#untreated adhd

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

sometimes when chronically ill/disabled/neurodivergent people say “I can’t do this thing” they really mean “I can technically do this thing I guess, but not without pretty significant repercussions” and I really need more fully-abled people to understand the validity of that

[nattousan]

🏳️‍⚧️ trans people in my phone! 🏳️‍⚧️

A celestial being has given you the chance to go back to your life at 14 to do life over but with your current mind and memories...

tell me why

[ontheoutside-lookingin]

This is the part of my life where I put my phone down and live my life the way they did before smart phones. This is the part where I stop maladaptive daydreaming dissociating and dopamine seeking here on tumblr.com to the point of complete hopeless hyperfixation time-blindness followed by shame and regret at three in the morning. Lately I wish someone would smack my phone out of my hand every time and replace it with a notepad and pen or a book. I need to read and write more. I need to crochet more and dance around my kitchen more and play with my dogs more and drink more tea and eat more vegetables. I need to bake scones. I need to paint some little flowers somewhere on my walls. Tumblr is home but I need to get out more. I can’t do all this tonight, but I can dream about it. Goodnight safe cozy escape world in my phone 🌛🌠

[mbrainspaz]

once again I have put myself in a position where I have 4 hours to do a week of work.

[the-demi-jedi]

Dear ADHD people,

So I've been struggling with undiagnosed / untreated ADHD for a huge chunk of my life, to the point I'm considering getting some diagnosis and eventually some meds.

The thing is - I'm a writer and I'm curious how do the ADHD meds affect the writing process. I guess they can either turn me into an unstoppable writing machine without any procrastination and distractions, OR they'll make me lose my edge and turn me into a Normal Boring Adult™ - sometimes I think it's the utter mess in my head that allows me to commit acts of half-decent writing.

Does anyone have any experience? Is there anything else about treating ADHD I should know?

Thanks a bunch!

[willinglyghoulified]

"This is why I'm about to quit my job."

-a Neurodivergent's Shpeil; a story and takeaway under cut

What is happening in my head: Why is he just standing there in the middle of the isle? Does he not know that he's in the way? I have to get to the next shelf, but I don't want to ask him to move, I've already asked like six times, and he's bumped into me twice. I just have to get past him somehow, then I'll be able to get the last few items I need and finish up this 712-piece order.

What actually happens: I said excuse me again, and he didn't hear me because he was talking to someone about which is better: pizza rolls or "chickie nuggies."

What happens in my head next: OH MY GOD HE IS SUCH A NUISANCE I ABSOLUTELY HATE HIM DOESN'T HE KNOW THAT HE'S A BURDEN IN THE WORKPLACE AND PEOPLE HATE IT WHEN HE SINGS PASSIONATELY TO EVERY FUCKING SONG THAT PLAYS ON THE SPEAKERS AND HE'S SLOW AND SHOWS NO REGARD FOR THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM AND WHY THE FUCK DOES HE STAND THERE SPREAD-EAGLE WHERE NO ONE CAN GET PAST HIM AND FOR FUCK'S SAKE I HATE HIS NAME TOO SOMEONE SHOULD HAVE NAMED HIM CHAD: LORD OF THE SHITHEADS BECAUSE GODDAMN AND OUR FLOOR LEAD IS JUST GOING TO TELL ME TO PICK UP HIS SLACK AND TAKE HIS CART AND FINISH IT BECAUSE HE'S TOO SLOW.

What actually happens next: I said excuse me yet again, and he heard me this time. I asked him if I could go around him, my heart beating out of my chest. He said sure, and I whipped my cart -- which is as long as a fucking countertop and about two hundred pounds at this point -- past him at high speed which probably isn't the safest choice.

The rest of the day: I stay pissed off all day, hating everyone around me, not speaking to anyone, and they all are looking at me like "goddamn I don't want to get in that bitch's way, she looks extremely unpleasant." My manager checks on me, asks me if I'm okay, and I can't explain anything to where he'll understand, so I fake a smile and say "yeah why? I'm fine. Don't worry about it, I'm just tired. Thanks for checking on me." I take out my frustration on my husband when he asks me if I want something to eat on the way home and I tell him I literally can't think straight and just want to go home and not to ask me anything again that requires making a decision or other long thought processes. My husband's in a shit mood now because he got his head bitten off by an overstimulated wife that just wants to wrap herself in a blanket and disappear from the world.

The takeaway: I don't know how many neurodivergents struggle with this particular symptom, but I'm extremely irritable around people. I want to be left alone. Being too close to too many people I don't like or hardly know causes me physical discomfort. I'm in literal mental anguish when I have to engage in conversation that I don't care for. I'm exhausted to think of meaningful responses when people talk to me. I even have a hard time responding to emails, texts, or chats, and I have a heart attack when I get a phone call. My mom has to make my doctor's appointments for me just so I don't have to get on the phone. And yet I stay working where I work because I'm terrified that I won't find anything else that pays me this much or suits my needs. I'm not disabled, and it would be extremely difficult to get disability in the US for stuff like this. So I continue to work in places I don't like, I continue to suffer around people I don't want to be around, and I continue to feel like there's something horribly wrong with me that no one else seems to have a problem with. It's just me. In my mind, I'm just messed up. I'm unlikable. I'm overlooked. I don't matter. And if I fail at this job like I've failed at all the others, I'm worthless, too. And I can't afford to fail again.

[kazuallh]

neurodivergent folks is it normal to start hallucinating like randomly or like

[heliographist]

 i could 100% see myself dying from one of these dental abscesses. if this happens and somebody stumbles on this i am very sorry i didn’t take care of it in time.

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

“Treat others how you want to be treated” is a cute sentiment but such awful real life advice that has gotten me into endless predicaments. Neurotypicals do not want to be treated how I want to be treated.

Turns out that among all eight billion of us, there are a few different sets of values and preferences and neurotypes. Turns out not everyone wants to be treated the same ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[no-context-nonsense]

[ontheoutside-lookingin]

Me @ myself but then I figured maybe someone else could benefit from this self-reminder so…

ADHDers that rely on medicine to get anything done are valid

ADHDers that decline meds & have a very hard time ever getting anything done are valid

ADHDers that somehow fall somewhere in between are valid

ADHDers that love their work enough to hyperfixate/not need daily meds are valid

ADHDers that manage to get things done without medicine are valid

ADHDers with comorbid conditions are valid

ADHDers that have to or cannot medicate because of comorbidities are valid

ADHDers that have to or cannot medicate for any other reasons are valid

No one’s ADHD struggles are automatically more than or less than others’ solely based on medication choices.

Unmedicated is not inherently easier or harder than medicated. They both come with plenty of perks and drawbacks, some obvious and some less so, some you would never even think of until you live it.

But most of all it doesn’t even matter because it’s never a competition anyway and infighting hurts the whole community. Bottom line is that the world was not made for ADHD and none of us have it easy :)

[groovyfrogones]

Been thinking a lot about my struggles with habit making, really how the thought of making any habit feels like chewing on glass, and I think I've found a solution (maybe).

Forming a habit feels so labor intensive, fatiguing, and requires consistency that I can't really uphold. I'm chronically ill and ADHD so those characteristics are kinda the opposite of what I need.

You know what isn't so bad in the moment though? Choice. Instead of nagging myself with "oh this habit needs to be made and if I forget I'm a bad person", I can reframe it in the moment.

Say I need to clean up dishes before bed, I can say to myself. "I want to choose to do the dishes more." And so now when I face the choice, dishes before bed or 10 minutes more of hobby time, I can say to myself "well we said we would choose dishes so let's do that then."

I feel like decision fatigue has such a strong hold on my day to day actions, as I try to make routines but always fail at trying to plan them. When the expectations are there ahead of time though I can deliver on what I promised.

I'll continue to think on this to see if I can apply this more to my life, and start working on real self management.

[2outta3aintbad]

Any adhd babes wanna rb or reply & share what a day w/out drugs is like for you? Validate me real quick? Bc I’ve been feeling extra worthless lately, and extra guilt & shame about it tbh

[a-queer-little-wombat]

I'm glad for all of you that have these things you can lean on. Alas that I can't have anything in option 2, option 1 isn't doing it for me (or takes more energy to set up), and option 3 gets interrupted near-immediately when I try.

people say folks with adhd struggle with "delayed rewards" aka long term goals and as such we tend to focus more on short term rewards. what they don't talk about is that at when we Do accomplish long term goals we don't actually feel anything proportionate to the amount of work we did to achieve it. In my head I suffered for a while and then money spontaneously appeared in my bank account.

[mellosberetta69]

Meronia wip idk if I'll ever finish (I might add some more shading + plus finish the rosary). Pic ref/inspo by @neallo :) !! Thank you for the incredible cosplay <3 !

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

How it feels to be overstimulated and understimulated at the same time [insert the most insane mind-fuck of a gif you’ve ever seen here]