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I can’t let anything good stay in my life !
#undesirable and alone#is unfortunately the vibe#ab me#lovesick#yearn#like why can’t I be normal about anything ever I just need to never have desires ever again#this is mine#I’m probably just overthinking but I can’t help it it’s like nobody ever wants me around
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I'm never going to reach the day that someone genuinely and romantically says "I love you" ever, am I...?
#not viv related#depression#self hate#self loathing#loneliness#introvert#forever alone#autism#lovelessness#unlovable#undesirable#unattractive#ugly#honest thoughts#gay#gay man#lgbtq
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I really thought i was doing well the last week but i have been uncontrollably crying since i left work
#can someone tell me why i am undesirable to men#be brutally honest with me because i cannot put myself out there one more time#had an rsvp to a company event today and i am literally so embarrassed to be going alone i would rather be dead than be myself any longer!#need a new face#personality and body pls#robyn rambles
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i just got horny because of something someone said, and then i immediately got sad and i started crying because i feel so alone.
i said to myself "god i need to get railed asap lol" and then i burst into tears
#in my defense im also gonna be on my period like tomorrow#so im brought to tears easily#but the feeling is still true i rlly feel so alone and undesirable#i feel like no ones ever gonna desire my body the way i need to desired#im rlly sad#saintimental.txt
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was abt to make a silly post about how at this point i barter with the universe for a bf like "please id take care of him and walk him and dress him up", like a child begging for a pet, and then i think abt how as much as i want an actual pet I don't think im fit to ever have one of those either
#talkys#i want a partner i dont think i should have one for equal parts not thinking im worthy and also being too picky#and enjoying my alone time as much as the loneliness and skin hunger hurts me so badly every single day#after hearing with and interacting with others its like is it even worth it if ill still turn to my imagination...! like will it ever be#enough?#or i see ppl post about the Good and its like. id never be lucky enough to find someone who fit my needs and didnt hate me and#wanted to spend time with me it wld be so difficult. i will never be that lucky#but then wagh. ive talked about this before i hate falling into this pit bc ive always been undesirable so convincing myself of all this#feels very like. well yeah. it was never gonna happen anyway but good thing you finally found your Cope!#delete later#i cannot even make friends. the stars will never align. but all i want is my own guy to worship. belongs with me‚ the devotee#being unworthy but also being like. im a catch i can be as picky as i want (forgets hes ugly as fuck and kind of useless with it too)#whatever either way we are not going to make it
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Never fall for your friend
#wlw#sad lesbian#bollodrama#triste#sad#lgbt#i hate myself#i am undesirable#forever alone#asexual#hate#i hate her#hope she dies
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Sans: i 'befriended' your mom last night
Sans, accompanying Toriel to her first Pride Parade, both decked out in dozens and dozens of aro flags, approximately twelve seconds before guiding Kris to a car seat with a whoopie cushion: i literally told you i befriended her, kid. what'd you think i meant? wow. good to know you think so lowly of my extremely mature sense of humor. i'm hurt, kiddo. i'm actually in pain. i really thought we had something.
#s.oriel has some great content but that specific line is the bane of my existence#especially when i headcanon them both as extremely aro#i like how undertale's ending doesn't imply that her being single is a source of depression or stress when she's this old#nor does it imply she's alone because she's undesirable#both asgore and alphys seem pretty attracted to her#she's just...not interested. being single is her choice and it's portrayed a valid one#idk. where's all my aro toriel content#or toriel divorced from the context of being a wife/girlfriend/mother just in general#undertale salt#i guess
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There's just like a lot of things about me that make me feel like I'm profoundly unlovable
#GDKSGJSHSKHSKSHHELP I'M. I FULLY UNDERSTAND WHY I DROPPED IT BACK THEN#LIKE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO PUT IT INTO WORDS. ESP WITHOUT SOUNDING LIKE#bruh my brain came up w the phrase 'bootleg incel' anf i nearly choked on my drink about it GSKGSAHSGKS#BUT IT'S LIKE. 100% . I HAVE A LOT OF DEEPLY ROOTED INSECURITIES THAT JUST. FUCK ME OVER#and make me see shrimp colors like oh this is a very lovely story where one character is#deeply misunderstood and ostracized and feared and dehumanized and they've spent their entire life alone#and also she's a hot space girl. OBVIOUSLY THE GUY IS GONNA FALL IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT#LIKE. LIKE. and it is sooooooo love at first sight and it's super sweet but like THE SHRIMP COLORS. HURTING ME#and i KNOW. i'm the one who's being stupid about it. like objectively it's a fun story and it's cute and exciting#but man. i am just one evil concoction of a guy. there are a lot of things about me that make me feel unlovable.#not only am i undesirable i also just do it wrong. i fit into zero social conventions and i pay the price for it#SWAGEVER...............#anyways i do recommend sazan and comet girl if only for the artwork but also. it's cute#there's just something wrong with me. deeply.#still reading it btw i just needed to get all this junk out of my system LMFAO#THE. INADEQUACIES..............#from my art to just all of me. as a person.#normal guy.
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“batshit crazy” is a great expression bcs tbh i would be astounded if i ever saw batshit .. bro i’d be amazed from seeing a bat alone.. but a bat poop? now that’s crazy.
#though then crazy becomes redundant…#well i guess batshit becomes a source of emphasis#given saying batshit alone would provoke .. undesirable imagery
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i want him to want me. i dont care if he hurts me, i just want to believe that i can be wanted, and loved, and actually feel it. i want to believe i can be loved.
#i cant imagine it#i dont believe when my parents say they love me: how could they? they would be crazy to love me#and everyone else shows blatantly how little they care for me#i tell myself people must treat me this way because they assume i dont need to be worried about#that there is someone to care for me and love me#that i am not as utterly alone as i am#its ironic#we’re all so violently alone#not really#they may be alone. but they have company#in friends and in happiness#in people who care somewhat#i dont#i wish i could understand why#but im just#strange#unlovable#undesirable#weird and ugly#i do this to myself#it wouldnt matter if i disappeared one day#i want to go some place far away from here#maybe i should pursue accounting#i have no talent in it but atleast ill have no trouble finding a job#ill settle someplace far from here#and maybe ill be happy#just once#i wish i was different#i wish everything was different#i dont want to live in a hole anymore
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Poem: An ode to single people
certainly known i’ll always be lonely,
So I built my life to only want money
Accustomed to the sweet lie
Thinking it is worthy to die
Wrapped in a ball and chain,
Unable to fly
love is reserved for the worthy,
So basically, everyone else but me
Always out of reach
To grab and take the ecstasy we like to preach
a trap open to all
as we cant avoid...always fall
Something that all seems to be too late to teach
even though 2 people who come together as 1 may live the longest
those that walk the lonely road all their life are always the strongest
Difficult to accept I’ll never find love,
Lust, friendship and validation
as I was picked for answer E….none of the above
How I yearn for the bittersweet taste of death I’d say
As that would be the only thing in my life that would go my way
To all the women I sought after
But matched with another
I thank you for helping me to walk the assuring path of meeting the grim reaper
As I embrace my solo death
sad to know love won’t be the experience I get to have in my life before my final breath
Im still glad to have the minimal freedom Lasted before I left
To those who walk the empty road
i salute you walking with open wounds
As I unleash my woes
One last time before I go
#original poem#poems and poetry#poem#poetic#poetry#my writing#writing#creative writing#writers and poets#relationships#single#singledom#tragic#tragedy#feeling alone#alone#lonely#lonliness#unwanted#undesired#unlovable#undesirable
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#the truth is. over the years i really have tried to make the best of this loneliness#i've given into it and tried to extract as much beauty and joy out of it as i could.#and i truly do cherish it and the freedom it has given me to be myself completely#i just wish that i could actually have someone to see me that completely. and choose to love me for it#these days i feel such an aching for it that i might explode#like if i don't fall completely in mind-numbing all-consuming love with someone again i will literally die#the kind of love that takes over my entire soul. like knowing someone and feeling known by someone so completely#that it's like you were invisible before#i think i'm feeling that kind of all-consuming love for the desire to love itself. and i think that's worth treasuing too#but god. i've tried so hard to accept that i may never have it again and i keep failing#i just want someone to see this desperate aching inside me and choose to carry the weight of it with me#choose to build something magical out of it#but i end every night feeling undesired and unloveable and alone always alone
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at this point I'll most likely kill myself before I ever get the chance to experience romantic love or experience having a significant other that cares about me and vice versa.
apologies for my sudden outburst of depressive posts, but it's just... I'm so, so tired, so tired of thinking about this, wishing my anhedonia overtook fully my emotions and leaving me as an emotionless husk and a mere sack of meat and bones that does actions and nothing else.
why am I so naive to think that even beefy, kind men would ever notice me? hell, I even think that my fictional "husbands" wouldn't even like me for how boring and utterly worthless I am in general.
why didn't I kill myself before...?
i feel like I'm on the brink of going insane, and no amount of meds is going to stop me from killing myself in the future.
#cw suicidal thoughts#cw depression#cw depressive thoughts#tw depression#depression#introvert#anhedonia#cw self loathing#unlovable#undesirable#undeserving#gay#lgbtq#gay man#forever alone#doomed to die alone#unattractive#self hate#suicidal thoughts#longing#loneliness#rot in loneliness#honest thoughts#not viv related
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I've gone past my prime. Going into the rest of this year without a single ounce of romantic interest to show for my entire (almost) 22 years of existence while my 18 year old sister has had two guys show clear interest in her in the past year. If you need me I will be rotting away in a hole under the floorboards of my home.
#even worse. both of those guys ages would be more appropriate for me.#i am both that unlovable and that undesirable.#as my homegirl Charlotte once said#I'm twenty-(two) years old I've no money and no prospects. I'm already a burden to my parents and I'm frightened.#right now i would settle for a Mr Collins bc its being made pretty damn clear my future holds no Bingley's or Darcy's#im gonna be alone forrreeveerrrrr
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You cannot resist the whole of the military industrial complex, especially the US American sector, without holding compassion and sympathy for veterans.
#sentences that would explode too many young left leaning but deeply conservative pilled people on the spot#ignoring and silencing the 'undesirable leftovers' of war is 100% in alignment with the military's recruitment goals#the majority of vets are anti war and are the ones who warn us of the dangers and militant tactics best#and those who are pro war still deserve to be heard and kept safe for themselves and others JUST AS MUCH as the anti war vets#bc honestly there's pieces of how military propaganda works that you will not learn from those who it didn't work on (drafted or family#pressures made them enlist moreso than the actual messaging) and those who broke free of it#why does it take hold of folks? how does it keep them entrenched and loyal to the military cause? you can only really#learn those intricacies by respectfully observing and listening. not silencing.#it's hard to help people you disagree with on such a serious issue live safely and in peace but you have to. and you have to understand#that they were made to suffer by someone given inordinate amounts of authority and the goal to train to kill. the training alone has been#enough to send more recruits home with PTSD than you think. they're all sick and have been taken advantage of. yes even the assholes.#it does not require forgiveness nor agreement to learn from and to respect veterans#they've gone through something horrific and that's just what the complex wants. to throw them away. do Not help make throwing human#life away any easier for them.#my text posts
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tiny (not so tiny) rant/vent incoming!!
just had an epiphany today for this thing I’ve felt all my life but had never been able to articulate until today. The thing was: I am a woman and I love being a woman so why does it feel so wrong and dehumanizing to be “seen” as a woman by the world? I hadn’t been able to articulate my answer but then it came to meeee
After class, my classmate stopped me and wanted to talk to me about a presentation I did today in class (on Marx’s “The German Ideology” hehe <3). My classmate is super charismatic, super smart, and easy to talk to. Our chat was fun and insightful to me because he was actually talking to me about our readings from class, something I could chime in on and hold a conversation about. That’s pretty rare for me and I genuinely cherish these types of interactions, the kind that are engaging and interesting. Anyway, he begins telling me about a screenplay he wrote. I was genuinely interested in his creative process. It was fun and interesting until it no longer felt like a conversation. That’s when I started to feel that heavy cloud of realization come over me. When I left our conversation, I felt so empty. I felt drained and frustrated - a feeling I’ve had many times before. But I didn’t know why I felt this way. He was actually engaging with me, why did it feel so hollow despite that? It finally clicked but it wouldn’t have clicked if I hadn’t had another interaction to compare it to that I’d had just a few days ago. I compared the way I felt after this interaction with the way I felt after a meeting I had with my professor (who teaches the course my classmate and I met in). The main difference between my interaction with this professor (and most of the other women in my life) is that it never feels like my identity as a woman, my being a woman, is their primary focus. When I talk to her, I feel seen and I feel heard. When I talk to my friends, both men and women but especially with women, I never have to think about the different aspects of my identity. I’m just a person and they’re just a person having a shared moment. But in my conversations with men, there’s a brief moment in which I am forced to acknowledge my identity precisely because of the way they’re interacting with me. My being a women is at the forefront of this interaction and that is exactly what/who they’re engaging with. My personhood is only secondary to that. Then I know that the reason I feel so horrible after this is because I feel like an object. I feel like a vessel for these men to espouse their ideas, a medium for them to be heard and understood. Their attraction to me (or whatever it is) precedes their interest in me as a person. Most interactions with men leave me feeling this way - more like an object or a vessel and less like a person. Whereas I think I’m having a pretty cool conversation with a classmate, to them it’s this performative action wherein they’re not just talking to someone, but specifically to a girl/woman/whatever and it’s driving their interest. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to have a relationship with a man, although I know I’m capable of it. I know what it feels like and what it looks like when someone just sees you as a person, as a friend and sees past the physical. I think I care about the essence of who I am too much, what my heart is made of and what my thoughts consist of to settle for someone who just sees the physical boundaries of my existence. Ahhhh I am so tired, and I didn’t think this would be so long but it feels soooo good to be able to articulate this.
#and no longer being too intimidated to critique the way men interact with me#no longer afraid of dying alone because of men seeing me as ‘undesirable’ and ridding myself of the desire to be desirable to men
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