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smooching ur art rn
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Aaaah! 😎 thank u dude
#the art wont smooch back but you can have this lemon scented scratch n sniff sticker. its got a sun wearing shades#what is that. is that just a pot of food. is it soup? what is that#ur going under.... fuck man#🍲 anon#ig??#i was gonna call u souper bowl anon but thats a lil too usamerican even for me#not art#asks
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No. Google. I'm actually looking specifically for trans MEN. I know a lot of articles talk about trans women. But I'm specifically looking for stuff about my subset of the trans community. Why the fuck are trans men so hyper-invisible.
#this is like the fifth different wording in the search and it all pulls up articles about trans WOMEN who have died#and that needs to be talked about!!!!!!!! IM JUST LOOKING FOR SOMETHING ELSE THO SO LIKE CAN THIS FUCKING SEARCH ENGINE WORK???#hyper-visibiliy and hyper-invisibility make it a nightmare to search for certain info#like 90% of the time things arent fucking recorded as a hatecrime when against a trans man. he gets buried under his dead name#and the silence echoes. never added to the numbers. never fucking seen.#then theres the guys who are just trying to push thru. even if you wanna talk about whats happened to you why? why would you?#its just taking attention away from (everyone else) people who need it#why talk about your issues when ur supposed to just “be a man” and bottle it up#we talk all the time about how men need to talk about their shit and need to be in touch with emotions and go to therapy and all that shit#but as SOON as its a trans man. “gotta man up! tough it out!”#and man you can see that shit in the statistics#yeah i know part of this is just google turning into AI infested garbage but still
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REGGIE IS TO VINH WHAT VINH WAS TO SAFI SO TRUE!!! and i think this concept is fascinating because the solution isn’t ‘maybe love this person you don’t love’ but it’s to move on instead and respect yourself more. i’ll never understand the weird vinh x reggie stuff pulled at the end of the game … what happened to them being ‘bad’ for each other ?? i do not mind vinh realizing how poorly he’s treated people and trying to be better, especially after his safi revelation, but i don’t understand how this immediately equals romantic love ??? anyway. sorry. your opinions are amazing as always, and i’m so glad someone else has a similar view of them
NEVER APOLOGIZE KING UR ALWAYS CORRECT AND YOUR OPINIONS R ALWAYS RIGHT!!
#but YEAH it really felt sooo left field#ik weve talked about it but again it really really feels like a punishment that reggie gets pissed off at you#surely reggie knows vinh fucks around with a lot of people?#why did reggie NEED to b there for that kiss...... dont get it. i just dont get it#also its entirely possible max doesnt even know like for sure they had anything going on#and any other confirmation comes AFTER the kiss and max is like oh. heheheh..... ooopsss guess i stole ur (not) man#like if u take a glimpse at Vinh's phone i think thats the only REAL confirmation theyve fucked around#otherwise its just reggie posting thirtsy comments under anything relating to vinh 💀💀💀#and vinh brushing him off or just straight up ignorin it LMAOOO#but yeah. vinhs road to betterment and reggies road to self respect do not and should not cross. in my humble (not so humble) opinion#LOVE reggie LOVE vinh but good god those losers shouldnt be together#anywayyys thanx for lettin me rant bestie <333#LIS#Life is Strange: Double Exposure#Vinh Lang#Reggie Kagan#[ 🗣 ]#[ 🐇 ]#[ RJ ]
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crowley's head snapping to look away like he's been slapped after aziraphale said "i need you" keeps replaying on a never ending loop in my mind and it makes me wanna kms
#DAVID TENNANT I AM UNDER UR BED WHAT YHE GUVL#I SWEAR THAT MAN CAN MAKE ME FEEL EVERY HUMAN EMOTION EVER CREATED WHILE WEARING HIS FUNKY FUCKING SUNGLASSES#every time i think abt that scene i wanna throw up so it's probably a sign that i should rewatch it#good omens#good omens s2#azicrow#crowley#aziraphale#go s2 spoilers#go s2#go season 2#good omens season 2#ineffable spouses#inefabble husbands
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Juwgen weitnew? stupid idiot mothewfucking juwgein weitnew god damn foow book cowwecting dust eating wat owd bastawd shithead idiot avataw of the whowe biggest cwown in the ciwcus waughed out of town cowboy mothewfucking juwgein weitnew
stowp pinning me whewn i tawk abouwt juwgein weitenew i hate him so much why does he have so many fucked up books why did he decide tuwu fuck awound awnd find out juwst set thewm woose iws he dead iws he a bastawd man has such a viscewaw affect own me nowt even in the woom nevew seen thiws mans face awnd i know he has the wowwds shittiest beawd get away fwom me
if i wanted tuwu get intwo heaven awnd god said juwgein weitnews waiting inside i wouwd piss own gods feet fow the sowe puwpose of getting sent bawck down
if i have tuwu deaw with juwgein weitnew speaking owne wowd in pewson own voice in podcast nowt onwy wiww i cwose the tab i wiww dewete my bookmawk out of spite awnd have tuwu wewatch the entiwe sewies again fow the expewience of being abwe tuwu skip aww the times whewn he iws mentioned ow awive
i dont even know why i hate him so much. he cowwects books but i am juwst mad because i am angy
he bettew have sowme fucked up backstowy tuwu expwain thiws if hes juwst sowme wich shithead whos a fan of cweepypasta awnd wanted the iww vewsion iww gow ham
bettew have had a book make him kiww a man cuz if he didnt im going tuwu make him
paypaw.com/ifuckinghatejuwgeinweitnew
episodes nowt even abouwt him. vaguewy mentioned whawt iws supposed tuwu maybe be hiws wibwawy awnd i wost iwt
whewe the fuck iws juwgein weitnew if hes stiww awive im going tuwu so deepwy wish he wasnt
cwusty owd man
iww punch weitnew awnd hiws sad fwaiw owd man twig bones wiww simpwy fwake apawt undew my epic huge meat fist awnd he wiww disintegwate untiw aww thats weft iws owne finaw book he kept own him at aww times simpwy titwed now uwu fucked up
I’m sorry I HAD too
#Yes I did make this actually#worlds most smullosk coded post ever#…..#DUM IDIOT MAMMA JÄVLA JURGEN LEITNER JÄVLA DÅRBOK SAMLA DAMM ÄTA RÅTTA GAMMAL JÄVLA SKIT HUVUD IDIOT AVATAR AV HOREN#CIRKUS STÖRSTA CLOWN SKRATTADE UT UR STAN COWBOY MAMMA JÄVLA JURGEN LEITNER#SLUTA SNÄLLA MIG NÄR JAG PRAKAAR OM JURGEN LEITNER JAG HATAR HONOM SÅ MYCKET VARFÖR HAR HAN#SÅ MÅNGA JÄVLA BÖCKER VARFÖR BESTÄMDE HAN ATT JÄVLAS OCH TA REDA PÅ DET#BARA SLÄPP DEM ÄR HAN DÖD ÄR HAN EN JÄVLIG MAN HAR EN SÅ VISCERAL PÅVERKAN PÅ MIG INTE ENS I RUMMET HAR ALDRIG SETT DENNA MANS ANSIKTE OCH#JAG VET ATT HAN HAR VÄRLDENS SKÄVIGSTE SKÄGG KOM BORT FRÅN MIG#om jag ville komma in i himlen och gud sa att jurgen leitners väntade där inne skulle jag pissa på guds#fötter i det enda syftet att bli skickad ner igen.#jag måste ta itu med att jurgein leitner pratar ett ord personligen på röst i podcast#inte bara kommer jag att stänga fliken#jag kommer att radera mitt bokmärke på otrohet och måste se om hela serien igen för upplevelsen av#att kunna hoppa över alla gånger när han nämns eller lever#Jag vet inte ens varför jag hatar honom så mycket. han samlar på böcker men jag är bara arg för att jag är angy#det är bäst att han har en jävla bakgrundshistoria för att förklara detta om han bara är en rik skithuvud som är ett#fan av creepypasta och ville ha den irl-versionen ill go ham#BÄTTRE har haft en bok att få honom att döda en man för om han inte kommer att göra honom#paypal.com/IFuckingHateJurgeinLeitner#avsnitt inte ens om honom. nämnde vagt vad som kanske skulle vara hans bibliotek och jag förlorade det#var fan är jurgein leitner om han fortfarande lever#jag kommer så djupt önska att han inte var#knaprig gubbe#ill punch leitner och hans sorgliga sköra gubbkvistben kommer helt enkelt att flaga sönder under min episka enorma köttnäve och han#kommer att sönderfalla tills allt som återstår är en sista bok som han alltid höll om honom med enbart titeln#“Now You Fucked Up” på gammal jiddisch……#Jag andas inte och hyperventilerar just nu#Jag hoppas att det finns ett datum för när jurgen dog eller#kommer att dö så att jag kan göra det till en påminnelse på min telefon
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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians
#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic#im just like. tired of gnawing#and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get#content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky#young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me#im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances#m text#i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story#not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a#lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out#bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples#and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified#(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here#(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein#out as lesbian#like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has#to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just#and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so#yknow. personal viewer bias here#but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian#and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out#but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes#I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'
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This just in, local struggler severely overestimates how much they can eat yet again. Left with half a bowl of ramen and a sad, sad heart
#speculation nation#it's homemade at least so im not wasting money on fancy ramen#but i Hate this man it sucks 😭😭😭😭#i keep losing weight bc i can never eat enough#and i was like 'ok lets make a ramen thats a good sized meal' but then i cant FINISH it#forced myself to finish all the eggs at least and now im just picking at the peas. ugh.#at this rate im gonna have to start drinking ensures more regularly again#bc i havent gotten to the underweight phase yet but if it keeps going like this then i will#like it was. excuse me talking about my weight for a bit but im a tad bit concerned about it#but back before i started adderall back in uhh. september?? i think?? or october???#fuck if i remember. been a few months tho. but also not That long.#anyways i was at like. 140lbs at the doctor and like 137lbs at home (relevant bc clothes weight. rest of this will be at home weights)#and ive had such shit appetite that ive been watching it go down and down. like at least a pound a week. sometimes two pounds.#and now im at 123lbs. which is a solid almost 15 lbs lost in like 3 ish months. which is kind of a lot when ur small to begin with.#also a little alarming when u see this happen like a pound lower between every shower. bc i tend to check before i shower.#& i often shower every 4 days or so. when im in the Rotting Era and all. aka i dont rly go outside much.#and like 123lbs still isnt bad for 5'3“ but i think 107lbs is the cutoff for underweight. and im halfway there.#and now see i was about this weight a few years back so in one respect it's nice to fit into some of my older pants again#but at the same time..thats too quick!!! thats not healthy!!!! but when i try to eat more i Cant!!! it makes me nauseous!!!!!#so back in early 2020 when i was dipping under 110lbs bc of meds stuff i got onto ensure and it did help. so maybe i need to again.#just..blegh. i just kinda feel empty all the time. like stomach-wise. but not Hungry. it's a problem.#gotta come up with ways to eat that dont rely on my stomach to tell me when to eat. bc it's definitely not doing a good job at that.#weight mention/#and like see ive been eating 2 meals a day on average but i was doing that before too!!!!!!#but i think it's bc i cant Finish my meals half the time that's really causing problems.#staring at my half eaten bowl of ramen very grumpily. it has now been long enough that it's kind of gross.#and my arms hurt. just bc my bone aches have decided to flare up again. very grumpy.#negative/#i guess lol
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leon s kennedy would definitely be the kind of guy to physically overexert himself and take on as much of the labor he can because he feels bad if he doesn't. even if it's fair share, he's gotta jump in and help out.
dead tired, exhausted. who cares if he's being taken advantage of and used because the other party(s) know he'll do whatever he's asked. he feels bad. he feels like he isn't doing enough.
#resident evil#hi lol this is a vent#capitalism culture is making you feel like you're never doing enough#and you know it's bullshit but!#tfw toxic masculinity pressures too#and your boss thinks that you should take on all of the physical labor because you're a man who cares if you physically cannot#and retaliates by punishing you with more and more bcuz you went to hr and politely asked if they could convince her to chill tf out-#vent in the tags#but i mean this seems canon to leon bcuz he'll sacrifice himself for anyone#fuck that#brother!#gotta force yourself to stop and think 'fuck them if they get mad i've done enough'#imagining leon being so weak he's stumbling and shaking#but then goes 'let me help with that' before passing out#leon's bitch ass is a people pleaser and he's convinced he's not!#'nah bro i just wanna help people weewoo imma cop'#nah bro ur into being stepped on!#where am i going with this idk#using my suffering to push on leon#no i dont go that far i just. feel bad if im not constantly-#anyway when i finally spoke up i started sobbin while hiding under some boxes lol#didnt realize how packed that bottle was!
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tumblr mobile will NOT stop giving me horse giving birth ads what kind of jimmy mouthwashing psychological hell is this
#i am under. fucking attack#you know whenever i point out a weird ad i get people always go like oh its based off ur search history#and im always like. i dont think its that simple man. my search history is just like. rn its just medication side effect research#and like. various kanji readings. i dont know what that has to do with pregnant horses#i dunno i think ad algorithms are more complicated. and have secrets beyond my comprehension
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thinking abt the touden siblings got me sniffling and weeping....
#im.too emotional abt them to properly explain#just rly glad to see autistic characters in media that i can deeply relate to and share experiences with. its such a rare thing#and i feel so protective of them i dont give a fuck abt fandom normally but some ppls bad takes lately are getting under my skin#like just say u hate autistic people and leave. stop calling laios a fucking freak im going to kill you with my bare hands#ppl think theyre so smart and funny for making posts like haha hes thr type of autistic that makes everyone uncomfortable and wish he-#would shut up or go away. im going to start hitting u with a brick until ur a bloody pulp#and thw way ppl treat falin so differently just bc shes not a guy. even tho theyre both clearly autistic and struggle socially#like wow thats crazy. do you act this way abt autistic ppl irl too#whatever just liberally blocking ppl abt it i dont fucking wanna see ur stupid posts#anyway.. back to thjnking abt their backstories and crying a little. masculinely of course#man i am soooo tired im so glad its the weekend i want to melt into a puddle and soak into the carpet and stain it forever#but we dont.have carpet.in this flat so.i guess ill just go to bed......#well maybe a little elden ring first#i would reallt like to draw sometime this weekend too. need to muster up some creative courage#but thats a problem for tomorrow... zzz#.diaries
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I hate when my phone won't let me have 2 audio sources running at the same time (depending on the app). I know what I'm doing, let me hear the discordant noises. My brain has built-in audio separation for music. It came as compensation for auditory processing issues. Don't make me pause the music.
#i also go absolutely fucking feral when my phone lowers the audio to play a notification sound#I CAN SEPARATE THE AUDIO. I CANT UNDERSTAND THE VIDEO IM WATCHING IF THE VOLUME SUDDENLY GOES TO ...#... 1% TO PLAY MY NOTIFICATION SOUND#wish i could turn that off more than the 2 audio sources one but i already tried researching how and its not possible with my means#i want to hear the notification sound but not at the cost of understanding what was just said on a video#especially if my hands are covered in paint and i cant rewind it#like i said. audio processing. often cant understand whats said under normal circumstances#suddenly lowering the volume makes it worse than having the notif and video play simultaneously#same with music and a video going. i dont wanna stop the vibe to play a video/short video/moment of video to bookmark the link#its not a phone ability issue bc i can play music while my battery-draining phone game plays!!#((usually dont tho bc i like the game music but if im playing while walking i need other music on even if its discordant))#((sometimes its not discordant which is fun))#oh correction before i post: i can usually understand whats said by understanding the other words spoken and mentally filling in the blanks#...for the words i missed. but when the audio goes to like 1% for a full like 5 seconds i miss an entire convo worth of audio#...on top of being pissed ab the audio being lowered for something easily filtered like a little 1 second chime#its hard enough to focus on what words people are speaking even face to face in person#im tired idk where im going w this now#ShitPost.exe#Cori.exe#seriously tho i love putting a song on repeat for hours and doing whatever. if i pause it its like. idk#in the middle of a shower. ur phone holds u at gunpoint to step out and take a shot of ketchup while u still got soap in ur eyes#then once u shoot the ketchup u can go back to showering and ur phone loses its ability to hold u at gunpoint.#like. i may not historically be opposed to a shot of ketchup for the meemz...#...but i dont want my shower interrupted at gunpoint by my phone to make me shoot ketchup...#...and then have to finish the shower with the taste of ketchup still lingering.#im tired i promise im not high thats just the best analogy for how wrong it feels to have to stop the music vibe thats been going for hours#man these tags went on longer than the post deserved and now im too tired to read what i wanted lmao#prob doesn't even make sense goOD NIGHT#delete later / /#((future cori can be the judge of that present cori is too tire))
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i will never understand the "stop casting straight actors as gay characters" argument. people just wanna out gay actors so they can have a better grasp on who to hate.
#like this is notttt the argument u think it is#'gay roles should be reserved for gay actors' TURN ON UR BRAIN#i understand wanting to have more queer actors and to have them get more recognition. that's completely fine and im all for that.#what im NOT for is trying to enforce that every gay character has to be played by a gay actor#like did u guys learn nothing from kit connor#or all of the other actors that were forcibly outed due to this argument. like seriously.#im sorry im ranting but dear lord man#i just saw a clip of a decently popular influencer saying shit like this and it makes me so upset. esp coming from a queer creator.#celebrities owe us nothing. absolutely fucking nothing.#they dont owe us that knowledge abt themselves and we should not feel like we're entitled to it just bc two men kissed on screen!! goodness#celebrities are people and they deserve their own privacy and to have their journeys on their own time just like everyone else#they dont even need to have a journey!!!! they don't have to do anything!!! they can just live their lives!!!!!#idk man this really gets under my skin#stop trying to force people to come out just so u can make sure the very little amount of queer media we get is 'genuine' or whatever#like u sound ignorant and bigoted dude cmon now#am i gonna get hate for this i swear#anyway rant done its 1:30 am im gonna go back to! writing!#long tags#rant
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I have yet to keep inspecting the sweepstakes, I need some air and food first, but I might as well share what I've been thinking about Mike today, because I heard of an interpretation saying Mike was a camera man for Spamton which ... Is very interesting. Like for me this makes me think of Mike as someone who admired Spamton, someone way smaller than him, definitely younger imo, who simply excitedly followed along with the orders given. I mean, up to a certain point. I mean this feeling is reinforced in the q&a when asked about Mike, that makes Spamton get very defensive, almost protective. In my eyes it almost creates this almost platonic familiar bond dynamic whatever. But like this is just a shot in the dark, bc what we know is, 3 lines, period. But if when chapter 3, 4 and 5 come out and Mike is there and I'm right about these things then I'm gonna feel like a god tbh.
#luly talks#not gonna put this one on main tag bc its a bit too vague and speculative and shit but im leaving rbs on in case some1 is like hm ur into#something here nemo im which case i will wag my tail and bat my eyelashes#but am i making sense anyway?#like just to make sure: my idea of mike is a camera man younger and smaller than Spamton who admired the guy#and spamton out of idk fondness bc he reminded him of his old self kinda took the guy under his wing in a way#that's why he's so protective and shit#although unrelated to this bc just. putting that there and NOT touching it but it's interesting what Spammy says right after name dropping#mike if you believe in the cameraman interpretation (which i saw in a video i then stopped watching bc i wanted to explore that shit myself)#bc he right after says to not believe anything you see on tv but this could easily imply mike did do his part but the editing team changed#shit. but its just very curious what involvement Mike could've had because. why would he be as targeted as he appears to be?#and what caused him to also abandone spamton? is mike even fucking alive? judging by Spammy's q&a dialogue you'd assume he is#but i mean that's official but not canon right so it's a bit hard to judge?#but Mike seems to be the only one he isn't really resentful towards for leaving him almost implying it wasn't Mike's choice?#i just can't wait to see more of this bc it's gonna reveal a whole side to this little puppet previously unknown#in fact i think that after breathing some air im gonna go look at the snowgrave neo fight flavor text and cry and piss and etc#I'm still not over spamton begs the audience to stop taking the furniture i can see the poor guy being evicted as he tries to plead not to#so vividly wugh. my poor little guy of questionable morals . . . 😢#also don't get me started on the commemorative ring man what on earth is going on there.........
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#had a semi entertaining but mostly uncomfortable encounter with my mom but i kind of find it hilarious#she was like hey u changed the name on ur email (proceeds 2 butcher the pronunciation and then mock it)#which y'know. sucks bc that's something extremely personal 2 me shdjfhg but it didn't hurt much bc i'm used to it#anyway i was like “everyone except u guys and the people at work call me that”#“do u want to be called that?”#“it's easier for y'all 2 just call me ness”#“why are u so secretive about it?”#“last time i told u i wanted 2 change my name you got upset”#“(gagged)” HDJFHDJDHFJ#“do you want us to call u that?”#“you guys kind of really suck at that anyways”#“(gagged x2)”#SHDJFHJGHG#so extremely extremely lucky 2 not be kicked out or anything but#it's a specific experience being in that Inbetween#where everyone around you knows. you tell them. but they choose to ignore you or brush under the rug anyways#and they sorta just put up w it bc “yaay ally moment!!”#yuck. idk i'm so so tired man#going 2 stop here before i go on a tangent abt that shit bc it's so fucking isolating and i do not trust my brain past 9 pm#sap says#sigh
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red fucking alert guys someone's flirting with my longtime crush by sending him editions of gay wwi poetry. i can't compete
#i give up#lol#:/#tagged under “yeah man the guy i post about. that guy”#one day i'll fucking figure all this out right? one day. i'm visiting him next weekend for a few days#now why is my immediate response “fine then i give up. i'm so tired. god. fuck”#we've had a ???!!!????? going for almost a year?? bffs with bffenefits?#he's one of my closest pals#but he also is a) a hopeless romantic and#b) ugh man this is the guy who looks me in the eyes saying “pls murderboner i need a big dick goth man. dick optional” and “ur my favorite”#saying shit like “50% of gays don't know when ppl are flirting with them” and “i wanna be someone's mr darcy” and “if only we'd worked out”#i'm tired man wtf#maybe i'll just slam some negronis next weekend and be like [REDACTED] HOW DO YOU GODDAMN FEEL ABOUT ME. BE REAL FOR ONCE#but. DO I EVEN LIKE HIM#my heart is getting like fatigued just typing this fuck man i give up
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My brother started asking me about about the research I did in high school and now I’m reminiscing about the good old days
#time goes by SO fast#miss u Adam and Nicholas and even Shawn#I miss the harambe shrine the grad students had in the corner#they inducted me into the harambe religion#one time I burst into tears in front of Adam right after he’d been slightly rude to me (that was how we talked to each other) for unrelated#reasons#because I was thinking about something really sad he told me earlier#and he started slowly backing away and I saw him eyeing the door#and I had to be like no bro it’s not ur fault don’t run away#fucking. 24 year old man running away from a 16 year old girl he made cry#it was such a funny image I started laughing while I was crying#miss u Starbucks lady on the first floor who gave me cream cheese for free and specifically both strawberry and vanilla#this was the summer of 2016 so during meetings our advisor had to remind us not to play pokemon go under the table#I MISS IT I YEARN FOR TIMES I WILL NEVER GET BACK YA KNOW#still thinking about Shawn walking in. me not having any idea who he was. and going hey do u want me to flip u#and me going huh?#and him fucking picking me up and going for it#and Nicholas was sleeping under the table and woke up mid flip to me screaming#and went WHO THE FUCK ARE U AND WHAT ARE U DOING TO THE CHILD#he actually got so mad about it lmao#like. I was like this may as well happen#and he was VERY chill and informal with me most of the time#hence the sleeping under the desk at 9 am cause he didn’t feel like working#but he was like EXPLAIN YOURSELF RIGHT NOW WHO ARE U and was very wary around Shawn the entire time I was there after that#(he was harmless just. socially inept)#anyways. I Miss it.#I’m most likely never going to see those people again#yet Brian the PI who retired years ago is the only person who consistently wishes me happy birthday on Facebook despite the fact#that I never respond#Nicholas is a sales person now. he quit teaching chemistry
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