#was in fact the solution to my problem
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I don't know who needs to hear this but you don't need to beat yourself up over the fact that you're thinking about stuff like a camp Halfblood au of your ocs instead of "actually working" on your wip.
I actually encourage you to think those thoughts through!
Let them run around freely in your head because when they come to a halt you might just have learned something about your characters, their dynamics and their world, you may even find the solution to that plothole or the answer to that question that has plagued you.
Imagine your character's future to find out how they would act in a different phase of their lives so that you can write their present self in a way that leads to this future self. Think about what music your high fantasy character would listen to if they were in a coffee shop au. Figure out what Hogwarts house your ocs would be sorted in and if their relationships would change or stay the same. Create that alternate timeline where the best friends are on opposite sides and think about the consequences this would have for the world around them. Age up your characters just for fun and see where that takes you. Think about memes that a future fanbase could make about your work like a "[insert wip name] but as vines" YouTube video. Decide who of your ocs would say what if you see one of those fake quote posts or textpost memes on here.
All of that is information and context, all of this association helps you get a grip of that idea in your head, it helps you get a feeling of who your characters are, what your world is and what your story needs and wants to be. If you don't put pressure and restrictions on yourself and allow yourself to explore stuff freely without wanting results you often get them anyways, that's part of the creative process.
#exploring different ages just for fun and coming to the conclusion that one of my ocs is actually all of them and neither at the same time#was in fact the solution to my problem#giving a loner character who wasn't supposed to have one a love interest because it didn't fit what I wanted to say with the story#actually ended up giving her a voice (and me some answers) because it was the first positive interaction she had with someone#hearing her explain her past to someone who accepted her made me understand her better#writer#writers on tumblr#writing#writing advice#sometimes I stumble upon a crossover like what if characters feom x were in the universe of Avatar the last Airbender#and I really disagree with the element that the creater of that fanart choose of them and even that broadens my interpretation of them#please reblog to spread the word
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i think when cherik fuck charles just has to control himself so much that he reaches the point where he gets almost no pleasure because of the efforts and erik just doesn't see that for a long time bc charles is very good at simulating whatever it is so they fuck and erik is happy and cherles is close to tears every time because yeah he had sex but he spent all time of it struggling to remain control of his abilities and he didn't have orgasm and he just doesn't know what to do because he's afraid to tell erik and he's afraid to stop doing that because he thinks he'd project his thoughts and feeling all over the mansion and he's afraid to go on the way he does because it's exhausting and kinda awful
sorry im in the mood for angsty thoughts about charles's telepathy sorry
you jsut gon say this in fronta my salad. ..,
#nsft#snap chats#BUT REAL i love angst with charles and his telepathy so much you dont even know so i am in fact eating this. WITh my salad#speedrun category for how fast this went from funny to sad and im living for it if im so tbh#how fast you think erik catches on. cause im betting my kidney he will catch on at some point details about charles does not evade him#this why they oughta shack up away from the mansion. this why erik gotta kidnap him to Whatever resort they can go to#'resort' and its just one of his '''''evil''''' lairs away from everyone else vjlekjal#modern problems demand modern solutions ... still /having/ to isolate isnt fun#maybe if its a planned event Like A Vacation or somethin but what bout- if i may quote asia- The Heat Of The Moment#what then. what if there Is no isolating option. TRAGIC chat my head hurts#brain just wants them to bone without problems .... the problems make it more interesting tho im afraid brain you gotta deal#i repeat we gotta invest in the anti-telepath room....
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Hey Mayor, do you like puzzles?
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#blue and violet#the dude loves puzzles#but you don't have to be good at something to like it#the fact that Mayor has terrible problem solving skills is just me being silly and projecting my own problems onto them#because I fucking hate puzzles like sudoku#and even though Mayor would probably enjoy a good sudoku puzzle the guy will never be able to finish it#they probably do crosswords in newspapers too#but again they can never finish them#because this dude cannot problem solve for the life of them#it sort of ties into the fact that they were heavily reliant on people (LBD) telling them what to do throughout their life#so basically they lack the ability to come up with solutions on their own#or at least thay ability is not as high as one might think it is#but again this is just a silly Headcon#trauma flashbacks to the syntax finger trap lmao
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she looks so different in game it makes me mad
wlikewho the fuck is thattttttt thats not my sim bruh 😪
anyway lookbook
#this hair is so great but the black swatch sucks!#matter fact why is most hairs' black swatch sooo gray aaaaaaaaa#and u can tell i tried to edit tf out of it... 😪😪#me doing anything but fix my game yaaa im over it fuck the detective career 🖕 everytime i fix a problem another comes up#and i check the forums and theres a lot of people w the exact same and its entries from 2016 like.... come onnnnn! and no solution 😭😭🤮#when ive always been a get to work truther... so ungrateful smh
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Gratitude time
#today im doing it because it's easy and im overflowing with thankful things#very often i do it because it's hard#probably good to remember it CAN be easy#anyway#thankful for my team im gonna be travelling with and the enciuragement they are#its good to remember i am not on this ceazy ride alone#thankful for a genuinely good rich fulfilling day of class/prep#and the stories of God’s amazing provision from an incredible middle eastern guy who shared with us#and for the moroccan lady i met who now somehow is cooking us lunch tomorrow so now i get to try moroccan food#and her hospitality#and for a good comfy bed and the gift of a private room this qeek#and wifi cuz hey that's a bonus (not to be taken for granted this next month)#and a remarkable number of solutions for dumb lil problems#and for the fact that my goodby with The Boy tonight (the big goodbye. for 8 months)#which both of us were dreading because yknow the Big Sad#didnt actually hit either of us emotionally while we were together#which was such a gift. we got to spend 3 hours together just being peaceful and present and having good conversations#and thinking about how to do dating well this year#and praying together#and it was just. so good#and i am so so glad i get to date him this year and share this crazy thing with him even though itvis gonna be really really hard sometimes#and he made me a bracelet to take with me 🥺
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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very disappointed with my therapy session today... i wasn't feeling it a lot either last time but i thought maybe it was because i just flung a lot of different things to my therapist and it was difficult to do something with it.
but here with "i'm feeling very, very sad and frustrated about something frustrating-but-not-that-serious because it taps into all my old wounds, what do i do to stop ruminating/overthinking and crying, how can i solve the underlying issues so that this kind of things don't hurt me as much and for as long next time ?"
and basically what i was given is "everybody feels like this and you have to remember what they did is not about you but about them and maybe try to scream or throw pillows".
and like it's. it's not wrong in itself. But 1) no i do not think everybody can have the same imaginary conversation fifteen times in a row in their mind. And even if they did it would be something to try to get out of. Yes i need to live the emotion and such but like ?? 2) don't you have other tools besides "it's gonna pass" when i ask how to learn to let go of things i can't control and can't solve ??
i was not very nice because basically i was testing her. There is one thing i know that helps me a bit and it's saying "statements out loud" (i feel very stupid when i do it but it helps). But i wanted to see if she was going to mention it as a possibility, especially for me who has a tendency to THINK to much. but she didn't, even though i even ended saying something about those lines she didn't jump on it to say 'well then do it again if it works'.
On her professional page she lists different therapy styles / techniques she can use depending on the patient / their wishes, but here it feels like it's written but there is not truth behind.
"live the emotion" buddy the emotion is eating me alive and creating itself anew in an unending manner by doing it. I would like to avoid that.
#3615 my life#ok it's not eating me alive but like. i do have a real problem of overthinking / looping thoughts#and the idea that i will have to maybe change therapist and do it all again again#when i liked her at the beginning#is sad and tiring.#really on this subject i feel like she gave less tools than what i could find in an average self help book#i really did push her by literally asking 'what are tools i can use to let go of this emotion ?'#'well learning how to let go is very hard it's actually a long process to learn and then you just now how to do it i think your#problem is more on accepting what you can't control'#yes and how throwing pillows is going to help me with that ?????#so fun fact my initial problem has been much soothed by my NEW problem#maybe that's the real solution have unending problems cycling so you can always have the satisfaction of forgetting the old one until it#comes back#which is of of course not at all a reason to go to therapy.#sigh.#i'm tired
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okay so my current dilemma is that it's 4am, I can't lift up the mattress to put the bed slats back into place on my own, I did manage to lift it up enough to look at them and realised there are way more slats out of place than I thought and some are bent as if they've been out of place like that for a long time, and I think we're gonna have to take the mattress off the bed, but there's nowhere we can put it that won't result in our contamination OCD getting triggered really badly because putting it on the floor will trigger that and I don't know what the fuck we're gonna do. we're also probably gonna have to sleep before we can fix this but idk if continuing to sit or lay on the bed is a bad idea for the time being and I think I also just fucked up our back by trying to lift the mattress
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#also like asking for someone else to lift the mattress up is gonna create a situation where our contamination OCD is gonna get triggered#and no matter what happens we're gonna end up using way more energy than we can afford to right now trying to fix this#I've already overexerted because I panicked and tried to lift up the mattress and wasn't paying attention to whether I got hurt#and now I can feel how much my back and shoulders and wrists hurt#and I've also already spent a decent portion of the night either dissociating or having random panic attacks#and this is not helping because I've had multiple panic attacks in a row over it#and the fact that I don't have a solution to the problem that won't cause a bunch of other problems#means my brain is not going to shut the fuck up#my whole back is spasming and I think I've dislocated a rib. fuck
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Some of you think a Fascist™ country is defined by an oppressive dictatorship that results in a greyscale dystopian society and it shows.
#ra speaks#personal#politics#‘don’t vote a fascist into power this fall!’ buddy I hate to break it to you but there ARE fascists in power. like a lot.#we have a lot of democratically elected fascists at every level of government. voting in a Not Fascist (we totally swear pinky promise)#into power won’t fix the fact that the majority of legislative power comes from career politicians with no term limits who will do#everything in their power to retain their power.#do you think all the ‘acceptable’ Germans in Germany were suffering sadly and powerlessly under the Reich?#no! they were for a large part normal. either ignorant or apathetic people living their damn lives.#Hitler didn’t come into power and suddenly they lived in a dystopian hellscape brainwashed into the nazi cult#their lives went on. as long as their status quo was maintained what did they care about their disappearing neighbors#who were ‘undesirables’ anyway???#don’t twist my fucking words nowhere does this rant say don’t vote at all ever.#this rant says don’t fucking kid yourself even if we elected a goddamn saint to be president they would still be stonewalled by the rest#of our fascist government if not outright killed for having the audacity to not protect the interests of the rich and powerful.#fascism isn’t a one person problem and there isn’t a one person solution.
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realizing that big boobs are the reason why i have so much back pain immediately destroyed the acceptance i spent years working on about how my chest looks. lol
#now that ik it causes actual physical problems it feels like theres a justified reason to hate them. so the dysmorphia is back STRONG#and like its been actually affecting me and how i live my life. a lot. its bad#esp bc ik theres a solution (surgery) so im like. hhhhhhhhhgn#dont get me wrong i want to get breat reduction surgery anyways. because the back pain part is real and its worse than the low self esteem#but id appreciate it if my brain could see it as just that- something that is heavy and thus causes me pain- instead of Thing That Makes Yo#Look Ugly And Built Wrong And Fat#all that is not helped by the fact that i lost weight and that makes the big chest look more disproportionate#cuz when i losing weight does Not make my chest smaller just my stomach/thighs#its the same thing that happened in the quarantine fueled depressive episode i lost an insane amount of weight and spent all day on tiktok#it made the dysmorphia skyrock it was awful#cuz when i lose weight* not losing
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took me only three pages in my new sketchbook to start drawing gay shit....
poses courtesy of pinterest
i have regular brainrot of shipping redacted with various npcs from the campaign, this one, zarak, is a recurring one! do love me a grumpy tragic drow that i can soften up... and redacted may be a flirty fuck but i think zarak could get him flustered if he really tried
also his nickname for redacted is trinket. like. yes its bc when they first meet redacted gives him an origamy thingy But regardless!!! do you not see the potential!! in the immediate pet name!!!
#need to get more comfy w my sketches#lore for the tagreaders#so basically redacteds name thing works like this#since he has no name no one can just call him by one. vague descriptors like tiefling that guy the blue one work#but no one can just go “you will be jack from now on”#now. this obviously causes some problems roleplay wise. so the solution to this is that after a while ppl develop a nickname for redacted#that only they can call him by. this is based on the fact that we all refer to ppl in a specific way in our head#so after a while a nickname is developed organically#it doesnt have to be complicated. two party members call him bluey bc he is blue and bagpipes bc be was playing the bagpipes when she met#him#but if someone doesnt have a nickname for him they literally cant refer to him by any specific name thing. they are Unable to. bc Magic#anyways yeah totally normal thing to call someone trinket haha lol
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I don't know if it's the fandom or interacting with the wrong people or rewatching the wrong episodes...
But I'm starting to kind of dislike Yuya. He feels like a diet Judai or Yuma.
#yugioh#ygo#...too scared to put any other tags#don't kill me yuya fans#I loved him at one point#but... man he just doesn't develop by the end#I think this might be more so my growing issue with the show's themes tbh#what they're going for is nice#but for god's sake trying to make people smile is not gonna solve every issue#and the fact that the show acts like it's the end all be all solution at times (ie: the synchro arc) really pisses me off#and yuya is the brunt of that problem#rants#negative
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well lots to think about there
#I think...#it's good to come right out and say that turning back the clock is not the solution#i think that's accurate#the idea that you can have women kind of emerge as serious players in the last couple generations and then just snatch it away#not only is it cruel it's patently ridiculous#that said some of the concluding bits#I don't know#I wonder#is there an appetite for that kind of irenic posture?#it seems hard for one to adopt that yes-also posture you can be interested in women's liberation and also acknowledge this other problem et#he says something about how when you look at the 'traditional' way of thinking about gender issues and the traditional direction#you can't be surprised if all you have to offer men is to tell them how horrible they are or just to sign them up as allies#they just look elsewhere#i've felt that way about it for a long time#i've spent my whole life hearing about what utter garbage men are from every corner#not in the least from women telling me all the things Men have done to them#there's just no possible coherent response i can imagine#i've been increasingly worried as my sons get older that all i really have to offer them is an admonition not to be a rapist#and perhaps more broadly to get out of the way of women#this is the feeling among all the academics i know#put your tail between your legs submit smile no matter what they say about you and they do say some hurtful things and laugh#or else#again#this non-starter solution to just become some wild misogynist provocateur#I guess the stated goal of this guy's work isn't so much to establish solutions as it is facts#I do wonder what the solution could be#i sympathize with the desire to check out#oh I also cannot imagine any kind of positivity about fatherhood that would land or ring true or anything like that#however essential they find the presence of fathers to be#but that's another discussion
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literally was talking to someone the other day (same conversation that has already provoked multiple rant posts) and she was saying she was thinking about putting rat poison under her hay and i had to be like🧍🏻. do you love killing many other animals like your cat who you won't keep inside. or your neighbors cat who they won't keep inside. or our beautiful birds of prey who will eat those rats.❓
#she HAD NOT EVEN HAD RAT PROBLEMS BEFORE she was just saying this because some guy told her she would get them. stupid#i really think rat poison should not be sold like they have to outlaw that shit#outdoor cat people are just so so so fucking dumb oh my god. keep that thang inside!!!!!!!!#“ohh i would just be devastated if a hawk took my cat ohh the coyotes ohh he got in a fight” none of this would be an issue if you kept him#INSIDE. OBVIOUSLY.#people hate simple and effective solutions and i clearly just need to internalize this fact and start approaching the world that way because#they are never going to change. 🙃#me
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Man..
#sorry i'm still upset about bridal sharena. like YEAH she's an incredibly powerful incredibly useful unit#pair her up w winter edelgard and the girlies are cleaning up tt maps extremely efficiently#and YEAH. she absolutely has nice art and huge win for the power of friendship. w veronica.#but man. it's like. i can't even enjoy my time w her.#due to. extremely specific things about me that are entirely a me issue and i can acknowledge that and own that.#it would probably feel less bad if like. sharena got literally anything else. in between now and her bunny alt.#like YEAH... she is the other half of the alfonse duo. which is the cutest shit and i love them so much#idk i know it's a non-problem. it feels dumb to make it a problem.#but genuinely like. i don't like using her w the animations on i don't really like checking the home screen dialogue#it's INTERESTING. for lore/characterization purposes. it's funny and charming bc ofc it is!!!#it's sharena and veronica ofc they're gonna be funny and charming!!!!!!! they are SO endearing to me#but god. i really do just. have problems. and it feels soooooo upsetting that like#my very specific problems are preventing me from enjoying WHAT SHOULD BE. something i should really like!!!!!!!#like there are NO problems w her!!!!!!!!!!!! the problem is ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna thrup#why didn't intsys consult me about this. the unemployable shut-in who runs a semi-obscure tumblr blog. in america#unbelievable..#like would i sound insane if i said marriage is like a trigger for me. like completely seriously and unironically.#like. again. it is such a non-issue. and all of it is on me to choose what i engage w that IS how managing your triggers works.#please please pleeeease don't misconstrue anything i'm saying i'm being vulnerable. rn. and petty. super fucking petty.#and obviously i can just. not use her. or use her minimally. but that's really not my point here i'm not looking for solutions#i'm just. expressing how uniquely upsetting this situation is. w how intense my askr sib interest is#w the fact that sharena IS. absolutely one of my fave charas. i adore her completely and she means so much to me#this feels like. a saw trap. made just for me.#idk again there is no solution here and i fully acknowledge this is a skill issue and realistically not even a problem.#but like. can anybody hear me. it's so dark in here.
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#Howwwww is it 5am already I want to go home#I begged my parents and sibling to let me go home to my own bed and they wouldn't let me#I don't want to be the solution to our family problems I want to go be alone and not here#I understand me being around more would make our parents nicer and give my siblings someome sane to talk to#But I want to die and I don't want to be here and I don't care about any of these people#Once again them forcing me to go to their house made me miss an assignment. So that class is genuinely failed now.#It makes me so frustrated I could cry. Every time I say I'm doing school work#Or say I can't drop everything and drive forty minutes to their house. they laugh at me#They genuinely laugh and say I'm such a liar and I'm faking and there's no way I ever do any school work#I'm actually shaking I'm so frustrated they don't understand. That's how long it takes me.#Why can't they just realize I'm a dumbass fucking idiot. I'm so fucking stupid#I'm literally so stupid. Intellectually I'm a fucking idiot and I am so useless and slow.#Stop trying to believe I have potential to fucking waste#The fact is there is no potential but I'm fucking wasting anyway#I'm so. Dumb. When I say I'm doing school work I mean I looked at the tab and got nervous about how overdue#everything is and how I'm failing and everyone wants me to leave my safety for their own inane bullshit#I wouldn't be failing this class at all if I had been able to complete the first week on time#instead of like. sitting outside a convention center alone and in agony for Five (5) hours.#Kudos to the devil for creating the exact perfect circumstances to kill me in particular#I should reach out and go to a friend's house and it would be good for me. But.#There's no way I'm going to see or speak to anyone in this state of everything#Everyone else around me seems to have improved in mental health I'm not going to ruin that by making them let me come over#No one really believes any of the problems I have like even I don't. how are you that stupid. just stop having these problems.#I can't go to a friend's house when I have problems like this. Last time I had a breakdown and scared the fucking host and#their partner had to be the one to comfort me because I was crying too loud for autistic ears :(#I can't do that to anyone again#I'm not kidding when I say I'm a huge burden genuinely I exist to be upsetting and inconvenient and frustrating#I am literally the most selfish person to ever have existed. Just objectively. I don't care about anyone or anything at all.#I don't love my friends or my family and I don't care about what they want or need. truthfully.#I just want to sit in my tiny room where nothing changes and no one expects me to drive anywhere holy fucking shit it's 6am
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