#we move on so fast these days

[jmdbjk]

Face-off

YOONGIIIIII!!!! (doing my best JK imitation)

More about Yoongi next but right now...

I can't get Face-Off, off my mind. Jimin reinforced to us that this album was about things he was feeling and going through so naturally that colored how I interpreted the lyrics and tone of the songs on my first listen. This is what I wrote back on March 25 about it:

Maybe he once trusted himself but in this time and place in which he finds himself, he questions what is he doing? and second guessing himself. Day in and day out, the days are all the same nothingness. Hiding his feelings, faking it, pretending it was all ok. It’s all cool. It’ll be all right. He has said many times he looks back at that time and thinks he could have done more for the fans. Being hard on himself. ... Face-Off feels like it could have been a purging song when he wrote it. A little primal, you know… just scream, get it out. Painful but cathartic. 

After several weeks now, after being exposed to even more promotional content and interviews and everyone else's take on the songs and album, I can't get the multiple layers of interpretation out of my head.

In one of his interviews, he said the carnival music at the beginning of Face-Off was just something he thought would be interesting. But you could also think of it as the beginning of his self-awareness... his sudden epiphany of his situation and mocking himself as a clown when he was living like a fool.

I originally felt all of the lyrics of the song were directed at himself, he was talking about betraying himself, but was it really friends or people he trusted who betrayed him?

However you want to think about the source of the betrayal, he realizes he had been a fool to trust, the song conveys an overwhelming humiliating feeling of betrayal. He was angry and hurt. And he lashed out.

We know Jimin is a deeply feeling person, so how do you escape the deep anxiety of humiliation, anger and shame? How does he erase the thought that he was too blind to see someone taking advantage of him?

He turned to drinking? He didn't want to be sober. Kill the emotions. Similar to the lyric in Like Crazy: "emotions on ice."

It seems like there was a specific day that was the climax of this betrayal... "a beautiful night" where he finds himself or maybe in other words, reaches a turning point where he can control all the turmoil, feels relief.

"Even though you test me...even though you kill me... even if you stab me more" are highly vicious and violent expressions. A determination to survive no matter how much it hurts. Could be talking to himself, his inner demons, or could be speaking about these people who betrayed him... or could be talking about haters in general.

Whatever this deeply emotional event was for him... that he wrote a song about ... I believe it impacted him in a way that significantly shapes who he is now.

The more I dwell on the lyrics, the more I think about how awful that moment in time must have been for him.

All that being said, multiple interpretations of this song live in my head simultaneously as I listen to it. For me, there is no black and white to what the song means. The meanings and interpretations flow back and forth. He created a great song with strongly emotional lyrics and I'm very proud of him.

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

[housecow]

the difference between these two 🥺 both??

funny story though. my roommate is still taking food but my memory is so bad when it comes to things i don’t eat myself (adhd)

when i talk to friends and family about the situation the first thing they ask is, “are you sure you’re not sleep eating?” which is adorable. they wanna believe, even if for a second, that maybe i’m not truly at fault for making myself into such a cow 🥺 i get it bc im getting very fat even with the thievery but at the same time. im literally being gaslit

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

[fryday]

y'all i still have a few posts about the pholiday instagram photos that i never got to post bc of the crazy video they uploaded last night 💀 would you still read / even wanna see the posts now or is it old news

[hag-lad]

The pain, the despair, the unmitigated agony of seeing one of your fave fanfic writers move onto another fandom, seemingly never to return.

[spaceysiamese]

Thinking about this quote recently

[adwox]

the first colored sketch of zero i made ⁉️

[felidaefatigue]

its always a good time when theres a color in the toilet u only ate like 3hr ago or ???????? cant remember last time and that color is red

[hxhhasmysoul]

the more i think about it, maybe gojou did take a hit to his mental health in the prison realm. maybe he had too much time to think and to miss the people no longer in his life. and then he got out and found out more of them were gone. he failed to prevent all of those loses, one way or the other. maybe he saw the hollowness of his own strength. strength that does not protect, that does not let him keep people around him.

maybe he didn't believe that megumi can be saved so he didn't try, and didn't prepare himself for the fight, just tried to wing it.

that last flash back kinda shows that he wasn't with the living in his thoughts, he was with the dead. maybe that's why he orchestrated the killing of the elders but appointed gakuganji because he couldn't make himself care anymore.

it's a shame that seeing the reflection of himself in sukuna wasn't a wake-up call, something to get him out of the stupor. didn't make him strive not to be sukuna. not to be detached and selfish, not to give in to his worst instincts.

i wish this fight never happened and gege actually explored gojou a bit instead. i wish we never established who was stronger. i wish gojou's last fight didn't make him look so bad.

[telomirage]

still (always) thinking about how much I love onf :') they were so fun

before and after the show:

Yuto was so cute and sweet 🥹 it was absolutely worth the like, two hours it took for our tier of snapshots to get called down. I had a lot of fun and am glad my friend and I were able to go. I thought I was going to have to skip it but everything (not quite new job interview + offer + pre-first day onboarding, as well as concert day traffic, parking, etc) worked out

[mars-ipan]

folks these steroids have me ERRATIC tonite

[angel13xo]

ITS SOOOO FRICKING ANNOYING WHEN A HORRIBLE BAD ANIME HAS A REALLY GOOD MAGIC PLOT/REALLY AWESOME MAGIC SYSTEM THAT JUST ISNT EXPLAINED WELL LIKE CMON 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 we could be doing so much better be so much more creative DONT BE AFRAID TO GO INTO DEPTH OR EXPLAIN THINGS BECAUSE NOTHING IS TOO OBVIOUS I PROMISE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 lik the plot and the magic system could be so cool and have some serious potential

BUT the writing or the characters/characterisation or the design or WORSE THE PERVY JOKES EWWWWW like it's such a waste 😭😭😭😭😭

[keeps-ache]

my nose is runny.. it's the end of the woooooorlldd

[artemisiatridentata]

I shouldn’t have to go to work every day I should get lots and lots of time to chill and rock in my rocking chair and read good books and ride my bike around town early in the quiet morning and pick sunflowers and bake honey and oat cookies and crochet giant fish for my friends and actually have time to paint and draw like I used to before I grew up and had to work all the goddam time just to have enough money to pay my bills .

[pepprs]

ok i survived yom kippur. but it took every single scrap of strength in my body and i’m not completely better yet