#undesirable and alone

[chillabuse]

I can’t let anything good stay in my life !

[exhelluvafan]

I'm never going to reach the day that someone genuinely and romantically says "I love you" ever, am I...?

[looserslore]

Not pretty enough to deserve love.

[saintimental]

i just got horny because of something someone said, and then i immediately got sad and i started crying because i feel so alone.

i said to myself "god i need to get railed asap lol" and then i burst into tears

[hangmanapologist]

I really thought i was doing well the last week but i have been uncontrollably crying since i left work

[skunkes]

was abt to make a silly post about how at this point i barter with the universe for a bf like "please id take care of him and walk him and dress him up", like a child begging for a pet, and then i think abt how as much as i want an actual pet I don't think im fit to ever have one of those either

[justatorturedpoet]

Never fall for your friend

[ithinkofnealcassady]

[stainedglassthreads]

Sans: i 'befriended' your mom last night

Sans, accompanying Toriel to her first Pride Parade, both decked out in dozens and dozens of aro flags, approximately twelve seconds before guiding Kris to a car seat with a whoopie cushion: i literally told you i befriended her, kid. what'd you think i meant? wow. good to know you think so lowly of my extremely mature sense of humor. i'm hurt, kiddo. i'm actually in pain. i really thought we had something.

[moe-broey]

There's just like a lot of things about me that make me feel like I'm profoundly unlovable

[thefinestbrandofeefa]

“batshit crazy” is a great expression bcs tbh i would be astounded if i ever saw batshit .. bro i’d be amazed from seeing a bat alone.. but a bat poop? now that’s crazy.

[exhelluvafan]

vent post below

at this point I'll most likely kill myself before I ever get the chance to experience romantic love or experience having a significant other that cares about me and vice versa.

apologies for my sudden outburst of depressive posts, but it's just... I'm so, so tired, so tired of thinking about this, wishing my anhedonia overtook fully my emotions and leaving me as an emotionless husk and a mere sack of meat and bones that does actions and nothing else.

why am I so naive to think that even beefy, kind men would ever notice me? hell, I even think that my fictional "husbands" wouldn't even like me for how boring and utterly worthless I am in general.

why didn't I kill myself before...?

i feel like I'm on the brink of going insane, and no amount of meds is going to stop me from killing myself in the future.

[nachtnabelle]

i want him to want me. i dont care if he hurts me, i just want to believe that i can be wanted, and loved, and actually feel it. i want to believe i can be loved.

[yotko97]

Poem: An ode to single people

certainly known i’ll always be lonely,

So I built my life to only want money

Accustomed to the sweet lie

Thinking it is worthy to die

Wrapped in a ball and chain,

Unable to fly

love is reserved for the worthy,

So basically, everyone else but me

Always out of reach

To grab and take the ecstasy we like to preach

a trap open to all

as we cant avoid...always fall

Something that all seems to be too late to teach

even though 2 people who come together as 1 may live the longest

those that walk the lonely road all their life are always the strongest

Difficult to accept I’ll never find love,

Lust, friendship and validation

as I was picked for answer E….none of the above

How I yearn for the bittersweet taste of death I’d say

As that would be the only thing in my life that would go my way

To all the women I sought after

But matched with another

I thank you for helping me to walk the assuring path of meeting the grim reaper

As I embrace my solo death

sad to know love won’t be the experience I get to have in my life before my final breath

Im still glad to have the minimal freedom Lasted before I left

To those who walk the empty road

i salute you walking with open wounds

As I unleash my woes

One last time before I go

[archiveofyearning]

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[bluebellhairpin]

I've gone past my prime. Going into the rest of this year without a single ounce of romantic interest to show for my entire (almost) 22 years of existence while my 18 year old sister has had two guys show clear interest in her in the past year. If you need me I will be rotting away in a hole under the floorboards of my home.