#but as SOON as its a trans man. “gotta man up! tough it out!”

[transsexula]

No. Google. I'm actually looking specifically for trans MEN. I know a lot of articles talk about trans women. But I'm specifically looking for stuff about my subset of the trans community. Why the fuck are trans men so hyper-invisible.

[trynsave]

tryn save shoppers

greeting. althou this once prolific simpsons blog has laid dormant for many years. ive always keep the accont up.

im proud of this work.

i started this blog back in 2012 as a depressed stoner junglist as an afterwork hobbie. id get viloently high in my car on the way home. watch 2 or 3 epsiodes form the dvd id puchased at amoeba records over the years second hard. started with 6,

the infamous homer box.

then 5 4 2 6 71

i have seasons 1 - 8 in a little dvd case.

that case has been recovered but unfortunately disc rott is a thing.

i have been temped to start posting more but i feel more like lisa than i do bart. no its not a trans thing. i did at one point think to change the blog to trans n save. but thats nither here nor there.

what im saying is i love music. i love art. creativitly.

im not talking about the, for lack of a better term flanderization version of lisa you see today. but the younger sibling who looks out for their older sibling.

i may or may not be an uncle soon. but i have a feeling that is in the near fututure.

i woudlt like to wrap this message up by saying thank you to one individual person.

and indivdual who reached out and complemented my efforts. letting me know that i was her favorite blog. at the time my dreams were to write a book. make jungle music. and travel.

and

im going back to school to complete an english major (and finally rub it in my big. double major, sisters face) BUT more so to learn more about the english language. then eventually spanish.

i had a dream to start a south american eddition of thrasher magazine called thrasher so.

it would be spanish only. compl;etley differnt from gingo thrasher. but an underground look at the spanish undergroundskate scene

but skateboarders tend to be a very tough bunch. not to mention san fransisco is a spooky town with alot of history. you gotta watch what you say to who. cuz theres eyez everywhere.....

but again i realied that that may not be in the cards.

skate or die isnt a the best motto to live by all the time.

rave music can get complicated. when you grew up just standing near the djs memorized by what the djs were doing. it gets messy when illict substances can get involved. sometimes you can lose years of your life lost if your not carefull. worst you could... just straight up die from a bad pill. its scary.

thats when things got diffrent.

i remeber the first club expericnce seeing a dnb dj after 21 really opended my mind to what a dnb dj was.

it was goldie and it was at a bar on market street in sf that was no longer there. around 2011.

goldie steped up at 1130 and was suposed to stop at 2.

either he has that much clout or no one could stop the man but it was tune after tune . speakers on 11.

litterly.

i checked the miser after the gig and saw the master volume at 10. the mids and high and gain fully cranked and the bass eq in the middle.

thats what made me realize that music is meant to be played at a loud volume. if your in a residential neighborhood there alll gonna hear it.

330 in the morning the man is wrapping his set up with "timeless" and not a dry eye in the room. i walk up to goldie afterwards. complemented his sick custom adddias metalheadz jersey. and ask him as a joke , " what song is the metalheadz logo listen to"

music m8

i wouldnt be able to have pulled this mix off i realeased today if it wasnt for the encouragement of that individutal. im finally happy and free. and its because i worked hard and focused onj staying healthy. not just body but mind and sprit to.

thank you for every.

-L

ps thank you to all the other try nsave employes who contributed, this account wouldnt have been as popluar without your help,

[fictioncoalition]

OC Bios

About the world: Takes place in a fictional European/Canadian/American country called "Koche" (pronounced Ka-ch-eh). The planet is Earth adjacent, some of the same rules we have here but others have a magical realism twist to them. You’ve gotta role with the punches.

Kelsa Juniper:

Nicknames: Kellie, Sa, Tomato (siblings only, she blushes easily)

Has 7 siblings (brothers and enby siblings)

Kendrick (Bold Ruler): Cishet man, He/Him, oldest, volunteered to join the war effort to stop Kestrel from having to go, very rigid about rules and has issues relaxing, autistic, PTSD, siblings call him “Ricky” when trying to get a rise out of him

Kenwood "Woody" (Royal Guardian): Genderfluid, Bi, He/She/ It, second oldest, first to be drafted in the war due to his nursing prowess, saw a lot of gore as a result, she used to be a bit of a daredevil who enjoyed its scars as each reminded her of an adventure he went on but now gets sick at the sight of blood, autistic/ADHD, PTSD

Kasani (Chicory, which is said to make the user invisible allowing them to sneak up on people like me lol): Trans man, He/Him siblings helped choose his name since it fit so well, BPD, ran away at the start of the war to avoid being drafted (siblings have a bit of a rift towards him due to this. Not on purpose but… it’s a bit hard to trust someone who abandoned you when times get tough)

Kemp (Fighter, Champion): Cis gay man, He/Him, experiences mania and psychosis, huge insomniac, depression, wasn’t drafted due to his mental health issues (which he beats himself up for), Kelsa is his favorite

Kestrel (Small, Colorful Falcon): Cishet man, like his namesake is very small and fragile, low muscle tone and arthritic, was drafted when the war went into a more desperate drafting period, lots of guilt of Kendrick having to go to war to protect him, self harm tendencies, also an insomniac

Keene (Wise): He/Him?, The youngest (and kind of an accident baby but no one mentions it), Cishet man (or so he thinks ;)), self destructive tendencies, too young to have been drafted, middle child syndrome but isn’t the middle child (or ignored, just has feelings of inadequacy), ironically not very wise makes a lot of decisions and has beliefs towards himself that lack common sense.

Khaleel (Friendly): More on him in his own profile

Butch Queer woman, She/Her

Soon to be in a polyam relationship with Derwyn and Priyanka (already dating Derwyn)

Is the only one of her siblings in therapy currently, but she’s gonna force them into it sooner or later

Loves her family

Drafted in the war, fought as a soldier. Loses a lot of sleep over it

PTSD, depression, anxiety, anger issues (she's working on it)

Parents no longer live at home as the country holds to many memories, but they talk often

Abandonment issues

Peregrine Olivewood:

Nicknames: Perri, Grin, Starlight (Kelsa’s the only one who uses this one)

They/Them, Love/Loves, Nov/Nova, Stargender, Lovegender, Pansexual

Polyam relationship with Derwyn and Kesla (hasn’t officially started dating them yet)

Her father is awful, he sold her to the enemy side to save his own skin.

Her house is now just one big bad memory. Mother died when she was a child in a lab accident

C-PTSD from childhood and PTSD from being a POW (fun!). MADD/frequent disassociation

Has a big heart but trust issues cause her difficulties in loving new people

Only child so loves the Juniper household and its chaos

Derwyn Hughes:

Nicknames: Winnie, Glasses (friendly teasing used by the main group)

Autistic and ADHD, APD

Special Interests: War history, Mathematics (especially word problems), Stuffed animals, geology

Current Hyperfixation: The archeology project on old War battlefields that he runs a blog on that updates regularly on their new findings

He/Him They/Them (?)

Sexuality: ??? (he’s still figuring it out but loves Kelsa very much)

Lack of object permanence makes him “lose” his glasses a lot

Always cold, always wears at least two layers

Like a big cat, can often be found laying in the sun

Claustrophobic

Wasn’t drafted but is hyper empathetic so he’s very anxious around the Junipers when they’re upset. Usually leaves the room when emotions get too high

Many stim toys always on his person, mainly things to do with his hands

Trichtillomania

Priyanka Wilkins:

Nicknames: Pri, Ms. Fashion degree (used mainly by Kelsa)

They/She, Demiromantic, (comphet bisexual, we’re working on it ;) )

More fashionable than you’ll ever be

Veils and dresses modestly

Autistic (very big on black and white thinking), germaphobic (has obsessive compulsions about contamination)

Special Interests: Fashion throughout the ages (main focus on victorian and Japanese streetwear), Religion, Ancient Civilizations

Bookworm

Professional Boxer

Freelance fashion designer

Khaleel Higbee:

He doesn’t like nicknames (Party Pooper :(, Kelsa makes up nicknames for him anyway cause she’s a stinker :p )

Any Pronouns, Bisexual (has a hard time with his feelings for men but is trying)

Dyes hair all the time but it somehow never gets damaged (the real magic here lol)

Parental issues

BPD, Anxiety, Abandonment Issues, Spoonie (in denial)

Has a difficult time getting out of his own head, very susceptible to negative self talk

Came from immigrant parents and has a hard time opening up about his feelings and using healthy coping mechanisms. He’s working on it

Tentative relationship with Priyanka