see it... hmmm #anyway yeah it's very interesting to me how consistent it was comparatively #honorable mention to Wyll for being the only other companion from an rpg that I don't recall taking out of my team for 99% of the game #and Zevran for being there for about? 80%? Orion didn't take him into the deep roads for blight safety reasons #it's a LITTLE bit funny to think of Daeran as the one companion this happens to djkfg #similar to the Dorian Bit of the high class character forced to trudge along the dirt fdjgk but.. better #because he's deadass forced to do it dnfmgbdh #I have this one particular thought in my head about the abyss as well.#about being made to follow along the heart of Alushinyrra as essentially a glowing target?#and how that's somehow both the worst and best outcome of being in the abyss in the fist place?#i mean he says it himself retroactively about the battlebliss. there's a certain sense of safety that comes from sticking close to the kc #and that's also why Elluin Does keep him with- it's a risk either way but if we gotta bring an aasimar into the Abyss #and that aasimar just so happens to be someone he has a vested interest in keeping safe #he's much better off where he can see him at all times rather than at camp #gods something about this visual. standing right there as the person you're following walks in front of you-#provoking the 2d highest authority in the entire /realm/ - a realm that's already been hostile to you from the very second you stepped ther #yet somehow - against all sense or better judgement . you know it's going to be fine?#(yes in a sense Dae may be safer than anyone there on account of life insurance and the Other itself in a sense but still)#im shaking the bars of my enclosure etcetera #river rambles

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widevibratobitch · 4 months ago

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1:0 to my mother for pulling the wildest uno reverse card on me. what do you mean you're suicidal. IM suicidal. we cant both be suicidal. get your own thing stop copying me woman

#see now that's not good cause learning this new information flipped the magic switch in my brain #and now its a game of 'who kills herself first'#having a suicide off with my mother was not on my 2024 bingo card but might as well at this point #but ngl it does feel weird. i feel like i shouldnt feel jealous about it but hey. that was MY thing first #i called dibs on it a long time ago so this hardly feels fair to me but ok have it your way #<- girl desperately coping with lame ass humour because she never learned how to process her emotions like a normal person #anyway my hands are shaking and i kinda cant breathe but thats alright. i did not fucking ask for this but guess this is my life now #maybe thats another sign that u should ditch music altogether and just go and become (world's worst) therapist for my mother #im normal

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