#very normal activities here

[ruehyte]

staring at my rook (bc im entirely nomral) and i've noticed the bottom of their vallaslin looks a lot like the mourn watch symbol? ofcourse its not exact but

they both look like little beetles... ✨ foreshadowing ✨, especially with their vallaslin being Falon'Din and his ties to death and the dead. wroaw

[drenched-in-sunlight]

saying this as respectfully as possible but. Do not put fandom content creators on a pedestal. We are also just fans contributing to a community just as you are. We have boundary on our own work and that’s it. What I say is not and should not be considered sth the whole fandom should listen to. I’m just a normal ass person ranting about things on my blog. If it does not have a fandom tag for others to engage in, do not make it out to be me trying to start fights or addressing the whole community. Because it’s not.

I’ve said it before and I will say it again, my art, my lore talk, is biased. I’ve never tried to hide that I view Marika a certain way and will always develop my theory following that base assumption.

Aside from translation stuffs and pointing out in-game items, everything else I say you can look at it, agree or disagree, and move on to form your own opinions. Just because I draw stuffs doesn’t mean you get to saddle me with responsibilities about managing fandom expectations. What the hell? I’m a fan artist, I’m the last person who you should look at for “leaderism” (?) WHAT?

I can and will be a hater in my own space, like I know sometimes other artists will just post their stuffs and not engage too heavily with fandom, and for a while I did try to do that here (because I’m already a dramatic ass on twitter), that’s just not me though.

You will get art and you will get my opinions as well.

[graysanatimony]

I love how pictures of joker out can range from like beautiful, ethereal -god like even- men to like they just got dragged out of a bed straight through a hedge backwards and then got in a fight with a wild animal of some variety but still hot

[skeleboy13]

do not leave me alone in a room with old boots and paint markers

[bubba-draws]

Woe, grollow wip be upon ye

[curioscurio]

Just started generic vyvanse and wow. No wonder it changed lives. They say it lasts more than 4 to 6 hours and then it DOES? Most adhd meds I've tried will wear off in 4 or 5 hours, so I'd often have to take another dose later in the day, but this shit keeps me going for a good 10-13 hours!

(This is just my experience! I'm just a guy I'm not a doctor disclaimer so uh don't take my word as law lol)

[cent-scratchnsniff]

it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)

[lovelyrotter]

can we all remember to just say 'oh no thank you, i dont like that kind of food' but apply that logic and rules to shipping and letting other people ship again

[dykedvonte]

why do you hate Joshua Graham or Honest Hearts so much?

This DLC and character represents a bigger issue with fandom spaces I have but particularly fallout fandom in general.

Fallout tends to tackle a lot of topics controversial and not. The first two games it’s heavy cause they are the most satirical and direct with how anti-war, nationalism and etc… they are. 3 loses this as it’s very clear once you play or learn about all the games that Todd and a bunch of guys at Bethesda just liked the 50s post apocalyptic aesthetic and refuse to actually critique the ideals of the time period like the earlier titles.

New Vegas is the game that really gets back into it a degree it almost seems like it’s taking too much on. There are things done exceedingly well while other things are done horribly wrong . I’ve made posts about it before and plan to make a big series of posts (it’s a lot of writing) but my biggest gripe is with Honest Hearts and all the gross and white savior esque depictions it has of indigenous peoples. The entirety if FNV does not do the injustices faced by indigenous people correctly on any count. My two biggest complaints are with the Khans and the tribes in Zion but I’ll talk about the former on a different post.

Both characters of Daniel and Joshua are the most accurate depiction of white saviors I’ve seen and I hate how the DLC tries to justify and defend them. The DLC treats Joshua like this man who has repented for his past actions when he is just retracing his steps after his cruelty bit him in the ass. He was one of the worst parts of the Legion and it is all but explicitly stated that if you don’t force him to be non-violent he will turn the tribes of Zion into the legion 2.0. The Dead Horses and the Sorrows are horribly infantilized by both Daniel and Joshua who both use them for self serving purposes guised by religious duty. The White Legs are the horrible stereotype of violent and savage indigenous and I personally think a lot of their interlinking with Ulysses, his hair and Ulysses character in general are distasteful and very telling of how BIPOC or POC where involved.

But outside of the game it’s the weird obsession people have with these characters ideologies and trying to make them seem more interesting/philosophical than they are. Tumblr is an echo chamber and many fans of Fallout are not the people on this site. Many people are not educated in the issues these characters convey and how poorly they do or used these characters as a poor introduction for their takes. Contrary to what a lot of people believe in, fallout has a prediomeny white cis male fanbase. More importantly a large portion of the fanbase is white.

You can joke how FNV made you trans or see the numbers on post/fics or diverse headcanons but these are kiddy numbers compared to the millions that consume the franchise and aren’t in those more aware spaces or don’t engage in the spaces the same way someone like me does/has to. Their views shape a lot more than people realize and it’s exhausting to be in a space where people don’t correct the more subtle yet toxic aspects of it but also adopt them into some weird quirky view point on the characters or issues. Some people don’t realize and some people don’t care.

My main issue is just the idolizing of these sort of thing in this fandom space and people try to acts like a game like fallout whose tagline is “War never changes” and has never had a game not revolve around political or militaristic factions issues isn’t that deep or doesn’t relate to real issues. I think it’s mainly caused by how over powered you can become and how you can strong arm your way past these learning moments as majority of people who play this game do play it as a power fantasy where they can do so as they please (which of course, go ahead it’s fun) but never take in parallels or lessons in the story as if it was just another first person shooter.

Also like another personal gripe is Cazadores spawn like hell whenever I’m there and I have not found a mod that works to mod them out so I have to play Indigenous Racism the DLC while getting jumped by giant wasps WHILE helping Mormons. Like I cannot catch a break.

[bitchthefuck1]

you know what, I actually will talk about this because it's bothering me. The issue with focussing so heavily on syd and carmy's potential for a romantic relationship isn't that there's something inherently unintellectual about romance or whatever, it's that a lot of people seem incapable of doing that without immediately flattening the story and ignoring or intentionally misreading any and all nuance for the sake of that romance. Every scene suddenly becomes about how it impacts their relationship, every analysis is done through a romantic lens, every frame or line of dialogue becomes about finding some easter egg or hint that "proves" these people should start dating. Their dynamic is absolutely a fundamental part of this show, but if you can only see it as a will-they-won't-they, you miss so much of what the story is actually trying to say with these two.

There are good versions of this story where their relationship is romantic and there are good versions of this story where it isn't, but as soon as you decide them being together is "the point," you lose the ability to actually judge the story for what it is, not what you want it to be.

[sysig]

If the rules are “Catch them all” ZEX already has a leg up (Patreon)

[chains-of-others]

A star that burns as bright as fire and one that bleeds like a pierced heart.

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

[callsign-relic]

today’s a saying my thoughts aloud kind of day I think (light thoughts on nsfw and size stuff below)

I think. I really don’t care for nsfw stuff 🤔 not in the repulsed way that I was before. But now I’m just… it doesn’t interest me at all. Like if I see two humans or even two bots bangin’ I’m just like ok then. Where’s the pizazz. This is. Boring AHDHDJFJDE

I did genuinely give it a chance. After learning my repulsion was a result of trauma, I dipped my toes into it. Though by this point, the conclusion I can gather for my thoughts for the moment is while I’m not repulsed, I’m more so neutral— I’m not against it at all, I just personally don’t see the huge appeal…

Except when there’s size difference 😀 AHGSHSHD

I wish I could explain why. But I’m just like, two normal ass same size people banging? Idk I feel detached from it it’s just normal ass people. Good for them, and those who do enjoy it, it’s just not for me. It’s crazy my brain exclusively only gets turned on by size 😭 HAHSGDHD

So I guess this is to say. It doesn’t happen so often but if you ever do send an ask that’s just regular bot x bot or like same size stuff, I’ll give a reply sure! But also bear in mind it’s not my thing so it may not be the best 🤷

[privaterecording1clips]

I just watched yesterday's vod and i immediately came to tumblr to see the panic and let me tell you, i feel like a bug whos rock was just lifted lmao. They aren't supposed to KNOW!!!!!

Listen, I expect this sort of thing. I expect streamers to eventually get curious, see what they’re fans are up to the the accursed platforms such as tumblr and Ao3.

WHAT I DONT EXPECT IS FOR ONE OF THEM (JEREMY) TO ACTIVELY ENCOURAGE ANOTHER (PLATY) TO READ FANFIC LIVE ON STREAM??? If they ever do a stream where they read fanfic I’m temporarily privating all my works.

Yeah, I’m uh. Definitely okay after last night. I don’t think they got to any of my fics, but I did go to bed after the first few times it was brought up since it was late. If they did read my fics or ever do…… I don’t want to know.

Also, I’m very happy that you all thought to either message this blog or my main, even if you were just curious about PR1! I don’t know when I became the primary spokesperson of this fandom but if I must? I guess so be it lmao

[kafus]

it’s good to remember that constantly suffering does not help anyone. some level of observation/witnessing and remembering the dead is human and necessary, feeling grief and choosing to act on that grief by doing what you can to protest or fight against the genocide is good, but aimless spiraling over the genocide does not bring it any closer to stopping. if you’re so in despair about it that you feel paralyzed or hopeless or cannot act on that feeling, it just is not productive, and i really do implore you to recognize your limits. do not stop speaking up and do not stop pushing for a ceasefire and for palestine to be free but do also take care of yourself if you are in a position to be able to. you are more able to be loud and productive when you have access to hope and when you are more mentally sound

this is written with the nuance and understanding that palestinians do not have the privilege of stepping away for self care while they are being actively killed, but again, people who are in a position to care for themselves who do not and then spiral out of control do not magically put palestinians into a better position by doing so