#web weave lonely

[thecosmoswhispers]

on loneliness.

Vincent Van Gogh, "The Complete Letters" / Albert Camus, "Notebooks" / Dogma / Ask Polly, "Help! I'm The Loneliest Person In The World (?) / Henry Miller

[lucidloving]

Mahmoud Darwish, In the Presence of Absence // Ada Limón, "Lies About Sea Creatures" // Sherita Walker // @itsbaditsgood // Richard Siken, "I Had a Dream About You" // Richard Siken, "You Are Jeff" (8) // Richard Siken, "Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out" // @_demarmol on Instagram // Anne Sexton, "The Touch"

[you-dont-belong-here]

When Fiona Apple sang, “How can I ask anyone to love me, when all I do is beg to be left alone,” and when Mitski sang, “you’re growing tired of me, and all the things I don’t talk about,” and when Julien Baker sang, “it’s not easy when what you think of me is important, and I know it shouldn’t be so damn important, but it is to me,” and when Elliott Smith sang, “I’m alone but that’s okay, I don’t mind most of the time; I don’t feel afraid to die,” and when the Front Bottoms sang, “sometimes you get sad when we’re together because you’re not sure if you’ll miss me when I’m gone,” and when

[insane-in-the-membranee]

I can forgive my father for all his wrongs against me, if only he had treated my mother differently. It is an echo, of what my mother says, "He may not be a good husband, but he is a good father." How do I tell her that one cannot exist without the other? He will never be a good father. He is not good to my mother.

—Reva

[swirlingyouintomypoems]

you’re on your own, kid, you always have been

normal people, 2020/@ryebreadgf /ceilings - lizzy mcalpine/the haunting of hill house, shirley jackson/untitled, frank wright/unknown, from pinterest/nicolas martin, “dedicated to light”/you’re on your own, kid - taylor swift/edward hooper, “gayle on the f train”/@seashellronan/tolerate it - taylor swift/unknown/tv - billie eilish/unknown, from pinterest/@lustloveandliarsx/@finehoney/@farmlesbians/liability - lorde/i get so jealous of euthanized dogs - june gehringer/anne magill/you’re on your own, kid - taylor swift

[haunted-by-words]

I'm so lonely, only ghosts hold my hand.

@.itsbaditsgood / Sherita Walker / Anne Sexton, "The Touch" / @.demarmol on Instagram / Richard Siken, "I Had a Dream About You" / Unknown Artist

[devilhoney]

the aching desire to be loved.

our bodies & other fine machines, natalie wee // calling a wolf a wolf, kaveh akbar // unknown // narcissus, caravaggio // hannibal // the lying life of adults, elena ferrante // the unabridged journals of sylvia plath // @twoheadedfawnn // crush, richard siken // a little larger than the entire universe: selected poems, fernando pessoa // letters to milena, franz kafka // my own private idaho // tennessee williams // hannibal // little weirds, jenny slate // unknown // stańczyk, jan matejko // letters to felice, franz kafka // hannibal // my hero academia, tōhei horikoshi // diarios, alejandra pizarnik // the love of the wolf, hélène cixous // the taking of christ, caravaggio // the last days of judas iscariot, stephen adly guirgis // house song, searows

[sinligh]

You seek approval,

my subconscious implemented in my dreams. you build up illusions of yourself

and like a bridge thread of a spider web you give them to others

silky, sticky yet somehow,

you’re smooth enough to lure them to wrap you in all that you desire,

even if it’s their own pleasure.

you’re not stuck you’re waiting, for an ending or a beginning

an unsolicited death, an indefinite life

you fear your own madness but the edge of it is what you live for.

you wait, and wait and wait for love to visit the fragile home you made for yourself in this temporary world

but it’s not what you want, is it ?

because the moment it knocks on your door you rush to the arms of another,

paranoia or melancholy? It doesn’t matter.

you writhe and hiss until you shed a skin of a past life that you held on

For acceptance alone, if nothing else…

what is it that you truly desire?

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• Quotes: Susan Sontag/ Edgar Allan Poe/ Emily Dickinson/ Halsey/ Sylvia Plath/ Christa Wolf.

• Original context: Sinligh

• Art reference:

1. Art by Edward Burne-Jones. 2. Art from Sedmikrasky (Daisies). 3. Dave McKean, "Sandman" graphic novel. 4. Art by Roberto Ferri. 5. Painting by William Oxer. 6. Craww's "Woven".

[shorthaltsjester]

Fjord & Jester // on Adventure and Finding Home

I want to explore the world. I want to see the lands we haven’t seen. I want to find things that people are scared of and solve them or do whatever anyone else needs to do. But – I hope she’s a part of that.

The Mighty Nein Origins: Fjord Stone - Kevin Burke and Chris “Doc” Wyatt || The Mighty Nein Origins: Jester Lavorre - Sam Maggs || A Moon or A Button - Ruth Krauss & Remy Charlip || “first letter to véra” (26 july 1923) - Vladimir Nabokov || Hadestown: “All I’ve Ever Known” - Anaïs Mitchell || Critical Role Campaign 2: “Fond Farewells” - Laura Bailey and Travis Willingham || Antigonick - Sophokles, tr. Anne Carson || Critical Role Campaign 2: “Domestic Respite” - Laura Bailey and Travis Willingham || Herakles - Euripides, tr. Anne Carson || Changing - Liv Ullmann || “Lover” - Taylor Swift || Critical Role Campaign 2: “Dinner with the Devil” - Laura Bailey and Travis Willingham || tumblr user @/dimpledthings || The Mighty Nein Reunited: “Unfinished Business” - Laura Bailey

[lonelyisthe]

Halsey, Lonely Is The Muse (2024) || Taylor Swift, mirrorball (2020)

[go-to-the-mirror]

WAR MASTER: We've always been two sides of the same coin, and can you really imagine a universe without me? Could you live with yourself?

TENTH DOCTOR: Uh... I...

WAR MASTER: Interesting.

TENTH DOCTOR: What is?

WAR MASTER: I seem to have touched a nerve. A fresh one, too. What happens to me in our future that makes you so afraid of losing me now?

TENTH DOCTOR: Don't, just don't.

WAR MASTER: Why? Because it might violate the laws of causality?

TENTH DOCTOR: Because there are some things I cannot face, and I won't, again.

The Surrender Theory by Caitlin Conlon / The Sound of Drums / Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths / The Last Line / The End of Time Part One / -Bleed- by Aaron O' Hanlon / The Sound of Drums / Scheherazade by Richard Siken / The End of Time Part One

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE IS A FEAST BUT YOU'VE LEARNED TO ABSTAIN; ON LONELINESS THAT EATS YOU ALIVE

Bob Schofield WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE ABOUT LOVE WITH PLENTY OF CITATIONS (via @masoeuretmoi) // Phoebe Bridgers Moon Song // Olivia Laing The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone // Xooang Choi (via @larameeee) // Fyodor Dostoevsky The Brothers Karamazov // Ocean Vuong Thanksgiving 2006

[kimiko24]

[ Lost without you, left to grieve ]

[ski8idytoil8]

martin blackwood // on loneliness, guilt, and grief

[cosmiclove-heavenstruck]

AND THEY NICKNAMED HER "THE BOLTER"

sources under the cut

mirrorball / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / who's afraid of little old me? / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / you're on your own, kid / mirrorball / i'll give you the sun by jandy nelson / chloe or sam or sophie or marcus / taylor in miss americana / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / midnight rain / bianca sparacino via the love journals / who's afraid of little old me? / dazzled, precise by anna de noailles / default states by nicole / mirrorball / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / dear reader / collection of taylor lyrics by me / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / my boy only breaks his favorite toys / castles crumbling / dear reader / midnights foreword / anti-hero / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / peace / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / the bolter / white horse / the lucky one / long story short / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / clara bow

[halcyondaaze]

shattered

Mieko Kawakami, Breasts and Eggs, tr. by Sam Bett and David Boyd // Louise Glück, Adult Grief // Horace Vernet, The Maiden’s Lament (oil on canvas) // Mona Sa’udi, “When the loneliness of the tomb,” from Women of the Fertile Crescent: An Anthology of Modern Poetry by Arab Women, tr. by Kamal Boullata // Photography by 西游朽 (xiuxiukong) // Mark Strand, "Keeping Things Whole" from Selected Poems by Mark Strand, 1979 // Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life, 1978 (paraphrased) // Graveyard statue in Coburg, Germany // Anaïs Nin, Fire: From “A Journal of Love”: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin (paraphrased) // Bust of Alexander the Great, found in Palazzo Massimo courtyard, Lancellotti, Rome