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Strangers with Memories
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY PEOPLE!! Or, if you don't like Valentines Day, it is also the birthday of @ladyshandioftheendless!!! So as a birthday gift, here is a story that dives back into the KISSteriaverse! Fair warning, this is gonna get REALLY SAD, which is ironic considering it's Valentines Day lmao (totally didn't do that on purpose... except I did lol). I was inspired to write this after listening to the song "Strangers" by Taemin, which is actually where this story's title comes from, and which you can listen to HERE if you want before reading this story! It's a beauuuutiful song.
Enjoy! And happy birthday, Shandi!!
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Nikki hasn't seen Starchild in years. He hasn't even been to KISSteria in years. But he wants to prove to himself that he's moved on from everything that happened, that he could see Starchild and not feel heartache. He could do this... right?
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Nikki could do this.
It had been years since what happened. He hadn’t seen Starchild at all in those years. He steered clear of any diplomatic meetings with KISSteria (Vince would mercifully explain it away saying he was sick), he avoided any news about KISS on Earth, hell, he even avoided the “K” section in record stores. He hadn't looked at his hand in months, at the finger where a glowing purple string would have been tied… if it hadn’t been broken. He hadn’t even thought about Starchild in over five years. Their breakup and the whole mess around it involving demons and his possession was firmly in the past.
So when Vince got an invitation to come to KISSteria to renew Anarkia’s alliance with the KISSterians, Nikki felt like he could finally come along.
“You sure you’re good to come, dude?” Tommy asked as they got ready to leave.
“What are you talking about, Tom?” Nikki asked as he threw some clothes into a go bag. “Of course I’m good to come. You can introduce me to that royal court chick you keep seeing every time you go.”
Tommy laughed at that. “Yeah, sure. But listen… I know all… all that shit really messed you up. And I heard… um… he’s gonna be there. If you don’t wanna go…”
“I wanna go, Tom,” Nikki insisted. “I’ll be fine. Besides, we won’t be the only ones there. Aren’t the royals from Jendell gonna be there too?”
Tommy shrugged. “I dunno. Ask Vince.”
“Pretty sure he said they’d be there.”
“Alright, fine.” He punched Nikki’s shoulder with a grin. “Look at you, paying attention for once like a responsible person.”
“Fuck off,” Nikki laughed, whipping a shirt at him.
He could do this. He wouldn’t be alone there. It wouldn’t be awkward. Everything was in the past now. He could face the past. He could face what he’d done. He could face Starchild. He could do this.
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To Nikki’s delight, not only was the royal family of Jendell there, along with their aide, but so was Prince Michael and Nicholas from Hanoi. The two were accompanied by three young elves, who were practically climbing over each other as they gazed awestruck around the palace.
“Mikey!” Vince said gleefully, clapping the fairy on the shoulder. “Since when did you become a family man?”
The affectionate smile on Michael’s face seemed permanently fixed there as he watched Nicholas try to wrangle the three excited elves. “About a year ago. We found them outside the palace and decided to take them in.” He laughed as Nicholas had to run and prevent one of them from knocking over a decorative vase on a pedestal. “They’re a little excited to be leaving Hanoi for the first time.”
“Dude, we should show them the burn mark you made in the wall the first time we were here,” Nikki said to Tommy.
“Not sure why you’d wanna show that off,” Mick grumbled. “Didn’t they have to cover it with a tapestry cuz of your dicking around?”
“Sure did,” Tommy grinned proudly. “It’s been like, forever, and they still can’t get it out! I check every time we’re here!”
“I’ll bet you ten shots they finally got it out,” Nikki dared.
“Oh, you’re fucking on! I’m gonna go check right now!”
Mick sighed as Tommy dashed off. “I’ll go make sure he doesn’t wreck anything before the welcome ceremony,” he said resignedly, as though he was assigned this task every time they came to KISSteria (he was). He shoved his hands in his jacket pockets and trudged off in Tommy’s direction.
Michael just laughed as Vince went off to say hello to Nicholas. “You all certainly haven’t changed,”
Nikki just laughed, not really wanting to get into the complexities of that. I definitely have… “Yeah…”
He couldn’t help trailing off as he scanned the hall. There was Nicholas, laughing with Vince; there were the three young elves, chattering excitedly as they looked up at a tapestry; there was Ace—he supposed he should call him King Ace now—and his aide in conversation… where was everyone else?
“Looking for someone?”
Nikki turned to find Michael giving him a politely inquiring look. “Uh, y-yeah—well, no, I just—maybe…” he finished lamely.
He really didn’t like the knowing look on Michael’s face. “I am sure the Prince will be here shortly to welcome us.”
“Oh, good… A-And the Elder, too! She’ll be here too.” Nikki hated how awkward he sounded when he laughed. Fuck, what was wrong with him? “She’s the queen, so… yeah. She’s gotta be here too.”
“Nikki… I confess I was a little surprised to see you here. The last time we all gathered in KISSteria, Vince told us you were sick.” Nikki felt like the knowing look was cutting into him. “Are you all right being here now?”
Nikki’s stomach dropped. He knows. “I… Yeah. Yeah, I’m all right.”
Michael just slowly nodded, making Nikki feel far too exposed for his comfort. “I’m serious!” he insisted. “I’m fine! It’s just gonna be a few days. Seriously, Mikey, I’m fine.”
Thankfully, Michael just nodded. “All right. I am glad you’re feeling well enough to come this time.”
“Y-Yeah… me too.”
He could do this. When Starchild came through the doors to welcome them all, he wouldn’t shy away. He wouldn’t run away from him like a vampire running away from sun. He could do this.
As soon as he thought that, the doors opened, and the Elder swept into the hall, looking as intimidating and regal as ever. And walking just behind her…
Nikki’s heart skipped a beat. There he was. There was Starchild.
He looked better, Nikki thought immediately. He couldn’t help remembering how Starchild looked the last time he saw him; stressed, drained, upset…
Heartbroken, his mind whispered.
But he didn’t look heartbroken anymore. He looked better. His livelihood was back. The glimmer of life was back in his eyes, though it seemed a little softer now and less excited. And Nikki was suddenly overwhelmed by the urge to close the distance between them and…
But he stopped himself. He couldn’t. Starchild wouldn’t want that. He probably still didn’t want to even look at him, even though he probably knew Nikki would be here. Had he ever wondered how Starchild felt about things like that? About being forced to be in the same room as someone you loved or despised and not be able to express that? It was torture, having to stand there and pretend he didn’t have such a complicated history with Starchild.
And then suddenly the Elder and Starchild were right there, welcoming Vince to KISSteria. Nikki tried to focus on the Elder, instead of the man that stood behind her. He was just a few steps away. Nikki wished he was a mile away.
“And greetings to you, Nikki Terror,” the Elder was suddenly saying. “I am pleased you feel well enough to join us this time.”
Nikki was suddenly seized by a paranoid fear—did she know? Did she know what happened? Did Starchild tell her? He couldn’t tell anything from the pleasant smile on the woman’s face.
Calm the fuck down, Terror. Maybe she’s just welcoming you and commenting on how you haven’t been here in a while.
Nikki forced himself to calm down, giving her his signature smirk and an overdramatic bow. “Yep, I’m feeling great. And by the time I leave, you’ll probably be hoping I’m sick again next time.”
The Elder chuckled. “I don’t doubt it,”
As Nikki raised his head, his eyes unconsciously turned to see Starchild’s reaction. His heart leapt when he saw the smile on the man’s face. He was smiling at something Nikki said. Did that mean anything?
Nikki longed to be able to ask him. He longed to be able to get a moment alone with Starchild and ask him if that smile meant he was forgiven, if it meant Starchild didn’t hate him anymore. But he couldn’t. If Nikki wanted to prove he could face Starchild, he couldn’t do anything.
And so he let Starchild and the Elder walk away from them to go greet Michael and Nicholas. He breathed a quiet sigh of relief. He made it. One interaction had gone successfully.
“Dude, you okay?”
Nikki jumped at the whisper and realized Tommy was suddenly beside him. “Don’t fuckin’ scare me like that!” he hissed.
Tommy snickered. “Sorry. But seriously, you okay?”
Nikki blew out a breath and nodded. “Yeah, I’m fine.”
He could do this.
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A couple days later, Nikki found himself stuck at an event of some kind; a little party for the visiting diplomats, according to Vince. And so far, like these things always were, it was fucking boring.
He found himself keeping Mick company, sitting to the side while Mick talked to King Ace’s aide, who had introduced himself as Tomaziel. Mick had let it slip that he was originally from the Celestial realm, sparking a conversation between the two.
Nikki was trying to follow their conversation when he suddenly caught sight of a necklace hanging from Tomaziel’s neck. The pendant was oval, and covered with a turquoise finish, but Nikki could still see an eye through the turquoise. He couldn’t help looking a little closer at the eye, making out its brown color. That eye looked so familiar…
“Nikki, was it?”
Mick’s elbow suddenly nudged his side, and Nikki looked up to find Tomaziel looking his way. “Uh, sorry,” he said quickly. “I just… I saw your necklace.”
“Oh.” Tomaziel looked down at it with a smile. “I see. It’s lovely, isn’t it?”
“Yeah, it’s nice.” Why did that eye look so familiar? “So, what’s with the eye?”
“Oh, well…” Tomaziel’s face suddenly turned a very light blue. “The one who gave it to me… it’s his eye.”
“You lucky bastard,” Nikki laughed before he could stop himself. “Your boyfriend gave you that?”
“That’s fucking weird,” Mick muttered as he took a swig of alcohol.
“Don’t mind him,” Nikki said gaily as he patted Mick’s shoulder. “He’s just jealous ‘cause he’s lonely.”
“Fuck you, Terror. I am not.”
Nikki ignored him, instead grinning at Tomaziel. “So, who’s the guy?”
Tomaziel laughed a little awkwardly. “Um… well…”
“Excuse me,”
Nikki looked up, even though he didn’t have to, already knowing who it was. Sure enough, Starchild stood behind Tomaziel’s chair with a polite smile. Nikki couldn’t help thinking to himself how handsome he looked in his formal purple robes. “Mind if I steal Tomaziel for a minute? I think Ace wanted to speak to him about something.”
Nikki didn’t say anything, just looked down at his drink. Mick waved a hand. “Sure, no problem.”
If Nikki had looked up, he would have seen Starchild’s smile widen ever so slightly. “Wonderful. Tomaziel?”
Tomaziel, who had been looking up at Starchild the whole time, set down his drink and stood. “I’m right behind you.”
Nikki couldn’t help watching the two as they walked away. Why wasn’t Tomaziel walking closer to Starchild? Why was he a few paces behind?
“Hey, dude!” Tommy suddenly plopped into the chair next to him. “That court chick is here if you wanna meet her!”
“Later, Tom,” Nikki heard himself say. He was too busy watching the two. Starchild had left the ballroom, through a door off to the side. Tomaziel was a few feet to the side, speaking to Ace. Then as Nikki watched, Tomaziel bowed his head, excusing himself, then turned and walked out the side door.
Something started to knot and twist in Nikki’s stomach. He knew that maneuver. He’d done it so many times before with Starchild. Did that mean… but they couldn’t…
Nikki suddenly shot to his feet. “I’ll be right back,” he said to no one. Then he made a beeline for the door.
The hallway beyond the door was dark as Nikki left the ballroom. The only light came from torches along the walls, casting the hallway in a dim glow. Nikki swiveled his head around, trying to figure out which direction he needed to go. They couldn’t be far.
And then Nikki heard it—muffled voices. He began walking in the direction he heard them, making sure to be quiet. He was about to turn a corner when suddenly—
“—want to steal you away and keep you in my bedroom.”
Nikki dove back behind the corner at Starchild’s voice. He heard a second voice stammer, sounding embarrassed. “I—Starchild!”
Nikki’s heart plummeted as Starchild laughed. That was Tomaziel.
“It’s true!” Starchild giggled.
A laugh from Tomaziel. “I would willingly go with you. It’s hard not being able to see you. Having this necklace, though… it does feel like I have a part of you with me.”
“Good,” Starchild sounded happy. “That’s the point.”
Something seized Nikki’s heart and began to strangle it as he heard Tomaziel sigh. Now he knew why that eye looked so familiar. He’d looked into that eye and its other thousands of times before.
“I missed you,” he heard Tomaziel say.
“I missed you, too. I’m so happy you could be here.”
“So am I. I couldn’t miss the chance to see you.”
“You came all this way just to see boring old me?”
“You…” whatever Tomaziel did in the pause made Starchild giggle, “could never be boring. And yes, I did. And I’d do it again, many times.”
Starchild laughed, and the sound made it feel like a knife was going through Nikki’s heart. He finally mustered up the courage to lean forward and peer around the corner.
There in the hallway were two figures. A torch flickered, and the flare of light made the stars on Starchild’s outfit and the silver detail on Tomaziel’s gleam for a moment. And as Nikki watched, the two of them hugged. And it was like they became one single being, the way they seemed to melt into each other’s embrace. The figure Nikki knew was Starchild rested his head on Tomaziel’s shoulder with a sigh.
“I’m so happy when I’m with you,” he said aloud.
A lump formed in Nikki’s throat. He couldn’t stay here. He had to get away.
So he sprang away from the wall and took off back toward the ballroom, not caring if Starchild and Tomaziel heard. He couldn’t focus on anything except the feeling of his heart breaking in his chest.
Starchild had moved on. He had moved on completely. It wasn’t just what happened between them that was in the past—Nikki was now in the past as well.
“Nikki?”
Nikki skidded to a stop right before he crashed right into Michael. It appeared he’d re-entered the ballroom, and thankfully no one was looking his way. Except Michael, who gave him a look of concern. “Is everything all right?”
“I…” Nikki’s throat closed up. He felt like crying. But he willed himself not to cry. He was not going to fucking cry. “I’m… I’m not… feeling good…”
Michael nodded. “I see,”
“W-Will you… tell Vince I’m gonna g-go to bed?”
“I will. Get some sleep. I’m sure you’ll feel better in the morning.”
No, he wouldn’t. It was a nice sentiment, but Nikki knew he wouldn’t feel better in the morning. “O-Okay. Thanks, Michael…”
And just when Nikki thought it couldn’t be worse, that was when he saw Starchild re-enter the ballroom and go over to the Elder. Nikki’s heart shattered all over again at the smile on Starchild’s face. He looked happy, far too happy. Nikki wanted to scream at him to stop looking so happy, that he knew where he’d been, and who he’d been with to make him smile like that.
“Nikki,”
Almost gratefully, Nikki turned back to Michael. The fairy’s face looked sympathetic. Stop fucking looking at me like that! “I want you to know, you can come to me for help if you ever need it. I know you prefer to do things on your own, but if you ever feel the need for help, you can always ask for it.”
Nikki almost didn’t want to say anything, because he was afraid he’d either start raging or crying�� or even do both. He managed a nod, then willed his voice not to shake. “Okay,”
Michael reached out to pat his shoulder. “I will go tell Vince you left,”
“Thanks…”
But as Michael walked away, Nikki heard Starchild laugh, and his head turned before he could stop himself. Starchild was smiling and laughing as he talked to Ace. And there was Tomaziel, standing next to Ace and not talking, but his eyes fixed only on Starchild with a small grin of his own.
Nikki had never seen Starchild look so relaxed and happy. Not even when he was with you.
There was another stab of pain in his chest—his heart was shattering all over again. It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that Starchild got to get back up and move on and even find someone else, while Nikki was alone and broken. It was like something inside Nikki was keeping him from moving forward. Why didn’t Starchild have something keeping him back? It wasn’t fucking fair.
He felt like hitting something, or crying. They were in the same room, full of people they had mutually known for years. They had known each other for years. And he really wasn’t that far away; he just had to walk a small distance and he would be right there, able to talk to him like they were old friends. But no, he couldn’t. Because they weren’t even friends anymore, were they? Starchild was miles and miles away, pretending Nikki was a complete stranger, and Nikki was alone.
Nikki dug his nails into his palms and finally turned away to leave the ballroom. He couldn’t do this.
#shandi's kissteriaverse#starterror#well formerly#like it's been years#fun fact i actually made myself sad writing this one lol#i had “strangers” playing on a loop while i wrote it#spacechild#officially#this also takes place before shandi's story about nikki and Sweet the Undine#i tried to link that story to the overall 'verse#but anyways#sorry nikki#don't worry you'll be okay soon#hope you enjoyed!#kiss au writing#my writing#happy birthday shandi!!!!!!!!!
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Every trans child deserves a parent like David Tennant and I'm so serious about that
#every opportunity he is hyping up the trans community and specifically his trans kid and that is so fucking beautiful#and georgia as well she has been a prominent and influential voice in the pro trans movement in the uk#and I'm so proud of/happy for them#and i hope their kid (formerly wilfred we dont need to know what they do by now)#feels the love day to day cos they deserve it#david tennant#Georgia tennant#trans rights#doctor who
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if you are in the US and are at risk of unwanted pregnancy, you should buy mifepristone immediately while it's still legal to mail so you can have it on hand just in case (it should keep for about 2 years). the future of this method of medication abortion is seriously at risk. it is very important that you are prepared for a worst case scenario
if this applies to you or a loved one go here and follow the instructions. it's $150 so if you are not at risk of unwanted pregnancy and are able, please consider helping others with the cost, or buying some to have on hand in case someone you know needs it in the future
edit: just wanted to add that I personally have already bought and received a provisional dose in case I know someone who needs one from this site so I can confirm that it is legit
#not trying to be super alarmist but this is especially important if you live in a state that is very hostile towards reproductive rights#please follow this court case as well. it is probable that the supreme court will make the situation even worse than the district courts#tell your friends and family#formerly ori/ons/belts#also i think if u just like. google the name of the site u will see other places reference that specific one#also this is currently legal in all 50 states BUT IT WILL NOT BE FOR LONG.#which is why i posted this lmfao
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I’ve been pretty inactive the past like two weeks due to stuff going on but I’m hoping to be back semi regularly soon
#I also know I’m late to everything that went down within the dndads fandom but I want everyone - specifically systems within the fan base#whether formerly or currently - that I sincerely wish you guys the best and that I hope you’re doing well after what transpired#you guys are cool as fuck and I wanna make sure my blog’s a welcoming place#as for fanart I wanna post for different interests of mine more frequently so prepare for more d20 stuff lol#also sweet tooth bc that’s my son and I’ve been binging that over the last week or so
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Lilia on a stroll
#oc#original character#my art#my artwork#artists on tumblr#digital art#digital drawing#doodle#wanted to draw her in a fancy coat but idk if shes even recognisable without her coat & headpiece thing#well you know she is capable of changing her clothes#you need to switch things up every once in a while even if you are a formerly near omnipotent creature#haphazardly stitched into a weaker one#girls just wanna have fun
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HOTD APPRECIATION WEEK 2023 ▸ Free Choice
(BISHOP!DAEMON x QUEEN!RHAENYRA ▸ Renaissance!AU)
#remember how renaissance clerics were ordained but were art patrons that went to war & had the wildest sex lives?#(often nobles & professional nepo babies)#well... bishop (formerly prince) daemon is having an affair w. his niece the queen#and you can bet he uses his power to live a life of luxury#insp. by a manip i saw of bishop daemon that i can't for the life of me find now#hotdweek23#house of the dragon#rhaenyra targaryen#hotd#emma d’arcy#daemon targaryen#matt smith#daemyra#hotdedit#rhaenyratargaryenedit#daemontargaryenedit#daemyraedit#moodboard by ria#events#tv#daemon x rhaenyra#rhaenyra x daemon#houseofthedragonedit
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THE BROTHERS SFORZA
augh. there sure is a lot going on between them. tfw you know your older brother is wary of you so you have to navigate that fine line of proving you're useful, but not dangerously so. tfw your younger brother has the potential to be a knife in your back, but he's your brother. don't think too hard about what happened with the galeazzo. unfortunately, you're both visconti as well as sforza, and the visconti were prone to conspiracy. fucking RIP.
this definitely won't be upsetting years down the line when ascanio is near death and ludovico will be desperate to figure out how to bring his brother's body back to milan so ascanio can be interred in the same place as ludovico's recently deceased wife, beatrice d'este, and where ludovico himself has been haunting in a perpetual state of grief.
& the background of the first panel are public domain scans of two cards out of the visconti-sforza tarot deck.
Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini
#ABSOLUTELY BANANAS PHRASING abt one of these paragraphs btw#'metafora della sottomissione del figlio al padre' okay!! like going into that dynamic with your older brother is so. sooooooooooooo#like it makes sense. this is a dynast family. the father is dead. the eldest son was assassinated.#so now your older brother who was not the eldest brother WOULD assume the father-head of household role#and in the case of an emergency. you would fall into place as his right hand#which was. which was formerly occupied by your mother. and your older sister to the assassinated brother. so. WELL#that IS how you would prove you were useful to the state-household. it's just that.#NOBILITY IS SO FUCKING INSULAR ALL THE TIME. christ#the claustrophobia of being suspicious of your brother but having to rely on him#better to follow the plan your parents and eldest brother had in mind and marry him off to the church#italian renaissance tag#ascanio sforza#ludovico sforza#komiks tag#drawing tag#anyway eventually i'll figure out an art style i like for the renaissance cast. i think im getting close#but AUGH im still missing that feeling of 'yes. good.' im leaning towards the dead lineweight tho. that feels Right.
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Finally found a fitting accent for this dragon! What a glowup, look how ridiculously well that fits
#surge talks#flight rising#d: achelous#I had to sil scroll because formerly m pose but it's gucci#formerly wearing a very nice looking accent but it didn't work that well with these genes/colors
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"The artist formerly known as Warren Kepler" shut up, just SAY that you got a 120 on the autism masking questionnaire
#contrary to popular belief#You don't win when you check all the boxes#Well you do win autism#Incredible masking gives you even more diagnosis when tested#Warren Kepler#The artist formerly known as Warren Kepler#wolf 359#si 5
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Woe! Transgender samurai be upon ye!
-pulling my old OC out of the filing cabinet and giving him a shampoo- LOOK I HAVE A NEW CHILD!! :D
I've decided to rework an old story/universe from several years ago, so here we go again, from the top:
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暁の物語 Akatsuki no Monogatari
光 Hikari
Hikari, aka Shitaikou, is a young ronin, a master-less samurai, wandering around Edo-era Japan on a soul-searching journey.
He was raised as a girl named Sayoko (小夜子) by a samurai family, and taught swordsmanship and the arts like his brothers, although he was never destined to become a warrior. When the time came to find him a husband, he stole two swords, ran away and changed his name.
He now walks the roads of Japan on a quest to find [insert as-of-yet undefined quest here], and offers his assistance to villagers on the way. In doing so, he often runs into yokais and other paranormal occurences, to the point where in time he becomes an expert on the occult underworld of Japan and is often nicknamed the Demon Samurai.
Hikari is accompanied in his travels by Chihiro (千尋), a kitsune, and by Mochi (餅), a totally normal cat with the usual amount of tails and absolutely no supernatural powers, no siree. He is also regularly involved with an onnagata (a cross-dressing kabuki actor) and a yokai-hunting Buddhist monk, both of which I have yet to name (Mochi's name is also susceptible of being changed soon), and meets all kinds of strange people on his travels.
Hikari has a kind heart and a strong sense of honour. His driving force is his desire to help others; although he is very naive at first, and misguided altruism often gets him in trouble. As the story progresses, he will grow more mature and cynical, often preferring the company of yokais to that of humans, but trying to retain hope and faith in his fellow men.
(You can see older drawings of Hikari, including different outfits, here)
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Akatsuki no Monogatari (the Tale of Dawn) takes place in the very beginning of the Edo era, in the transition years between the warring period of the Sengoku-Jidai and the two hundred years of peace under the Tokugawa shogunate. It is a story about change and beginnings, both of a person and of a country.
Some name lore under the cut!
The kanji Hikari 光 means "light". Hikari is a "public first name", sort of an official nickname. It was common practice in feudal Japan (at least among the samurai class) to go by a public name and keep your real name private. In Hikari's case, that is also because he often frequents yokais and magicians, who could use his true name against him.
His real name is Shitaikou 志泰光 . The kanjis composing it mean "aspire", "gentle" and "light". He chose it as a reminder to himself to strive for kindness and to make the world a better place.
("Hikari" is the last kanji composing this name. When used with other kanjis, it is pronouced "kou". Such is the messed-up way kanjis work. -frustrated weeb noises-)
Hikari doesn't have a last name; he gave up his family's name when he ran away and saw no use in taking a new one: as a ronin he is not tied to any family.
His birth name, Sayoko 小夜子 , is composed of the kanjis "small", "night" and "daughter". Hence the title, Akatsuki no Monogatari, the tale of dawn, or how the night turns into the light.
#formerly this universe was called hakatsuki no monogatari because i had somehow convinced myself that akatsuki starts with an h (??????????)#the as-of-yet undefined quest may be a quest for a gender-transing yokai or deity#i need to do more research into shinto and buddhist deities i'm sure there must be one that fit the bill#or i can just use inari. their gender is unclear and their messenger animal is a fox which is well-known for shapeshifting#anyway i need to draw the rest of the cast and find a name for the onnagata#spoiler she's hikari's gf and they're T4T <3#my ocs#hikari#akatsuki no monogatari#samurai#ronin#japan#edo#transgender#blorbo from my brain
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bro I cannot stay on this goddamn site for more than 2 minutes anymore without wanting to cry over those sad gay men :(
let them be together :((((
#loki#lokius#loki x mobius#loki season 2#loki series#loki spoilers#mobius m mobius#time husbands#this formerly applied to good omens as well just. not currently
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assorted NMS oc doodles backlog that i guess i forgot to post? i'm really bad at putting stuff in tags, like this comparatively more serious lore compilation post thing. haha. this trio is stupid.
slightly more serious teluya backstory WIP comic under the cut because it's less goofy
#nms#no man's sky#all of my NMS stuff is compiled in my own personal tag ig ->#no mimi's sky#i said dvoran-e is only canon when it's funny but unfortunately i think it's constantly funny which means it's constantly canon so uhh#i dont post enough about them here on tumblr. i post about them a lot elsewhere but i keep forgetting to post about them here.#all you need to know are these three goobers:#1) teluya. the blue one. has the anxious tendencies of a small prey animal. almost too kind and gentle to exist. naive.#2) dvorak. the red one. trying really hard to not be a bastard after [unfathomably long amount of time] of being a bastard ad infinitum.#massive nerd. very little social grace. easily flattered/sheepish. regrets being a bastard very much. atoning soul. permadeath OC.#3) anomalous-entity. the yellow one. called an-e for short. is a bastard (funny). creative mode chara.#extremely overprotective of teluya for obvious reasons. them and dvorak are formerly antagonistic and now are...#well. i dont know. they're something.
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i don't think i ever posted these Elle designs??
anyway, she's Level 10 now and had a lil development (she's also multiclassed into Arcane Archer Fighter!!)
#d&d#d&d character#my art#my ocs#elle southorn#she is so fucking cool and hot i like her so much#she has glamored armor now as well so she can just bamf herself whatever outfit she wants#one of these days i'll design a rotation of outfits but today is not that day#fun fact! her uncle's a dracula and caved in her ribcage with his heel when we fought him!#she got better though :)#also her ex and formerly dead dad and older siblings were/are vampire spawn turned by her dracula uncle#so that's. a thing that happened.
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Things That Go Bump
Warnings: None Word Count: 1,085 As always, you can find this over on AO3.
“Are you sure you want to do this?”
The question is posed with such confidence, almost as if Adam hadn’t just screamed as loudly as you when one of the haunted house actors had made their way through the line to scare a large swath of the crowd. Admittedly, he is just as fearful about being here as you are, he just won’t ever voice such thoughts aloud. Not when he’s trying to impress you, still after all this time together.
“Yes,” you reiterate for the umpteenth time tonight. “Of course I do. Do you?”
“Yeah.” His head nods vehemently, like a bobble-head that’s been tapped just a little too hard. “Yeah, yeah, yeah. I’m good. I’m. Good.”
You can’t help but snort at his response, eyes rolling of their own accord. He doesn’t have to admit that he’s on edge about being here, you can see it plain as day in the way that he’s acting. Screams from inside the attraction can be heard, and instinctively you reach for him, your hands wrapping around his bicep to hug yourself close to him. Adam turns to press a kiss to your forehead, muttering to you that it’ll be alright just as the doors part to allow the two of you entry after nearly an hour's wait in line.
The first room is decorated to look like a jail; red paint is splattered onto the walls to simulate blood, and various zombie decor is scattered throughout the space to give a gruesome effect. Already, the unease has settled in, and you grip Adam with as much strength as you can muster, keeping yourself plastered to his side as the two of you step further into the room.
“This is fine,” he says, doing his best to put up a front of being unimpressed and unbothered by the room. “There’s nothing in here, it’s all just decorations and shit.”
You exhale a whine, eyes darting around in search of something, anything that can potentially pop out and scare you. “I don’t know, Adam, I —”
The sentence dies on your tongue the moment that a man dressed as a zombie in prison garb leaps out from one of the mock jail cells, his loud shriek along with an accompanying strobing light elicits a scream of terror on your part as well as Adam’s. It’s an instinctual reaction, the way that Adam shoves you in front of him to shield himself from the cause of his fright, and it’s this action that causes you to scream even louder in terror.
“Don’t shove me in front of you, you dick,” you cry out as the fear ebbs away to laughter.
“Fuck, fuck, shit, I’m sorry.” Seeming to come back to himself, he immediately corrects his error and draws you back to his side, a protective arm wrapped around you when he does so.
Once again, your eyes sweep back and forth, and back and forth, searching for any hint of more terror that is sure to head your way. To your left you spot what looks to be a man in a cell and you lift a hand to point. “There’s someone in there.”
Adam turns to look, and quickly, he shakes his head in response. “No. No, that’s a dummy. It’s fine.”
The two of you step forward with the intention of walking past the cell. You’re nearly all the way past when a hand reaches through the makeshift bars and grabs your elbow.
Another scream rips through the room involuntarily, the sound echoed by one produced by Sackler.
“Ah, fuck ,” he yells out into the room, clutching you tighter to his side even as he startles into a jump. “Shit ! Don’t do that!”
You’re unable to help yourself, once again bursting into a fit of laughter. “I’m sorry! They grabbed me!”
Nervous laughter fills the space until the two of you make your way successfully out of this room and into the next. Unlike the last room, this new one resembles an old, decrepit home; the wallpaper is stained and torn, exposing old wooden slats of the hold mock home.
“Oh, no,” you whisper to yourself, still clinging to Sackler for dear life.
“It’s fine,” he says, just as he’d done in the last room. His confidence has seemed to return, though neither of you is certain for just how long.
A grumble of mild irritation sounds in response to his words. “That’s what you said last time,” you quip, the two of you making your way slowly but surely throughout the room.
Sudden movement catches your eye to your right as a large photo on the wall drops to reveal a man in a mask just as they lunge out towards you. Both you and Adam scream in unison, and his instinct to get away from the scare as quickly as possible causes him to drag you with him as he flings himself at the opposite wall.
But you aren’t safe there either.
Another photo drops, and just like with the man on the opposite side of the room, this actor scares the two of just as badly as the first. Adam’s quick to grab you like before, this time hurriedly pushing you out of the room and into the next.
The remainder of the rooms carry on in the same fashion, with both you and Adam inadvertently scaring each other while also being scared by the actors within the confines of the haunted house attraction. By the time the two of you exit, stepping out into the cool night air, you’re winded and your hearts are racing a mile a minute, thumping wildly in your respective chests.
“You are the worst haunted house partner,” you tease, thumping a hand against your chest in a vain effort to get your heart to slow its crazed beating.
Adam laughs, any and all fear he’d displayed now left behind in the confines of the attraction. It’s like watching a light switch flick from off to on as his signature grin makes a reappearance. “Yeah, but you had fun though.”
Your eyes roll of their own accord, head nodding in spite of yourself. “Yeah, yeah. So what if I did?”
“C’mon, Kid,” he says, reaching to put an arm around you once more as screams filter out from the haunted house, “what do you say we go grab us a bite to eat?”
“Oh, and some cider!”
Sackler chuckles, turning to press a kiss to your forehead. “And some cider.”
#since it's fall#may as well push out my old fall prompts#Adam Sackler#Adam Sackler x Reader#just a lil posty post#ADCU#halloween#fall#autumn#writing#haunted house#formerly direnightshade#a-million-usernames
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>sacrifice done an eternity ago<
#me draws#alright this is the lighter one of the eldritch boyfriends#formerly human. gave his heart to his gloomy boyfriend. now an entity as well. calls himself marr#minimalism#minimal#illustration#oc art#eldritch boyfriends......#artists on tumblr#horror#i guess
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something doesn't feel quite right
#arc.png#bg3#oc: lan#astarion#astalan#tav x astarion#i restarted lan's save. again. idk how many times this is now#i restarted because i downloaded the party limit remover mod#and let me tell you i am having SO MUCH FUN......#the game feels so much more alive now it's wild#that all said it means i have to live through these idiots' angst era again#that delightful mid-act 1 time where they're sleeping together but astarion doesn't really care yet#and lan (who is a full on charisma build proficient in insight and persuasion and such) SHOULD be picking up on it#but he's so absolutely rattled by things like meeting mayrina and seeing waukeen's rest and learning all his friends' fucked up backstories#that he just. doesn't. he does not acknowledge the weird vibes.#so they're both acting like they're having a great time on the surface. but the second they think the other can't see them. well#(also side note that from now on it's lan with one n. it was formerly lann but that extra n has always bothered me)#(i think i was trying to avoid confusion with HSR lan but at this point i don't fucking care i hate that extra letter ksdhgdks he's lan.)#(ALSO FUN FACT I FEEL LIKE I FORGOT HOW TO DRAW. this is the first thing i've drawn in. too long.)#(was genuinely surprised i managed it tbqh. i kinda just blacked out while the spirit of gay video game men possessed me and made me draw.)#(gonna... try to figure out how i did it and see if i can make art again... i miss it orz)
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