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Here we have our very first Guest Etho by MOD Owl of @daily-grian! [1] [250]
Very soon there will be a Form where you can sign up to be a guest etho! Keep an eye out!
#ethoslab#etho#ethoslab fanart#etho fanart#daily-grian#this makes me so happy you have no idea#Guest doodle 1#day 250#I'm still a bit unsure how I'm going to categorize these#should they add to the daily tally or is that just a me thing? should it have it's own tally?#unsure haha#Mod Owl actually sent this to me while I was making the form
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I know I’m gonna forget some cause I literally don’t know half of them lol
I’m also going to *attempt* to explain the AUs in case you don’t remember/don’t know what they are (if I mess one of them up it’s cause I don’t know that AU very well 😅)
Timestuck - Mabel gets stuck in the past with mullet Stan (variations can include Dipper also getting stuck in the past, or one or both getting stuck with Ford, basically any AU where the twins meet/get stuck with younger versions of one or both of their grunkles)
Drifting Stars: Mabel gets sucked into the portal at the end of “Not What He Seems” and goes dimension hopping with Ford (meanwhile Dipper and Stan are having a horrible time)
Reverse Falls: The twins and other characters swap personalities, where Mabel is more introverted and Dipper is more extroverted and same with the Stans…I think? (there is also an AU where I think maybe Gideon and Pacifia are good and Mabel and Dipper are bad but I genuinely can’t remember what it’s called, I’m sorry if this is what that AU is called but I don’t *think* it is?)
Relativity Falls: The twins roles are swapped, so Mabel and Dipper are older and Stan and Ford are the kids, visiting “Grantie” Mabel while Dipper is in the multiverse
Monster Falls: The characters are monsters instead of humans. I genuinely don’t know much about this AU but lots of people make the characters different monsters so there are probably a bunch of variations
Reverse Portal: Where Stan gets pulled into the portal instead of Ford. I know there are other AUs probably more popular than this one, but like I said I’m not the best as remembering AUs 😂
#gravity falls#gravity falls au#dipper pines#ford pines#stan pines#mabel pines#timestuck au#drifting stars au#relativity falls au#reverse falls au#monster falls au#reverse portal au#yeah the fact that that one doesn’t have a tag tells me it’s not very common oops 😂#not me actually unsure what I’m gonna vote for cause a few have special places in my heart….#also crap I was gonna make it a week long poll uh….haha…ha 😅
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Happy to have 2 Arms Left in the comp another year! While this isnt Sprouts first rodeo, its Poptarts first! Everyone give him a welcome :)
@tmntaucompetition
Bonus, featuring Poptarts bestie, because no one can convince me otherwise that Poptart will get overwhelmed with the amount of people- @dianagj-art
#oh gosh theres so many aus#I wanted to cameo a lot but then I proceeded to run out of room and time haha#unsure how much energy I am going to have to make consistent propaganda and crossovers#but we will see!?#haha job + college is only SLIGHTLY kicking my ass and taking my free time#also I dont think I am going to have a fun time with the decades theme imma be real#I am not very confident in my clothes drawing skills aha <3#2 arms left#also remember last year how sprout got to tie with his bestie imbi?#best case scenario for this year: poptart getting to tie with his bestie one :)#the besties
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Did someone say skyblings? I mean seablings?
Skeablings?!
#my art#life series#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#lizzie ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady#pearlescentmoon#pearlescentmoon fanart#grian#grian fanart#skyblings#seablings#okay so I was reallt proud of this but now I am unsure plz be nice to me haha#and yes they are all avian/fish hybrid hybrids#surprised that's not more of a thing tbh#and these are the designs for my mounders au#ignore the last mounders drawing this is canon Pearl last was a fluke#traffic life series#traffic life#traffic series#traffic smp#trafficblr#life smp#life series smp
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the only thing in lobcorp that lags my screen
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp agent#created to die. my apologies...#white night#im genuinely unsure how to even start w this one. tagging wise. i guess spoilers if you dont know what happens w plauge doctor#would rhat count? would it? i feel like im losing my marbles w this guy#i should probablt be using the pjm tag but im a coward. funny haha face the fear. one day#i acruallt think the abbreviation is just pm. dont knkwbwhy i added the j
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i think part of what draws me to horror media is that it actually really helps me cope with my intrusive thoughts (and morbid fascinations) and the self loathing and overthinking that often comes with them. because whenever i have particularly fucked up, violent, and/or antisocial thoughts or feelings that would definitely get me labelled as a creep, danger to society, Bad Person, etc. if i were to express them, i can almost always find horror media that explores them in some capacity. it's like, hey, look, there's a way to interact with this and acknowledge these parts of yourself without hurting other (real) people or even yourself in the process. having these thoughts and feelings (or lack thereof) doesn't make you evil and dangerous. other people see the world the way you do too. you're not alone. you're not uniquely bad or broken. here's a place where you're welcome. here's a community that won't judge or condemn you. you can stay as long as you want.
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a glow in the dark 🗡️
i almost never draw backgrounds so this was a really experimental drawing...
#the hobbit#bilbo baggins#lotr#lord of the rings#my art#i am still a little bit unsure of the background haha#but i guess it's fine because obviously it cannot be perfect as i haven't practiced#on the other hand i adore how bilbo turned out akdjskjd i'm so proud of myself#tolkien
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Does this count as self-reflection…?
[ID: Mob Psycho 100 fanart redrawing a frame from OP 3. Reigen sits below a tall window with moss growing along its frame, holding a smoking cigarette and looking up. His silhouette stands on the other side of the window in an orange glow and looks back down at him. End ID]
Credit for the ID
#chdoodles#mob psycho 100#mp100#reigen arataka#I’ve always been fond of that shot from the season 3 opening#of reigen staring at a shadowed version of himself#I wanted to try it out#just. w oranges#OKAY BUT… I spent like 4+ hours on the colors. scrapped all that hard work bc I hated how it looked. then went a little simpler#this was the result#I’m still unsure how I feel about it but. idk I think I’ve just been looking at it too long haha#edit: welp. the halftones are being freaky#thanks csp </3#idk. they’re supposed to look small. if they ain’t then zoom a smidge
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made one myself just for you. i call it Mushroom Hell
is that what we’re calling the aroace flag nowadays. rad X)
#my art#asks#art asks#pearlescentmoon#(u didn’t specify anyone so i went w the first person it reminded me of!)#unsure how much mixing is ‘allowed’ so i tried to keep it minimal haha#kind of experimental as you might be able to tell
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no write day so i offer you yuki instead
rip the quality though thanks tumblr
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#yuki tsukumo#still kinda unsure about the portions haha i redid her body so many times#clearly i need more practice with drawing strong women#she was so fun to draw though!#yuki jjk#jjk yuki#jujutsu yuki#yuki tsukumo fanart#jjk fan art#jjk fanart#fan art#my art#artists on tumblr#yuki fanart#jjk art#god i want her to step on me#i mean what#very sane tags
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okaaaay, i still want to share an idea about a boy who met a dark ghostly figure in a field of dandelions..
you vanished as suddenly as appeared maybe the edge of my eye caught on some kind of dust and it's just the remnants of my imagination? but you looked so surprised? i couldnt be mistaken, you were there!
(he upset)
#ensemble stars#enstars#rinniki#rinne amagi#niki shiina#my roman empire fr#like#i come back to this idea really often.#but im very bad at explaining things like that#so id just like to show some sketches!!!!#with messy text haha#have already posted this but i was so unsure about it because it was before the story came out ohhhh
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*i cook the hare into a stew and serve it to ash paw*
Vengeance has been served my boy :)
yummy hare stew...
#thanks for the ask it made me laugh a lot haha#dont think too hard about how he is holding a bowl ok#i tried a sketchy style here hopefully it isnt too different#may try using it for moon updates too so that they go faster.... hmm#unsure if i will have the next update done this week or not but i will try my best!#clangen#clan generator#warriors#warriors oc#warriorcats#warrior cats#ashpaw#cutieclan#cutieclan ask
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kia ora! i would like to suggest the coining of a term that would hopefully help a large demographic of mostly-forgotten-about māori to connect with each other and share our experiences to feel less alone, congregate around a concept regardless of country of origin and upbringing, and organise as activists.
i politely ask as many people to spread this as possible to help indigenous people organise with each other and to get the largest amount of interactions possible.
anyway, with all that being said,
i would like to coin the term "ngāti rangiātea" for māori who do not know their iwi to use.
this is based on the well known whakataukī/proverb, "i will never be lost, for i am a seed which was sown from rangiātea." i chose this whakataukī due to the spiritual significance of rangiātea as a place in māori culture, as well as to emphasise that no matter how it feels, we are not lost, we can find ourselves in each other, we can experience strength and self-realisation, and that we will exist with mana and without whakamā as rightful tangata whenua.
i've put my reasoning, personal experiences shaping my viewpoints on the matter, and various statistics under the cut to make this post reblog-friendly and i would suggest fellow māori read it regardless of whether or not they know their iwi. i also ask for the opinions of other māori, ESPECIALLY AND SPECIFICALLY other māori who do not know their iwi. in fact, i politely ask māori to share this with their whānau and people in general to share this with māori they know, especially any they know who do not know their iwi. a wide reach is what i am going for to get the largest amount of voices, critiques, and opinions on the topic and to avoid this from just becoming a very small thing that stays in an online echo-chamber.
to begin, the 2018 aotearoan census shows that, of the 775,836 people identifying as māori in aotearoa, roughly 17% are unable to identify their iwi in the census. this has gone up by 1% since 2006, showing that we are a considerably stable percentage of people. along with this, there are more than 170,000 māori living in australia and, while there are no solid statistics, there are an estimated 8,000 māori living in the UK, 3,500 in the US, 2,500 in canada, and 8,000 in other countries where there's no option for māori or any polynesians on the census.
this number adds up to 967,816 total māori and while there's no census in these countries asking for your iwi, i would go as far as to assume that there's a larger number of diaspora māori who are no longer able to identify their iwi than there are in aotearoa. of course, this is just speculation based on my lived experiences and conversations with other diaspora māori, however even assuming that it's the exact same amount globally, 17%, this is roughly 164,532 māori worldwide who do not know their iwi. nearly one in five māori do not know their iwi.
regardless of the specific statistics, the hard fact here is that there is a large percentage of māori who are unsure of their iwi for whatever reason. it's extremely easy to feel unsure of yourself, lost, disconnected, and uncomfortable speaking on issues regarding te ao māori when you're unsure of your iwi (or your hapū, whānau, waka, or anything else, but there is heavy emphasis on the iwi) and it's very easy for whakamā to take hold, especially when many māori who can recite their whakapapa aren't very polite or understanding about your situation to say the least.
and there are a lot of those people.
unfortunately, i've spoken to many māori who are of the opinion that not knowing your iwi due to colonialism, assimilation, forced disconnection, etc. means that you should not, cannot, call yourself māori. this is a disgusting viewpoint to have and in my opinion it spits on the fundamental concepts of māori culture and worldviews. thankfully this is a small yet vocal group of people, but even so, they add to the collective experience that makes it extremely difficult to navigate a world while full of whakamā and internalised racism. it can feel like there's no space for you, no term you can use, nobody you can relate to, no mana you can claim, nothing. when you cannot recite your whakapapa, it can feel like there's a part of you that's fundamentally missing.
as well as this, even when people mean well, when you are in this situation, you're usually told to just do some genealogy work, do some research, ask your family what they know. sometimes, these steps are simply not possible. other times, we've already done everything suggested over and over and over again. we're generally told "oh, that sucks, but one day you'll find out, keep looking!" in response to our lack of iwi. sure, they mean well, but i have never once been told anything along the lines of "that's okay, some things are lost to time through no fault of your own. don't beat yourself up over something your whānau had to hide to survive, what you do now to uphold your family's mana, what you do know about your whānau, and who you ultimately become is more important than what you no longer know."
and why? why is it seen as shameful to say matter-of-factly that i don't know my iwi? i'm not looking for comfort, i'm not looking to be told that, aww, there there, i'll find it eventually. i'm stating a fact. i do not need pity, i need my mana and voice to be respected.
this concept is what i want to emphasise by coining ngāti rangiātea. some things are lost to time, but we aren't. our loss of knowledge does not mean that we are unworthy of being māori, that we are unworthy of basic human respect. it does not mean that we have lost everything that our whānau knows. it is a scar, a reminder of what colonisation took from us, yes, but we cannot allow it to continue to be an open bleeding wound. we will not be lost to time and we should not bow our heads and act like we do not exist, that we're inconvenient, that we damage the "image" that māori have. in fact, we are an important aspect of māori culture and ignoring our existence does harm to everybody.
and of course we can't speak on some topics regarding te ao māori. this seems to be a topic that comes up frequently as a strawman. yes, there are some topics that would be irresponsible to speak on when we have no experience with them. this doesn't mean we can't speak on anything. having a collective identity, an "iwi" to congregate around even just politically, would help us speak on topics that we are more qualified to speak on than māori with knowledge of their iwi (yes, those topics exist, shockingly.)
we will never be lost, for we are a seed sown in rangiātea.
by identifying as ngāti rangiātea, i wish to emphasise that it's important to accept that sometimes, someone just won't be able to find every piece of information. loss of family knowledge is literally one of the primary goals of forced assimilation! we all went through it as colonised peoples, why must we continue to attach shame to those of us who were forced to obfuscate our history to keep our children alive? it's not a personal flaw, it's not a dirty secret, it's a fact of life that must not continue to be kept quiet out of shame, and the sooner we can focus on healing this subsection of our community, the stronger māori as a whole will become.
so, this is why i'd like to coin a term for māori who are unsure of their iwi. this is what i intend to achieve by giving us a name, our own "iwi" to congregate around, to identify ourselves as. instead of hanging my head and saying "i'm not sure what my iwi is, i'm sorry", instead of feeling inclined to beg like a dog to be treated with respect, i would like to look people in the eye and tell them that i am ngāti rangiātea. i would like this label to be synonymous with strength and not shame, that i refuse to let my whakamā swallow me, that i am just as worthy of calling myself māori as anyone else, that there are many others in my iwi (or lack thereof). i would like other people to have that as well and i would like those like me to feel less lost when all they've been told is "well, you'll learn your iwi eventually!" as if that's going to help someone feel better if they can't find their iwi.
and even if a person finds their iwi eventually, it's absolutely disgraceful that people are treated that they're not allowed to access many basic parts of te ao māori until they discover something they are not even 100% destined to find. i think that this view contributes to a lot of people who eventually find their iwi becoming unnecessarily arrogant towards those who truly cannot find this information, that they're just not putting enough effort in. if a person finds their iwi after identifying as ngāti rangiātea, they are fully welcome to continue to identify as this political label along with the iwi they now know they belong to as i wish for it to be a term that describes your experiences, your upbringing, and your community. you don't suddenly lose your whānau or your lived experience when you discover your whakapapa.
finally, this hopefully goes without saying, but ngāti rangiātea is not meant to function as a real existing iwi does. the term will hopefully be used as a way to identify yourself and other people and organise but i don't expect nor do i want this to be treated like a coordinated iwi. i expect and hope for this to be a decentralised way of identifying and experiencing community to make it easier to organise as a people. think of this the way the terms ngāti kangaru, ngāti rānara, ngāti tūmatauenga etc. are used.
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so, the tl;dr is that i feel like coining a name for a phenomenon that nearly one in five of all māori experience in quiet shame, to make it easier for us to congregate and find each other, speak on our experiences, organise as activists, feel less lost, and ultimately give us the ability to regain our mana as a community with shared goals and experiences. i have spoken to many māori who feel this way and my suggestion for this term is ngāti rangiātea, to show homage to the well known whakataukī, "i will never be lost, for i am a seed sown from rangiātea", to give us a community to work with, and to give us an "iwi" to list when asked instead of fumbling for words and feeling whakamā.
i would like to take the emphasis off of constantly looking to the future for what you may or may not even find with this identity. we are not broken, we are not lost, for we are seeds sown in ngāti rangiātea.
tēnā koutou, tēnā koutou, tēnā tatou katoa, and if you got this far, thank you for reading.
#maori#māori#pasifika#indigenous#indigenous issues#polynesia#aotearoa#aotearoa new zealand#new zealand#tangata whenua#new zealand politics#politics#i was considering calling it smth along the lines of ngāti whāngai to represent that we would be whānau from different paths and family#but ngāti rangiātea felt more succinct and meaningful. particularly with how it's very easy to feel lost when you're unsure of your iwi#please boost this even if you're not māori as i'd like as many people to see as possible <3#anyway i'm quite nervous and i hope this doesn't come across like i'm trying to be any kind of authority haha#i just feel like this is an extremely important topic that affects many people but is rarely spoken about for various reasons#ngāti rangiātea
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Do you remember? Nope! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Mother 3#Duster#Lucky#Went and reread Lost and Found again <3 The first chapter anyhow it's my favourite#Planning to do a full reread after I actually Pick Mother 3 Back Up agh I've been away so long!#Other things doin' - other things reading and playing#I do want to tho! I'm on a Duster chapter if I remember correctly :D#Still so funny to me how Lost and Found was the impetus of my fic printing project haha#Haven't gotten to it yet that's also fallen off! I want to get into back-and-front printing but for that I need to do formatting#I wonder if there's a program for that actually :0 Seems like there should be! A way to have every first-and-fourth on the same side...#Doing it by hand is a good way to get misprints :P I already have one of my fic prints with a misprinted first/second page!#ANYway lol - Duster! Lucky! He! <3 <3#Got very inspired by the mental image of the ghost of Lucky's history haunting him <3#Those missing pieces! The core of him still there still sweet and gentle but those important elements that make him Duster#Following him overshadowing the happinesses he finds with doubt and anxiety#It's all so lovely <3#So fun to watch him stumble through into things he wants and feeling unsure if he Can#Of course he deserves it he's wonderful ♪
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for over a week now i keep thinking abt grian and kid xelqua. something abt him taking care of this alternate universe child version of himself. i just stare at the ceiling and my eyes blur
#I HAVE SO MNAY THOUGHTS I DONT DO ANYTHING ELSE#grian knows who xelqua is. he knows who this kid is. but xelqua does not remember nor know ! hes genuinely just a little kid#unsure if he knows Who exactly Grian is though#its also weird for pearl to see kid xelqua. bc thats technically her older brother ? from a different timeline ? as a kid ?#also an unkillable goddd ? oh but hes so cute tho his little cheeks WAHHH#Sometimes adult Xelqua appears on the server. sometimes the kid version#almost always at grian's house i think he just feels safe there#xelqua issss miserable. hes much older than he should be. i think he occasionally gets so stressed out he reverts into a kid#and cant remember anything. but knows he feels safe in HC so he ends up going there#but hes stilllll powerful as a kid he doesn't lose any of that strength. so if he throws a temper tantrum and kills a bunch of fish. well !#theyre soooo brothers but in a way where ur older brother has to take on a parental role and you fight a lot bc of the odd dynamic#ALSO SOMETHING SOMETHING abt grian not having parents. raising himself. craving that sort of attention which led him to the watchers#and then being able to parent this version of himself ? its sad rly. in quiet moments he wonders if he was too difficult as a kid#he doesnt find xelqua that difficult. hes just a little kid. hes silly. hes not hard to love and care for#godh man *head in hands* i collapse thinking abt grian and family themes and its a core part of how i write him haha#IM GOING TO THROW UPP
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pretty sure at the beginning of carlos' speech in the unboxed video lando was nowhere to be found and carlos took a look around him to see where's lando
pictured, carlos peering around into lando's side of the garage right before speaking. lando IS there straight in front of him, if you look down you can see the leg of his blue race suit, but it's like he's literally hiding out of carlos's eyeline lmao
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